Some Friendships Need to Go with Issa Rae

Speaker 1 Like the crisis would require an emergency session. Oh, my God.
Like, somebody's on a train. Yeah, flying.
You know, there's movement. And you're not going to deal with the crisis.

Speaker 1 Yeah, I was like, we're coming. We're coming.
It's a crisis. My friend's dog died.
We were all there at the house bringing her favorite snack. Like, this is

Speaker 1 took off work. This is a script.
That is something that she's been writing

Speaker 1 on television. Clay and doing a text.
Like, you know, she's not going to be good. Like,

Speaker 1 she doesn't need this right now, you know? Right, right. You know, what's so horrible about that is guys would be like, damn, yeah,

Speaker 1 that's not a crisis.

Speaker 1 Not a dog.

Speaker 1 Not a crisis. Sorry.

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Speaker 1 What? Where'd you get a dog?

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Oh, I like your, is that pink?

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Speaker 1 I don't have enough closet space. You know, you don't even need much closet space, but you're stepping out.
You're stepping out. Thank you.
What's new and exciting?

Speaker 1 Well, I got to tell you, while we're out here in L.A.,

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Speaker 1 you don't drive. I might.
No, no, I'm starting to drive. Really? Yeah, I can drive.
How's that? How's the Secret Service letting you you drive? Well, it's a secret. You could take me for a spin.

Speaker 1 They'll let me take you for a spin. Don't you remember when I came to visit you in Milwaukee and the boys wanted me to pick them up from school?

Speaker 1 And we did. And you tooled up in a motor cage.
In a motor cage in the pickup line. They were just like, meesh.
I was like, yeah, yeah.

Speaker 1 Four cars deep in the pickup line.

Speaker 1 That was so much fun. I'm sure their friends are like, what the heck?

Speaker 1 And then you roll down the window and it's you. They're like, me.

Speaker 1 I'm like,

Speaker 1 get in.

Speaker 1 And don't touch the friends. I do remember that.

Speaker 1 Oh, my goodness. But

Speaker 1 so we're talking about friendship today.

Speaker 1 Yeah.

Speaker 1 And people know by now that you and I are like, have been best friends since you were born. Yep, because it couldn't happen before then.
No, it could not happen before then. But

Speaker 1 my first question to you is, how many of your friends now were your friends when you were little?

Speaker 1 Like the little, little, I don't keep up, don't get a chance to keep up with the folks from little, little time. Although, as folks know, mom recently passed and a lot of people came to the funeral.

Speaker 1 And two of my girl girls from grammary school, the gores, Cam and Nikki, and they had a little sister,

Speaker 1 Gina, but they came to the funeral. And it was funny, we got a quick second to talk, but it was almost like I hadn't, I hadn't missed a minute with them.

Speaker 1 But so we vowed to keep together to keep in touch. But outside of childhood, I can say that I have at least

Speaker 1 almost at least one good friend or more from every aspect of my life. Okay.
So what I found is like one of you know, my best friend, roommate who you know, Angela from Princeton, she was my roommate.

Speaker 1 She's my girl. Always talk to her from law school.
My friend Verna just went to her house for lunch just the other day.

Speaker 1 She's in DC, you know, and then they're my mom friends because

Speaker 1 as I got married. But then even before that, that was Pam.
She was more of my professional friend

Speaker 1 when I was, when, when we were grown-ups and had jobs at law firms, and, you know, I could go on and on like that.

Speaker 1 And the other thing I made a point of, because one of the things that you said when Barack won and we got into the White House, you know, one of the things you were like, no new friends, this is it.

Speaker 1 And I was like,

Speaker 1 you know. I did say that.

Speaker 1 Yeah, you were kind of joking, but it was important for me in the normalcy of my life to be able to, or to keep my life life normal, even in those unusual circumstances, to continue to expand my friendships.

Speaker 1 So that's a long answer to say, yeah, I do.

Speaker 1 I keep making friends and I keep up with my friends. Right.
And this today's show is talking about differences with those friends and falling out of friendship with

Speaker 1 good friends. And

Speaker 1 I'm just thinking, see, guys are a little different. Guys are, their friendships are more transactional, right? What do you mean by that? Well, what I mean is

Speaker 1 after sort of grammar school and high school, where you're sort of friends with people because you're developing your group and your personality and your character, most of the time after that, you make friends out of the necessity of wanting to get something done, whether it's a business idea, a business venture, a sporting event.

Speaker 1 You've got four tickets to a game, and your significant other doesn't want to go. So, you, all right, I'm going to go to the next one.
But you just make a friend. It's like, okay, let's be friends.

Speaker 1 Come to the game. Guys do that.
Guys, that's why y'all are broken. We are not broken, but

Speaker 1 we don't go as deep. Yeah.

Speaker 1 So if something happens, we're not as hurt.

Speaker 1 Is that, are you, does that mean y'all scared? Is that what you're doing?

Speaker 1 Nobody said it was scared. It's just that.
No, my feelings hurt so i don't i can't know you it's a it's just a function of how we socialize with each other um and

Speaker 1 and

Speaker 1 like you i have all of my friends i could not talk to

Speaker 1 in a year or i could talk to every week and the relationship is

Speaker 1 mostly the same that's because y'all don't talk about nothing Well, we don't. You're right about that.

Speaker 1 It's hard to go deep. You know when we go deep is when it's too late.

Speaker 1 Deathbed. It's like, woo, or, you know, Bubba, I wish I had asked him about his family.

Speaker 1 We're getting a divorce. It's all right.
Yeah, and then there's some tragedy. It's like, why didn't you say

Speaker 1 anything?

Speaker 1 I didn't say anything because I didn't want to burden you and I was going to thug through it myself.

Speaker 1 But today's show, we're going to talk about, you know, sort of falling out of friendship with close friends. And we got company.
We do have company.

Speaker 1 And I I can't tell you how excited I am for this company because as I told her in the green room,

Speaker 1 I didn't watch rom-comish type shows. And my wife said, you got to watch this insecure.
And I'm like, I'm not watching it. And she said, you got to watch it.
It's good.

Speaker 1 And I said, I'm not watching it. And, and, and

Speaker 1 She said, you're, you're going to like it. I said, I'm not going to like it.

Speaker 1 She made me watch the first two episodes back to back because she was like on episode four.

