It’s Not Too Late: How to Transform Your Life at Any Moment

Hey, it's your friend Mel, and welcome to the Mel Robbins podcast.

The person you're about to meet is living proof that it is never too late to transform your life.

In fact, it can happen at any moment.

New York Times best-selling author Rich Roll is here, and he is about to take you through the jaw-dropping twists and turns of what it's like to wake up and realize the life you're living needs to change.

He's reinvented himself not once, not twice, but three different times.

These are the lessons that he learned from overcoming a debilitating alcohol addiction.

He'll tell you the exact steps that he took to go from not being able to walk up a flight of stairs to becoming a world-class endurance athlete in his 40s.

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So, if you've ever asked yourself, is this all there is?

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If you don't like where you are or where you're going, it is never too late to change.

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Hey, it's your friend Mel, and welcome to the Mel Robbins Podcast.

It is always such an honor to be together and spend this time with you.

And if you're a new listener or you're here because somebody shared this with you, I want to personally welcome you to the Mel Robbins Podcast family.

Today, you're going to learn how to change your life at any age from someone who has done it three times.

Rich Roll is here.

He's the host of the award-winning Rich Roll podcast.

In his 40s and 50s, he has become a professional ultra endurance athlete.

Men's Health named him one of the fittest men on the planet and they called him the world's fittest vegan alive.

Now, I know that sounds impressive and Rich is impressive, but he has not always been this way.

He has transformed his life and he's going to show you how to do it yourself.

So please help me welcome my friend, Rich Roll, to the Mel Robbins podcast.

Rich Roll in the house.

I am so excited you're here.

I'm very excited to be here.

This is a long time coming.

We've known each other a long time.

So it lined up.

It's great.

I'm here.

Let's do it.

Thank you for jumping on a plane.

I cannot wait for the person that's with us right now to get to experience the magic that is my friend Rich Roll.

So we're going to cover a lot in our conversation, but I would love if you could start by telling the person who's with us right now what they might experience in their life that could be different if they take everything to heart that you're about to share from your own life story and they apply it to their own life.

If you are struggling, if you are stuck, I can promise you that there is hope, that if you want to change, you can change.

Because I believe that every single one of us is far more capable than we allow ourselves to believe.

And that right underneath our feet is a vast reservoir of untapped potential, just yearning to be released.

And our job is to bring it forth, to release it into the world.

One of the reasons why I am so excited to have this conversation with you is because your life demonstrates that there is no age limit for when you can change, when you can achieve things.

And in fact, I would love to have you read

the post that you put out that I think is so inspiring.

So, this was six years ago.

I didn't reach my athletic peak until I was 43.

I didn't write my first book until I was 44.

I didn't start my podcast until I was 45.

At 30, I thought my life was over.

At 52, I know it's just beginning.

Keep running, never give up, and watch your kite soar.

What does that mean to you?

To me, it means that change is always possible.

And I think that we put all of this pressure on ourselves.

We are in a hurry all the time to get to some place.

And we're indoctrinated into that at a very young age.

From the beginnings of school, where we're chasing grades and trying to get to the next level, there's always some goal that we're chasing or some gold star that we're grabbing for.

And we're measuring our self-worth against the extent to which we're keeping up with our peers.

And so this race begins before our brains are even close to being formed.

And we carry it through our entire life, putting pressure on ourselves, always believing that we're behind and

we have to catch up or we're just never going to get like quote unquote there.

And I think that's a real violence that we do, this socially imposed violence.

And in my experience, yes, life is short.

We have one precious life.

We should all devote ourselves to making the most of it, but life is also long.

And we're not in a race.

So stop measuring yourself against all these other people and figure out who you want to be, what it is that you want to do, and start taking those little baby steps towards it.

And it will lead you in a direction that might take longer than other people.

But in my experience, that that's okay.

And this is a, you know, a tweet that I sent out now six years ago.

And

I don't know if I would say I'm still at the beginning, but you know, I'm not nearly at the end right now.

And I'm at the beginning of something.

Yeah.

Well, I'm, yeah, you're, we're always at the beginning of something, you know,

you know, growth, change, evolution, transformation.

This is a, this is a lifelong, you know, path that we're on.

So there's always something to learn.

There's always a way to grow.

Well, and I cannot wait to get into your story and the lessons learned, like me, the hard way, and the mistakes made and the wisdom that you gained from it.

But before we do, I would love to have you talk directly to the person who's either listening or watching right now.

And it's so easy in life to get to this point where like, I blew it, 25,

majored in the wrong thing, did the wrong thing, you know, missed the window, 30, 40.

Like for somebody, whatever age they are saying, it's too late.

What do you want to tell them?

It's not too late.

This is a story that we internalize and delude ourselves into believing, but it's just that.

It's a story.

When you can step back and deconstruct, deconstruct it, you realize it's insane.

It's a template that's been laid on top of you that I think is deranging our minds in a very violent way that makes us feel bad about ourselves.

It's not too late.

There's always a possibility for you to move in a new direction or change the trajectory of your life wholesale or even make those micro changes that are going to kind of just shift your trajectory just enough to lead you in a direction that is going to be, you know, kind of more personally fulfilling for you.

I love this, Rich.

I absolutely love this.

You have such an incredible story.

You've been named one of the 25 fittest men in the world by men's fitness.

You literally raised, if you weren't watching on YouTube, Rich put his arms out just a minute ago.

Your wingspan is nuts.

Like, I bet your arms went across the screen and disappeared across the YouTube screen here.

And so I didn't realize that your wing, I realized you were a swimmer, dude.

I don't even, I never even knew that.

Oh, you like, you went like this.

I'm like, is he about to take flight?

This man is like, at least like, I don't know what a big bird is, but he's like a big, I mean, unbelievable.

And you say, though, as a kid, that you were shy, insecure, and bullied.

So tell me about that.

Yeah, I was a very

scared and afraid young person who was bullied considerably through

elementary school and junior high school and high school what did they pick on you about because i look at you now i'm like man what a handsome guy he's like got it together he had the painter dude let me paint the picture okay

imagine you know the the 10 12 year old version of me giant thick coke bottle glasses not only that a patch on one eye because i have a i have a weak left eye that kind of wanders so they they literally cut it you remember in the 70s yeah they put a patch on it's like they put a patch on your strong eye and the idea is it will strengthen your weak eye so i had to wear a patch on one eye and then on top of that i had the headgear orthoda with the with the with the wires coming out of the mouth and the strap you know behind your back

so i was not a vision for you mel hardly

well i don't know i had a dorothy hamill haircut and buck teeth So you might have been just my type, Rich.

