The Moth Radio Hour: In Service Of

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Speaker 4 From PRX, this is the Moth Radio Hour. I'm Jodi Powell.
I'm a producer and director at The Moth.

Speaker 4 When I first started thinking about hosting this hour, I was drawn to a common theme that rings loudly in moth stories, service.

Speaker 4 I might be extra tuned from my days as a waiter in New York City or from seeing my grandmother always attending to her neighbors far and near in the hills of Jamaica where I grew up.

Speaker 4 It feels good to do something on behalf of others.

Speaker 4 Your lifelong partner, the person behind you in the supermarket, someone you've never met, or someone who shows up unexpectedly at your door and gets a place at your dinner table.

Speaker 4 To be in service of is a foundational pillar. It is universal whether what's being served is kind words, courage, pasta, or love.

Speaker 4 The first story comes from Stacey Bader-Carrie. She told it at a recent Grand Slam at the Regent in Los Angeles, where we partnered with KCRW.

Speaker 4 Here's Stacey.

Speaker 6 So, on our fifth date, Dave and I walked the Silk Road, which was an exhibit at the Museum of Natural History in New York.

Speaker 6 On our previous dates, we'd been to a wine bar, a concert, a poetry slam, the zoo everywhere except the one place I really wanted to go to bed and

Speaker 6 there was just like this weird disconnect between these mushy things Dave would say and write to me and then this distance he was keeping and at the when we were done with the museum I was done with this sadistic courtship crap and I just wanted to go home but then he said do you want to go to Shake Shack and I said fine because I love cheeseburgers and And so we go to Shake Shack, and it's crowded, and we have to wedge in close at this little counter space.

Speaker 6 And he smells so good, and I'm falling in love with him. And then he says, There's something I have to tell you.

Speaker 6 And I want to throw a pickle in his face because I am 38 years old. I am divorced.
I have children. And I now realize every single man I meet online has something they have to tell me.

Speaker 6 So I say, what?

Speaker 6 And he he says, Look, I'm really attracted to you, but I have this autoimmune disease and it affects my bile ducts.

Speaker 6 And I have an infection, and I've been walking around with a drain in my side and a bag of bile strapped to my leg.

Speaker 6 And it's not very sexy, and I'll get these infections from time to time because there's no cure for this disease, and eventually I'll need a liver transplant.

Speaker 6 And all I heard from this is that he was very attracted to me.

Speaker 6 Dating's hard in New York, y'all. And

Speaker 6 I did some quick mental tabulations to see if a wonky liver was a deal-breaker. Yeah, no, it wasn't.
So

Speaker 6 I leaned in to kiss him, but then I had a really dark thought and I said, hey, you're not dating me for my liver, are you?

Speaker 6 And he said, no, no, no. I'm on a transplant list.
And if I ever have an emergency situation, I can have a live liver donor.

Speaker 6 They give me a lobe of their liver, and both the segments regenerate to a new liver, and my brother has already agreed to do this for me.

Speaker 6 And this was the best news because his brother went to Yale and was a doctor, so maybe now my Jewish mother would get off my back.

Speaker 6 So I said, great.

Speaker 6 And it was great. And we fell in love, and we moved in, and we had a child, and we did not get married because we're very bohemian in New York.

Speaker 6 And then about two years ago, Dave started feeling lousy. And an MRI revealed an emergency situation.
He had a very aggressive form of cancer growing deep in his liver.

Speaker 6 And the doctor said, you need that transplant now.

Speaker 6 So he called his brother, the doctor, who went to Yale, who didn't know his blood type. And when he got tested, he was not compatible.

Speaker 6 But

Speaker 6 even though I went to a state school, I know that I am A positive, which is what Dave is. And the doctor said, yes, we can consider you as a donor.

Speaker 6 So Dave didn't know it, but he was dating me for my liver.

Speaker 6 And I began testing right away. You meet with 12 healthcare professionals and they all try to scare you in the beginning by saying, you understand the risk.

Speaker 6 They range from infection to hernia to death. And I was like, you know, what choice do I have? If I lose him, I, by extension, lose my life.

Speaker 6 And everything was going great until I got to appointment number 11, the heptologist, the liver doctor, Dr. Fox.

Speaker 6 And she was single, so she wanted to know what site I met Dave on. And, okay, Cupid.

Speaker 6 And

Speaker 6 we were joking, but then she said in like all seriousness, you know, if you you don't actually want to go through with this, I can just say you have a fatty liver and no one has to know.

Speaker 6 And

Speaker 6 I had to fight back tears when she said that because I had been doing this to save Dave, but

Speaker 6 during the process, I stopped thinking of him as my partner and as somebody's son and brother and friend and father.

Speaker 6 And with this like chunk of flesh that would just grow back I could save a human being's life I was not gonna just lose this opportunity and so I held my breath as she examined my liver and I only let it out when she said you have a beautiful liver

Speaker 6 And so my 12th appointment was just an MRI where they just had a map out how they were going to resect a lobe of my liver.

