Episode 20: And Am I Born to Die?

38m

Three months before Frank Tilley met a hard death on the tracks outside Baker's Gap, Esther Campbell moved to Baker's Gap in search of a new life and a new way of worship.


CW: Discussion of Domestic Violence, Fundamentalist Religious Themes


Written by: Steve Shell

Narrated by: Steve Shell

Intro music: "The Land Unknown," written and performed by Landon Blood 

In story song: “Am I Born To Die? (Traditional) performed by Landon Blood

Outro music: “I Cannot Escape The Darkness,” written and performed by Those Poor Bastards


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Esther Campbell was freezing.

She was dressed in her warmest layers and standing in the cold outside of Rising Creek Baptist Church in the pre-dawn darkness, shivering.

and had been for about a half hour.

She had walked the entire way over from her boarding house carrying a big old picnic basket full of plates and cups and other sundry things in order to be early to do good service for her community.

She just hoped her ride wasn't running late and she didn't freeze to death.

Esther had moved to Bakers Gap from Arney, Tennessee about three months ago,

shortly after the town of Arney officially ceased to be.

Now, Arney weren't but 10 miles or so up the mountain from Bakers Gap and once featured two whole churches, a feed store, and briefly a commissary for the railroad.

When the railroad work around Arney was done and the town was passed over for an official stop or station,

well, the bleeding started and didn't stop till the corpse was dry.

So Esther, a spinster at the absolutely dusty age of 26, took a secretarial job at Bernie's Industrial Farm Supply in Bakers Gap proper and spent her days organizing the files of that storied establishment's larger accounts, which lately felt more like filing obituaries for failed farm after failed farm.

It was steady work, though, and the people were nice enough.

It had taken her all three days on the job to get invited to church at Rising Creek Baptist by Faye Bernie, the boss's wife.

Esther was delighted.

She had been adrift since Buckner's chapel closed its doors and she'd never felt quite comfortable just turning up at a strange church uninvited, much less a full-on hollering and shouting Free Will Baptist one like Rising Creek.

She had been nervous at first, but a few congregational sings, prayer meetings, and Bible studies later, the next thing she knew, she was being invited to join the Ladies' Auxiliary.

For those of y'all who might not be familiar, the ladies' auxiliary of a mountain church was the absolute backbone of that body of worship.

Organizing food pantries, visiting the sick when the pastor was spread too thin, generally being the mammals and aunts for the whole community at large.

These were the solemn duties of a true ladies' auxiliary.

This particular body of mothers and sisters was headed up by the pastor's wife herself, Miss Josephine Pickens.

Esther was quick to notice she was one of only two single women in the body and took no small amount of pride that these older women saw her good works and wanted her amongst their number.

The past 12 weeks had been glorious and exhausting as Esther settled into her new hometown.

Miss Piggins had given her and the younger women lots and lots to do during the week, mostly legwork and door knocking and flyer hanging, and most of the older women weren't quite up to trotting around town in the evening hours or picking up or dropping off meals for the shut in or the needy.

Usually one or two of the menfolk from the church would drive the women about as needed or in a pinch, Mr.

Blevins, though not a churchgoer, he was happy to make sure the ladies made it back to Rising Creek to be picked up by their husbands or in the case of the two single gals to be dropped off at their respective boarding houses.

Well, after the meeting to agree upon who would head up that year's Christmas fundraising initiative for the orphanage over in Tipton, Surprise, it was Ms.

Pickens.

Esther had been stopped by the other single woman in the group, Georgie Triplett.

She had informed Esther that while working for the ladies' auxiliary at RCB was good and right and undoubtedly pleased the Lord, she knew that being the new girl, and especially the new single girl, could make you feel pretty overworked and underappreciated.

Esther had told her, no, no, no, she was glad to help, and she didn't do her work for the church for praise or position.

Georgie had grinned slyly and told her it was all right to feel frustrated by Her Majesty Ms.

Pickens in her hen house.

And that she wanted to do some work that might feel a little more gratifying and fulfilling.