Yeah, it's hard to be young.

It's hard to be young.

So, yeah, I was bullied.

And I think those experiences made me withdraw socially and made me very insecure about my behavior and my appearance.

And my solution to that was just to kind of fade into the background, at least initially.

How did that experience shape who you are today?

It made me a

pleasing approval

addicted

uh person

who would literally morph

to fit the occasion in order to get love and approval and i think later on top of that being raised in in a family in which expectations ran high i intuited that

love is transactional that i'm not entitled to it

and the only way to get it is to somehow figure out how to distinguish myself, to achieve things, to figure out how to be special, and to commit myself to extrinsic external rewards.

Because otherwise, I was

unworthy of love and unworthy of approval.

Is that what drove you to get the kind of grades that got you into Stanford and to become like a world-class athlete at the collegiate level?

Yeah, I think that's a huge part of the motor behind that.

So how did you compete if you got headgear on?

Like, how did you discover swimming?

Swimming was the only thing that I stumbled across as a young person that I felt like I had any aptitude for whatsoever.

And I enjoyed it.

More than that, The experience of being underwater felt almost womb-like, like a safe place away from the bullying, away from, you know, the name calling.

And I learned very quickly in the pool, having joined a team in which there were a lot of swimmers who were much more talented and accomplished than I was.

I'm talking about around the time I was 12, 13 years old,

that I could bridge that talent deficit gap by just working harder than everybody else.

And so that's where the relationship with suffering and just being the the hardest worker in the room was born because I was quickly rewarded for that.

And that started to spill into every aspect of my life, including academics, to my benefit.

Well, all that effort that you put in paid off because by the time you were in your early 20s, you not only had gone to Stanford, but you were also in law school.

You had a fancy job after law school.

On the outside, everything seemed like it was working out, but it really wasn't.

So put us at the scene of kind of the first thing that started to spiral out of control in your life.

Yeah, well, first, I would say that this like affinity for extremes is definitely a strength, if not a superpower, but ultimately, also like my greatest weakness and Achilles' heel.

Like, what serves us also harms us when it's out of balance.

And that's my experience.

And I think, yes, like all of that focus and discipline paid off off in a very real material way.

But that came at a cost, which is that I had blinders on and, you know, I was, I was being funneled into a certain track and I figured out how to play that game and I was playing it like high achievement, like get the good grades, get into the, get into the, I mean, I got into all eight colleges that I applied to, including Harvard, Princeton, like you name it.

I got into all the schools.

Wow.

Right.

And

go off.

And then, and then I was one of the top-ranked high school swimmers in the country.

And I go to Stanford, which is not only, you know, obviously this insanely amazing academic institution, but also at the time had the number one men's collegiate swimming program in the country.

So I went from this bullied, insecure, like navel-gazing kid to this guy at Stanford who was suddenly surrounded by his athletic heroes.

But I think, yes, I was still to some degree, you know, being funneled on a track.

And the promise, the implicit promise at the end of this funnel is, of course, you will be happy.

You will be fulfilled.

You will have a good life.

And I believed in that promise.

And I'm sure for many people, it's true.

But in my case, the pursuit of that track was a betrayal of.

of like who I fundamentally was as a person.

Like my whole life was jamming a square peg into a round hole.

And that creates like a, like an uncomfortability or, or like a dissonance with your, with your higher self that is a low hum until it's not.

And, you know, alcohol, I'm sure we're going to talk about this kind of entered the picture to ameliorate that.

Could you describe what does it feel like

to be in a life where you're being funneled?

Even if it's successful on the outside,

what is that like to be in a life where you're like, it just doesn't quite fit?

You know what I mean?

Yeah.

I mean, first of all, you don't know that you're in it.

That's the truth, right?

You may know your intuition, your deep down intuition that you're comp that you're repressing and compartmentalizing is trying to get your attention, but you don't want to hear it, right?

So it is difficult to know.

if you're not on the right track or not.

And I'm sensitive to that.

But I do think that there is

something that I call the knock, right?

Like I think that when you're, when you're off your trajectory, you know, when you're off your, your, your like true path, not to get too woo-woo about it, but like the universe kind of lets you know.

And they begin to, it begins to let you know very gently, you know, a little tap, like something you thought would go right might go wrong or, or there's a little friction in one area of your life.

And these are things we dismiss, you know,

you know, moving on.

What are some of the things like when you're like in the lawyer mode, what are the the gentle knocks before the sledgehammer hits you?

Well, you know, that, that, that gaze in the mirror in the morning, like where you have to like get yourself up to just get dressed to go to the job.

Like, I think this is common to, you know, most people who are, you know, on a certain career path that is less fulfilling than maybe it could be.

Like the fact that you have to like psych yourself up just to get to work and simple tasks feel daunting.

And then you look around the office and the people who got the promotion that you've told yourself that you want don't look very happy and are compensating for it by spending too much money on things they can't afford.

But you don't quite register that.

And you convince yourself that nonetheless, you want that promotion without really reflecting on, like, is this what I want?

And why, why do I want it?

And so I think the universe is like trying to get your attention, like, hey, look over there, see what's happening.

And you ignore it and it starts to knock louder and it knocks louder and knocks louder until it derails your life to an extent to which you're willing to listen and kind of take accountability for your life.

Well, you mentioned alcohol.

You've been very open about your relationship with alcohol, addiction, the role that it played in your life and this kind of life-changing breakdown that you had.

How did

it all begin?

Yeah, I mean, first of all, I never got in trouble in high school.

Like I was a goody-goody.

I was waking up at 4:30 every morning and going to swim practice for an hour and a half and then going to school and then going to back to the pool for two more hours and then studying and then lights out at nine.

I didn't go to parties.

I wasn't invited to the parties anyway.

And so my career with alcohol didn't start until a little bit later than it does for a lot of people, around the time I was 20, 21.

And when I

got my first buzz, I suddenly felt comfortable in my own skin for the very first time.

Like that low grade dissonance or discomfort that you've had your whole life

that you don't even, you don't even know that it could feel any different than that, like evaporated.

And it just felt like I was being wrapped in a warm blanket and being told that everything was okay.

And all I remember about that is just that I wanted to feel that way all the time.

And I thought that I had found the solution for my life.

But alcohol, you know, getting drunk was really fun and it solved a lot of my social anxiety and it taught me how to be a social creature and talk to a girl and go to a party and crack a joke and look somebody in the eye.

Like I felt like it was an education in how to be a social animal.

But as any alcoholic will tell you, it's not long before the veneer cracks and your life starts to get progressively more chaotic and more unmanageable.

