#425 – Andrew Callaghan: Channel 5, Gonzo, QAnon, O-Block, Politics & Alex Jones

Speaker 1 following is a conversation with Andrew Calligan, host of Channel 5 on YouTube, where he does gonzo-style interviews with fascinating humans at the edges of society.

Speaker 1 The so-called vagrants, vagabonds, runaways, outlaws, from QAnon adherents to fish heads to O block residents and much more.

Speaker 1 He created the documentary that I highly recommend called This Place Rules on the undercurrents that led to the January 6th Capitol riots.

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And now, dear friends, here's Andrew Calgan.

Speaker 1 I tried to color match you, though. Got the black and white going.
I went to Walmart before this and got the Wrangler shirt with the Texas Longhorns T. Is that where you shop? Walmart?

Speaker 1 Generally, yeah. I'm a Target man myself.
There's no way you get those suits from Target. So you're saying it's a nice way to compliment a suit.
I think you go men's warehouse, if not further.

Speaker 1 I think you would be wrong. You go further.
No, the other direction. You got that from Target? Not Target.
I was joking about Target. I like Walmart better.
It just felt like a funny thing to say.

Speaker 1 No, it was funny. The most expensive thing I own is this watch, and it was given to me as a gift.
Yeah. When I was on tour, I had these $2,700 Cartier glasses that I got for a lot of money.
$2,700.

Speaker 1 Like sunglasses? Yeah, but they're really embarrassing.

Speaker 1 But I was on tour, so I just felt like I could do anything as far as fashion choices. But looking back at pictures from myself in that era, I'm like, God.

Speaker 1 So that was the symbol of the fame got to your head. I think so, yeah.
I think fame getting to your head. If you spend more than 100 bucks on sunglasses, you've officially gone off the devil.

Speaker 1 You've crossed the line. Totally.
And that's where you go back to Walmart to humble yourself. I really love Walmart.

Speaker 1 In fact, I moved to Austin because i was at walmart and a lady said that i look handsome in a suit

Speaker 1 and i was like that's it i love this place she just said it for no reason whatsoever this older lady just kind of looked at me and with this like genuine sweetness just said oh you look handsome she's she's not wrong man thank you that's part of your whole swag though yeah the suit thing yep anyway uh

Speaker 1 What was the first, if you remember, first recorded interview you did?

Speaker 1 Well, Well, like my first grade teacher, Mrs. Claudia,

Speaker 1 this is back in the day, like I was telling you, we just asked her about her life in Columbia and stuff like that. But I didn't really get into actual journalism until my ninth grade year.

Speaker 1 I had no idea I had an interest in it. Before then, I wanted to be a rapper.
It was all about hip-hop and meditation and picking psilocybin mushrooms and public parks and stuff like that.

Speaker 1 That's what I was into. That's a lot.
Psilocybin, meditation, rap, public parks. Yeah, I was making like conscious rap music.

Speaker 1 I was to the point where I had like four dream catchers hanging above my bed, Alex Gray painting on the wall, tapestry on the ceiling, just scribbling rhymes down all the time.

Speaker 1 So you said somewhere that you sucked at school. Okay, well, let me, let's step back a little bit.
So I had this amazing journalism course in ninth grade.

Speaker 1 I went to an alternative high school, and the teacher was named Calvin Shaw. And he was just like,

Speaker 1 I ended up taking his class all four years, and he used to let me actually leave school. Like,

Speaker 1 I didn't like going to school. So he'd let me basically go around Seattle and do different interviews with people as long as I could come back by the end of the day and write a story for his class.

Speaker 1 And he'd mark me as present. So the first article that I wrote was about the Silk Road and the deep web.

Speaker 1 Because, you know,

Speaker 1 as a ninth grader, when I discovered the hidden wiki, I thought that I was like. really tapping into like the the most secret society elite level black market in the world.

Speaker 1 And so if you remember, they had that hidden wiki link that was like, hire a hitman, you know, and so I messaged them and I was like, all right, you know, I want to get someone killed at my school.

Speaker 1 Like, how much is it going to cost me? And I published my interview with the hidden wiki hitman, who was probably a Fed or something, but who knows?

Speaker 1 And that my first article was called like, Inside the Deep Web, A Conversation with a Hitman. That's nice.
Yeah. I mean, you're fearless even then.
I mean, I was hiding behind a Tor browser.

Speaker 1 So there's not much fear to be had. Oh, so it was anonymous.
It was anonymous, but I did publish it under my name. So you're right.
I

Speaker 1 could have been in danger. I also saw that you said you took too many shrooms when you were young, and that led you to have hallucinogen persisting perception disorder, HPPD.

Speaker 1 Can you explain what this is? Well, that condition is classified by persistent visual snow, floaters, morphing objects. Like, I see them right now.
I see them all the time.

Speaker 1 The snow is in the room. The snow is definitely in the room.
It's all over you. And

Speaker 1 basically,

Speaker 1 it wasn't that I took too many shrooms. I think that it was I I took, I took about an eighth of semi-essence mushrooms, which are the ones that come from the earth instead of cow shit.

Speaker 1 And I took an eighth of those at my friend Toby's house,

Speaker 1 which is a normal amount, but I was in eighth grade. So I woke up the next morning with these extreme, you know, visual distortions.
And I thought that it would go away.

Speaker 1 I tried to make it go away, but there was, there's really no cure for HPPD. It's a lifelong condition.
So it's just a matter of dealing with it and realizing that it is only visual.

Speaker 1 So when people ask ask me, hey, I have HPPD, how do I cope with it?

Speaker 1 I say, remember that every other sense that you have, what you can hear, what you can taste, you know, your feet on the ground, you're still on earth. You're still here.

Speaker 1 Well, you said it's only visual.

Speaker 1 And yes, gratitude for being alive at all.

Speaker 1 It's great. But you said that this led you into some dark psychological places like depersonalization disorder.
Yeah. Depersonalization is the feeling that you are not real,

Speaker 1 but that reality still exists.

Speaker 1 Derealization is the idea that reality itself is an illusion created by your mind and that you're the only person alive, and that everything that your brain is projecting to your visual cortex is a lie and that you're the only living human being.

Speaker 1 Both are pretty intense. HPPD creates both of those things.

Speaker 1 And so when I've talked to people who have the condition, it's really either or, but more than 70% of people with HPPD fall into either category. They're both coping mechanisms for the,

Speaker 1 I don't know what really happens. I talked to a researcher once named Dr.
Abraham. He lives in upstate New York.
He's the leading scientists when it comes to HPPD research.

Speaker 1 He's the only one who actually seems to care about finding a cure. And the only known treatment right now is alcohol and benzodiaphenes.
That's not good. Right.

Speaker 1 So alcoholism, something that came into my life pretty early. alcohol abuse as a result of that experience because that helps with the visual symptoms, makes some of the static go away.
Man.

Speaker 1 Never tried benzos, though. So so can you explain to me where in that spectrum you are?

Speaker 1 So, do you sometimes have a sense that you're not real? Sometimes something else is not real? Like, the reality is not real? Yeah, I experience it all the time, you know.

Speaker 1 But, like I said, my job helps with that because I get to feel like, you know, when you seek out extremes to a certain extent and you put yourself on the front lines of intense events, whether it be politically or socially, or just dive into deep fringe subcultures, you get this feeling that you're real.

Speaker 1 And being filmed is also a confirmation, if you can look at the MP4 file, that you're in fact living here on Earth. Confirming that you were in it with reality by watching yourself on video.
Exactly.

Speaker 1 So is that basically the engine behind all the extreme interviews you've done? Well, I got HPPD around the same time that I began this journalism course in ninth grade.

Speaker 1 So I sort of always used journalism as a therapeutic mechanism to deal with some of these symptoms, especially depersonalization. There's some pretty good illustrations of what it feels like.

Speaker 1 Kind of feels like you're trapped behind your eyes or that you're just this like nebulous soul that's trapped in a flesh suit that you're not really a part of.

Speaker 1 You're sort of puppeteering a flesh and bone skin suit. Trapped or just the ability to step outside of yourself? You feel like your soul is not something that is connected to your body.

Speaker 1 It's something living in your head. It's really hard to explain to people who haven't gone through derealization or depersonalization.

Speaker 1 But if you go on support groups, they always say like, how do I break free from behind my eyes? Like, dark stuff like that. Also, you're trapped.

Speaker 1 I mean, there's a higher state of being through meditation that you can kind of step outside of yourself, but this is not that.

Speaker 1 Unfortunately, it was kind of the meditative path or, you know, the Eastern path that I took and kind of fused that with psychedelic culture in Seattle that took me down the psychedelic use rabbit hole in the first place.

Speaker 1 So like, I'd say it all started with Siddhartha. Siddhartha, that's a good book.
Have you done shrooms since then?

Speaker 1 No, I don't really do psychedelic drugs, but like a lot of people think that I'm against them, which I'm not, which doesn't work for me.

Speaker 1 If it works for you, I'm sure they can be really fun, especially I know there's lots of like therapeutic uses for acid and ketamine and psilocybin, but I personally abstain from those kind of

Speaker 1 anything psychotropic, I try to stay away from. Drinking a bit? Well, yeah, I mean, I didn't drink at all before I had the HPPD stuff.

Speaker 1 And I would have drank later in life, but definitely like 14, 15 every day after school, I drink a 40-ounce of Mickey's.

Speaker 1 It's like a, it kind of looks like old English, but the bottle's green and it has a hornet on the side of it. Just kind of became a ritual just to deal with the anxiety of

Speaker 1 that situation. And it made the snow go away.
Yeah, alcohol really works to suppress HPPD symptoms. So you said you hated classes in school, except that journalism class.

Speaker 1 Okay, we need to clear this up because on my Wikipedia page, for some reason, for Andrew Callahan early life, it says, Andrew hated every single class except for one.

Speaker 1 So I've had a bunch of teachers who are super cool, like this guy, Tim, my astronomy professor at ninth grade, Ms.

Speaker 1 Zanetti, my creative writing teacher in sixth grade, and this really cool dude at my college in New Orleans named Charles Cannon, who taught me a class called New Orleans Mythology.

Speaker 1 My three favorite classes besides my journalism class. And they all hit me up.
And they're like, hey, man, saw you said you hated every class.

Speaker 1 Sorry, I couldn't be everything that you wanted me to be.

Speaker 1 And so I just want to say, shout out to all those teachers. I didn't hate every class.

Speaker 1 The point that I was making is that being forced into the institution of school so young and having to take common core classes like biology, dissecting frogs, history of the Han dynasty, stuff like that that I didn't want to learn, but I had to learn multiple times.

Speaker 1 I mean, I learned about the dynastic cycle in ancient China three separate times at three different schools. And I was like, who is writing this curriculum?

Speaker 1 And why is it so important that I understand this process? Yeah.

Speaker 1 The part that makes school difficult, especially in college, is that you have people just going to school just to get the degree who don't really know exactly what they're interested in and they don't even have time to figure that out because they're in a business program or a communications program with no specific interest well i think if you want to do school right take on every single subject that you're forced into it's like the david foster wallace just be unborable by it just really go in as if uh ancient chinese dynasties are the most interesting thing you could possibly learn.

Speaker 1 And it is somewhat interesting, the Silk Road and the Great Wall and terracotta, the soldiers and stuff. But I'm just saying, like, when I got to college, I signed up for journalism school, right?

Speaker 1 And I didn't get to take a media class until the second semester. And, you know, I had to take everything prior to that.
And I'd already spent so much time.

Speaker 1 I just think the excruciating boredom of schooling left a bad taste in my mouth. But there was individual classes that I liked a lot.
Yeah, there should be some choice.

Speaker 1 Or maybe a lot of choice, even at the level of high school, for what kind of classes you pursue. Yeah, for sure.

Speaker 1 And you're also saying, so Wikipedia is not always perfectly right. No, but it's just interesting because, like, I've said so much in podcasts, but that's what they isolated.

Speaker 1 And I've gotten that question before, which I understand. It's the first thing on my Wikipedia page, but it makes me sound like a super hater.

Speaker 1 Have you ever seen this Instagram page called Depths of Wikipedia of Wikipedia? Oh, it's great. Oh, it's so good, dude.

Speaker 1 You said you love journalism. What did you love about journalism? I mean, what hooked you? On a basic level,

Speaker 1 everybody wants media coverage, right? Everyone likes to be on camera and get exposure for whatever they're doing.

Speaker 1 And so being a journalist and being almost like a portal for exposure for people allows you to be on the front row of everything that you want to be a part of.

Speaker 1 You get to be in the front row for history as it's unfolding because everyone wants to be covered. So, being a journalist gives you a ticket to everywhere that you want to go in life.

Speaker 1 And so, it allows you to step into different realities almost and then go back to yours. And it just keeps life interesting.
Buy the ticket, take the ride. Hunter S.

Speaker 1 Thompson, is he up there as one of the influences? Who are your influences? I think the early Daily Show was so good.

Speaker 1 Sasha Baron Cohen, a huge influence. I mean, that was like the LEG show, especially.
I think Louis Thoreau's broadcasts on BBC were great.

Speaker 1 I was really into Hunter S. Thompson too, but not really until college.
You know, I really like a particular Hunter S.

Speaker 1 Thompson book called The Great Shark Hunt, where he covers the Ruben Salazar murder by LAPD or LA Sheriff's Department in the...

Speaker 1 in Boyle Heights in the 70s and his relationship with his lawyer, Oscar Acosta, and that whole saga is great. Fear and loathing, I like, but not as much as his straightforward reporting.

Speaker 1 Because there's the Gonzo side of Hunter, where he's like saying he's taking drugs and seeing shit.

Speaker 1 And there's the other side of him, which is like an actual reporter interested in telling a story that has news value. So it's two different lanes for him.
There is something about you

Speaker 1 that

Speaker 1 makes people want to say you're the Hunter S. Thompson of this generation.

Speaker 1 And I don't think they mean the drugs. I think they mean

Speaker 1 some kind of non-standard

Speaker 1 willingness to explore the extremes of humanity

Speaker 1 and like almost a celebration of the extremes of humanity. Yeah, well, that's a very kind comparison.
I'll get there one day, maybe. I just went to Aspen on a little Hunter S.

Speaker 1 Thompson recon trip to go check out the Woody Creek Tavern, which is the spot that he, it was like his bar near his cabin. And it was pretty cool to see.

Speaker 1 Unfortunately, it's kind of turned into not a dive bar now but it's a sit-down sort of country restaurant but it was cool but i expected to see a bunch of gnarly hunter s thompson types

Speaker 1 oh with speeds

Speaker 1 just doing drugs i mean drugs and alcohol is all part of it somehow yeah so it opens a gateway to a deeper understanding of humanity but i will say though like as someone now who doesn't party like i did when i was younger It's not as important as I thought it was.

Speaker 1 You know? Yeah, I'm conflicted on this. I'm good friends with a lot of people people that say alcohol is really bad for you.

Speaker 1 And I believe that too. But there's something that

Speaker 1 I'm just, as an introvert, as a person who has a lot of anxiety, for me, alcohol has opened doors of like just opening myself up to the world more.

Speaker 1 Oh, I'm actually a fan of alcohol, moderate drinking. But I'm saying like my life before.

Speaker 1 I would say 2019, 2018, especially, there was the chaos on camera, but then there was my private life, which was like chaotic partying all the time. Oh, I see.

Speaker 1 And I, I, I convinced myself, much like Hunter did, that that was the secret sauce that in the core, the spiritual, in my spiritual core that gave me the creativity.

Speaker 1 But then I cut out a lot of that stuff, and I'm just as creative.

Speaker 1 And it's interesting that a lot of, I think, one of the hardest parts about addiction is that if you're a functioning, highly creative addict of any kind, your your brain and your the addictive part of your brain convinces yourself that it's all part of the cross-purpose and that it has this like symbiotic, you know,

Speaker 1 inspirational thing going on. But it's not, it's not true.
It can be, but it's typically not. Yeah, it's not a, it's not a requirement, right?

Speaker 1 You can sometimes channel, you can sometimes leverage all those things for your creativity, but the creative engine, it lives outside of that.

Speaker 1 Like, have you read that Hunter's daily routine in the year up to his death?

Speaker 1 It was like 15 grapefruits and eight ball of Coke and like just like a certain amount of shotgun shells for him to fire into the sky every morning. Yeah.
There's no way.

Speaker 1 And he didn't do anything creative in those, in those final years. Yeah.
But so the creativity goes away, and gradually you just become like a party animal, like Andy Dick. A caricature of yourself.

Speaker 1 Yeah. I mean, that's why life is interesting.
You make all kinds of choices. And sometimes you can

Speaker 1 create works of genius in a short amount of time based on drugs and no drugs. Einstein had that miracle year where he published several incredible papers in one year, 1905.

Speaker 1 Did he do drugs before that? Lots of Coke and

Speaker 1 I was like, I believed you for a second. I'm like, did Einstein have blow? I don't think he did.
How do you think he gets that hair? Come on. It's true.
I'm just asking questions.

Speaker 1 High confidence hair. Look into it.
You know what I mean?

Speaker 1 Yeah, well, no, he's a well-put-together,

Speaker 1 sexy young man. The hair came later.
Yeah, was Albert Einstein attractive as a teenager? Not teenager. Was he attractive as a young man? Sexually attractive?

Speaker 1 I don't, I mean, I'm turned on by Einstein at all ages. I don't discriminate.
But are you more turned on by the work that he did or his physical being?

Speaker 1 No, sometimes I fantasize what it would be like to be in the arms of Einstein. I couldn't even get that out.

Speaker 1 In the arms of Einstein. Yeah, just I want to feel safe.
It's a good idea for a rom-com.

Speaker 1 To be a little more serious, like general relativity, that space, time can be unified and curved by gravity is an incredibly wild and difficult idea to come up with.

Speaker 1 Like it's a really, really difficult thing to imagine, given how well Newtonian classical mechanics physics works for predicting how stuff happens on Earth. To think, like, like,

Speaker 1 like, the, that

Speaker 1 gravity

Speaker 1 can morph space-time,

Speaker 1 both space and time,

Speaker 1 is, and it permeates the entire universe. It's a field.
It's a really wild idea to come up as one human on Earth to intuit that is really, really, really difficult.

Speaker 1 And it's really sad to me that he didn't get a Nobel Prize for that.

Speaker 1 Was there people saying he was crazy when he was around?

Speaker 1 Or was he universally recognized? It's like an OG of this. No, I think once the papers came out, he was widely recognized as

Speaker 1 a true genius. But before that, he wasn't recognized.
He had a really difficult...

Speaker 1 So back now, where does a black hole go? Like after something gets sucked into it? You mean is it a portal to another place, that kind of thing? Yeah. No.
Well, we don't know. It could be.

Speaker 1 it could be uh that the universe is kind of like swiss cheese full of black holes there's something called hawking radiation where the because of quantum mechanics the information leaks out of a black hole so it is possible to escape a black hole there's a lot of interesting questions there i hope we get to the bottom of that and there's a supermassive black hole at the center of our galaxy which doesn't seem to scare physicists but it terrifies me oh yeah for sure astronomy can be terrifying Yeah, we're all like orbiting.

Speaker 1 I mean, we're not just orbiting the sun, but the sun is part of the solar system, is part of the galaxy and it's all orbiting a gigantic black hole have you ever spoken to someone who's been to outer space Jeff Bezos

Speaker 1 he flew his own rocket wow that's pretty cool astronaut that's been to deep space no

Speaker 1 well maybe I've spoken to an alien that just hasn't admitted it I want to do a research paper or like a report about space madness you know it's supposed to be this like torturous feeling that you get when you look away from Earth and into the abyss after you've exited Earth's orbit or whatever.

Speaker 1 Because there's one specific psychiatrist who knows how to deal with space madness. And I want to figure out how and interview people with it.
Is this a real thing?

Speaker 1 Like, is there a Wikipedia article on it? Yes, look up space madness treatment. Well, now I don't trust Wikipedia after what you told me.
So. I know they think I hate classes.

Speaker 1 I thought you meant more about the fact that you're isolated out in space, that we need social connection and it's difficult.

Speaker 1 Yeah, I think it's just a feeling of extreme insignificance that you might get sometimes when you look at the night sky, but it's that times a thousand.

Speaker 1 It's like an existential void that's created after looking into the abyss and then realizing how small Earth is in the grand scheme.

Speaker 1 You just start to really have a strange new perception about the pointlessness of existence. I don't need to go to space for that.

Speaker 1 I mean, only a handful of people have been to space, but I'm sure they're all pretty well off. So this psychiatrist has to be like in the multi-millions.

