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Speaker 2 Ben's father, Jerry Stiller, co-starred on Seinfeld as Frank Costanza, George's father. Ben's mother, Anne Mira, was an actress.

Speaker 2 In the 60s and 70s, they were famous as the comedy duo Stiller and Mira. When Ben's parents were on the road, he sometimes went rogue, like going to Studio 54 with his older sister when he was 13.

Speaker 2 He got past the bouncer dressed appropriately.

Speaker 3 They put me in a yellow and green polka-dotted Fioruchi shirt and an army jacket and these Mickey Mouse sunglasses.

Speaker 2 Also, we hear from Cynthia Arivo. She stars in the new film Wicked for Good.

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Speaker 2 This is Fresh Air Weekend. I'm Terry Gross.
My guest Ben Stiller has made a very personal documentary about his parents and what it was like to be their son.

Speaker 2 Ben's father, Jerry Stiller, co-starred on Seinfeld playing Frank Costanza, George's father. Ben's mother, Anne Mira, was an actress.

Speaker 2 Together, Ben's parents were known as the comedy duo Stiller and Mira. They were so popular in the 60s and 70s, they were on the Ed Sullivan show more than 30 times.

Speaker 2 Sometimes, Ben went with them to their appearances on TV talk shows and in nightclubs. In 2020, five years after Mira's death, Jerry Stiller died.

Speaker 2 While Ben was going through his father's possessions, he was stunned to discover, stashed away, many cassette and reel-to-reel audio recordings Jerry Stiller had made.

Speaker 2 They documented his life and his relationship with Anne, including recordings of conversations with Anne in which they had disagreements about their marriage and their act.

Speaker 2 Some of those conversations are included in the documentary, along with video clips of their sketches from their T V appearances.

Speaker 2 The documentary, Stiller and Mera, Nothing is Lost, is streaming on Apple T V.

Speaker 2 Ben Stiller has been famous for years as an actor, starring in such films as Zoolander, Meet the Parents, Night at the Museum, and their sequels, as well as Dodgeball, Tropic Thunder, Thunder, and the Royal Tenenbaums.

Speaker 2 In the last few years, he's been doing more and more directing and producing. Now he's the executive producer and primary director of the popular Emmy Award-winning Apple TV series Severance.

Speaker 2 Let's start with a clip from the new documentary, Stiller and Mira, Nothing is Lost.

Speaker 2 This is an excerpt of one of the audio recordings of Ben's parents, rehearsing a sketch about how the couple they're portraying hate each other, not realizing that Ben's sister, who was then a child, is overhearing them, thinking the argument is real.

Speaker 2 At the end of this recording, we'll hear Ben and his sister Amy looking back at that time.

Speaker 4 We have a sketch which we call hate.

Speaker 4 You know, I say to Anne, I hate you. And she says, You hate me, I hate you.
And one day, Amy, who's six, came into the room and she heard us saying this to each other.

Speaker 4 And we looked at her for a moment and we didn't know what to say. So we said, Amy, mommy, daddy, rehearse.
Mommy, daddy, rehearse.

Speaker 4 And Amy looked at us and she started to smile. Well, about two weeks later, we were fighting.

Speaker 6 And

Speaker 1 Amy walked in and she said, Mommy, daddy, rehearse. No, mommy, daddy, fight.

Speaker 5 Get out of here. It gets to be a little complicated sometimes.

Speaker 3 I hated you before I met you.

Speaker 4 I hated you before you were born.

Speaker 7 To me, that's like one of the things that I think about is just how that became sort of like, yeah, that's the laugh, that's the funny joke.

Speaker 4 But what is the reality of that story, though?

Speaker 1 We don't know, Ben. That's why we're so messed up.

Speaker 3 That's why we're doing this documentary.

Speaker 2 That's why we're going to figure it out.

Speaker 2 So those last two voices were Ben Stiller and his sister Amy.

Speaker 2 Ben Stiller, welcome back to Fresh Air. This is a really

Speaker 2 probing, emotionally deep movie. I really, really liked it.
So the clip that we open with

Speaker 2 is your sister not being able to tell sometimes what was a real fight and what was a rehearsal for a sketch. Did you experience anything like that?

Speaker 3 Yeah, nice to be with you, Terry. Yeah.

Speaker 3 In this apartment that we lived in, they had a living room. We called it the big living room.
It wasn't that big, but that they would use as their office when we were younger.

Speaker 3 And then I think when I was like 13 or 14, they got an office on 57th Street. But most of the time, they'd been in this office in the apartment working.

Speaker 3 So we would just hear them, you know, doing their thing in there. And sometimes their voices would be raised.
And And yeah, sometimes there were arguments that happened.

Speaker 3 And it was kind of just like part of our lives. It was like, yeah, mom and dad are doing their thing in there.
And

Speaker 3 as a kid, I don't think you question these things. It's just like what your parents do.

Speaker 2 So a lot of people know your father, Jerry Stiller, from Seinfeld, playing George's father. Frank Costanza, but they don't necessarily know Stiller and Mira routines.

Speaker 2 So I want to play one of their better-known ones that I think is really funny. And this goes back to the really early days of computer dating.

Speaker 2 And I think at this point, you didn't have your own computer. This is the period where you'd send in your information and they'd put it through a computer at the company

Speaker 2 and then send you back a match. Is that, am I right in thinking that?