Speaker 6 And the MRI revealed I have a very healthy liver, but also a very lopsided liver. And they couldn't just resect a lobe.
And so that was it.

Speaker 6 I lost my chance, but I couldn't dwell on that because I had to find Dave a new liver. And so I started on Facebook, as one does when you need an organ.

Speaker 6 And

Speaker 6 the very next day, my friend Sarah Kate texted me, and she said, I'm a positive. Can I help?

Speaker 6 And I really like her, so I didn't know how to respond. And then she said, it would be my honor to do this.

Speaker 6 And so on Valentine's Day, 2017, we had this really weird group date at Columbia Presbyterian, and Sarah Kate gave 58% of her liver to my now husband, Dave.

Speaker 6 And they're both doing great, and I get mad at Dave all the time, so that just shows you how great he's doing. And as for Sarah Kate, she was born and raised here in Los Angeles.

Speaker 6 and so all I can say is this really is a city of angels. Thank you.

Speaker 4 That was Stacey Bader Curry. Before the pandemic, Stacey was a very busy mother, a real estate broker living in New York City, and a storyteller, but has since relocated to Maine.

Speaker 4 Dave and Sarah Kate continue to thrive and were registered to run the 2020 New York City Marathon together. The 50th anniversary of the New York City Marathon fell on Dave's 50th birthday.

Speaker 4 Stacy is now a homeschool teacher and is applying to law school. Sarah Kate has become an advocate for living donation.

Speaker 4 To find out more about living donation and to see photos of Stacey and Dave's early days and a glimpse from their surgery, visit themoth.org.

Speaker 4 Our next story comes from Kristen Huang, live from our Boston main stage, where we partnered with WGBH and the Wilbur Theater. Here's Kristen live at the moth.

Speaker 16 I'm six years old, and I'm crouched in Wright Field during t-ball practice in my hometown of Iowa City, Iowa.

Speaker 15 A kid hits a flyball my way and I run and I dive and I shout, I've got it!

Speaker 7 I've got it!

Speaker 14 But I miss it.

Speaker 16 From across the field, the short sup calls, hey, are you a boy?

Speaker 15 You sound like a boy.

Speaker 19 My coach and teammates all hear him.

Speaker 20 They don't say anything.

Speaker 19 But I'm indignant.

Speaker 9 Are you kidding me?

Speaker 15 Look at my long black hair tied back in a ponytail.

Speaker 19 Look at my white tennis shoes with pink laces. Clearly I'm a girl.

Speaker 19 But his teasing cracks open a doubt in me.

Speaker 8 So that night I go home and I use my parents' answering machine to record myself and I play back my voice over and over.

Speaker 19 I record myself singing happy birthday. I record myself pretending to answer the phone.
I record myself shouting, I've got it, I've got it, the way I did on the field that day.

Speaker 21 For For the first time in my life, I hear myself the way other people hear me.

Speaker 8 Whoa,

Speaker 24 I do have a really deep voice.

Speaker 21 A boy's voice.

Speaker 20 And I'm flooded with embarrassment.

Speaker 22 But this does explain a lot.

Speaker 15 It explains why at church I have to sing in falsetto in order to match the other girls and even grown women.

Speaker 20 I don't like the way my voice sounds when I force it up an octave,

Speaker 19 but I have always unconsciously done it so that I'm not singing in the same register as the men.

Speaker 19 I play back another loop of the answering machine.

Speaker 11 Okay,

Speaker 19 so this is why I can always make other kids giggle when I roar like a lion.

Speaker 14 It's so realistic from the back of my throat, all scratchy and raw.

Speaker 19 This is why adults sometimes do a double take when they hear my little girl's body speak for the first time.

Speaker 11 And I think, God,

Speaker 19 this is so unfair.

Speaker 19 I'm already the only Chinese kid in my school full of white Iowans.

Speaker 22 Do I really have to be the girl with the boy's voice too?

Speaker 15 After that t-ball practice, I get really good at being quiet and blending in.

Speaker 20 I stop singing at church.

Speaker 14 I hide all the parts of me that are different, even if that means disowning my heritage, not speaking up, not having my own opinions.

Speaker 19 Eventually, I leave Iowa to go to Boston for college, and I think, this will be a good time for me to find my true voice.

Speaker 21 It's college, right?

Speaker 19 But it turns out not to be so easy. One evening, I am watching my friends perform in the school's gospel choir concert, and I feel my soul just soaring with those harmonies and those lyrics.

Speaker 21 And I think, I would love to be on stage with them, creating this beautiful music.

Speaker 18 I want to join.

Speaker 21 I want to be a part of that community.

Speaker 19 But then the fear sets in.

Speaker 19 What if they put me with the baritones?

Speaker 22 Or what if I don't make the cut at all?

Speaker 21 I'm so ashamed of my deep voice that I don't even try out.

Speaker 20 When I find out a couple months later that our school funds traveling fellowships to go abroad for the summer, I apply immediately.

Speaker 16 I want to get as far away as possible.

Speaker 21 And I apply to go to China, not just because it's on the other side of the globe, but also because I wonder, will it feel more like home?