Speaker 1 Well, technically, we're all in space because Earth is in space, but

Speaker 1 so

Speaker 1 I wonder if you have to go to space to talk to the psychiatrist. Yeah, probably so.
Well, technically, we're all in space, so he can't, that's a boundary he can't have.

Speaker 1 But not everyone believes that, as you've seen from my, my work, probably. You're right.
And that's, those are important people that are asking important questions. Yeah.

Speaker 1 Um, you hitchhiked across U.S. for 70 days when you were 19.
Right. Tell the story of that.

Speaker 1 Well, this sort of connects to what I was talking about with the boredom of school and these Common Core classes.

Speaker 1 So after my first year of school, where I lived in the dorms, like an old school dormitory building at a school in New Orleans called Loyola University,

Speaker 1 I wanted to just do something. I felt so bored.
I was working for the school newspaper for that whole first year. It was called The Maroon.
And I didn't have the ability to write my own stories.

Speaker 1 Like I had to defer to an older editor, and they would give me stories to write about.

Speaker 1 And they were all about like on-campus happenings, like the Pope visits New Orleans, or glass recycling to be restored in the French quarter, or hoverboards banned on campus due to safety concerns.

Speaker 1 And it just kind of felt like, all right, well, I kind of wanted to be a gonzo reporter. I'm not sure if working my way up through the traditional newsroom hierarchy is going to get me to that point.

Speaker 1 So I started reading a bunch of old hobo literature, you know, like post-World War II vagabonding stuff. And there was this book called Vagabonding in America by an old hobo named Ed Byrne.

Speaker 1 And I read this and it just basically, obviously some of it was outdated.

Speaker 1 They had stuff in there like the hobo code, like, oh, this moniker on the side of a fence means this person has free soup or something like that. They didn't have stuff like that.

Speaker 1 But what it did tell me,

Speaker 1 it told me about train stop towns like Dunsmere and, you know, places in Montana where there was a friendly attitude toward drifters.

Speaker 1 And that still persists from the 60s and 70s to this day, even though, in my opinion, movies like Texas Chainsaw Massacre have ruined hitchhiking culture in America because now everyone thinks you're going to decapitate them if they pick you up.

Speaker 1 So after my final day of courses at Loyola, I literally left all of my belongings inside my dorm and took the streetcar to the Greyhound station, got a one-way ticket to Baton Rouge, and I was like, I'm going to hitchhike across the whole country back to Seattle with no money.

Speaker 1 And

Speaker 1 that was the plan, and it worked out. I love it.
I traveled across the United States before in a similar kind of plan.

Speaker 1 Were you on the Silver Dog?

Speaker 1 It's the Greyhound bus. Greyhound is pretty nice.
That's a step above hitchhiking. That's way better than hitchhiking.
Hitchhiking, Greyhound, Amtrak.

Speaker 1 Amtrak, no, that's the leadest.

Speaker 1 What's in between Greyhound and Amtrak?

Speaker 1 A car. That's what it is.
Yeah, it's a car. A car man.
A shitty car. Okay, cool.

Speaker 1 I lived in a shitty car. You lived in a car? Yeah, when I was

Speaker 1 driving across the United States. Solo?

Speaker 1 With a friend, some solo.

Speaker 1 And

Speaker 1 I would eat cold soup.

Speaker 1 I love cold soup. What I like is the cold chickpeas in a can.

Speaker 1 Get the water out and just dump them in your mouth. Yeah.
Those are good. Beef jerky.
Kind bars. Kind bars are really good for the road.
Yeah.

Speaker 1 I mean, all of that is great, but too much of it is not great. Like too much cold soup,

Speaker 1 not great. Too much beef jerky.

Speaker 1 So what was the route you took? Was it Chicago across or was it Philadelphia across? Philadelphia across. To LA or where?

Speaker 1 San Diego is where we end up, but it was a zigzag and went up to Chicago and then all the way down to Texas. So you went Philly through Appalachia up to the Midwest.

Speaker 1 Did you cut over through the southwest down to San Diego? No, no, no. I went straight down to Texas, all the way down to the west.

Speaker 1 But did you cut from Texas west through New Mexico and Arizona to get to San Diego? Yeah. That is the best road trip place.

Speaker 1 Interstate 40, like Albuquerque, Flagstaff, Vegas, Kingman, the Mojave Desert, Yuma, doesn't get better. Yeah, I mean, and you're a kid, so you don't care, and you're throwing caution to the wind.

Speaker 1 And I met some crazy, crazy people. It gives me some sanity, like, whenever I'm feeling kind of out of control or, you know, like bummed out.
I just remembered that the road is still out there.

Speaker 1 The open road never goes anywhere.

Speaker 1 And it's kind of like a, I see, like, an invisible door in the corner of the room all the time that makes me more comfortable because I'm like, hey, at the end of the day, if I'm bummed out, I can go hit the road and I'm sure there's going to be a fun time ahead.

Speaker 1 Yeah, get that Greyhound ticket and go. I would say Silver Dog, half, because sometimes I got to ride the dog

Speaker 1 when no one will pick me up. There's some places in the country where no one's gonna pick you up.
Yeah. Kansas, Missouri, they're not gonna do it.
Maybe you're not charming enough.

Speaker 1 You thought about that?

Speaker 1 I was 19, fresh, clean-shaven.

Speaker 1 I was pretty charming, I'd say. But the older you get, the harder it is to hitchhike because they think you're like an escaped convict or some type of like psycho-wanderer.

Speaker 1 And some of these people are like what we call punishers. It's people who never stop talking.
And so they see someone hitchhiking and they're like, yes, I'm going to talk at this person.

Speaker 1 And you can tell their eyes are wide. They're like, what's up? And you're like, oh, shit.
So it's six hours of just like, oh, cool. Nice.

Speaker 1 That's rough. Yeah.
Yeah. You're right.
You're right. I like people that are comfortable in silence.

Speaker 1 Yeah. But then that also raises the question, are they about to kill me? You know what I mean?

Speaker 1 I think that's a you problem, not a, you know, what's funny is almost everybody who picked me up when I was hitchhiking was like a, like a day laborer.

Speaker 1 Like it was almost all Mexican day laborers who picked me up. Oh, interesting.
Because I think that like in some places down there, that's a typical thing to do, hitchhike to work.

Speaker 1 A lot of people don't have have cars, but they still have to get to their jobs. So a lot of people ask me, hey, where should I drop you off? Where's your job at? And I'm like, my job is to explore.

Speaker 1 And they were down with it. See, like for me, it was really easy because you just say, like, I'm traveling across the United States.

Speaker 1 And I think people love that idea and they want to help.

Speaker 1 They romanticist because they also have that invisible door. Everybody has that invisible door.
I just want to go. So you know what I'm talking about.
Yeah, I mean,

Speaker 1 it can anchor you a bit just to remind you that every pattern that I've fallen into is voluntary and it's for my own stability and mental health.

Speaker 1 Well, that's why I'm like renting everything and I'm making sure like tomorrow I can just go. I gave away everything I owned twice in my life.
Just very like,

Speaker 1 I'm ready to go tonight. Let's go.
What's the hardest item you've had to part with in this experience? There's nothing. You've never had a material object that was really hard to let go of? No.

Speaker 1 So you'd give that watch to somebody if it meant anything.

Speaker 1 You're right.

Speaker 1 You're right. That's probably the only thing.
I've never had to let go of that, though. That's the only thing I own.
This means a lot to me, but everything else.

Speaker 1 But then again, listen, because, okay, this watch is given to me by Rogan, who's become a close friend.

Speaker 1 But like, whenever I romanticize the notion that this watch means a lot to me, he's like, don't worry about it. I'll just get you the same one again.
Yeah.

Speaker 1 I was like, goddammit. It's a pretty

Speaker 1 sick-ass gift, though. Yeah, it's pretty sick.
I'm not usually a gift guy, but you know.

Speaker 1 When somebody you look up to kind of gives you a thing, it's a nice little symbol of uh yeah, of that relationship. So it's nice.
But other than that, no. But even this, like, whatever.

Speaker 1 The relationship is what matters. The human is what matters, not the agree 100%.

Speaker 1 You had something like this? Not really.

Speaker 1 I mean, there was a hard drive that I lost that had all of my like childhood pictures on it and stuff like that that I think about all the time because I left it on a train. And like

Speaker 1 certain memories, you think about it, you just get pissed off. I just think to myself, someone has that somewhere.
I have dreams about reuniting with the hard drive.

Speaker 1 You and Hunter Biden have the similar concept.

Speaker 1 I don't think he wants to reunite with that one. Okay.
Dude, it's crazy. Like, you know,

Speaker 1 all he did was smoke crack, right? Was there more stuff going on? I think there's prostitutes involved. Oh, okay, whatever.
I think you got to look into it. I think I have to look into it, too.

Speaker 1 I don't know.

Speaker 1 Was Kerouac?

Speaker 1 Jack Kerouac somebody that was an inspiration at all in this road trip? Did you even know who that is? The B-Generation? I didn't even know who it was.

Speaker 1 And then after I did the, ultimately, I wrote a book about my hitchhiking experience years later. And everyone was like, have you read On the Road?

Speaker 1 And then On the Road, I probably heard the title of that book every day at least 10 times for two years. And I'm sure Kerouac is a great guy.

Speaker 1 I mean,

Speaker 1 I just don't, I'm not too familiar with the Beat Generation. It's a great book.
It's a, you've read it or no? I refuse to read it.

Speaker 1 People even have gifted it to me and been like, hey, man, you're going to love this one. And I'm like, is that On the road?

Speaker 1 If I honestly, people have given me a book with wrapping paper on it, and they're like, This is Red Hat Corale. I was like, That's on the road, isn't it?

Speaker 1 Give you a different cover. Yeah, no, I'm like, anything but that, but I'm sure it's a great book, it's just the comparison thing drives me crazy.

Speaker 1 But respect, big respect to Kerak

Speaker 1 would never speak down on the whole anyone in the beat generation. What are some interesting moments you remember from that? Those 70 days, man, there was so much.

Speaker 1 I mean, getting mistaken for a gay prostitute on my first hitchhiking ride in Louisiana was pretty funny. Where did you come from and where did you go?

Speaker 1 Well, I mean, the journey began in Baton Rouge, and the first destination was Houston, which is about four and a half hours west

Speaker 1 on Interstate 10. So I'm in Crowley, Louisiana.
I'm on the side of the road, and I guess this was a cruising truck stop.

Speaker 1 It was known for being a place where male lot lizards would go to procure clients. And I was there.
Lot lizards are...

Speaker 1 It's a derogatory term in trucker culture for a prostitute who hangs out at the Loves or a pilot flying Jay.

Speaker 1 Large interstate truck stops. Now, trucker culture, as it once was, is pretty much finished because of the live stream cameras they have inside of the trucks now.

Speaker 1 So you can't snort Suda Fed or pick up anybody. You can't even pick up a hitchhiker or you get fired.
Killed all the romance. Yeah, definitely.

Speaker 1 The old school outlaw trucker lifestyle, unless you're an owner-operator who's not even in a union, which is like a real cowboy way to haul loads. You can't do that.

Speaker 1 You were mistaken for a lot lizard. Mistaken for a lot lizard by a small man from Honduras with a spiky leather jacket covered in studs.
Nice.

Speaker 1 Didn't speak any English, but, you know, I thought he was just, you know, a nice guy. And then he pulled over at a,

Speaker 1 there's private theaters in the south where they have confessional booths set up and they have three channels. And people go in there and, you know.
It's porn? Yeah.

Speaker 1 People go in there and, you know, please themselves. yeah

Speaker 1 so he thought he was taking me to one of the to one of those i was like all right cool man yeah like you know if this guy wants to go jerk off i'm just gonna wait in the car it's all good i don't discriminate but then um

Speaker 1 i was like he buys a booth for me and i'm like okay you know

Speaker 1 i'm not really in the mood to watch porn with this random guy so he gets in the same booth as me and he starts jerking off right next to me and i'm like oh man like

Speaker 1 I don't think this is chill. I'm like, dude, can you stop?

Speaker 1 He stopped jacking off. And he's like, what do you mean?

Speaker 1 like i thought this is what you want to do like i have money for you like what's up and i was like oh no i'm just a regular guy he was super cool about it he started laughing he's like oh my bad man i thought you were you know selling something i said no and he said oh it's all good and he gave me a ride all the way to houston that's great yeah we talked about anything except that for the rest of the car ride that's great they just rolled with it oh sorry about that

Speaker 1 it could have been i had about a foot and a half guy so i wasn't too scared i also had like a knife in my pocket but i didn't want to stab him especially not at a place like that.

Speaker 1 And you were still that that didn't like leave a bad taste in your mouth. Well, I figured that can't happen again.
It can't keep happening.

Speaker 1 So I was like, all right, if I got this out of the way the first ride, the following rides are going to be spectacular. Yeah, I mean,

Speaker 1 who among us have not been mistaken for a lot lizard?

Speaker 1 It's a fact. You heard it here first.

Speaker 1 What else?

Speaker 1 What's some interesting, beautiful

Speaker 1 people that you've met across? Well, I used to have couch surfing to find places to stay.

Speaker 1 Now you you can only submit like five couch surfing requests a day unless you're a premium member, which means you also host people. Couch surfing is still around? Yeah, yeah, totally.
Oh, nice.

Speaker 1 But it's evolved, obviously, into a different thing. Airbnb is a kind of competitor to that, right? Couch surfing is free, though.
Right. So couch surfing, they call it like the CS community.

Speaker 1 So basically, there'd be these like couch surfing super hosts in different cities. Like there was one in Santa Fe, this firefighter dude who had like 15 other couch surfers there chilling.
Nice.

Speaker 1 So I would do it everywhere. A lot of them were Catholics,

Speaker 1 you know, so it was their way of giving back. A lot of them were nudists.

Speaker 1 And so I didn't realize that there's a small little section at the bottom of someone's couch surfing profile that says clothing optional. Yes.

Speaker 1 And that means if you go there, I thought it meant like it's cool if you walk to the bathroom in your underwear. No, if you go there, everyone's going to be butt naked.

Speaker 1 So I made that mistake a few times. Not that I'm anti-nudist, but I didn't want to, you know, I wasn't ready to take that leap of faith.
And yeah, it was just great. Couch surfing hosts were amazing.

Speaker 1 Yeah. That was just great.
It was this constant thing where I felt like, wow, people are so welcoming. I'm not having to pay them a dollar for this experience.
Yeah, I love couchsurfing.

Speaker 1 For like, again, for me, being an introvert, just crashing on a person's couch, being essentially forced into a great conversation is great. Yeah.

Speaker 1 The one thing that gets exhausting about hitchhiking is constantly thanking people. You know, being in like sort of constant superficial gratitude everywhere all the time.

Speaker 1 Like, oh, thanks for letting me sleep on your couch. Thanks for the food.
Yeah.

Speaker 1 Part of the reason I wanted to live in an RV later in life is to avoid having to constantly live in this like thanks so much type of frequency because it's exhausting to constantly, hey man, thanks.

Speaker 1 I think the shallowness of that interaction is exhausting, not just the not the thanks. Yeah, it was a true favor.
Of course, I love giving people gratitude for that.

Speaker 1 But just this thing where everyone who picks you up, you know, you get, you get eight rides a day, you're like thanking eight people a day. Like they're, you know, the second coming of Jesus.

Speaker 1 You start to feel a little bit debased. What'd you learn about people from that

Speaker 1 journey? That's your first time really kind of going into it. That the American public is just so kind overall.
I mean, they're so like embracing, depending on who you are.

Speaker 1 And specifically, though, the Christian family people of the U.S.

Speaker 1 who drive in minivans and have that fish sticker on the back where it's like Jesus fish, and then they have the family sticker, you know, where each member of the family is

Speaker 1 a stick figure.

Speaker 1 Those people

Speaker 1 never picked me up and would flip me off with their whole family. Sometimes they would throw full Dr.
Peppers at me as a family while I stood on the side of the road. As a family,

Speaker 1 they'd yell shit like, go to hell, hippie, when I was on the side of the road. And so it's weird that the most

Speaker 1 charitable Christian American family values people never gave me any charity or even conversation.

Speaker 1 They were antagonizing me and saw me as like a hippie leftover from the 60s who needed to go to work, go go to Vietnam. I don't get it.
Yeah.

Speaker 1 But the people who really extended a hand to me is people on the margins. Yeah.

Speaker 1 People working on seasonal visas, people whose cars have, you know, less than a quarter tank left, people struggling with addiction who saw me struggling, or at least they thought that I was because they assumed I was hitchhiking, not out of adventure, but because I had no car and were willing to sacrifice their day almost sometimes to take me exactly where I needed to go.

Speaker 1 That's beautiful, man. I've had similar kind of experience that people who are struggling the most are the ones who are willing to help you when you're struggling.
Yeah.

Speaker 1 There's people like in religious contexts and other kind of communities that just judge others because they've kind of constructed a value system where they're better than others because of that value system.

Speaker 1 And that actually has a

Speaker 1 cascade that forces you to actually be kind of a dick. Yeah, I never thought about it that way.
It's so true. Do you think about like morality and religion a lot?

Speaker 1 Yeah, yeah, yeah. I've been to certain parts of the world where religion is really a big part of life.

Speaker 1 I'm just

Speaker 1 always skeptical about

Speaker 1 tribes of people that believe a thing and believe they're better than others because they believe that thing. That could be nations, that could be religions.
Yeah.

Speaker 1 And I, I mean, in Ukraine and in Russia, I've seen a lot of hate towards the other. Yeah.

Speaker 1 And that, that hate, I'm always very skeptical of because it could be used by powerful people to direct that hate

Speaker 1 just so the powerful people can maintain power and get money, this kind of stuff.

Speaker 1 It's a scary thing to see how easy it is for high-up political people to mobilize the hate of just the average working person and can almost convince them to sabotage their own countrymen who they share more in common with than the politician they look up to just to advance the agenda of one party.

Speaker 1 That's what we're seeing now. Are there some places in America that are better than others?

Speaker 1 Can you speak negatively of

Speaker 1 like

Speaker 1 aforementioned Joe Rogan talk shit about Connecticut non-stop? Is there another, can you pick a region in the United States you can talk shit about? Talk shit about? Oh, for sure. I mean,

Speaker 1 or from that experience, let's just narrow it down to that. Oh, Colorado.
Oh, geez. Really? Yeah.
I know so many people that love Colorado. Dude, Dallas, Denver.

Speaker 1 I used to think Phoenix sucks, but I love Phoenix now. The way they build these cities to just be so circular and massive is just like stopping.
You don't like circles? I like grids, man.

Speaker 1 Oh, you're a grid guy? Manhattan, New Orleans, San Francisco. What is it about grids that bring out the worst in people?

Speaker 1 Circles is where

Speaker 1 everyone's just vibing out.

Speaker 1 It's like the grid gets people locked in and hateful. I don't know, man.
I've never heard anyone talk shit about Colorado, I have to say. It's kind of refreshing.

Speaker 1 It provides a necessary balance for the Colorado Wikipedia page. Yeah.
Oh, Oregon, too. I got problems with Oregon.
Oregon. Yeah.
Well, here's the issue.

Speaker 1 You have, and I don't like just calling people racist because it's kind of like a two-dimensional insult, but you have the most racist state with the most psychotic anarchist city in the middle of it.

Speaker 1 What is going on up there? How did this happen? The yin and the yang is so extreme that there must be something in the Balamat. What do you have against anarchism? I have nothing.

Speaker 1 I used to be an anarchist. When I was in eighth grade, I had this friend named Mads, who was part of a group called Seattle Solidarity, which is like an Antifa precursor.

Speaker 1 So I grew up like going to black block protests. And I mean, there was a particular shooting, the murder of John Williams, who is a Native American wood carver in downtown Seattle.

Speaker 1 He got killed by a Seattle police officer named Ian Burke.

Speaker 1 John Williams was carving a pipe from a wood block with a pocket knife. He was deaf in one ear.

Speaker 1 Officer pulls a gun on him and says, put it down. He doesn't hear him.
He shoots him six seconds later. So that police-involved shooting is what instantly turned me into like

Speaker 1 a very critical of law enforcement kind of person when I was super young.

Speaker 1 And so as someone who used to see this guy who got murdered, who was a 55-year-old man, I used to see him around Pike Place where my mom lived. It's a public market in downtown.
That to me

Speaker 1 put me into the anarchist political sphere because just channeling the anger of that experience. And the officer got no charges, by the way.
You can look up the video. It's horrific.

Speaker 1 And it didn't get reported. The officer, I'm pretty sure, is still active duty.
And so it's like situations like that early in life channeled me toward political extremism.