Speaker 3 I think so. I don't know how it worked, but it definitely was pre-personal computers.

Speaker 2 This was in the 60s.

Speaker 2 Yeah, okay.

Speaker 3 But I think the idea of a computer being able to match people up, that was the new thing that was happening.

Speaker 2 So this borrows from your parents' actual marriage, because your father is Jewish, your mother was Irish and Catholic, although she later converted to Judaism. So in this sketch,

Speaker 2 the computer dating service has set them up together. And

Speaker 2 your father's name in the sketch is Hershey Horowitz, and your mother's name in the sketch is Mary Elizabeth Doyle.

Speaker 7 Where are you from?

Speaker 6 Me, I'm from Flatbush. Oh, really? That's where I'm from.
You're kidding? East 42nd Street. I live on East 42nd Street.
Oh, that's amazing. That's my blog.
Really? Hey, this computer really works.

Speaker 6 Yeah. Gee, that's fun.
Hey, you know Richie Flanagan? Richie Flanagan? Yeah, tall, skinny kid.

Speaker 5 No.

Speaker 6 Do you know Morris Goldstein? Goldstein? No, I don't know him. You know Mary Ellen Moriarty? Mary Ellen Moriarty.
No.

Speaker 6 Do you know Moish Bader?

Speaker 6 Motion? No, Moish Spader. Moish.
No, no, I would remember.

Speaker 6 You know Elliot Blumenfeld? No, I don't know him. You know Danny McQueenie? No.
Timothy Sheehee? No. Tommy Toohey? No.
Stanley Austin? No, I don't know him. Adolph Hausman.
No. Xavier Duffy? No.

Speaker 6 Mike Schoenfeld? Grace Mary McGinnity? Raylan Kish. Kathleen Hall.
No. Sis Hall.
Junior Hall. Mike Hall.
Marguerite Hall. Raymond Hall.
You don't know the Halls. No.

Speaker 6 You know Seymour Aaron Price? No, I don't know him. You know the Lepson brothers? No, I don't know him.
Addie and Jerry. You know the Monaghan twins, Moin and Moira? No.

Speaker 6 That's a pretty big block that he's 47.

Speaker 3 Those were all my mother's cousins, she was naming.

Speaker 2 Oh, no, really? That's so funny.

Speaker 2 Yeah, yeah. You know, it's interesting.
I don't know if the listeners heard this, but my headphones, I could hear you laughing during the sketch. Yeah.

Speaker 2 And you must have heard it like hundreds of times.

Speaker 2 But the timing is so good and it's so funny.

Speaker 3 Yeah, it was funny. I mean, it's just something about, you know, just the concept of the sketch that they're from such different worlds and those names are so specific.
It just makes me laugh.

Speaker 3 And yeah, still funny to me.

Speaker 2 Trevor Burrus, Jr.: There were conflicts that existed in your parents' marriage that also existed in their working relationship.

Speaker 2 And

Speaker 2 your parents had really different approaches to

Speaker 2 And before I play a clip that kind of illustrates some of that, I want you to explain what some of the differences were that would get in the way of both performances and the marriage.

Speaker 3 Well, I think the core difference was that my dad really wanted to do comedy, and I'm not sure my mom really wanted to.

Speaker 2 Because Because she was a dramatic actress before doing comedy.

Speaker 3 Yeah. She was studying with Utah Hagen, you know, HB Studios in the village.
And a teacher named Alfred Linder, I remember, she talked about and was very committed to

Speaker 3 being a dramatic actress. And then my dad

Speaker 3 dreamed of being Eddie Cantor and

Speaker 3 being a stand-up. And both of them grew up during the Depression.
And I think for my dad, that was his beacon, his way out were these comedians.

Speaker 3 And he had this drive that I'm amazed at what he had to do to get out of that lower east side tenement and and realize you know his goal of doing this which he did and when he met my mom I think he you know fell in love with her and creatively he was just so connected to her and he saw her brilliance and how good she was at acting and also

Speaker 3 he knew she was funny. Maybe it was just in you know in them interacting with each other and he drew her into doing this comedy act.

Speaker 3 They'd been living together for seven or eight years, married, and were starving actors. And he had this idea to take their situation and turn it into

Speaker 3 these little sketches. And that changed their lives.
But my mother really never had that dream. So in approaching going, you know, going on stage, and this is the irony, I think it's really,

Speaker 3 it's always fascinated me, is that my mother mother was naturally great at live performing. And I feel that my father

Speaker 3 had to work at it more. So that was sort of always the dynamic throughout their whole lives when they would approach having to perform.
The preparation was very different.

Speaker 2 And he seemed more anxious about performing, even

Speaker 3 though. Well, I think he loved to perform, but he needed to just rehearse and go over it again and again.

Speaker 3 And I think of myself, I don't love live performing. I think I'm probably maybe a little more like my dad that way.

Speaker 3 And my mom was much more, I don't know, she just would kind of go out there and go with it and had just

Speaker 3 the sort of natural ability to be on stage and let it happen and

Speaker 3 be comfortable on stage.

Speaker 2 If you're just joining us, my guest is actor, director, and producer Ben Stiller. His new documentary is about the lives and careers of his late parents, Jerry Stiller and Anne Mira.

Speaker 2 He's also an executive producer and primary director of the TV series Severance. The documentary and Severance are streaming on Apple TV.
We'll talk more after a break.