Speaker 21 I arrive in China and I'm supposed to be working in an orphanage for kids with special needs, but really I'm just escaping.

Speaker 14 I don't know the first thing about kids.

Speaker 19 On my first morning there, I wake up while it's still dark out and I board two different public buses that take me through the sprawling city of Naning near the border of Vietnam.

Speaker 15 And as I ride the bus, I look at the faces of the people around me.

Speaker 22 And it's incredible.

Speaker 11 They all look like me.

Speaker 19 They They look like they could be my mom or my dad, my cousins or my aunts. Being Chinese doesn't carry any baggage in China.

Speaker 19 And it feels like that just allows me to take more pride in who I am, in my culture, and in my heritage. And because I'm not using up all this energy trying to blend in, I feel free.

Speaker 22 I feel light.

Speaker 19 By the time I get to the orphanage, it's hot and it's humid. The orphanage is a big building with gleaming pink tile floors.

Speaker 15 And I'm assigned to a room of 30 children, ages 0 to 5. They're packed in tight rows of cribs.

Speaker 20 I look around at the room and there's not that many toys.

Speaker 15 And it turns out my glasses are a big hit.

Speaker 19 The kids love taking them off my face, trying them on, and passing them around.

Speaker 14 That first week there, I bond with two girls in particular, Bao Yen, who is four and has cerebral palsy, as we do her PT and her OT exercises.

Speaker 17 And I bond with Chun Yuan, who is just a baby, not even one.

Speaker 21 My colleagues find out that I play piano, so they rig up a keyboard for me in that room, and they have me do music therapy with the kids.

Speaker 19 I play piano for the children every afternoon.

Speaker 22 My colleagues want me to sing too, but I tell them, no, no, no, I don't sing.

Speaker 15 Because even though I feel freer here in China, my voice still feels like a liability.

Speaker 3 A few days later, my coworkers are at a staff meeting, and I'm alone in the room with all the kids.

Speaker 19 It's nap time,

Speaker 19 but they're mostly awake and crying in their cribs.

Speaker 20 And the only thing I can think of to do to soothe this room full of crying kids is to sing.

Speaker 20 I sing the only song that I know all the verses to,

Speaker 19 Amazing Grace.

Speaker 19 I walk around singing and I place my hand on each child

Speaker 11 and I cry.

Speaker 19 As I sing, the kids quiet down.

Speaker 15 They stop crying.

Speaker 16 Turns out they don't care that my voice is awkwardly deep.

Speaker 18 And they show me that when I sing in falsetto to try to be like everyone else, my voice gets all thin and weak and shaky.

Speaker 19 But when I sing in my natural register, yeah,

Speaker 20 my voice might be deep.

Speaker 19 It might be different, but it is rich and resonant and powerful.

Speaker 19 And that makes me feel invincible.

Speaker 9 that something I've been ashamed of my whole life can bring peace and comfort.

Speaker 19 So, when the kids ask me to keep singing that day, I do.

Speaker 19 And when they ask me to sing again the next day, I do.

Speaker 15 And every day for the rest of the summer, I sing to these kids and I sing for them.

Speaker 14 And I sing for myself:

Speaker 20 I once was lost, but now

Speaker 2 am found.

Speaker 18 Thank you.

Speaker 4 Kristen Huang lives in Cambridge, Massachusetts with her husband, three children, and pandemic puppy Fluffy.

Speaker 4 She's a primary care physician serving mainly Chinese immigrants and spends her free time hiking, reading, and since COVID-19, supervising remote school.

Speaker 4 Kristen and I talked about our experience in China and its lasting impact.

Speaker 4 I wondered what you were like returning to Boston. You know what I mean? How different were you than the kid that left that summer?

Speaker 26 I think part of the first part of the story was really struggling with my identity and where I fit in. And I think that spending that summer in China really freed me from

Speaker 26 wanting to, you know, categorize myself or pigeonhole myself into a certain category. I did not think about how I might feel going to China.

Speaker 26 I just kind of dove into it blindly, but it was, that part was very transformational

Speaker 26 in terms of being very anonymous in this large city in China and looking like everyone else.

Speaker 26 I feel like part of what I got that summer was feeling normal almost.

Speaker 26 Like I was not sticking out. I blended in and it was that that feeling was the first time I had ever experienced anything like it.

Speaker 2 And it that was also very freeing.

Speaker 27 And so when I came back to Boston, it was really more about how I can give of myself on behalf of others.

Speaker 26 So yeah, I think it gave me a different level of confidence in

Speaker 26 who I was and what I could use my voice to do.

Speaker 4 By the way, Kristen Huang still sings, now to her own children, one of whom is adopted and one of whom is named after one of the babies she cared for in the orphanage.

Speaker 4 To see photos of Kristen and her family, please visit themoth.org.

Speaker 4 When we return, a college student undertakes her mother's special recipe to cook for her roommates. And a seasoned firefighter faces one of his biggest fears.

Speaker 4 That's when the Moth Radio Hour continues.

