How To Make Vulnerability Your Greatest Strength With Jay Glazer

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Welcome back, everyone, to the School of Greatness.

We've got the man, Jake Glazer, and I'm so glad you're here, man.

So grateful.

about what you're up to.

Last time I saw you was in my gym, Unbreakable, right?

You came in there.

You lifted every weight in the place.

We were never the same.

Exactly, yes.

Unbreakable.

Yeah.

Now you live around the corner.

Let's go, man.

We got to get you back in there.

I'm coming back in.

I promise you.

This place is great.

It's a great little community.

I'm excited, man.

You've had an amazing story.

And your whole book, Unbreakable, is about how you turn depression, anxiety into really motivation that you can accomplish things without feeling overwhelmed and stressed.

But you just told me before we started that you've had a panic attack since 2005 until now, every week.

Every week.

Every week.

How did you, now when I grew up, and I'm assuming when you grew up, I grew up in the Midwest, I was never able to talk about my feelings.

It was just like, suck it up.

You grew up in the Midwest.

I grew up in New Jersey.

It's just even harder for you.

But I was, we wouldn't allow to talk about, you know, how I felt, playing football, playing baseball, playing whatever.

It was just like, suck it up, keep going.

Yeah.

When did you feel like it was okay to talk about feeling of anxiety, stress, mental health?

When was this like a conversation you could have without being made fun of, laughed at, picked on, bullied, told you're a wussy or whatever it is?

Yeah, no, look, for me,

and you talked about the motivation part, right?

My, and I got it, I have depression, anxiety, ADD, elemental P, whatever you,

I got everything, you know?

But, you know, we talk about mental health, but who describes it?

Like, God bless me with the ability to communicate.

I want to be a service and, and give a words.

I was never,

I was never, I don't want to say this.

I'm going to say I was never ashamed because there's been shame.

Like I've been embarrassed to tell certain people and not others.

But I also don't make up the rules of depression and anxiety.

Right.

It's not my best friend's Michael Stray and I didn't really tell him until three months ago that I couldn't go out to dinner one night because I had a really bad attack.

It just got me.

And he's said, you want me to come over and talk?

I said, no.

Would you just get on the phone?

No.

He said, why have you never told me?

I said, man, I don't know like I just with you I felt embarrassed I don't know really but yet other people you didn't feel when I'm at Fox and the sky's falling Howie Long will say hey hey hey sky's not falling yes it is and so I talked to him about it and so right there I don't know I have no idea why right so why I came out and started talking about it is because I know I could help people give them words yeah and

you know my own misery um my own darkness like the rock wrote the forward yeah and he said man you're going to be a voice to get through the gray for a lot of us, us, him included, which is pretty wild, right?

So what does the gray mean to you?

The gray is that depression, anxiety.

So I'll tell you this.

I wake up every single morning and it hurts.

And it sucks.

Look, I get choked up talking about it because

when I talk about it sometimes, I feel bad for this guy.

Like, I don't know what it's like to wake up in the blue and like, you have a, man, your life is great.

And

my life is great.

Like, I'm I'm sitting here doing a podcast with you.

Yeah, yeah.

It's pretty awesome.

You got great friends.

You got a good business.

You're on TV.

You go, what do you have to be depressed about?

My life is great, but in between my ears sucks.

And it's just the only way I've ever, it's my earliest childhood memory.

Has it always sucked?

It's always sucked.

Really?

Always.

Earliest childhood memory.

And man, I was always in trouble because I was acting out.

But again, the motivation part,

when you live in this gray,

you have no

idea how to love yourself up from the inside out.

I don't feel worthy of being loved from the inside out.

Still today.

Oh, my God.

It's awful.

On a scale of one to 10, 10 being you love yourself

a lot.

A negative zero.

A negative.

Even today.

Man, it's awful.

Why is that?

Why do you think that is?

It's what it tells me.

I kind of call it,

I wrestle with my abuser.

Who's the abuser?

The depression, the anxiety.

There's roommates in my head that tell me these things that aren't true.

And like I said, I know it's logically, it's not true.

I know that.

And I've had to build up this persona on TV all these years to hide it.

So my friends all say Glazers' crazy.

And that's a badge of honor in football and fighting and those worlds.

But they never knew how much pain I was in.

And until now, and then I first talked about it a few years ago.

And I have a charity that I work with veterans, right?

MVP.

So I talk about it openly to them.

We're veterans and ex-athletes, right?

We've merged them together, MVP, merging veterans and players, and I see how much it connects with them.

And one day I was just,

I did an article somewhere where I was being this vulnerable, how I am in the huddle with them, with the rest of the world.

And the reaction was like, oh my God, you too, you have depression, anxiety.

I'm like, yeah, like I'm, I've never hid the crazy, if you will.

And I just saw how the reactions, I was like, I could really be of service to people.

Wow.

And that's where I wanted to be.

And I say the motivation part.

Because again, when you don't, when you don't have any self-worth or you don't have

these roommates in your head tell you what a bad person you are all the time, it forced me to, instead of just lay in bed and say I'm cashing to my chips, it's got me to do all this great stuff so I can get some love from the outside in.

Right.

But how do you get the love from the inside?

I'm working on it.

And

as I start doing things like this, I hear the effect I have on people.

And there are days that

I feel it.

I think I feel

I cry a lot now of,

and I think it's pride of being able to help people.

And like, man, the number of people that have reached out, and again, in the book, I really describe what it's like to have depression, anxiety, what it's like to have mental health issues.

A lot of this, a lot of this self-worth.

Or like I wake up every morning feeling that the sky is falling.

Every single day of my life, I wake up, sky's falling, the universe hates me, world's against me, and I've got to get myself out of that gray.

I've got to work myself out of it every single morning.

And there's different things I do.

And I see therapists.

I've tried a lot of meds.

How long have you been seeing therapists for?

Since I was about four.

Really?

My parents took me to the psychiatrist.

Like, I was a crazy one.

I'm like, sure.

Come on, gang.

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

So it's a consistent thing you do as therapy support.

Because I found therapy extremely helpful for me because I felt like I was in a lower number of the spectrum for many years of lacking self-worth, which I think a lot of people probably feel that growing up in a challenging situation.

And it's been extremely helpful for me to heal that inner child or that little

Lewis or the psychology part of myself.

I call Little Jason, that's my real name, yeah.

Exactly.

But you're big now.

You mean you're big.

I built that up.

I built up warriors.

The defense mechanism.

It's a defense mechanism.

When really the warrior side is not the strength of me.

The vulnerability is the strength of me.

That's where you make the biggest impact.

There you go.

Just like with this book and sharing vulnerably, you're able to touch more lives than being like...

Yeah.

bigger and stronger and tougher.

Yeah, there's only so much I could make people laugh on TV or, you know, give them inside information, right?

And it definitely is a distraction from, that's where we are.

We're escapism on TV.

But to really do something like this, and I was saying, I'm getting people now, I'm getting grandmothers reaching out saying, thank you.

For the first time in 80 years, I have the words to

tell my husband and kids and grandkids what I've been going through.

Wow.

Or

girl dads.

saying and now boy dads do like a lot of them saying well I don't have it and I'm like yeah I probably do.

But I didn't know how to connect with my child.

And now I do.

And the book is filled with expletives and F-bombs, this thing, because there's nothing pretty about what I'm talking about.

And so if you don't like curse words, and man, overlook it.

Or that's my, that's, that's who I am.

I just want to be authentic.

Of course.

And that's how I talk.

