S03 E15: The Trials of Dr. Sally Smith (Season Finale: Part 1)

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As I was setting out to make this season, there was one person that I wanted to talk to the most because I felt like she had been the most vilified out of this group of doctors who have really been put through it with this movie and with this case.

And

when I tell you, I thought there was no way I was going to get an interview with this woman, I mean,

I really,

I put in a couple of requests through contacts that I have and just kind of forgot about it because I just thought there was no way this person would ever trust anyone in the press.

It wasn't until I went down a bit of a rabbit hole about Dr.

Sally Smith, which is one of the things I do best, that I realized why some of these stories about her that were featured in the film Take Care of Maya sounded a little bit familiar.

One of the first times that Dr.

Smith was covered in the press was back in December of 2019.

She was featured in the first installment of Mike Hicksenbog's Do No Harm series, which was a series for NBC about quote, falsely accused parents, and that eventually became a podcast as as well.

Dr.

Smith is featured in the final anecdote that Mike Kicksenbog tells in that piece, which is the story of Viviana Graham.

And she's also featured in the Netflix film.

You may remember her.

She's the one who read the Christmas card from Dr.

Sally Smith.

Right above that part of the story is a story with a number of pictures about Megan Carter and her case.

And Megan is my sister.

This is the first time that I have been covering something that people came into with strong feelings because of this Netflix film.

A lot of people watched this and took it all in, as I'm sure I would have taken it all in if I was not looking at it through this particular lens.

And

people don't like to think they've been fooled.

That is a huge theme of our show.

So I've realized that in some small, but for me, very meaningful way, Dr.

Sally Smith and I have ended up playing a similar role.

You know, we're asking people to look at a truth that they really don't want to see.

And some people are going to hate us for it.

Watching Dr.

Smith take the stand in the

Kowalski v.

Johns Hopkins all-children's trial, you know, restrained as her testimony was by the court's rulings about what she could say about medical child abuse, I was really impressed.

I have to be honest, Gregory Anderson, the lead attorney for the Kowalskis, was really grinding my gears by that point.

Well,

isn't it true, ma'am, that you are not a medical

investigator?

You are, in fact, a medical prosecutor.

That's absolute nonsense.

Doctors are pretty reticent to talk to the media even at the best of times for all of the reasons we've been discussing.

I mean, for one thing, it's against the law to talk about any of the details of someone's health or a child's health.

And on top of that, this particular doctor has gotten worse treatment in the media than anything I have ever seen.

So I tried those couple of contacts as kind of a Hail Mary, but I wasn't surprised when I didn't hear anything back.

And, you know, after what Hicksenbag and Daphne Chen and the filmmakers from Take Care of Maya had done to this woman, like, why would she ever trust anyone in this sphere again?

But then in September, when we were just a few episodes into season three, I got a voicemail.

Hi, Andrea.

This is Patrick.

I am Dr.

Sally Smith's son.

I was shocked when I heard from you.

Given how your mom's been treated in the media, I mean, did that feel risky, even reaching out to me?

It felt really risky.

We had received harassment online.

We were concerned about

people actually coming to her house.

You know, we have that fear even now, my family does, about any sort of media contact.

And so

it took two to three weeks, I think, before I even started to consider.

the idea of reaching out to you all.

I think we feel a bit of a bond because there's just so few people that it seems like are understanding what's happening here.

And it can make you feel like you're losing your mind a little bit.

And I really appreciated being able to have that connection with you.

And I'm assuming that it took some convincing to get your mom to be open to the idea of talking to a podcaster.

She was

really hesitant at first, I think, you know, rightfully so.

I'm kind of a podcast junkie, or at least I was.

I think this last few months has kind of broken my brain a little bit and kind of changed my ability to consume anything.

And so

I'd say

at least used to be.

And I remember talking to my mom and telling her, like, you know, I've listened to a lot of different shows.

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different, or at least it's in, you know, the high,

high tier of like doing your homework and documenting sources and claims.

And it was through that combination of sort of my experienced consuming of podcasting and my take on it to her, plus her just listening to some of those episodes and getting a sense of the kind of work that you all do.