Speaker 2 I'm Terry Gross, and this is Fresh Air Weekend.

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Speaker 2 What were some of the fun parts for you of having celebrity parents? And then we'll get to the downside.

Speaker 3 I mean, there wasn't, honestly, it was a lot of fun. It's so interesting because when you really analyze it to think about what the downside was, at the time, there wasn't a downside for us as kids.

Speaker 3 We were just living in this world where my parents would

Speaker 3 go out and either they go out late and play a nightclub. I remember when they played nightclubs in New York, and that was really exciting for us.

Speaker 3 We get to stay up late, hang out with the grown-ups, interesting, funny people coming in and out of the house.

Speaker 3 You know, they would have these New Year's Eve parties, my parents, at their apartment in the late 70s and into the 80s that were just amazing. And as kids, it was really fun to be around.

Speaker 3 I loved going on sets when they would go out to L.A., if they would do a show like Courtship of Eddie's Father or to be on the Paramount Studios lot. And for me, it made me want to

Speaker 3 make movies.

Speaker 3 Being around that, it was very clear early on that that's what I wanted to do. So it was a lot of fun times and more interesting to my sister and i than school for sure

Speaker 2 you and your sister amy were on talk shows with your parents and once you even played was this with mike douglas that you played a violin duet of chopsticks with her yeah yeah it was i would say yeah and i should mention here it was awful there's cutaways to your parents laughing as you both play violin and perform

Speaker 2 And I bet you didn't know at the time that they were laughing.

Speaker 3 I mean, I'd look at their faces because basically what they, you know, they were co-hosting the Mike Douglas show.

Speaker 3 And what that meant was they would sit there with him as all the other guests came on. And they would do a week of shows in one day down in Philadelphia.
And so they would send a limousine.

Speaker 3 Again, this was very exciting for us as kids. They'd send a limousine up to New York and we'd go down with my parents in the limo.
They'd do two shows in the morning.

Speaker 3 We'd go to a restaurant called Bookbinders for lunch that I remember as a kid where they had lobsters in a tank and it was just all very, you know, really exciting.

Speaker 3 Then they go do the other shows and go home. And I guess one time they brought us on, you know, because they were just looking for bits to do.

Speaker 3 And I think when I watch them laughing, I see them laughing, but also like inside, because we're so not good.

Speaker 3 But they're like, oh, this is all right, the audience is enjoying this, but we're kind of like, oh, I want my kids to do good. But why did, and also, like, why did we put them in this situation?

Speaker 3 I feel all that when I look at their faces.

Speaker 2 Well, speaking of putting you in that situation, were there times that you were uncomfortable being on the talk show set

Speaker 2 and being asked questions by whoever was hosting that particular show?

Speaker 2 Because

Speaker 2 I kind of question whether it's fair to the kids to put them in something that they're too young to understand,

Speaker 2 what it means to be on TV and what the consequences or what the upside might be.

Speaker 3 Yeah, I mean, I even did it with my daughter and I have that in the movie too, where I put her in Secret Life of of Walter Mitty when she was eight, and then I cut the part out, which I don't recommend ever doing that with your kid.

Speaker 3 But I put her in the movie.

Speaker 3 Well, I put her in the movie, and then I cut the scene out of the movie because the scene wasn't

Speaker 3 right for the movie. But of course,

Speaker 3 my daughter remembers that I cut her out when she was eight years old. But it was the same feeling, though, on the set.
You put a kid in that situation.

Speaker 3 As it was happening, I'm like, oh man, this is so much pressure on her. And then I was feeling the pressure too.
And I'm sure that's what my parents are feeling at the time.

Speaker 3 But not thinking it through, I think at the time they just were like, yeah, this would be a fun thing to do. And we probably said to them, yeah, yeah, yeah, we want to do it.
We want to do it.

Speaker 3 You know, not thinking of what the implications could be in terms of, you know, psychological trauma years later.

Speaker 2 What were the consequences?

Speaker 3 I mean, I don't feel like I was traumatized from that experience,

Speaker 3 but I remember other little things. I mean, when you're a kid, things like that obviously affect you on a deep level.

Speaker 3 You just, you know, it's, it's how you process it later and sometimes you don't realize.

Speaker 3 I remember just thinking about being on a game show set.

Speaker 3 I remember when my parents were doing the $10,000 pyramid once and they had this area on the set called the winner's circle where you go for the final round and they had two chairs where the, you know, the contestant and the star would sit opposite each other and there were microphones set up.

Speaker 3 And I remember at lunchtime, I went down to the winner's circle and sat in the chair and I touched the microphone and the microphone moved.

Speaker 3 And then a stage manager or someone yelled at me and said, hey, hey, don't move that. That microphone was set for, you know, whichever actor was there.

Speaker 3 And that I've remembered my whole life as being traumatized by that. So like things like that when you're a kid in a grown-up situation can really affect you.

Speaker 2 You think that your mother was not always comfortable with being a mother, that she found it kind of stressful, and you think that's in part because she lost her mother when she was 10.

Speaker 2 You know, during her part of her formative years, she didn't have a mother who she could later model herself on or decide, I'm not going to do it that way, I'm going to do it my way.

Speaker 2 Did you sense that discomfort when you were a child?

Speaker 3 Yeah, and she talked about it a lot when she was older. Yeah, that she lost her mom when she was about 10.
She was an only child.