But I have a lot of them saying, I didn't know how to connect with my son or daughter.

And now I do.

got the books to read together or to just say, okay, now I know what they're going through.

So, when they wake up in the morning, again, I wake up in the morning every day of my life in the gray, it's never blue, and I've got to make that decision to get myself out of bed.

And once I make that decision, I decide I'm going to be relentless in everything I do.

Wow, like I'm just not going to let this thing win, but it's a it affects me physically too.

Like, it's um, when it does it feel like a weight, it feels like these chains, yeah.

So it's both, so it feels like these.

I wrote in the book, like it was almost like these heavy chains are pulling my soul down.

Oh,

and it's heavy.

It hurts.

But when I'm having really bad days, like this past weekend, Saturday night, I woke up, three o'clock in the morning.

And it normally doesn't wake me up in the middle of the night.

But man, a beast got out of the box and it kicked my butt.

And when that happens, I feel it behind my rib cage.

It feels like I'm having a heart attack.

The left side of my gut, it's like, man, I get a gut punch right here.

Oh, man, yeah.

And my joints joints ache like I just got out of a fight, a fight in the rain, like a 50-round boxing match.

So there's a physical-visceral reaction for me.

I've got to, and that's why I wrote the book too, to get give people ways to get out of it, at least the ways I've used to get out of it.

And I got to do it every single day of my life.

So, what have been the strategies to get out of it?

Therapy, working out?

The three tempos I put in here is one,

have a team.

Oh, of course.

Can't do it alone.

No, absolutely.

But

we have teams teams all around us.

We may not realize it.

So I've always, like, you played football, right?

That's a team.

This crew right here is a team for you.

My dog is a team with me, right?

God's a team with me.

That one up there, you know.

There's, I have a little group.

So Fox Annabelle Sunday is a crew, right?

My unbreakable crew.

Unbreakable crew.

My gym crew, those are my team.

And like this weekend, when I was struggling,

I called a teammate to come over.

I called other teammates to let them know, man, today's just, it's a bad day.

Just to check in on you, make sure he's good.

I called Wayne.

Yeah.

I literally, like, he's my battle buddy on this.

Yeah.

Called him, dude.

Today's one of them freaking great is it, today hurts.

And he stepped away from filming his 90 shows.

And

hey, make sure he was there because I'm there for him.

And that's what teammates do.

It's not a, it's, it's give, give, right?

It's loyalty.

I've, I've gotten to where I am too out of loyalty.

So it's this loyalty factor.

Loyalty is a dying art, right?

It's a rare, rare art now.

And more need to do that, I think.

So I have these teams.

That's one.

Number two is being of service.

That's huge, man.

That's my MO right there.

Well, as I was, for everybody that I called this weekend to tell them I need help and, man, I'm struggling, I called the same number of people just to see how they were doing.

Right.

The same day or me before.

Same day.

Oh, yeah, yeah.

So if I called four people and say I'm struggling, I called another four.

Say, hey, checking in on you.

Checking in on you.

How you doing?

Yeah.

Being of service.

Because what happens when you're of service in that depressed, anxious, stressful state?

Does it feel like it helps you get out of the way?

Yeah, so I hump the blue.

Not focus on you, but focus on others.

And it's being of service.

And in the book, I give several ways that I've always,

look, my first 11 years of my career, I was making $9,700 a year living in New York City.

Was it with TV or with New York?

Yeah, when I was working at New York on TV for $450 a year.

Oh, man.

And I finally got a job at the New York Post for a whopping nine grand a year

trying to outwork the world, working 100-hour weeks, trying to be this reporter.

So I couldn't get like side jobs to help.

My electricity got turned off all the time.

You know, heat, all that, all the time get turned off.

And I just grinded for all those years.

You know, but even then, I figured out ways to be of service to whether it was just stopping talking to a homeless person.

I still to this day will go to the little 99 cent store with my son and go get toothbrush, toothpaste, handy wipes, bandaids, band aids, socks, soap, pat and pen, and gloves.

It's eight bucks.

And I put them in a bag and I hand them out to homeless.

So you don't have to be loaded to go be of service.

But also just calling somebody saying, just checking up on you, him and just telling you I love you.

That's being of service.

And

it's hard for the roommates in your head to tell you how bad you are when you are lifting somebody else up.

Absolutely.

So that's huge.

I'm so glad that's a strategy for you.

What's number three?

And by the way, therapists are part of the team also.

Absolutely.

And the third one is laughter.

That's what you do really well.

I laugh a lot.

I try.

The gray hates laughter.

And I do see blue when I'm laughing.

But I'll tell you this that most don't know.

And nobody knew until I wrote this.

Nobody knew.

Again, I've had a panic attack starting in 2005.

I was in Empty Raider Stadium doing a hit for Fox Neville Sunday.

And it's weird for me to have had one because because I'm like, I suck in calm, but I'm really, really good in chaos.

Yeah.

So chaos of TV for me, I feel scared.

You're in the zone there.

Yeah.

Great.

So I don't know why it happened, but it was 2005.

It was peaceful.

No one was there.

Nobody in the stadium but me.

And it stressed you out.

It stressed you out.

I don't know, but I've, but I've been on TV since 93.

Right.

So I don't know why 12 years in, it suddenly happened.

Wow.

But when I have an anxiety panic attack,

the walls cave in.

Wow.

My eyes start going like this.

My hands start shaking I start sweating I feel like I'm having a heart attack

hard to breathe

for the and I've had it it became habitual so it's now between my ears so every single time I had a little mini one when we sat down here before

and

it just became like habitual but they're not dangerous but for 10 years I didn't know that I was getting my heart checked out We didn't talk about panic attacks from 2005 to 2015, whatever.

Like, no one knew who it was.

That's why I'm trying to give these words for somebody to go, oh, that's what I have.

Okay, so you're not alone.

It's you're, a lot of us have them.

And it may not be every week.

And everybody out there also, like I'm clinical depression, anxiety, but we all have something now.

It's a harder world these days.

Social media makes it harder.

We just came through a pandemic where we had to.

isolate.

Worst thing we could ever do, right?

Right.

Especially if you're depressed.

Especially if, but we're all going to have something now.

Especially because we compare ourselves to everybody else.

It's filtered, filtered fraction of one second of one day.

And we think, and we feel left out.

And we think, man, I'm not successful.

Look what this person's doing.

Look at that person.

It's not real.

Or the bullying and hate we see on Twitter.

The human condition is not made to see so much a thousand times a second.

It's just not meant to.

Something's got to give.

So now I'm trying to lead us all through to start giving together and be kinder to each other.

But the laughter part, when you see me

force in a joke, the first segment of Fox, it's because I'm having a really bad one, really.

And that's why you tell the

joke.

So, if you see it in like, well, that didn't fit, I'm trying to get myself out of a panic attack, trying to get back in the zone and focus and present.

So, I'll, yeah, because I'm man, it's um, when I'm having this panic and anxiety attack, it's yeah, you're not, it's man, it's weird, it's like I'm not there.

Again, I'm having all this physical stuff, but it's like I'm over there, or some, it's just I'm not,

I don't know, it's I'm not there.

I'm, I am, I'm somewhere else, deep behind my eyes, somewhere else.

So, the quicker I can make you laugh or me laugh, I get out of it.

And it usually only lasts two, three minutes, right?

Maybe five and then it moves on.

Yeah, for the most part.

I've had ones at the Super Bowl a couple years ago lasted an hour and a half.

I have no memory of the first hour of our show.

Oh, my gosh.

