Purify Me | Girls Gone Bible

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No, no, that was me passing it off. So when you pass it off to me, I do the same move and then add on.
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Bubby! Bubby! Guys, please tell Ari to stop telling me that I look like my dad. My dad is a very handsome, beautiful man, but that man is bald.
I do not look like my dad these days. And she always, like, he comes in the house and be like, Angela.
Angela. Can you do an impression when he dances?

Oppa!

No, my dad's

biggest issue in life

is that I'm not married yet. Every single time

we talk, he doesn't ask about my life.

He doesn't know anything about, he doesn't want to know

anything except where's my husband and

why am I not married? Do an impression of him, please.

Hey, Angela, you have

boyfriend or you already break up in a new one dad that's what dating is like what do you say and what happens when you bring someone home what does he say i mean i barely remember every time i bring someone home he's just really he's like okay we'll see we'll see you in one day you love him next week he was not the one he's ruining my life he says that that's what i say every single time that's so funny oh our what's up being what's up dog what's up you know we are I really like this look on you a lot which one which one headband the headband both wear headbands on stage yeah i just can't bring all the hair back because then i really look like bobby look at look at look at look's something about... I know.
What are these? Get down. You know you let me talk the whole time like this.
When? I'll forgive you, but... It's still there.
Oh, whoa, it's even bigger now. Please, I'm so embarrassed.
You look insane. So, yeah.
What on, dude? What's going on?

What's up, guy?

That's how everyone back home talks, and that's how we talk when we talk to each other now.

Gotta do it.

What's up, dude?

What's up, guy?

How you doing?

I love when you're talking about everything.

What an imbecile that guy is, huh?

Tell me how your aunt asked for scratch-offs at the gas station.

I'm going to 7-Eleven.

I gotta get a scratchy. I gotta get a scratchy.
And then my mother will text us. You lock your doors? You lock your doors? What did she say? What did she say? She says She always goes You guys are all over the country.
Did you pack your underwear? Did you pack underwear? You lock your doors? I bet so many Boston moms that are listening right now say the same thing.

Oh, man.

We act like little children when we go back home.

Make me eggs!

There's nothing worse than me and you going back to Florida to my mom.

We become like little cats.

Actually, it's scary the way we act.

It's not okay.

We're like two little girls.

She's like bringing us fruit, eggs.

We're sitting.

We drive her nuts. We drive her her nuts we drive your mom nuts we drive her nuts our moms are so involved in our lives we act like we're not grown women like it's i'm i'm really a girl really don't have an really bad.
Anyways, what are we talking about today? We didn't do an intro. Oh, hi.
I'm Ange. And I'm Mari.
And this is Girls Gone Bible. We are a faith-based podcast where we talk all things spirituality, mental health, the Bible, anything to do with Jesus.
That is not the intro. We talk about Jesus.
We love Jesus. That's it.
Thank you for coming. It's been a year and a half and we still don't know how to do this.
But what do you say? Come as you are. Just don't stay that way.
You know what, Ar? Here's the thing. Me and you, buddy, we've been through a long purification process yes we have and every single day just like gold and silver god exposes something new i've done a lot of research so have you on purification gold and silver how it's pressed and you put it to the fire and usually like with gold how gold gets purified is that it gets pressed and crushed so hard that all the impurities come to the surface.
And that's what happens with us. Every so often, you realize, like, oh, I didn't know that this impurity was there.
You think you're all good. Whoa, the rage.
Oh, I gotta get up. Hey, what was that? I thought I was in the word of God.
You go a long time thinking you're perfect and then God just makes you realize you're not. What's that about? Thank you for bringing that up because, man, we be thinking we're walking in the spirit and then something ticks us off and then we're back in the devil's fun.
Oh, man. Anyways.
Anyways. Yeah, today Ari and I want to talk about purification.
We want to talk about, so I just want to start this off by saying I'm sick again. I can't believe it.
I can't believe it. I mean, it is the season.
You have a great way of doing that when i woke up with a sore throat this morning i was like you have got to be kidding me it is god's grace on your life that i had i'd be wearing that gold plate i'm a baby the sport of the spirit it is god's grace on your life that I had COVID for like two months and you didn't get it. We literally share everything, sleep in the same bed and you didn't get it because he knew.
It is God's grace because he knows sweet baby Ari will be a nightmare and I will drag you through the mud with me. I will not be acting like you.
Okay, hang on.