Speaker 1 I was, I watched the first one. I was like, all right, it's not bad.
I watched the second one. And then I watched the third and the fourth because I was only going to watch the first two.
And I just.

Speaker 1 fell in love with this actress who then I had to do a little research and I found out she was a writer and she was now getting into the restaurant business and just an entrepreneur and a and a community folk, you know, yeah, kind of like y'all.

Speaker 1 Yeah, just in the community doing stuff for black folks, giving it giving it back, giving it back, and just so supremely talented. Let's bring on Issa Ray, Issa.
Watch him, watch him.

Speaker 1 I'm just meeting her for the first time.

Speaker 1 Oh,

Speaker 1 so happy to have you.

Speaker 1 She'll be okay.

Speaker 1 Welcome to the table. Thank you so much.
I was just nodding and

Speaker 1 back there. I had so many times I wanted to jump in, y'all.

Speaker 1 Seriously. Well, what's been going on? How are you?

Speaker 1 I'm doing really well.

Speaker 1 I'm out here still just writing. You mentioned a restaurant

Speaker 1 that is called Somerville that's in my neighborhood that I'm really excited about. What made you say, all right, I want to open up a restaurant? Is that a dream or was it just circumstantial?

Speaker 1 You know, it's twofold. I've always said if if I wasn't a writer,

Speaker 1 I'd be a bartender or a realist.

Speaker 1 I like the food environment. I love serving.
I love hosting. And there is a degree of that.
And I love eating out. And so since I was young, I've even

Speaker 1 played, like doing play dates with my brother and my little brother. Our play dates would be.
Restaurant. Restaurant.
Yes. And I would be the bossy restaurant owner.

Speaker 1 Sounds familiar. And then also,

Speaker 1 I remember having my birthday, my best friend and I have the same birthday. And it was like the 30-something birthday.
You Capricorn. I'm a Capricorn.

Speaker 1 Yes, you already know. 12th over here.
That's why we bossy. Yeah, I know.
I don't like saying that. I don't want to give my mother that satisfaction.
But we were just out.

Speaker 1 We always celebrate our birthday together. We went to dinner.

Speaker 1 And we were just like,

Speaker 1 let's go. Like, we're trying to go out.
And in your 30s, you're not trying to go to a club. You're trying to go to a place to lounge and have a good time.
It was so hard. We went to like

Speaker 1 so many different spots and it just wasn't the right vibe. It was just, and it infuriated me.
I was like, we are both from LA.

Speaker 1 We cannot find a spot with us that's just a good time that'll cater to us. And that was like my villain origin story.
I was like, I want to, I want that in my neighborhood. Man.

Speaker 1 Doing it with your little baby boss self. Were you going to say something?

Speaker 1 I wanted to find out because we talk about friendships and we will eventually read a letter from one of our listeners who's seeking advice around friendships.

Speaker 1 But something people ask me, you know, which applies to you is that as you've become Issa Ray,

Speaker 1 you know, how has that affected friendships for you? Or has it? You know, have you become more cautious?

Speaker 1 Have people come in and out of your life? Have you thought about it differently or felt like you needed to think about friendships differently, given your, you know, your ascent and who you become?

Speaker 1 I have been very lucky that I've had, you know, friends since high school who are because I'm from LA and

Speaker 1 there is a sense of this feeling like my job. Like I don't, I didn't come, I didn't move here to become.
myself. Yeah, I was already here and I grew up around this environment environment.

Speaker 1 And a lot of the people that I went to school with are my friends still.

Speaker 1 And even my name, my name is Joeisa Joke. That's how I grew up.
And so even the Isaree of it is like, those are people who don't really know me.

Speaker 1 And the people who are my friends, you know, call me by name or my nickname. And so there's such a distinct separation.

Speaker 1 But I've had, I've definitely had friendship breakups

Speaker 1 as a result, some as a result of working together

Speaker 1 as we both ascended, some as a result of not being able to handle the

Speaker 1 change in position, the time.

Speaker 1 Like I have, I have a friend who I thought I was going to be friends with forever, but she went through

Speaker 1 two major milestones,

Speaker 1 kind of traumatic milestones, really young. She got married when we were in college and divorced when none of my other friends had experienced those things.
And I didn't, as a friend,

Speaker 1 know how to handle that or have the capacity to handle that. And that was

Speaker 1 that was actually strike two, I think, on my part for her. Strike one was her father died when she was in college.
And that was, she was the first friend whose parent had passed away.

Speaker 1 And I felt like I wasn't equipped to like truly be there for her in the way that she needed me to. And that was around the time when I started like

Speaker 1 rising in my own career. And I felt like she never took my career seriously or my aspirations seriously.
So we fell apart and drifted apart.

Speaker 1 We tried to come together, but we were just in different places. And that was

Speaker 1 one of my most painful friendship breakups because it wasn't acknowledged

Speaker 1 in that way.

Speaker 1 But I haven't had any like,

Speaker 1 you're famous, I'm using you type things.

Speaker 1 Well, that's a perfect segue for our listener letter.

Speaker 1 It's somebody who fell out of favor with a friend. So, Natalie, are you ready to

Speaker 1 read us the letter?

Speaker 2 Let's do it.

Speaker 1 All right.

Speaker 1 Yes.

Speaker 2 Hi, Michelle and Craig. My name is Eva, and I'm 32 years old.
In my early 20s, I met my friend Kristen through a male friend of mine who she briefly dated.

Speaker 2 That relationship did not last, but Kristen and I stayed friends. If I'm being honest, though, my friendship with Kristen felt a little unbalanced from the start.

Speaker 2 I really like friendships to feel effortless, like both sides naturally want to spend time together, check in, show up for each other.

Speaker 2 But I noticed right away that Kristen wanted to make plans pretty often.

Speaker 2 I'm a people pleaser, and I had a hard time saying no to her invites when my schedule was already a little too busy with other friend hangs or dates.

Speaker 2 And when it came to my dating in particular, she had pretty strong opinions about what I was doing wrong.

Speaker 2 I am not perfect by any stretch, but I do have strong instincts and I like to trust my gut rather than take advice like this from friends. Still, over time, I really came to respect Kristen.

Speaker 2 She's incredibly thoughtful, and it's a pretty special thing to have someone so much in your corner.

Speaker 2 We started to go on day trips together, and I genuinely appreciated our quality time together over the years.

