Letters from Sing Sing - Ep. 6: Friendship

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Follow and listen on Apple Podcasts. Today is my son's 40th birthday, which I didn't think I would be spending it on a visit with him in jail, but I usually try to spend his birthday with him.
It's November 11th, 2015. JJ's mom, Maria, is driving to see him at Sing Sing.
We're lucky this year. He has a visit today.
So I'm on my way to visit him and wish him a happy birthday. I just wish it was under different circumstances, but we'll just keep pushing forth.
It's been one year since J.J. sent me that devastating letter,

the one he'd written at four in the morning in despair

after finding out a judge had denied his request for a hearing.

That letter was a turning point for me.

I knew that something had changed in my relationship with J.J.

When I read it, I was afraid for him.

My Dateline story about J.J. had lawyers filed an appeal.
As J.J. waited, time was passing.
By his 40th birthday, he'd been locked up for nearly 18 years. Maria says over time, it's gotten harder to visit him.
Actually, my visits have gotten less and less. I don't like seeing him there.
He's gotten old. And every time I see him, it hurts.
and when I think about the fact that he's gotten old. And every time I see him, it hurts.

And when I think about the fact that he's lost all those years,

that he's never going to get that back.

I try not to think about that, but it does come into my mind, especially on his birthday. By now, I've known JJ for 13 years.
We've grown closer. We've both grown older, too.
I've lost a little hair. His goatee has gone a little gray.
Turning 40 in prison only serves to remind me of how many years I've lost. My salvation, my ability to survive this ordeal has basically been based off the fact that I've tucked away.
I've tucked away a lot of pain and suffering. I call it a reservoir of pain and I try to numb myself to

the situation because I know I have no choice but to survive it. No matter what it is that comes my way, I have to survive it.
And turning 40 reminds me that I'm getting older and I wonder how many years I got left in this world. My father died at 49 and I'm still locked up.
Every year I say you're going home this is your year.

Every year I still don't know when I'm going home.

I'm Dan Slepian and this is Letters from Sing Sing. Episode 6.
Friendship. From the moment I met J.J.
all, one thing was clear to me. Not only was he focused on fighting his case, he was determined to make something of his life.
And in prison, it's not an easy thing to do. You know, prison is designed in a way that individuals are supposed to just waste their time.
It's like every day it's come to the yard, lift some weights, run around the yard, walk around the yard, talk about nonsense. So, you know, like it was monotonous.
And that was JJ's life in the first couple of years after he was locked up. Then one day, a group of older men approached him in the yard.
They had a proposition. Come to the school building.
A lot of these older guys, their whole mentality was, get these guys out of the yard because there's nothing good happening in the yard. And so it started with, like, a VCR and a TV in a room.
It was like, you guys can watch movies.

The only thing is, if you're going to watch a movie, you have to write about it.

The older guys were proposing movie nights, but with a required writing assignment.

And that changed everything for JJ.

And so I had developed a reputation.

People started to say, listen, that kid right there knows how to write.

JJ says other men in the prison started to notice him. Some of the younger ones wanted help with their writing.
But the more senior guys, the ones who are active in organizations on the inside, asked JJ to come to their meetings. So JJ got more involved in the prison's programs.
I remember on one of my visits back in 2008, he told me about some of the things he was working on, like starting volunteer programs, organizing fundraisers. We donated $1,200 for back-to-school supplies where the kids can come up, and they're actually going to be coming up starting this weekend, and they get a book bag with a bunch of supplies in it to try to help the families that come up here with their children.
This was for the annual toy drive for Christmas. We buy toys for the children to come up on the visits.
What does it do for you right here? Well, it gives me the opportunity to help you, you know, to give back. J.J.
was even elected by the prison's population to speak for them when issues came up, which meant he began to work closely with the man who runs Sing Sing. He was a natural leader, and so he stood out right away.
That's Superintendent Michael Capra. He's been in charge of Sing Sing for more than a decade.
He says he immediately noticed something about JJ. Here's the guy who was, kind of reminds you of a CEO right from the beginning, right? There's a certain air about him, the way he carries himself, the way he speaks.
He's very clear on what he's thinking about, but he also reads the room very well, understands who he is. He stepped out as like a young professional who was, you know, an executive in a company.
And that's kind of how J.J. began to operate inside the prison.
Responsibility brings a sense of purpose. Now it's not, I'm just waking up every day in a cage, looking out in the yard, and no, I got to go and see this guy in the yard, so I'm trying to help him.
But it also was an escape for me. While I'm focusing on everybody else, I don't have to focus on what I'm going through.
I don't have to deal with the suffering, the trauma of being incarcerated for a crime I didn't commit. But J.J.
was surrounded by men who did commit crimes, and he got to know them. Many felt remorse for what they'd done.
J.J. realized their stories could help people on the outside.
So he helped