How much does that suck?

That sucks.

Biggest show of my life.

100th anniversary of the NFL.

And

none of the guys knew I was experiencing this until this.

And And then Stra-Ann said, why don't you tell us?

I said, because I don't want to bring down your day on live TV.

You know, now,

if I have one when we're off the air, I'll say, hey, uh-oh, it's coming on.

And, you know, I'll tell,

I usually lean on Howie and Kurt Medifel out for that.

Or,

yeah, I'll be open about it now.

So I just won't suffer in silence anymore.

What's the, I mean, 2005 was the first time you started really having them, right?

What do you think was the shift from from not having them to having them in 20 2005 no idea and that's the thing it's like

not only that it's not like i had a great story that day um i remember it's d'Angelo hull and terrelines got in a fight on the field they had some others and they didn't talk to anybody but me so i'm like hey i got this great exclusive so i had great stuff nobody was in there it was actually really peaceful i have no idea why my abuser decided to step up that day I got no idea why I decided to step up the morning of the Super Bowl right before we're about to redo the Immaculate Reception with Terry Bradshaw and Franco Harris.

Like, are you kidding me, man?

Right, right.

Little Jason is dream of dreams.

Oh, my God.

I don't have any memory of it.

It wasn't until I got in the car with Jimmy Johnson and Kurt Menefe, where we started busting chops and laughing where I got through it.

After the fact, yeah.

Yeah, we were going to the next site.

Yeah.

We, again, we had a three or four hour pregame show, whatever it was.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Man.

I mean, you've worked with thousands.

By the way, that day, I just got to tell you this.

Yeah.

Because the laughter part, again, it's the 100th anniversary of the NFL, right?

Yes.

The centennial, the NFL.

We're standing on the feet, on the sideline, ball just kicks off.

It's Terry Bradshaw, Harry Long, me, Stray Hen,

Tony Gonzalez is standing over there, Kurt Menafie, Jimmy Josh, will stand there, and Terry Bradshaw, who is the funniest dude you'll ever meet, legit funny like that.

He says, you know what?

This 100th anniversary of the NFL thing.

This worked great.

This centennial, this thing went great.

We said, yeah, it was great.

And we did it all year long.

He said, great.

He said, should totally do this again next year.

We all went, What did you just say?

He literally was just like, Oh, I get it.

Yeah, I did.

100 years.

But I'm sorry to cut you off.

That's great, man.

That's the ADD part.

Cutting yourself up.

No, it's all good, man.

Side stories are classic.

You've trained, or you've worked with or have trained, and I've also just seen thousands of athletes and pro-athletes come through your facility and over the years train them.

What would you say is

the level of which the high-level athletes athletes face mental health, stress, and anxiety?

Or do you feel like most of them don't face that?

They all face it.

You can't be great and not have some crazy.

Like your work ethic,

it's not normal, right?

And that's good.

Like, I want us to embrace it.

Like I say, I'm messed up, but I'm good with my messed upness.

Look at the stuff you've done.

You're not normal.

I don't think, I think most of us aren't normal.

And what makes us not normal is we outwork the world, not by a little, by a lot.

You got to have,

you got to be off to put those hours in when no one's watching right right not just when everybody's watching it those hours when everybody else is when nobody's watching yeah but um

to be on that level right and i this is what i tell and anybody right you played arena ball

you playing football right is not who you are but what's behind your rib cage that got you to beat out millions and millions to beat you're a record holder in nca

that's one of one that that no one could ever take that from you and too many feel like, oh man, I didn't do enough or I didn't go here or I didn't go there.

Yeah, you did.

Like you playing the NFL or you playing arena ball is not who you are.

What's behind your rib cage that makes you so much different than everybody else?

That's who you are.

And that suddenly doesn't just go away.

It's always there.

Yeah.

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even you were telling me well i didn't do no no no you played arena ball dude i never got to that level i got paid to play

yeah most of the world didn't get to that level right you were you were

top level athlete in tacathlon right?

Just there's something different about you there.

We all have something different about us.

We got to find what that is.

For me, like, do I wish I could have played football?

Yeah.

I'm a five-foot-seven Jewish man.

It's not going to happen.

Right.

Your parents were like, let's just play some chess or something.

And then for me, I got into mixed martial arts early

because I actually, I felt like I belonged in a cage.

That's what led me to.

I feel like an animal.

I felt, but not only that, I felt like I belong there and I felt like I deserved to lose.

Really?

Yeah.

That's what my self-worth was.

Wow.

So that was the easiest place for me to kind of take beatings.

And it's not like my dad didn't beat me growing up or anything like that.

So it was just my self-worth.

And it wasn't until I started really, I started coaching.

Fox made me stop fighting in 2003 or four.

I only had two fights.

See, I just did it right there.

I only had two fights.

Right.

At least you fought.

But then, see?

You did it.

I started minimizing myself right there.

And that's what I'm trying to do.

You're talking about me too.

I only played the arena.

That's what I, that's, I was just getting, I knew about that.

Now I just did it, right?

I took those three steps up in and it did make me feel special because we were kind of like the island of misfit toys back then.

This is just pre-big new FC.

Yes, yes, yes.

And

it still makes me feel special from my physical scars from it.

So when Fox made me stop fighting, I learned how to start coaching guys.

And that's how it came to Bat War.

I opened up the gym unbreakable and I've coached a thousand southern NFL players, full teams.

Wrestle every single one of them.

Wow.

Get in there with every one of them.

Sure.

And like, it's, that's my, that's my own messed upness.

When I have a fight team, the roommates of my head talk a lot nicer to each other.

Yeah.

And so I've always bragged about these physical scars, even like internally, when I walk in a room, like, man, I've ruptured L4, L5, four times and L1, L2, twice from wrestling with Randy Couture and Chuck Liddell and Andrew Whitworth and Lane Johnson and this guy and that guy.

But we don't brag about our mental scars.

So that's what I'm trying to do now.

Man, it's time I give myself a break and learn how to brag about the stuff I've overcome mentally.

Right?

That's what we have to do.

What happens when we start to talk about it?

What happens to us physically, mentally, when we start to bring it out to the light as opposed to hide it and be shamed about it?

We don't have a secret anymore.

It's just this relief.

And I'll tell you this too: the fear of someone's going to tell us to suck it up or, oh, come on, man, just,

you know, you're being a wuss or whatever.

Yeah.

Every single person, 100% that I've opened up to about this, it's brought me closer together with them.

100%.

Vulnerability is the key to connection in my mind.

Yes.

I talk about this openly on my show, but when I was five, I was sexually abused by a man that I didn't know.

And for 25 years, I held on to the secret, the shame, because I thought to myself, if anyone knew this, no one would love me.

And so it was the shame that I held on to.

That's a lot.

It's a lot to overcome.

It's a lot, man.

And so it drove me to become bigger, faster, stronger, you know, protect myself, kind of like what you were talking about, building this defense mechanism.

But it left me feeling less connected to people emotionally because I wasn't able to tap into that vulnerability.

And it wasn't until about nine years ago, I started opening up.

And it was like this weight came off me.

And also, like you said, all my relationships got stronger.

All of them.

And how many people did you help?

Because they're like, dude, so many.

So many men started emailing me.

Good for you.

I wrote a book about it, the whole thing.

And it's like, that was my most downloaded podcast in 1,200 episodes.

Wow.

And it was the one that made the most impact when I talked about the journey for the first time.

And it's just like what you're doing now, it's helping so many people give a voice and give words, like you said, to what their challenges might be faced with in their head.