Speaker 3 This was in 1941, I think. think.

Speaker 3 And she, you know, I think it was a really lonely, tough childhood for her. Her dad loved her and did as much as he could for her.
But I think when she finally had kids, she was daunted by

Speaker 3 how to be a mom. And then of course having to then balance that with the performing.

Speaker 3 She wanted to have kids, but then, you know, when she also had to do all of this high pressure live performing when the kids were at such a young age, I can imagine that was a really, really hard thing for her.

Speaker 3 And

Speaker 3 I sensed it,

Speaker 3 you know, subconsciously, I think, as a kid. Of course, you just absorb everything, you know, from your parents when you're a kid and when you're around them.

Speaker 3 So, stuff that you are aware of, stuff you're not aware of. And I felt it.
I felt the tension with her and my dad when they would be,

Speaker 3 you know, getting ready to perform.

Speaker 3 And

Speaker 3 I talk about the drinking in the movie.

Speaker 3 That was something that

Speaker 3 wasn't discussed in our house. And I think it was because my dad didn't really know how to deal with that.
And he was trying the best he could to figure out how to manage this relationship and this

Speaker 3 marriage and this working relationship that was their livelihood. So

Speaker 3 we sensed it, but it was stuff that I kind of processed later in life.

Speaker 2 So you really enjoyed going to clubs where your parents were performing or to the Ed Sullivan Show.

Speaker 2 But also, although you loved hanging out with your parents and the other stars, one of the tough parts of having parents in a comedy duo was that they were gone a lot. They toured a lot.

Speaker 2 You're on the Ed Sullivan show, you know, over 30 times and you're going to get booked all over the country.

Speaker 2 So they became pretty famous. I remember seeing seeing them on Ed Sullivan.

Speaker 2 So

Speaker 2 you were without your parents a good deal of the time, and the person who was with you was your nanny who partly raised you.

Speaker 2 So

Speaker 2 what was your life like when they were gone? How did that absence affect you?

Speaker 3 Yeah.

Speaker 3 So Hazel Hugh was our nanny. Hazel took care of us and was, you know, basically since I think the time that I was

Speaker 3 probably about four years old. And she was from Jamaica and she had seven kids of her own and they lived in Brooklyn.

Speaker 3 And we became very close with her family, with her kids, because they were, you know, some of them were Amy and my age. And

Speaker 3 my parents would go away for like a two-week stint to LA to do whichever show,

Speaker 3 game show or love boat or whatever it was. And, you know, Hazel was, you know, she was so sweet.

Speaker 3 She knew she had to be the disciplinarian and keep us in line, but we would also kind of have our own secret world going on, my sister and I.

Speaker 3 And it was kind of like a free-for-all a little bit when we were on our own. You know, we'd stay up late sometimes, try to sneak out.

Speaker 3 And as we got older and became teenagers, you know, then there were other things going on. Like my sister started going to Studio 54 when she was, I think she was like 17.
And

Speaker 3 I guess I can talk about this, Terry, now.

Speaker 3 I was 13, and she would take me to Studio 54 with her friends, and we would sneak us in.

Speaker 2 How did you get into Studio 54?

Speaker 3 Well, you know what, Studio 54, like the whole thing was outside.

Speaker 3 There's like people waiting to get in, right? The bouncers have to choose you.

Speaker 2 Yeah, part of it depended on how attractive you were.

Speaker 3 Exactly. And how they were curating the the night, right? And this guy, Mark, was the main bouncer.
Somehow, Amy, my sister, and her friend Vicki, they had gotten in with him.

Speaker 3 And, you know, it's a question.

Speaker 3 Amy and I have talked about whether or not he knew that our parents were, you know, still Aramira. Maybe that had something to do with it.
I don't know. But he would pick them to go in.

Speaker 3 And one night, Amy said. to me, Amy and Vicki said, like, we're going to dress you up and we're going to take you to Studio 54.
We're going to get you in. This is when my parents were out of town.
And

Speaker 3 they put me in a yellow and green polka dotted Fioruchi shirt. Fioruchi was the store at the time that was like the cool fashion store and an Army jacket and these Mickey Mouse sunglasses.

Speaker 3 And we went up and Mark saw us and he like pointed to us and

Speaker 3 said, Come on in. And we were in.

Speaker 3 And it happened a few times. So

Speaker 3 I think I was 13.

Speaker 2 Well, one of the things Studio 54 was famous for was people doing a lot of Coke.

Speaker 2 What did you see that you probably shouldn't have been exposed to?

Speaker 3 I mean, I don't remember seeing people like doing stuff like that in the bathrooms or like, you know, but I remember being in the upper, the balcony and seeing there were like people making out.

Speaker 3 The average white band, I remember talking to the average white band there.

Speaker 2 And for people who don't know the band, that's the name of the band.

Speaker 3 The average white band was a band of band.

Speaker 2 I'm not calling calling a band of white people average. Yeah.

Speaker 3 But,

Speaker 3 I mean, I remember dancing too and being really into dancing there. And yeah, it was a little bit, you know, look, it was definitely, you know, the kind of like feral kids out on our own, you know.

Speaker 2 Did your parents ever find out some of the things you did when they were gone?

Speaker 3 Yeah, they did.

Speaker 3 I talked about this on a talk show once, too. I took LSD when my parents were out doing the love boat

Speaker 2 once.