create a group with 10 of them to talk about the pain they'd caused, the people they'd hurt. They wanted to redefine what it meant to pay a debt to society.
Doing time in prison is doing nothing to give back to your community. There is no reparations in that, right?

But doing something for your community,

using your experience, your living... to give back to your community.
There is no reparations in that, right?

But doing something for your community,

using your experience, your lived experience,

using your hindsight and sharing your insight to provide foresight for the future

and the safety of our children.

So JJ and the group began to work with Superintendent Capra.

They wanted to make a video to discourage kids from following in their footsteps.

But Sing Sing is a maximum security prison, not a production company.

They needed help.

The superintendent had seen my Dateline special on JJ, so he called me.

And I told you, hey, listen, I needed a consultant.

You know, we talked for a while and you were like, I am in this 1000%. I'm doing this.
I'm going to bring a team with me. And I told you, hey, listen, I needed a consultant.
You know, we talked for a while, and you were like, I am in this 1,000%. I'm doing this.
I'm going to bring a team with me. And that's what I did.
I loved the sound of the project, but honestly, I had another motive. I wanted to keep JJ's spirits up while I continued to look into his case.
I enlisted the help of a couple of colleagues, and we all volunteered to make a short video.

We set up a camera in an empty room, and one by one, the incarcerated men went in and started to talk to the lens.

I shot my friend six times because I was angry.

I know how it feels to have destroyed a family.

I know how it feels to have destroyed a family. I know how it feels to have eliminated a name.
You can't make it right. That video eventually grew into a program inside the prison called Voices from Within.
J.J. was the group's leader.
We got to get to the younger guys. It's about reestablishing a new culture.
Believe it or not, a lot of the culture out there emanated from prison. Those kids that are out there cutting each other's faces, that started in here.
J.J. ran the meetings.
And Superintendent Capra helped spread the message of Voices from Within to the rest of the prison's population. This is what we're doing.
Guys that care, men that want to make a difference, men that don't have a negative agenda, want to give back to their own peer group, you guys. The point of it is that everybody can be successful as just being a success for who we are, doing the right thing, period, and being able to be man enough to step up and say, that is not cool.
That ain't right. We're not doing that.
We're going to do this. But to JJ, the accomplishment he was most proud of was getting an education.
Sing Sing has a college program, something not all prisons offer.

It's run by a non-profit called Hudson Link for Higher Education.

And in 2014,

J.J. graduated with a bachelor's

degree in behavioral science.

The commencement

took place in the prison's visiting room.

J.J. and 25 other

graduates wore caps and gowns over

their green prison pants.

His mom, Maria, was there with his younger son, Jacob, and I was there, too, with my camera. There were special guests like Harry Belafonte, and the commencement speaker was Whoopi Goldberg.
Unless you know the past, you're doomed to repeat it. That's right.
You know, it will happen. So now here you all are, and you're being encouraged to go out into your communities.

But you know what you're walking into.

Because you have

to think back to who you were.

Because who you were

when you came here is not who you are

when you're leaving. And that's

really the journey.

Then they handed

out the diplomas.

John Adrian Blasquez. then they handed out the diplomas i was so proud of jj that day i had such respect for what he'd achieved despite everything he'd faced everything he'd gone through if were in his place, I think I would have lost my mind.