I'm curious.

Just kind of.

Yeah, go ahead.

So I know, look, it beyond sucked that happen to you.

Yeah.

It's the ultimate betrayal.

Yeah.

But if it didn't, like,

like, think think how many, think how many lives you saved because it did.

Yeah.

Right?

Yeah.

That one day,

you open up, think about,

like my co-author here, Sarah, I only chose her because she overcame cancer.

Wow.

And she didn't know why.

I sent over the last chapter about it and I said, I know it sucks.

You had cancer.

I know it.

But you came through that other side of that tunnel and it didn't break you.

And that's why I chose you.

I know it sucks.

Because you went through it.

You're going to save people's lives.

So that's the thing.

We've got to use our pain and the things that have happened to us to help others.

And I'm not saying it's ever going to be worth it, but

who knows the people's lives that you've saved and the good and great they go on to do.

Absolutely.

You never know.

You never know the ripple of the

pride.

Thanks for being proud to be here with you.

I appreciate it, man.

Thank you.

And I very strong.

I started talking about it.

Yeah, I don't know, I guess seven years ago, maybe seven, eight years ago.

And I remember feeling terrified because at the time, seven, eight years ago, I never saw any guys talking publicly about, especially who kind of looked like me, the front round athlete jock, opening up and talking about any of this stuff.

So I was so scared.

I was like, I'm going to lose my business.

No one's going to like me.

No one's going to fall, like, no one's going to be friends with me.

And it was the opposite.

It was kind of like.

It allowed me to connect with my audience even stronger.

And I think that's what you're doing as well, is showing a side of yourself that really connects people, your athletes,

proud of our scars.

Absolutely.

These are, no matter what happened to you, it's something you overcame.

Absolutely.

So we can look at it as something that happened to me.

That broke me or that.

Or something that I overcame.

So we have a girl named Andy Ward

who is, and I can talk about it because she talks about it.

She's a member of MVP.

She came into,

she's now, well.

She came into our MVP sessions.

There's an MVP up here.

We're in seven cities right now, but in LA, we train Unbreakable.

We take the combat vets and athletes, and we merge them together on Wednesday nights.

It's free to all of them.

And we train for about a half hour just to give that burn.

But then after we have these mental health talks and these huddles, and

man, they have the sexual trauma that they've opened up about

has been just, wow.

Well, it's probably healing for so many to talk about it and

release it.

Absolutely.

And every one of us is just, man, we got your back.

We are there for you.

Well, Andy,

for the first year and a half, Andy, we met Andy, she was homeless.

And I think she was living on the VA campus by then.

But Andy's, and she came in, she didn't say a word for the first year, just came in, didn't say anything.

And after a year, she's like, wow, these

these are brothers and sisters.

I could, it's a team, I could, a vulnerable team.

Wow.

And she finally, the stuff she's held on to, she finally opened up.

And

she was, she grew up in a cult.

She was

repeatedly,

repeatedly grown up by

her father.

She used the military to get away, and then she was

and then came back over here, homeless,

drugs, alcohol.

She is now my second highest ranking female executive at all.

Oh, my gosh.

It gives me chills.

She is.

So she talks about this now.

And last year, we had Josh Burris in, who's the CEO of GNC, and he was listening to a session.

She was open up.

She goes, guys, today is this anniversary of this, this, this.

And she starts opening up.

And she's like, for the first time, I have brothers who get my back.

I have men who get my back.

And Josh Burris is like, oh, my God, this person just said all this.

Oh, my God.

And he said, I'm donating a million dollars right now

to MVP.

And it was because this woman was so vulnerable and open with us, Andy.

And she's like, she went from homeless to our second highest ranking female executives.

And she works at Unbreakable 2.

She's amazing.

So

when you turn your,

we just had a Dallas chapter opening.

She went down there and spoke with me and Dan Quinn, who's a defense coordinator down there, and a bunch of us.

And Troy Aikman was there, and a bunch of people were there.

And Annie told her story.

And afterwards, I said, how do you feel?

And she said,

I think pretty cool.

And I said, you're the biggest rock star in this room right now.

Wow.

There are people.

And she goes, I actually am feeling it.

And she said, but you know what?

I deserve to.

It was my suffering.

I'm like, yeah, here you go.

But that's what I'm saying.

Like, we've all,

this isn't heaven where we live, right?

It's not going to be perfect.

We've all had really bad things happen to us.

We could overcome it, right?

And we could use it to motivate us, or we could let us just

let it beat us down.

And it's easier to let it beat us down, but that can't be the option that I want us to all take.

But it's more worth it overcoming it.

Absolutely.

Look how did you feel?

I know.

What was the biggest, the first thing you felt like you had to overcome early in life?

No, it was, it was, so i was tiny um

it was growing up in jersey being the smallest one in the room all the time you were getting picked on a lot

we not even yeah but not even picked on i wasn't yeah i just

i couldn't pipe i was you know i wrestled 101 pounds in high school right i was 101 right so kind of always kind of got left

I was a few years behind everybody.

So that was always hard.

But I was always kind of this in-your-face type of cat.

But it was in your face.

I knew I could only get a certain point.

In your face until you started.

Until they beat me up, yeah.

Until the guys who were 200, just like at on one-on-one.

But I've always been like a tough kid, but I couldn't really do a lot about it.

And I just also,

I just never felt loved growing up.

That was the hardest thing.

You never felt loved.

You never love you?

Yeah, and I just didn't, I just didn't feel it.

I just didn't.

Yeah, and then actually I would go upstairs at night.

I always get punished because I'd lash back out and I was always, I was afraid of the dark.

And I just started talking to God by myself.

Like,

yeah, just no one taught me, I just did.

And that's my choice to have faith.

I believe in a loving God and it was like my best friend parent.

And that's my choice.

It's not a hateful guy where I'm getting punished for everything, which is weird because I always feel like I deserve to be punished.

It's kind of odd.

Interesting.

I think that way.

What was the biggest lesson you learned growing up and who taught you that lesson?

Biggest lessons were from my dad.

Outwork the world and be loyal and your dreams will come true.

wow absolutely from your dad huh from my dad outwork the world and be loyal so loyalty was man it's always it's my brand that's cool and i have just worked my butt off my whole life to make sure

like i had i got a text from a navy seal buddy of mine the other day he said i had a dream the other night that man i was about to get jumped in these football stands and you were right behind me and he just said i was good because you were there And it's just like, it's just this loyalty.

And he goes, we all know you're there for us.

That's nice.

And I was like, that's, yeah, that fills me up.

But they know I am.

Like, drop of a dime.

If you're stranded anywhere in the world, you know to call me and I will drop everything for you.

That's pretty cool.

And I kind of view it,

I view everybody like, I'm going to be so loyal to them,

hoping it's going to sound a little morbid here.

So loyal that I'll end up being their pallbearer.

Wow.

Right.

That's as loyal as you get.

And if I can get 10 or 15% of my crew to to treat me back the same way, I got a pretty good little team around me.

And you got 15 pawberries for you, too.

Yeah, wow, man.

What was the biggest lesson your mom taught you?

Biggest lesson my mom taught me.

My mom, so I have a million, I have six careers I do at the same time.

My mom did the same thing growing up.

So she was like a stay-at-home mom, but she started all these businesses in the house.

And they ended up starting preschools for communicationally handicapped children.

So I worked at those my whole life growing.

And that's actually how I got diagnosed with ADD in 1989 through them.

It took me to, they had

one place over by Princeton University and they brought me in and this is 89.