One of the things that I also love about the way that you talk about addiction is that it's way beyond alcohol, that people can become addicted to lots of different things, whether it's to busyness, to drugs, to video games, to toxic relationships, to chaos in their lives.

Can you talk a little bit more about that just to widen the spectrum?

I've been

in recovery for a long time.

I've seen people get sober.

I've seen people die.

And what I've taken of the many things I've taken from this experience is a conviction that

addiction is very much a spectrum disease.

And it's a disease in which we put all this focus on the behavior or the substance, alcohol, drugs, gambling, sex and love.

But these are

not the problem.

These are the solution to the problem.

When you remove alcohol from an alcoholic's life, you're basically forcing that person to break up with their best friend, their reliable coping strategy for life.

And what you're left with is a raw nerve of a human being that then has to be healed.

And I think we have traditionally thought of addiction in the context of these behaviors and substances.

But I think that's a very restrictive definition.

I think to some degree or another on this spectrum, we can all relate to behaviors that we feel powerless to change or overcome or compulsions we know are leading us astray and yet we keep doing it and doing it despite wreaking havoc on our lives.

When you said the word compulsion, like there are these things that you keep doing that you can't stop yourself from doing, it made me think of a number of things, whether it was like the wildly violent and self-destructive behavior when i was in college and law school undiagnosed trauma undiagnosed adhd didn't even know i had anxiety yet and i

was a liar i cheated on boyfriends like just excessive drinking and i would always wake up the next day and be like i'm not doing that again and then i would feel just compelled to do it again and the trap of that but i've never i'd never thought about it on the spectrum of the disease of addiction.

But you're right, because it became this thing that I kept saying, I'm not going to do this again.

And then I would do it again.

And then I would feel so shitty about myself.

And then I would say, I'm not going to do it again.

And then I would do it again.

Yeah, that's powerlessness.

Yes.

That is a taste of the powerlessness of somebody who's caught in the throes of an addiction they can't control and their life is spiraling, you know, and

unmanageable.

I'm very grateful that I had a pretty severe case of alcoholism because

it turned my life into such a chaotic disaster that I was left with no choice if I wanted to live that I was going to have to contend with it and figure out a way forward.

But I think most people on this spectrum, whether it's some kind of errant behavior, like they keep getting involved

with the wrong person in a romantic relationship and are confused why it's always ending up in a terrible result or the person who can't put down their phone or is compulsively online shopping or comparing themselves to

beautiful men and women on social media, all the way to the person who can't pull the needle out of their arm.

Having a severe case of addiction really is a gift because

you're going to have to face it, right?

Whereas if you have a low-grade version of it, you could live out the remainder of your life never getting bad enough that you're compelled to look at it.

You know, you were saying that it got absolutely disastrous.

And at the height of your addiction, you write about how your parents stopped talking to you.

I would love to just have you explain like what a day in your life looked like and how bad it got.

Because I think when you look at you now and you're like, yeah, I got really bad and thankful.

Like I don't, unless you've ever experienced it yourself or you have somebody that you love,

it's hard to even imagine what that actually looks like.

Yeah.

I mean, I would say that my drunkalog is not sexy.

It's not rock and roll.

It's pretty boilerplate and banal.

I was sleeping on a bare mattress in an unfurnished bedroom, unfurnished apartment,

drinking round the clock.

Like I would wake up hungover,

having hallucinations and bed spins and, you know, like night sweats.

And the only way I could make that go away was to make myself a vodka tonic and drink it in the shower in the morning.

And then I would feel better.

Not like drunk, just normal.

Get dressed, get in the car with a tall boy between my legs and drive across Los Angeles.

And I would literally go to work as a lawyer.

And then at lunchtime, I would go sneak out to some restaurant or bar where I could like drink, get a get a couple more drinks in me to make it through the end of the day.

Like there's no way that was going to last.

Right.

And it didn't didn't last.

And then as soon as I could escape from work, having done the least amount possible, I would stop at a liquor store on the way home and I would get drunk by myself in my apartment.

And then I would go out to some bar by myself.

There was nothing social about it.

You know, it was by myself,

just sad, lonely, pathetic.

And it would always end up the same, which is in a blackout or in a situation that involved the cops in jail.

Like that's how it ultimately all kind of came to a head for for me.

You had a number of DUIs before you hit rock bottom.

Like what ultimately had you hit that moment in your life

where

you changed?

I got two DUIs in a period of like, I think it was like six or eight weeks of each other.

Like six or eight weeks?

Like blowing insanely high numbers, one of which involved me rear-ending an old woman at an intersection.

The second of which involved me driving the wrong way down a one-way street, you know, both ending up in jail, and then having those two DUIs stacked on top of each other going into court like I was looking at jail time.

But that was not my bottom.

And I didn't get sober in a sustainable way after that.

I had to suffer more and go darker.

And that elevator just had to keep going down before I was really ready to wake up.

which, you know, is a conversation around rock bottoms and what that really means.

What does a rock bottom moment mean?

Your rock bottom is what you decide it to be, because

if the elevator is going down, there's always, there is no ground level.

It can always go further down until you're dead.

People change when the pain of their circumstances exceeds the fear of finally doing something different.

So that's how I think about rock bottom.

When you're in that space, you're birthed with

a willingness that you didn't have prior.

You know, I think a lot about a couple of people in my life that are really struggling.

And the one phrase that I say,

because I know you can't make someone change, I always say,

do you want to get worse before you get better?

But here's the thing.

When you're in a shitty headspace and your life's spiraling out of control, I know for myself when I was in the throes of alcoholism, I'm sure plenty of people said that to me.

I didn't want to hear it.

I'm like, I don't care.

Like go away.

When you're so caught up in that cycle of

like craving and reward and your life is spiraling out of control, like until you are in that moment where your pain is enough to exceed that fear of doing something different,

does that message land with the person?

Probably not.

I'm glad you said that because I

want to know what to say.

Like

I know that it must have been the hardest thing in the world for your parents to stop talking to you.

The hardest, the most, the hardest, most painful thing that they had to endure.

Since you've been on this side of it, is there anything anybody can say?

As you know,

you can't get somebody to change who doesn't want to change.

You cannot willingness upon them, which is very difficult, particularly in the context of like a parent who's watching their child suffer from an addiction.

The addicted person is powerless over that behavior, but also the parents are powerless to change that.

Every instinct is to rush in and solve the problem, to save this person, to prevent them from doing this thing that so clearly is wrecking their life.

The problem is

that that instinct doesn't always play out with positive results.

So I think what you have to do is love the individual, not love the behavior,

and create boundaries around yourself and that behavior.