Speaker 2 Recently though, Kristen lost a close family member and when I sent a text checking in, I got an unexpected text back saying she wanted to stop communicating with me.

Speaker 2 She said people who were not nearly as close with her had been a lot more supportive. She felt the imbalance in our friendship and wanted it to be over.

Speaker 2 Honestly, I did not see this coming. I knew our friendship was complicated, but I felt like I was being myself and it was not enough.

Speaker 2 Ideally, I wanted to continue our friendship as it was, even if it wasn't innately easy or perfect. But now I'm worried I'm a bad friend.

Speaker 2 Adult friends are not family and they're not romantic partners, but they are people we love. And I did not enjoy hurting her, especially when I felt I was just being myself.

Speaker 2 How do you maintain healthy friendships if there is an imbalance in expectations? Is it possible? What do adult friends owe each other? Thanks for your thoughts, Eva.

Speaker 1 That took so many turns.

Speaker 1 Can I just say before we dig into this?

Speaker 1 Yeah. There would never be a guy that wrote a question like that.

Speaker 1 We just don't, it's not our thing. You know, I just, I can speak for me, but female friendships are complicated because we are, we go there.

Speaker 1 We are, you know, we, and we spend so much time playing out the sociology. I think women, and I don't want to generalize, but women more so, we are sociologists.

Speaker 1 I, I just find the interpersonal interactions of everyone, especially my friends, are fascinating to me.

Speaker 1 So when I'm with my friends, and this was true at all levels, we're never just going to throw a ball. You know, we're not just trying to finish a game.

Speaker 1 It's like, I want to know why, how, tell me more. What did that? Well, let's talk about that a little bit more.

Speaker 1 And in the process of that, you know each other inside and out, which is why some of these hurts, why it hurts so much. Absolutely.
Because, you know,

Speaker 1 and not every woman does this, but I know my friendships, all of them are deep and meaningful. And they don't always last, but

Speaker 1 because of that,

Speaker 1 you don't end it without the hurt. You know, it is complicated.
Yeah, there's a

Speaker 1 piece of you that you're giving so many of, I mean, so many of the women in my life know things that I just would never share with anyone that I've,

Speaker 1 as a closed off person, if I've opened up to you, that already means like you mean a lot to me and that I, that I see a future with you.

Speaker 1 And automatically, if I deem you as a friend, then that's like for life.

Speaker 1 And so the idea that that gets cut off for any reason, and especially if I'm culpable or if I felt betrayed by you, that is devastating.

Speaker 1 Even in hearing this letter, this woman felt like she was even hesitant to become this person's friend to begin with.

Speaker 1 And then ultimately was just like, oh, okay, I see the value in my life. But there was, there were tinges of selfishness there, just even in terms of how she saw the friendship.
But it still felt like

Speaker 1 she was,

Speaker 1 in any version of this, i don't know i don't think that she was willing to be a full friend to this woman is the way that i read it um and that's okay but you just have to be honest about that you can't right have it both ways

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Speaker 1 the biggest hurts that i've had in friendships and hurts is strong um

Speaker 1 when there

Speaker 1 when i didn't feel like there was emotional reciprocity right because

Speaker 1 you know the imbalance that she talks about that that's you know

Speaker 1 that's that that's always present right you know someone in every relationship is given a little more giving a little less You know, some people have more or less at a given time. I mean,

Speaker 1 people are complicated and flawed and all of us are. That is, has never been a problem for me, like the complicated nature of my friends, right?

Speaker 1 When I felt most, almost betrayed is when I felt like we're all at the table. giving, sharing, and you weren't.

Speaker 1 You were at the table, but it's sort of like, like, it wouldn't be, you know, probably one of the reasons when he went through his divorce, his first marriage, I didn't know what he was going through.

Speaker 1 There probably felt like a little emotional,

Speaker 1 you know,

Speaker 1 I felt emotionally robbed because it was like, you weren't telling me,

Speaker 1 you weren't telling me. And, you know, and maybe it's because I've what you didn't trust me.
You didn't trust yourself. See, she's still hot about it.
Can you tell me?

Speaker 1 Like, what I'm just using as an example in the table of

Speaker 1 for me, at least, that becomes more important,

Speaker 1 you know, and maybe it's because of who I am and trust. And, you know, when you, and I let people in.
So when I let people in, you're in. Yep.

Speaker 1 You know, and I, I don't have the time or the energy to have to second guess what I say to you or how I feel. I want to be at the table with my friends completely myself.

Speaker 1 But that means I'm assuming you are too.

Speaker 1 And if you're not, and in the case of Eva,

Speaker 1 maybe her friend didn't feel like she was fully there or maybe she wasn't.

Speaker 1 Well, it started out with the term imbalanced, which I just can't understand when it comes to friendship.

Speaker 1 Why?

Speaker 1 You really say, what's your problem? Because My friends are my friends. There's, you know,

Speaker 1 relationships ebb and flow. So it's rarely going to be where everybody's feelings are balanced at the same time.
So isn't life always out of balance?

Speaker 1 I think

Speaker 1 I don't disagree with that. But there is a, if, if you're, if you're always showing up, if you're always the one that's like checking in, if you're,

Speaker 1 even if you're always the one providing the tickets, that's fine. Like tickets to the games, I'm always the one with the tickets.

Speaker 1 If you find out your other friend has tickets and didn't invite you and you're not like, that's still, there's an imbalance like I'm always thinking of you first, but you're not thinking of me first.

Speaker 1 That's like that's the unhealthy imbalance where it's just okay, you're not going to show up for me in the same way that I show up for you. Or like, you're always at my house and I'm never at yours.

Speaker 1 Yeah. I mean, that, that, that's a problem.
You know, if I look, I don't mind hosting. I don't mind being, because oftentimes in my friend group, I am the one with tickets.
I am the one.

Speaker 1 I have the resources. I've got the, you know, I have more of the special, oh, guess what we can do? And there, there's a natural imbalance, but it's like

Speaker 1 you, if you never invite me on a trip, even if I can't go, or if you never plan a dinner, or whatever, even if it's just pizza, I know your effort is. Yes.

Speaker 1 Even if it's just pizza, like, girl, I know you like pizza and you invited me. This means a lot.

Speaker 1 You know, and I'm fine. I will meet you where you're at because I know that this is your love language.