So I got diagnosed with that.

I got put on Ritalin, which

talking about messing up your brain chemistry.

And then I have to go tell my teachers, hey, I got this new thing called ADD

and explain it.

And they're like, And I was like Ferris Bueller.

They're like, oh, yeah.

You know what?

You need to take a pill and step out of the room.

Yeah, whatever.

Right.

So, yeah, they didn't.

It was my first year of college or my first year.

I didn't get kicked out of college.

But, you know, I had to educate college professors.

Yeah.

And then I was also trying, and I've tried to do this and I've written a lot of this in the book.

Don't call it a learning disability.

What should we call it?

ADD.

It's also, they've decided to lump it in all together, ADD and ADHD.

Not like my kid has ADD and they call it ADHD.

He is not hyper at all.

Right.

So they kind of lump things in, but also like, man, when we're growing up and they say, oh, this kid has a learning disability, there's a negative connotation to it.

Absolutely.

We just don't learn like everybody else.

It's not a disability.

But I know the way I learn is way better than the way that teacher over there may learn or that coach over there.

We just didn't learn well in school format.

Yes.

We didn't learn their way.

Sports and in the world and we were able to connect with people and learn in other ways.

But if you brought them into a football meeting room and they couldn't pick up your playbook, would you call them disabled?

No.

They shouldn't call us disabled.

That's true.

Yep.

You're just not good at that thing.

Not good at that?

Yeah.

It's not disabled.

We're just, we don't pick that up.

We're not going to call you disabled because you can't pick up a playbook.

That's true.

And that, that would always hurt me a lot when they would say, yes.

And

I was a remedial English early.

And here I wrote a book.

I know I almost flunked out English my senior year.

My teacher, my senior year teacher, she was like, Lewis, you can't go to college if you don't finish high school English class.

And so she was great at just like tutoring me every day after class, like trying to help, trying to help me just get a passing grade so I could go play football.

Yeah.

Wow.

My parents got me a tutor every day.

Yeah, I mean, my class is like, I just didn't get it.

It's the worst, man.

It's hard to remember.

I would read like pages in a book and just have to keep rereading the same pages and be like, after an hour, you're like, this is pointless.

I'm going to fail anyways.

What's the point of doing this?

I skipped the reading comprehension part for my SATs.

Yeah.

So I was like, skipped it.

I knew I had no shot.

But clearly, I'm not learning disabled.

Clearly, it hasn't held me back from reaching my dreams.

I've accomplished my dreams.

So, you know, again, there are certain things I'm good at, certain things I'm not good at.

We all have that.

Let's not call us disabled in any way.

What's the three proudest moments of your life?

Three proudest moments.

That came to your mind, you know, obviously, if you have more time to think about, but what's the first thing that came to mind?

Three proudest moments from early childhood till now.

When I started getting comfortable the Giants for all those years, just broken and broke.

The first day I walked in that giant locker room in 1993, which is already four years into my career, finally got a break for that $450, which was like nothing.

But it was my first real job.

I walked in that giant locker room and I said, okay,

I have no education compared to everybody else in the area.

I have no, this is the mecca of, you know, television, sports, New York City.

I have no experience.

How could I be different?

And for me, I try and preach that to people.

Let's not be a face in the crowd.

Let's be the crowd.

Be your own crowd.

That's what stands out, right?

You're different.

Everybody, we're different.

So how could I be different?

So what'd you do?

So I said, number one, if these reporters here work, I said, I'll be the last dude standing.

So if they work 40 hours a week, I'm not going to outwork them by a little.

I'm not working by a lot, a lot.

So I'd work 100 hours a week.

And I had, I couldn't afford Subway.

to bus

to Giant Stadium and back every day.

So Michael Strahan drove me into New York City.

How'd you convince him to drive you?

Nobody talked to him for like, Michael didn't like mega tools for theory.

No one talked to him.

He got drafted to be the top pass rush of the Giants to replace Lawrence Taylor.

Lawrence Taylor is still on the team.

Michael has bad teeth and a speech impediment and comes from Germany.

Wasn't a good thing.

So no one talked to him.

And those other reporters didn't talk to me.

We met our first ever days on the job ever.

Wow.

And latched on each other.

And we just every day.

And what I would also do is I would get these other reporters.

So he would drop you off.

Every day of my life.

So I owe him a home.

I owe him a body $29,000 a month in Telfare.

And like, but Michael validated me to other players that you could trust this guy.

He's right, right?

But I also did the other thing I did is I said, okay, A, I'm not working by a lot.

B,

I'm not going to use my pen as a weapon.

You're not going to call, you know, talk bad about them.

Well, I'm just not going to, I'm not going to use my pen as a weapon.

Back then, it was.

everything splashed on the back page.

It was just bad, right?

I said, I'm going to start relationships.

I have more in common with these players than I do my fellow reporters.

So I'm going to start relationships.

It was so frowned upon back then.

Really?

Oh, my God, they used to kill me and Michael.

Now that's all they want to do is try to build relationships to get the story.

I started a different way of doing it.

So I had every scoop and every story.

But that's the smart thing.

Build a relationship, the scoops will come.

If you go for the one scoop, you burn yourself forever.

Short-sighted.

But I also, again, me needing a team.

Even though I was the reporter and they were the players and the coaches,

they're my team for my own mental health.

Like I lasted onto them.

I needed that.

So

it took me, again, overall 11 years to get a full-time job.

Wow.

But I just kept going.

I kept grinding.

And what I did too is I got those players that was covering and the coaches to see my plight.

Man, this guy's so broke, but he's the first one here by hours.

He's the last one here by hours.

We want to see him make it.

Like I got them to see my plight.

I collected more of a team around me to walk this walk together with me.

Finally, in 1999, I am on a

driving range on Randall's Island with Tiki Barber, the Giants running back.

And my agent is still with me, Maury Gostrand, who kind of got turned down by 20 agents.

I was just trying to build this team that it's not just me

doing this.

And he just happened to be home sick one day and saw me doing a free show on Channel 5 there.

And he's like, oh, this kid's good.

He calls me up and he says, hey, what are you doing?

I said, I'm playing golf with Tiki, a little driving wrench.

He said, okay.

And I get choked up here

because this is my moment.

There's the only time, there's a few times in life we really find out who we are.

This is one of them.

And he said, you can exhale.

And I said, what do you mean?

He said, we finally got you a full-time job.

Now, this is 11 years of, and let me back up.

Not only did I

outwork these guys, I was trying to get a job every week of my life.

I got rejected more than any human being you'll ever see in your life.

But that relentlessness I told you about of me having that depression, anxiety, I had to go for something bigger.

So I felt that love from the outside in so hard, I'm like, I'll be rejected over and over and over and over and over.

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I had this thing where actually every week, so for six days I got rejected, I covered the Giants, cover the NFL, grind it, grind it, grind.

It's exhausted, swimming upstream.

And again, I told you, I'm real spiritual.

I've read in a prayer book to the fourth commandment.

God commands you to take a day off and drink some wine.

So I'm trying to get a good time.

I take it literal.

Every week, I take one day and say, okay, whatever happened this past week, it's done.

It's over.

Like all the rejection, let it go.

It's over.

And I'm giving myself a day to heal.

One day.

And literally after that one day, I would look up to God and say, okay, God, I'm not asking you to get me this job.

I'm not asking you to help me win this interview.

And I think we do that too much, right?

I'm not asking you to get me money.

All I'm asking is you pick me up, brush me off, let's keep walking this walk together.

