Don't Mind | Cruxmont | Ep. 7

Speaker 1 Hello, I'm K.A. Stats, the writer and creator of Don't Mind Cruxmon.

Speaker 2 And I'm Travis Vengroff, the producer and director.

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Today's episode contains content related to suicide.

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Speaker 1 Previously on Don't Mind Cruxmont, Neil met Gwen at the Cruxmont Records Hall to inspect old village records and, there, accessed a locked cabinet containing the village's collected genealogies.

Speaker 1 Upon initial examination, they found only one relevant date within the records, a Jacob Birch, Adelaide's great-grandfather who was either born in or died in 1789.

Speaker 1 Afterwards, they split up and Neil encountered Mike and Amy.

Speaker 1 He spoke with the teenagers about the annual Cruxmont survey undertaken by local teens, and they revealed that they felt trapped in Cruxmont.

Speaker 1 After their discussion, Neil, in search of further clues to Colin's whereabouts, attempted to clamber through a church window, but he was promptly apprehended by the constable.

Speaker 1 Meanwhile, Gwen desperately rushed to young Millie as the girl walked into the pond.

Speaker 1 Don't mind Cruxmont

Speaker 3 Colin, the microwave.

Speaker 8 Thanks.

Speaker 3 Are you sure you want me to go? I can reschedule. It's nothing special.
No, really, go.

Speaker 3 I plan to eat and play that new game you got.

Speaker 3 I haven't even played it yet. Well, I don't have a girlfriend, so I have an abundance of time.
Or a job. I've been trying.
I know. I know.

Speaker 3 Sorry. Just a bad joke.

Speaker 9 Yeah.

Speaker 3 So what's the plan with Piper?

Speaker 8 Something nice?

Speaker 3 Um, I'll walk through the park, and we'll go to uh the sky bar thing for some drinks and later catch a movie. Well, don't come home if you can help it.

Speaker 7 Ha ha.

Speaker 3 I'll be honest.

Speaker 3 Given everything you've already said,

Speaker 3 I really thought you didn't like Piper. I don't.

Speaker 3 Well, let's say I don't. If I don't like her, maybe she's perfect.
It's not like I've got the greatest judgment in the world.

Speaker 3 Seriously, with my track record.

Speaker 7 Yeah.

Speaker 3 Valerie was terrible.

Speaker 7 Okay.

Speaker 3 I wasn't talking about just my dating history, but yeah, she was. It'd all be behind you.
It already is, so it can only get better, right?

Speaker 3 Yeah, I guess.

Speaker 3 Sure, it's taking its sweet time.

Speaker 3 There'll be other jobs, man.

Speaker 3 Yeah.

Speaker 3 I know.

Speaker 3 Seriously, Colin. After yesterday, I can reschedule.
We can order pizza. Shoot some shit.
No, just relax. No, go.
Have fun.

Speaker 7 Oh.

Speaker 3 Some of the cash I

Speaker 3 not a lot, I know, but I've been here for a few months now and, well,

Speaker 3 that's what I've got.

Speaker 3 You don't have to pay rent or anything. Just don't be an asshole.
Take it. Buy a drink on me.

Speaker 3 Thanks.

Speaker 3 See you later.

Speaker 8 Uh-uh.

Speaker 3 And remember to turn the volume down after nine. The Danowskis upstairs have kids.
Got it.

Speaker 3 Have fun.

Speaker 3 Just got in the car.

Speaker 3 I'll be there in about twenty.

Speaker 3 A grave.

Speaker 10 Yes, the Ledford family plots. It's disclosed in the paperwork.

Speaker 1 Closed eyes beneath the earth.

Speaker 8 Plots overrun and forgotten.

Speaker 10 Decades of unkempt blood roses bloom. The mature blooming rose garden.

Speaker 10 Certainly a plus.

Speaker 5 Harry.

Speaker 5 This place, this is the

Speaker 3 This is Neil.

Speaker 11 You really just left?

Speaker 7 Yeah.

Speaker 3 But nothing is set in stone, so we won't miss anything. Any ideas on what movie you want to see?

Speaker 11 How am I supposed to pick a movie if we don't know what time we'll be at the theater?

Speaker 11 Was this about Colin again?

Speaker 7 No, it's it's not.

Speaker 3 I was chatting and got caught up. But as I said, we don't have any solid plans, so don't worry about it.