Speaker 1 But I grew up to realize how incompatible that

Speaker 1 anarchistic worldview is with reality and with American society. It can only exist in a small little chamber.
You know, you can't apply that to the industrial heartland of the country.

Speaker 1 And I think also anarchism.

Speaker 1 I've gotten to know Michael Malis, who's written quite a bit about anarchism.

Speaker 1 And it's also exists as a body of literature about different philosophical notions that kind of resist the state, the ever-expanding state in different kinds of ways.

Speaker 1 And it's always nice to have extreme thought experiments to understand what kind of society we want to build. But implementing it may not necessarily be a good idea.

Speaker 1 Yeah, I mean, Emma Goldman, I'm a huge fan of her writing.

Speaker 1 Also, the prison abolitionists that are associated with the anarchist movement, Angela Davis, Ruth Wilson-Gilmore, all that stuff, influential.

Speaker 1 I still adhere to a lot of those principles when talking about stuff like radical prison reform and stuff like that. But just I drifted more toward having a more open mind as I got older.

Speaker 1 Extremism implemented in almost all of its forms is probably going to cause a lot of suffering. Yeah.

Speaker 1 You worked as a doorman on the,

Speaker 1 I could say, legendary Bourbon Street in New Orleans. That's right.

Speaker 1 Where you saw what you described as, this might be another Wikipedia quote, by by the way. But this is where I do my research.

Speaker 1 Does it say hellish scenes? Hellish scenes and quotes. Wikipedia is damn right about that.
All right. Thank you.

Speaker 1 That's a win. That's one in the win column.

Speaker 1 So yeah, tell the story of that. What's it like to work on Bourbon Street? What kind of stuff did you see? I mean, I was a host at a fine dining restaurant on the corner of Bourbon and Iberville.

Speaker 1 So that's the first street if you go from Canal Street onto the corridor. So this is like across from like a daiquiri spot.
It's the middle of the tourist corridor of New Orleans.

Speaker 1 And the spot was kind of like and kind of a tourist trap. It was called Bourbon House.
The food was good.

Speaker 1 Chef Eric, I don't want you to see this and think you don't make good andouille sausages, but it was overpriced.

Speaker 1 And so I had to, we had to maintain this like fine dining facade on a street where almost everyone is like throwing up, fighting, or is half naked. So there was this policy.

Speaker 1 We had these giant glass windows next to the tables.

Speaker 1 So if you're eating at Bourbon House, you can look out onto Bourbon Street and you can see as you're dining a full panoramic view of all these partiers, throwing beads, boobs, all that.

Speaker 1 We had this policy where if we're serving someone, we can't look onto Bourbon Street if something crazy's happening. So if there's a fight or something like that, we can't look, right?

Speaker 1 So there is a dude. I remember I'm fucking serving a table.
There's a dude in a Batman mask, butt naked with 12 pairs of beads, just jerking it. Yeah.
Back to jerking it.

Speaker 1 He's jerking it, right? And every, every single person at the restaurants looking out there, like, look, they're taking pictures.

Speaker 1 And the manager, Stephen, looks at me, he's like, Keep your fucking eyes on the table.

Speaker 1 So I'm serving these people, you know, and I'm like, you want to eat you like red beans and rice, or wouldn't you like some Creole fucking da-da-da-da?

Speaker 1 And there's just this dude, and you know, ultimately, the manager went out and you know, escorted him further down Bourbon Street. But, you know, I would get off work at around midnight every night.

Speaker 1 And that was when Bourbon Street is at its most chaotic. And so I lived in the French quarter as well.
So I lived, I lived about 12 blocks down bourbon

Speaker 1 in a small Creole cottage in a cute little like orange, old school New Orleans, one-story spot. I lived in the attic above these

Speaker 1 gay meth dealers named Frankie and Johnny. Oh, wow.
And so I would get off work and I would basically have to walk through like this battlefield. I mean, it was a battlefield.

Speaker 1 Getting home was out of like the Warriors movie. It was almost humanity on display.
Yeah. It was like Kensington, Philadelphia, but just alcohol.

Speaker 1 You know what i mean oh it's all alcohol but it's a lot of a lot of visitors right from outside almost all visitors yeah and that that kind of was set the flow for the weekend for example if the raiders were playing the saints raider nation and they do not play around if it's the patriots that's a whole different crowd they think they're better than everybody else yeah well they technically are better than everybody else but yeah but people from massachusetts aren't like the cream of the crop in terms of like american superiority strong words yeah no no offense but i mean no i that's i'm sure they won't take that as

Speaker 1 they are good at fighting, though. I'll tell you that.
All right, great. New England has hands compared to some places.
Which places are those? Colorado? Colorado has no hands. Yeah.

Speaker 1 The West Coast, not too much hands. That's why you feel safe talking shit about Colorado.
But if you get to the corn-fed parts of East Colorado, I mean, these guys got hands bigger than my head.

Speaker 1 They'll beat the shit out of me. But anyways, I'd walk back to my house on Bourbon Street and I would be sifting through this battlefield.

Speaker 1 And I had a friend at the time who was like, yo, we should do a taxicab confessions type spin-off where we ask people to confess a deep, dark secret. And we post it the next day.

Speaker 1 And so we tried that and it went viral on Instagram instantly. It was mostly incest stories, you know, people admitting to incest.

Speaker 1 I know it's a common southern stereotype, but there's some truth to it.

Speaker 1 There was some murder confessions. That was pretty crazy.
We never really posted any of those, but how'd you get people to confess? It's pretty easy.

Speaker 1 And New Orleans has a homicide solve rate of like 22%. So, I mean, most of the time,

Speaker 1 they'll just tell you. I remember I was, I was walking down bourbon.
I asked this kid, I was like, what's your deepest darkest secret? And he told me, he's like, I just smoked a dude in the Magnolia.

Speaker 1 It's a project housing the third word, project development. And they said, I just smoked a dude in the Magnolia playground for touching my sister, molesting his sister.
And I was like, what?

Speaker 1 And he was like, yeah, look it up. And I was like, all right, hold on.
And it was like, man found dead in Central City playground, like appeared to be homeless, shot execution style.

Speaker 1 So I told the kid, I was like, why'd you tell me that? He's like, man, put that shit out there. Like, I'm trying to go viral.
Like, tag me too. Oh, wow.

Speaker 1 I don't think you understand that even if you're a juvenile, he was probably 15. Yeah.

Speaker 1 You can get juvenile life in Louisiana for a homicide, even if it's, you know, justified. So I just deleted the footage in front of him.
I was like, I'm going to delete this footage.

Speaker 1 See that trash button? I'm hitting it right now. Don't tell anyone that again.
And he was like, all right, I appreciate it. And he walked off.

Speaker 1 But it's the little moments like that that I always remember. Anything for the Graham, I guess.

Speaker 1 Yeah, after a while, though, it became sort of uh repetitive, you know, because there's only so many things that people can confess to that are that go viral, you know, and just oh, so you were trying to see like what?

Speaker 1 Well, I mean, there's the incest one, some people just say, like, I eat ass. That was like everyone said that, or like, I cheated on someone.

Speaker 1 I've seen a surprising number of people on your channel say mention eating ass, yeah.

Speaker 1 The way

Speaker 1 how seriously you said that will live in my head for the rest of my life. That's good.
Yeah, I have to say that.

Speaker 1 I want to live in your head

Speaker 1 saying that a lot of people mention eating ass. Yeah, a lot of people do mention that.

Speaker 1 Also, that's kind of where I developed this magnetism for freestyle rapping. You know, everywhere I go, people rap.

Speaker 1 Not sure why.

Speaker 1 I mean, as a former rapper myself in middle school and for the first year of high school, I think that maybe like it takes one to know one. But everywhere I go, people start rapping.

Speaker 1 If you and me went outside of this podcast studio and walked around for five minutes, I could find somebody who's rapping.

Speaker 1 I can tell who raps or who can rap, who has eight bars in their head that they're ready to go. I think you're also, there's something about you that gives them, creates the safe space

Speaker 1 to perform their art. Yeah, that was the Quarter Confession series was the first time you saw the suit.
That's when the suit came out.

Speaker 1 Yeah, it was kind of like a Ron Burgundy, Eric Andre inspired type. Where'd you get that suit? Goodwill.
Goodwill. Yeah, always.

Speaker 1 Wow. I was playing checkers.
You're playing chess. Good check.
I mean, Goodwill has a surprising amount of identical gray suits for sale. Yeah, I've actually gotten suits at thrift stores before.

Speaker 1 They're great. Yeah, a lot of people donate suits.
And I was going for oversized suits, which are the cheapest ones there. Yeah.
It was like $12, $12 to $25 every time for the outfit.

Speaker 1 If I wanted to look super sophisticated, like I'm from another era,

Speaker 1 I would go to the thrift store. Yeah.
Because they're usually usually like this, there's like a,

Speaker 1 like the patterns they have. It's just like a more sophisticated suit, which is what you kind of picked out.
It made you look ridiculous, but in the best kind of way.

Speaker 1 The tough part about quarter confessions for me is that everybody that was featured, for the most part, would more or less regret being a part of the show. Yeah.

Speaker 1 And that over time just gave me a bad feeling where I was like, you know what?

Speaker 1 I kind of feel like I am doing an ambush interview, especially because I'm presenting as so agreeable, agreeable, yet the intention is to make something funny.

Speaker 1 And I get that that's what people do in the satire sphere. I'm sure LEG and Bruno and Borat did the same thing.
And I don't think it's unethical because that's all for the purposes of comedy.

Speaker 1 It is what it is. But for me, I wanted to do something different.

Speaker 1 Yeah,

Speaker 1 because there's an intimacy to confessing a thing. Right.
And then you just don't really realize. the implications of that.
And the atmosphere of Bourbon Street is like anything goes.

Speaker 1 Like it's a free-spirited place. But if you transport that energy digitally to a different place like Colorado,

Speaker 1 they might look at it and be like

Speaker 1 a different place in time. Like five years later,

Speaker 1 that same person has a family and stuff like this. And all of a sudden, they're talking about eating ass.
Right, exactly.

Speaker 1 Kids have to think about that. Or, you know, imagine if there's a video of your grandma or grandpa out there when he was a kid talking about eating ass.

Speaker 1 That's a horrible experience to discover that about your respected elder later in life. It's tough.
I don't even know where to go with that. but

Speaker 1 literally the opening question was, tell me your deepest, darkest secret. Yeah.
You just come up to somebody like that. Yeah.
How often do you get like a no? How often, what's the yes to no ratio?

Speaker 1 Well, the weird thing is like we don't really extract answers from people. Like what makes a good interview is when they're ready to talk.

Speaker 1 The more you have to talk and try to get an answer out of them,

Speaker 1 it's just not a good vibe.

Speaker 1 Like, so we kind of look for people who appear to be already ready to talk, open body language, like they seem confident and verbose and we approach them first there's a look we wouldn't approach a shy person and be like come on tell me no what about a person with pain in their eyes oh yeah we're interviewing them yeah so they're ready to talk they're just not like

Speaker 1 yeah there's different ways to be ready right

Speaker 1 i see homeless people a lot and they always look fascinating and the ones i've talked to are always fascinating yeah we just did a video at the vegas in the vegas tunnels like trying obviously it got taken down by fox but whatever we uh I was going to make a joke that I didn't see it.

Speaker 1 We tried to help a lot of them by getting them IDs.

Speaker 1 And when I made the documentary, I had this idea that if I, it's a big roadblock for them is getting identification. Without IDs, you can't check into a homeless shelter.
You can't do day labor.

Speaker 1 You can't qualify for housing. Nothing.
So when we interviewed them, they'd basically tell us, if I had my ID, I wouldn't be here. And so we said, okay, we're going to really help this time.

Speaker 1 We're not just going to talk to them about their struggles. We're going to actively go out and get them IDs at the DMV.

Speaker 1 So we did that, and you know, nothing really changed in their life.

Speaker 1 And we sat down with a recovery specialist who works directly with them day in and day out.

Speaker 1 And he explained to me that he's been trying to do the same thing I tried to do in a one-week period for the past 10 years.

Speaker 1 And that they have deeper underlying traumas and pain that need to be dealt with far before they even take the steps to enter society as a housed person.

Speaker 1 That's a heavy truth right there. Breaking that shame cycle has to come first because

Speaker 1 you got to think, right?

Speaker 1 Like I'm from a generation that romanticizes vagrancy and homelessness to a certain extent, if it's called van life or if it is done in a way that's sort of like Rolling Stone, Willie Nelson, hit the road.

Speaker 1 People who are above 50, they feel really embarrassed to be in the spiral of homelessness. They feel like failures.
A lot of them have kids who they weren't there for.

Speaker 1 That's not the kind of pain that can be dealt with by giving someone a tiny home.

Speaker 1 It's a good step forward, but

Speaker 1 for someone to really make a change, they have to want to change. And so it's how do you help someone and guide themselves in the right direction?

Speaker 1 And if you're too paternalistic and you use shame as a method to get them to clean up, they're going to end up right where they started.

Speaker 1 That's a tough truth to accept because a lot of people want a quick fix to things. And I don't blame people who go out and give bologna sandwiches out to the homeless.

Speaker 1 And each case is probably its own little puzzle. Each person is so complex.
Now, imagine drug abuse, what that does to the brain. Yeah.
Trauma, childhood trauma. There's so much to unpack.

Speaker 1 And then just the

Speaker 1 belief that they're the undesirables, that

Speaker 1 they don't deserve to be a part of society because they failed a fundamental obligation, like taking care of their kids.

Speaker 1 If we could take a small tangent to you mentioned this Vegas video, which is fascinating.

Speaker 1 It was taken down recently by YouTube or YouTube took it down based on

Speaker 1 Fox 5, I guess. So the documentary was an hour and 45 minutes.
We used 10 seconds of a news clip that was publicly broadcast by Fox 5 Vegas.

Speaker 1 And according to the Copyright Act of 1976, you're allowed to use any publicly broadcast news clip in a transformative capacity in any documentary film or research paper or broadcast or anything.

Speaker 1 They, specifically, this corporation called Gray Media that controls the TV stations in almost every small town, they had lawyers hit up YouTube and

Speaker 1 YouTube complied with an illegal copyright strike to get our video immediately removed. And I'm a YouTube partner.
I'm in the YouTube Partner Program.

Speaker 1 So to think that I wasn't forewarned is a bit strange, but it also smells like corruption to me to a certain extent. Yeah, you shouldn't have that amount of power.
At the very least,

Speaker 1 they should have the power to just like silence that five-second clip, maybe. Yeah, but I'm taking them to court because I have the means to be able to do so.
I'm a larger creator. I have an audience.

Speaker 1 I have the financial backing to do it. I can't imagine how many people out there are smaller creators with like not as much consumer of a

Speaker 1 fan base they can mobilize against someone like Fox 5 or the money to go to court.

Speaker 1 So I want to take them all the way there to set precedent for future cases so that these giant mainstream media conglomerates can't

Speaker 1 copyright strike documentary filmmakers at will. It doesn't make sense.
Well, thank you for doing that. That's really, really, really important.
And that's really powerful.

Speaker 1 And it might hopefully empower YouTube to also put pressure on people to not.

Speaker 1 YouTube is in a difficult position because there's so much content out there. There's so many claims.
It's hard to investigate.

Speaker 1 But YouTube should be in a place where they push back against this kind of stuff as a first line of defense, especially to protect small creators. So what you're doing is really, really important.

Speaker 1 Appreciate it, man. And it sucks that it was taken down.

Speaker 1 Do you have any hope? Well, I talked to my YouTube partner today, and he said that the Fox 5 lawyers have two weeks to comply with my counter appeal.

Speaker 1 But, you know, I spent 20 grand on human voiceovers in five different languages. So, I invested probably in total, like 70k into this video.

Speaker 1 So, even if it gets reinstated, the steam's kind of been taken out of its trajectory. But also, it's just like a really important video.
It's good for the world.

Speaker 1 Yeah, like, why the hell would Fox 5 have a vested interest in having the video taken down? I just hate it when people do that to videos or to creators that are doing good in the world.

Speaker 1 Yeah, it's not an expose on the mayor of Las Vegas. It's an attempt to show the civilian public how to get involved in a local nonprofit and potentially intervene in the lives of the tunnel people.

Speaker 1 Well, fuck Fox 5, the other Channel 5, as you said. Yeah.

Speaker 1 Well, thank you for pushing back

Speaker 1 and highlighting it. Hopefully it gets brought back up.
But yeah, defending other creators so that other creators can take risks and

Speaker 1 don't get taken down for stupid reasons. Yeah.

Speaker 1 So Quarter Confessions was written? No, it was all real life reality TV documentary. But it caught the attention of a larger company called Doing Things Media.
Yes.

Speaker 1 And they contacted me pretty much like a week after I graduated from college in the May of 2019. And they said, hey, like, how would you like to produce a, a show?

Speaker 1 I was like, what do you mean? They were like, we'll get you an RV. We'll pay you $45K a year.

Speaker 1 You get to, we'll pay for gas, for food, for two hotels a week. Go out there, make content, and we'll be in the background just powering it all.
And that was the birth of All Gas No Breaks. Yes.

Speaker 1 I mean, All Gas No Breaks was named after a book that I wrote called All Gas No Breaks, a Hitchhiker's Diary, which chronicled the 70-day journey that we were just talking about.

Speaker 1 It's a tough book to find, by the way. Oh, yeah, there's only a few copies left.

Speaker 1 I'm thinking about doing a reprint at some point down the line, but I sold off the last 100 copies like a month and a half ago. Yeah.
Until then, you guys should go read On the Road by Jack Caraway.

Speaker 1 Yeah, read the road. You should read it.
I don't know if you read it. If you can't get my book, Get On the Road by Jack Caraway.
It's great. It's the best.
When's your birthday? I'll send you a book.

Speaker 1 April 23rd. Okay.
I'm a Taurus. Coming soon.

Speaker 1 Typical Taurus. Yeah.
Yeah. I'm a typical Taurus man.
I'm a Scorpio moon. Should write that down.
What's the time when you were born? 11:30. 11:30 at night? Or

Speaker 1 of course. Yeah, typical.
This guy knew it. That's the real science.
Yeah, anyways, so

Speaker 1 the idea of All Gas No Breaks as a show was to combine the,

Speaker 1 I guess, road dog ethos of the All Gas No Breaks book with the presentation and editing style of quarter confessions.

Speaker 1 So it was to take quarter confessions on the road that was pretty much like a simulated hitchhiking experience, but with the editing and like punchy effects of quarter confessions, which is like I wear a suit, we do the fast zoom-ins, little effects, stuff like that.

Speaker 1 It was a, man, those are the, the best years. It was just, it was just so fun.
I mean, imagine you're fresh out of college. You were just a doorman interviewing people about like,

Speaker 1 you know, making out with their cousin and stuff.

Speaker 1 And then boom, this company that you've never even heard of is willing to buy you an RV and give you 45K a year, which to me at the time was more money than I could possibly imagine.

Speaker 1 So I called my dad. I was like, dad, I need you to find me an RV because he's the only guy I know who knows about cars.
And even he doesn't know much about cars. So he's like, All right, I'm on it.

Speaker 1 So the RV was 20,000. And the first event that we were called to cover was the Burning Man Festival.
And that was tough because Burning Man is not too keen on filming.

Speaker 1 It's supposed to be a non-commercialized, you know, escape from

Speaker 1 reality. I mean, they have a gift economy set up.
It's based upon like mutual participation and non-exploitation. And so the idea of making a Burning Man video was tough at first because

Speaker 1 burners oftentimes, and this is not all of them, but are pretty well off in general. A lot of them have tech jobs, are pretty high up in Silicon Valley.

Speaker 1 And Burning Man is where they go to take off, you know, to take the edge off and basically become their burner persona.

Speaker 1 On the playa, they become reborn and they take ketamine and they wear kaleidoscope glasses and steampunk hats and they, you know, snort MDMA and they run around the sand, listen to teams.

Speaker 1 Do you snort MDMA? That's one I need to take MDMA. I thought it's a pill.
I didn't know. It's better to take it in a pill or water, but you can snort MDMA.
I definitely need to take MDMA.

Speaker 1 I'm already full of love, but like that, I'd probably go on another level. Yeah, don't snort it because it'll only last for you like 90 minutes.

Speaker 1 Let me write that down. So anyways, we didn't know what to do because we didn't try to film.
Don't snort. The initial idea for All Gas No Breaks was to...