Well, she worked with an interdenominational group of people from churches and civic organizations all across Appalachia.

And this group saw to the people who lay on the outskirts of polite society.

Folks living rough up in the woods and tents and lean-tos.

The drifters who came and went on the rail once they found out they wasn't white enough or holy enough to be wanted in Bakerscat.

Didn't they deserve the love of the Almighty as well?

Church folk would always take care of church folk in little towns like this, but it took a bigger body to truly look after the lost.

A lot of these small-town preachers are like shepherds who get fat on the backs of their flocks, and they forget how to look for the lost lambs, Georgie had said with that sly grin as she handed Esther a pamphlet.

Tell you what, we have a pancake breakfast coming up at one of the poor folks' camps out off of Peter's branch on Saturday.

Come help me out with that, and see if you don't feel more seen and appreciated than you do when you're doing the bidding of Her Royal Majesty Queen Pickens and her court of the holy chickens.

And Georgie did a little curtsy while flapping her arms like chicken wings.

Esther covered her mouth and snorted in spite of herself.

The two women pulled it together just in time as Ms.

Pickens and her inner flock came around the corner.

The three other women, Peggy Walcott, Fanny Moore, and Jolene Metcalfe, trailing dutifully behind the pastor's wife like chicks following their mama.

Esther fought down a giggle as the pastor himself, Claude Pickens, pulled up in his model tee to pick up his wife.

Esther and Georgie watched as the women hemmed and hawed and oh gosh their way through a proper mountain goodbye as their own husbands arrived one by one to pick them up as well.

Eventually, each car left the church and vanished into the deepening dusk.

As Jolene Metcalfe's husband pulled away, the old biddy leaned out the window and called to the two single women, Mr.

Blevins will be by shortly to give y'all a ride, girls.

Make sure he takes you straight home.

Don't do nothing that I wouldn't do.

She laughed in such a way that Esther would have sworn she just laid an egg.

She felt her face redden in anger and embarrassment.

She knew what they thought about Mr.

Blevins.

She knew what they said about his daughter who'd passed years back.

Whether he came to church or not, Melvin Blevins was a kind man, and people shouldn't joke about him that way.

She glowered down at the pamphlet Georgie had handed her.

It featured a drawing of a woman looking hopefully towards the horizon.

A babe nestled at her bosom, and beneath it,

Good Mother Ministries.

And below that, a slogan.

We sow in the dark earth so we might sing at dawn.

Well,

that seemed hopeful and wholesome.

Georgie, she said,

sign me up for Saturday.

I'm Ian.

A cold wind falls,

and so I'll follow.

No time to rest these weary bones.

I hear her

song

and my heart goes hollow.

Best not to walk these woods alone.

Best stick to the roads and out of the shadow.

Best get on home.

Best to leave them ghosts alone.

That had been four days ago.

And now here she stood, freezing her tail feathers off, waiting for

who?

Not anyone from church.

Probably not even Mr.

Blevins.

Georgie had just told her to meet her here by 5 a.m.

and her ministry friends would have their ride all worked out.

She felt kind of foolish leaving from her own new home church to go do work for a different group entirely and she started to fret.

What did she know about Georgie Triplet?

What did she know about this whole arrangement?

There was a reason tramps and train hoppers didn't get visited by the ladies' auxiliary.

Well, they were often crooked, shifty people from

away.

Poor folks, sure, but poor folks that would cut your throat for a half dollar.

And the folks living rip off Peter's branch, a bunch of moonshiners and bootleggers, from what she understood.

She heard about little squatter gangs like that, just moving into cleared-out hollers and living outside the law.

She'd heard the stories about the women that had been living out in what they used to call the clutch on the other side of the gap 10 years ago.

She heard about that.

People who lived like that were downright dangerous.

But before she could change her mind and start the long walk home, a big old work truck pulled up.

The kind that hauled lumber for supplies or for the railroad.

And out of the back, quick as a rabbit, popped Georgie Triplet.

And she turned and carefully helped someone else down from the back of the truck to another woman, older and taller.

And once she got closer, to Esther's surprise, black.