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Speaker 4 This is the Moth Radio Hour from PRX. I'm Jodi Powell.
Back home in Jamaica, around domino tables, my brothers would sometimes decide to cook a late night meal. It's called to run a boat.

Speaker 4 It is always the most tasty, but as a child, you must have the will to stay awake. And let's just say, for dinner that late, the chef must deliver in service of friends.

Speaker 4 And that is the situation of our next teller. Kaylee Hudson told this on the Denver Story Slam stage with our media partners, K-U-N-C.

Speaker 3 Here's Kaylee.

Speaker 13 So my mom is a great cook. That was kind of wasted on us as kids when we insisted on a diet of frozen fish sticks, chicken nuggets, and peanut butter on taco shells.

Speaker 13 So, but as I got older in like high school and freshman year of college, and I expanded my palate to include vegetables and meat that did not come from a microwave, I realized this woman can cook.

Speaker 13 And so sophomore year of college, I go back down to school in South Carolina and I move into an apartment with two of my girlfriends I met freshman year.

Speaker 13 And so we just think, like, it's just so cool. Like my first time not living at my parents' house or in a dorm.
And we have a kitchen. And I decide, you know what?

Speaker 13 Like, like I am going to cook a meal for some of our friends that we haven't seen all summer as a welcome back kickoff to like sophomore year.

Speaker 13 I had never cooked a meal before that did not involve boiling water first and pasta and cheese. It's the only ingredients I really worked with.
I was a freshman in college before that.

Speaker 13 And so I invite them over and I was like, what am I going to make? Okay, well, My mom makes a really, one of my favorite things is a London broil. I was like, okay, I'm going to make a London broil.

Speaker 13 Okay, so I call mom. I was like, how I need to know exactly how you do this.
And she told me. And I followed it to a T.
Like I invited people over on Saturday night.

Speaker 13 Friday, it spent all day marinating in the fridge. And then Saturday morning, it goes in, you know, it goes in and start cooking all day.
And then I like just, it cleaned up and I had timed.

Speaker 13 I had salad. I had sides.
You have like a green. I googled, like, I had a green thing and something else too, I'm sure.
I had a dessert. Like, I had everything.

Speaker 13 And I'm just like, all right, like, yeah, I'm totally my mother's child, even though I look, act, talk, and everything else, like my dad, like, I got this for my mom.

Speaker 13 So, people come, and I time everything to end, like, right as people get there, too. So, like, I'm thinking, like, I'm hot stuff right now.

Speaker 13 So, people come over, and I'm like, oh, you know, welcome. Oh, you know, I'm just finishing up a few things.

Speaker 13 And I invite them over to come look as I reveal this beautifully cooked London royal, the like main entree.

Speaker 13 And I have them gather around, and we go and I pull it out and in front of us is an uncooked, raw, now room temperature slab of meat.

Speaker 13 Not cooked one bit.

Speaker 13 So we're all sit there and we stare for a few seconds, like, and then finally Caroline,

Speaker 13 sweet, sweet Caroline, says to me as gently as she can. I'm in South Carolina, so I'll put on the accent a little bit.

Speaker 13 As gently as she can to me, she says, well, Kaylee, why did you try to cook it in the drawer?

Speaker 8 And

Speaker 13 I tell her very matter-of-factly, oh no, that's a broiler.

Speaker 13 And someone else chimes in and is like, no, that's just the drawer where you like store the pans.

Speaker 13 And I'm like, oh, okay, I've got some dummies for friends. I'll educate someone else now.
No, yeah, you keep your pans in there when you're not using it as a broiler.

Speaker 8 Well,

Speaker 13 eventually I got, you know, there's some education that happens on my part.

Speaker 13 And I learned some ovens, that's just a drawer.

Speaker 13 So, but in my defense, I grew up, my mom's oven, the only one I'd ever really dealt with until this point, you know, it was, that was a broiler.

Speaker 13 And that's where you put the raw London broil in, you take a cooked one out, like at the end of the day.

Speaker 13 So

Speaker 13 luckily, We had just a few days before, we had met our like cute neighbors, like who has cute next door neighbors, like sophomore year of college. And so,

Speaker 13 one of them had gone to culinary school. So, of course, I'm like, I get to go see the cute neighbors.
I have to, okay, I have to ask for help, though, in the kitchen.

Speaker 13 So, I walk over there, and it's like, oh, hey, I don't remember me. Yeah, my friend tried to make a London broil in our oven, and I wasn't paying attention and didn't have a chance to tell her.

Speaker 13 They're like, that's a drawer.

Speaker 13 So

Speaker 13 that didn't hold very long. He was very quickly

Speaker 13 brought, the truth came out very quickly. But he came over, saved the day.
So we had a great little

Speaker 13 entree of something green, probably broccoli, and maybe some celery, who knows, and dessert and everything. And then we had our entree later.
He did save the day.

Speaker 13 And I have maybe tried to cook two real meals since. I'm going to be real talk right now.
This happened like 11 years ago, 12 years ago.

Speaker 13 But also,

Speaker 13 but you would think the most embarrassing part would be that, like, I spent a whole day, like, I had a whole day where I thought I was cooking a London broil in a drawer.