Speaker 1 Instead of asking people, what's your deepest, darkest secret, it was, what's the craziest trip you've been on? So the idea was to not satirize drunk people, but satirize people who are fried on acid

Speaker 1 and so we went to boulder real quick did a test interview with some lady who talked about seeing ancestral aliens during a peyote retreat and so it's pretty easy to extract trip reports from hippies and you know gutter punks and stuff like that or oogles so we go to burning man

Speaker 1 uh we start asking people like you know what's your craziest trip story and they didn't have the same type of free-flowing storytelling style that like a on-the-street crush punk in new orleans might have where they're like, I don't give a fuck, I'll tell you whatever.

Speaker 1 These people were very bottled up about what they were willing to disclose. So, we went on Burning Man Radio and we did a broadcast and we said, hey, we're doing, we're psychedelic journalists.

Speaker 1 It was me and my friend Ciel at the time. I said, we're psychedelic journalists.
We're parked on 10 and I, which is across street in Black Rock City.

Speaker 1 And we said, we have a 1998 Catalina Coachman sport. It's an RV.
We've set up a podcast studio. We're doing a show about psychedelic voyages.

Speaker 1 So, lo and behold, two hours later, we had 10 people lined up at the RV. Nice.
Willing to talk. So that vetted people in advance for us.
And so we did a couple interviews.

Speaker 1 And that was that.

Speaker 1 What were some of the stories from the Tropic boards?

Speaker 1 There was this lady named Razma who said that she was known in several circles in Berkeley for being multi-orgasmic and could create multiple repeated climaxes using only her mind by like squinting her eyes and squeezing her eyes together so much that like the pleasure spiral just you know went crazy.

Speaker 1 I feel like I talked to several people like that at Berkeley. Yeah.
You know what I'm talking about. Not that, well, yeah, that lady, I think she manifests herself in many forms.
Yeah. Right.

Speaker 1 So, but still, it was on the cruder end. There was one guy named Kimbo Slice was his burner name.

Speaker 1 He talked about taking a shit after taking like a quarter of mushrooms and how he was like seeing his childhood and visualizing his past life, you know, as the turds were flowing into the toilet and just talks about the psychedelic union between pooing and

Speaker 1 taking shrimps. So he was very visual with his words.
Yeah, so there was stuff like that.

Speaker 1 I interviewed Alex Gray, which was super cool about his first trip in San Francisco when he was in 1971, shortly after the Summer of Love. I got to do some pretty cool interviews, but still, it was

Speaker 1 semi-ambush style.

Speaker 1 I wouldn't say that we were doing journalism yet. It was still comedic video work.
You know, was there a narrative that tied it together?

Speaker 1 It's like really just a trip, comedic almost with the interview, and then I go, Burning Man, and then it's on to the next one.

Speaker 1 So I guess that could give a loose structure, but it's just like a punch-in slapstick thing.

Speaker 1 Everything was going good until we interviewed this guy named DJ Soft Baby. He was wearing a golden leotard

Speaker 1 with, once again, kaleidoscope glasses,

Speaker 1 shirtless dancing like you know dancing and uh he was eating chowder out of a

Speaker 1 plastic bowl and he was like this chowder is so good he's like this is the best chowder i've ever had in my life and he starts putting the chowder on his face and he's like i want the chowder all over me yeah and so we we just go hey man can you just do a dance for us real quick just for some b-roll he does a dance we posted on instagram the next morning doing things media ceo calls me read he says all of our pages are down

Speaker 1 and he's like that guy you filmed dancing last night on drugs, putting chowder on his face, that guy's at the top of MIT.

Speaker 1 Top of MIT. I don't understand what it is.
He is went to the city. I'm like saying,

Speaker 1 you know, my brother's a rocket scientist. He's like head of NASA or whatever.

Speaker 1 Well, I mean, the guy knows people in Boston. Okay.
You know, not in the Whitey Bulger sense, but in the reverse sense.

Speaker 1 I have trouble believing that DJ Soft baby. Oh, DJ Soft baby was major.
It could have been Harvard. It could have been, but it wasn't, it wasn't UMass.

Speaker 1 I don't think there's anybody that's, quote, at the head of MIT who's putting,

Speaker 1 what was it, all over his face? Chowder. Chowder.
Well, then you haven't been to Burning Man yet. Okay.

Speaker 1 But I would have to consult

Speaker 1 my colleagues at MIT if they know DJ Soft Baby. So whoever you.
It probably was Harvard.

Speaker 1 Let's put it on them. Okay.
The top of Harvard. So he made some calls, you know,

Speaker 1 to the tops, to the heads of big tech, got all the doing things media pages taken down at the time that was like a vast network of pages and we ended up having to take the video obviously the video came down and he held the entire network of instagram pages hostage and so that was uh he made us agree to never post that video again and then somehow got all of our pages reinstated so that was my first brush with like uh

Speaker 1 you know powerful people on drugs And that was probably my last brush with powerful people on drugs. So what did you transition into from there?

Speaker 1 I think after Burning Man, we went to the south, went to Talladega race weekend, went to a Donald Trump Jr.

Speaker 1 book signing, went to a Juggalo adjacent fetish mansion in Central Florida called the Sausage Castle. Juggalo adjacent

Speaker 1 sausage. Okay,

Speaker 1 can you run that by me again? A Juggalo adjacent fetish mansion in Central Florida.

Speaker 1 Fetish mansion in Central Florida. Juggalo adjacent.

Speaker 1 I mean, every single one of those words, I feel like, needs a book or something.

Speaker 1 So, Juggalo. By the way, who are the Juggalos? Is this just ICP fans? ICP fans, okay.

Speaker 1 But I say adjacent because it's not a Juggalo mansion, but there's a lot of Juggalos who kick it at the mansion, and it's Juggalo-friendly. Oh, okay.
Juggalo-friendly.

Speaker 1 Yeah, because they get made fun of in a lot of places. Oh, so it's not.
Okay, got it. And Juggalos say outrageous shit, you know, and they embarrass themselves and they fight a lot.

Speaker 1 So they're on the FBI's gang list, which, if you ask me, answer. ICP or the Juggalos.
The Juggalos.

Speaker 1 Who's the head of the Juggalos? It It would be Violent J and Shaggy 2 Dope. But there's associated acts like Twizded and there's a whole rabbit hole.
Honestly, Tech Nine is sort of a part of that.

Speaker 1 Tech 9. I don't know who that is.
Should I know who that is?

Speaker 1 He's actually one of the top-selling touring rappers, despite having sort of not that many streams. Tech 9 is like, it's got a huge cult following in Missouri.

Speaker 1 This is like the Juggalos started in

Speaker 1 Warren, Michigan. We should also say ICP and St.
Clown Posse. So this is a thing.
This is a movement. Oh, yeah.
If you went to seattle right now and punched a cop and they booked you in county jail

Speaker 1 you may end up running with the juggalos running with the juggalos they're a presence in pacific northwest prison system from what i've heard can you tell a juggalo from like a distance well they say whoop whoop so if you see a juggalo they'll say that also like i'll try to

Speaker 1 i'll try to look they're uh they're kind of It's called the dark carnival is the mythology they abide by. What do they define themselves? What's the ideology? A family.
A A family.

Speaker 1 No, I understand, but what's the ideology? What's the philosophical foundation of that? They're anti-racist.

Speaker 1 They like to drink faygo and also just like cheap liquor and stuff like that.

Speaker 1 They're into drugs.

Speaker 1 A lot of circles, if you pull out a crackpipe, people will be like, I don't want to drink with you anymore. If you're at a Juggalo party and someone's smoking Twiz or something, it's relatively

Speaker 1 accepted. What's Twiz? Myth.
Meth. Right, right.
Lots of tattoos. Yeah.
The Hatchet Man is the most common one. So it's a psychopathic records logo.
It's a cartoon of a clown wheeling a hatchet.

Speaker 1 It's actually a pretty sick logo. I vaguely remember enjoying some of the

Speaker 1 ICP music. It's good.
Yeah, it's pretty good. It's funny.
It's edgy. Well, they get satirized a lot, but I got love for the clowns.

Speaker 1 And also, so when All Gas No Breaks transitioned away from, you know, rich elite drug parties and into like the South, that's when the fun really started to happen.

Speaker 1 living in your rv in alabama and florida and stuff is the best why what what what is it about people are just so friendly down there and it's it's warm year-round and people are non-judgmental it's just great the south gets hated on a lot especially in the coastal coastal states mississippi and alabama are kind of like the butts of a lot of jokes and stuff but those are great states no i love it new mexico albuquerque all those oh yeah the abqs is great abq what's that albuquerque it's what jesse pinkman called it as the ab q oh

Speaker 1 The depth of references you bring to the table is intense. It's okay.
I met a lady in Albuquerque when I was traveling across the United States, and she said, take me with you.

Speaker 1 I said, I'm sorry, ma'am, I can't. Yeah.
But I think about that lady. I think you made the right call.
I don't know.

Speaker 1 On the road

Speaker 1 by Jack Kerwak. Best book I've ever read in my life.

Speaker 1 There's a moment when he meets a nice girl on a bus and they have a love affair. It's good.
On a bus or they feel like a bus? No, no, they went to California.

Speaker 1 Well, yeah, and there was a love affair on the bus, but it wasn't sexual. It was just romantic.

Speaker 1 It was in the air. It was in the air, which there is something in the air on the bus, like a Greyhound, mega bus, that type of situation.
There's certainly something in the air. But it's a romance.

Speaker 1 There is, man. When you travel across.
Because it's like strangers getting together and you're like...

Speaker 1 feeling each other out and but you're in it like you each have a story because you wouldn't be taking a bus unless you had a story So you're, especially if you're traveling cross-country.

Speaker 1 That's something. You ever taken the dollar bus from Philly to New York, the Chinatown bus? Yeah, I have.
That's a great bus. The people on that.
It's not a fucking dollar, though.

Speaker 1 There's some that are five bucks. No, no, no, no, no, no, no.
If you book it way ahead of time, which

Speaker 1 it's like $20. I was like, this is a fucking lie calling it $1.

Speaker 1 I don't know why I'm swearing. The anger came out.
I apologize. Swearing is okay sometimes.

Speaker 1 Last time I was on the Chinatown bus, there was like a rooster walking down the aisle. Actual rooster? Yeah.

Speaker 1 Chilling. It was awesome.
Well, there's a nice part of your film with a rooster. I forgot about that.
Yeah. That felt almost fake.

Speaker 1 Yeah. Did you plant the rooster? No, the rooster.
There's a place in Ybor City in Tampa where roosters walk around all the time. And we had a rooster parked there right by the main drag for.

Speaker 1 What did I say? We had a rooster parked? We had the RV parked Ybor City for a long time, and the rooster laid eggs in the undercarriage. Nice.
Back to the All Gas No Breaks thing, though.

Speaker 1 Yeah, yeah, yeah. So it was lots.
It was really fun making it. And then we started All Gas No Breaks in September of 2019.
Six months later, the country shuts down and everything just hits the fan.

Speaker 1 I was actually here in Austin when it shut down. I was on 6th Street.
I remember the, I don't just hang out on 6th Street all the time, but I was just here.

Speaker 1 Come on.

Speaker 1 I do like 6th Street. Yeah.
I like East Austin better, but I like 6th Street too. So anyways, the NBA shuts down.
Everything's shutting down.

Speaker 1 And so I went down to the Dirty Six and I asked this doorman, I was like, are you guys ever going to shut down? He was like, No, bro, the dirty six never closes.

Speaker 1 And I was like, All right, we'll see about that. Next day, plywood.

Speaker 1 And then I was like, All right, I thought my career was over when COVID hit. I was like, What are we going to do? Nothing's happening anymore.

Speaker 1 There's no more parties or Talladega races or Burning Mans to go to.

Speaker 1 So I went back to Seattle in the RV and I just spent four months just depressed, living in the RV, trying to figure out what would happen. But all gas, no breaks went on still.

Speaker 1 Well, this was the crazy thing about that period of time is that when COVID hit, I'm sure you remember, everything turned political

Speaker 1 overnight. In Seattle, if you went to a house party, you can get canceled, you know, because people were like, oh, you're a super spreader.

Speaker 1 So if you wanted to socialize, even with a group of four or more, you had to do so with your phones damn near turned off. And a lot of people were doing hyper-social policing at that time.

Speaker 1 Beyond that, in the South and in more conservative places, they were doing the opposite.

Speaker 1 They were trying to prove that they could hang out 500 deep with no mask to make a statement against the establishment. So you had this polarization that led to more division.

Speaker 1 And that's when the anti-vax protests started. And I went to Sacramento and the passion was unreal.

Speaker 1 This is about two months after the COVID lockdowns began. And that was my first political video.

Speaker 1 It was at the Sacramento, the California state capitol in Sacramento, documenting the, they called it the Freedom Rally, but that's typically like anti-vax stuff. And it was real intensity.

Speaker 1 And that video was my most successful to date at that time. And so I was like, okay, am I a political reporter now? Am I covering politics? Like, what's going on?

Speaker 1 What were the interviews that made up that video?

Speaker 1 What kind of, what style of questions were you asking?

Speaker 1 I don't know if you remember, but I was actually scared when the pandemic started. I thought that this is something that might kill us all based upon what I was consuming.

Speaker 1 And so I'd asked people, what do you think about this lockdown? And I've had people say, you know, I'm immune compromised. If I get exposed to COVID, I have a 95% fatality rate.
But guess what?

Speaker 1 I'd rather be free and dead than alive, living in fear. And I was like, wow.
So it was just stuff along those lines.

Speaker 1 You had some San Diego surfers there complaining about the beaches being shut down when such awesome waves were coming. Yeah, it's interesting how that really brought out

Speaker 1 the worst in people. Oh, yeah.
I'm not sure why, why that is. Fear, maybe? Paranoia.

Speaker 1 I don't know. It really divided people.
Like along the lines, as you mentioned, like triple mask yourself or fight for your country. Yeah, right.
Exactly. Like, why are those the two options?

Speaker 1 That is literally what it was. Yeah, that's wild.
And both groups think they're fighting for the survival of something.

Speaker 1 And so that's where you really run into problems when you have two polarized groups who both think that their cause is for the common good. Mutual understanding is impossible at that juncture.

Speaker 1 And so after three months of

Speaker 1 almost everybody being locked down,

Speaker 1 George Floyd happens.

Speaker 1 And

Speaker 1 I remember I saw the third precinct burning on my phone in Minneapolis. And everyone says,

Speaker 1 Andrew, you have to go cover this.

Speaker 1 And I'm somebody, like I said, you know, police violence has been close to my heart since I was a kid. And my first thought is, I can't do that.
I'm a comedic reporter.

Speaker 1 I can't go to Minneapolis and cover this. It'll be the end of my career.

Speaker 1 And I had a friend named Lacey who I went to college with. And she told me, she was like, bro, this is your chance for you to do something serious.

Speaker 1 You can actually create a meaningful piece of reporting like you always wanted to before quarter confessions, and you can turn all gas no breaks into a news source.

Speaker 1 So I called Reed, who was the CEO of the company that owned All Gas No Breaks. And I was like, look, man, I want to go to Minneapolis.
I was in Orlando at the time.

Speaker 1 I was actually at the Sausage Castle. And he said, he said, sorry, the Sausage Castle? Yeah, the Juggalo mansion.
Oh, right. That's called the Sausage Castle.
So I'm watching Minneapolis unfold

Speaker 1 on Lake Street where it it was burning. And I got to the Orlando airport and I booked a flight without, I booked it on my own card.
I didn't consult my boss or anything.

Speaker 1 And I was sitting in my seat on the flight. And he, he straight up told me, he's like, if you fuck this up and this destroys the brand, we're getting a different host.

Speaker 1 This, if you mess this up and you turn our our

Speaker 1 show away from a party show about drinking and drugs and all that stuff and you make this a social justice show,

Speaker 1 you're done.

Speaker 1 But I was like, I just turned my phone off. I got to the Minneapolis airport on the second night of the riots.

Speaker 1 And when I got to the airport, there was National Guardsmen in the airport. And there was a, it was like a Call of Duty mission, the one in the airport.

Speaker 1 And on the speaker, they say, If you're arriving here right now, you are not permitted to go anywhere outside of the airport. National Guardsmen will escort you to your Uber or to your car.

Speaker 1 They're going to take a picture of your ID. They're going to figure out where you're going.
You are not permitted to go outside tonight. And so Lacey picks me up.

Speaker 1 There's two people in the back, two of her homegirls wearing like shisty masks. I'm like, what are we doing? Where are we going? And she goes, we're going to go film the riot.

Speaker 1 We're going to Lake Street. And so we drive down there.
Kmart is burning. Target is burning.
Everything is on fire.

Speaker 1 She has the Sony A7.

Speaker 1 She gives me a microphone and she's like, go talk to that guy. And that was a guy with a Molotov cocktail in his hand who had just burned Kmart down.
And so I go, what should I ask him?

Speaker 1 She goes, what's on your mind? So I walk up to him and I'm like, what's on your mind? He said something like, everything that was happening here was supposed to happen. This is how we feel.

Speaker 1 Is it right? No. Is this going to benefit the community? No.
But this is how we feel. This is how we feel.
That's pretty powerful. Yeah.
That's through a lot of

Speaker 1 the documenting that you do, this is how we feel is like

Speaker 1 screaming through that. Yeah.
And I noticed that aside from a group called Unicorn Riot, there was no one else actually interviewing the protesters.

Speaker 1 The local news was on the bridge 15, not 15, but five blocks away, you know, filming just the scene itself, just the fire. But I saw some crazy things off camera, too.

Speaker 1 I saw, so there was kind of two groups. There, there was like the

Speaker 1 anarchists, more mobilized protesters. And then there was just mostly African-American community members who were just pissed, who had nothing to do with the organized resistance.

Speaker 1 And they were all kind of joining forces to riot. And there was this anarchist kid who ran up to White Castle with like a Molotov cocktail.
And he was

Speaker 1 about to throw it at White Castle. And this black dude ran up to him and grabbed his arm.
And he's like, nah, we fuck with White Castle.

Speaker 1 And I was like, what? And so you see, if you go on Lake Street, every business is burned. White Castle remains.

Speaker 1 I also saw these dudes rip this atm out of a bank and hit it with sledgehammers they were a group of friends hitting it with sledgehammers right hitting with sledgehammers boom all of a sudden money starts spraying out of the atm like i've never seen some like this like pouring out of it and then this group of friends who were just united and getting it open start fighting each other for the money as it's flying out of it and so there was just it was like a

Speaker 1 like Joker from the Batman's army type type vibes. I got shot in the ass by the National Guard.
It was no good. Like a what? A rubber bullet? Yeah, not shot.

Speaker 1 Honestly, it hurt.

Speaker 1 I'm not sure what I was expecting as an answer to that question. Yeah, but I liked it.
It was good. Yeah.
And then after that, I posted the video and it was very well received.

Speaker 1 And that was the pivotal point where I realized that everything was going to change. I mean, there was a...

Speaker 1 still kind of a comedic element to the way you do conversations to the way you edit. So did you see yourself as a potentially like a Jon Stewart type of character?

Speaker 1 At first, but you know, I just think human beings are just funny in general. Yeah, the absurdity of it.
Cool thing about Jon Stewart is like,

Speaker 1 I generally like to say that anybody who works for corporate media, whether it be Comedy Central or anything owned by Time Warner, Fox, MSNBC, they can't say what they want.

Speaker 1 Because in order to climb up in those organizations, you have to appease the narrative of the company that you're working for to rise in the ranks.

Speaker 1 Jon Stewart, I feel like, has so much much clout in the media world that I'm pretty sure he can say whatever he wants. Like, I actually don't think that Jon Stewart is controlled by anybody.

Speaker 1 I really don't. I think that he can go on the show and talk about whatever.
I do think that certain people have broken the brains of

Speaker 1 COVID, broke the brains of a lot of really great people I admire. Trump broke the brains of a lot of people I admire, like to where

Speaker 1 Trump derangement syndrome became a thing. Like, you can't see the world quite as clearly because of it.
And I think

Speaker 1 John Stewart is quite a genius at like stepping away, even though the world needed him in that time, stepping away during that moment of Trump and coming back now,

Speaker 1 sort of being able to reflect being sort of the elder statesman.

Speaker 1 My favorite Jon Stewart moment that illustrates that perfectly is whenever he went on the Colbert show and he was just joking around with Stephen Colbert, who I think is a full-blown propagandist, about the Wuhan lab league theory.

Speaker 1 He was just goofing around and he was like, it's called the coronavirus lab and they had it before. And now what do we have?

Speaker 1 And it was like, you could see in Stephen Colbert that he was like gun to his head type shit where he's like, John, John, stop joking about that.