Like I love you.

You're clearly suffering.

What you're doing, I'm not down with.

Here's why.

And until you're ready to do something about that, I'm unavailable unavailable to you, which is essentially what my parents said to me.

I'm not saying that this is an easy thing to do, and I'm not saying that it's an appropriate strategy in all circumstances.

I can only say that in my case, it was an important piece that led me towards sobriety eventually, because I could no longer look to them to solve my problem or to be codependent in my behavior.

They were no longer available, which meant the mirror flipped and suddenly I had to take responsibility for myself.

And it was up to me to decide whether I wanted to keep doing this or not.

Did they leave the door open?

Yes.

When you're ready for help, we're available.

And they were.

They were.

You know, you mentioned that your elevator had to go lower.

What made you finally turn the corner for yourself?

Like, what was that moment like, okay, I have found the willingness for myself?

Well, the crazy thing is that the day I finally woke up and said, okay, okay, today's the day I'm going to treatment and I'm going to get sober.

The night before wasn't great.

I mean, I definitely woke up hungover, but I got to tell you, I've had way lower moments, way crazier, chaotic experiences.

So it's not, it's not a one-to-one ratio kind of thing.

Like I'd gone to jail and gotten DUIs and I had a marriage that exploded on the honeymoon.

I've like endured a lot of low moments, but the day I finally woke up and had that willingness was a pretty normal day of waking up hungover.

It wasn't drama infused in any way.

So that day wasn't my rock bottom.

But when I look back, I realize that I was in such emotional angst and pain from those other lower moments that it creates a paralysis.

Like I had to like medicate myself through that.

before I could actually take the action to do something about it.

And I think that's also a common thing.

You were referring to it.

Like when you're, when you're in it, sometimes it's so intense, like you, you can't, there's, you can't summon the will to do anything about it because you're just too deep in it.

And you can't possibly imagine that things could get better.

No way.

Yeah.

And so you resign yourself to it.

This is my life.

This is going to sound like a weird comment, but I feel like that feels very hopeful to me.

that it doesn't have to be that you

have the worst of the worst of the worst as the moment, but there comes a moment where your

ability to tolerate it any longer, that the pain of staying where you're at is actually greater than the thing that you need to be willing to do.

But here's the thing, like pain is this amazing teacher.

You know, it can,

it can

be a lot of fun.

I know, but it's crazy.

It's like it can get you to do things you would never ordinarily do in a good way and in a bad way.

But the insane thing is that every single moment presents us with the choice or the opportunity to make a different decision and go a different way.

It's just that there's something about the way humans are hardwired that it's so difficult unless we're up against the wall to make that behavior shift.

So, Rich, if somebody is in the middle of supporting somebody who's spiraling, what is based on your experience, just the recommendation for how you approach those situations?

Yeah, it's very difficult, again, to give like general advice.

Yeah, if like somebody is in a life-threatening situation, so I'm reluctant to like give blanket advice on this.

But I think, in general, the message is:

I love you.

Your life is spiraling out of control.

I can no longer stand idly by and just witness this.

But if and when you're ready to make a change, I will be the first one here.

But in the meantime, like, I'm not going to loan you money.

I'm not going to, you know, co-sign your bullshit.

I'm not available for that.

But there is hope.

There is help.

And I'm here for you 100%.

I just want you to know that.

I love that.

And there's something in saying that that also

in a weird way communicates.

I actually believe in your ability

to figure this out.

And that's a key piece as well.

I can see the real you beneath all of this.

And my wife says this all the time, like, I'm holding a vision for that.

I am holding you in that higher space.

I'm claiming it for you because you can't right now.

And I believe in that version of you.

And I'm not going anywhere.

But I'm not going to do these things that I historically maybe have done or which you are going to be very upset with me because I'm no longer available for.

Let's give props to your wife, Julie.

Oh,

she's the one.

Well, I just, as a parent and as a friend, feel like even if you have somebody that's spiraling in self-doubt over something that you know they're capable of, that's a beautiful way to say to somebody, I am holding a vision of who I know you to be and what you're capable of.

And I'm not going to participate in a conversation where you're engaging in this much self-criticism self-criticism and self-doubt.

It also takes the judgment out of it.

Yes.

No one wants to be judged.

And when you're in that dark space, you already feel horrible about yourself.

The last thing you need is for somebody to come to you and look down at you, right?

So when you're, when someone comes to you from that compassionate place and says, I love you and I see you and I and I believe in you.

I believe in you to find your way.

I believe in you to find your path.

Yeah.

You know, I know that you're capable of doing that.

Like, that's an incredible vote of confidence and encouragement in a situation in which almost everybody is going to meet that person with condescension and judgment.

If somebody is hanging on every word and they're right in it.

Yeah.

The thing about being in it is,

is that you can't see the way forward.

And somebody can say to you, do this, don't do that.

You should read this book, listen to this podcast.

But it's it's very difficult to hear that.

Because, at least for me, the looping message is: you don't understand

how unique my problems are.

You don't, you know, like you can't possibly fathom how different I am from, you know, whatever you're telling me.

And you create that separation as a level of self-protection.

And I think the advice is

you do what you can in the moment you find yourself in.

And I think

when life has gone haywire, it's impossible to see what it could be like.

And

we allow that to prevent us from taking action.

Like we want to know, like, well, if I do this, where is it going to go?

And what's it going to get me?

And what path am I going to be on?

And the truth is, you don't get to see that.

All you get to do.

is that one next thing.

And when you're ready, the next thing will be shown to you.

And then your job is to do that.

These bricks get laid one by one.

And I think we think that we're supposed to see clear-eyed into the future and where that's going to lead us.

But I can tell you, like when I landed in, you know, Alcoholics Anonymous, like I couldn't see, you know, outside the window where my life was going to be.

It was impossible for me to imagine.

that I would ever emerge out of this and create a life that would be personally meaningful to me.

And the only way I was able to do it is literally by doing the thing that was this close to being in front of me to do.

And just, okay, I did that.

Now what do I do?

I don't know.

Oh, I think it would be good if I do, okay, I'll do that, you know, taking those actions, developing that reflex to act, and

more will be revealed.

Rich, I am so grateful for this conversation and for your openness and your thoughtfulness.

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Welcome back.

It's your friend Mel Robbins.

And today you and I are here learning about how you can change your life at any age from the incredible ritual.

So fast forward, you get sober, you meet Julie, you're in your late 30s, you've reinvented yourself, right?

You're getting your life back on track.

And it's the day before you turn 40 and you have another fork in the road.

Can you talk to me about what was going on in your life?