Speaker 13 But really, honestly, the part that was the hardest to come clean to my friends about was I told them, like, y'all,

Speaker 13 about halfway through the cook time, per like hours in, per my mom's instructions that I followed, I opened it up and I flipped it over.

Speaker 13 No idea. Thank you.

Speaker 4 Kaylee Hudson is the financial controller for an affordable housing non-profit in Colorado Springs.

Speaker 4 She says she enjoys karaoke, playing Ultimate Frisbee, keeping her partner entertained with hilarious dad jokes, and considering the consequences of her Gamecock football devotion.

Speaker 4 When I called Kaylee about this story, she said that she has come a long way since since and that she has recently acquired an Insin pot and has now gone full gourmet. Her friends can vouch for her.

Speaker 4 She also says she has advanced from googling how to dice bell peppers. However, 15 years later, she has not attempted another London broil.

Speaker 4 To see pictures of Kayleigh Hudson in the kitchen, please visit themoth.org and go to the extras.

Speaker 4 The next story comes to us from a Detroit Grand Slum where we partnered with WDET. It was held at the Senate Theater.
Here's Sergeant Sivad Johnson.

Speaker 23 About two years ago, I was going through some emails for work, and I ran across one that said join city of Detroit Toastmasters

Speaker 23 and I thought what the heck is a Toastmaster

Speaker 23 then I go maybe it's an organization of experts at browning bread in small slotted appliances

Speaker 9 or or

Speaker 23 or it's where they teach people how to create clever salutations before raising a glass or downing a shot of something.

Speaker 23 I'm nothing against you, toast lovers out there, but the latter appealed to me more. So I clicked it.

Speaker 23 Discover and develop your skills in public speaking. Public speaking? A no.

Speaker 23 See, I was that super shy kid that would dodge anything that would have me in the spotlight.

Speaker 23 I was a little bit better as an adult, but I still figured I would rather die or have my shins scraped with one of those carrot pillars

Speaker 23 than to speak in public.

Speaker 23 I was pretty comfortable in my own little world so I didn't do it but I was also going through a tough time in my life.

Speaker 23 My mom was losing a short battle with dementia.

Speaker 23 It had quickly taken her strong body,

Speaker 12 her cool, calming voice,

Speaker 23 her razor-sharp and beautiful mind.

Speaker 23 And it was devastating.

Speaker 23 But it proved to me that there are no guarantees in life.

Speaker 23 About two weeks later, I found that email again and opened it.

Speaker 23 I decided to go to the first meeting, you know, just to check it out.

Speaker 23 But I ended up joining the club.

Speaker 23 Now, initially, I didn't really participate until I thought why pay this money, show up, and not really give it a full go? So I did.

Speaker 23 A few months in, a request was made for some of the members to give a humorous speech.

Speaker 23 So I told one of a time that I tried this insane hot sauce. that completely destroyed me going in and coming out.

Speaker 23 But they picked me to represent the club in a competition.

Speaker 23 And I started thinking, no, wait, wait, here's that spotlight thing. I don't want to do it.

Speaker 23 But I nervously stepped into spotlight, and to my surprise, I won second place.

Speaker 23 And that sent me to the next round, and I took first.

Speaker 23 I started thinking, this is a setup, isn't it?

Speaker 23 I moved on another round, and I didn't place it all,

Speaker 23 but it was was okay.

Speaker 23 See, I discovered by stepping into the unknown, it was scary, but I kind of felt alive again.

Speaker 23 So I kept going to the meetings.

Speaker 23 And then I got a call from my sister.

Speaker 23 A while back, she and her husband had moved mom in with their family to take care of her. But things were really, really bad now.

Speaker 23 Through intense fear, I hopped a plane with my brother and the three of us sat by her side consoling her and each other until she transitioned.

Speaker 23 I love you, mom.

Speaker 23 For life,

Speaker 9 for love,

Speaker 23 for everything, I thank you.

Speaker 23 There was a fuzziness and an anxiousness to my world after that.

Speaker 23 So I decided to embark on a year of yes. and vowed to try new things, almost anything, without second-guessing it or overthinking overthinking it.

Speaker 23 And I wanted to see what's on the other side of the unknown.

Speaker 23 It led to me delivering a keynote speech, talking to students in schools, jumping out of a perfectly good airplane

Speaker 23 that was in the air, by the way,

Speaker 23 and taking daily cold showers to jumpstart my mornings.

Speaker 23 And then I got a chance to share a story with another organization whose logo was this small, delicate bug that flutters around at night. Maybe you've heard of them?

Speaker 23 Well, I hadn't, but I said yes anyway.

Speaker 23 Do you know, two days before this event, I find out there will be 1,800 people in attendance.

Speaker 23 I'm like, what?

Speaker 23 Okay, I probably should research a little bit before saying yes to some things.

Speaker 23 But I stepped on stage with four of the storytellers that night in a beautiful theater.

Speaker 23 And my dad was my plus one.

Speaker 23 It was incredible to look out there and see him.