Speaker 1 And that made me realize, like, oh.

Speaker 1 Everything that Jon Stewart did, especially for the 9-11 first responders, he's a true American. And not in the sense of like that the different political parties want you to believe is an American.

Speaker 1 Not a do-your-part and social distance American, not a, you know,

Speaker 1 wave your Trump flag in the back of your pickup truck American, just a guy who genuinely stands up for what's right.

Speaker 1 There is a degree to which you can be in those positions easily captured by groupthink, though, even when you're not controlled by bosses and money and all that kind of stuff.

Speaker 1 And I think Jon Sewards has been mostly resistant, but it's, it's hard. His position is difficult.
I think he's done the best job, though. If someone in this obviously Democrat-connected

Speaker 1 corporate media economy, he seems to be the freest talker. Yeah.

Speaker 1 So, this is when you first became famous. I'm not even sure what fame means.
I mean, I just see myself as me. When did you get the shades? Oh, that was on tour.
That was that's a whole

Speaker 1 the shades. That's a dark time.
But this,

Speaker 1 I didn't make like this is a meme, really. I don't even know

Speaker 1 if it's I didn't make journalism to like become famous.

Speaker 1 I made it to give people a platform to share their stories. It just so happens that people liked it enough to where I became sort of famous.

Speaker 1 But, you know, if I could go back and not be the on-camera guy and just platform the stories, I would. But the reality is people need a face to attach to stuff they like.
And so that's just how it is.

Speaker 1 But yeah, I would say right around Minneapolis protest, Portland protest, Proud Boys rally time when I was really in there is when I started to be acclaimed as more than just like a ambush meme, Lord.

Speaker 1 Did that have effect on you, the fame?

Speaker 1 Not at that point. Not at that point.
So like you were still able to have a lightness to you? Well, the country was basically closed. Yeah.

Speaker 1 So it wasn't like there was a street to walk down where people were like, there's that guy. So getting famous.
famous during COVID made it. So when the country reopened, it was as if like

Speaker 1 my life really changed because I was like, oh, all these fans I made during COVID are like seeing me out of the bar. This is cool.
Yeah.

Speaker 1 At first, fame is the best thing ever because you can go anywhere in the country and these spaces that you normally feel a bit insecure in, like a local dive bar, a cool restaurant, a coffee shop where you just be another guy.

Speaker 1 All of a sudden they're like, oh my God, I'm a big fan. They give you like free stuff.
You get this sense of acceptance that you never would have gotten before. So, but there's also.

Speaker 1 The dark side. Well, it's all love, man.

Speaker 1 I mean,

Speaker 1 just to speak to the first part you're saying, it's just so much love that people have.

Speaker 1 It's amazing. I'm sure you know what it's like.
Yeah, it's beautiful. The only downside of fame, really, is that you can't really be anonymous again.

Speaker 1 And you have to seek out more strange environments to be anonymous in. Like right now, I live in the desert, basically.
And I want to live in the middle of nowhere in the Mojave Desert.

Speaker 1 Not because I'm scared of people, but because I just want to be like curious me again.

Speaker 1 People don't know. And I can ask questions to people that I'm interested in without them going, I remember, I seen you here.
I've seen you there.

Speaker 1 That's the main thing. That's what what I loved about hitchhiking.
Yeah, just to have anonymity, yeah, it's your best, but both are great. Complaining about fame is just the lamest shit.

Speaker 1 Yeah, we should go to furry conventions that you covered,

Speaker 1 wearing wear an outfit. I love furries, I should do that.
Yeah, we should go together. I go all the time, we should go together.
What's your favorite outfit? I haven't done to a furry convention.

Speaker 1 No, I have not.

Speaker 1 I think you might like it more than you think. I

Speaker 1 listen,

Speaker 1 maybe I'm just afraid to face who I really am.

Speaker 1 Yeah, your persona, the true Lex will come out when you're

Speaker 1 in a $3,600

Speaker 1 lizard suit. Lizard, is that what they go with? Well, scalies

Speaker 1 are the lizard furries. And there's a big division in the community where they think scalies are kind of douchebags, you know, because the scaly suits are more expensive.

Speaker 1 They're about seven grand, whereas a fur suit is $3,600.

Speaker 1 And they're also taller.

Speaker 1 So when the scalies pull up to the fur fest, it's like, ah, fuck the reptiles. Fuck the reptiles.
I can get behind that. I like more, I'm more like a teddy bear type of guy.
Yeah. I think bears.

Speaker 1 Maybe squirrels. I don't know.
Ooh. Squirrels are so cool.
Giant squirrels. I want to put a GoPro on one and just see what the hell they do.

Speaker 1 You were talking about that conversation with the guy at the head of Doing Things Media. How did that end up?

Speaker 1 Well, I mean, I want to clear up a few things. Reed, the CEO of Doing Things, I actually think he's a good guy.
I think that he was just trying to run a business.

Speaker 1 He saw what was working for his brand, which is very college-centric, very very festival-centric.

Speaker 1 And he was right to think that journalism and especially coverage of sensitive topics like COVID or, you know, police brutality would definitely not work on merch.

Speaker 1 You know, you're not going to sell a picture of me interviewing someone at a riot like you would me interviewing a furry or a drunk dude in Alabama. It doesn't work the same.

Speaker 1 So it was a lot, a lot harder to monetize, not just because of YouTube censorship, but also just because of the

Speaker 1 sensitive nature of the content.

Speaker 1 So Reed was looking out for himself as a businessman there was a different partner who i'm not going to say his name that was more connected in hollywood i think he's responsible for the the collapse of the show what was the collapse like what was

Speaker 1 so

Speaker 1 right as the country's reopening i get a dm from eric werheim of tim and eric and i'm i'm covering something called the ufo mega conference in laflin nevada which is a beautiful uh river town and um you know he dms me says let's make a show and i'm like oh is this real?

Speaker 1 You know, I grew up such a big fan of Nathan for You and the Eric Andre show. And those are produced by their company, absolutely.
So I was like, hell yeah, let's do it.

Speaker 1 Three days later, I get a call that says, Jonah Hill wants to hop on board. And I can't believe this.
You know, I'm still in the RV and I'm in Laflin, Nevada. So I'm like, Jonah Hill, super bad.

Speaker 1 Are you shitting me right now? So I was excited. And,

Speaker 1 oh, and Moneyball. Jonah Hill's a great actor.
Oh, he's great. He's great all around.
Yeah.

Speaker 1 Except the credit he deserves.

Speaker 1 Well, I mean, he's got the credit by now but still deserves more so basically just within a week i assembled this super team of tim and eric super bad team yeah pretty much of tim and eric i'm so sorry

Speaker 1 and jonah hill and yeah we just pitched it around every single tv network rejected it i don't know why and they mainly did that because i was in this weird situation where i had signed a contract with doing things media that i didn't realize was called a 360 deal that's what they use in like the rap world.

Speaker 1 Basically, it means that I can't do anything outside of them without them getting 100% of the money.

Speaker 1 So, if I was to go work at Sabaro or Quiznos while I was working for all gas, no breaks, they would get my 500 bucks a week from the sandwich spot.

Speaker 1 I was unable to earn any outside income.

Speaker 1 I didn't read the fine print because I was 21 and like I told you, 45k a year RV. Sounds sick.

Speaker 1 And

Speaker 1 basically, the TV networks were like, Why would we buy a show if the digital brand is going to be running at the same time? Because they didn't want to stop doing All Gas No Breaks to make a TV show.

Speaker 1 They wanted All Gas No Breaks to continue as a web show while All Gas No Breaks as a future TV show at Showtime or Hulu or somewhere like that was also concurrently running, which is impossible for one man to do.

Speaker 1 And so every TV network said, Okay, we're not doing that. We want an exclusive rights contract with this guy.

Speaker 1 Next, oh, yeah, this is crazy crazy to think about because it all happened so fast.

Speaker 1 So Jonah Hill says A24 Films wants to do a movie instead of a show and they're going to let you keep the digital brand running.

Speaker 1 So this meant that I could keep doing my Instagram stuff with doing things media slash all gas no breaks while making an A24 movie with Jonah Hill and Tim and Eric. So it was just like, I was excited.

Speaker 1 It sounded perfect. So they said, okay, what do you want to make a movie about? And I told them, okay, here's what's going to happen in 2020, in 2020.

Speaker 1 If Trump wins, there's going to be riots across the country. The major cities are going to burn down.
If Trump loses, the militias and his loyal supporters are going to try to have a coup in DC.

Speaker 1 That's what I said. And I said, so I'm going to follow the lead up to whoever wins the election, and I'm going to document what happens after.

Speaker 1 So they said, okay. And so I was to begin filming in late October, you know, during the campaign trail, maybe mid-October, up until November, and then in the following months to see what would happen.

Speaker 1 This meant that I couldn't film anything for August, No Breaks, the digital show, because I had to dedicate 100% of my time to making this perfect movie. Yes.

Speaker 1 Still, one of the partners at Doing Things Media was demanding that I not only produce the movie, but also more content for the show.

Speaker 1 And I told them, there's only so many hours in a day, man, that's going to be impossible.

Speaker 1 And I said, if you want it to be possible, I can make it work, but I want to have half of the monetization from the show, 50% profit split, which I thought is fair.

Speaker 1 If you want me to do double work when I was getting almost nothing before, split me in on the profits. They fired us immediately.

Speaker 1 Me and my two childhood friends who I hired to work on the show with me were all out of a job. As we were filming for the now HBO project, we got our fire notices.

Speaker 1 The guts on those, on that, and that person to because you should be owning probably close to 100 of it i think so too but they didn't see it that way because they figured we made the initial investment we discovered him is how they're they looked at it so it wasn't reed but it was the other partner who wasn't reed who said we have tons of verbatim he said this we have i have tons of connections in the comedy world we can replace andrew overnight

Speaker 1 I'm not sure why he made that miscalculation. I wish he would have thought about it twice.
I wish it didn't have to end end like that, but it did. Why do people do that?

Speaker 1 Like, what's the benefit of acting like that? I think you can part amicably

Speaker 1 without the drama. I think all betrayal and anything like that is motivated by self-interest, whether that be economic success, social stability, whatever it is.

Speaker 1 They figured that because I was being such a burden and asking for the profit, that they could just release me and find someone equally talented and not split them in so they can make more money.

Speaker 1 Oh, I see. Well, that's a

Speaker 1 stupid way to think. People think like that, man.
People who are

Speaker 1 the word I use is like sidekick syndrome.

Speaker 1 Like when people are kind of a part of the production, but they're not integral, they start thinking that the front man doesn't matter or something and that the brains of the operation are actually the people on the periphery.

Speaker 1 And so they start to believe that they can just shift things around and the audience won't care.

Speaker 1 Not realizing that I was actually the one who created the show and that the lore of the show is connected to my rise outside of their jurisdiction, if that makes sense.

Speaker 1 Like the people who watch All Gas, No Breaks watched Quarter Confessions and read the book. And so,

Speaker 1 you know, well, this happens also not just financially, but just with people

Speaker 1 that

Speaker 1 are part of a team, but they don't really contribute creatively to the team and they

Speaker 1 force their opinion or pressure. I mean, whether it comes from

Speaker 1 like from editors or all that kind of stuff or from sponsors or this there's pressure they create when they when the the creator alone should be celebrated and have all the power because they're the ones that are creating the thing in a way i have sympathy because i i can't relate to that because i've always been the front man of my own projects by design so i'm not sure what it's like to be uh

Speaker 1 like someone's owner from a content perspective i don't understand the challenges they face maybe there was something that i didn't understand i don't know true well oftentimes if you own a thing like this, like this company, you do think about brand.

Speaker 1 Right. And then maybe you have a big picture idea of what brand means.
And that

Speaker 1 can

Speaker 1 be at tension with

Speaker 1 the creative project, right? Yeah.

Speaker 1 Like, but ultimately, freedom for the creators is the best kind of brand. Yeah.
I remember all three of us who worked on all gas, no breaks, got fired at the same time.

Speaker 1 And we were in that, we were in the RV that Tim and Eric's company bought for us, which was a bigger RV in the parking lot, parking lot of a Walmart in South Philly.

Speaker 1 And the propane had just ran out and it was 15 degrees outside. So like the RV was getting really cold really fast.
And I just looked at my phone and it was like, you're fired.

Speaker 1 And I was just like, God help me. But I've had a couple moments like that.
And God does help me. And they were always in the parking lot of Walmart, right? Well, yeah.
Although.

Speaker 1 I know that Walmart, by the way. The one in South Philly is great.
Yeah, that's great. But technically now you can't park an RV there.
Well, you're not you're not a man who follows the rules.

Speaker 1 Well, you know what I mean? The thing is, though, is Walmart, Cracker Barrel, and Big Five are supposed to technically all let RV campers park overnight.

Speaker 1 But if there's like a crime problem in the city where they're at, they can lobby. Individual Walmarts can lobby with the corporate to take that away.

Speaker 1 So like all the Portland Walmarts, you can't sleep there anymore. Any city with like significant homelessness and like petty property crime, the Walmarts are a no-go.

Speaker 1 Fascinating. So that was a low point.
Yeah.

Speaker 1 And, but from there, from the ashes, the Phoenix rose. Over time, yeah.
Channel 5 was born. Channel 5 was born in the March of 2021

Speaker 1 after we finished filming for the HBO project. Oh, really? So you went all in on the HBO project, I think.
Yeah, I mean, we filmed the HBO project from November 2020 up until April 2021. Damn near.

Speaker 1 We were just like, you know, picking up the pieces, going back for individual interviews stuff like that so let's go to that project it turned out to be a movie called this place rules it was supposed to be called america shits itself yeah maybe you can tell the story of the film you have what's his name i wrote this down joker gang and gum gang is that correct yeah the opening scene the opening scene of two characters um just talking shit and then getting into a fight and that i i think was really brilliant how you presented that as a almost like a microcosm of like the division between the the extremes of the left and the extremes of the right that's exactly what it was i'm glad you picked up on it yeah and then what i really liked is that the joke again um joker gang was kind of a little bit of a spoiler alert i apologize but at the end of the film as a kind of um

Speaker 1 a voice of wisdom yeah i just he seems the most he seems the most sane he was the voice of wisdom he like cut through it yeah i also just realized a lot of people are going to stream the movie after watching this podcast which is cool yeah where do they stream it on hbo max yeah hbo max but i never got a chance to promote the movie it's such a pain in the ass man i wish we could all just pay on it on youtube or something yeah and hbo gets the profits or whatever but like it's such a i have to subscribe for every single thing but yes if you want to watch it it's really i recommend extremely highly sign up to hbo whatever the hell on the positive note hbo is great to work with like that they're the most professional like respectful company i've ever worked with pretty much Yeah, HBO has created some of the greatest, like, TV ever.

Speaker 1 But even in the background, like, they get shit done. There's, there's no, there's no wait time.

Speaker 1 They have some of the best heavy hitters on their team for trailers, for posters, all the promotional apparatus they have is, like, super solid. Did you get like good notes from people there?

Speaker 1 Like, how to... A little bit, man, but you know.

Speaker 1 It's a truly original documentary. Like, meaning like...

Speaker 1 I just haven't seen anything like it. It's even like...

Speaker 1 So there's a humor and a lightness at the right kinds of moments.

Speaker 1 Like, like I said, there's like a rooster in your, that's like, okay, that's like a non-sequitur like thing as part of a storytelling. It kind of intensifies and reveals the absurdity of the division

Speaker 1 and how once like January 6th happens, like everybody goes on to the next thing. Yeah.
It's like, what happened to us?

Speaker 1 It was almost like a delirium that everybody was participating in some weird, just like, well, like people say, mind virus. Like all of a sudden we just got captured.
Yeah.

Speaker 1 And people are just like yelling at each other, doing the most ridiculous

Speaker 1 and

Speaker 1 i mean

Speaker 1 really january 6th the way you presented especially just reveals the circus of it all i mean it really broke the the fourth wall or that's how i would describe it because if you were at january 6th and the lead up it felt like it was the beginning to a series of similar riots but it just popped off so much that that was it you haven't seen anything like it since it was supposed to be a second one on january 20th it was the actual inauguration That never happened.

Speaker 1 It was a crazy time to be alive and around. And especially the relationship that I developed with Enrique Tario, who's the former chairman of the Proud Boys.

Speaker 1 He's now facing, you know, 23 years in prison. It's like a trip because I went to his house in Miami maybe two weeks after January 6th.
And

Speaker 1 talking to him, it seemed like he didn't think anything was going to happen. He was just like, yeah, man, that was crazy.
I'm glad I wasn't there. Like, they're dumb for doing that.

Speaker 1 He even told me he doesn't think the election was stolen,

Speaker 1 which is just a mind fuck. It's like, why'd you get everyone so hyped up?

Speaker 1 It's just weird to think about how so many people's lives are drastically altered forever because of that just bizarre moment in time that we'll always live on.

Speaker 1 Yeah, what did you QAnon as part of that story? What did you learn about QAnon from that?

Speaker 1 Just an all-encompassing worldview. That family that I talked to, I call them the QAnon family, but it's called the Spencer family.

Speaker 1 You know, they were non-political up up until the Stop the Steel movement began in September of 2020. And within four months, their entire life revolved around the mythology and lore of Q.

Speaker 1 And I've never seen in my life a psyop just devour people's minds in such an intense way in such a rapid period of time. And I love how the kids in the movie are also the voices of wisdom.

Speaker 1 In the Spencer family, it's the kid who like goes through the full journey

Speaker 1 of like believing

Speaker 1 that whatever Hillary Clinton is a lizard or and just believing all the the worst versions of the conspiracy theories and then kind of waking up was like what was the point?

Speaker 1 Yeah, it was heartbreaking to see his disappointment in his dad for even you know following QAnon so militantly because he was like I feel like they let my dad down.

Speaker 1 I feel like they let our family down you know because January 6th was supposed to be the day according to QAnon that the storm happens and that the military is supposed to mobilize and arrest the members of the deep state, Clinton, Soros, all that.

Speaker 1 Trump was supposed to go into a helicopter, you know what I mean? And take control of the country back from, you know, the swamp. And it didn't happen.

Speaker 1 In fact, the next day, he was like almost denouncing it. Now he doesn't, but then he did.
And it was a really, I think it hurt people's pride a lot.

Speaker 1 My friend Forgioto Blow, he's a Trump rapper. He describes it that way.
He says a lot of people's pride got hurt by January 6th. Trump rapper.
Oh, yeah, dude.

Speaker 1 Honestly, there's some pretty dope dope Trump rap out there.

Speaker 1 I'm serious.

Speaker 1 MAGA rap.

Speaker 1 Yeah, like you would think, oh yeah, MAGA, there's no rappers there, but there's rappers, and they do a pretty good job. They're good? At delivering the messaging they want to deliver, yeah.

Speaker 1 I mean, they think of stuff that I'm like, that's clever.

Speaker 1 Oh, they have some political depth to them. Yeah.
Wow.

Speaker 1 I mean, is there something more you could say about like how Q ⁇ A works? Like, who's behind it?

Speaker 1 What's your sense of who's behind the whole thing? You know,

Speaker 1 I don't want this to sound rude or anything. I just don't care about QAnon.
You know what I mean?

Speaker 1 I've put so much thought into it, and

Speaker 1 I just can't seem to care about it.

Speaker 1 Was it almost a disappointment?

Speaker 1 To me, it was like a thing that just captured a very large number of people's minds, and then it just kind of faded. I guess that's why.
It just seems like it's gone.

Speaker 1 And the ideas of QAnon have just bled into mainstream standard conservative thinking. But there has to be a kind of retrospective like, that's the problem I have with COVID.

Speaker 1 You know, a lot of stuff happened. Everybody freaked out.
There's a lot of big drama around it. And now everyone's like, okay, forgot.
Yeah. Just like moved up.
Wait, what are the lessons learned?

Speaker 1 Has anyone learned any lessons? Yeah.

Speaker 1 Exactly. And what I'm saying is, I don't want QAnon adherents to see this and think, I don't care about them.
Yeah. But like, as far as who is behind it, the damage is done.

Speaker 1 Yeah, but what are the mechanisms that made it work? I mean, that's really... Have you kind of like thought about that?

Speaker 1 I kind of think that these viral ideas can be driven by, and your film kind of shows this, by just a handful of people. And they're not malevolent.
They just want the clout.

Speaker 1 Yeah.

Speaker 1 And there's something sexy. There's something really sticky about conspiracy theories, like especially extreme ones.
You just kind of like,

Speaker 1 some of them can can have this momentum. They capture the minds of a lot of people and you just go with it.
And like, when I hear some conspiracy theories, like

Speaker 1 there's something, like a small part of me that kind of like,

Speaker 1 yeah,

Speaker 1 it's excited.