Speaker 11 He doesn't even try to help out, Neil. Not even with getting you out of the house on time for a date.
Seriously, you're a saint for even putting up with him.

Speaker 3 No, Colin wanted me to go out. He's been trying really hard to get a job.
You know how hard it is for him. Or anyone for that matter.

Speaker 3 He deserves better than being treated like shit for 12 bucks an hour. Everyone does.

Speaker 3 He even gave me a bit of cash for tonight's drinks as a thank you.

Speaker 11 Sure, and where'd he get the money, Neil? Pawning more of your stuff? Did you even think to ask?

Speaker 3 I have to trust him, Piper.

Speaker 3 Look, I'll be at your place soon. We don't have to fight about this again.

Speaker 3 Let's just try and have a nice night.

Speaker 11 You can't avoid the subject, where did he get the money?

Speaker 3 Shit, Piper.

Speaker 7 I-I don't know.

Speaker 3 Nothing's missing, if that's what you want to know, since you seem so determined to hate him.

Speaker 11 Well, not much to like. And he doesn't like me either.

Speaker 3 You know, you're right. He doesn't.
He doesn't like you. And he still makes an effort to let me have time with you because he knows I like you.
So I say he's doing okay.

Speaker 9 He's trying.

Speaker 3 And even if he doesn't have a job yet, he's still trying on that too, okay?

Speaker 3 Damn.

Speaker 3 I don't want to keep having this same conversation. He's doing better, okay?

Speaker 3 He wanted me to go out tonight.

Speaker 11 Wait, he wanted you to? So you don't want to?

Speaker 3 No.

Speaker 3 I want to. But I also worry about him.
So I offered to stay home with him tonight to hang out.

Speaker 11 You nearly canceled again.

Speaker 11 This is going to be our first date in weeks. No, sitting on your sofa watching movies with Cullen doesn't count.

Speaker 3 You know, I don't know why he would try so hard to get me to go out with you.

Speaker 3 Why did he want me to go?

Speaker 10 Why?

Speaker 11 Like, I care why he does anything.

Speaker 1 Why did he get high all those times?

Speaker 11 What I want to know is why he had to convince you in the first place.

Speaker 11 Neil?

Speaker 3 Neil?

Speaker 3 I'm going home.

Speaker 4 I'm going back.

Speaker 5 Are you effing kidding me?

Speaker 11 First date in weeks, Neil. Weeks.
Shit.

Speaker 5 You know, I don't have to put up with this.

Speaker 13 The last time this happened. Listen, Piper.

Speaker 7 I'll call you later. Sorry about tonight.
Call, call it.

Speaker 10 Hey, you've reached the voicemail of calling Mitchell.

Speaker 3 Damn it. Try to get back to you.

Speaker 11 Leave a message for anything important.

Speaker 3 Yeah, sorry, sorry.

Speaker 8 Call home.

Speaker 10 They reached the home phone of Neil Mitchell. I'm not home right now, but like most people in this decade, I have a cell phone.

Speaker 3 Please leave a message after the beep, or try and hold me on my call.

Speaker 7 Not now, Piper.

Speaker 7 Calling

Speaker 7 Colin!

Speaker 7 What?

Speaker 7 Hi, Neil.

Speaker 7 Please don't freak out.

Speaker 10 I want you to know that you did everything you could.

Speaker 10 Really?

Speaker 10 You put up with me at my worst, and you were more of a brother than I ever really deserved.

Speaker 10 But after

Speaker 10 everything that's happened,

Speaker 10 I know a lot.

Speaker 4 It's my own fault. Colin!

Speaker 4 Colin!

Speaker 4 I know you worked so hard to have it.

Speaker 3 Yes! I need an ambulance at 1314 Tower Street, apartment 3B.

Speaker 3 My brother took some pills.

Speaker 7 He's on the floor.

Speaker 7 No. So please.
No, I don't know. Don't be mad.

Speaker 3 There's no label.

Speaker 7 What what should I do?

Speaker 7 Sometimes things

Speaker 7 are broken and

Speaker 7 fixed them up.

Speaker 7 I don't want to be selfish.

Speaker 8 The opposite really. Colin!

Speaker 8 I want you to have your life.

Speaker 7 Colin, come on, man.

Speaker 7 Colin.

Speaker 7 I don't want you to have everything you were.

Speaker 7 Try and take it all away. No, he won't wake up.

Speaker 3 But I think he's breathing.