Have I ever seen you sick?

Well, I'm a hypochondriac.

I think there's a tumor growing out of my head every two days.

I thought I had Graves' disease in my eyes, remember?

She, like, didn't sleep good one night, so her eyes were pink, so she thought she had Graves' disease.

She was looking in the mirror.

And look, and look, comparing photos, I was losing my mind. I thought I had...
And I think, I think, I think, um. I think there's a tumor going out of my neck.
I saw an infomercial on Graves' disease and I was convinced I am the biggest hypochondriac. Every other day you think you have pink eye.
Every other day. You probably shouldn't be sharing.
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Yeah. Purification.
God purifies us, mind, body, and spirit. He purifies us to remove the things in our lives, in our minds, in our bodies, in our hearts that destroy our lives.
That's his whole thing is to make us more like him. We're made in the image of God and we are forever in a sanctification and purification process where we are made more like Jesus.
Everything about us is made, meant to be like Jesus. Basically, I thought before Ari and I get into our own purification journeys, I just wanted to read a couple of things.
I've been in the Old Testament for a while now, and it's basically like all of Leviticus and Numbers, there's so many rituals. There's so many.
In the Old Testament, purification strictly was by rituals and symbolic and physical washing away and cleansing and purification by blood sacrifice. You would take a lamb or a sheep or whatever sort of animal to come and take the place for us.
a high priest would come bring an animal sacrifice. You would take a lamb or a sheep or whatever sort of animal to come and take the place for us.
A high priest would come, bring an animal sacrifice on the Day of Atonement, one day of the year, every single year. And so Leviticus 1630 says, For on this day shall atonement be made for you to cleanse you.
You shall be clean before the Lord from all your sins. So the high priest would offer sacrifices for the people's sins, but the purification was temporary.
It was not sufficient. You had to repeat it every single year.
And then Leviticus 17, 11 says, there's ceremonial washings where people would be washed

and purified by water and you would bring different types of

Thank you. transformation.
And then throughout Numbers and Leviticus, there's ceremonial washings where people would be washed and purified by water and you would bring different types of sacrifices and altars. But again, it was like ritual purification that only took care of cleansing the outside of the body.
It didn't bring any spiritual transformation. Forgiveness of sins can only come by the blood of Jesus.
What do you mean by different waters? Not different waters, so different ceremonial washing. So there were like so many things, if you read Leviticus, like if you read the Old Testament, there's so many things in it that literally it's like so, it's crazy.
It took me a while. I literally was wondering why, the whole time I was reading Leviticus, I was like, why am I reading this?

I don't understand.

But I have such a deeper understanding now of honestly how ridiculous it used to be and how much we, like, it just shows you how much we needed Jesus.

You had to be cleansed if like every, every month, for example, a woman would have her like menstrual period. And it was, I need to get the exact number, but for like seven days after that, she was ceremonially unclean.
No one could touch her. If you touched her, you were also considered ceremonially unclean.
And you all had to like go through these rituals of purification and cleansing. And that's just one example of like 100, like so many different types of being uncleanly.
It's just insane. Like it was so insane what you had to do.
And again, it was like outward purification, no inner transformation. And it was insufficient.
And you couldn't even get a hug. Imagine how moody we are on our menstrual cycles.
You couldn't even get a hug. I'd be like, you better get over here and give me a hug.
I'm not feeling good. I wonder if anyone said that.
I'm sure they did. I'm sure.
I don't know. It's like, can you even imagine living in those times truly? And then the beautiful, beautiful thing that happened, what our whole faith is based on is Jesus's sacrifice as final atonement.
And Hebrews 9, 12 to 14 says, he entered once and for all into the holy places, not by means of the blood of goats and calves, but by means of his own blood, thus securing an eternal redemption. For if the blood of goats and bulls and the sprinkling of defiled persons with the ashes of a heifer heifer heifer sanctify for the purification of the flesh how much more will the blood of christ who through the eternal spirit offered himself without blemish to god purify our conscience from dead works to serve the living God.
Jesus's death presented as a superior sacrifice that offers eternal redemption. And it's unlike the animal sacrifices.
Jesus did it once and for all. We never, ever, ever, ever have to bring a sacrifice or an altar.
The only sacrifice that Jesus wants is a life laid down for him. He paid the price.
We're free of debt. We have no debt because of what Jesus did.
And then Hebrews 10.10 just says, And by that we will have been sanctified through the offering of the body of Jesus Christ. So Jesus' sacrifice is a one-time event that purifies believers completely.
Thank you, Jesus. If you feel like you have nothing else to thank the Lord for, just what he did 2,000 years ago on the cross is more than enough.
We could have never, never, never, never lived up to the standard of the Old Testament. It's the greatest gift.
Every time you guys start to, you know, feel bad, you just say just say well i don't have to go find a bull yeah and kill it just to get to get to jesus thank you imagine us going to hunt down bulls can you imagine how did the women kill the oh no because well i don't think the women did it so it's basically we always had a high priest. We had someone between us and Jesus who would do it for us.
What a gift. Honestly, what a gift that we have is the Holy Spirit that's inside us.
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How do you feel like with your purification process?