Esther, this is Miss Darla.

Miss Darla, this is my friend Esther I told you about.

The woman did not speak.

And Esther noticed she watched Georgie closely during the introduction and then turned her eyes to Esther.

Esther had not known many, if any, black folks in her day.

Living in Arney, her social circle had been about two shades of ivory soap lighter than a glass of milk.

How do you do, ma'am?

Esther said, speaking slowly.

She assumed the woman was deaf and had been reading Georgie's lips.

She also signed the greeting with her hands.

Esther's great-granny had been deaf most of her life, and Esther had learned both sign language and what her great-granny had taught her was the courteous pace at which to speak to be easily read.

The woman shook her head and signed back.

I can hear you, my new friend.

I cannot speak.

Oh, Miss Darla had an episode years back and lost her voice, Georgie explained, but she can hear you just fine.

She looked back at Miss Darla.

Can I tell her, or would you like to, since y'all seem to be real good at that hand-talking?

Miss Darla shook her head and signed to Esther.

Tell her she can tell you my story on the way.

I see light in you, Miss Campbell.

Tell her.

And let us get on.

There is much to see.

Esther relayed the older woman's message, and the three women climbed into the rear of the truck and settled in as it trundled off into the lightning day.

Miss Darla's story was one of wonder.

She had seen so much darkness in her life.

She had endured horrors beyond anything Esther could comprehend, and she'd survived.

She had no people left and had to navigate the brutality of the South and the echoes of the war between the states.

And she'd been lost.

She made her way from the coast of South Carolina to Tennessee and for years had worked as a servant to white families.

Finally, when she gave up on trying to fit into their towns and into their worlds where there was no place for her,

She found a community of other people that the towns had no places for.

And from that group and from their shared faith, they'd come come together to celebrate and worship in the ministry of the Good Mother.

When they arrived at the site of the pancake breakfast, Esther was amazed.

Deep, deep into the woods off one of the most remote branches of the Nolichucky was a whole town of tents and makeshift shelters, communal living spaces that were organized and orderly.

Men and women and even children living together outside.

Miss Darla seemed to be known to all and many children ran to her and hugged her and talked with her in sign.

The truck, which turned out to be loaded with griddles and grills and pots and pans and other equipment, was unloaded and the largest meal Esther had ever helped prepare began to come together.

As she peeled potatoes, rationed out bacon and other foods, Esther noticed that all the knives, the pots, the pans, the camp gear was

all brand new.

Some still with labels on it.

Some came straight from wooden shipping crates.

The truck itself, she suddenly realized, had had a shipping company name covered up with paint on the doors and on the tailgate.

All of this was stolen.

Her mind raced.

She was among criminals, thieves, and who knew what else.

And

you know what?

She didn't care.

She saw more caring here amongst these folks had managed to cobble together a community out of nature and nothing than she ever did at Rising Creek or Buckner's Chapel or any church she belonged to.

After the meal was completed, about a third of the camp, some 30 or 40 people, gathered in what was clearly the communal courtyard for this strange little bit of nowhere.

A semicircle started forming around Miss Darla and a little girl who looked to be about seven or eight years old.

Miss Darla signed to her and she nodded and then her voice rang out clear as a new day breaking.

It's church time.

Everybody will come help us sing.

We'll get right in the service.

And a handful of people moved forward to join and form a makeshift choir that belted its way in roughshod harmonies through some of the bloodiest hymns Esther had ever heard strung together.

Stricken, smitten, and afflicted, power into blood, and a newer one she'd only heard on the radio about a crimson stream.

All songs about the spilling of blood for atonement.

She was sure she heard the Lord's name here and there, but these songs seemed at their heart to be about

something else entirely.

After a bit, the little girl, Esther would later learn her name was Pearl, asked,

Brother Luther, would you favor us with a song before we hear the true word?

A tall man who looked like he could pull a plow on his own stepped to the front of the assembly and looked to Miss Darla, who smiled warmly and nodded.

And Brother Luther opened his mouth, and a song older than any family name in Baker's Gap rolled from its lips.