Speaker 8 Colin! You can succeed.

Speaker 7 Hurry!

Speaker 9 Please,

Speaker 7 Colin.

Speaker 7 Wake up, please, man. Wake up.

Speaker 7 You don't have to do this.

Speaker 3 You don't have to do this.

Speaker 4 Wake up. Wake up.
I have the greatest brother I could have hoped for.

Speaker 7 Help's coming. I love you, man.

Speaker 7 Hang in there, bud.

Speaker 7 What?

Speaker 7 Oh, God, that's there's the pond from before

Speaker 7 Millie

Speaker 7 Millie

Speaker 7 stop

Speaker 7 me me

Speaker 7 stop

Speaker 7 Hey!

Speaker 7 Help!

Speaker 7 Come on, please help anyone help.

Speaker 7 breathe anything.

Speaker 7 I'm so sorry.

Speaker 7 Rocks, God.

Speaker 7 That's why you sank so fast.

Speaker 7 note.

Speaker 7 It's Millie. She walked into the pub.

Speaker 4 She's not breathing.

Speaker 7 Stay there.

Speaker 8 I'll go get the constable.

Speaker 7 Oh, I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry.

Speaker 9 I could have listened all night, Millie, if I had known.

Speaker 9 Oh, God, oh, God, oh, God.

Speaker 12 Doctor,

Speaker 12 wake up.

Speaker 4 There's tea.

Speaker 9 Um can I

Speaker 9 can I go?

Speaker 7 No, not yet.

Speaker 4 But your clothes are mostly dry, so we'll have them back to you soon.

Speaker 9 Thank you, um

Speaker 9 uh be sure to to thank your wife for the gym clothes.

Speaker 4 She swears they are clean.

Speaker 12 Now,

Speaker 4 I have to ask you a few questions about the incident and about Millie.

Speaker 9 I've been in here all evening.

Speaker 7 How?

Speaker 7 It's 5 a.m.

Speaker 9 You made me stay in here all night.

Speaker 7 Yes, well,

Speaker 4 I had to go speak with Millie's family and several other villagers.

Speaker 12 Millie's friends, our community. Yes, of course.

Speaker 9 I'm sorry.

Speaker 8 Thank you.

Speaker 12 So

Speaker 4 let's talk about what happened.

Speaker 4 How did you know Millie?

Speaker 4 Um

Speaker 4 we um

Speaker 9 we we met the first night I was here. She and uh three other teenagers were out drinking.
Uh after they split up, she she walked away down the hill

Speaker 9 to

Speaker 9 the pond.

Speaker 9 Yeah, I went to talk with her. She was having a rough time with something, but

Speaker 9 she didn't want my help, and she told me to leave, so I did.

Speaker 9 And now I know I should have stayed.

Speaker 9 Maybe I could have done something to stop this.

Speaker 12 Don't blame yourself.

Speaker 7 Now,

Speaker 4 how did you find her yesterday?

Speaker 9 Yeah, I was on my way back to the Fox and Bloom when

Speaker 9 I saw her walking over the hills out in the orchard.

Speaker 9 I called out to her.

Speaker 9 I wanted to

Speaker 9 talk, check in, but she wouldn't slow down or stop. And when I came to the top of the first hill, I

Speaker 7 I saw her walking into the pond.

Speaker 7 She was walking right in there, and I

Speaker 7 started running and yelling for her to stop.

Speaker 12 Take your time.

Speaker 7 I

Speaker 7 didn't make it in time.

Speaker 7 She sank so quickly. And

Speaker 7 I struggled to pull her out. She

Speaker 7 had rocks in her pockets.

Speaker 7 Dozens and dozens of rocks. Yes.

Speaker 12 We found them.

Speaker 7 She was so young.

Speaker 7 I um

Speaker 7 I started CPR, but I I took too long to reach her and it was and it was too late.

Speaker 9 She uh she had a a note in a in a plastic bag. Did you did you find it?

Speaker 4 Yes, we know.

Speaker 4 It was a suicide.

Speaker 12 But thank you for what you did.

Speaker 4 You tried to save her, at least.

Speaker 7 So, um,

Speaker 7 so what now? Should I

Speaker 9 do something? Should I speak with Millie's Millie's parents?

Speaker 12 No, that wouldn't help anyone.

Speaker 4 Okay, parents need time and space to grieve.

Speaker 4 I don't think anything you could say would help. It may only cause further sorrow.