But over the years, I'd seen how strong and resilient JJ was.

We'd become true friends.

That's not something I ever expected to happen,

getting this close with someone I'd done a story about.

This was new territory for me.

As a journalist, I needed to be careful. In my mind, I wasn't advocating for J.J.
I was simply following the facts. I was advocating for the truth.
J.J. knew that.
I said it to him a hundred times. And while he continued to fight his own case, J.J.
told me about other men who were convicted of murder, who he believed were innocent. He introduced me to three of them and encouraged me to look into their cases.
And I did. I wound up doing Dateline stories on each of those men.
All of them were ultimately exonerated. Eric Glisson was one of them.
I was with him the moment he was released. It's like jumping up out of a coffin and walking.
You know, it's like being read your last rites. And all of a sudden, a miracle happens.
But J.J., the guy who led me to Eric and the other men, who helped free them, he remained locked up. When I visited him at his cell one time, he showed me news clippings that he taped to the wall.
Show me who everybody is. It's the wall of shame.
That's all the people who had to spend time in prison for crimes they didn't commit. This is Eric Glisson.
Wrongfully convicted, 17 years. Came out of the Bronx.
Richard Rosario, 20 years, wrongfully convicted, also in the Bronx. Did a story on him called Conviction, just like my documentary.
So I wake up every day and I look at this. And it's what drives me to keep going.
Because while I may not be able to get my freedom through this process there have been others that we've been able to help and I guess that's a part of my purpose. How does it feel to look at that wall knowing that you're still here? There's no way to deal with this.
I mean, it's a very painful experience.

That's where my hope lies.

J.J. hoped that he'd soon be free, too.

That the New York State Supreme Court would finally grant him the hearing that he'd been asking for for years.

In September 2016, two years after J.J.'s graduation, his lawyers Celia Gordon and Bob Gottlieb got the answer. Last week, after many months of waiting, we received word that the appellate division denied our motion, denied the appeal.
So the news is lousy, to say the least. Once again, J.J.
had been denied a hearing. The decision was unanimous.
The judges didn't buy what the eyewitnesses, Augustus Brown and Philip Jones, had said, that they knew J.J. was the wrong man.
The court wrote, quote, The alleged recantations by two of the four eyewitnesses were shown to be highly suspect. The opinion also addressed Mustafa in Seattle, the man I confronted outside his house, the one that two women said had confessed to them.
The court wrote, simply put, there is nothing either trustworthy or reliable about the purported confession attributed to Mustafa, and that it, quote, was refuted by the overwhelming evidence the people unearthed in their reinvestigation of the crime. I'd also had doubts about Mustafa, but to me, the main issue was, did JJ commit this crime? Now, unless new evidence surfaced, JJ was at the end of his legal road.
Bob and Celia were devastated. Knowing that this is the end of the line, legally speaking, it was so hard to read that decision.
I don't have words. I don't have words for that.
You know, this is John Adrian's life. I firmly believe that someday, somehow, when you least expect it, something is going to break.
Someday justice is going to be done and I only hope that I'm going to be alive when that day comes. You have a prepaid call from John Adrian, an inmate at Sing Sing.
JJ called from Sing Sing after hearing the news. I'm just coming to terms with realizing the effects of the court decision is having on me.
It's like, you know, they don't want to hear the facts. They don't even want to take the opportunity to dig deeper into the facts by just simply holding a hearing I just don't know how much more of this I can take it's been two decades I mean at this point speaking to my attorneys they're they're baffled by what's next it took me 19 years to get where I'm at today what am I supposed to do another 19 years to try to figure out where we went wrong what we haven't uncovered already how can we uncover something new how am I supposed to pull this off if I'm locked up in a I live in a cage I don't know I just don't know What's next what's next, finishing my time?

I've been sentenced to life

I don't know what's next

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After JJ's appeal was denied in 2016, I began speaking with him several times a week and rarely did a month go by without a visit. We'd have long talks about his case and his work, and we talked a lot about his family, how much he missed his boys, how much it hurt to be separated from them.