Because you're like, I don't want to brand you as the king of reinvention, but I think one of the reasons why people love you so much is one of the reasons why they also relate to me.

It's really cool to see somebody turn their life around a little bit later in life.

It's really cool to see somebody who's in their 40s or 50s changing their career and doing new things and also dominating in the things that you decide to do.

And so you get sober,

you turn your life around,

and now it's your late 30s, but your health is like just horrendous.

So talk to me about what's going on.

Yeah, I mean, it's even more than that.

I mean, 31, I get sober.

Yep.

That begins with

voluntarily incarcerating myself in what's essentially a mental institution for 100 days.

Like, you did?

Well, I went to treatment.

You know, so it's like treatment is a very polite word for basically, you know, people who are,

you know, unhinged in

some kind of unhealthy way, right?

You're not selling it, Rich.

Listen, it saved my life.

Okay.

But 100 days is a long time to go away for.

This was no like 28-day, you know, rinse and wash, right?

Like, I really had a lot that I had to like get to the bottom of.

I emerged from that experience, returned to Los Angeles, and immersed myself in the recovery community.

My job was to create a solid foundation of sobriety, and I was very committed to that.

I returned to the law firm.

They took you back?

Supported me while I went away.

That's a whole other story.

And even though I already knew enough at that time to know that I had picked the wrong career for me, it felt like the right thing to do to go back and work there at least as long as I had been away.

But I will say,

despite having built this foundation for long-term sobriety, despite this incredible commitment to the steps and the program and this new set of tools that was now, you know, kind of directing my life in a new and amazing way, truly, Mel, my goal was to repair the wreckage of my past and get right back to where I was, like on that track, that respectable track where I could put on the nice suit and people would respect me.

And you know, I could give them the business card that had the whatever on it, and I was driving the right car.

Like, I was motivated by those things.

But on the inside, I was having this percolating existential crisis of having chosen this career path where I was jamming a square peg into a round hole and just feeling increasingly disconnected from my life

in a way that was making me feel depressed and also

medicating that sense of emotional dis-ease

through food and lifestyle choices.

So just knocking myself out on fast food, what I call the window diet.

You know what the window diet is?

No.

It's when you drive your car up to a fine dining establishment and roll your window down and they hand you food through your window.

Like that was basically my diet.

That's hard to even wrap your brain around looking at you today.

I want to read to you from your mega bestseller, Finding Ultra.

This is page two.

I was a fat, out of shape, and very unhealthy man, hurdling into middle age, a depressed, self-destructive person, utterly disconnected from who I was and what I wanted to be.

To the outside observer, everything appeared to be perfect.

It had been more than eight years since my last drink.

And during that time, I prepared what was a broken and desperate life, reshaping it into the very model of modern American success.

You know, what's interesting, you write further, you're such an unbelievably beautiful writer.

So what was wrong with you?

Why did I feel this way?

I wasn't just confused.

It felt like I was in a free fall.

Yet in that precise moment, this is the day before your 40th birthday.

I was overcome with a profound knowledge, not just that I needed to change, but that I was willing to change.

Moments like these were not to be squandered.

They were to be respected and seized at all costs, for they just didn't come around that often, if ever.

And you're talking about this moment where you're literally hauling your 208-pound body up a flight of stairs and you're out of breath.

Can you put us at that scene?

Yes.

It was a moment in time in which this existential crisis that I was having about, you know, what am I doing with my life kind of collided with a health scare?

So I wasn't like morbidly obese, but I was about 50 pounds overweight for my frame, like heavy for my frame.

But these two

things collided with each other

on a late evening when I had arrived home after a very long day at work and was just walking up a simple flight of stairs to my bedroom.

And I was seized by this

moment halfway up the flight where I had tightness in my chest and I was out of breath.

And it was a scary moment

that

made me realize

that I was having

another, like, quote unquote, like, big moment.

Like, I had made that decision that fateful morning when I woke up and suddenly had the willingness to like get sober and went to that treatment center.

And I had such a deep connection with how

vast my life had changed as a result of that decision in that one moment.

And there's like an emotional feeling that, you know, when I think about it, that that kind of I can feel inside of me.

And so when I was on that staircase, I had the presence of mind somehow to realize like, oh, it's happening again.

Like it feels the same as that other moment.

And because

I had that experience of my life changing so drastically as a result of like a single decision, basically, I felt like I needed to do it again.

I was like, this is a brief moment of time, a fleeting moment of time in which willingness has descended upon me.

Not only is my life going sideways, suddenly I have this sudden superpower of wanting to do something about it that I know is going to evaporate immediately unless I take an action upon it.

And I thought, what can I do?

Like, I've gone to rehab I can't go to rehab for this, you know, like, but what can I, maybe I can create a rehab for my life, a self-designed rehab.

And, and that's what I did.

Like the next day, I basically was like, I'm changing my diet.

I'm prone to extremes and I needed to do something extreme that would feel sort of like what it felt like when I detoxed from drugs and alcohol.

So I just did it with food because I needed to like have that purge, that suffering.

to make it seem like it was significant and hard.

Like I needed to do something that was hard.

You know, I want to ask you, because you're so lucky that that happened.

And, you know, as I'm listening to you, and I'm sure as you're listening or watching Rich right now, you're reflecting on the fact that you've probably had a thousand moments where you're like, I need to give up vaping.

I got to put the phone down.

Like, I got to do something about my health.

I got to stop spending money.

I got to get serious about this thing.

I got, you know, where you have that moment that does swell up inside you.

And I do think truly that when that happens, there is an earnest desire in that statement when you recognize, okay, how I'm doing life or finances or Roman, it's just not working.

How, is there any insight that you can give us, Rich, about like you had willingness open up.

Yeah.

And then you combined it with like, all right, I'm going in.

I'm going to, but, but what can we mere mortals do?

Like, you know, for the person that's like, this is resonating.

Damn it.

When is the lightning striking at the top of the stairs for me?

and willingness shows up like is there is there something that you've found first of all

these moments that i've experienced i think that we're all visited by them so the first thing is to develop a presence of mind or or just an awareness so that you're attuned to it when they arrive and you you make a promise to yourself in advance that next time I feel that, like I'm going to take an action on it rather than let it pass.

I love that.

Or commiserate.

I love that.

Because here's the thing.

And I'm sure you will agree, Mel, change is an action-based affair.

You cannot make a change by ruminating in your mind.

And I have a tool that I think will be helpful for this.

And that tool is a phrase.

And that phrase is mood follows action.

When we are in those moments where We think, yeah, I need to stop vaping or I need to stop, you know, going on Tinder or whatever it is, We let those moments pass without doing anything about it.