Speaker 1 But you can tell when someone's kind of checked out of any kind of effort or that you, you don't rank as high on their, on their list of friends. Um,

Speaker 1 so what's your version of balanced in friendship? And you know, I guess with me and my friends, because I like you, I don't want to generalize

Speaker 1 as long as every now and then somebody else buys a round of drinks or

Speaker 1 it's lightweight. Uh-huh.

Speaker 1 You use tickets. That tickets is a great example.
Not everybody has the same means. So inviting me to a Lakers game is one thing.

Speaker 1 Or if I invite you to a Lakers game and you invite me to a high school game, that's equivalency. Yeah, I agree.
That's equivalency.

Speaker 1 But what I don't get about this relationship was that she knew it was imbalanced from the beginning. To your point, Issa, my friends and I don't, they don't roll that way.

Speaker 1 We're, we're more transactional. As long as we're getting something out of it, we feel okay.
We're just, we don't go as deep. And like you were saying, how I, you're, you're,

Speaker 1 it's sociology for women. It's not.
It's carpentry for men. You know, it's just.
It's shop. It's, it's, it's, uh, I didn't want to say gym, but it's, uh,

Speaker 1 we, we enjoy each other for surface level enjoyment. And if we need to go deep, we'll go deep.

Speaker 1 To what extent? So, like, even if I'm not getting your business, no, like for the divorce of it, right?

Speaker 1 We didn't get much. So for the divorce,

Speaker 1 I told her.

Speaker 1 We in your business. I told, like, I tell her everything.
Okay. But she left out.
The reason I didn't tell her was because I was hoping that it would work out.

Speaker 1 Because if it didn't work out and i got over it

Speaker 1 she would never get over it oh interesting

Speaker 1 so i was trying to save everybody's relationship now when i talk to my boys about it

Speaker 1 that's when i go deep

Speaker 1 you did go deep yeah so you actually brought up like this is the thing that i'm going through

Speaker 1 or did you did you bring up we're having problems and let's talk about or did you wait until

Speaker 1 we i like i said at the outset i waited until so that y'all you didn't go deep but but no see now see there's no timing to it i mean but there is

Speaker 1 so it was deep for me it was deep for me irrespective of the time just the mere fact that you told somebody the obvious

Speaker 1 you told your friends that it happened that it happened that

Speaker 1 it's happening that it's happening not that it and

Speaker 1 so when you were going through it right and it was hard who did you talk to i talked to two really good friends of mine.

Speaker 1 And we would go to a restaurant in Chicago on Friday after the market stopped trading. And we'd have cigars and

Speaker 1 margaritas.

Speaker 1 And it was three of us.

Speaker 1 And we had one chair in the middle. So it was whoever.
and we called it the chair of angst.

Speaker 1 So whoever was having trouble got to sit in the chair of angst and say, this is what i'm going through and for a while there i was in the chair of angst for like seven months because i was going through this okay and i wasn't ready to divulge it to my family because i didn't want if it if i could somehow kick save this thing that's there yeah i could tell them after the fact yeah you know well we had to work on it but everything's fine now but i know my family

Speaker 1 and if he's right about that is he right it's a sort of sort of right we would have been but you know you go you do what your family needs at the time you know there's there's there's no way we we wouldn't have gone through a recovery of things it would just have been good to know that before it was like everything's great and now everything is over that's how that's how they found out they found out so so it was like what

Speaker 1 how did you know it's not the sharpness of it i'm not saying it's the, it was the right thing to do. It was a plan.
That was my plan.

Speaker 1 But the thing that I like is that you did go deep with your friends.

Speaker 1 That's why I think we were confused because it sounded like you did to them what you did to no, what I was saying is we don't go deep until we need to go deep. Okay, well, that, but that's, you know,

Speaker 1 it's not like a friendship is, there's always something to dig into. But I find that in my friends, there's always

Speaker 1 going deep.

Speaker 1 There's always something because you talk about everything

Speaker 1 And

Speaker 1 there's just, there are things that you don't know affect you until you talk about it. It could be nothing.

Speaker 1 It could be talking about a TV show episode that then leads to like, oh, this happened to me. And this is how I was affected by it.
And there's just, and nothing is off limits.

Speaker 1 And that's the beauty of it is just, you get to explore everything freely with no judgment. And that's also the devastation of, oh, I don't have this safe space anymore.
You were this safe space.

Speaker 1 Or, and I didn't even see that it was a malicious space,

Speaker 1 which, you know, getting back to this letter, it's like this woman seemed like she was pouring her heart out to this, to Eva.

Speaker 1 And Eva was like, hit or miss. I'm not even sure.
And I don't even know if I like you, girl.

Speaker 1 But, oh, I guess I do like you, but it's too late. And so I think that that's, that's also a violation of just like, am I in your life or not? Do you like me or not? Are we, are we good or not?

Speaker 1 And now someone, something happened that's tragic. And I, I think you're one of the last people I heard from.
So maybe I need to be real about what this friendship actually was. Yeah.

Speaker 1 And I think Eva's asking, am I a bad friend? Right. I mean, I think, I think this situation is worth giving her some pause, you know, with maybe the other friends she is close with in real time.
Yeah.

Speaker 1 If she does have those and, you know, and this is what women do. Like this would have happened to me in one friendship and I would have gone to a set of friends to to say hey Hey

Speaker 1 this is what happened Am I messing up here

Speaker 1 right and the the crew would be they would dissect it. They would be IMO

Speaker 1 in real time, you know, and I I think you know with what I know

Speaker 1 What we understand from this letter I would tell Eva yeah girl you do need to think a little bit, you know think a little bit because

Speaker 1 it, you know, for somebody to go through something tragic and then end their letter with, I think this friendship is over because it's not giving me enough in this particular situation, she probably would check herself to say, you're right.

Speaker 1 I wasn't, I wasn't fully in this. I was ambivalent and I thought it was okay for me to be ambivalent here

Speaker 1 because it didn't mean the same thing to Eva as it did to the, to her friend.

Speaker 1 I have to say that I'm also guilty because part of this also triggered me in a way because I am guilty of, again, like you said, I am not a check-in everyday type of person. I'm a very much,

Speaker 1 when I'm here, it's all about you, but I don't check in as often as I should with friends. And

Speaker 1 I've been, I've been told that in the past and I've adjusted, but you just have to tell me, but it's not a natural instinct.