Speaker 2 I love the comparison between the love boat and you being on a hallucinogenic.

Speaker 3 Yeah. And I was the guy who called his parents on LSD.
I called them up in LA because I was scared. I was having a bad trip.
And

Speaker 3 the only time I ever did LSD. And

Speaker 3 I talked to him. And my mom was really, got really mad at me.
And my dad was actually much nicer and

Speaker 3 kind of tried to help talk me down. And he said, I understand what you're going through.
When I was 11 years old, I I smoked a pell-mill cigarette and I was sick for two days.

Speaker 3 And I was like, no, dad, you don't understand. I'm like, I don't understand what reality is.

Speaker 3 But he was great. He was actually great about it.

Speaker 2 In talking you down?

Speaker 3 Yeah, no.

Speaker 3 And I was like freaked out a little for a while afterwards. I was scared from the experience.
And my dad was so great.

Speaker 3 I remember he took me for a drive and he parked the car and he said, let's just meditate a little bit. And he had me close my eyes and just picture a color.
I think it was like purple or something.

Speaker 3 He said, just like think of it as a soothing color.

Speaker 3 And I don't know if he had been doing some therapy himself that he had this idea to do this, but he was just actually, you know, really trying to help me kind of, you know, soothe myself and get over this event.

Speaker 3 And as opposed to like a parent who was like, you know, like, never do that again. And, you know, you're grounded or whatever.

Speaker 2 I think it's wonderful that

Speaker 2 you felt comfortable enough with your father to call him while you were tripping.

Speaker 3 Yeah, I mean, that's interesting, you know, because that's one of those things you don't think about. It's just like this visceral gut reaction, and that's what I did.

Speaker 3 And, you know, I guess that does say something about our relationship. But he was always, for me, a very spiritual person.

Speaker 3 And very, I think that's what people connected with him too, because he had just like a really open heart.

Speaker 2 There's a scene in the movie that's a real standout scene.

Speaker 2 You're talking to your son who's kind of interviewing you during part of the film so that you can tell stories and be telling them to someone,

Speaker 2 not only someone, to your own son. And so you're telling him about how weird it was for you when

Speaker 2 you were having a conversation

Speaker 8 with

Speaker 2 your father and a fan would come up and interrupt the conversation and your father would pay attention to the fan.

Speaker 2 Right.

Speaker 3 Yeah. I was talking to my son about how, yeah, growing up with my parents,

Speaker 3 they would get recognized. And on the street, my mom usually wouldn't want to talk to people for a long time, or she'd say hi, but she wanted to just go on, you know, and just keep doing her thing.

Speaker 3 And my dad would talk to people forever. Like, if someone wanted to talk to him, he would

Speaker 3 get into conversations about their family, and it would just go on and on. It used to drive my mother crazy.
And as kids, we would feel that, you know, when you're little,

Speaker 3 you feel that

Speaker 3 your parents' attention being taken away from you. So I I was talking about that with Quinn, my son, and he interrupts me.

Speaker 2 We'll play what he has to say. Okay, so here's Quinn.

Speaker 7 Well, that's actually hilarious because just a few weeks ago, we were all out at a restaurant, and I had been stressed about college stuff.

Speaker 7 And then the people there wanted to get like a picture with you. And then I just remember I was so frustrated, like, the world just has to stop to get this picture.

Speaker 3 You know what I mean? I think I got

Speaker 2 so, Ben Stiller. What was it like when your son told you that?

Speaker 3 I was surprised, yet not surprised. I was surprised that he actually brought that up in that moment and that the example he was using was so recent.

Speaker 3 But it was, and in that moment, I was like, okay, this is actually probably a really good moment for the movie. But I also, as a person, was feeling like, oh, this is really

Speaker 3 ugh. Gosh.

Speaker 3 And all I could say in the moment was like, oh, yeah, I guess I have like a lot of my dad in in me or more of my dad in me than my mom.

Speaker 3 And

Speaker 3 it's just that realization that, and it wasn't a new realization for me, but

Speaker 3 that thing of like you really try to do better than your parents, but it's very hard to not make some of the same mistakes that they make.

Speaker 2 Were you even aware that you were doing that?

Speaker 3 I wasn't aware. No, I was not, you know, what surprised me about what he said was because he's 20, that that had happened like he said like last week.

Speaker 3 And I thought, well, I thought, well, this is something that happened when he was little, you know?

Speaker 3 But the fact that he it actually affected him still at this age, you know, that actually really did hit me. You know, just as an awareness of like, yeah, this is a reality that he had to live with.

Speaker 3 I had to live with my own version of it with my parents.

Speaker 3 But it's a tough thing.

Speaker 2 You are a producer, a director, an actor. You just finished a documentary about your parents.

Speaker 2 So you're dealing with working with other actors, investigating your own family history, running a production company. How do you deal with all the stress of that? And the responsibility?

Speaker 2 That's a lot.

Speaker 3 Yeah, I mean, it's been a busy time.

Speaker 3 For me,

Speaker 3 I know the places that I feel comfortable and relaxed and, you know, like the kind of safe haven. And that to me has become going home and being able to like turn it off and figure out how to do that.

Speaker 3 Finally, I think I've figured that out, at least to a certain extent, that I can get home and really enjoy being with my family.