Hill

am I born today

to lay

this body

down

and as my trembling spirit

flies

unto

a

world

unknown

And as my

trembling spirit flies

unto

a world

unknown,

and soon

as from earth I go

what

will be

come

of me

eternal

happyness

for know

must been

my portion be

determined

happiness

unknown

must then

my portion

be

the land

of deep

shade

bias by

human thought

That we

region of

the dead

where all

things are forgot

That

week

Where all

things are

forgot

By the end of it, Esther Campbell was sobbing

Tears streamed down her face and her heart felt as though someone had poked a million holes in it.

And all the hurt of burying her great granny and her mommy and her daddy and finding out that Hansome Bradley Ward from over in the gap had gone off to war and would never be her husband came pouring out like poison sucked out of a snake bind.

Before she could fully recover, though,

Miss Darla stood and signed to little Pearl, and Esther didn't need to hear the girl say them as she read the words off the older woman's fingers.

And now now let us hear the true word of the good mother.

Esther thought for a moment that Miss Darla would preach an entire sermon or lead a prayer through the child when another figure,

at least as tall as Brother Luther and even broader, with a barreled chest and heavy belly, stepped up and even Miss Darla retreated to a seat in the congregation.

The speaker dressed as a man would for a Sunday service if he were delivering it while digging a ditch.

He wore thick brown work paints held up by wide suspenders over a dingy white button-up dress shirt with the sleeves rolled to the elbows.

He wore boots like a soldier might.

His sandy hair was cut short and parted on the side and falling to the right to the nape of his neck.

Skin was a freckled bronze of a fair-skinned child allowed to become a tanned hide in the sun.

Every head in attendance bowed as the speaker knelt and scooped up a handful of soil and held it to the sun as if to judge its content and color and asked the gathered number,

Kinfolk,

how does the dark earth find you?

The response was instantaneous and in unison.

The dark earth by day finds us planting worthy seed.

And how by night?

The speaker asked, drawing out what was clearly a familiar question.

Again, the assembly spoke as one in response.

The dark earth at night finds us digging worthy graves.

What in the world?

Esther thought.

If that was scripture, it wasn't one she'd heard, and she knew her way around the King James better than most.

Still, though, she listened.

Kinfolk, I want to thank Sister Georgie and her guest, Sister Esther, for helping provide us with our morning meal.

And welcome, Sister Esther, to her first gathering here with Good Mother Ministries.

I pray it won't be your last.

Esther blushed to her bones.

And all the work she'd done for Rising Creek or Buckner's Chapel, she'd never once been thanked personally by

the pastor, she assumed.

She returned the preacher's welcoming smile and demerely inclined her head at the compliment.

Some of y'all know what we've gathered here to talk of this fine Saturday, and some of you might be able to guess, but if Miss Darla is right and the signs I've read in the wood and the stars is right,

then kinfolk, I believe we have entered the age of reckoning after all this time.

Audible gasps ran around the circle.

Esther saw a mother clutch her two little boys to her like she'd just been told they'd want a steak dinner every night for a year.

She saw an older woman with one arm draw a shape with her foot in the dirt and seemed to direct a steady murmuring string of words to it.

Brother Luther actually fell to his knees and dug his sizable hands into the dirt and said the words, thank you, mother, thank you mother, over and over again.

Now, I know anybody can gets up here and tells you that they are living in the age of the reckoning.

We all know that preachers and priests and fancy talking tent revivalists can get up and say whatever they want and people will fill their collection plates and buy them a fine fish dinner for breathing the word of the good news.

But I think you can feel in your heart as much as I do that this is real.

Can't you, church?

The two boys were now asking their mother, really?

Really?

And she was assuring them that it was so.

Esther looked about the crowd for someone she could ask a question that wasn't thrown into fits of joy and or relief at this cryptic announcement

when she caught Miss Darla's eye and quickly signed, what?

Miss Darla smiled archly and signed back, patience.

The sermon went on, and Esther did her best to follow the thread of what the speaker was saying.