Speaker 7 So, um

Speaker 7 so, uh, what?

Speaker 12 Drink your tea, grab your friend, and leave Crooksman.

Speaker 12 We've asked before, and we're done.

Speaker 12 Your time is up over at the Fox and Bloom, and everywhere in the village is already booked up for the festival.

Speaker 4 There's no camping permitted, no vagrancy.

Speaker 12 So collect your things, get in your car,

Speaker 7 and go home.

Speaker 4 Whatever you're looking for, you won't find it in Croxmont.

Speaker 9 I'm sorry for what happened.

Speaker 9 This is a nice village, very calm, very sweet,

Speaker 7 Lots of charm.

Speaker 9 When did you move to Crooksmont?

Speaker 4 25 years ago, I fell in love. Married the girl of my dreams and never left.

Speaker 4 This has been my home ever since.

Speaker 4 Could you?

Speaker 9 Could you leave?

Speaker 12 Your American friend is laptop just down the hall.

Speaker 4 Found him scaling the side of the the chapel trying to climb in through a window. We're willing to let him go without pressing charges or starting a record.

Speaker 12 No damage done. If you promise to get in your car and leave.

Speaker 12 Do you agree?

Speaker 12 Yes.

Speaker 12 Good.

Speaker 4 Go check the front desk for your clothes. They should be there by now.
Then I'll let you in to collect the American on your way out.

Speaker 12 I hope you had a pleasant time in Crooksmont.

Speaker 4 And that we don't see each other again soon.

Speaker 3 I don't have time for this.

Speaker 3 Hey, at least let me talk to you.

Speaker 3 Oh, hey, Gwen.

Speaker 3 How'd you get in here?

Speaker 9 So you got caught breaking into the church.

Speaker 3 I didn't break anything. The windows were open, and I just climbed up some walls and was about to get in when I was, yes, caught.

Speaker 3 More of a trespass or unlawful entry than a B ⁇ E.

Speaker 3 You look different.

Speaker 3 What happened to your hair?

Speaker 9 I was in the

Speaker 9 The constable's wife let me use the shower, and thankfully, my clothes got cleaned off, but I uh I look a mess.

Speaker 9 Not that you look much better.

Speaker 3 Yeah, I took a smack to the face when I hit the ground.

Speaker 7 Right.

Speaker 3 I heard about the girl, uh, Millie Birch.

Speaker 3 Was that you who went in after her?

Speaker 7 Millie Birch? Yep.

Speaker 3 That's what the constable said when he stopped in a few hours ago.

Speaker 12 Now, stop causing trouble and get out of Crooksmont.

Speaker 3 Just like that.

Speaker 12 Just like that.

Speaker 12 Leave.

Speaker 12 Go on with your no.

Speaker 9 Let's go, Neil.

Speaker 9 We'll uh check out and grab the car. Drive to the next place place on your brother's itinerary.

Speaker 7 Yeah, sure.

Speaker 3 First, though, how did you know about Colin? About his drug problem?

Speaker 12 Photo you're using.

Speaker 4 He looks just like how you'd imagine some junkie.

Speaker 4 Sunken eyes, skinny, empty cheeks.

Speaker 4 Maybe go check a city.

Speaker 4 Somewhere he could get his next high.

Speaker 4 I hate this shitty backwards village.

Speaker 3 It's early.

Speaker 9 Just after half past five.

Speaker 9 Hey.

Speaker 3 I know you're a doctor and all, and you probably see a lot of terrible things, but if you need to talk about Millie,

Speaker 3 you found her, and you tried to save her, but.

Speaker 3 And that's all you could hope to do.

Speaker 3 So, uh, uh, I'm not saying you have to talk to me or to anyone,

Speaker 3 but if you have a friend or someone you can trust, maybe do.

Speaker 3 That's a lot to shoulder.

Speaker 9 She was just a kid.

Speaker 9 I work with elderly people with decades upon decades of experiences and life and family.

Speaker 9 Millie was just a girl.

Speaker 7 She hadn't seen any of it yet.

Speaker 9 All the other things ahead in life, and

Speaker 7 how she won't, if I'd been after her.

Speaker 3 You still may not have saved her.

Speaker 3 You did what you could.

Speaker 3 You know, for a stranger, you did more than some would ever try.

Speaker 12 Thank you, Neil.

Speaker 9 He was upset,

Speaker 7 but not surprised.