Speaker 3 My kids are both out of the house now, but

Speaker 3 when they're around, it's great. But with Christine, you know, just hanging out together and watching, you know,

Speaker 3 Real Housewives at Beverly Hills with my daughter or, you know, something like that or, you know, kind of just finding those moments to kind of like unplug.

Speaker 3 You know, I've found that that really, really helps.

Speaker 3 And then I, you know, the other thing is just enjoying the work and the projects that I'm working on that I only working on things I really care about and I really want to be doing.

Speaker 2 Well, it's just been a pleasure talking with you.

Speaker 2 So thank you so much for coming back to our show.

Speaker 3 Yeah, it's great to talk with you, Terry. Thank you.

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Speaker 8 There's a moment in the new movie, Wicked for Good, when Elphaba, the so-called wicked witch, stops defending herself to a world that has misunderstood her and simply exists on her own power.

Speaker 8 My guest today, Cynthia Arrivo, brings that moment to life with a depth that is also personal.

Speaker 8 In part two of Wicked, Arrivo captures Elphaba's evolution from outcast to someone who claims her own story, a journey Arrivo also explores in her new memoir, Simply More.

Speaker 8 The book traces how she learned to shed other people's definitions of her as a woman, as a black artist, and as someone who was sometimes told she was too much.

Speaker 8 Arrivo first broke through on Broadway in the color purple, winning a Tony Award for her portrayal of Seeley.

Speaker 8 She went on to earn an Oscar nomination for her portrayal of Harriet Tutman, and later portrayed Aretha Franklin in Genius Aretha, for which she was nominated for several awards, including an Emmy.

Speaker 8 Arrivo is also a recording artist, blending gospel, soul, and cinematic pop. Last year's Wicked and the new film Wicked for Good are adapted from the Tony Award-winning Broadway musical.

Speaker 8 The new film continues Elphaba and Glinda's story, exploring what happens after their fates diverge and the myth of the wicked witch takes hold. And Cynthia Arrivo, welcome back to Fresh Air.

Speaker 9 Hello, thank you very much.

Speaker 8 You know, there is something extraordinary about watching Wicked and then Wicked for Good and reading your memoir at the same time. There's so many parallels there.

Speaker 8 When did it click for you that your personal life and that connection to Alphaba were so close?

Speaker 9 I think I had an inkling that there was a connection soon after I started doing the music, singing the music, learning the music.

Speaker 9 But I think it really actually clicked when I was making the film, when I was playing the character, that I realized, oh,

Speaker 9 this is a lot closer to home than I had imagined. But I didn't realize that there were so many sort of

Speaker 9 real parallels. The relationship with her father, the relationship to being in spaces that don't really include you, all of that sort of dawned on me as it was happening.

Speaker 9 So the feelings you see in the movie are very real feelings because they're sort of immediate. Yeah.

Speaker 8 Was there a particular moment during that time period where it hit you? You said, wait a minute, this is me.

Speaker 9 We were shooting, and this is going to sound so strange because it's such a small moment, but we were shooting the scene when Nessa Rose is about to be sent off to school and their father asks Alphabet to take care of Nessa.

Speaker 9 And I remember

Speaker 9 he speaks to her quite harshly.

Speaker 9 The feeling that I got in that moment sort of was a click moment for me. It was that moment that I realized, oh, this relationship is a complicated one.

Speaker 9 And that was when I sort of thought, oh, I recognize that.

Speaker 8 What's so interesting about that is that the story of Wicked had been living with you for years.

Speaker 8 I mean, we're talking over a decade or so.

Speaker 9 The first time I discovered it was when I was 20 or 21. Yeah.

Speaker 8 Director John Chu actually asked you during the audition,

Speaker 8 what does Alphaba mean to you?

Speaker 8 And you told him the story of Defying Gravity, which was a song that you had learned several years before when you were in school.

Speaker 8 You write about this in your memoir, Simply More, and I want you to read exactly what you said to John. Can I have you read it?

Speaker 9 This was the exact piece of music I escaped into when I was in drama school.

Speaker 9 If I was having a really bad day or was miserably aware of how odd I felt there, an outsider who couldn't connect with the others, I would hide out in a a music room with a friend, Michael.

Speaker 9 We'd sing this together. We'd stay in that little room until the very last minute before we had to go back to class, belting our hearts out.

Speaker 9 This song gave me refuge, singing it during a very vulnerable time in my life. These songs made me feel safe.

Speaker 8 That was also the first time that you shared out loud how alienating school was for you. Very much so, yeah.
What was it about that moment that it came to you to actually be vulnerable and tell?

Speaker 8 And also, that was a show of the connection between you and Alphabet as well.

Speaker 9 Yeah, I felt really safe in that room. I felt like John would understand it.
And I also knew that

Speaker 9 in order to

Speaker 9 really connect with this character, to really help people understand that I knew and understood who this character was, who this person was,

Speaker 9 that I had to be vulnerable, that I had to share the experience that I felt that this character had been through.

Speaker 9 And I felt like this character needed the vulnerability that I can sometimes be afraid of sharing or being

Speaker 9 and better at now.

Speaker 9 But in that moment, I just thought, if I'm not honest about what I feel or have felt or how this music has made me feel, then I think I'm leaving something on the table that is important.

Speaker 8 That experience that you had at the Royal Academy of Dramatic Art,

Speaker 8 that was a very difficult time for you. Maybe one of the most difficult times in your entire career.
Yeah.