Speaker 1 It's possible, you know, that QAnon is a psyop to distract people away from actually uncovering what the deep state is and who is truly running things behind the scenes because the deep state is just the 1%.

Speaker 1 It's that you take, you get people so close to any type of class consciousness, and then you totally divert everything into like lizard humans who live on the moon and that Hillary Clinton is eating babies on camera.

Speaker 1 And QAnon did just that.

Speaker 1 They want to convince you that one, there's no conservative deep state, which is even more hilarious, that Trump isn't connected to a huge, rich corporate apparatus of propagandists.

Speaker 1 And two, that the Democratic establishment is the only deep state. And that some middle-of-the-road conservatives that there's no grifters or manipulators outside of

Speaker 1 that

Speaker 1 three-headed snake you know there's grifters everywhere everywhere everyone wants to make money dude this is the world that we're in it's in collapse everybody wants to make money and engagement is the rule of law so anything that's why these news organizations follow retention incentives they want to make money by selling ads so they try to create fear and constant division to enrich corporate media establishment And you have people who are almost realizing: hey, it seems like Fox and CNN might be owned by the same people and are tactically using these machines to keep us divided perfectly 50-50 to ensure that the power structure never gets disrupted.

Speaker 1 And then you guys, then you get these people, you know, who's going to save us? Donald Trump. That's the guy.
How is that the guy?

Speaker 1 It's not the guy. I don't have TDS.
I don't, I'm not an orange man basher who thinks about the guy all the time, but I don't think he's the guy.

Speaker 1 you were shirtless

Speaker 1 lifting weights while whiskey or some alcohol was poured into your mouth by alex jones in this movie and then you did the same to him that's true

Speaker 1 that feels like an interrogation uh so alex was a

Speaker 1 was a part of this film he was like throughout throughout the narrative and yet you had a great interview with him

Speaker 1 What did you learn about interacting with Alex, Alex Jones, from making this this film? For one, is that he's the exact same off-camera as he is on-camera. Yeah.
It's not an act.

Speaker 1 He told me that all real Americans die before 58. He mentioned Sean Connery and a few others.
And

Speaker 1 how old is he?

Speaker 1 Getting up there. Yeah.
I think early 50s. Yeah.

Speaker 1 I just found it fascinating. I mean, how nice his studio is.
I mean, the guy's got like an MSNBC level setup. I actually had a great time with him.
You know?

Speaker 1 I mean, it's bizarre because having him in that movie created so many problems for me. And when I interviewed him, you know, I didn't necessarily portray him in the best light.

Speaker 1 You know, we joked around a bit, but it wasn't an Alex Jones hit piece necessarily.

Speaker 1 But I like to think that I was a bit critical of him in the film, especially the ways that he antagonized his supporters to storm the Capitol or to follow that trajectory.

Speaker 1 He told me when I met with him, he was like, I know you think that having me in this movie is a a good idea, but you're going to have some serious backlash because of that.

Speaker 1 At the time, I was like, man, it's fine. You know, it's all good.
We're just hanging out, drinking whiskey, doing bench presses, drinking Jameson. It's all good.

Speaker 1 It was,

Speaker 1 first of all, I had to campaign to get him in the film because the studios were like, we don't, there was a bizarre time around like, I think it was 2018 where deplatforming was the big thing that people were encouraging.

Speaker 1 It said giving a platform to problematic ideologies will in turn expand their their reach. And so even extending your platform to someone who's problematic is helping them,

Speaker 1 aka destroying humanity, whatever it was. So that was the whole thing.
And

Speaker 1 when I did this media training that was, you know, mandated by HBO,

Speaker 1 it was all training and how to defend from that exact question.

Speaker 1 They said,

Speaker 1 when we put you on NPR and we put you on CNN,

Speaker 1 they're going to ask you about platforming problematic ideologies. And you're going to have to say stuff like, sunlight is the best disinfectant.

Speaker 1 I believe that extremism only goes away when you shine a light on it because leaving it in the dark will only allow it to grow. They gave me like 15 pointers.

Speaker 1 I didn't use any of those pointers because I'm not the kind of person who wants to be media trained. I like to speak freely.

Speaker 1 But in the promotional run for the film, you know, when I went on CNN, this was a crazy experience.

Speaker 1 So I went on CNN. And thankfully, my friend was with me.
And so I'm on CNN.

Speaker 1 By the way, your friend is chilling in sunglasses, laying in the couch right now. That's Larry Seuss.

Speaker 1 It's a mix of like the dude from Big Lebowski and

Speaker 1 the Brad Pitt role in True Romance. Yeah.
You know that reference? No, but I mean, I'm sure it describes Larry Seuss. It kind of looks like Brad Jack Kerwak.

Speaker 1 So HBO had a press tour set up for me, and the main ones ones were CNN and NPR. And so they said,

Speaker 1 you're going to go on CNN on the Don Lemon morning show.

Speaker 1 And he's going to ask you about your life, what led up to the movie, what we can expect. So I get in the studio.
It's about seven o'clock in the morning in New York.

Speaker 1 I had a show the night before at Times Square. So I'm like groggy-eyed, whatever.
They put the lav on me. Boom, I'm live on CNN Sunday morning.

Speaker 1 And he goes, How would you describe Enrique Tario's mental state in the lead up to the Capitol insurrection?

Speaker 1 And I'm looking around. I'm like, is this guy serious? Like, am I sandwiched in the January 6th hit piece right now? I thought it was about me.
And so I told him, it's not about Enrique Tario.

Speaker 1 It's about how companies like Fox, MSNBC, and even your station, CNN,

Speaker 1 use the 24-hour news cycle to enrage people to generate ad revenue and pit Americans against each other during times like that. And he said, there's nothing fake about CNN.

Speaker 1 I said, I didn't say you were fake news.

Speaker 1 I'm not saying you're lying, but you're directly antagonizing and stirring people up against half half the country because you need money during to support a dying platform. You said that.

Speaker 1 Pretty much. Nice.
And

Speaker 1 you know,

Speaker 1 I was so, my mom was watching it. She was texting me.
She was like, what are you doing? And I was like, I don't know. And so he goes, why'd you extend the platform to Alex Jones?

Speaker 1 And I go, I don't know. I just wanted to drink some Jameson and lift some weights with him.
You know, I'm just, at this point, I don't support that kind of media. I don't support CNN.
So,

Speaker 1 you know, I just, I didn't give them much information about Alex, but it was was very awkward. They never posted the segment online.
When I got off of that interview,

Speaker 1 I had a handler that A24 assigned to me. So I had someone with me, and she, you could tell she was flustered.
Like, she was furious about what I just did.

Speaker 1 And so she goes, I just got an email from Time Warner C-Suite. And I go, what's Time Warner C-Suite?

Speaker 1 She says, I don't know if you know this, but the same people who own who own, the same people who own CNN own HBO.

Speaker 1 And it's Time Warner. And so they canceled my press press tour.

Speaker 1 So my press tour was finished, you know.

Speaker 1 All the late night shows that I was supposed to go on, I was supposed to go on like the late night shows. And that was off the table because they were worried that I was like a loose cannon, I think.

Speaker 1 And then the only remaining

Speaker 1 appearance I had left was NPR in Boston. And that was supposed to be.
a premiere. So it wasn't supposed to be an interrogation.
It wasn't supposed to be anything like that.

Speaker 1 Supposed to be a premiere in front of a live audience where they watched a a film and I show up after for a QA. So I'm like, all right, whatever.
It's kind of weird.

Speaker 1 They only have this one press opportunity left. I kind of felt bad that I ruined the entire press tour by confronting Don Lemon.

Speaker 1 But at this point, I wanted to just do this final one, especially because it was a viewing. And I was like, cool.
I want to, I sat in the audience. I watched people laugh to the film.
It was awesome.

Speaker 1 So I go backstage and there's an NPR journalist waiting for me. And nothing against people who wear masks, but she had two N95s on.
And I'm not, two N95s is

Speaker 1 over the line. So I go, hey, great to meet you.
She doesn't shake my hand. And I go, why not? And she goes, you've been around some people who I don't want their germs.
Yeah.

Speaker 1 Oh. And I'm like, okay, okay.
This is weird. I thought this is a sort of like fun premiere for my movie.
We sit down.

Speaker 1 The first thing she asks me is, how do you think the Sandy Hook families would feel about you platforming one of the most despicable Americans in history, Alex Jones?

Speaker 1 in front of a live audience. NPR never published this.
The only recordings of it are by a fan named Rob in Boston who put it on YouTube, vertical phone footage.

Speaker 1 And I literally am like, well, the Sandy Hook family's lawyer, Mark Bankston, who represented them in court in Connecticut, told me specifically that Leonard Posner, the father of Noah Posner, who died at Sandy Hook, was a huge fan of the film.

Speaker 1 And so I said that to her, and that kind of just like silenced that conversation.

Speaker 1 But the rest of the whole conversation was just about exploitation and why are you platforming mentally ill people and giving a platform to conspiracies like QAnon?

Speaker 1 Don't you feel like you're a part of their spread? Some would call you a misinformation reporter.

Speaker 1 All this crazy stuff. And yeah,

Speaker 1 next day hit the fan. Fuck all those people.
That film, just in case you don't get a chance to see it and you should, you're critical of Alex Jones in the most

Speaker 1 artful way. Like, it was the correct way to be critical.

Speaker 1 It showed him to

Speaker 1 be more interested in

Speaker 1 the grift of it.

Speaker 1 And you didn't do it in

Speaker 1 pointing fingers and like saying

Speaker 1 in the kind of NPR way that you just mentioned.

Speaker 1 But more like a human way. Like, this is...

Speaker 1 Tragedies happen all over the world and there's grifters that roll in and then take advantage of it in interesting ways. And then human beings get swept up on either side of it.

Speaker 1 And it's revealing the humor, the absurdity of it all. And it was done masterfully.
It was done, like for people who criticize you for platforming Alice Jones or whatever. Yeah.
The film,

Speaker 1 from a political perspective, is probably leans very much left. Yeah.
Like heavily left, but does it without that exhausting energy of like judging. Right.
Just this kind of, you know,

Speaker 1 yeah, two masks kind of judging. Yeah.
And it was just

Speaker 1 when all that was happening, when I was under fire from the mainstream press for platforming Alex Jones, I thought back to what he said to me.

Speaker 1 And it doesn't mean I agree with everything he says, but he told me, you're going to be in trouble with these people if you put me in your video.

Speaker 1 And, you know, it wasn't too bad a trouble, but definitely I do think sometimes what the film. would have been like without him.

Speaker 1 And I think that it was worth it because his scene is so funny to me and it brings me me back to a different time in my life. And I'm happy that that scene's out there.

Speaker 1 I think it was really well done. Thanks, man.

Speaker 1 The layering of it all, the entertainment, plus sort of not considering from his perspective the consequences of like rallying people up in this way, that it's not just, I mean, you really highlight this in the interview.

Speaker 1 Like it's, he keeps saying it's info wars, but then there's always kind of a sense that info wars can turn to actual like civil war. And yeah, but maybe not.
Maybe it's all just a circus.

Speaker 1 Like we play for each other. If you look at the speech he did on January 5th, it was said, he said, tomorrow, you know, millions of patriotic Americans will take our country back.
Yeah.

Speaker 1 So he eggs people on, and then when it gets hot, he steps away.

Speaker 1 Yeah.

Speaker 1 But like you said, the thing he told you, he turned out to be right. Oh, yeah.
And the frogs are becoming gay. They've always been gay.

Speaker 1 Well, saying frogs are straight is even crazier. I've read stories where you kiss one and it becomes a prince.

Speaker 1 Yeah, that shit's true. 100%.

Speaker 1 You think Alex believes what he says in terms of

Speaker 1 everything he says on Infowars? Like, how much of it is real? He's right about

Speaker 1 big tech censorship. I mean, I think if he's right about anything, it would probably be the heads of big tech colluding together across company lines to deplatform certain people.

Speaker 1 He's right about that.

Speaker 1 I think most of the things that he says follow the question everything narrative and then everything is kind of like a conspiracy or like a plot or a false flag.

Speaker 1 I think that he's built up a following for so long that wants him to do that, you know.

Speaker 1 So, I think he'll question things that he probably thinks are relatively straightforward because that's the shtick of the show.

Speaker 1 I mean, the info war is fighting misinformation, and people want to see him be that guy.

Speaker 1 To a certain extent, if you're a creator who supports your family, you do follow economic incentives, and people want you to be the character.

Speaker 1 And so you're going to naturally gravitate toward being it. Do you feel that pressure yourself? I did years ago.
Not anymore.

Speaker 1 I feel like now I can speak freely and really say what I want to say in my new life.

Speaker 1 But when I was younger, yeah, I feel like I had to be this sort of awkward, sort of amicable, aloof guy who just didn't think anything about anything and just was here to listen.

Speaker 1 But now I feel more confident adding some narrative and voiceover and things like that.

Speaker 1 So for some people, especially who publish on YouTube, the YouTube algorithm, they can become a slave to to the YouTube algorithm.

Speaker 1 Yeah, I mean, for sure, because, and I definitely feel that sometimes I know what works for me, but I like to think that my audience appreciates when I try new things.

Speaker 1 So I'm not totally enslaved to it. I mean,

Speaker 1 yeah, I try not to pay attention to views or any of that. Well, you get some high views, so I'll report that for you.

Speaker 1 So I wrote a Chrome extension that hides all the views on anything I create. So you took it to that level? Yeah, just because it's a drug, man.

Speaker 1 And I'm also a number guy, meaning like you give me like if I do 30 push-ups today, tomorrow I'm going to try to do 35, just like enjoying the number go up.

Speaker 1 Like, that's why I like video games, like uh, RPGs, like where you're like improving your skill tree, you're like getting an extra point.

Speaker 1 And there's some aspect of YouTube and other platforms, anything and any other platform, you're like, ooh, I got more today than got yesterday.

Speaker 1 That's really, really dangerous to me because it can influence how much I enjoy a thing.

Speaker 1 Like, if nobody gives a shit about it based on the numbers,

Speaker 1 you're like, oh, maybe that wasn't such a great experience. I thought it was a great experience, but maybe it wasn't.
Yeah, honestly, I do actually

Speaker 1 feel that way sometimes.

Speaker 1 Like, I'll put out something that I care about a lot, but if it doesn't get as many views, I'm like, all right, it must have not been as good as my higher view videos or whatever.

Speaker 1 Yeah, that's that's just like not true, though. Yeah.
And

Speaker 1 it might mean like on YouTube that your thumbnail sucks sucks or something like this or whatever, whatever, however the algorithm works.

Speaker 1 But I mean, that's the thing I'm battling against to make sure I ignore all of that. Right.
It's actually something Joe Rogan has been extremely good at. He gives zero shits.
Yeah.

Speaker 1 And I think it's easier to do when you're really successful. He was doing that when he wasn't successful.
Really? But anything.

Speaker 1 He just follows like the stuff he enjoys doing and legitimately enjoys it.

Speaker 1 He happens to be really good at it, but he gets good because he's doing the things he really enjoys and like like full-on, yeah, passionate about.

Speaker 1 And that's why he'll have like ridiculous guests and just

Speaker 1 like just shit he enjoys doing. Yeah, that's pretty cool.
Maybe I'll one day try to do that.

Speaker 1 For now, I'm too attached to like the gratification of getting a million views in a day and stuff like that. I'm not going to lie to you and say that I've beat that or something.

Speaker 1 Well, it's a worthy enemy to be fighting because it's a drug and it's one that should be

Speaker 1 resisted for a creator. Because I feel like it can do negative stuff to your mind as a creator.
Oh, yeah, for sure. Anybody that controls you

Speaker 1 is not good. A lot of people are controlled by their audience.
They don't have to have a puppet master on a corporate level. Audience incentive is a different type of,

Speaker 1 I don't want to say slavery, but. Yeah, it is.
And that's why variety is good. And you're doing that.
Yeah. Always expanding.
Well, let me just zoom out on this. You made a film.
Yeah.

Speaker 1 That's pretty cool. Yeah, it was a great experience, man.
I mean, it was awesome working with Tim and Eric. Awesome working with Jonah Hill.
I feel the same about HBO and A24.

Speaker 1 Everybody that I worked on the film with, I have a lot of love for, and I appreciate the experience. It's my first movie.
It's a big deal. Like, it was a good one.

Speaker 1 In my head, it's like I finally got to make the transition from a YouTuber to filmmaker. And that was always this psychic barrier that I felt like I had to jump over, you know?

Speaker 1 There's a, I mean, just the way it's shot, the humor that goes throughout it, just the narration that you're doing in like a shitty director's chair.

Speaker 1 Um,

Speaker 1 that was really well done. Whose idea was that? Uh, it was actually Tim and Eric's idea.

Speaker 1 There was a really great editor named Clay who works for Absolutely, and they did all the editing pretty much in the office.

Speaker 1 And so it was Clay's idea to add a retrospective director's chair narrative arc to the whole film.

Speaker 1 Yeah, just like starting with the absurd fight and then going, Oh, that's a good way to start the movie. Just really, really well done.
Thanks, man.

Speaker 1 What about Jonah Hill?

Speaker 1 Great guy. He believed in this.
He did.

Speaker 1 So was that, what's that like? What do you think is behind him believing in such a wild project? I think that Jonah Hill has a good eye for what's cool amongst the younger folks.

Speaker 1 He's into skateboarding stuff. That's why he did that film mid-90s.
And I think he probably saw a similar thing in what was going on with all gas, no breaks, and was like, shit,

Speaker 1 this could be big. And so not only did he actually fund the film, he also gave me his agent.

Speaker 1 And I I forgot to mention that it was Jonah Hill's lawyers that he gave me for free that got me out of my contract eventually with doing things media or freed me up to speak about what happened.

Speaker 1 So he was also part of you kind of gaining your freedom.

Speaker 1 Yeah, in a weird way, like even though him and I don't talk that much, just because he's doing his own thing, Jonah Hill is like a huge factor in my current success and just like everything that I've been able to accomplish.

Speaker 1 Just on your own politics, is it fair to say that your

Speaker 1 politics leans left? I'm not really sure sometimes. You know, I like to think that I am socially left.
Like I think people should be able to dress and act like however they want.

Speaker 1 I don't believe in restricting people's social freedoms.

Speaker 1 Economics-wise, it doesn't seem like leftist economic policy works very well on a

Speaker 1 city funding level. Like if you see what's going on in California, it seems like the

Speaker 1 the city leadership is mishandling the funds in California too. So I don't know about that, but I don't know.
I don't really see myself as left or right.

Speaker 1 I just never have. Well, if you just like objectively zoom out and don't have an insane standard of the extremes,

Speaker 1 it feels like a lot of your work leans left. I tend to

Speaker 1 lean toward like the

Speaker 1 empathetic perspective, which I do think is more on the left than the right.

Speaker 1 But I also, I'm not into like super like PC

Speaker 1 stuff.

Speaker 1 You know, I don't believe in limiting free speech either. I don't believe that I believe in a free internet, which I think is more embraced now by conservatives.

Speaker 1 But it does seem that maybe you can correct me, but I get the sense sometimes that the left attack their own very intensely. It does happen.
But every community has terms of exile.

Speaker 1 I mean, look, imagine, think about what happens in the conservative realm. You know, like when Black Rifle Coffee Company like denounced Kyle Rittenhouse, they lost a lot of money, too.

Speaker 1 Like, it's not the right attacks its own, too. I mean, think about Bud Light and stuff.
Like, they

Speaker 1 terms of exile. I mean, you know, like every community has

Speaker 1 terms of exile. You just got to know who you're engaging with, and you got to make that decision carefully.

Speaker 1 It'd be nice if there's an actual write-up of the things you're not allowed to say for each thing.

Speaker 1 Yeah. I wonder whose list would be longer.
It just does feel like the last list is a little longer. If you're a conservative and you have a t-shirt with like a demon on it, like say goodbye.

Speaker 1 You know what I mean?

Speaker 1 You know, there's certain stuff that they freak the hell out about.

Speaker 1 And conservatives are really concerned about pedophiles. Yeah.
I mean, I don't like pedophiles either, but I don't think about it all the time.

Speaker 1 Well, it's one of the things you do in the film is kind of confront one of the QAnon folks where his concern is that everybody's a pedophile. And you show to him.

Speaker 1 Well, calls himself a pedophile hunter and makes videos exposing democratic elite pedophile cabals and is himself a convicted child molester.