Like explain it a little bit personally.

Yeah.

So the Bible describes God as a refiner.

And I wrote something down.

It's God's refining process is one that purifies and tests believers,

similar to how gold and silver are refined by fire to remove impurities through trials god aims to purify hearts and strengthen faith the idea of refining suggests that hardship is purposeful leading to spiritual growth and deeper trust in god yeah so being refined like fire like you know that, you know, that song, you're fine, I'm done with fire. I don't.
Okay. Let me never sing again.
Rihanna? No, Chief Keefe. Throughout this whole journey of following Jesus, there's been an intense purification.
I mean, we have already done an episode on outward purity. We've talked about there's a pure heart and clean hands.
We've talked about refraining from, and it is so much more than just sexual sin, but like sexual sin is a massive part of it. And that's something that we took care of.
God took care of in us a long time ago

and that we continue to commit ourselves to. We, Ari and I truly value purity above everything

else. Everything that we do comes from either the purity or the impurity of our hearts.

We have to speak on here every single week, even if we weren't in ministry, purity would be the, but when you're in a position of leadership, you're just a different ballgame.

And so we know that whatever's in here is what's going to come out. So the state of our hearts, the purity of our hearts means everything to us.
And we're very, we have the fear of God in us, the fear of God that any word that comes out of our mouths or any sort of behavior, anything, anything, the conviction is just like, I don't like that. Yeah.
Any impurity that we see in ourselves, we're just like, that's not, we don't, we don't like it. But in terms of purification, so there's been so much externally that we've had to remove from our lives there's

so many things that have changed our behavior has changed i know for me i am a completely different person yeah i am a completely different person in such a short amount of time too in such a short amount of time and it's like jarring yeah because you really i mean god has done a major major work where there's so many areas in my heart in my life that he just like he pokes and he puts his hand on and he's like okay here okay here okay here and it's just a continuous like okay yes okay yes all right let's change it okay bring it out of me and for me what I've really noticed is a lot of my purification has come through trials yeah it's like every time a bad situation hits hardship exposes what's already in your heart and And so every time that happens to me, I realize, oh, okay, that was in there and I didn't know that it was in there. And that's something that needs to change.
And that's something that I need, like an area I need growth in. And so there's just been so many, I mean, there's so many types of impurity.
There's pride, greed, selfishness, a million different types of

things. So it's just a constant, like every situation that I'm in brings up something new.

And it's like a little bit more gunk that God is like, I'm sorry that you have to face this right

now. And it's so uncomfortable.
And like being held to the fire is painful and it burns,

but I'm burning this impurity out of you. you know what like can you give me an example for example I think provocativeness for example I went my whole life like not thinking I didn't know that being provocative in any way was contributing to evil right you know yeah same I didn't know that that was bad like I didn't know that being provocative in any way was contributing to evil.
Right. You know? Yeah, same.
I didn't know that that was bad. Like, I didn't grow up in a context where that was bad.
I grew up in a Christianity, a Catholic, like, whatever it was where, like, you loved Jesus and, like, you could still be sexy and, like, all these things. Like, I really, truly didn't know that that was evil.
I thought evil was, like, being a bad person. Yeah.
You know? Same. And so, and even like immodesty and just like presenting yourself a certain way.
And so that has been like a major, that has been put to the fire since we started this journey with Jesus where like every single day, it's like more, more, more. Yes, you've made progress, but there's still a ways to go.
And so that's like a major area of my life where, and I've had to like, I've had to grieve it too. You know what I mean? There have been moments like now, I mean, it's gone.
I mean, if you see, I, she was like, I want to wear that. I know I'm now I'm like, I don't want to wear any of it.