Yeah.

Right?

So I've never felt fully alone right wow that's beautiful it's and i and i didn't look at it as 11 an 11 year span of being rejected i looked at it as 11 years of one week periods interesting so it's much more easy to manage because i was like i've been going for a decade and nothing's happening i have a thing in here that says you never know what lies around next tuesday absolutely i was always hunting for that next tuesday when something happened so finally 11 years in that tuesday came wow so he said you can exhale and what did he say we got you a job he said you finally got a full-time job.

I said, with who?

He said, the NFL today on CBS.

They just got football back.

I said, he said, you're going to be their NFL insider.

I said, I'll take it.

And he said, don't you want to know how much it's for?

And I said, I don't give a.

It's more than what I'm making now, probably.

And here gets the choked up part.

I said, Maury,

this was my like validation.

When I walked in that giant locker room all those years later and I said, I will be the last dude standing.

This validated that.

Like all this stuff I've done, all the rejection, it validated it.

And I said to him, Before you tell me the salary, if it took me another 10 years to get this, I would have done it.

And it's, and it takes, and listen, it takes a lot out of you.

It does beat your soul down.

And it was for 50 grand a year, and it was the biggest thing that ever happened to me in my life.

Like, so that's a long story there, but 2005.

Is that what that was?

No, no, no, 99.

Oh, 99 when you got this.

2004.

2005.

I went to Fox.

Fox, I got you.

Four.

2004.

I went to Fox.

And then five years later, you got the Fox.

Yeah.

And that was more than 50K.

Well, what happened when I got the 50 grand from CBS?

And also, that internet thing came out, of course.

Which I think is going to take off.

You should invest in it now.

Yeah.

And I became the first minute-by-minute breaking news guy in America.

Me, John Clayton, who just passed away, and Len Pascarilli,

we were kind of battling out and no one did that back then.

So before us, there was no, it was geoded away from the newspapers the next day.

And before us, there was no crawl on the bottom of the screen.

So we started it.

And

so I got an extra 50 from CBS Sportsline to do that.

Nice.

And another 25 or 35 from local CBS to do the Jets Giants.

So I went from $9,750 a year to $135,000.

Yes.

Pretty good coin back then, too.

Oh, my God.

It was just...

99?

That's pretty good.

Yeah, yeah.

That's good money back there.

Yeah.

But again, what I realized is as I started moving up the ladder, and then Fox saw me from CBS, which obviously way better fit,

my wallet's not an antidepressant.

It's not an antidepressant.

What do you mean by that?

I thought when I made it big, big, big,

it was going to be rainbows and unicorns.

That's why I've worked so hard to, man, look where I am now.

Now, I've had a lot of those moments.

So it was definitely, there's two sides.

There's a lot that's better.

Like I've been broke and I've been unbreakable.

Right.

Right.

But when you're broke,

there was a lot of things like i had nothing to lose yeah so i didn't have that fear of losing stuff that anxiety now when you have all this you're so horrified you're gonna lose it really so you have more anxiety now than then i think so i think you're just petrified to lose it all the time it's like maybe that 2005 was when you went to fox yep and there was more to lose then well now as i've gotten to this level that's right yeah you know that oh more money more problems thing and yeah it's all different type of problems but i just think that yeah when you get when you work so hard and you finally do make it you're so afraid of losing

yeah you almost it's almost like fighting um not to lose instead of to win yeah so i've had to i've got to alter that i've had to make sure i recognize and just go and like hey just play for me yeah yeah just be me you know but it's look it's it's all and a lot of it too is like i don't think logically a lot because those remains in my head yeah don't like me to have joy like don't so anytime i want to enjoy something you don't deserve it you're not worthy of it So

I think that's part of it also.

I don't know if it's for everybody.

Sure.

It's part of it for me.

And listen, I'm a work in progress, man.

Yeah, of course.

We all are.

Yeah, I'm trying to learn to get there.

That's why I'm, you know, I keep doing things like this to hope that, okay, maybe this is the thing that's going to help finally get me to meet in the middle

where I could feel that worth from the inside out.

And it's like I know I'm worthy of being loved.

So here's the crazy part.

I know I'm worthy of it, but I don't feel like I deserve it.

Really?

No, it's probably the other way around.

I feel like I deserve it but i don't feel like i'm worthy of it that's that's it yeah if i could i'm kind of doing a little when was the time you felt the most loved

and this isn't good because this isn't real love but

like yeah when i would like would break huge stories in the nfl and everybody be like oh my gosh when again i was ahead of the game in this and it was like man i was the first one doing this is like on a different like i had the spy gear video That was a crazy time of my life that,

you know, that was, that was my second week in Fox, and that's the biggest scoop in the history of sports the actual video when the Patriots got caught you know filming the Jets coaches and cheating but you're asking me like the love that that's not a real love yeah I felt admired and people like oh my god this is like

you know this is this is different

amazing but the most loved I don't know the I don't know how to answer that question Yeah, I don't know how to answer that.

You have a son, right?

Love of the son or with friends or family.

I mean,

I don't know how to answer that.

When have you had the most love?

I don't know how to answer that.

Interesting.

Yeah, I don't like,

I enjoy being with my friends.

I love being with them.

You don't feel loved.

I don't feel.

And I always feel like

they're going to catch on soon to this fraud that I am because I'm, you know, I'm this terrible person inside.

And that's what tells you a lot.

Yeah, that's why you're

mask on.

Why do you think you're a terrible person?

That's what it tells me.

I don't know.

Yeah, yeah.

But but my mother asked me recently she said do you because she sees how exhausted i am from it it exhausts me yeah and

she said how do you and i told her how bad and i won't say to her how bad i do view myself and she's like what

she's like look at all the good you do i said i i know but

i i just don't feel that i deserve that right and

um or worthy of that And she said, it has to be exhausting.

And I said, so exhausting.

So I said, mom, when I don't get right back to you, that's why.

Like, I'm going through it, right?

Right, and

it's it is totally exhausting.

So, yet, all I want to do is be loved, and then people kind of reach out and love me.

I'm already so tired from

that, that was your one of the most proud moments, you said, yeah, when you got that phone call.

Yeah, what was the second and third most proud moments, would you say?

Man,

and it can be a big thing, it can be a small thing, it can be.

I would say,

when I first started MVP,

that was pretty cool.

That's pretty cool.

Having

come out of that say, like, man, thank you, you saved my life.

Yeah, that's that's got me a lot.

We have another employee named Denver Morse,

who's my, who's our national outreach director.

We met him.

He was living in a homeless shelter coming off his third suicide attempt.

Wow.

He's still,

first time he told him that, man, you you saved my life, like, oh my God, MVP saved my life.

And

those moments, now there's a lot of those.

Yeah, and those get me.

I have one

two days ago from one of our guys here.

Hey, brother, just checking in on you.

Hope you're doing well.

I'm coaching the weekend with a positive mindset.

Love you, brother.

Next time you look in the mirror, tell that guy thanks for saving my life.

Wow.

Tell that guy, thanks for saving my life.

Wow.

Grateful you have made this impact in the world.

See, I can't like, listen,

I'm a, you know, no one's questioning my manhood.

I could cry in a drop of time.

You know, I can sit there and be like, oh, Glazi's a wussy.

So, but let's think about that.

Me and Bill was just realistic.

It's pretty.

So these come in a lot.

So there's a lot of proud moments now.

And it's for me being of service to people.

That's pretty cool.

That's incredible, man.

It's pretty cool.

That's beautiful.