Speaker 23 And I felt mom's presence as I spoke on that stage that night. And I feel it again tonight.

Speaker 23 I realized that

Speaker 23 there are no guarantees in life, and

Speaker 23 it's been a journey. You never know what you're going to get.

Speaker 23 I realized that stepping out of my comfort zone was very important.

Speaker 23 And I don't know what stepping into these new territories will bring, but I do know a couple of things. It'll be more enlightening and more expanding with each yes.

Speaker 23 Plus, it'll make for better stories. Thank you.

Speaker 4 That was Sergeant Sivad Johnson. In addition to being a public speaker and a 26-year veteran of the Detroit Fire Department, Sivad is also a true hero.

Speaker 4 Tragically, he died on August 21st, 2020, after rescuing three young girls from drowning in the Detroit River. Sivad hails from a rich lineage of firefighters.

Speaker 4 His father is now retired and his brother Jamal still serves in the Detroit Fire Department. When we heard the news about Sivad's passing, we were devastated.

Speaker 4 It took me back to the last time we saw him.

Speaker 4 We sat outside a restaurant in Flint, Michigan, and as the sun set, he talked about his two daughters and with the biggest smile on his face, said how much he wanted to be everything to them and for them.

Speaker 4 Sivad was a special member of our slum community in Detroit, and he left a lasting impression on the storytelling world.

Speaker 4 Sivad's book will be released posthumously titled Becoming a Diamond, the Strongest, Most Valuable Version of You.

Speaker 4 To see some images of Sivad Johnson skydiving and with his daughters, please visit themoth.org and go to extras.

Speaker 4 Coming up, a small act of kindness leads to something big. That's when the moth radio hour continues.

Speaker 28 The Moth Radio Hour is produced by Atlantic Public Media in Woods Hole, Massachusetts, and presented by PRX.

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Speaker 4 I sometimes think of in service of like an extended hand.

Speaker 4 In my neighborhood in Harlem, I hear all the time people saying, Good looking out when you pick the mail up, or you hold the door so they can bring all the laundry in, or just generally keeping someone in mind.

Speaker 4 In our next story, a scientist reminds us that sometimes we all need help along the way.

Speaker 4 Dr. Mary Claire King told this in New York City in a show we did in partnership with the World Science Festival.
Here's Dr. King live at the moth.

Speaker 25 The week of April Fool's Day of 1981 began badly.

Speaker 25 That Sunday night, my husband told me he was leaving me.

Speaker 25 He had fallen in love with one of his graduate students

Speaker 25 and they were headed back to the tropics the next day.

Speaker 25 I was completely devastated. It was totally unexpected.
33 years later, I still don't know what to say about it.

Speaker 25 I was just beside myself.

Speaker 25 He gave me a new vacuum cleaner to soften the blows.

Speaker 25 It was, of course, the middle of spring quarter at Berkeley, so the next morning I had my class, as usual, and I had to either go teach it or explain why not. It was far easier to go teach it.

Speaker 25 So I dropped off Emily, who was five and three quarters at the time, at kindergarten, along with her faithful Aussie, her Australian shepherd, who went everywhere with her,

Speaker 25 headed down to school, taught my class. And I was leaving my class, must have been around 9:30, and my department chairman caught up with me and he said, Come into my office.

Speaker 25 I said, Fine, and I had hoped to escape. Went into his office and he said, I just wanted to tell you, I've just learned you've been awarded tenure.

Speaker 25 And of course, I burst into tears.

Speaker 25 Now this department chairman, bless him, was a gentleman a full generation older than me. He had three grown sons.
He had no daughters.

Speaker 25 He had certainly never had a young woman assistant professor in his charge before. And he took my shoulders and he stepped back and he said, no one's ever reacted like that before.

Speaker 25 And I said, sit down, sit down. He said, what's the matter? And I said, it's not the tenure.
it's not the tenure. It's that my husband told me last night he was leaving me.

Speaker 25 And he looked at me and he opened the drawer of his desk, he pulls out this huge bottle of Jack Daniels,

Speaker 25 pours me a half a glass of it, said,

Speaker 25 Drink this, you'll feel better.

Speaker 25 Monday morning at Berkeley.

Speaker 25 So I did, and I did.

Speaker 25 So

Speaker 25 I made it through the day, got sober,

Speaker 25 and around 3.30 headed back up the hill to pick up Emily at the end of school, and did so, and she hopped in the car, and

Speaker 25 Ernie, her dog hopped in the car, and we drove the rest of the way home. Got home, walked up the stairs to the house, opened the house, and it was absolute chaos.
Someone had broken in.

Speaker 25 Everything was completely trashed. And in retrospect, what must have happened,

Speaker 25 my then-husband had often worked at home, and whoever had been casing the neighborhood must have left our house outside because he was often there, and he was unpredictably there at different times.

Speaker 25 But that day, of course, he hadn't been there, and we were vulnerable, and we were robbed.

Speaker 25 So I called 911, and a young Berkeley police officer came up and went through the house, and of course I had no idea what...