Please.

I'm good. But like there was a while where I was like, but why? But you know what I mean? It's hard to let go of these things.
But and it's painful. It's painful.
What was really painful for me was being confronted with the fact that I had like lived a certain way my whole life, having no idea that I was dishonoring God the whole time. and then also being so ignorant to like, obviously like the way you're acting, like you're preaching Jesus, but then acting a completely different way.
You know what I mean? That's been a major area of like serious purification for me. I think the both of us, like we did fight for a little bit.
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I think repentance has been the biggest blessing in my faith. Yeah.
I love a good repentance session. I never knew about repentance.
I never knew about it. I, you know, I wanted to read a scripture from Psalm 51.
I won't read the whole thing because it's long, but I'll just read down to purify me from my sins and I will be clean.

Wash me and I will be whiter than snow. Oh, give me back my joy again.

You have broken me.

Now let me rejoice.

Don't keep looking at my sins.

Remove the stain of my guilt.

Create in me a clean heart, O God. Renew a loyal spirit within me.
And then it goes down to saying, You do not desire a sacrifice or I would offer one.

You do not want a burnt offering.

The sacrifice you desire is a broken spirit.

You will not reject a broken and repentant heart, O God.

I'm going so much, and I relate to that so much, because I remember when I was going through my broken heart, that's when I was the most vulnerable. That's when I was the most humble.
That's when I was the most open. I had no pride.
I didn't have a hardened heart or a hard head. And so I was able to just bleed out and be so vulnerable and open and say, help me.
I need you. I have nothing.
I'm empty. Fulfill me.
Let me learn. Teach me.
Teach me your ways. Forgive me for anything I've done.
You're in this place when you're so broken that you're like, I have nothing left in me. Can you help me? Can you show me? Because I don't know any better.
You just want help. You're like, you revert back to a little kid when you're in the place of such brokenness.
I think it's really hard when you grow up in a home where you have watched certain things your whole life.

Yeah. Did you come from a loving family or did you come from a family that fought their way and manipulated each other? Did you grow up in a little bit of narcissism? That just unfortunately does dictate the way you grow up and the way you act as an adult.
so in my life and in my flesh as an adult, I, you know, would say things off the cuff and I would have some ego and pride. And I didn't know how to handle certain situations.
And that's been a journey for me and still is. And it's still God refining me and teaching me.
And so I think repentance has been just such a gift for me because I can't get away with anything anymore. And running to God and bringing it to his feet, asking him for help and asking him to forgive me has been the greatest blessing.
A story that I think about with refining is when I started my faith,

I was learning and things were coming up that I didn't even know.

I had had something go on with my sister.

I talk about my sister a lot on here, but my little sister,

I'm like her mom we're

just she's everything to me um and so when we were both going through things in our own lives we just kept having problems and we were just butting heads which ended up creating so much problems between us two and we got into a massive fight like it was so bad um and my my pride told me well I'm gonna teach her a lesson yeah and I'm not gonna reach out to her and I'm gonna show her and this is it and she can just learn and and this went on and I'm typically someone who when I I'm, no matter what it is, I'm like, I'm sorry. Let's talk it out.
I had so much pride that I was just like, no. Like, I'm done.
And this is like somebody that I love. This is my sister.
This is my family. And I was like, in my mind, I was never speaking to her again.
And this went on for so long.

And I just remember as I started my faith, something was not right. I almost couldn't.
I was seeing God, but there was still this block between God and I. and I kept you know as I kept reading my Bible and as I kept learning about God and pride and ego and how you have to just forgive our forgiveness.

Major impurity. It's such an impurity.
And so I kept hearing your sister, what's going on with

your sister. And I remember talking to you about this and being like, I really miss my sister.
And so. What would I say? You have to call her.
That's your sister. And I just remember sitting with God and just talking about it.
And so I finally was like, what am I doing? How has so much time gone by? How have I had this heart and heart and this unforgiveness and this bitterness that it feels like I'm carrying this large backpack on my back? Wow. And so I'll never forget when I finally sent her a long message and I just said, I love you so much.
I can't believe so much time has gone by. Forgive me for everything.
Forgive me. I love you.
And we ended up talking on the phone for hours. And then I went back to Boston to see her and we just cried together.
And we were like, and she had told me she was so sorry. And she was going through so much in her own life.
And it was this beautiful unity of her and I. And we learned so much and we set boundaries with each other and we talked it out.
And we just were like, this is like, never again. Like how crazy was it that we let so much time go by? And so that's something that I am learning so much in my walk with Jesus that when you have pride, you cannot—like, pride and God does not coincide.
Like, you cannot be in the presence of God but have the spirit of pride. And so learning to every time you feel that pride, like be like, okay, like the repentance.