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I've learned over the last couple of years of making this show that there are some conversations that really need to happen in person.

So my producer Tina and I took a quick six-hour flight to Tampa, Florida, and drove to meet Dr.

Sally Smith at her home in a sleepy neighborhood in St.

Petersburg.

Let's talk about Sally.

Whoops.

Oh my God.

I knew I was going to spill coffee on my side.

Dr.

Becks, our secret Florida doctor friend, came along.

Hi.

It's so nice to meet you.

Can you go home?

Sally's house is warm and cozy.

She has this sort of arty, funky house.

There's a lot of family photographs everywhere.

Oh, yeah, that's what my grandson.

Now that photo there is like recent.

She had this beautiful tapestry that was on her table that had been gifted to her by someone in her family who used to work as a designer in New York.

And, you know, Sally Smith herself kind of has a like warm arty vibe.

She has a, when she was wearing a flowy silk shirt that had sort of a tie-dye pattern on it.

She had her gray hair like really neatly tucked back in a French braid.

If I could just put you two right here, if you're comfortable, or yeah, I can go back there.

Okay, great.

I have been so anxious to talk to you.

I've talked a couple times on the phone.

You know, you were my number one for the season that I wanted to talk to, and I didn't think I'd get the chance because

obviously you've had some

experiences with the media so far.

Yes, it's been interesting.

Can I just ask, like, how have you been feeling about this interview coming up?

Well,

in some ways, I'm kind of interested to have

some alternate information about me out in the, you know, in the cloud and the internet and everything.

It's been kind of strange because,

I mean, honestly,

problems in the media have been going on since roughly

December of 2018.

The stakes of this conversation were really high and we were both a little nervous.

I've been a little surprised how little response there's been from

the American Academy of Pediatrics or

30 child abuse pediatricians I've worked with for 30 years or whatever.

And I understand

to a certain point,

but I was just a little surprised.

Now, was that the Daphne Chen piece in about this case that kind of started the whole?

There was a woman, Katie Lagron, from South Florida, maybe Lauderdale area or something, that did, I think it was actually

a news story on television, not a print story,

within a week or two before Daphne Chen's article came out.

And then within another week or less, Mike Hicksenbaugh's article came out.

So there was just a big,

you know, internet hubbub at that point.

As I mentioned, fortunately, I'm not big on social media at all.

So I knew of the things, but

I wasn't really down the rabbit hole, as one would say.

This made sense to me because I can see

how Dr.

Smith is just the kind of person that keeps her head down and does her job.

And she does one of the most difficult jobs I can possibly imagine.

and when i brought that up to her she was pretty humble about it well it's funny because i don't think people think about it as that my father's a neurosurgeon and so i grew up around medicine and and you grew up in st louis louis that's right and you know i was a candy striper in the hospital as a teenager and stuff and you know i just i um got a summer job in a lab you know things like that so i just had more exposure to medicine.

And honestly, there was a biology teacher I had in high school that, you know, talked about going into medicine.

And I'm like, oh, maybe that would, you know, might be good.

So then when I was a medical student.

And how did your dad feel about you going into medicine?

I think probably

generally excited, although somewhat with some trepidation in terms of just what that means for a person and the schedule that's involved and, you know, all of that kind of thing.

I mean, he had a much worse schedule than I ever did, you know, as a neurosurgeon going to operate in the middle of the night and things like that.

So, yeah, I mean, he was supportive, but,

you know, probably recognized it wasn't going to be the easiest road.

And then when I was in medical school, there's a woman named Dr.

Mary Case,

who is pretty active in some of the child abuse conferences and things like that?

She is, besides being a wonderful person, she is an expert in neuropathology.

And I'm not sure why, as a senior medical student, I did an elective in the city morgue.

And

she talked to me about my interest at that.

By that time, I knew I was applying for pediatric residencies.

Dr.

Mary Case took young Sally Smith under her wing and she threw her right into the deep end.

So I saw, you know, just whatever this was, 25, 30 cases, and we discussed them and, you know, things like that.

And I guess partly, I don't know, maybe I have some DNA in there for the neuro part, but partly

related to reviewing those cases, I just got interested in child abuse.