Speaker 1 There's an old thing that people say that every confession, every accusation is a confession to a certain extent.

Speaker 1 So like it's it's bizarre that some people's whole life after a big mistake will revolve around trying to seem like the good guy instead of taking accountability for themselves. Yeah.

Speaker 1 It's a common thing you see all the time. Like neighborhood watch people.
You know what I mean? Like, what made you that? You know, like, what did you do, bro?

Speaker 1 That you feel like you have to get karmic retribution by doing the reverse. I don't get it.
Yeah. Do you think to the degree you have bias it affects your journalism? No, but

Speaker 1 I mean, with the migrant situation, I don't know. What was that covering that?

Speaker 1 Like, I just got a lot a lot of hate from conservatives for like letting the migrants tell their stories about their journey and stuff.

Speaker 1 What did you learn from just going to the border? I mean, just the sheer desperation that

Speaker 1 the citizens of the world are in. I mean, there's people who truly believe that America is the only hope for their success and to feed their family.

Speaker 1 And I think a lot of them are kind of getting catfished. Meaning America has its problems too? It has severe problems.
There's extreme poverty here.

Speaker 1 But in America, like if you just compare it to other nations, the level of corruption is much lower to where the opportunity for a person to succeed, to rise is higher.

Speaker 1 I wish success on everybody who comes here.

Speaker 1 But my thing is the expectation that they have and the sort of American dream propaganda they've been installed with isn't necessarily a reflection of contemporary American reality.

Speaker 1 So I'm talking to people who speak no English and say, I'm here for a better life. I go, where are you going to go? They say, I have no idea.
And I'm like, man, that's tough.

Speaker 1 And you almost think, how bad are things elsewhere? for someone to abandon their family, make this journey across multiple continents and end up here with no plan.

Speaker 1 And it just made me realize how sheltered I am to a certain extent as an American. And going,

Speaker 1 walking back what I said a little bit, because I was just trying to make a point.

Speaker 1 But what I think of as bad poverty, like let's say West Baltimore or Ninth Ward New Orleans, is nothing compared to what's going on in almost half of the world, if not more.

Speaker 1 And so it just made me zoom out a little bit. Sometimes you forget about third world poverty when you live here for so long.

Speaker 1 And you get programmed to believe the worst things that are out there is like Kensington, Philadelphia, or Tenderloin, San Francisco.

Speaker 1 But those are just microcosms of more or less functioning cities, despite what they might lead you to believe. Philadelphia is a great place.
So is San Francisco.

Speaker 1 But there's places where everywhere is

Speaker 1 really run down.

Speaker 1 Yeah, and like people focus on in major cities in the United States, like homelessness, somehow that's a sign of a fallen empire. Right.
But, you know, that's a problem. There's definitely,

Speaker 1 it reveals some mismanagement of cities.

Speaker 1 and governments i mean homelessness in seattle and san francisco is for sure a result of the housing crisis especially post-covet and all the gentrification that preceded it you know and it's unfortunate now to

Speaker 1 that the conservative media is saying like look at biden's america as if biden created homeless people and it's just disappointing because once again you're seeing the media

Speaker 1 use real issues that should concern every U.S. citizen and

Speaker 1 causing people to point fingers at a different political party as responsible for the suffering of others.

Speaker 1 Do you think January 6th can happen again? No.

Speaker 1 I don't think so. So all the lessons were learned? Yeah, for sure.
I mean, people got really screwed over. I mean,

Speaker 1 don't you have a sense that there's a greater and greater growing questioning of

Speaker 1 the electoral process and all this kind of stuff? I think that Americans overall are very comfortable with our standard of living.

Speaker 1 I I think people like going to Sonic and waiting in their car and getting milkshakes and people like going to the AMC theaters and they like going ice skating and mini golfing and going to the bar after work.

Speaker 1 I don't think that anyone wants a collapse of the basic structure of the country. Even the most politically divided don't want to see 7-Eleven go away.
We are so comfortable.

Speaker 1 If you look at other countries, even Europe, look at how they protest. And look at the Arab Spring.
Those guys were talking like January 6ers and they actually took control of the government.

Speaker 1 You know, And so

Speaker 1 think about even if the MAGA crowd took over the Capitol building, it's just a building.

Speaker 1 I don't know. I just think that Americans, when they talk about Civil War stuff, it's just so, we're so far from that.
Even if the rhetoric is as divided as it was in 2020, it won't happen again.

Speaker 1 For it to really happen, it has to be a...

Speaker 1 There has to be a level of desperation. There has to be a level of economic desperation that's causing people to starve or some basic resource going away.
Water, something like that.

Speaker 1 Who do you think wins? Trump or Biden? In the Civil War? Well,

Speaker 1 in a game of Mario Kart. No, in the election 2024.
Oh, man. I have no idea, man.
I don't even know if I'm going to vote. It's weird that this is our choice.
I know.

Speaker 1 I wish people were more focused on city politics. Like, I'd rather vote yes or no for a bike lane in my neighborhood than I would for the president.
So local politics to you is where it is.

Speaker 1 I think there's a feel it. Oh, I mean, you can, your vote actually matters.
Let's say you have a community of 500 people and you live in Henderson, Nevada.

Speaker 1 You can influence whether or not there's a bike lane or if this is going to be a playground or, you know, an AMPM. You get to choose.
And you can influence 100 people to choose.

Speaker 1 And boom, this is your community. You can't influence the result of an election.

Speaker 1 Still, those at the presidential level, it sets the tone of the country.

Speaker 1 And so so, Trump running again and Biden running again, it just feels like there's going to be a lot of questioning of election results. I just can't believe those are our guys.
Yeah.

Speaker 1 I mean, what is that's really our guys?

Speaker 1 Like, that's where we're at. All these smart people we have in this country, the great history.

Speaker 1 We got Joker Gang versus Gum Gang.

Speaker 1 Where'd you find Joker Gang?

Speaker 1 Well, is he a legit Juggalo or is he just no, no, no, no. Joker Gang is like a Miami Cuban guy.
Oh, is Joker305 Raw is Chico alive? So, me and

Speaker 1 I have been following him for a long time on Instagram because he used to like

Speaker 1 post videos of himself like popping Percocets and smoking bluts on the toilet, freestyling. And so, I had followed him for a while.

Speaker 1 And then I finally got this platform and I said, oh my God, I bet you now that we have a million followers, Joker Gang will sit down with us. And lo and behold, the clout did its thing.

Speaker 1 And there I was, face to face with the man.

Speaker 1 There was a controversy a year ago where a woman came forward and said that you were pushy with her. You respected the no, you got the consent, but you were pushy about it.

Speaker 1 Looking back, can you tell the story of that? What are the lessons you learned from it?

Speaker 1 Yeah, I mean, I've yet to speak on this for a lot of reasons, mostly because it's just it was a hard time and it's a sensitive subject, and I've wanted to prioritize the reporting.

Speaker 1 But I think that now I'm

Speaker 1 ready and able to do so. Everything sort of started on December 30th, 2022.
And that was the release date of the HBO project. Like I told you, we didn't know when the movie was going to come out.

Speaker 1 We weren't told that it was going to come out on that date until early November. And so it was like, oh my God, here we go.
We got a movie coming out.

Speaker 1 HBO had, I didn't even know it was going to be them. So

Speaker 1 every day for those 50 days. to where I received word and to the movie announcement or to the movie release was like, I was like a kid waiting for Christmas morning.

Speaker 1 You what i mean it was like every day i just i saw the movie release date as the first day of like the rest of my life and so i remember the week of the movie release it was like every day i was like oh my god six days five days four days and when it became two days like i was so excited and so like

Speaker 1 honestly anxiety riddled because it was such a massive platform that I went out to the desert by myself out in the Mojave, got a hotel and just kind of sat there. And then

Speaker 1 movie release day comes. It was supposed to come out at 8 p.m.
Pacific Standard Time. I remember it was like 12 hours left, 10 hours left.
And then eight minutes before the movie at 7.52,

Speaker 1 or I guess it was sent at 10.52 East Coast time, I got a text message requesting a portion of my fat HBO check to contribute toward apparently years of therapy bills that this person had accrued after she says that she felt that I pressured pressured her into giving consent years prior.

Speaker 1 And I was confused, not only because of the timing, but because this is someone that I hadn't seen in years or spoken to in years. And I presume that I was on good terms with.

Speaker 1 So I didn't respond to the text message.

Speaker 1 And then when I didn't respond, about seven days later, this person made some TikTok videos and with the help of some friends, launched an online campaign that got picked up by the press pretty quickly.

Speaker 1 So what did you feel like when you got that text? Well,

Speaker 1 it's tough because, on one hand, I'm not opposed to restitution being part of a private accountability process for real abuse.

Speaker 1 You know, like if you've hurt someone to an extent that it took them out of work or something, like I think they're entitled to some money.

Speaker 1 But unfortunately, as I later learned, this person had legal counsel, and this was an attempt to basically create evidence by extracting a confession from me to use as precedent for a civil lawsuit to the the tune of a couple million dollars.

Speaker 1 It's dark.

Speaker 1 Yeah.

Speaker 1 How did you meet this person? Well, I met them when I was 22. And like I told you, I was living in an RV making this show called All Gas, No Breaks.

Speaker 1 And I would travel between cities like every other day. And so I would basically pick a new city.

Speaker 1 And I got in this like pretty bad habit of what I would say is essentially treating Instagram like a dating app. You know, I would go to a new place.
I'd post my location.

Speaker 1 I'd surf the DMs and I would look for like fans to meet up with. It wasn't always girls.

Speaker 1 It was just people to party with because I was also partying every night, but a lot of times ended up being girls and stuff. And so that's kind of how this situation was.

Speaker 1 I didn't have sex with this person.

Speaker 1 Had a consensual encounter that they reached out to me about two weeks after saying, hey, I don't want you to take this the wrong way.

Speaker 1 But looking back, I felt a lot more pressure to agree than I realized in the moment. I don't think this is any fault of yours.

Speaker 1 I just think that you came on a bit too strong and I didn't want to let you down. So

Speaker 1 I gave in. And it was that language made me feel horrible, mainly because if this person had told me, hey, I don't want to hook up, I would have said, yeah, of course not.

Speaker 1 Well, I don't want to hook up with someone who doesn't want to hook up with me. And I think that as fame increased during that time, I think I was just kind of oblivious to

Speaker 1 how people were seeing me, especially those who had a digital digital relationship with me prior to me knowing them. And I don't think that I handled that the right way.

Speaker 1 Well, thank you for taking accountability.

Speaker 1 But just to clarify, you got consent.

Speaker 1 Yeah, I was the initiatory party in an interaction with

Speaker 1 a fan who felt it she had to say yes because of I'm not sure why.

Speaker 1 I don't know why, but like I said, this person also disclosed to me they had a history of childhood trauma and were actively being treated for PTSD and that they felt things moved too fast for them given their situation.

Speaker 1 And so I told her, I said, hey, if you want to reach out, if you want to talk on the phone, I'm always here for you. I'm sorry to hear that.
Let me know if we can talk further.

Speaker 1 About six months after that, I was at Sturgis Bike Week. And I remember this day, this was the hardest day.

Speaker 1 I was just chilling and I got a text from my friend and it said, hey, man, you're getting canceled right now. And I was like, what do you mean? Like, did someone find an old tweet or something?

Speaker 1 What are you talking about? And I opened my phone and it was this Instagram story of me. It was like the ugliest picture of me you can find.
It was like my face open that was like screenshotted.

Speaker 1 And it said, I remember this specifically because I just couldn't believe it. It said, the ugly loser who hosts all gas, no breaks is a piece of shit.

Speaker 1 He knowingly abused my friend and got away with it. If you follow him, I'm going to message you and ask you why.

Speaker 1 So this person who I don't know, I didn't even know where who the accusation was coming from.

Speaker 1 They text, they emailed emailed every production company that I was working with, DM'd hundreds, if not thousands of people, like just saying that like I was this piece of shit.

Speaker 1 And I didn't even know who this person was. So I was frantically calling and texting like every person that I'd seen intimately for the past year and being like, hey, are we on good terms?

Speaker 1 Is everything okay?

Speaker 1 And then I figured out that the person was coming from Florida and I knew who it was.

Speaker 1 And so thankfully, I reached out to the original person who I had the communication with and um i said hey like i think this might have been you this might have been your friend who posted this are we good like i'm i'm sorry i i apologized again i was like listen i feel bad that you feel this way i want to do anything that i can to help you again i apologize and um she said apology accepted i'm sorry my friend asked if i could if she could post on my behalf and i'm sorry i was going through a lot mentally and i saw your fame increasing and so i agreed to let her speak on my behalf and um

Speaker 1 we made amends in private.

Speaker 1 I said, okay, I'm here for you. Let me know.
And she said, apologies enough. Thank you for taking the time to speak with me.

Speaker 1 And that was two years prior to this text message being sent to my phone eight minutes before the movie. So naturally, I wanted to go on my platforms and talk about what was happening.

Speaker 1 But I also didn't want to mess up the rollout of the movie.

Speaker 1 And

Speaker 1 so the PR firm was like, we got this. We'll handle this for you.
And that was, I guess, by way of a TMZ thing that said, Andrew Callahan is devastated.

Speaker 1 I'm not sure why they thought that that was going to make people be in my favor, but

Speaker 1 it was just a picture of me on NBC that said Andrew Callahan devastated by allegations that that was their plan, I guess, to show that I was remorseful or something.

Speaker 1 How much of this do you think lawyers kind of

Speaker 1 pushing this

Speaker 1 when money and fame are involved?

Speaker 1 Well, I wish I could say the lawyer but I just can't that was involved in this but I will tell you that I try to lean away from resentment and toward accountability completely what was my role in the situation how can I never make someone feel like that again what can I do what changes can I make to make sure that one I never treat someone this way and two to never be in that position again

Speaker 1 well

Speaker 1 again thank you for taking accountability and the main reason I talk about that is because it wasn't just that that person. There was multiple people who made videos reporting similar behavior.

Speaker 1 And so it's obvious that that was a pattern of behavior of mine. And so I made the apology video to announce that I was taking some time away because I just needed time away.

Speaker 1 I mean, my entire support system collapsed. My friends at the time disappeared.
I was getting like obituaries texted to my phone that were like, hey, it's been nice knowing you.

Speaker 1 It was great to see you grow. Good luck.
You know, like I was dead. And yeah, I just got dropped from my agency.
No one gave me tough love. No one called me to ask me if I was all right.

Speaker 1 It was just only

Speaker 1 everyone disappeared in a week. Again, thank you for taking accountability, but I just hate how many cowards there are out there.

Speaker 1 Like when people hit low points, it's when

Speaker 1 when you should help,

Speaker 1 when you should stand with them, if you know their character. Yeah.
And it was just,

Speaker 1 it was hard to separate like the initial situation that I knew was

Speaker 1 more or less a setup and the possibly genuine other accounts.

Speaker 1 And so it was like, all right, you know what? At this point in my life, I want to be on the right side of history. I don't want to be the anti-cancel culture mouthpiece.

Speaker 1 I don't have the the mental strength to fight this, especially because I was envisioning the HBO drop to be this like, the world opens up to me moment, and it was just the reverse.

Speaker 1 But the uh, it wasn't so much the media reporting on it that hurt me, it was just little stuff, like a childhood friend that you love, seeing they unfollowed you on Instagram, or just like seeing someone on the street that you grew up with and like waving at them, and they don't, they don't do anything back.

Speaker 1 And you're just like, oh my God, man, like, this is my new life.

Speaker 1 But what are you supposed to do?

Speaker 1 thankfully i like somehow two weeks after i met an amazing partner who i'm still with to this day and i was able to conquer my two biggest fears which is monogamy and dogs i was terrified of dogs and terrified of having a girlfriend now i have a girlfriend who i love and two dogs

Speaker 1 so what were the what was the lowest point

Speaker 1 Well,

Speaker 1 right after this happened, I entered like recovery programs. Started with AA, but then I found a more specialized program that dealt with the issues that I was dealing with.

Speaker 1 Say, the hardest point was

Speaker 1 logically deducing

Speaker 1 that

Speaker 1 the lives of my loved ones would be better off if I was gone, you know what I mean?

Speaker 1 And thinking that

Speaker 1 my mom and my friends, that their life would be better if I took myself out of the picture.

Speaker 1 And

Speaker 1 for one,

Speaker 1 I just figured, you know, their friends canceled. You know, her son is a disgrace.
My family's going to think they raised me wrong. My friends, I'm a social pariah now.
I'm a burden.

Speaker 1 I'm better off dead.

Speaker 1 And the hard part was, you know, I would read

Speaker 1 stories and books written by parents who lost their kids to suicide. And they reported feeling a lot of anger after the suicide.

Speaker 1 So I tried to think of what's the way I can do it to get the least amount of anger on behalf of the people who would grieve. Because hanging someone will discover you.

Speaker 1 So I figured drinking myself to death would be the way to do it.

Speaker 1 And

Speaker 1 I wasn't able to.

Speaker 1 Yeah, that was just a dark place. You know, I remember hating the people who loved me because

Speaker 1 I knew they would grieve and that made me mad. That makes sense.
Like, I was ready to go. I had no will to live.

Speaker 1 But their grief was like, I didn't want to cause cause that because I don't want to hurt them.

Speaker 1 So I was like,

Speaker 1 I hated the people who loved me because they were stopping me from taking my own life.

Speaker 1 You know, and

Speaker 1 it's weird to think that, like, when I was going through that,

Speaker 1 if you walk by me in the street, I look like a normal guy.

Speaker 1 And so now, when I walk around and I see people, I think to myself, you have no idea what that person is going through. You know, like, it's crazy that

Speaker 1 so many people are suffering in like complete silence and you can't, they don't wear it on them,

Speaker 1 you know? Many of the people you talk to are probably that. Yeah.
Many people you've interviewed before all this and after are probably going through some shit.

Speaker 1 And I also thought, if I could write down what I just told you on a piece of paper and then I was to do it and then they found the note, they would take it more seriously because they would know that I wasn't lying.

Speaker 1 Yeah.

Speaker 1 But then,

Speaker 1 you know,

Speaker 1 if you do it, it reduces the lifespan of your parents by 15 years.

Speaker 1 So I looked at it like I was taking time away from them.

Speaker 1 Well, thank you for the most part, leaning towards accountability.

Speaker 1 It's the right path to take. What advice would you give to young men

Speaker 1 that look up to you on how they can be good men, especially in regard to women?

Speaker 1 If you have any kind of platform, you know, whether it doesn't have to be famous on Instagram, it could be like if you're a pillar of your community in the culinary world or whatever it is,

Speaker 1 just be hyper-aware of that and remember that you are inheriting a power dynamic that can create situations where

Speaker 1 there might be some pressure that you don't even realize is there, but it's definitely there. And you just have to be aware of that.
And two,

Speaker 1 when meeting new partners, having hookups and stuff like that, just try to have a trauma-informed conversation about their past.

Speaker 1 Really know

Speaker 1 the experiences and the backstory of what a new partner has gone through in that world of intimacy.

Speaker 1 Whatever they're comfortable

Speaker 1 to share, obviously. But I would advise against one night stands.
I would advise against hooking up with someone

Speaker 1 that you're meeting for the first time. Have those conversations prior, because even though it might sound like a vibe killer, it's not.

Speaker 1 And if you think that that conversation is a vibe killer, you probably shouldn't be in that situation in the first place, especially now how hypersexualized things are and how common that type of violence is.

Speaker 1 You need to be able to have those conversations and stop and say, hey, tell me a little bit about your past. Is there any triggers that make you uncomfortable?

Speaker 1 Let me know how I can be the best partner to you. And I'm sure that college-age people are not having those conversations, but I'm sure that it would go a long way.

Speaker 1 So especially when you're young, college-aged, you don't have enough experience to be able to read a person without having that conversation because a lot of times you can see the trauma without explicitly talking about it but that takes experience and knowledge and seeing the world when you're young and you don't know you really don't know shit making things a bit more explicit is probably better yeah and also like as men we're trained to believe that It's our duty to be the initiatory party in any type of like sexual encounter.

Speaker 1 Like, oh, like man chases woman. You know what I mean? Like, you know, you have to be the one to make the move.

Speaker 1 And or like, she's playing hard to get if, you know, she's resistant to your first like compliment or something.

Speaker 1 I think that that's not always how it has to be. And that extra caution needs to be placed if you're taking the initiatory role in an interaction, especially if someone has a traumatic background.

Speaker 1 They might agree to do something with you because they're scared and you might not realize that's what's going on, but because you don't, you don't see yourself as a predatory person.