That's why when you have pride, that causes unrepentance because you are acting so tough with your heart and heart that you're like, I don't need to ask for forgiveness. I don't need to go to this person.
Pride is the worst thing you can have. And so many of us subconsciously have it and we don't even realize it.
It's all out of trying to protect yourself. Protect yourself.
And that's what I mean when you go back as a child. It's like you learn from your parents and you don't know and you're trying to protect yourself and you don't want to get hurt.
And it's not that we're being bad or we're evil or we're coming from a bad place. We're just all hurting inside.
And so that's been my journey of purification is getting that pride out, getting that ego out, not letting things fester. That's why I'm so raw in here and vulnerable because it's healed me.
And I believe that being so vulnerable like this, always guarding your heart, but being vulnerable and open and apologizing is always, it's so pleasing to Jesus. And I know that anytime I have that spirit of pride or ego, it's a separation from God.
Totally. And you know pride is like what I mean I'm so happy that you brought that up and you know what that reminds me of this is like my main what this is like when I think of purification this is what I think of every time that I sit down and I'm about to go in with Jesus on somebody and I'm about to be like, Jesus, this person that Jesus that.
And then all of a sudden, how does it always end with me repenting, begging him for forgiveness? You go in thinking there's so many and he's like, I'll handle them. Let's handle you right now.
That's purification. That's refinement.
God forcing you to come up against everything that's in your heart that we're too prideful to admit or want to see. Like when you're in true relationship with Jesus, humility is a natural response to being close to Jesus.
You can't have pride when you're humble. And so when you're naturally humble in God's presence, it allows you to have all these things.
That's why the presence of God is the best therapy of all time. Nobody can tell me otherwise.
It's in those moments in the secret place where you're sitting and you let God come in and your walls are down. And you're not just like praying a bunch of prayers, going through routine ritual.
No, you're like literally letting God actually come in and expose what's in your heart. And for me, every time that I'm up against a situation where I know I'm being prideful and I know I'm self-protecting and all of these things.
And then he begins to tear my walls down and showing me everything that is wrong with me. Yeah.
Because he loves me and wants to expose it, not because he wants to shame me. But that is so, so real about the pride.
And it's just like it really is just all hurt. Like it's hurt.
Like the impurity is all of us just hurting. And we come up, we pick up things on the way through life that like vices and things to protect ourselves with that end up being sinful and impure in our hearts yeah you know i just i know i say this a lot on the on on here but the one thing that is truly freed both of us i believe is like there has just been so many times we have screwed up and we are just so imperfect and we have fallen and we have just, and he's given us so much grace, even with Girls Gone Bible.
And he just still loves us. Like I have never felt so safe in my life than I do now because I am so loved.
And it's just, it's been, it's just, it's the greatest thing ever. It really is.
It's the greatest thing ever when you know how loved you are, when you know how forgiven you are, when you know that you have the gift of the Holy Spirit that helps you, that you can just say, you can talk to as a friend. Talk to.
Like, hey, you know, you can pick up the phone and call your friend. Yeah.
We have that with the Holy Spirit. Yeah.
And I never knew that before. And so now that I know that, it's just been such a gift.
And so that's why it's like every time we have that pride, I just want you to remember how much He's forgiven us, how much He loves us. And then you just get that.
You're like, oh, wait, then why am I acting like this? Let me go forgive them.

Let me go talk to them.