So how old were you when that was happening?

So I was, let's see, in medical school.

I would have been 23, 24.

I was a little young all the way through.

So I guess no more, I'm sorry, 25.

What strikes me about your profession and this sort of being like your entry point, I mean, that's, it's sort of a part

of humanity that

even if most of us sort of

tacitly accept that it exists, like not something people want to look at.

No.

And, well, you know, those kind of people abuse their children, but not people like me.

Right.

And, you know, people who look like me, they don't abuse their children.

Right.

Right.

This is a sort of far off holda-da-da.

Yeah.

And I mean, for you, you know, as a young person in that moment, I mean, did that keep you up at night?

Did that make you question your career path?

For whatever reason, I did not have that.

reaction.

I think I've got a certain she didn't have that reaction to seeing these horrific things.

And I think I understand why.

She has a really unique ability to compartmentalize.

And I think that's something that she gets judged for.

I have been thinking all season about the ways that people react to tough women.

And there is no doubt that Dr.

Sally Smith is about as tough as you get.

You know, people can accept that men can be serious and tough, but also caring at the same time.

I mean, seriously, you should see some of Detective Mike's fan mail.

But the idea that a woman can be steely enough to look at this worst part of humanity and still be caring, we don't like it and we don't buy it.

I think I've got a certain like almost detective part of my brain or something.

And, you know, it just piqued my curiosity.

Do you think that Mary Case saw that in you?

And that was maybe the reason she was like, here, let's see if you can.

It's certainly possible.

I mean, I don't think there were many medical students that came down to do a rotation in the medical examiner's office.

And so, especially

once she heard I was interested in pediatrics and things.

And yeah, I'm watching autopsies while I'm down there and things.

So yeah, I'm sure she picked up that it wasn't disturbing to me.

It was interesting to me.

Dr.

Smith graduated from medical school in 1984.

She did a three-year residency in pediatrics and she moved to Florida with her then husband, who wanted to practice law with his brother, who lived in the area.

Sally Smith's first full-time job out of school was with All Children's Hospital, and she went on to become one of the very first doctors in the country to become a board-certified child abuse pediatrician in 2009, along with friend of the show, Dr.

Carol Jenny, who's an absolute pioneer in the field.

One of the things I hate the most about the narrative that is evolving around the Take Care of Maya film and this broader medical kidnapping panic is that it pits moms against doctors.

And in many instances, it also pits me and the work that I do as being somehow against mothers.

The reality is that both Dr.

Sally Smith and I are moms.

And many of the doctors who are involved in these cases are moms.

And motherhood is actually the very thing that brought me to this work.

I started writing my novel, We Came Here to Forget, that was based on my family's history while I was pregnant with my daughter Fiona.

And I had my second pregnancy with my son, Column, while I was making the second season of this show.

Motherhood is completely intertwined in this work for me.

And I think that the reason these two things coincided is because it wasn't until I was a mother that I really absorbed the full horror of what my sister had done.

And I always wonder how people with kids do this kind of frontline work, seeing these children that are in these situations in real life.

A daughter was born in 1990 and my son in 92.

How did that process of becoming a mother and having kids of your own, did you find that that changed your work?

One of the things I say to parents sometimes now is I laugh about what I told parents when I was 25, 26 years old about what to do with their children.

I had no idea.

And then had children and got much better at.

Oh, yeah, that's not a thing for children or,

oh, I know all about that developmental progression or everything.

So what are, what are some of the things, do you remember any of the things?

Cause I'm, I'm laughing.

I mean, I'm, cause I'm in my early 40s and I have little kids.

Like I'm trying to imagine like having a conversation with a 25-year-old pediatric resident that didn't have kids.

There's sort of the theoretical parenting and then there's the actual parenting.

And like you do realize immediately upon having kids how far apart those two things are.

And then I imagine even back then, it was probably even like all of those books were probably written by male doctors.

That's like, I mean, just like completely divorced from Riel.

Right.

Exactly.

Yeah.

Yeah.