In truth, it is behavior first, thoughts, feelings, and emotions follow.

So the easiest example is, I don't want to go to the gym.

I'll go to the gym when I'm motivated, when I feel better,

when I feel energetic.

But when you go to the gym and you realize you feel energetic afterwards.

So

instead of waiting for the feeling to inspire the action, take the action and enjoy the feeling as a consequence of having undertaken it.

I want to make sure that as you're listening or watching, that you got the concrete steps that Rich just gave you.

So number one, the next time that I got to quit vaping.

I got to stop buying stuff online.

I got to stop running toward walking red flags when it comes to relationships.

That right there is the invitation.

That's the moment that you're talking about because you just woke up and you recognized that you have a choice in this matter, that there's some song within you that has yet to be sung.

Second thing that you said is you could actually say to yourself, the next time I have that thought,

I am going to take an action.

And the third thing that you said that is a tool is one of the cues you could give yourself is mood follows action.

So what action am I going to take the next time time this thing happens?

And that simple little formula: notice, make a promise, and know what the action's going to be, that basically kind of opens up the possibility for the willingness to take the action.

Yeah, that's an amazing summary.

The only addition I would make to that is to layer it with a sense of immediacy

because these are sliding door moments.

And if you say to yourself, the next time, aha, a moment I need to act.

Okay, tomorrow morning when I wake up, I'm going to do that.

You've already lost the plot.

Rich, I am just so happy you're here.

And I can't wait to keep digging into the story and, more importantly, the takeaways and the tools that the person listening can apply to their own life.

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Welcome back.

It's your friend Mel Robbins.

Today, you and I are with the one and only Rich Roll.

We're talking about how you can change your life at any age.

So you're at the top of the stairs, dude.

You have a moment.

You recognize it.

Mood follows action.

You commit to like, boom, I'm going all in on this.

This part of the, the story of your life is like a movie, dude.

Like you go all in.

What did you do?

The first thing that I did was change my relationship with food.

And it didn't happen overnight.

Like I did a...

like a seven-day juice cleanse like that was the detox part sounds kind of extreme it was extreme but i but like i'm

interrupts your relationship with food, right?

Because change my relationship with food sounds like something that a 20-something influencer would say.

But I, the reason I do that now is because I know that most people are not like me.

Like I have to go all in.

I'm extreme, but that doesn't work for a lot of people.

But yeah, I, you know, did the juice cleanses and I experimented with all these diets and ultimately found an entirely plant-based diet, 100% plant-based diet to be the thing that worked for me.

Like it really revitalized me in a meaningful way.

And the byproduct of that is that I suddenly had this resurgence of energy and vitality that I hadn't experienced since I was a teenager because I'd cleaned up my lifestyle habits and my diet and suddenly had the urge for the very first time in a long time to like exercise and like take care of myself because one

act of self-esteem begets another.

You know, like self-esteem is a product of performing esteemable acts, not only on behalf of others, but on behalf of yourself.

And when you do something in the interest of your own self-care, like suddenly that gives birth to an interest in wanting to do more of that.

And it's this domino cascade effect that I was starting to experience.

And the truth of the matter is that I was able to lose weight very quickly.

And I was able to,

you know, go from somebody who was completely sedentary to quite fit in a short period of time.

time.

But the real gift of that was that it was starting to not only connect me to my physical self, but it was giving me a path to recapturing joy, like by thinking about what are the things that really make me happy or made me happy as a kid.

And it took me all the way back to what was it like when you were underwater and in that pool or you could feel the sun on your shoulders, like very basic primal things.

And I just thought, I want more of that in my life.

I need that in my life.

That's what made made me happy.

I'm not as happy as I could be right now.

And so I'm just going to, I don't care what anyone says or how it interferes with other areas of my life.

Like I am going to explore that for myself as an act of like self-love, honestly.

And there's a whole athletic kind of competitive athlete story that blossoms from that.

But the truth of the matter is that it was never really about that.

It's always been this spiritual journey to

find my authentic voice and to heal that wound in my soul and to fill that unfillable hole with

something divine

that would make me feel at ease with myself and in the world.

That is so beautiful.

And

the image of

finding these just moments of joy, whether it's the sun on your shoulders or what it feels like to be outside moving your body or being back in a pool, something that made you really happy as a child.

Like it is so

obvious that when you kind of paint the picture, that moving toward those things, of course, would bring something alive.

And yet we allow ourselves to be funneled away from them.

and end up in places where we're needing to distract and numb ourselves because where we've ended up is devoid of those things.

Yeah, and confused and hypnotized by the shiny object around the bend that's going to solve that for us when we had the answer all along, which is when you reflect back on your happiest moments, you're probably surrounded by people you care about doing something you really enjoy.

Yes, most likely outside.

You know what I was saying?

Well, you know, you not only started running, dude, like I also think your story is so amazing because within two years of nearly having like

just your chest caving in and you're 50 pounds overweight you earn a top 10 finish in a three day 320 mile race and you're doing this in your 40s and you don't stop from there you go into ultra marathoning called the fittest man alive i mean it's rich it's unique at some point I held up a cover of you to my poor husband, Chris, and said, could you please look more like this guy?

Like, this guy looks great in his 40s.

What are you doing, Shump?

Like, I realized I wasn't really motivating him, but what I had to do to look that way, though, is insane.

I'm sure.

I'm sure, because you're an intense guy.

But one of the things that I do find fascinating about you, and

you have an award-winning and world-renowned and wildly popular podcast.

It's one of the few podcasts I listen to.

I've heard you say not only on your podcast, I've read it in your work, that

really, if you're lost or stuck, simply focusing, if you don't know what else to focus on, on your own health, is the single most effective thing to do.

Could you talk more about that?

Health is the foundation upon which the rest of your life is built.

And if your health is not sound, then your mind is not sound.

Your energy system is compromised.

Like everything is downstream of your physical health.

And I think in our modern fast-paced world where

none of us have enough time and there's always too much to do and we never accomplish all the things that we set out to every day, it can feel indulgent or like something only privileged people can do to take care of themselves.

But I think that no matter what your lot in life,

it's absolutely mission critical to care for yourself first.

It's that, you know, oxygen mask on you before anyone else, because you can't take care of anyone else unless you take care of yourself first.

So it isn't a selfish act to do that.

I think it's actually the most selfless thing that you can do because your capacity to serve is a function of, you know, how well you're living, how well you're taking care of yourself.

I've also loved when you wrote, I didn't get into ultra endurance sports to win races, beat others, or stand atop a podium.

I got into it because it's the perfect template for self-discovery.