Wouldn't you see, I mean,

you've accomplished so much in the last, really last 20 years, I guess, 23 years since you, I call it 30 years since you started the journey for 11 years of going after it.

You're 22 now.

It looks fantastic, don't it?

It looks great, man.

And then, you know, getting the job, you know, the bigger job, and then on Fox and then Hall of Fame and TV and all these, you know, Unbreakable and all the thousands of athletes that you work with.

Don't forget bowlers.

That's one of my favorite shows.

Heck yeah, absolutely.

You had a great role in that show.

I know.

You're such a great-looking Jewish reporter.

Exactly.

And I didn't follow my my lines because I couldn't remember him.

So I just make it up and yeah, and I just messed with Dwayne.

So that's the whole thing.

Like,

that's actually like, we've been close for a while, but we really started having mental health talks way back then.

Really?

Yeah, we get real vulnerable to each other.

What's the biggest lesson DJ has taught you in the space of mental health and also in just life?

Man, he is, he saw me a couple weeks ago on TV promoting this, and he called.

He said, What's up?

I said, What do you mean?

He said, I saw you today.

He said, Yeah, he said, What's wrong?

And something was wrong.

I was going through with another, an issue.

And he saw it.

But the fact that he stepped away and saw that and he said, okay, I'm going to call you four times a day.

I got your brother.

And, but the biggest thing for him is,

man, he is like this authentic dude.

Same thing, though.

Like, that dude thinks he's going to be broke next week.

He literally thinks he's going to have seven bucks in his pocket again next week.

And for me, we're a special.

Here's the biggest star in the world.

And yet we call each other and send each other notes and lean on each other for mental health almost every day.

Wow.

Whether it's, when I had that anxiety attack the other night, I reached out to him, struggling, and

there was another issue I was going through.

Hey, how did you handle this?

And boom.

When I had the book too, again, he's like, you're going to be that voice of the gray for all of us.

And I'm going to put my team behind you also.

Wow.

It's going to help you.

It's going to help me.

It's going to help a lot of us.

It's going to help the next generation of Dwayne's and Jays out there and stuff.

So he's very selfless.

He's incredibly selfless.

And that's the biggest lesson I learned from him: you could be the biggest star in the world and

still be incredibly selfless.

Yeah.

Still just give, give, give.

And I think he does so much charity work and all this work he does for people.

Same thing.

He's trying to show himself I'm okay.

Like when you work so hard and you get all that rejection that he did or I did or you did, right?

He's showing up stream all those years.

It's exhausting.

It is.

So yeah, it takes, it beats down your soul a lot.

So we're there to love each other up, man.

It's just so crazy.

He became him, my little niece,

who looks like Sasquatch.

When did you first meet him?

Have you guys known each other for a while?

I did a movie with him called the Game Plan, a Disney movie, where I was just like, and I just started messing with him.

Again, the laughter part, I mess with everybody.

Yeah.

And it just kind of stood out.

Everybody else is like, and I was just, so when I go down and do ballers,

like he'd be over there with his team and then everybody else be over here and i'd go walking through and i'd be like where's sasquatch i can't work like this and i'd go through and you know he would sit there and he would like he'd have his lines and i'd be like don't say it like that he's like who are you telling how to act i'm like i got this what i do for a living he's like no you don't i'm just messing with him or i would change my lines they eventually had it went from scripts they said to like glazer scripts at least for my size to the just they just knew they just knew it was a bullet point yeah just say something i just wouldn't remember it and say and i was just being myself.

So I would mess with them all the time.

And we try and get a little, you know, me,

I run a fun locker room.

So I try and make it ranted and dirty and kind of shock value.

And they kept most of it.

That's great, man.

It was great.

You had a great little cameo in there every time I see you.

Yeah, I was like, I'm not sure.

I got five seasons of that.

It's pretty big, man.

Right?

It's pretty cool.

And it was like, that was, that's the, obviously, Fox and Neville Sunday for me every week is just incredible because that's our locker room.

Yeah, it's fun.

And we sit back there and watch games together and just

crush each other.

And there's six of us on the show, and there's 19 personalities and bracho and i have 11 of those so

but ballers was so much fun that's cool because i probably could i didn't care because i'm not an actor right so you're like i'm just gonna be myself yeah i'm not being john fire me i don't care

i can't care but i also know they're not firing me i got this guy i'm all right yeah

i'm okay that's amazing and he would just be like yeah they just keep rolling i would just so i mean i would say

Yeah, 90% of my stuff probably wasn't, it was supposed to be scripted.

I just didn't follow it.

That's amazing, man.

I'm really excited about people to get this book, Unbreakable, How I Turn My Depression and Anxiety into Motivation, and you can too.

This is powerful because I think a lot of people feel unmotivated when they have anxious thoughts, stress, depression, or just issues where they don't feel worthy, don't feel love, don't feel enough.

I know I faced a lot of that in my life, but I was.

What was your turning point?

Man, I was driven.

The thing is, I had a drive to prove everyone wrong about me.

So, everyone, you know, just being bottom of my class, special needs, picked on, being kind of tall.

You were the short kid.

I was this tall when I was like 11, but not this built.

So, I was like this goofy, kind of like big-eared, you know, big teeth.

Just they made fun of the appearance.

So, it wasn't until I really turned 16, 18, 20 where I started to fill out my body.

So, it's kind of like the opposite.

You know, I was tall, but I was made fun of being tall.

And so, I just remember many moments being made fun of, picked last and you know, on the playground, whatever it is for little sports.

And just being like, I'm going to prove everyone wrong who's made fun of me or who's doubted me.

Were you resentful to them?

Do you want to get back at them?

I just wanted to show them, look, I did something that they never thought I could do.

And it drove me to get incredible results.

And it gave me motivation, but it was a motivation out of

more anger and resentment than love and inspiration.

And so I would accomplish and achieve and then I transitioned from sports and then I played with the USA handball team for nine years, played on, you know, I don't know how your knees held up in that.

I know, right?

Are you kidding me?

But I was like, I'm going to do this in sports and then I did it in business.

But then I hit a turning point at 30, I'm 39 now, where I was like, I'm accomplishing and accomplishing and accomplishing, but I still don't feel lovable and I don't feel enough.

The turning point was facing the sexual abuse and talking about it and allowing myself to be vulnerable.

And that's where everything shifted because I was in such a competitive mindset.

I had to win at everything.

I had to be the number one and win at everything at everyone else's expense of being a loser.

And if I lost, then I was worthless.

I was not good enough.

Even if I broke, the day I broke the world record for the most yards in a game, we lost.

So I was beating myself up for days.

It was good quality though, because you lose, it's not.

Yeah, I won't lost, yeah.

Exactly.

But it was great quality.

Yeah, but it wasn't until I hit 30 and I started down a healing journey of therapy and lots of different stuff where I said,

it's not going to be about competition.

It's going to be about collaboration.

It's about how can I win and how can I get everyone else to win with me?

Yes.

And that collaborative, and I didn't know collaboration was a thing.

I knew teamwork was a thing, but not against someone else like collaboration.

So now it's just like, how can I win?

by lifting everyone else up.

How can I make you win?

How can I shine the light on you, put you on a platform, support your message, your mission to serve people, and in return, good things are going to happen.

You know, good things are going to happen to me.

As opposed to, I need to be the biggest show, the best show, the most successful in the world to make me feel good.

Instead, how can I serve the world

and I feel great?

And that's that give, give, right?

That loyalty I talked about, how it would be.