Speaker 1 And so with this, I understand like Eva being like, this is kind of a high maintenance friendship in a way where I

Speaker 1 can't I'm not going to be the same type of giving friend that you are to me but I will show up in the ways that I can if you need me I will always be there

Speaker 1 and so that is that's that would make me consider like oh am I am I a bad friend because I don't think I think about you but I might not text you to be like hey I just want to make sure you're okay but you should know that I would hope you would call me if you weren't okay and know that I would show up for you and be there for you.

Speaker 1 I'm just not the, I'm not considerate. Yeah.
I'm not a considerate friend in the way that I would like to be.

Speaker 1 That's a

Speaker 1 good pronouncement there. It's, it's true.
And it's like one of my biggest flaws because I'm just so work focused that I'm not like, I'll think about you, but not tell you that I'm thinking about you.

Speaker 1 Right. And that's fair.
But that's also part of friendship. Right.

Speaker 1 Because, you know, like you said, if you're honest, if your friends know who you are, if there's some transparency there, you know, I have friends like that in times when I've been that friend and the hope is that people will be like, girl, she must be going through something,

Speaker 1 you know, or she's busy or, you know,

Speaker 1 and that's when you feel the security of friendship because you can completely show up as yourself, flaws and all.

Speaker 1 The inconsiderate or the, you know, you got your friend group and it's like, well, Issa's not going to be the one to call because she just doesn't do that.

Speaker 1 You know, I'm not a great, you know, I don't, I, I don't call on a regular basis, but I tend to organize my friends more. For the same, like, I'm the one that's like, okay,

Speaker 1 let's think about this, or, you know, everybody come visit me here. And that was because of eight years also.
I mean, you, you know, it's hard.

Speaker 1 It was hard to reach me for eight years without a whole lot of goings on. And in order for me to maintain my friendships, I had to be more deliberate.
Yeah.

Speaker 1 And over the years, I've become the more deliberate one. And also, because of who I am, I think people just assume I don't want to bother you.
Yeah, same. You know,

Speaker 1 because I'm not going to bring these problems. I've had so many of my good friends who went through stuff and I'm like,

Speaker 1 you didn't tell me.

Speaker 1 I didn't want to bother you. And I, so that means I often have to bend over even more completely to check in.
So people know that when things are tough, do not not call me. Yeah.

Speaker 1 Because I'm mad at you. Because now I'm mad.

Speaker 1 Right. It's like, now I'm mad that you feel that happened.
I don't care that you go.

Speaker 1 Right, right. But you were going to say something before I cut you off.
No, no, no. That was great.

Speaker 1 I appreciate that. And I also appreciate now.
You see, she would have been mad when she said she wouldn't.

Speaker 1 It wouldn't have blasted. It would.
You know, Capricorns, we get mad, but it doesn't. You know, you know, absolutely not.
Yeah, no, you don't.

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Speaker 1 Can I ask you a question about the chair of angst?

Speaker 1 Did they ask you questions or was it more of like a venting space? Like

Speaker 1 was it an inquiry? Yeah.

Speaker 1 It was. It was all of the above because sometimes the person who was in the chair of angst just needed to vent.

Speaker 1 And in the venting, the other two would ask questions to find out, okay,

Speaker 1 is this really what's going on? Or is there anything we can do? Or what predicated this? And it was just, it was a give and take. It wasn't just a venting session, but

Speaker 1 it was,

Speaker 1 at least for me, it was liberating to be able to just have somebody to talk to about things that, you know, that were deep and private that I didn't, I wasn't ready to share with the

Speaker 1 whole world. That's dope.
But y'all had to make a whole construct with simple days with cigars and about margaritas and whatnot. That's how I say that.
Once you got the chair,

Speaker 1 no more questions. No more questions.
No more questions about my problems.

Speaker 1 Well, but see, and that's the other thing you can't do with women or with me and your sister. We don't let it go.
They don't let it go.

Speaker 1 You were never at a bar because now I'm calling you and going, okay, what happened at that time? What happened? Yeah.

Speaker 1 So not only do I have a sister, I have a wife, and which has helped me communicate, right?

Speaker 1 Because I say all the time, our relationship, the relationship with my wife, and the relationship with my daughter, who is now 28, I'm a better communicator, not just with women, but in general, because I get it.

Speaker 1 I get it. There are times when my wife wants to talk to me and I don't want to talk, but I have to be intentional about she needs this.

Speaker 1 And you need to. With my friends,

Speaker 1 I never, well,

Speaker 1 if I need it, I will go get it. But with my friends,

Speaker 1 we never get there like that. So a friend has never disappointed you?

Speaker 1 Because you don't have expectations. No, friends have disappointed, but it doesn't injure me as deeply.

Speaker 1 And if your next question is, do I approach them and say, hey, you really disappointed me? I have.

Speaker 1 And I think that's why we keep our friendship. And have you had that happen to you with one of your friends where they've approached you and said, Hey,

Speaker 1 this is, you just show up in this way, and I'm, I'm upset. I have

Speaker 1 not.

Speaker 1 Have you, have you? At the risk of sounding

Speaker 1 cocky, I have not. Oh, because you're a good, you're a good friend.
I keep eating this drawer. Because you're a good friend.

Speaker 1 I hope that I am. You seem like you're a good friend.
But it's

Speaker 1 still a sister. You have to be a good friend.

Speaker 1 But it's, it, it's, it doesn't have to be deep friendship. It can be just below the surface.
But I think you're, you, you allow people to just be comfortable with you.

Speaker 1 And I think that that, that is essential in a friendship. And you may not challenge them in a way.
But if a friendship isn't serving you, will you just

Speaker 1 ignore it and keep it going? Like keep them around. You'll never be like, hey, I kind of don't like hanging around.
You kind of get on my nerves.

Speaker 1 Yeah. So, this is a really good question.
And I haven't thought about this because,

Speaker 1 unlike my sister, I didn't make too many new friends as an adult.

Speaker 1 You know, after a certain period, I shouldn't say as an adult, sort of as I've gotten older. So, my friends are my friends and they're going to be my friends.

Speaker 1 And new people that I met meet that I haven't known for a long time who are friends, the shift to the right, and they don't make the shift to the right.

Speaker 1 We just don't communicate as much.

Speaker 1 I call that the slow ghost.