June 26, 2009. I haven't told anyone this, Dan, but I've been waking up in the middle of the night

worried about my son. Almost a decade earlier, J.J.
had written me letters about how concerned he was that his son John would get caught up in the system. I know my son is trouble-bound.
He is a good child with a pretty solid foundation of principles and morals, yet he is vulnerable in an environment that makes statistics out of our youth. In a way, J.J.
had predicted the future. I'd spoken with John when he was 16, when he was at a court-ordered facility for kids who got in trouble with the law.
Two years later, John got into more trouble. He was convicted of attempted robbery and spent two years in prison.
Now, John was 23 and on parole. He'd been working, driving a delivery truck, trying to make ends meet.
Then one day, Maria called to tell me that he had gotten into another situation and was in danger of getting locked up again. John was hiding out in a motel room, just like his dad had all those years ago.
Maria urged John to get in touch with me, and he did. He texted me to come over.
So I'm on my way to see John Adrian Jr. now.
He's had some problems. You know, when he was a kid, when he was little, he used to say how he didn't like to go visit his dad at Sing Sing because he didn't like prisons.
He never wanted to end up in jail. And as he got older, I think he got sucked into a life that maybe he wouldn't have had his dad been around.
He got in trouble with the law and he's already been to jail himself. So I just drove an hour to get here and I'm going to go talk to him.
I pull up to a rundown motel next to a gas station.

Hello?

Hey, Jay.

Yeah?

What room are you in?

I'm in 35.

All right, I'm parking right out front, okay?

All right.

All right, come and open the door.

You look so stressed, man.

John is sitting on the edge of the bed.

The room is full of smoke.

An old square TV is flickering in the background,

but he isn't watching it.

His head is down. It just looks lost.
So what have you just been doing? Smoking and sleeping? Yeah, not really sleeping. Just like resting my body.
This is tricky for me. I've known John since he was a little kid.
I've watched him grow up. I care about him and I want him to be okay.
But as a journalist, I've also been documenting his life for years. So with John's consent, I record our conversation.
Why don't you start with what happened last week? It was difficult. I just came back from a long trip.
I'm just, like, at the house, coming back from this trip. Somebody called me, and it was It was like one of my friends had got robbed.
John tells me his story, how one of his friends was robbed and thought he knew the guy who did it. So John and a few others went to get the money back.
Except he says it was a setup. Someone called the police and John was arrested for burglary.
He spent about a week in jail. So you got out of jail four days ago?

Yes.

Getting arrested was a violation of John's parole.

So now he's facing another state prison sentence.

I mean, I have seven months of parole left,

but I just came out of jail on Monday.

Like, I just don't want to go right back right now.

It's too much.

Why are you here?

In this room?

Just to get away from everything.

Just do as I please for the moment.

What's your plan?

Not too sure yet.

That's another reason for being here.

To make one.

Well, have you thought it through?

Not yet.

Well, let's do that, okay?

Let's start doing that together.

Let's start thinking this through.

I want you to just feel free to be honest with me, too.

You know what I mean?

I'm not here to pass any

judgment at all no matter what happens the fact that you were arrested last week is a violation of parole let's just talk about your real options let's deal with what's a fact the fact is what Your parole officer said you need to come in, right?

So now what are your options?

Tell them to me option one to go there okay option two to not go what happens if you go let's go down that road for a minute i'll just be sitting in the rock and county jail for how long worst case scenario just do seven months what's the best possible thing that could happen if you turn yourself in hmm I do four months what was option? Yeah. Okay, so let's go down that road.
What happens there? So you keep moving around, right? How is that life look? I don't know. I need to be able to get in a good state of mind.

I just can't go right back to jail.

It's like, it's just too much.

Does it feel good to live like this?

On the run?

Hiding?

It doesn't feel good.

But I know I can get some things done.

Like what?

I can work. Not if there's a warrant out for your arrest.
You're 23? Yup. As a child, I wanted to...
I wanted to be this age. I was trying to grow up too fast.
Now that I'm here, it's just like, whatever. Just a lot going through my mind.
I'm really trying to figure out what I'm gonna do. But until I figure that out, I know that I'm just going to stay here.