The speaker apparently had been having visions and visitations with spirits and angels that came in all forms in the night.

Other folks chimed in the the affirmative.

They had too, most folks, it seemed.

The speaker went on at length about how they had suffered and persevered just as all of God's chosen had had to do at one time or another, be it Moses and the Israelites or those proclaiming the name of Jesus or even them.

Those who had been wronged and hurt and changed by the cruelties of men and their ways.

And the speaker went on that the angels had come to them and spoke it in tongues unimagined and told them that the beasts and the liars that had held the age of reckoning at bay had finally failed.

The good mother

walked.

She walked with her beloved babe in her arms

and the days of blood and dark earth were nigh.

The age had begun.

That evildoers had already started being punished by the good mother.

That in the hours before dawn, the first week she walked, she had struck down a whole household of outsiders and murderers and those that would harm women.

And before that, the speaker had seen in dreams that the Good Mother had found a whole temple defiled by blasphemy on Black Mountain and had torn it asunder.

The crowd was openly weeping and tearing at their clothes and hair in joy, all except Miss Darla,

who again signed, patience.

to Esther.

You will understand soon.

And that's only the beginning.

For tonight, kinfolk, the good mother will smile on us personally.

Come with me and you will behold her with your own two eyes and know how loved and blessed we are.

Sister Georgie, Sister Georgie, is the prayer you and I shared when you came to us.

Is that still held true in your heart?

Georgie nearly jumped out of her skin.

It is, Speaker Timothy.

It is.

Then it shall be tonight, darling.

We will witness.

We will be greatly favored.

After the closing prayer of the service had ended

and the members of the camp drifted back to their lives abuzz with the excitement that they would meet at a secret location later tonight to witness these blessings firsthand.

Miss Darla drew Esther aside, forestalling her questions for the moment and walking her over to one of the larger lean-to shelters.

She led Esther inside where the speaker sat, resting, still red-faced from the exertion of his work in the pulpit on a seat made from a heavy wooden spool.

Sister Esther Campbell, she signed, this is our speaker, Evelyn Burgess.

Esther blinked, caught wrong-footed.

I'm terribly sorry.

I thought I heard Georgie call you Timothy.

The speaker smiled, a patient and well-practiced smile.

You did, Miss Campbell.

You did indeed.

I am both Evelyn and Timothy.

My mama named me Evelyn, and a lot of the walking around time, that's me, but I know my name is also Timothy.

My heart started telling me that when I was younger, and when I got called to preach, and when I step into the spirit of speaker,

I'm him as sure as I'm standing here.

I see, Esther stammered.

Evelyn cut in.

I know I'm not what you expected.

Hell, I'm not what I expected, frankly, but I am who I am.

And if you get to know me, you'll see that too.

Esther wasn't sure what to think, but the speaker went on, when Georgie brought you here, she told you our ministry is for those who don't have a place elsewhere, yes?

Esther nodded.

She did, and I did not come here with a a non-judgmental heart speaker, and for that I am so sorry.

Please, call me Evelyn.

You're in the middle of nowhere with a whole mess of strangers that a lot of people down in the gap wouldn't piss on if they were on fire.

You didn't know what you were walking into.

There are plenty of folks here that are wanted by the law.

Now, there are no rapists or those who would hurt children here, if that helps.

But I won't lie to you and tell you there aren't those who've taken a life life to protect their own or their children's or for other reasons.

And I won't tell you every soul here is born again and baptized, but you are safe here.

And on that I give you my word.

Esther knew in her heart this person was telling her the truth.

Anxious to change the subject, Esther turned the topic to the sermon.

So

what is this miracle you're going to perform for Georgie tomorrow?

Evelyn was certainly very serious.

Oh, sister,

I won't be doing anything but bearing witness to the same things you will, if you'll join us.

I am but a conduit and a vessel for the will of the good mother, the angel of vengeance, the patroness of all mothers and children who have called out for help and been left unheeded by men.

Esther thought she could sense the cadence of Speaker Timothy slipping into the conversation.

