My College Soccer Trauma

Speaker 1 Hi, Daddy Gang. So there is no new Call Her Daddy episode this week because

Speaker 1 I just officially released my documentary, Call Her Alex on Hulu. I cannot believe I'm finally getting to say that.
I'm feeling

Speaker 1 extremely proud and emotional, but

Speaker 1 if I'm being honest, I also feel

Speaker 1 nervous and scared.

Speaker 1 Most people obviously know me as the host of Call Her Daddy, right?

Speaker 1 But

Speaker 1 I realize in releasing this new documentary, the world

Speaker 1 is going to learn about the one thing I've never really talked about before,

Speaker 1 which is

Speaker 1 the

Speaker 1 years of traumatic sexual harassment I endured from my college soccer coach.

Speaker 1 It took me a decade to tell this story. And I'll be honest, even saying the words to you right now,

Speaker 1 I was sexually harassed by my college soccer coach. I still feel

Speaker 1 uneasy and uncomfortable and anxious with all of it.

Speaker 1 There is no right way to talk about it and open up about this.

Speaker 1 But if I have learned anything from Call Her Daddy, there is such

Speaker 1 power in conversation.

Speaker 1 So why now? You may be asking.

Speaker 1 Over two years ago, I went on my first live podcast tour, and I thought it would be fun to just have

Speaker 1 a documentary crew follow the journey. So I could share some of the chaotic behind-the-scenes moments along the way for anyone that couldn't come and enjoy.

Speaker 1 But the entire direction of the film changed after my opening tour stop in Boston.

Speaker 1 I

Speaker 1 had told the director that I wasn't sure I wanted to get into what happened to me in college in this documentary.

Speaker 1 I figured, let's keep it light, let's keep it fun, let's just approach it with a more positive energy.

Speaker 1 And she was obviously extremely supportive and understanding, but she did encourage me while we were in Boston,

Speaker 1 go back to BU, visit campus for the first time since I graduated, go back to the soccer field, and

Speaker 1 just see what came up for me.

Speaker 1 And the minute I stepped on that field,

Speaker 1 I felt so small.

Speaker 1 Money, power, status, followers, years of therapy, none of it mattered. I felt like I was 18 years old again, completely powerless with no voice.
And the minute I saw Nickerson Field, I

Speaker 1 broke down and I started sobbing. I didn't realize how much I had suppressed and how much I was still carrying with me.

Speaker 1 And I think I've hesitated to share my story for various reasons. I think the first obvious that it's really painful to talk about.

Speaker 1 And I think a part of me also feels

Speaker 1 embarrassed that this happened to me, the call her daddy girl.

Speaker 1 In coming forward, I was also afraid of retaliation.

Speaker 1 I also worried people would downplay or dismiss the severity of what I experienced because the abuse wasn't physical.

Speaker 1 And

Speaker 1 with a podcast that focuses on empowering women, I felt shame

Speaker 1 that my abuser happened to be a woman.

Speaker 1 And I was worried that

Speaker 1 sharing my story could quite literally undermine everything I stand for. Fuck the patriarchy, fuck misogyny.

Speaker 1 And so I kept going back and forth, back and forth to tell the world what happened, to not talk about it. What do I do?

Speaker 1 But then something happened where I immediately knew without a doubt that it was time for me to speak up.

Speaker 1 Towards the end of filming this documentary, new information came to light. I found out

Speaker 1 that other women

Speaker 1 had stepped onto that same field and experienced the same harassment I did.

Speaker 1 I discovered that the abuse and trauma I had been subjected to at Bost University was still actively happening on that campus in 2025, a decade after I left.

Speaker 1 And I spoke directly with one of the victims.

Speaker 1 Everything changed for me that day.

Speaker 1 And it really put in perspective that the harassment and abuse of power was and is so much bigger than me.

Speaker 1 It is systemic and it's happening everywhere.

Speaker 1 And so

Speaker 1 I realized

Speaker 1 that if a woman in my position who has power and a platform is still fearful, is still scared of speaking out about my own lived experience of sexual harassment.

Speaker 1 How the hell will any other woman feel safe and confident to come forward?

Speaker 1 Opening up about this in the documentary, yes, it is a way for me to share not only what I've endured, but what women continue to endure everywhere, every single day.

Speaker 1 So I'm here, Daddy Gang, today to say to any other victims, you are not alone.

Speaker 1 I see you. I believe you.

Speaker 1 And I stand with you.

Speaker 1 I

Speaker 1 know that this experience doesn't define me. And there are so many.
beautiful moments of my life that I also got to share over the course of filming this project.

Speaker 1 You will see parts of my wedding, my family, my closest friends. I'm

Speaker 1 showing it all.

Speaker 1 But it was extremely important for me to come on today and say just

Speaker 1 thank you, Daddy Gang, because I

Speaker 1 I wouldn't be able to heal and grow and be sitting on this fucking couch and release this type of documentary if I didn't have you. Literally, I wouldn't be here without all of you.

Speaker 1 So, thank you so much for always fucking supporting me. And I hope you know the support is mutual.

Speaker 1 So,

Speaker 1 with that said,

Speaker 1 I love you guys.

Speaker 1 Go watch Call Her Alex on Hulu.

Speaker 1 Love you. Bye.