You know what?

You know I talked to your dad. You know that?

And rarely is there a time when I visit him that we talk that he doesn't tell me how much he loves you. I was with your dad on your birthday.
And you know what he said to me? My son is 23 years old today. I turned 23 in prison.
He doesn't want to see you go down this path. You know what he would say?

He would say, I love him no matter what,

and I'm going to be there for him no matter what he does.

He knows there's a future for you.

And he also knows that you've been robbed of him.

It makes your burden that much harder.

It makes your fight that much harder, right?

I've watched you grow up.

Thank you. It makes your fight that much harder, right?

I've watched you grow up.

And it just...

must be very, very difficult for you.

So I don't want to pretend that I know what it's like to be you.

Or that I know what the right decision for you is.

You've got to do that for yourself.

I'm sorry, man.

I'm sorry.

I give John a hug.

He's kind of in a daze.

He's hearing me, but I don't know if it's registering or if I'm even helping.

I'm sorry that you're going through all this, right?

Yeah.

Tough choices, right?

Yep.

I head back to my car.

And I sit there for a few minutes, letting it all sink in. Then my phone rings.
You have a prepaid call from... John Adrian.
An inmate at Sinsing, a New York State Correctional Facility. If you wish to accept and pay for this call, Hey Just got off the phone my mother she told me to were together, you know, I spoke to him probably more than an hour And I did my best to try to not judge him and Not to give him any advice but to help him think through all of the options that he has before him.

You know, and I told him that,

you know what your father would say right now.

And he said, what?

I said, no matter what you do, he's going to love you.

No matter what you do, he's going to support you.

So that's what I said on your behalf to him. Well, I thank you for that.
He's going to have to make decisions, right? Yeah, definitely. It's the collateral damage.
Since he was 15, he's been going in and out of happening with his son,

especially because I knew there was nothing he could do about it.

JJ had predicted this.

He told me about the research on children of incarcerated parents.

He knew how they face a host of hardships,

a higher risk of financial instability, emotional stress, trauma. Sometimes

that can lead to making bad decisions. John didn't turn himself in after I spoke with him in that

motel room. Police caught up with him months later.
He was sent back to prison to serve two and a half

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See guarantee details at TurboTax.com slash guarantees. It had been 15 years since I received that first letter from J.J.
asking me to look into his case.

And despite all that I'd found since then, he was still in prison.

What made this so hard for me to understand was that, from my read,

prosecutors hadn't really been evaluating whether or not J.J. was the gunman.