What did you discover about yourself?

What I learned about myself,

I think is something that is applicable to everybody, which is how we began this conversation.

We are all

so much more capable than we allow ourselves to believe.

When I was 43 years old, I was the top American finisher at this double Iron Man race, this three-day,

320-mile circumnavigation of the big island of Hawaii.

The following year, I did five iron distance triathlons on all five islands of Hawaii consecutively in like a six-day period.

Like I would have never dreamed in a million years that I would have been capable of doing something like that.

And I think that whoever you are, you don't have to be an endurance athlete.

The point is that when we choose to invest in our health and our well-being, and we begin to attune ourselves to our own intuition and allow ourselves to be led by it rather than be funneled by social constructs and constraints, we're giving birth to that song, to that voice that can lead us in a direction we can't possibly imagine.

Because the idea that I'm sitting here today talking to you, when I reflect upon where I was

not that long ago, is shockingly surreal.

And it's only because I made a commitment to honor myself in an authentic way and I followed up that commitment and walked through very difficult times where that commitment to myself has been tested.

But I've emerged out of it.

with a message.

And that message is that it is worth it.

And I think that we all have some version of that that within ourselves.

The point is to figure out what that thing is that gets you out of bed in the morning, that gets you excited,

and to respect it and honor it by nourishing it.

So it's not about quitting your job or any of these kinds of things.

It's just about like, how can you be more of who you actually are?

Rich, you just talked about being led by intention rather than funneled.

And, you know, part of your story is really about figuring out how to let purpose and intention.

And I would even, the word that keeps coming up around you, and I know you may bristle when I say this, but is joy.

Like the thing about, there was something that happened for me as your friend when you talked about the light on your shoulders.

Like you, you, you said, and it like as somebody who knows you,

the willingness to suffer.

You said a bunch of words at the beginning of our conversation.

You kept using the word violent.

We're very violent with ourselves.

The self-abuse, this willingness that you had to just endure pain and suffering.

And there's this beauty in the realization of just allowing the sun to hit your shoulders, you know, this willingness to allow joy to come into your life.

That it doesn't have to be about suffering.

And it can be as simple and as easy as that,

you know, which is still a lesson I'm trying to learn.

I think that's why it's coming up for me

that that might be something that your next book should be about.

Well, I mean, in this,

yeah, I'm in the middle of writing this book, and I'm also in this, you know, period of transition or dismantling or transformation right now because I just had a major back surgery and it's forcing me to stop and slow down.

And that has prevented me from being able to

outpace whatever is making me uncomfortable by running away from it and distracting myself in work or whatever.

Like I have to sit with myself in the way that I had to, you know, be on that bike for that many hours.

And

I'm trying to

look at it for the opportunity that it's presenting me.

Like it is a knock from the universe.

And what is the message that I'm supposed to hear right now?

And I think what the message is, is that good job with the suffering dude.

It took you pretty far, but now it's not your friend so much.

It's getting in the way of what life is really about, which is your connection with other people.

There's no amount of external validation.

I'm already validated by the public in a way that, you know, it's like, I don't deserve this.

Like, I get it walking down the street in airports and like that.

Like, so I'm well aware aware that like chasing more of it isn't going to, you know, make me feel any better.

You know what I mean?

But what happens when you let go of that and you're like, okay, dude, I'm now I'm just here.

And what the universe is trying to tell me is that there is no race.

And disabusing myself of that like paradigm, I think is the, is the, is the lesson that I'm trying to learn right now.

And I had to have my body fillet open on both sides in order to be ready to hear it.

Like that, like you actually mean that.

That's not like they had to cut you from the front and the back in order to do this kind of spine surgery.

Yeah, spinal fusion surgery 47 days ago.

What's interesting about where you're at now, Rich, is that a lot of people would be shocked to know, and a lot of people probably don't know, that even as you were starting your podcast and you got your first book deal.

And so now you are turning your life in a different direction.

You are making things happen.

You're starting to follow your purpose.

On the outside, it looks like this is a, and so again, I'm saying reinvention.

Here we go again.

You are now aligning with purpose and intention.

You are trusting and changing and the willingness to change.

You are starting a podcast.

You're about to write a book.

You get an advance and you're so in trouble financially, you cannot pay to have the garbage picked up.

And this is so related.

How old were you when this was happening?

45, 40.

Yes, 2012.

And you've got three kids at this point?

We have

2012.

Oh, no, we have four kids.

We have four kids at this point.

You can't pay to have the garbage picked up.

You are starting.

You've got an advance on the book.

You've got the podcast starting up.

This is not the days where everybody has a podcast.

Like you were the OG in podcasting.

Like,

how did you navigate that?

It was a weirdly

disorienting time

because

I had gotten a lot of media attention from my endurance feats.

Oh, yeah, because you're winning all these races.

I wasn't doing anything winning, but I was sort of like, I was acquitting myself very well, especially as like a man in his mid-40s who was this corporate lawyer who was only eating plants.

Like at that time, that was like, people were like, couldn't understand that.

Right.

And so that attracted a bunch of attention um which led to you know a lot of press around it which led to me writing a book that came out and i got an advance for that and the day that the book came out i let my bar membership dues lapse i was officially like cutting myself off from the escape hatch of returning to the law i was like i am doing this i'm all in There was no plan, but there's a line in Finding Ultra, which is, when the heart is pure, the universe will conspire to support you.

I believe this to be true.

This has played out as true in my life.

I've seen it played out as true in many other people's lives.

But when the book came out and like it did its thing in the wake of doing everything I could to push it out, then I'm like, okay,

universe, I think my heart's pretty pure.

You know, the phone can ring anytime, you know, and it was not ringing.

I wasn't getting asked to give keynote speeches.

I wasn't in high demand for anything.

There was no money coming in.

I wasn't practicing law anymore.

And I had a mortgage and I had four kids.

And it was very

emasculating.

And I was guilt-ridden and really, you know, battling with my own shame that I had made this incredible error out of selfishness

that

would irreparably like harm the people I cared about most.

So it was very confusing.

And

there were days where we

like almost didn't have enough money to like put food on the table.

And it's hard to even talk about.

Like it's embarrassing, Mel,

because

as a guy who has this, you know, world-class education and resources and the like, like, how come I can't figure this out?

Like, what am I doing wrong?

Like, am I, I literally thought I was insane.

I thought,

who do you think you are?

Like, go back and be a worker among workers.

Get over yourself.

Get a law firm job.

Like, you have mouths to feed, young people.

You've got to like do the right thing here.

And in those moments of doubt and fear.