Let me put like, let me speak love to them. Just like Socrates says, what does he say about love? Love your enemies.
Show them love. Just keep, there's no room for it.
Bless them. Bless them.
Bless them. Keep blessing them.
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I didn't realize how sick I was when I was holding on to that resentment of my sister when I was just acting tough and saying, oh, I'll teach her. It really does make you sick.
And it's holding unforgiveness in your heart. And when you're holding unforgiveness, that does not coincide with God.
It just doesn't. It doesn't.
Unforgiveness is truly the worst thing in the world. I remember hearing a story of a woman who was, I'm like a big, big Holy Spirit person.
I believe in the healing of Jesus. I believe that Jesus heals on the spot, miraculous healings.
I think you can lay hands and Jesus will perform miraculous healings. I do.
And I remember hearing a pastor tell a story about this woman who had, did I tell this before? No. This woman went into this, was like a member of this church, and she had a physical ailment.
Like there was something wrong or like cancer or something. But there was something like on that you could see.
And they were continuously like doing like all of these prayers, laying hands, like just every single week trying to heal this woman because they were seeing so many healings happen. And then there was someone who came and gave her a word and was like, your healing is being blocked by your unforgiveness.
Oh, yes, you did say this. Did I tell this story? Yeah.
And so, I mean, I guess it's worth telling again that, like, unforgiveness is so bad for you. And it will be the root of so many issues, any sort of unforgiveness.
Like, unforgiveness is the root of so much turmoil in people's lives, so much chaos. It's true.
And it's hard to forgive sometimes. It is.
But when you decide to pray for them instead of sitting there and talking bad, it changes your spirit, it softens. Something happens in the heart.
Yeah. Something happens in the heart when you forgive and you say sorry.
When you decide to sit there and talk and listen and love, then fight back. It is so pleasing.
God sees everything. Yeah.
He sees when you decide to do right. He sees when you decide to say sorry, maybe even if you didn't do wrong.
Like, he sees everything. And he goes in and, like, does something to your heart.
It softens it. Yeah.
And you become better. And you become more like him.
It's literally what we're talking about. He purifies your heart.
And that's the goal. Yeah.
That's the goal. At the end of the day, we're all looking for a well done.
that's what we're talking about. He purifies your heart.
And that's the goal. Yeah.
That's the goal. We're

all, at the end of the day, we're all looking for a well done. That's what we, that's, that is the goal.
So anytime we have these things of ego, pride, temptation of sin, we just have to remember, we have to focus on him and just remember we're all looking for a well done. Yeah yeah I think um something that is really prevalent in my life personally is just like purity of purity of heart in the sense of just your gates I gates like I'm really I'm so sensitive now more than ever to just the things around me to the things that I watch to the things that I hear to the things that like I'm so sensitive now more than ever to just the things around me, to the things that I watch, to the things that I hear, to the things that like I'm engaging in.
And I remember I had a moment where it was like such a small, insignificant revelation, but like to me, it was such a, it was such a big deal in the moment because the simplest things in scripture can seem like nothing until you actually like receive it in your heart. And you're like, wow, that's, that's what that means.
Like when you see scripture come to life in your life, like I had this moment one time when I was in my quiet place and I'm just thinking about just the transformation of my heart in terms of purity in so many different aspects. And I have a very long way to go in so many areas like we all do.
But I'm just thinking about like my transformation from the inside out and how it's like deep and rooted and it's real. Like it's not because I have to.
It's not because I'm whatever. Like it's real.
The Holy Spirit legitimately did like a transformation of my heart. Yes, you did.
Where things are different. My appetite is different.
The things I like are different. Like my wants are his wants.
My thoughts are his thoughts. My desires are his desires.
Like he legitimately took, Jesus took his heart and put it in my heart. That's what I feel.
And I had this moment where I was in quiet time and I'm just thinking and I'm thinking about my transformation and God is just kind of like showing me a picture from like the beginning to now. And I literally go in my head, I'm holy because you are holy.
You have made me holy. like I'm literally, I'm literally sitting there being like, this doesn't just happen by accident.
I barely have any community. I don't have anyone around.
Like literally being close to Jesus, all these hours that I've spent on my knees here have literally transformed everything about me. And the scripture came alive.
Like it says

that we must be holy because he is holy. And that's what purification is.
Like we are so

committed to holiness. That's what being a follower of Jesus is.
And whatever the world tells you and

whatever culture tells you that that's the way to be. And this is what sells.
And this is what's

fun. And this is holiness is the aim and the goal for all of us.
That's what it should be.

That's what it should be that's what it is for me and so this purification process has cost me yeah yeah talk about that talk about that because That's good. Purification is extremely isolating.

It's really costly.