Speaker 9 How could he be so

Speaker 9 accepting of it?

Speaker 9 Hmm?

Speaker 7 Uh, who was it? The constable about Millie's suicide.

Speaker 3 The other kids, Amy and Mike, they were talking about her, about

Speaker 3 how she'd been upset, that her mother was worried.

Speaker 7 It's um.

Speaker 9 It's terrible to think it, Neil, but uh.

Speaker 7 She fits

Speaker 9 into the bimodal distribution. Millie fits.

Speaker 9 The right age?

Speaker 3 No way in hell he guessed Colin had a problem just from that photo. It's a good photo of him.
and that guy is straight up lying.

Speaker 3 My brother is here. I'm sorry that Millie died, really.

Speaker 3 But I can't leave. I have to find Colin.
If he stopped me from going to the church, I'm just going back to the church.

Speaker 9 Please. But please.

Speaker 9 Five minutes. Trust me.

Speaker 3 Five minutes.

Speaker 9 What are you doing?

Speaker 13 You gave this old lady a fright, dear.

Speaker 7 I'm tidying up.

Speaker 9 It's six in the morning. You weren't in, so I didn't think you'd mind.
Looks like you haven't been in all night. I didn't even have to make up the bed.
Yeah,

Speaker 9 I was out.

Speaker 9 Now, both Neil and I are checking out of the Fox and Bloom. I'll leave the key with you.
Thank you very much for your hospitality.

Speaker 7 So early.

Speaker 9 Yeah,

Speaker 9 we have a lot to do, and it's very clear we shouldn't be in Croxmont any longer.

Speaker 9 So, here's the key. Goodbye, Mary.

Speaker 9 just

Speaker 9 wait and smile.

Speaker 9 Huh

Speaker 12 aren't we leaving?

Speaker 9 Put your seatbelt on.

Speaker 3 First time I've seen this many cars coming into Cruxmont.

Speaker 9 The festival starts tonight.

Speaker 3 The only time the village lets people in one weekend a year.

Speaker 3 If they have Colin, and I think they do,

Speaker 3 they'll try to get rid of him this weekend.

Speaker 9 The only murder ever recorded in Crooksmont took place during the festival. The killer was never found, and the crime was blamed on outsiders.

Speaker 5 A festival goer.

Speaker 7 Murder?

Speaker 3 You think they're gonna kill him?

Speaker 7 Turn around. I thought you did.

Speaker 9 You just said.

Speaker 7 Look,

Speaker 9 the previous victim was a local, not a visitor. And with just one person in the whole history of the village, I am sure it has nothing to do with your brother.

Speaker 9 Sure.

Speaker 3 No, no, we can't leave. We can't really leave.

Speaker 7 Stop the car.

Speaker 3 Drop me off here.

Speaker 7 I'll walk back.

Speaker 3 I said stop the car.

Speaker 9 No, not yet. Not yet.

Speaker 3 So we're

Speaker 3 not leaving.

Speaker 9 We'll drive out of sight of the main festival grounds and pull off somewhere to park.

Speaker 9 Thank you.

Speaker 3 The festival really does attract a crowd. Hopefully, a crowd we can get lost in.

Speaker 9 We don't need them knowing we're there.

Speaker 3 Not when they don't intend to be helpful.

Speaker 8 So,

Speaker 9 is it true what the constable said about your brother?

Speaker 3 The drugs?

Speaker 7 Yeah.

Speaker 3 Colin had a problem since high school, but he kicked it last year.

Speaker 3 Took a lot of work, a lot of terrible days, but he's come a long way.

Speaker 3 And that cop knows about it somehow. So he must have spoken to Colin.

Speaker 3 You can't tell about his past from a picture.

Speaker 9 Yeah, here, we'll

Speaker 9 park behind those trees and uh and walk back into the village.

Speaker 9 Okay.

Speaker 9 You have everything you need? Yup. Okay.

Speaker 9 I never planned to leave,

Speaker 9 but I didn't want to say anything while we were still in the village.

Speaker 9 Mary Birch was in my room when we got back. Looked like she'd been going through my things looking for something.

Speaker 9 Maybe just spying on me to see what I'd found, but everyone in Crooksmont knows everyone else, and we have no way of knowing if we were being watched.

Speaker 3 You think they were watching us the whole time?

Speaker 9 Not the whole time, maybe, but at definite points. How did the constable know you were going to be at the church?