Come with us, sister, the speaker said earnestly and softly, taking Esther's hand.

Come sing sing the dawn with us.

That would be the first night, but far from the last that Esther witnessed the holy power of the good mother.

They had gathered outside of a house that had once belonged to Georgie and her mother out in a holler east of Butler Ridge.

The man that was living there now had been Georgie's stepfather.

He was not a good man to Georgie's mother mother before she died, and though she couldn't prove it, Georgie knew he was responsible for her death.

Long story short, Georgie got her miracle.

They all watched a tall, pale woman appear,

rocking the sleeping infant in her arms.

And they watched as she called her angels from the high trees, great swooping owls that seemed to have too many wings and too many faces and feathers made of mold and bark and claws made of wood and bone and how they broke the windows and flew in and out of the house until Georgie's stepfather ran outside and met the tall pale woman and her child himself.

And they watched as all of Georgie's prayers

were answered.

Esther

had found her second new home

and a God

that actually showed up.

Esther and Georgie continued attending Rising Creek Baptist and serving with the ladies' auxiliary.

As the weeks went by, they drew one or two new members out to help with their interdenominational outreach activities.

Some stayed,

others didn't.

Late one Wednesday night, after a meeting of the Potluck Organizing Committee, another veteran member of the group who wasn't part of Josie Pickens' little cluck, uh, click,

approached Georgie while she and Esther were waiting for their ride home.

Bonnie Ward,

the sheriff's sister and wife of the local hardware store and chess club owner Bill Ward, pulled Georgie, and by default Esther, aside.

I talked to Mitch Stapleton the other day when he was making a delivery to the store.

He stays out there in that camp that y'all take food to with that other group, don't he?

Georgie nodded.

Yes,

I know Mitch.

Mitch told me some of the folks out there can be quite persuasive in terms of helping folks see the error of their ways.

Says there's a preacher out there who knows people, who knows some people, who knows some people.

Georgie gave Esther a subtle headshake, and neither woman spoke.

Yeah, that's what I figured.

Anyway, y'all seen Coralie Tilly lately?

Esther thought about it for a moment, then frowned.

Coralee wasn't part of the auxiliary.

Come to think of it, the woman barely seemed to speak to anyone at all.

She couldn't remember if she'd ever properly been introduced to the quiet little mouse of a woman.

But Georgie nodded.

Yeah, she's...

She's married to Frank.

A lot of the boys out that way know him from his own part of the hardware business.

What of it?

Like I said, either y'all seen Coralie lately?

Let me help you out.

No, you ain't.

Because Frank's done beat her almost to death again.

She's not been to church for the past three weeks, and that ain't like her.

I tried to get her some help to get her out of there, but she wouldn't take it from,

well, from some folks I know who help women in those circumstances.

But if two good Christian ladies like yourselves wanted to get her involved in a volunteer project, Frank might allow that.

You could get her out of the house once in a while, or maybe,

you know,

forever.

Georgie looked to Esther, who had already rummaged through her purse to produce a pamphlet.

I think we can do that.

And I can assure you, Esther said, looking up with a soft smile, that Coralie will be in our prayers.

You can count on that.

There is a curse upon my every

waking

breath, and

I cannot escape,

darling.

It feels like every step is called to be my lace,

and

I could not escape,

darling.

Some have tried to live here,

but I always pray that thou

will

be

more

I could not escape

darling

The iris of my eye is cancerous influenced, and I cannot escape,

darling.

Tear out your golden hair and stitch into my babe,

for

I cannot escape,

the darkness,

some have tried to live me,

but I always

wail

down

before

I cannot escape

the darkness.

It's

my grandeur, to go and find another.

I love

my home.

Now, this prayer is over.

Look at this worthless thing that slivers

on your floor,

and

I cannot escape

the darling.

Just worry my eyelids shut, then shut me out the door.

For

I cannot

escape

the darling.

Some have tried to make

me,

but I'm only

praying

down

here

for

I cannot

escape

your

hand.

It's time

I fail

to go and find another.

I've loved

my hope.

Now just where this goes.