Speaker 1 She calls it the slow ghost. It doesn't, it doesn't.
It's not enough to have a conversation with because, you know, do you really care? So you go through the emotional energy. You just sort of

Speaker 1 let it

Speaker 1 die naturally.

Speaker 1 Quiet death.

Speaker 1 And which brings me to another point that you all didn't talk about, but it made me think about this, is that I

Speaker 1 don't mind being ghosted. Me neither.
I don't mind that.

Speaker 1 If it didn't matter.

Speaker 1 Yeah.

Speaker 1 If it didn't matter, it didn't matter. I'm not a surface.
But let's say I get the slow ghost, right? I get the slow ghost.

Speaker 1 And then a year later, the guy texts me and says, hey, I'm going to be in town, want to go get a drink. I'll be like, yeah, sure.

Speaker 1 And you all are laughing, but that is how we operate.

Speaker 1 That is how we operate.

Speaker 1 Just look at the guys in here all smiling trying not to get in trouble

Speaker 1 trying wait a minute

Speaker 1 no no i'm just like girl you gave me a reason thank you no you are done i had too many people i've messed with because there's nothing worse than like

Speaker 1 Like having

Speaker 1 sometimes you just don't have time and making a new friend who you're kind of not sure about and then you have to like make plans together if the slow ghost allows you to never speak to them again and never have to plan anything and it's it's fine.

Speaker 1 Ouch. But even with your friends, I'm sorry, your friends that you grew up with,

Speaker 1 inevitably, you guys

Speaker 1 like you, you grow up, you become who you're supposed to be, right? There are no friends that you've grown up with that you have where you're just like, I've outgrown them mentally, or they,

Speaker 1 you know, don't necessarily, we don't vibe the same anymore. There's never been that.
And that thought has never crossed me.

Speaker 1 the guys who like say grammar school people who were my friends i'm still in touch with and they've never since gray since grammar school since since high school first day of high school okay okay but your friends that you hold now your male friends is that to say that you've never even fought No, we've fought.

Speaker 1 Yeah. But it's

Speaker 1 not an emotional fight. There's no, I mean, I'm just like, I know his friends.
It's like, there's just, there's not a a lot going on. There's no emotional fight.

Speaker 1 You're talking about, I thought you're talking about like a fight. No, and that's not like guys to me, y'all will be like,

Speaker 1 like y'all will physically fight and be like, well, he the alpha. I'm the beta.
That's it. We're good for life.
Let's go have a beer. Yeah.

Speaker 1 And no, if I physically fight with my female friends, it's over. Well, you all don't physically fight.
No, but

Speaker 1 I get it. I get it.
But the emotional fights allow you to get closer or,

Speaker 1 you know, decide this isn't the right thing.

Speaker 1 Yeah, I just think it goes back to the level, you know, and again, this isn't true for everyone, but even just watching my brother, it's like, you know, your, your friends sort of hover around the surface and it's real, meaningful friendships, but they, they're, they're, they're just not as deep as the friendships I see among women.

Speaker 1 Until there is a crisis. Then we go deep.
Yeah, yeah. You know, it's, it's true.
People show up, go to the funeral, you know, all of that sort of stuff.

Speaker 1 Go straight to death. You know, but I mean,

Speaker 1 because that's what a crisis is for these superficial questions. It's got to be like a thing that's going to be a good thing.

Speaker 1 It could be something going on with their kids, or it could be a divorce, or it could be, you know, a car accident.

Speaker 1 Something super dire. Yeah.

Speaker 1 A crisis. But it's a crisis for women is just like every day.

Speaker 1 Don't do this like that. You know, look, I get it.
Oh, man. I'm it when I give it.
I'm going to give you an example because my husband doesn't fully understand it.

Speaker 1 And he's got great friends, friends that he has since high school. I know his friends, meaningful.

Speaker 1 But when I'm, when a girlfriend comes to visit, it's usually like, you got to stay for two days because it's going to take us so much time

Speaker 1 to check up, right? And we're not planning anything. We are going to sit right here and we will be here.

Speaker 1 Any rules? I've got, no, but it's not even a rule. It's just

Speaker 1 what we do. And this is what it's going to take.
You've got to stay for two days. I'll have one of my good girlfriends over spending the night, friends with Barack,

Speaker 1 love, all that.

Speaker 1 We sit on a couch.

Speaker 1 There's something in front of us, tea, crackers, move to wine, you know, but we get up at 10 a.m. And we start the check-in.

Speaker 1 And it begins with, first of all, girl, how you?

Speaker 1 You know, tell me about you. Now, now, then that's an hour, just sort of emotionally, mentally checking in, right? Hour two is like, okay, what about work?

Speaker 1 And tell me about, because we know all about it. Remember that HR person you were going to let go? What happened with that girl? She's still there? Oh, man.
What did she do next?

Speaker 1 And then you got to give an example of what she did. Now, now it's lunchtime, right? On day one.

Speaker 1 Now, Barack has come in. He's come out.
He's like, y'all still talking? He'll sit down for five minutes, be like, how are the boys?

Speaker 1 And then he gets up and

Speaker 1 you contribute to that thing.

Speaker 1 He just interrupted the time, you know.

Speaker 1 And then it's three o'clock, and he's like, Y'all still here? And it's like, We're just now getting on the kids.

Speaker 1 And with one girlfriend, we each have two kids. That's four kids.
That's like an hour per kid. Oh my gosh.
I haven't even gotten to this face yet. Well, that's

Speaker 1 48 hours.

Speaker 1 It's 48 hours because each kid has, you know, we know the issues and the things we've, you know, now now we're at dinner on day one right so this is what i'm saying and my husband is like how what are you all talking about all day and it's like we're not eat we're just scratching the surface and do you know that it's so oh my it feels so good

Speaker 1 after

Speaker 1 yes they leave it's just like there's no better feeling than like i just got oh i reconnected with my girl she knows everything i've been holding i was saving this story for her because only she would understand it

Speaker 1 Like, I can't tell, like, there's, there's friendship, there's even in my groups, there's my friend who,

Speaker 1 if I want to be mad at someone and if I want to not know that I'm wrong, I go to her because she's never gonna, she's never gonna tell me I'm wrong.

Speaker 1 It's always, yeah, girl, okay, who we right, she's an inner, you know, like, yeah, yeah, I need it. And then there's a friend that I go to where I'm just like, I need, I need to know the truth.