When, yeah, we didn't have the 80 bucks to pay, you know, waste removal and they took our bins away.

So we would have to put the garbage in our beat up minivan and drive it to some dumpster behind a grocery store.

Like our washer and dryer broke.

So we were, you know, at the, you know, we would go to the laundromat.

It was, it was, it was really, it was, it was, it was difficult.

Um,

and I wouldn't have made it except for

the support of Julie, who, who

was able to see

the more fully actualized version of myself myself when I couldn't.

She was able

with great strength

in the face of criticism and judgment by all kinds of people to hold that vision.

And I would come to her and say, like, I can't do it anymore.

And she's like,

the only way

through this is forward.

We're not going back.

We've come too far.

I know that you're on the right track.

I can see it in you.

And there is something here.

And we have to follow it through.

And

I don't know anyone else who would have done that.

And another thing that she said to me then that I think is really powerful is,

you know, when you're up against it financially, like there's a clarity.

Like it really forces you to confront your attachment to the material world as it's being pulled out from underneath you.

And she would say, like,

just because they're taking these things away doesn't mean that they're entitled to rob me of my humanity.

Like that, that's, that's mine, you know?

And so they don't get that peace.

And so she was able to engage with all of this with an incredible degree of equanimity.

There was a time when we were having a car repossessed.

We knew it was going to get repossessed.

I hadn't paid the lease on it.

I don't know how long.

So the repo guy comes, shows up in the front yard, and Julie goes out to greet him.

And, you know, they, they stiffen up like, okay, here it comes.

And she goes, hey, how's it going?

Like, what's your name?

You're here for the car, right?

He's like, yep.

She's like, cool.

Like, do you need to use a bathroom?

Do you want anything to drink?

Are you hungry?

Come on in.

Like just.

like greeted him with like compassion and this welcoming energy.

And then she goes, okay.

And like she gets the keys or whatever and just says, Here you go.

Like, I hope you have a great day.

Like, and the guy was baffled, right?

This is not the normal experience that someone like this is having in their job.

And she's like, Yeah,

he doesn't get to, he doesn't get to determine my dignity.

He doesn't get that piece.

And I think there's so much power in that.

And we give these

abstract externalities our credit score, our credit card balance, you know, our bank accounts,

our mortgages and our IRAs and all these things, such an

outs, outweighed like value in terms of how we think about ourselves and value who we really are.

And for her to model that, I think was incredibly inspirational and gave me like the strength that I needed to continue on this path.

Well, it's a very powerful and tangible story that illustrates

that the outside world and all the stuff doesn't define your worth or your humanity, how you unless you allow it to correct.

But when you get, when you take ownership of it and you operate with a level of dignity and self-worth, even under really difficult circumstances like that, you stay in control of it.

Right.

Really powerful.

And that's, that's empowering.

Like you do have agency

over how you comport yourself in those situations.

You've talked a lot about sort of these moments

where the desire to change

meets a moment of willingness.

And what I'm going to say is that the fact that you are listening and that you're watching and you've listened and watched all the way to this point to me is evidence of a desire to change.

And I personally think that if you are really willing to accept the gift that Rich has shown up and given you, that could be that willingness that has hit you multiple times in your life, Rich.

That there's clearly a desire if you've listened this long.

And I do believe that there's a reason why you've listened this long or that you've watched this long.

And

I'm going to say you're the manifestation of that willingness that you've been hoping would appear and now it's here.

And it's about the action that you take next in that willingness.

So based on everything that you've poured into us and shared, Rich,

If the person were to just do one

thing,

what would the one thing after spending all this time with us be that you would recommend as most important

first of all

make a decision to consider this a line in the sand moment like you are being visited with uh a moment in time in which willingness has brought you this far into the conversation so the one thing that you can do is identify that single contrary action that you can take, the thing that you have promised yourself a thousand times that you were going to do or one day you were going to do, and it can be very small.

It only has to be in opposition to the way you have always done that thing that is making you unhappy or leading your life in a negative direction.

Because

even the most unbelievable personal transformations

are a function

of

tiny actions just like that repeated relentlessly and consistently over a sustained period of time.

Rich roll, what are your parting words?

I guess my parting words would be: no matter the circumstances of your life, whatever is holding you back or keeping you stuck can be overcome.

And that you deserve to be liberated from the things that are hijacking your life.

And that a life that is joyous, happy, and free and infused with love, meaning, purpose, satisfaction is not only possible, but available to you if you're willing to take actions to work towards it.

Rich Roll, I am so glad the sun has hit your shoulders and that you have landed in Boston here with us.

I love you.

Thank you.

Thank you.

Thank you for being here.

I love you back.

This has been great.

It's a real honor to be here.

And I just love celebrating your full expression.

And

as you said at the outset, we've known each other for a long time.

And so I've had the privilege of seeing your trajectory in, you know, the ups and the downs and the struggles.

And the depth with which you are able to connect with other human beings in a meaningful way to move them in a positive direction is truly inspiring, like your gift.

Thank you.

Thank you.

Thank you for telling me that.

I can hear it.

And I just want to say I love you too.

I love you for

finding the time to listen to something that could help you create a different version of who you are at whatever age you are, wherever you are in your life right now.

There is no doubt that based on what Rich shared with you today, that you now have the tools and the steps that you can take and hopefully the willingness to accept the gift of this moment and take the action that turns your life in a new direction.

And I really hope you do.

Alrighty, I'll see you in the very next episode.

I'll be waiting to welcome you in the moment you hit play.

I'll see you there.

All right, here we go.

You can literally order books, dude, for your studio based on the color palette you want.

I think that we all to one degree, I think that we all to one degree or another feel comfortable let me start over together you get the peter dude let me paint the picture okay

imagine you know the the 10 12 year old version of me giant thick coke bottle glasses not only that a patch on one eye because i have a i have a weak left eye that kind of wanders so they they literally

you remember in the 70s yeah they put a patch on it's like they put a patch on your strong eye and the idea is it will strengthen your weak eye and then on top of that I had the headgear or the dauncha with the with the

wires coming out of the mouth and the strap, you know, behind your back.

So, I was not a vision for you, Mel, hardly.

I had a Dorothy Hamill haircut and buck teeth, so you might have been just my type, Rich.

I'm so proud of how you showed up today.

So proud.

I

love you.

I love you back.

This has been great.

Rich, Chris.

Oh, and one more thing.

And no, this is not a blooper.

This is the legal language.

You know what the lawyers write and what I need to read to you.

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I'm just your friend.

I am not a licensed therapist, and this podcast is not intended as a substitute for the advice of a physician, professional coach, psychotherapist, or other qualified professional.

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