Speaker 9 Yeah, I just felt like people really didn't understand me.

Speaker 9 And at the same time, whilst not understanding, didn't really make very much room for me either.

Speaker 9 It was sort of once a judgment was made, that judgment stayed. I think I was lucky enough to have one or two people during that time who really looked out for me, who cared for me.

Speaker 9 But it was a tough experience to be there because I really didn't, I just didn't think I fit. And lots of strange, interesting microaggressions from people who now are not at the school.

Speaker 9 But

Speaker 9 it was an interesting, tough time.

Speaker 8 What were they telling you about yourself? Or how did you think they perceived you?

Speaker 9 I think they thought I was unfocused and troublesome. I think they thought I didn't care about my work.

Speaker 9 A lot of people, there was sometimes, well, there's one person in particular who made a comment about my body.

Speaker 9 It was too muscular. I needed to stop going to the gym.
And at that point, I just was like, well,

Speaker 9 I like the body I'm in. And so to have someone who was teaching, who was supposed to be, you know, mentoring me, say that was just, it was horrifying.

Speaker 8 You were a young girl. You had grown up in South London.

Speaker 8 You

Speaker 8 had to work your way through school. And that was part of the issue was that you, unlike other students, had other jobs.
You were working as a background singer.

Speaker 9 Background singer in the bar at a theater.

Speaker 9 I was working in a shirt and tie shop as well over the weekend. And so I was like, I was working a lot.

Speaker 9 And that happened because when I first got there I was given the opportunity to go and do backing vocals for a band that would have paid for my tuition in its entirety

Speaker 9 and when I asked if I could take the time off which was two weeks I was given an ultimatum either to stay

Speaker 9 and let the gig go or leave and take the gig but I couldn't come back.

Speaker 8 What an impossible position to be in.

Speaker 9 And I didn't want to leave, so

Speaker 9 I stayed.

Speaker 8 During your time there, you were given these bit roles, but there's this moment that you write about where you were asked to sing for another singer who had laryngitis.

Speaker 8 But you weren't asked to be on stage.

Speaker 9 No, I was backstage.

Speaker 8 Backstage. And then they would lip sync you.
And you did it.

Speaker 9 Yeah.

Speaker 9 It's one of those moments that I...

Speaker 9 I've started to learn to forgive myself for because I felt so

Speaker 9 previously I've felt so mad at myself. so

Speaker 9 I guess there's a part of me that's a little bit ashamed that I would sort of give up my voice in that way but it's also why I'm vehemently protective of the way I use my voice I do not say yes to everything at all it takes a lot for me it has to mean something for me to sing and it has to make sense

Speaker 9 I will never

Speaker 9 give my voice to someone like that again

Speaker 9 because it felt like

Speaker 9 someone removing a gift that was meant for me and and giving it to someone else and it just felt it in the moment really awful and I remember feeling really

Speaker 9 wrong it felt wrong

Speaker 8 I want to play a clip from the latest installment of Wicked

Speaker 8 because we learned that the wonderful Wizard of Oz is a fraud. Yes.

Speaker 8 But in this film, you're standing standing up to Oz, who is oppressing the animals. And I want to play this clip to illustrate this.

Speaker 8 It's you as Alphaba, Ariana Grande as Glinda, and the wonderful Wizard of Oz played by Jeff Goldblum. And he's telling you why efforts are meaningless.
Let's listen.

Speaker 5 Alphaba,

Speaker 4 I've missed you.

Speaker 5 Can't we start again?

Speaker 1 Yes, please.

Speaker 9 Just say yes. No.
Don't you think I wish I could? I would give anything to go back to a time when I.

Speaker 8 When I actually believed that you were...

Speaker 9 wonderful.

Speaker 8 A wonderful wizard of Oz.

Speaker 8 No one believed in you more than I did.

Speaker 9 But there's no going back.

Speaker 9 And we can't move forward not until everyone knows what I know. And once they know the truth.

Speaker 5 They're not going to believe it.

Speaker 9 How can you say that?

Speaker 4 Oh, I'm just being straight with you.

Speaker 5 I could tell them that I've been lying to them till I'm,

Speaker 5 forgive me, blue in the face, but wouldn't make any difference.

Speaker 5 They're never going to stop believing in me. You know why?

Speaker 3 Because they don't want to.

Speaker 8 That's my guest today, Cynthia Arrivo, and scene with Jeff Goldblum and Ariana Grande and Wicked for Good.

Speaker 8 You all shot this back-to-back, Wicked and Wicked for Good.

Speaker 9 I'm right. Not back-to-back, at the same time.

Speaker 8 At the same time.

Speaker 9 Simultaneously, yeah.

Speaker 8 Did you have to hold anything back back emotionally as you were moving through these two different storylines that one kind of evolves from the other?

Speaker 9 Yeah, it was really interesting because sometimes I think we had shot quite a bit of the first movie, but not nearly enough to say we'd almost finished. No way, we were nowhere near.

Speaker 9 And then we were sort of all the way into

Speaker 9 the second, and we were sort of tandeming between the two movies. So there were days where, luckily, you would sort of

Speaker 9 know where the character was at this point and you'd have some sort of hindsight for where they had come from and what they had been through in order to move into the second movie.