Speaker 9 With the festival about to start, I'm sure he had more important places to be than an empty church. Someone heard our plan and told him.

Speaker 3 It also means there's something worth protecting in that church.

Speaker 9 Or he thought catching you committing a crime would get you locked up long enough not to be a problem.

Speaker 9 That poor girl. Millie Birch.

Speaker 9 Her name was Millie Birch.

Speaker 7 Yeah.

Speaker 12 Mm-hmm.

Speaker 3 Everyone keeps saying I'm some great brother for coming out here to look for Colin.

Speaker 3 They said that Colin's lucky to have a brother like me.

Speaker 3 But they don't understand how selfish this whole thing is.

Speaker 3 How terrible I feel every second I don't know where he is.

Speaker 3 Maybe he wasn't really ready for this trip. But it doesn't matter because I pushed him.

Speaker 3 And now something shitty has happened and all I can think of is how terrible a brother I am forever telling him to do this.

Speaker 3 If he's dead, it's my fault.

Speaker 3 It's my fault, and I can't stand it.

Speaker 7 I'm not a good brother.

Speaker 7 I'm a selfish asshole who couldn't stand it anymore.

Speaker 3 I just needed space from him.

Speaker 3 Sorry.

Speaker 9 We're all a little selfish, Neil.

Speaker 9 Don't beat yourself up.

Speaker 7 I'm looking for a cure to help myself above all others.

Speaker 7 God, I'm tired.

Speaker 9 I tell myself again and again I could help so many people, but I'll test it on myself first. I'll give myself the first dose, I swear it.

Speaker 9 I've watched people I love slip away and I'm so terribly scared of not knowing that I'm fading away with them. How am I supposed to know if I've forgotten something, something important?

Speaker 9 How much harder can someone work at selfish goals than this?

Speaker 9 Not all kinds of selfish acts are bad.

Speaker 9 Maybe it's healthy to be a little selfish. And that doesn't make us bad people.
Because in the end, it's not just about you. It's about making sure Colin is okay.

Speaker 9 And it's not just about me, but finding something tangible that could help so many others.

Speaker 9 But if Crooksman is hiding something, something so pivotally revolutionary, then

Speaker 9 that is a different kind of selfish act. The kind that knowingly and wilfully lets others suffer.

Speaker 9 Thanks.

Speaker 3 Maybe we'll get lucky.

Speaker 3 Maybe we'll find Colin and the strange secret thing.

Speaker 3 And then all the stress and anger and self-loathing we feel we deserve as punishment for all of our actions and thoughts will be worth it in the end.

Speaker 3 Like some twisted fairy tale.

Speaker 9 I'm sure we will find Colin.

Speaker 9 But whatever it is Crooksmont has that helped Adelaide,

Speaker 9 I don't know what it is or

Speaker 9 how to find it.

Speaker 3 So is there no plan?

Speaker 9 Oh, there's always a plan.

Speaker 9 Get to the village, slip in amongst the newly forming crowds. I think we have good grounds to attempt another look at that church.
I'll go this time, though.

Speaker 9 You fit in more with a festival type, as long as you don't open your mouth.

Speaker 3 What if I confront the constable?

Speaker 9 And do what exactly?

Speaker 3 Interrogate him about Colin.

Speaker 9 Neil, he has no intention of telling you anything. You've already stated this, and you are not in any position to interrogate him.
He's a police officer. You're the trespasser.

Speaker 9 And he honestly looks like he's capable of inflicting some serious bodily harm if you push him into it.

Speaker 5 Yeah.

Speaker 3 Never mind.

Speaker 9 The orchard.

Speaker 9 We'll have to pass through the trees to get into the village. But at least we shouldn't be seen.
Hopefully, there are too many people coming in and too much going on for them to notice us.

Speaker 4 Do you see that?

Speaker 3 What's that in the festival field? Ah,

Speaker 12 more booths?

Speaker 7 It looks like a

Speaker 7 bonfire.

Speaker 12 With a person on it?

Speaker 7 An effigy?

Speaker 3 Is this part of the festival? Why do you have to burn a fake person to celebrate some plums?

Speaker 9 I have no idea.

Speaker 2 Don't Mind Cruxmont. Written and created by K.A.
Stats. Produced and directed with sound design by Travis Fengraaf.
Edited with sound design mixing and mastering by Dane Leonardson.

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