In their court filings, it seemed to me their position was that J.J.'s trial had been fair, that his constitutional rights had not been violated, that their conviction was a solid one. The only chance J.J.
now had to get a judge to even listen again would be if he found new evidence that hadn't been available at the time of his trial. And it would have to be a big deal.
There would need to be a reasonable probability that the new evidence would have led to a more favorable verdict for J.J. After all these years, that was a tall order.
Still, I figured there had to be something new out there. I simply refused to accept that the law could keep J.J.
locked up when, to me, there was so much evidence of his innocence. So I got back to work.
I followed up on random leads I'd never explored, chased down old ones, reviewed notes, and court filings. One day, I even walked the streets of Harlem looking for a guy mentioned by one of the eyewitnesses.
And there was something else I wanted to check. Before a trial, prosecutors have a legal obligation to turn over any documents to the defense that might be relevant to their case.
But it was up to the DA's office to determine what was relevant. In J.J.'s case, his lawyers asked the DA's office for copies of all of the police reports, more than 100 of them.
But prosecutors responded with a letter saying they'd decided to withhold dozens of those reports. They said that they weren't material to JJ's defense.
But I started to wonder, what if there was something important in those reports? For months, I worked to get my hands on them. I can't say how I did it without revealing sources, but one day I finally got them.
It's March 21st, 2017, 15 years after I started this investigation. And I get home last night and there's this big yellow envelope in my mailbox.
And inside are all of the police reports from jj's case one of those police reports number 93 felt like a bombshell it was an interview that a detective had done with the father of derry daniels jj's alleged accomplice the man with the duct tape that interview took place the day before before J.J.'s name first came up in the investigation. According to Police Report 93, Daniel's father said his son Derry had come over to his apartment the night before the murder.
Derry had a friend with him, someone he owed money to. The father told the detective he didn't let that friend in, and he described the friend as a light-skinned black man with braids.
The exact description of the shooter many of the eyewitnesses gave police. The father even said he could identify that friend.
Think about it. This is the father of J.J.'s alleged accomplice.
Saying his son showed up the night before the murder with a man who matched the original description of the shooter. And the father tells police he can ID the guy.
The next day, J.J.'s photo was picked out by Augustus Brown, the key eyewitness. But there's no record of anyone ever going back to speak with Derry Daniels' father, not even to check if J.J.
was that friend. I drove over to Sing Sing to tell J.J.
what I'd found. That's 7th building, right, to the left? A guard leads me to J.J.'s cell.
He's sitting on his bed. I sit across from him.
So here I am. We're cramped in here.
You're starting to get a feel for it. How does it feel for you to be inside of a cell? It's small.
What am I sitting on your toilet, right? I'm sitting on my toilet. My knees are touching the bed.
We can reach both sides just by standing up and reaching across. So your latest appeal was denied.
Yeah. Now, I'm not a lawyer.
And what I'm going to tell you, I don't want you to talk about it on the phone right now, I don't want you to talk to anybody else about it, until it plays itself out to see what happens.

But I've seen some of the police reports that were missing. It turns out that I have now seen an interview with Derry Daniel's father.

That interview was done on the 29th of January, which was two days after the murder. In the narrative of the report, the father said that on Monday night at 5 p.m., which was 19 hours before the murder or so,

that Derry had come over to his apartment with a friend that he owed money to.

And the father described the friend as a light-skinned black man with braids

and said he could identify him. Why am I finally shot 20 years later? There's no justice in this justice system.
It's not justice. It's justice system.
Lost 20 years of my life, man. What does it matter? I've got five years left for the sentence that they gave me.
I'm so numb at this point that I can do it. I spent half my life in prison

because people want to hold back information.

Because people want to continue to perpetuate lies.

I didn't deserve this.

My children didn't deserve this.

My mother didn't deserve this. People destroyed my life, destroyed my family, and that's time we can't get back.
My children, my oldest son is the age that I was when I came to prison. He was three years old when I left him.
My youngest son doesn't even know what it is to wake up to a father. He was a month old.
These people stole my life from me. There's nothing that can be done to make this right.
Even releasing me tomorrow doesn't make it right. It'll never hurt any less.
Do any of them prosecutors ever think about that? When they destroy our lives? Somebody had this information. Why was it withheld? This is not a mistake, Dan.
They know I'm innocent. My heart was breaking for J.J.

What he said was true.

There was nothing that could change the fact that he spent nearly 20 years in prison.

But this police report, Report 93, could mean a new chance at getting out.

When J.J.'s lawyers saw the report, they were outraged it had been withheld.

To them, it was clear evidence that J.J.'s constitutional rights had been violated. They immediately filed another motion for a hearing.
And this time, it was granted. J.J.
would finally be back in court. Next time.
Your Honor, it is not too much to ask. How in heaven's name was DD-593 not turned over? How did the people not turn it over to the defense? The system that we're up against is...
I don't even know how to explain that, man. It's dark, it's ugly, it's disgusting, but it's powerful.
When I look at my son and I find him to be so strong, I say to him, how do you do that? I couldn't do it. In my 40 years of service, this is one of the more exciting times in my whole entire life.
Why is it so hard? Because I know he doesn't belong here. Letters from Sing Sing was written and produced by Preeti Varathon, Rob Allen, and me.
Our associate producer is Rachel Yang. Our story editor is Jennifer Gorin.
Original score by Christopher Scullion, Robert Reale, and Four Elements Music. Sound design by Cedric Wilson.

Fact-checking by Joseph Frischmuth.

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