It's sacrificial. Everything has changed.
Life as you know it changes, especially when you're so deep in the world. There's nothing about you that's Christian.
And then to turn completely Christian, like, it's crazy. It's been insane.
But the reason it's good is because it's life. It's life.
And I heard someone say it the other day, and I'll never forget it. You look at when you're a Christian and you're a true follower of Jesus and you see people who are living of the world, like we always talk about, you're burdened for them because you're like, I have life that you don't know about.
I have bread that you've never had. Like I have a Jesus who is so worth worshiping and living for and being holy.
That's his requirement. Being pure is his requirement.
And we've all heard it before, but he's looking for a pure bride. That's what he, that's what he's coming back for.
And so our goal throughout life must be to become as pure and holy as possible. But again, it costs something.
But everything in life that's worth anything will cost you something. Yeah, I know.
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It really has. We have gone through so much, like, things you guys don't even understand.
Like, it feels like we've been slapped in the face, like, over and over. Like, it has been so hard.
Like, the walk is not easy. And I feel like so many people, it gets hard and they're like, I'm out.
I don't want to do this. But there is something at the end of it that is so rewarding.
I remember my old life and, you know, living of the flesh and doing things that, yeah, you know what? They are fun. I'm not going to lie.
They do feel good. They do feel good.
And it is fun. But things that feel good aren't always right.
And we're like, but what am I being punished? Like, is God punishing me? No, there's a reason why he tells us not to do certain things. When I look back, I was doing things that were so fun and I was living my life.
But why do you think that where all the anxiety and the knots in my stomach and the depression and the chaos and the obsessive compulsive thinking and all the things that the doctor said that I was. It was all because I was living of the flesh.
When you live of the flesh, that is where anxiety, depression, pride, ego, you cannot live of the flesh but have any peace in your life. And when you're living in the spirit and when you're one with God, that's what he means.
You are light. You are in the light.
Is it costly? And is it really hard sometimes? And do you have to sacrifice things? Yes, of course. But that's where there is peace.
That's where there is rest. That's where there is.
You will be in this really difficult situation that you don't even know what's going to happen. But you have a peace and a knowing.
And the Spirit of God is in you. And you know everything's going to be okay.
That's what the light is. That's what's been the biggest gift for me.
And you know what else living in the spirit is? Living in the spirit is knowing that you're not perfect. But when you do go the wrong way, the conviction.
And he corrects you. And then there's repentance.
And then it's that, like, when I remember living in my flesh, I never was convicted about anything. I was out acting however I wanted because the Spirit of God took the back seat.
I was living in the flesh. And so I was acting however I want.
I was talking however I want. I had pride.
I was filled with pride and ego. And that's not how we want to live our lives.
So, you know, it costs something, but it is the most rewarding thing you could ever have. 1 Peter 1.22 says, Having purified your souls by your obedience.
Having purified your souls by your obedience to the truth for a sincere brotherly love, love one another earnestly from a pure heart.

Having purified your souls by your obedience. Obedience is a beautiful way that God purifies our hearts.
I know for me, obedience is my main everything. Literally, our life is built on obedience.
There are moments of obedience that you guys can see from the outside. And that's probably 0.001% of the daily steps of obedience that we have to take in our personal lives, in ministry, in business.
There are so many. I think Ari and I, I wish that you guys could see the ins and outs of all the decisions that Ari and I make.
I'm just going to let you guys into it a little bit because I'm going to get emotional because we really like being on this journey, the two of us with Jesus, like it literally feels like it's just the three of us in this insane world where like Ari and I will be in medians meetings and you don't know how many things we've been offered. You don't know how many things are thrown at us all the time.
And you and I, and we have teams of people like, of course, you're going to do this. Of course, you're going to take this.
This is really good. Anyone would die to have this.
And Ari and I have mutual mind and we look at each other and we're like, we'll go and we'll talk. And it's just the best feeling in the world because we know we live different.
We know, you know, God blessed them. Like they're not believers, but we know that our obedience, like our alliances with Jesus and not the money that we could possibly make or the opportunity we could take.
And so we always step away, be alone with God, pray about everything. And purity of heart is legitimately, I know that Jesus loves us so much because he values our purity of heart above everything else.
Purity towards ministry, purity towards each other. Our purity matters to him more than anything else.
It matters to him more than him using us. I know that for a fact, everybody wants to be used by God, but God is like, I care about your heart more than you ever doing anything for me.
I'm not going to let you work for me with impurity in your heart. Nobody's perfect, but it's only, I'm only going to let you operate out of purity in your heart.
And for us, it is a constant refinement of like, I don't care. His grace on us is that the conviction is so loud.
We hear God like it's nobody's business. We take a pause before we make any move.
I am not trying to boast in our obedience. I want you guys to know how seriously we take walking in step with God for every possible decision we can make.