Speaker 1 You don't see yourself as someone who would ever consciously make someone uncomfortable or cross a boundary. But but people have histories that you might not understand.

Speaker 1 And for me, as someone who doesn't have much, honestly, like childhood trauma or anything like that, it's been an interesting year for me working in therapy and elsewhere, understanding how that affects the mind.

Speaker 1 And also, I understand that hurt people hurt people and that someone with a traumatic background isn't going to have sympathy.

Speaker 1 for applying that traumatic pain to someone else, even if that person isn't the cause of what put them in that spot. If we can go back to channel five, can you tell the origin story of that?

Speaker 1 Yeah, I mean, channel five,

Speaker 1 we, during the all gas no breaks days, we used to tell people that we were called channel five if we wanted them to stop antagonizing us while we were filming. Because every town has a channel five.

Speaker 1 So when people were like, what's this for? If they were being super rude and like trying to get in the camera and be hella obnoxious, we would just say, oh, we're channel five.

Speaker 1 And they would be like, oh, my grandma's going to see that. And they would leave us alone.
So channel five was a diversion tactic during all gas no breaks.

Speaker 1 And it just so happened that we were in Miami Beach one time, and this kid came up like drinking liquor, like, you know, trying to yell about like whatever they, whatever they yell about in Miami Beach, like titties or whatever.

Speaker 1 And

Speaker 1 we're like, bro, this is channel five. Be careful what you say.
And he was like, for real? And he just walked off. And I said to my friend at the time, I was like, that sounded pretty good, right?

Speaker 1 Channel five. And he goes, that sounds pretty good.
He's like, that's got to be trademark, though. No,

Speaker 1 it's not trademark. Yeah.
It's crazy, right? There's a channel five in every city, channel five, ktla channel five seattle como news dude channel five itself we own it

Speaker 1 because because no one's thought of something that simple because you'd think you'd have to specify we own channel five.com channel five.news dude we own it it's it's awesome so it was the same kind of spirit as uh as the previous thing but yeah uh what was the first one you did on under the channel five flag miami beach spring break

Speaker 1 i think i've seen that and it's gonna be a callback i think i think there um

Speaker 1 i think somebody mentioning eating ass there too that would be the place i believe that there's only about five places in the u.s where people yell about eating ass all the time bourbon street south beach miami sixth street in austin broadway and nashville and i'm just going to go ahead and say times square you might not think it but times square really yeah they yell about ass there

Speaker 1 times square i would say beal street in memphis but it's not it's good. Oh, yeah.

Speaker 1 I mean, Bill Street is like the median age is too high on Bill Street for anyone to yell about ass.

Speaker 1 Oh, this is a fascinating portrait of America through that specific lens. So, Miami Beach.
And then,

Speaker 1 how would you describe your style of interviewing? Just now that you've collected so many.

Speaker 1 If you had a style, how would you describe your style? I guess before, especially it used to be like deadpan.

Speaker 1 Now I would describe it as more directed, but still relatively affable, agreeable, deadpan interview style. Yeah, there's a

Speaker 1 like in the face of absurdity. Yeah.
You're just like there with a microphone.

Speaker 1 There's a comic aspect to it.

Speaker 1 And that's intentional. Yeah.
I used to look at the camera like Jim from the office back in the day. Yeah.
I don't do that anymore.

Speaker 1 What about the editing? Like, how do you think about the editing? I still do most of it, but Susan helps a lot too. It's my associate.

Speaker 1 Uh, yeah, the editing style, like I said, we pioneered this editing style that honestly was inspired a bit by like Vic Berger, but we took it to real life with crash zooms, kind of chopping up vocals a bit to add comedic timing where it didn't necessarily exist.

Speaker 1 Like, you might add two seconds of awkward silence that are built with room tone, or you might make everything really fast by cutting silence and switching frames. I mean, switching camera angles.

Speaker 1 But now we try to be pretty straightforward straightforward because we want to be taken more seriously.

Speaker 1 You know?

Speaker 1 Yeah, sure. What's crash zoom, by the way? A crash zoom is when the like it's artificial zoom that you might add in Adobe Premiere where the camera zooms in on someone's face

Speaker 1 where the resolution is not there. The resolution is not there.
Unless you have a like a Black Magic Cinema camera. Which you don't.
We don't use those. The file size is too low.

Speaker 1 That's the only constraint. Yeah.

Speaker 1 100%.

Speaker 1 And you also do voiceover storytelling.

Speaker 1 I think the first time I really did that was in the San Francisco streets video because there's so much content about San Francisco, homelessness, tenderloin, shoplifting, but there's not that much context in those videos about the history of San Francisco, the housing crisis, NIMBYism, random zoning stuff that sounds boring, but has a major role in the current situation on the streets there as to why the tenderloin is neglected.

Speaker 1 by police and by the city council and the other neighborhoods like Knob Hill and North Beach are so nice.

Speaker 1 So i added that purposely to the san francisco video and then also to the philadelphia streets video to accentuate the reporting and add some historical analysis what's your goal with some of these videos like the philadelphia streets one is it to reveal the full spectrum of humanity or is it also to tell a story that's almost political about the state number one is always humanization that's the primary goal is to take people in circumstances where they're often news items and remind the public that these are people with lives and concerns and dreams just like you.

Speaker 1 But secondly, we also want to start introducing more solution-oriented journalism. So not just, oh my God, I'm becoming aware of how horrible this is, but what can you actually do to help?

Speaker 1 And as you can see with the Vegas Tunnels video, people are responding pretty positively to it.

Speaker 1 Like, here's how you can maybe help a homeless neighbor, help get them an ID, help them qualify for housing or get a job at the scrapyard. There's always ways to help.

Speaker 1 But so much of the YouTube world is oversaturated by just like endless videos of people suffering. And the comments are always like, wow, so horrible.
But what does that really do for somebody?

Speaker 1 You've interviewed many rappers. Yes.

Speaker 1 Educate me. There's a lot to it.
Yeah. Can you explain this drill rap situation?

Speaker 1 What is drill rap? Evolving situation. Drill began in 2010.
Some people say it was Chief Keefe in Chicago. I think it was King Louie in Chicago.

Speaker 1 But I think all of it was very influenced by Walk of Flock of Flame, who dropped an album called Flockaveli in 2010 that that was like hyper-violent, adrenaline-boosting

Speaker 1 rap music made by people who were actually in the streets. So in the 90s,

Speaker 1 if you had 50 Cent, you had rappers rapping about like whatever gangster shit, selling crack and beating people up, but they weren't actually doing it.

Speaker 1 Drill has a true crime component to where drill fans want to know that the person rapping about catching bodies does in fact kill people.

Speaker 1 So drill is

Speaker 1 pretty horrifying. It sounds great, but it started in Chicago, then it spread to England, and now it's bounced back to New York,

Speaker 1 the Bronx and Brooklyn specifically, and spread from New York to the rest of the country. So now there's probably a drill wrapper every 10 square miles.

Speaker 1 So these are, as opposed to pretending to be a gangster and

Speaker 1 killing people, you get some credibility by actually doing it. Yes.
And the fans are typically not in the communities that are affected by poverty. So they're kind of like superheroes to white kids.

Speaker 1 It's dark. And not just white kids, but just anyone who's not in the hood.
It's not necessarily a race thing. There's white drill rappers too.
Slim Jesus was a big one.

Speaker 1 He's out of the picture now, but there's white drill rappers. Slim Jesus.

Speaker 1 You made a video on O Block. Yeah.

Speaker 1 What is O Block? The place, the culture, the people. O Block is a housing project in South Chicago, in the Englewood area, where Michelle Obama grew up.

Speaker 1 It's also where Chief Keefe was born and raised. I don't know if he was born there, but he was raised there.
And he is the forefather of modern drill music as we know it.

Speaker 1 So these are the projects where drill began.

Speaker 1 It's also the first place where you have that intersection of drill music and true crime, because O Block has a lot of rappers, and then nearby is an area called St. Lawrence,

Speaker 1 aka Tucaville, which has a lot of rappers as well. And so these two rival drill gangs, basically,

Speaker 1 have, you know, a lot of history and it connects to music at large. So you've interviewed people there.

Speaker 1 Was there any concern for your safety?

Speaker 1 No, I mean, I think that Oblock

Speaker 1 has calmed down a lot. For one, it has security, so you can't even really get in and out.

Speaker 1 But two, I think that Oblock's trying to rebrand itself a lot because it could be because Lil Dirk's avoiding a Rico charge. Could be for a variety of reasons.

Speaker 1 I know you don't know exactly what that means, but

Speaker 1 Lil Dirk or the Dr. Rapper Lil Dirk is

Speaker 1 from affiliated with Oblock. Yep.
And a lot of people have been murdered in retribution for killings that Lil Dirk may or may not have influenced the ordering of. But anyways.
And Lil Dirk

Speaker 1 documented the killings in

Speaker 1 via rap music, probably.

Speaker 1 Okay, I know you don't know about Drill, but Lil Dirk was associated with a rapper named King Vaughn, and King Vaughn perhaps paid for the assassination of a rapper named FBG Duck who got killed in Chicago's Gold Coast neighborhood.

Speaker 1 It's possible. The Oblock Six are Drill associated, not rappers, but just shooters.
And they, perhaps operating on King Vaughn's behalf, went and killed FBG Duck. King Vaughn was Lil Dirk's artist.

Speaker 1 King Vaughn's now dead. So there's definitely a concern that some of the Fed charges will fall on Dirk.
Not sure if that's true, but it's rumors in the hip-hop community.

Speaker 1 So Oblock right now, and when I film the video, it's trying to go through a major image rehab. If you go on any Instagram of anyone in Oblock, they've all converted to Islam.

Speaker 1 And so they post pictures of themselves praying in the morning and have captions like, put the guns down, let's pray. So I think when I went there, they saw it as a good opportunity.

Speaker 1 to do a positive rebrand. And so I interviewed a rapper named Boss Top, who was there all the way back in 2011 when Chief Keefe was coming up.
And so he basically ensured my safe protection.

Speaker 1 But he didn't even need to. They're all very friendly and they know exactly what's up with YouTube stuff.
I like how 2011 is the old days, like the ancient. Oh, yeah.

Speaker 1 The founding fathers. I was in eighth grade.

Speaker 1 Oh, man. Time flies when you're having fun.
It sure does. Lil Dirk.
Where's Lil Dirk now? Atlanta.

Speaker 1 So he left Chicago. Not safe.
Yeah, I mean, every rapper has to leave their hometown. It's what I did.
It's a journey.

Speaker 1 Seattle would have taken me out, bro.

Speaker 1 How's your, I mean, you do interview a lot of people. I mean, that's like a top comment, but it speaks to the reality of the fact that you always find somebody rapping.
Or you,

Speaker 1 yeah, you create the space for people to rap. What's that about? I don't know, man.

Speaker 1 They're usually really good. You think so?

Speaker 1 I appreciate it. Well, hell yeah, man.
I mean, rappers in their own way since i touched a microphone rappers have gravitated toward me

Speaker 1 i think there's something happening you're a rapper whisperer i think there's something happening on a deeper cosmic spiritual level yeah that lets the mind of rappers know that like they have a safe place in front of our camera crew you have an interview with crip mack i do free mac

Speaker 1 he's a jail right now oh he is yeah is that a hashtag yeah for sure what uh that's an intense interview people should go watch it people should go watch your all your interviews, but that one is pretty intense.

Speaker 1 Thanks.

Speaker 1 I was a little afraid for your life. Oh, Crit Mack's the safest guy in the world.
He's a sweetheart. Oh, definitely, dude.
Yeah, but it was fun.

Speaker 1 I feel like more safe around Crit Mac than I do on any given pedestrian. Yeah, he was loud and flavorful.
Yeah, I should say. So who's he? What's his story? Well, his name's Trevor.

Speaker 1 He grew up in Ontario, California, in the Inland Empire. Moved to Texas with his mom after his dad left.
His mom

Speaker 1 started dating a cop from Houston named Mr. Gary.

Speaker 1 His mom found Mr. Gary getting

Speaker 1 anally penetrated by a co-worker. And so she booked Crit Mac, a one-way greyhound ticket to LA where he joined the Crips.

Speaker 1 That's a good story.

Speaker 1 You know,

Speaker 1 it's true. Oh, you jumped right to Mr.
Gary. Yeah, yeah.

Speaker 1 I'm just saying that,

Speaker 1 you know, he's a classic case of somebody without a father figure who found camaraderie and, you know, sense of belonging and purpose in a street gang, which in LA is like a rule of law in most of the city.

Speaker 1 I forget in what context earlier talking about martial arts and fighting, and he's got to work on his punching form.

Speaker 1 Yeah, I think so.

Speaker 1 He gets into a lot of fights in jail, though, and from what I've heard, he wins like about half of them. So it's good.
All right. What did he go to jail for now? Firearm possession.

Speaker 1 It was a probation violation oh it's too bad

Speaker 1 all right

Speaker 1 uh what

Speaker 1 so philly you went to the border

Speaker 1 occupy seattle protests you went to ukraine yeah

Speaker 1 uh what are some interesting things that stand out to you from memory just as i asked the question some interesting i mean i was in jail at the border for a while that was horrible what was that like was that your first time yeah well you know i didn't know that i couldn't hop my own border as an american i'm thinking this is my country i can get in any way that i want wrong you can only enter the u.s through an official port of entry which i learned the hard way because i got arrested by border patrol and held as a detainee at a migrant center for a few days what was the that like horrible which aspect i mean well for one like i don't know it was just to be in a place like that and i probably sound like such a wimp right now because i know someone's watching this who's done some hard time.

Speaker 1 But we thought we were going to do at least six months in jail because the guards freaked us out and were like, you're being charged with a federal crime. You know what you boys did is serious.

Speaker 1 We're waiting on word from San Antonio about whether or not we're going to extradite you. So we're just sitting in these cells alone most of the time in solitary with no pillows, just a smell.

Speaker 1 No pillows. No pillows, no mat, nothing, just a space blanket.
And I was sleeping on my shoes, stinking up the place. It was no good.

Speaker 1 You mentioned the UFO Convention.

Speaker 1 Yeah.

Speaker 1 What have you learned from those guys? The UFologists?

Speaker 1 I really want to know what you think about that. That's the one question that I want to reverse on you because you've talked to so many people.

Speaker 1 Do you think that aliens have actually visited Earth? Yeah. When?

Speaker 1 When?

Speaker 1 Exact dates? I do.

Speaker 1 I think there's alien civilizations everywhere. I talk to a lot of people that have doubts about it.
I just think,

Speaker 1 I even suspect there's an intelligent alien civilization in our galaxy. And I just can't imagine them not having visited us.

Speaker 1 So I lean on that. What that actually looks like, I don't know.

Speaker 1 The stuff we're seeing in terms of UFO sightings, I think that's much more likely

Speaker 1 to the degree it's real, it's much more likely government projects. So military, Lockheed Martin, this kind of stuff.
so you think that they have knowledge of it

Speaker 1 yeah

Speaker 1 yeah one thing i think about with aliens is scale so we have this idea that uh an alien would be a gray alien or a almost humanoid lookalike that would visit us in human form arms legs head but who's to say that they're not able to shrink down to microscopic size with the same neural capacity yeah or just have a very difficult to perceive form But I mean, they would go small, not big.

Speaker 1 No, I think that would take a humanoid-like form just to be able to communicate with humans. I think the big challenge with aliens is to be able to find a common language.

Speaker 1 So if you come to another planet and you suspect that there's some kind of complexity going on, but it looks nothing like humans, you have to find a common language.

Speaker 1 And I think aliens would try to take physical form that's similar that us dumb humans would understand. Language is really interesting, too.
I have this series that I'm going to...

Speaker 1 announce for the first time on here, but I'm really interested in endangered languages in the U.S. There's like 150 languages in the US with less than a thousand speakers.
Wow.

Speaker 1 And I want to like help spearhead efforts to preserve some of these. Like, for example, Hawaiian Sign Language, 15 of those people left.
Holy shit.

Speaker 1 Because when Hawaii got annexed, the ASL community tried to make it so the deaf native Hawaiians wouldn't be able to speak their native

Speaker 1 sign language. And so they would do it under the desks at like schools for the deaf and blind.
And they would get like their mouth washed out, washed out with soap and stuff if they

Speaker 1 so much as did the the Hawaiian hand signs. Also, the Gullah Geechee language and the South Carolina Sea Islands, Hilton Head Island and stuff.

Speaker 1 That's like a, it's almost a Creole language that's been in the U.S. for hundreds of years, existing in isolation.
That's being threatened by golf course developments.

Speaker 1 I don't know how into language you are, but I've been getting super nerded out about it. Actually, I'm interviewing somebody tomorrow who's an expert in human language.
He's from MIT,

Speaker 1 studying the syntax of a lot of languages, including in the Amazon amazon uh jungle that the

Speaker 1 the peoples that live in the amazon jungle region yeah it's fascinating human language is fascinating and also the barriers it creates and also how the games are played to what you're speaking by governments this is part of the story of russia and ukraine is this is a battle over language

Speaker 1 uh the ukrainian language is a symbol of independence, which is why

Speaker 1 they were trying to make it the primary language of the nation.

Speaker 1 So sometimes the language represents the culture and the peoples. Yeah.
And it's intricately tied to the culture of the people. I've been trying to learn Navo.

Speaker 1 Which languages do you know?

Speaker 1 Spanish and English.

Speaker 1 Spanish well?

Speaker 1 See.

Speaker 1 I don't know Spanish that well, so that passes me.

Speaker 1 You're fluent, basically.

Speaker 1 Oh, it doesn't.

Speaker 1 Hola.

Speaker 1 That was good. That was real Cancun Spring Break.
Well, I actually speak fluent Spanish according to Spotify because there's a every episode translated over dub by AI in Spanish.

Speaker 1 Yeah, there's a very Spanish robot assigned to you. Spanish robots.

Speaker 1 I sound like incredibly intelligent and intellectual in Spanish. And like a Friedman.

Speaker 1 Exactly.

Speaker 1 From everything you've done, all the people you've seen, do you think most people are good

Speaker 1 underneath it all?

Speaker 1 Yeah,

Speaker 1 so the ones that do all the extreme shit. Okay, I'll put it like this: most people think they're doing the best thing for the world.

Speaker 1 I don't think anyone, except for maybe a small fraction of sociopaths, wakes up every day and says, I'm gonna fuck somebody's life up today.

Speaker 1 I think the far majority of people are fighting for what they think is right and do want to see America succeed and want us to be in a happy place where no one is subjugated.

Speaker 1 I just think people have drastically different ideas of what means will get us there. And unfortunately, that's leading to a lot of misunderstandings between cultures.
And yeah, I think that

Speaker 1 most people are good. I've been through some things that leads me to believe that a lot of people, though, are primarily motivated by self-interest.

Speaker 1 And that in a fight-or-flight situation, most people will choose flight.

Speaker 1 So I don't know if people are courageous as a whole. but I think generally good.
But the energy to stand up for what's right, not sure about that. They have the capacity, though, to do good.

Speaker 1 I think human beings are inherently selfish as well.

Speaker 1 But I don't think that you selfish is inherently bad. I think humans are primarily motivated by self-interest,

Speaker 1 but generally have positive intentions.

Speaker 1 I do hope more humans rise to the occasion and have courage. Courage of their convictions, courage to have integrity.

Speaker 1 But yeah, I think that most people are good and they want to do good and they have the capacity to do a lot of good.

Speaker 1 That's why I have hope for this whole thing we got going on. How do you heal the misunderstandings between people, you think? Listening.
It's the only option we have.

Speaker 1 No forced education, no like forced meetings or mediations between political opponents. Just listen to more people and really listen.

Speaker 1 Try to get rid of whatever preconceived notions you might have about how you should feel about someone you are supposed to disagree with.

Speaker 1 And just keep your ears and your heart open to people that you don't know. And your life will change.

Speaker 1 Keep your heart open. A lot of people are scared to listen.

Speaker 1 Well, Andrew, I'm a big fan. And thank you for being one of the best listeners in the world.
Amen. And showing the full spectrum of humanity to us so we can listen as well and learn.

Speaker 1 Just thank you for doing everything you're doing.

Speaker 1 Amen. Thanks so much for having me on.
You're a great man. Thank you, brother.
I appreciate it. Thanks for listening to this conversation with Andrew Calkin.

Speaker 1 To support this podcast, please check out our sponsors in the description. And now, let me leave you with some words from Hunter S.
Thompson: The Edge.

Speaker 1 There is no honest way to explain it because the only people who really know where it is are the ones who have gone over.

Speaker 1 Thank you for listening and hope to see you next time.