So, and, you know, in terms of like how I maybe brought that personal parent information to the table with child abuse,

you know, like head injuries, for example.

Both of my children rolled off the bed.

My daughter did it twice.

I was just like, really?

Yeah.

So that kind of drove home to me that probably 95% of babies have rolled off a surface.

Yeah.

I mean, I think, you know, in reading some of these

accounts of parents who are claiming to have been falsely accused,

as a person with an 18-month-old and a five-year-old, knowing that from the moment they are mobile, all they try and do.

is off themselves.

I mean, they really like, they run into things, they bonk themselves, they fall off.

I mean, they just, and the shocking thing about children is that they're so durable exactly i mean you just think like and you like will watch them take a fall and you'll be like if if i had that same fall right like i would be in the er and they're just like stand up and they're like cry for a minute and then they're like boop just on with yeah so i mean right so it is incredible to decide whether whether they're going to cry or not i'm sure that maybe even some of those stories that didn't sound super credible to you before once you were actually watching what kids are like in the world right you're like oh my gosh this is they, yeah, right.

I can see where that would click in.

These things aren't particularly unsafe.

Children survive them all the time.

Right.

Right.

I mean, you realize you're like, oh, if like for children to survive into adulthood, they would have to be durable because even children that are like not well supervised for the most part like survive into it.

Exactly.

The reason I am so intrigued by child abuse pediatricians is it's a job that, on the one hand, takes a great deal of empathy.

And also, you have to be able to compartmentalize.

So in my particular case, I have always done general pediatrics.

Okay.

Halftime.

Okay.

Or more.

And so

I,

uh,

my entire career, which is now 35 years plus, including, you know, some of the training years,

were

you know, seeing all kinds of children for checkups and for illnesses and for head injuries.

And so,

you know, the

percent of those that had one fracture, let alone 15,

you know, was very clear to me.

So you always had a baseline for like, this is what just kids coming through with a sort of normal experience.

Right.

This is what a normal fracture looks like.

This is what a sort of parent that's just bringing their kid to the doctor looks like.

And

related to, for example, medical child abuse,

I

always followed complex medical children um so at all children's the the outpatient clinic where i did training with the residents um you know a significant percentage of the kids that came to the clinic there had all kinds of medical problems because this is like a world-class hospital where people from all over the state would probably bring their kids there right well but

what we had more like these were children that were enrolled in the clinic there for their pediatric care

because you know their specialists were there and we could easily kind of communicate with other people and we also saw all these different complex cases and

so the agency that had the child protection team for Pinellas County also supervised medical foster care that's a program in Florida where you know some some children just are not medically stable or they're too complicated for an inexperienced parent especially to manage

And so they can get put in a medical foster care home.

Many of the parents in those homes are, you know, trained as nurses or things like that.

And because I had that

program down the hall,

there were a fair percentage of children who were in medical foster care who either came to see me at the clinic at All Children's, or when I left there in 2002, I went to work for a group of friends in a pediatric private practice.

So I still, to this day, have multiple children I see in my practice that have gastrosomy tubes.

They're in wheelchairs that are, you know, they have seizure disorders.

They're on multiple medications.

And so, you know, not only do I see like routine pediatric stuff, but I see kind of complicated pediatric stuff.

And

then

have been in the habit of communicating with different specialists.

And, you know,

a lot of the specialists are in the habit that the pediatrician doesn't necessarily

write the feeding tube orders.

That's the specialist's job, or, you know, but I do that kind of thing.

I'm familiar with a lot of the entral formulas and I write a lot of prescriptions for seizure medications and, you know, things like that.

And I think one of the things that we are trained in general academic pediatrics to do is this lifelong learning idea.

So, you know, there's a criticism of child abuse pediatricians with regard to medical child abuse that they don't really know anything.

They're not really an expert in anything.

Oh, I see.

So it's like that criticism where you go, oh, well, you are not an expert in CRPS.

So that's why you don't understand this case, like that kind of thing.

Okay.

But I've been looking things up on, you know, PubMed.

I don't Google.

I use, you know, a medical library

for 40 years.

Right.

You know, residency,

early days, 12 years working for all children.