Speaker 1 Yes, I need to know the truth. I need to know that I'm not it and they're going to give it to me straight.

Speaker 1 And then there's just the loyal friend who's just like gonna listen and i can crap but everybody has a function in some way and they're just

Speaker 1 it's just it's cathartic it's so it's so beautiful and that's why i'm just

Speaker 1 and the flip side

Speaker 1 my husband right because he golfs and golfing takes as long as the first session of our you know it takes five hours to golf he'll golf with his buddies come back and be like how's x He's good.

Speaker 1 It's like, what'd y'all talk about? Nothing. And I was like, I will have heard like, like, somebody has cancer.
And I was like, how is X? Did you hear that they had cancer?

Speaker 1 He's like, no, we didn't talk about that. And I'm just like, what?

Speaker 1 You were golfing all day. And it never came up.
And it never came up. You never asked about our godson.
For example, you're with his father. How is he? I don't know.
I think he's good.

Speaker 1 It's like, what were you all doing? Sitting in a cart?

Speaker 1 Talking about, you know, and I'm like, literally nothing. Giving some information.

Speaker 1 And that's the difference because you'll be with each other all day, looking directly away from each other at a ball, right?

Speaker 1 Whereas when I'm with my friends, we are turned, we are physically turned in towards one another, feet off comfort. Sometimes we're touching, you know, their tears.

Speaker 1 It's like, and that can go on for hours. And once you do that, then your feelings are going to be hurt when you break up, or somebody's going to get mad.
I mean, with that level of kind of

Speaker 1 intimacy, I maintain

Speaker 1 that the chair of angst with me jimmy and victor is exactly the same thing it just doesn't take as long

Speaker 1 okay

Speaker 1 i don't know how you just get anything out of sitting in a chair forgetting because you're also not it also has to be

Speaker 1 around

Speaker 1 a crisis, right?

Speaker 1 You know, it does.

Speaker 1 It takes a crisis to get it going. This is also why women live longer, I think, than men, because we're getting a lot of that

Speaker 1 right. And not to take it there, but y'all leave it in here.
We do like the crisis would require an emergency session. Oh, my God.
Like, somebody's on a train, yeah, flying.

Speaker 1 You know, there's movement, and you're not going to deal with the crisis. Yeah, I was like, we're coming.
We're coming. It's a crisis.
My friend's dog died.

Speaker 1 We were all there at the house bringing her favorite snack. Like, this is

Speaker 1 took off work. This is a script.
That is something that Jesus is right.

Speaker 1 on television. Playing and doing a text, like, you know, she's not going to be good.
Like,

Speaker 1 she doesn't need this right now. You know? Right.
Right. You know, what's so horrible about that is guys would be like, damn.
Yeah.

Speaker 1 That's not a crisis.

Speaker 1 Obviously, not a prices. Sorry.

Speaker 1 Or send the dog emotion. Jeez, I didn't know you had a dog.

Speaker 1 What? Where'd you get a dog?

Speaker 1 Okay.

Speaker 1 We are bad. That is.

Speaker 1 What are my friends talking about how guys don't know how to express

Speaker 1 guys in text don't know how to express

Speaker 1 emotions and will use emojis like the wrong like ah y'all i lost my aunt dang fire emoji ghost emoji

Speaker 1 that's not what those feelings are you don't even understand the emoji feelings you're so disconnected from feelings

Speaker 1 i don't know what they are but

Speaker 1 I'm sick.

Speaker 1 So I don't know. But for your generation of emotions, you don't even know what fire is for.

Speaker 1 So, why do we have emotion OGs? They're literal. It's like

Speaker 1 hot dog. I'm hungry.
I want lunch.

Speaker 1 Fire is like, I don't want Eva to think we are not taking her issues seriously. Okay, yeah, I forgot about Eva.

Speaker 1 No, we almost

Speaker 1 lost the friend.

Speaker 1 Well,

Speaker 1 is it possible to

Speaker 1 set boundaries for sure in a friendship that's unbalanced?

Speaker 1 That's how I'm like, you have to be honest about like, hey, girl, like, I'm, I have a lot on my plate and I'm, that's hard to say. Yeah.

Speaker 1 Because I was, yeah, I was going to say, like, I just want to be a dinner friend.

Speaker 1 And I guess in those situations where I've been confronted about like, hey, because I have been, I feel like I give you more energy than I have just been like, I blamed it on work.

Speaker 1 I've blamed it on busy, but I haven't said, I don't want to devote the time to this.

Speaker 1 Saying that I have work is the excuse and they can choose to, to pleasantly ghost me. And I wouldn't be as affected.
The fact that Eva is actually affected by this is what's confusing me

Speaker 1 because

Speaker 1 you

Speaker 1 didn't dedicate the energy to want to be her friend.

Speaker 1 And I'd imagine that you do have a set of friends that are higher to your friends that like do get your time and energy, that you do consider those people, or you're just a loner and don't know how to make friends.

Speaker 1 And that's a whole different situation. But I don't, I'm confused by the loss because you had this person who cared about you and invested in you.

Speaker 1 That that is kind of selfish if you didn't feel the same way about them.

Speaker 1 So yeah,

Speaker 1 it's fair to set boundaries, but I think it starts with knowing, well, who do you want to be? How do you, how do you want to show up?

Speaker 1 You know, and the honesty first has to be within yourself. You know, I mean, I think both of us probably as Capricorns, we're probably a little more honest about who we are, what we want.

Speaker 1 And, you know, and even though women talk a lot, sometimes we don't, you know, we don't spend that time because we're pouring that energy out. Like, I'm, I'm, I understand you before I understand me.

Speaker 1 Yeah. Yeah.
You know, yes, yes. And it's, that's the nature of, you know,

Speaker 1 a lot of times women are giving or, you know,

Speaker 1 without opening themselves up because that's hard, you know, and maybe what I would say to Eva is maybe it's time for her to just, as she's asking, do some personal reflection about what does she want in friendship

Speaker 1 and how does she want to show up? How does she want to show up?

Speaker 1 Because if she's a loner and is somebody who doesn't want high maintenance friendships, she's at the age where it's okay for her to own that about herself. And make some friends with some guys.
Right.

Speaker 1 Or, or, you know, be okay,

Speaker 1 then understand that there will be times and then that she will get that response from friends. It's like, I thought we were this and we're not.
You hurt my feelings and it's over.