Purity in the heart.

Yeah.

Thank you for saying that because it is hands down the most important thing in your walk with God.

Yeah.

Purity of the heart.

Everyone thinks, oh, I need to know all this theology.

I need.

Yeah.

God anointed David as king at 17 years old. He was just a boy because of the purity of his heart.
God is after your heart. He doesn't care about how smart you are.
He doesn't care about how much you've done, how much you've accomplished in your life. He doesn't care about any of it.
He cares about the heart. He's after your heart.
And that's why like so many people say, well, how do I hear from God and how do I get to God and how can I be used by God? It all starts with the heart.

Check your heart.

And the thing is is that none of us have a perfect heart.

None of us are completely pure in the heart.

We all have these things that are just, ugh. We all have something or another.
I had so much gunk in my soul. It's all about relationship and intimacy.
Coming to him and saying, God, what is going on in my heart? Can you help me?

Can you reveal to me what is going on?

Can you get this out?

Humble me even if it hurts.

Oh, love.

Our main prayer.

Humble me even if it hurts, Jesus.

May I truly decrease so that you may increase.

I love what you said about King David because I actually was, I wanted to talk a little bit about the fact that like God wants to anoint all of us for service. Like he wants all of us to be put to work for him when the time is right.
But David went, I don't know how many years he was anointed as King. And then he went seven, 15, 17, something, a certain amount of years where he was not King, nothing about his circumstances looked as if he was king, but he was anointed as king, but he had to go through his own process.
And so a lot of us, like Jesus wants to anoint us for service, but you have to go through a purification process because your anointing will crush you if you're not ready. Anointing is a weight, it's glory,'s weight that will crush you, and you can only handle it if you've been through what God needs you to go through so you're strong enough.
Your character needs to be pure. It needs to be strong.
Otherwise, God loves you too much to give you something that's going to destroy you. I remember going through my whole—I remember being in the entertainment industry, and I worked so hard, and I was just going, going, going, and I was like, I'm ready.
I did the work. I'm good.
Like, I'm ready, but nothing was happening to me. And then when he broke me down, and I was completely wide open, and I was at my most broken, humility, humble state, that's when he pushed me through the door.
That's when he opened doors that I couldn't even fathom. I couldn't even believe it.
And it was in the moment where I seeked him. I was humble.
And I said, be my teacher. And I'll be the student.
I don't know anything. I thought I knew everything.
I thought I was strong. And that's why I love my strength is made perfect in your weakness.
That's why, you know, whatever you're going through right now, you think you're so weak. No, that's when he can get to work in your life.
Take it as an opportunity. Rejoice in that weakness.
Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly in my weakness so that Christ's power may rest on me. Yeah.
Zechariah 13, 9 says, and I will put this third into the fire and refine them as one refined silver and test them as gold is tested. They will call upon my name and I will answer them.
I will say they are my people and they will say the Lord is my God. I say all this to say that a life of holiness and a pure heart has absolutely changed everything about the way that we live.
And it's so worth it. And it's not easy.
But what is on the other side of your purification is peace. And it's life.
Like we said, there's life that if you don't know Jesus, there's life that you don't know about. And it's a life worth living.
It's life after life. It's the life that Jesus gave up his own life to give us life.
So we want to invite you guys today to receive Jesus. If you never have, he's the one, you guys, it's only Jesus.
He's the way, the truth, and the life, and nobody gets to the Father except through Him. Everything that we talk about here, none of it means anything if you don't have Jesus, if you don't have the Word of God that lives within you, if you don't have the Spirit of God that raised Jesus from the dead.
If He doesn't live in you, none of it is worth it. So on the other side of this prayer is everything that you desire, all the peace, all the joy, all the love that you've been searching for.
It's on the other side of receiving the Holy Spirit. And I believe that right now, if you pray this prayer with us, you can have a transformed and changed life.
Dear Lord Jesus, I know that I'm a sinner and I ask for your forgiveness. I believe you died for my sins and rose from the dead.
I turn from my sins and invite you to come into my heart and life. I want to trust and follow you as my Lord and Savior.
Baptize me in your Holy Spirit. In Jesus' name, amen.
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