Speaker 25 had been taken and what hadn't because my husband had actually taken many, many things with him Sunday night and I wasn't sure what should still be there or not.

Speaker 25 And I explained that to Officer Rodriguez, and he said,

Speaker 25 as you figure it out, make a list. And then he went upstairs with Emily to her room, and they opened the door of her room, and it 18 inches deep of just chaos.

Speaker 25 The bed had been pulled apart, curtains pulled down, drawers all dumped out. Emily, five and three-quarters, looked at Officer Rodriguez and said, I can't tell if the burglars were in here or not.

Speaker 25 And Officer Rodriguez, to his eternal credit, did not crack a smile. He handed her his card and said, young lady, if you discover that anything is missing, please give me a call.

Speaker 25 So now we're at Monday night.

Speaker 25 I was scheduled later that week to give a presentation in Washington, D.C. to the National Institutes of Health.
And the way this worked in those days was if you were a

Speaker 25 young professor and you were applying for the first time for a large grant, you were quite frequently asked to come back to NIH and give what was called a reverse site visit.

Speaker 25 Basically, explain what you planned to do, and then it would be decided if you were going to get what in my case was quite a substantial amount of money for the time over five years.

Speaker 25 And

Speaker 25 it was terribly important. I mean I had not done this before, it was brand new, it was going to be my first large grant on my own.

Speaker 25 The plan had been for Emily to stay with her dad and for my mom to come out arriving the next day, Tuesday, and to help out. And that had seemed, of course, at the time like a great plan.

Speaker 25 Obviously my mom didn't, who was living in Chicago, didn't know anything about the events of the previous 24 hours, so I thought

Speaker 25 I'll just wait and explain to her when she gets here.

Speaker 25 It seemed far better than calling her what by now was quite late in Chicago because of all the business with the burglary and the police and all that.

Speaker 25 So the next day we picked up my mom at San Francisco Airport and driving back to Berkeley, I explained to her what had happened on Sunday.

Speaker 25 And

Speaker 25 she was very, very upset. She said, I can't believe you've let this family come apart.
I can't believe this child will grow up without a father, which was never true and has never been true since.

Speaker 25 How could you do this? How could you not put your family first?

Speaker 25 And Emily is sitting there in the car. And I just cannot imagine.
I'm going to go talk to Rob. And I said, he's back in Costa Rica.

Speaker 25 This just can't be. And she became more and more and more agitated.
And by the time we got home to Berkeley, she was extremely agitated. Emily was terrified.

Speaker 25 And it was clearly not going to work for her to care for Emily. And after a couple of hours, my mom said, I'm going home.
I just can't imagine that this has happened.

Speaker 25 You must stay here and take care of your child. You can't imagine, how can you even think of running off to the East Coast at a time like this?

Speaker 25 So,

Speaker 25 to put it into context now, 33 years later, my father had died less than a year before. And just two months after this, my mother was diagnosed with epilepsy.

Speaker 25 So, in context, it was not as irrational as it seemed at the time. But at the time, of course, it was devastating.

Speaker 25 So, I said, okay,

Speaker 25 you're right. You should go home.
and I'll arrange for you to have a ticket to go home tomorrow. We'll take you out to the airport, and I'll cancel the trip.
So I called my mentor,

Speaker 25 who had been my postdoc advisor at UC San Francisco until just a couple of years before,

Speaker 25 and said,

Speaker 25 and he was already in Washington, D.C., by happenstance, at an oncology meeting. And I said, I'm not going to be able to come.
And I explained briefly what had happened. Of course, he knew me well.

Speaker 25 And he just listened to all this. He had grown daughters and said, look, Look, come.
And I said, I can't.

Speaker 25 And he said, bring Emily. He said, Emily and I know each other.
I'll sit with her while you're giving your presentation.

Speaker 25 He had grandchildren of his own. He said, it will be fine.
I said, she doesn't have a ticket. He said, as soon as we hang up the phone, I'm going to call the airline and get her a ticket.

Speaker 25 Pick up the ticket at the airport tomorrow when you take your mom back. It'll be on the same flight as yours.
Everything will be fine. And I said, you sure? And he said, yes.

Speaker 25 I have to call the airline airline now. Good night.
He hung up. So I got, in those days, it was very easy to rearrange tickets.

Speaker 25 I arranged for my mother to have the ticket to go back to Chicago. And if I remember correctly, her flight was, as it were, at 10 o'clock in the morning.

Speaker 25 So we left Berkeley in plenty of time in principle to get to San Francisco Airport. And of course, it was one of those days that the Bay Bridge was just totally locked up.

Speaker 25 It was just horrible, a horrible drive across. And what what should have been a drive of 45 minutes, an hour and 45 minutes to get there.

Speaker 25 So my mom's flight was about to leave in 15 minutes and Emily's and my flight was about to leave in 45 minutes and the line to pick up tickets, which I had mine, but of course I needed to pick up hers, was a long, long, long, long, long line.

Speaker 25 And of course we had our suitcases, my mom had her suitcase, and my mom was already fairly frail.