I did inpatient pediatrics there like four months a year.

So, you know, they have all kinds of complex kids that come through there.

Was I trained in all that stuff?

No.

Yeah.

But it would be impossible.

I pick it up.

I read the literature.

I talk to the specialists until I, you know, am able to manage those things and evaluate them in a competent manner.

And then, with regard to the child abuse pediatrics, so when I first started doing that at All Children's, I did go to their office and see some of the outpatients, especially the sexual abuse patients.

That was kind of what I'd been focusing on for a couple of years.

All Children's has always been a referral center for neurosurgery.

There aren't pediatric neurosurgeons in other places much, you know, on this west coast of Florida and pediatric surgery and things.

So children have been, ever since I worked there in the 90s, children were getting transferred there from,

you know, I've been to court in 15 counties.

They get transferred there all the time.

And so, you know, I would talk about the findings with the neurosurgeon.

I would go, at that time, we had the actual film x-rays.

And, you know, that first 10, 15 years of my job was much more difficult because when I got called on call for some child that was in the ICU, I actually physically had to go to the hospital.

I couldn't review any records, review any imaging or anything like that without physically going down there.

And there was like the one guy.

I think the first four or five years I was there, there was one radiologist.

And so, you know, he and I would go over cases and look at things and everything.

And then it turned out that, you know, by doing that for years, and I, you know, up until I stopped doing child abuse pediatrics, every single case I had, I would review all the images myself.

I don't look at the radiology reports.

I mean, you know, that's interesting information and I like to make sure that, you know, my interpretation is the same as theirs.

But what I always did is looked at the film.

So, you know, I'm not a radiologist, but I feel like I'm fairly expert in child abuse radiology.

During this part of her career, Dr.

Sally Smith was also raising two kids.

And for much of this time, while she was working for the child protection team, she was literally on call 24-7 unless she was out of the country.

Sally's son Patrick remembered what this time was like.

So I have been trying to reconstruct this recently.

I mean, since this all has been thrust so fully into under a spotlight.

And

I think the point where knew where she worked was because when I got old enough to notice the times when she had to leave at weird hours, you know, and like,

you know, if she wasn't there for dinner and you start to ask, like, where's mom?

You know?

And my dad would just tell us, like, oh, she had to go to child protection team.

And it was like a word.

You know, like when you're a kid, sometimes words mash together.

And you just think child protection team, like that, you think it's like one word.

It's like a place.

Yeah.

Yeah, exactly.

Yeah, it's it's a name, you know, it's like Publix or something.

So that was when I kind of became aware of it.

And then it must have been, yeah, that would have been like five or six years old.

And then I started to put together that those words are separate and mean something.

And then

I remember,

I must have been around 10

or

yeah, maybe nine or 10.

And I remember asking my sister about a phone call that my mom had had to take.

And I didn't understand some of the words that she said.

You know, I mean, like, she would take these calls privately, but sometimes, you know, you overhear snippets.

And I asked my sister what blood in the stool meant.

And

my sister, who's, you know,

close to three years older than me, I think had, you know, picked up more than I could and told me that,

you know, that

just rather matter of fact, that that's what happens when

someone's been beaten to the point that they're bleeding inside.

And

then

it all kind of clicked, you know, what her job was.

And so,

yeah, and

my sister listens to this.

I don't even know if she remembers that, but

yeah, but I did.

So, yeah, I'd say that that was the

moment where I knew what my mom did.

And then from that point forward, it's been pretty matter of fact.

When people ask what my mom does, I think just because of

the seriousness with which she does her job and I think the conviction that she is like displays that like this is

that it's the right thing for her to do with her life is to protect kids.

So I've actually like for years been quite proud when people ask like, what do your parents do?

I'm like, oh, my mom works for child protective services.

And basically, I tell people, yeah, you know, like,

have you ever thought about like, there must be someone out there who has to medically assess a kid after they've been abused?

And they're usually like, oh, yeah, I guess that that does make sense.

That that's a thing that has to be done.

I'm like, yeah, well, that's what, uh,

that's what my mom does.

Yeah, I mean, I

would imagine that you're deeply proud of your mom.