And that, you know, whenever we train football players, I've helped a lot of coaches kind of move up in the NFL ranks.

And that's why I have this loyalty.

But I always tell them, listen, I know I'm crazy.

If you follow along, man, we'll change your grandkids' lives.

Yeah.

Right.

So it's like, we'll lift you to such stuff, but it's not, we don't get anything out of it.

This is for you to change your kids.

And when I do see that, and this guy gets a head coaching job or makes a Pro Bowl or just, or starts getting up here where he can give back to charities that, again, when things happen to other people, you ask, so you.

Your question was, what's the best thing that's happened to me?

I don't see that.

If you said to me, what's made you feel the best out of of it, it's when something's happened to everybody else.

Like you're saying, you lift people up, then I have something tangible for me.

Man, this has happened.

That's happened.

I've walked this walk with this person.

I've helped this person overcome this.

They've gotten up here now.

That's, that's the key.

That's really the key to success.

Absolutely.

The best thing that's ever happened to me that I think at this moment was learning how to heal my heart.

Because my heart was in a prison for so long and it felt trapped and it felt painful and it felt tension and all these things.

And learning how to, and it's a journey.

It's not like it's one night, it's all better.

It's been like a journey of finding,

having more inner peace than I did stress.

Because it used to be all stress and anxiety and I couldn't sleep at night.

It would just be up all night thinking, worrying, stressed.

Learning how to find inner peace has been a game changer because I feel like I have more energy.

And look at.

It's hard to see right now that we live in a good world, right?

There's so much stuff.

However, look at two guys right here who are in sports who've talked now about sexual trauma, suicide, depression, anxiety,

cried a year.

So we are actually coming along a lot further in certain ways to make this world a better place.

Like, that's our only, it's kind of our only hope moving forward for this next generation.

Absolutely.

Right?

I think specifically for men who are holding on to trauma, I think in order for the world to heal and relationships to heal, I think men need to heal personally and start talking more like this.

And it's interesting because I thought, obviously, me being the center of dudeism with, you know, football and fighting and bowlers, I thought it was going to be a male-centric book.

And

it's majority female flights gotten it so they can, and they're saying hey, to their boyfriends or husbands, and they're all just like, hey, that's not me.

Yes, it's definitely you.

And that's why I want to, we got to get dudes together.

So, like, it's you, dude.

It's so you.

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Almost all 80% women bought it and try to give it to the men.

But this is the challenge that

we're going to face where women are going to hopefully bring this in and share with their guys more.

And this is why we got to continue to be a Trojan horse, horse, you know, talk about sports and do the rough and tough stuff, but slide in the vulnerability when we can, I think.

But it's, did you, were you able to make that, did it switch over it?

Or is it still?

Yeah, there's a long tail now where it's like, you got to tell me off here.

You got to tell me.

Yeah, yeah.

No, it's been great.

I was kind of shocked.

I thought it was just new, you know, but it's, but you like, I had dinner recently

and there was a couple that were friends with, and this dude's a big dude.

And his wife was sitting there with me, and his wife was like,

she was just telling me what, somebody said, oh, just James just wrote a book.

And she's like, and we just talked about how Miss Jose just committed suicide.

She was the most beautiful girl in the world.

Felt that lonely, that alone.

Right.

And this woman said to me, that's me, that's how I feel.

And I said, well, talk to your teammate.

He's right there.

And she said, he won't get it.

And I said, you deserve to have him understand what you're going through.

You deserve this.

At least,

right.

And she literally is saying that she wants, and I said, you need to.

And I call him over and I said, and she said, we have some homework.

And he said, I heard about his book.

And she said, I do need you to read a couple of these chapters of me.

So, like, that's good, man.

Yes, but that's exactly your part.

I mean, I took a woman to course.

And she's like, he won't get it.

Well, dudes need to start getting it.

Absolutely.

They need to start getting it.

They deserve to get it.

Their wives and girlfriends and their moms and dads and children, they deserve for them to get it.

But most importantly, the dudes themselves deserve it.

They deserve not to be in this kind of pain that we're talking about.

Absolutely.

I don't deserve this pain.

I didn't sign up for it.

I know.

Well,

you're working through it too.

It's just beautiful.

I could use it, man.

I've got two final questions for you.

Before I ask them, I want people to get a copy of the book, get it for your friends.

If you have a friend that maybe is feeling more stressed or anxious, get them a copy to really inspire them.

Follow you all over social media.

You're mostly on Instagram, right?

Is that the main place you're hanging out?

Instead of Twitter.

Twitter, you're a lot of Twitter.

Instagram, too.

My IG following sucks.

I don't know what I'm doing.

You can share more on Twitter.

Well, I used to break stories on Twitter all the time, but now I try not to look on social media because it's just

me now.

So false.

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You get to live as long as you want to live.

You get to accomplish everything.

You put out more books.

You're, you know, whatever you want to do, you do it.

Right.

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But you get to leave behind three lessons to the world.

Three things you know to be true.

And this is all we would have to remember you by.

What would you say would be those three lessons or three truths?

Vulnerability is true strength.

Ooh, yeah.

That's right out the gate.

Vulnerability is true strength.

The secret of success is outworking the world

and being loyal.

And

the last one would be love yourself up.

Yeah, we got to give ourselves a break.

Amen.

All right.

Learn to love yourself up.

All right, learn to love yourself up.

That's beautiful.

I want to, before I ask the final question, Jay, I want to acknowledge you for going on this journey.

I think it's really hard for men in general, but specifically a guy like you from Jersey in this world, kind of grown up, you know, before me, when this stuff wasn't even talked about, to be able to open up about it, write a book, pour your your heart out to the world and really share a lot of rough stuff that you're sharing here and the vulnerabilities at the platform that you have, I think it's really inspiring.

And you're allowing other men like you to be inspired to do the same with their communities, their families, their girlfriends, whatever it might be.

So I really acknowledge you for

doing the work, showing up, and being willing to not be perfect, not have it all figured out.

You know what I mean?

So it's a beautiful, it's a beautiful journey, man.

I'm really, I'm really excited for you.

And like I said, look, I'm trying to learn to love myself up.

I'm trying to learn to be loved because

that's all I want is to be loved and have that love, right?

And

I haven't felt worthy of it.

So far, it's gotten in the way of most of my, a lot of my relationships.

And now I think if I can, you know, again with this, the more I can do that, I could hopefully feel.

Feel that worthiness.

Yeah.

Then I'll have that happiness I've been kind of searching for.

Of course, man.

It's coming.

This is part of the process.

It's that journey where probably wasn't, I couldn't have recognized it years ago, but now that I'm talking about like this, this is the version of me that I do want

somebody else to be with and me to do with.

Absolutely.

That's beautiful, man.

Thank you, brother.

Final question.

What's your definition of greatness?

This is lifting somebody else up.

This isn't being cliche.

Like,

again,

it's not success and like a career.

No.

It's how you use whatever you ask for somebody else, but it's like

you see what some of the great, the great ones have done, but what they've done with their platform.

That's greatness.

If you just do it for yourself,

that's not greatness.

You've just done a lot of really good stuff.

You've accomplished some things, but it's not greatness.

Greatness when you lift everybody else up right.

Like, listen, I said it in Stray Hand's Hall of Fame speech.

I said, you know, being a great player, you're, you know, you're great.

But Hall of Famer, you lift up everybody else around you.

Yeah.

That's what greatness is, lifting up everybody else around you.

That's a great definition.

I always say that success is what you do for yourself.

Greatness is what you do for others.

Here we go.

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