Speaker 25 So

Speaker 25 Emily and my mother and I were standing in the line

Speaker 25 and I said, Mom, can you make it down to your plane on your own? Bear in mind, there's no security in these days, but there, of course, are very long corridors.

Speaker 25 And she said, No.

Speaker 25 So, I said to Emily,

Speaker 25 I'm going to need to go with grandma down to her plane. And my mother shrieked, I'm not going to scream into the mic.
She shrieked, You can't leave that child here alone.

Speaker 25 And, you know, fair enough. And this

Speaker 25 and this unmistakable voice above and behind me said,

Speaker 25 Emily and I will

Speaker 9 be fine.

Speaker 25 And I turned around and I said,

Speaker 9 thank you.

Speaker 25 And my mother looked at me and said, you can't weave Emily with a total stranger.

Speaker 25 And I said, Mom, if you can't trust Joe DiMaggio, who can you trust?

Speaker 25 Joe DiMaggio looked at me, looked at my mother, gave Emily a huge grin, put out his hand and said, hi, Emily, I'm Joe.

Speaker 25 And Emily shook his hand and she said, hello, Joe, I'm Emily.

Speaker 25 And I said, mom, let's go.

Speaker 9 So

Speaker 25 we headed down the hall. I got my mother to the plane.
She got on the plane fine. I got back.
It was probably 20, 25 minutes by the time I got back.

Speaker 25 And by that time, Emily and Joe were all the way up at the front, chatting with each other by the counter. Joe DiMaggio had wrangled Emily's ticket for her.
She was holding her ticket.

Speaker 25 He was clearly waiting to get to his plane until I got back.

Speaker 25 So I looked at him and I said, thank you very much.

Speaker 25 And he said, my pleasure. He headed off down the hall.
He turned right. He gave me this huge salute and wave and a tremendous grin and went off to his own plane.

Speaker 25 Emily and I went to Washington, D.C. The interview went fine.
I got the grant and that was the beginning of the grant

Speaker 25 that now 33 years later has become the story of inherited breast cancer, and the beginning of the project that became VRCA1.

Speaker 6 Dr.

Speaker 4 Mary Clare King is the American Cancer Society professor in the Department of Medicine and the Department of Genome Sciences at the University of Washington in Seattle.

Speaker 4 She was the first to show that breast cancer is inherited in some families and as the result of mutations in the gene that she named BRCA1.

Speaker 4 Genetic testing based on her work has saved the lives of thousands of women. In 2016, she was awarded the National Medal of Science by President Obama.

Speaker 4 You can find these stories or others from the moth archive at themoth.org. And you can also find us on on social media or on Facebook and Twitter at themoth.

Speaker 4 And that's it this week for the Moth Radio Hour.

Speaker 4 Thank you for joining us for stories of service, in service, and by servers.

Speaker 4 What little deed will you serve up this week? Good looking out and walk good.

Speaker 28 Your host this hour was Jodi Powell. Jodi also directed the stories in the show along with Catherine Burns with additional Grand Slam coaching from Michelle Jolowski.

Speaker 28 The rest of the Moss directorial staff includes Sarah Haberman, Sarah Austin-Janess, Jennifer Hickson, and Meg Bowles. Production support from Emily Couch.

Speaker 28 Special shout out to our Detroit slam producer, Patricia Wheeler. Moth stories are true, as remembered and affirmed by the storytellers.
Our theme music is by The Drift.

Speaker 28 Other music in this hour from Blue Dot Sessions, Bill Frizzell, Louis Zong, Amazing Grace, Eric Friedlander, and Rat-Tat.

Speaker 28 You can find links to all the music we use at our website. The Moth Radio Hour is produced by me, Jay Allison, with Vicki Merrick at Atlantic Public Media in Woods Hole, Massachusetts.

Speaker 28 This hour was produced with funds from the National Endowment for the Arts. The Moth Radio Hour is presented by the Public Radio Exchange, PRX.org.

Speaker 28 For more about our podcast, for information on pitching us, your own story, and everything else, go to our website, themoth.org.

Speaker 1 The Moth is is supported by AstraZeneca. AstraZeneca is committed to spreading awareness of a condition called hereditary transthyroidin-mediated amyloidosis, or HATTR.

Speaker 1 This condition can cause polyneuropathy, like nerve pain or numbness, heart failure or irregular rhythm, and gastrointestinal issues.

Speaker 1 HATTR is often underdiagnosed and can be passed down to loved ones. Many of us have stories about family legacies passed down through generations.

Speaker 1 When I was five, my mother sewed me a classic clown costume, red and yellow with a pointy hat. It's since been worn by my sister, three cousins, and four of our children.

Speaker 1 I'm so happy this piece of my childhood lives on with no end in sight. Genetic conditions like HATTR shouldn't dominate our stories.

Speaker 1 Thanks to the efforts of AstraZeneca, there are treatment options so more patients can choose the legacies they share.

Speaker 1 This year, the Moth will partner with AstraZeneca to shine a light on the stories of those living with HATTR. Learn more at www.myattrroadmap.com.