Speaker 1 Right. And not take it to heart.
If that's the kind of friend you are, because that's where you are in life. But if you don't want that to happen again,

Speaker 1 if that really does bother you, then you got to take stock about how you want to, how you need to show up for people. And what's, what's an example of that? How showing up? Is that just,

Speaker 1 I hear communication. I get that.
Yeah, but understanding who your friend is and what they need. Okay.
Like, you know, being a little more considerate about the other person and what they need.

Speaker 1 And, you know, just like you do with a loved one, you have to do in any relationship. Sometimes you do what they need, even if it's not what you need.

Speaker 1 And with friends, you don't have to do it every day like you do for your partner, your your life partner, but you do have to be aware, you know, and show up every now and then.

Speaker 1 And it sounds like Eva may not have shown up at all for this friend. And so you gotta, you know, you, you, you, you're gonna have to give people what they need

Speaker 1 to get at some point to get what you need. It's this, it's like friendship language.
What's your friend's friendship language? Is it time? Is it crisis management? Is it, you know,

Speaker 1 acts of service? Is it brutal honesty? Is it emotional vulnerability? I would say that that's my friendship language. I value people's honest emotional vulnerability.
That means a lot to me.

Speaker 1 But even hearing you say this,

Speaker 1 you also have to have the recognition

Speaker 1 that maybe you're also not compatible. Cause some of it, some friendships, the most beautiful friendships are just instinctive.
They're instinctual. Like you, you don't have to.
You don't have to try.

Speaker 1 You, you are the yin to the yang. You're, you fit in like puzzle pieces.

Speaker 1 And then there, there, you know, when there are missteps, you can talk about them comfortably without necessarily feeling like you're, you're offending. And

Speaker 1 this feels like very much like Eva had to try too hard and be something she wasn't. To be something that she wanted and that she didn't really want.

Speaker 1 And so I think considering that, and that goes back to being honest with yourself, but the best friendships I have, you haven't had to do all that.

Speaker 1 And the worst friendships I've had that have, I've silently ghosted or that have silently ghosted me, just it was hard to manage.

Speaker 1 Like there were just, there was always something and it felt uncomfortable. So yeah, being honest with yourself about that is, is crucial.
And how old is Eva again? Yeah, I was wondering that too. 32.

Speaker 1 32?

Speaker 1 Oh, yeah, this is when people start falling off.

Speaker 1 Your 30s is like when it

Speaker 1 whittles down to

Speaker 1 who's going to be there. And does she have kids? No.

Speaker 1 And it's going to whittle even more.

Speaker 1 You know, if she chooses to partner and have kids, it changes. And I think that's also what I would say to Eva.
It's like, this is life. Yeah.

Speaker 1 You know, and like she said in her letter, friends aren't family, you know, and sometimes that's good and sometimes that's not. You know,

Speaker 1 friends will, there are seasons for friends.

Speaker 1 And who knows, in their 40s or 50s, they may reconnect. You know, so this is perfect because I'm thinking back to Eva.

Speaker 1 One of the things I would like Eva to take away from this is that being in an unbalanced relationship doesn't mean it has to end the relationship.

Speaker 1 If you want it to be another way, based, I'm learning from you all.

Speaker 1 If I'm in an unbalanced relationship and I'm the one feeling unbalanced, I got to go to the person and say, hey, look, this is what I want out of a relationship.

Speaker 1 And if they can't provide it, then we got to think about it ending. Well, Well, and that's what her friend essentially did, you know.
But her friend did it during the breakup.

Speaker 1 I'm curious if the friend ever came to her and was like, Hey,

Speaker 1 yeah, this is what I need from a relationship. I feel like this is unbalanced.
It seems like she was like, This is the last straw. Like,

Speaker 1 my relative died. You didn't show up.
This has been unbalanced. And maybe, maybe it became clear to her in that moment, which I think she said.
Yeah.

Speaker 1 Right. She did.
All of a sudden, you ain't shit. You're breaking.

Speaker 1 Like, I realize that.

Speaker 1 And that's just, that's the way the cookie caramel is i wonder if eva also fought for it doesn't say it sounds like she's in contemplation about it about fighting for it or letting it go it sounds it feels like she's let it go it feels like she didn't fight for it but i don't think we have that don't you guys do follow it you know dang you know that's i need to know

Speaker 1 well let's let's figure out a couple three things that we can tell Eva and then maybe we could figure out a follow-up follow-up with her.

Speaker 1 Well, one of the things is I think you mentioned it is: if you have this other set of friends holding court and just being like, Hey, guys, how don't I? Yeah, am I

Speaker 1 take it to your counsel? What are the ways that I don't show up?

Speaker 1 Have I been a bad friend? And

Speaker 1 like, use that to become a better friend.

Speaker 1 I completely agree with that. And also,

Speaker 1 you know, be easy on yourself. You're 32.
This is how it goes. You know, people come, people go.

Speaker 1 You know,

Speaker 1 even hurts can be healed because, you know,

Speaker 1 who knows where you'll be when you're 50?

Speaker 1 You know, life is long and friendships have ebbs and flows. And

Speaker 1 in the meantime, what I would tell her is use this as an opportunity since you're bothered by it to figure out how you can grow.

Speaker 1 And one thing that I've done before,

Speaker 1 write a letter with no

Speaker 1 expectation of a response.

Speaker 1 If you really do care about how your actions impacted this person, write a letter of apology. Say where you're coming from and

Speaker 1 let that person know, hey, I just wanted to get this off my chest. This is the way that you, I really valued you.
I'm sorry I didn't show up for you in this way.

Speaker 1 The door is still open to be friends. If you'll walk through it again, but feel free not to respond.
I just wanted to get this stuff.

Speaker 1 Like, if you really feel badly about it write her a letter but don't expect a response i like that i like that too but you know what i like even more is when issa said

Speaker 1 just get a guy friend

Speaker 1 honestly you want a low maintenance you want a low maintenance

Speaker 1 and and don't worry you don't have to even know if he has a dog

Speaker 1 evo we really care about you no for real you'll be good girl you'll be all right this is this is how the as you said you said, the cookie crumbles. Life is like this.
But this has been fun.

Speaker 1 Yeah, this is so fun. Look, what's the next letter? Thank you so much.

Speaker 1 Yeah, come on.

Speaker 1 Thank you so much. Thank you guys.