Speaker 9 But there were some times where you're sort of guessing, really, because you hadn't shot a certain scene. You're just sort of assuming that the scene is going to feel this way.

Speaker 8 How did you navigate that? Did you just surrender to the idea?

Speaker 9 Yeah, you have to. You have to.
And also, I think both of us, actually, Ari and I, both of us sort of

Speaker 9 made really specific decisions about how we looked, what we walked in, the clothes we were wearing, so that even the scents that we were wearing, because I always find a scent for each character that I play.

Speaker 9 What do you mean by scent? Perfume. I always find a scent for each person, but this time I found a scent for each alphabet.

Speaker 9 So Alphabet, who is young, wore a very different scent to Alphabet, who is older. And so scents memory was a lot to do with how to sort of click back into where we are in time.

Speaker 8 Oh, this is so interesting. Can you slow down for a moment?

Speaker 8 First off, how did you come to that idea and what sense did you choose?

Speaker 9 I started doing this

Speaker 9 years and years ago. The first time I did it, I think I did it with Harriet.

Speaker 9 And hers was like cedarwood and lavender, I think it was, but like essence.

Speaker 9 with a base oil, not a perfume, because I wanted it to feel like something she could find,

Speaker 9 that she could, you know, discover, make. I wanted it to feel like it was off the earth.

Speaker 9 And then I realized how powerful it was for me, and so I kept

Speaker 9 doing it with my characters. So with Alphaba, I knew that they had to feel different.

Speaker 9 So Alphaba, who's younger, I sort of messed around with like big florals, like really deep florals, so tuberose, rose, lilies.

Speaker 9 And then I mixed it with

Speaker 9 like a tobacco

Speaker 9 oud.

Speaker 9 And sometimes I find a scent and it's not right, and I go back and I go, and it's a real,

Speaker 9 something will say, this is the one.

Speaker 8 Oh, this is so fascinating. So for Alphaba for good, what was her scent?

Speaker 9 Hers, you'll never believe me. But

Speaker 9 it was a scent called Witchy Woo.

Speaker 2 Oh.

Speaker 9 Which, when I found it, I thought, there's no way this is going to work. It will be way too on the nose.

Speaker 8 Where did you find it?

Speaker 9 I was staying at

Speaker 9 Soho

Speaker 9 Farmhouse in the UK, and they have this little sort of

Speaker 9 gift shop. And in the back, they have a few perfumes.
And I saw this scent. It said Witchy Woo.

Speaker 9 And I thought,

Speaker 9 I'm not going to like this. I'm not going to like it.
It's too on the nose. There's no way.
So I sprayed some on my hand, and immediately I wasn't convinced. But you know how perfume changes?

Speaker 9 Your

Speaker 9 body, your body, your scent, your own

Speaker 9 natural oils change the scent. So I go away and I keep going back to it.
And my body's like, no, this is a really good scent. There was a reason it was there for you.
Go back for it.

Speaker 9 So I go back for this scent. So

Speaker 9 I'm wearing witchy woo and I'm wearing, and this time like a grown oud.

Speaker 8 And this helped helped you keep your mind around the different emotional notes between the two

Speaker 8 movies. Yeah.
Do you think that has something to do with,

Speaker 8 because you have

Speaker 8 synesthesia, which means you can see color when you sing the music.

Speaker 9 Yeah, music.

Speaker 8 Do you feel like this might be connected?

Speaker 9 I'm sure. I think my senses are heightened, so I know I have a heightened sense of smell, and obviously with music, there's a a heightened sense there.

Speaker 9 So I think maybe, but I've never thought of it that way. I've always thought of it as just another access point to each of the characters.

Speaker 9 It's just sort of the character's way of telling me another bit about who they are, you know, what calls to them, what

Speaker 9 is part of their DNA. And that is another thing that I think just I've sort of discovered along the way.
Because it isn't the same ever. I've never worn the same thing for any character.

Speaker 8 There's some pretty intense training that goes into this role, both physical and emotional.

Speaker 8 I mean, when you were even training to audition, is it true that you would try to sing while you were swimming? Yes,

Speaker 9 I would sing, and so I'd do laps, then sing, and then I'd run and then I would sing. I just wanted it to be in my body.

Speaker 9 You know, it's the idea that if I'm doing something that's strenuous and I can sing it whilst I'm doing the thing that's strenuous, when I'm standing still, it'll just be there.

Speaker 9 I won't actually have to work that hard for it to be there.

Speaker 8 You know, the defying gravity riff, it's now just become a cultural phenomenon. There's that moment where Kiki Palmer is at the AACP Awards and she just starts singing it.

Speaker 8 You know, what's it like to have your voice become a reference? You know, it's part of the cultural language now.

Speaker 9 I'm, one, deeply flattered, and it's kind of wonderful

Speaker 9 because many women have had their riff and they've done it before.

Speaker 9 And of course, you have the original by Edina Menzel but it's just lovely to to be part of the the lexicon of that now it's lovely yeah what colors do you see when when you sing defying gravity

Speaker 9 blues strangely different blue like like iridescent blues yeah

Speaker 8 cynthia revo this has been such a pleasure to talk with you you too This was wonderful.

Speaker 2 Cynthia Arrivo stars in the new film Wicked for Good, which is now in theaters. Her memoir is called Simply More.
She spoke with our co-host, Tanya Mosley.

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Speaker 2 I'm Terry Gross.

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