Yeah.

Um,

yeah, I think everybody is proud of their parents, you know, for the job that they do.

People figure out that their parents are human beings as they're growing up.

So I think actually that's not always the, that's not even maybe frequently the case that people are still really proud of their parents by the time they're adults.

There's a whole narrative that is definitely personified by the conversation around Dr.

Smith, but is no means limited to just her, that the job of child abuse pediatricians is to find abuse and subsequently tear families apart.

But actually, their job is to evaluate whether or not there is evidence of abuse in a given situation.

And actually, according to a joint study from Children's Mercy Hospital and University of Missouri at Kansas City, child abuse pediatricians are actually less likely than doctors without that subspecialty to make a determination of physical abuse.

basically because these are highly trained doctors and they're in no way incentivized to find abuse.

On the flight out to Tampa, I spent a bunch of time reading up on some of the other parents who were allegedly falsely accused by Dr.

Sally Smith and appeared in the film Take Care of Maya.

One of these stories includes a 15-month-old who was murdered.

And you know, sometimes I think I've built up a pretty big tolerance.

around reading about horrible things that have been done to children as I've been doing this work for the past several years.

But nonetheless, that night when I was trying to fall asleep at the hotel, I just couldn't get the image of this little boy out of my head.

And I can't even imagine what it would be like to bear witness to this kind of thing in real life.

And it's one thing to be drawn into this work and to be interested in it.

And it's another thing altogether to do it for decades.

I don't think I ever could have done it if I only did child abuse pediatrics.

I don't think it would have been.

It's, it's too much.

Yeah.

Cause, you know, I was,

I guess if I did it full time, the whole situation may have been different.

I may have seen a lot more outpatient cases, but, you know, my whole 32 years with the child protection team, I saw virtually all of the hospital cases.

And that's like 60 to 80, up to 100 a year.

Wow.

And it wasn't just me.

You know, that whole group of doctors, there are nurses there that I have known for 30 years seeing these kids in the ICU.

And, you know, I walk in the room and there's some of them.

They're just shaking their heads.

You know, here's another one.

I mean, were there moments where you were like, you know, were there like certain cases or sort of moments when you

questioned whether you wanted to stay in it?

I think that the really tough cases never really took me that direction.

I think in some ways, maybe it made me

more committed because,

you know, those children need a voice.

They need an advocate.

They need somebody to look at their whole pile of medical records or their whole, you know, picture in terms of what they've been through in their lives

and

state

the.

the fact that this is a child who has all this evidence that supports that this was abusive head trauma or these are inflicted fractures or you know children with 20 bruises and a head injury and broken bones and things and the

law enforcement agencies the child welfare workers the court system

needs a doctor's help

to be able to

look at all that information and figure out what it means.

And, you know, the big thing that we're doing as child abuse pediatricians is trying to keep children safe and trying to do whatever we can to make sure they're in a nurturing environment.

And so, you know, I think I

like I never really,

I wasn't calling up the prosecutor ever saying, you know, this child was murdered.

You need to do something.

You know, I think more my approach was they're doing their job.

I'm doing my job.

If you come to the conclusion that that's what you might want to do,

it's like, I've got your back.

I've got all the data.

And, you know, that's one of the things that was hard for me to understand

in court.

The first five or 10 years I was going to court.

I go and I present the medical data and I think the whole jury is going to be like, oh, this is obviously abusive head trauma.

And then she just showed us all the She's the person.

Wait, but I showed you all the medical data.

Right.

It is maddening when you know the facts are on your side.

And yet it's just not convincing to some people.

And

there's something about the way that this case, the Maya Kowalski case, is being metabolized that is

illustrative of this moment we're going through

where

people act like the truth

doesn't matter.

Like everything is an opinion.

Everything is picking aside.

Everything is subjective.

Everything is a team sport.

But the truth does matter.

It does matter.

And it's worth getting to the bottom of.

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But what about these four other parents who are featured in the film?

The ones who also claim that Dr.

Sally Smith falsely accused them of abuse?

I spent over 300 days in jail before they finally dropped the charges.

They ruined my life because of it.

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