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All right.

Here we are.

Welcome to the month of May.

in the year 2025.

Thank you for joining me here today.

Thank you for letting me be a part of your life and

you be a part of mine today.

Happy Mother's Day.

We'll start with that.

We got a nice episode of

we got some Mother's Day stuff.

We're going to get into a little bit of light news.

And then we had a call a few weeks back about grief.

and

loss.

And we had a lot of nice feedback calls and informative,

heartish,

heartfelt contributions.

So we'll get into those in a bit as well.

But yeah, Mother's Day.

That's it.

Because

people, your mama raised you.

Think about that.

You was doing nothing.

Your little ass laying there.

Doing nothing, boy.

Hunting for a fucking hand tit.

That's all you was doing.

You was just hunting for that little hand tit, but your little hands.

You was a little slurp lord.

And your mother raised you.

First of all, if something came up to me and started sucking on my breast, on my tit or man or whatever it's called, tit for men or whatever, I would not then

raise it.

That is, you have to think about that.

If something started sucking on your tit, would you take it off and then raise it and grow it to its full form?

Only a mother would do that type shit, boy.

That's some next level.

That's some next level behavior mothers out there.

With your ass, too.

A lot of kids never wash their ass.

We had a buddy.

His legs just knew his pants so well.

He wore the same pants always.

And so you knew good and well.

So nobody was washing his ass, boy.

Not a chance.

Even his mom.

And she tried, some of you see her warm up some water on a stove in a stove pot and

pull his pants back and just dump it right down the back of his pants, hoping to even get a half wash or quarter wash on his ass with that warm water.

But damn, your mother, your mother, our mothers did that.

And when we couldn't read, imagine you sitting there with somebody, right?

And they can't read.

you know

and you got to teach them to you start with the first letter and you show them that

and it's a picture of like an alligator and a little kid and the mom's like what's that and he's like lizard lizard or whatever he can't even say shit he don't even say nothing he just look at you and try to cop a quick hit off that tit

That's a dumb child.

We were all dumb child.

My mother helped us out of that.

Out of that cavern of knowing nothing.

God,

they did a lot of work.

And then even on some, once you were in school, when you had to go to school and take a test,

and

you was dumb, buddy.

You was damn dumb.

You was a dumb child.

And your mother still hugged you and said you're going to do good on it.

I remember my mom would be like, You're going to do great on your tests.

I'd look at her, I'd be like, Really?

I am?

You could, and she, yeah, you're going to do great.

And I would leave out the door and I'd peek back in the window.

You could see her just shaking her head like he's going to fuck it up.

But that's crazy to send something, know something is going to not do well on a damn

spell-in or whatever it's called,

and send it out in the world and still hug it and pretend like you when they get back how'd you do you know good and well how they did mom they didn't do

boy

they didn't do bro opening pants

another batch of warm water on that ass it's spring cleaning

mother's day man that's what it is And that's what it ain't, man.

Yeah, I want to say happy Mother's Day to my mother.

I know she watches this show and I appreciate that.

Man, happy Mother's Day to all the moms out there,

the ones that do it by themselves, and

some of y'all have help.

And,

yeah, it's just this,

we know you're doing it.

Somebody's doing it.

And it ain't us.

It ain't us children.

We think we did it ourself.

ourselves.

We didn't do shit.

So make sure to reach out to your mother.

Hit her with a happy Mother's Day.

Get her something.

We got one of our commercials.

They got a good advertisement, something beautiful.

You get her.

Some good items or something.

Break her off something.

Get your mother something.

Drive over there.

Give her a hug, boy.

Keep your hands off that breast, though, boy.

You of age, nah.

You of age because that's always the craziest.

You see some nine-year-old at the basketball game and he over there.

And he up under his mother wearing a triple XL men's polo shirt, just so that kid can get up under there and knobble off on that tit.

And he fucking nine, bro.

Dude, I remember they had this one kid, Lil Bubby was his name, and he would go slip up under his mom's shirt.

Hit mom,

I don't know if she was in a wheelchair.

She was just

not, you know,

kind of looked like she was in a wheelchair type shit.

And she had them crazy breasts, them kind.

It looked like

they cracked open and were kind of flooding out it.

Like them bitches was.

I don't even know if they are.

At a certain point, it was like she had them just got

damn them thing, boy.

She had them fucking bean bag.

She had them,

she had them damn.

you know what I'm saying?

She could find somebody take a break right between her breasts.

You'd find two men, two factory workers over between her breasts getting a nap in and betting on the horse racing.

Because she had them big break time tits, boy.

She had them damn baby bags.

She had a fucking damn a cow walk up and try to feed off of them bitches.

She had them

front end loaders on her.

What were we talking about?

What were we talking about, Eastern?

Mother's Day.

Mother's Day.

That's it, man.

That is it.

Sorry, I went off on a tangent.

Oh, but I remember to have this kid little Bubby, and he would go over by his mom's,

by his mom.

He'd get up, he'd get him a damn candy bar and get up under that shirt and get on that tit.

You'd see him in there.

He'd have to pop his head out to catch more breath, to catch more air.

He'd be like,

He'd stick his head out

and then back under there, candying and titting, candying and titting.

Under there, damn nine years old, brother, you're going to do good on your test, son.

No, we ain't.

That kid's damn dumb, baby.

Happy Mother's Day.

Oh, I don't know what I'm going to get my mother.

Well, I'll get my mother some,

I'll send her a card.

And I sent that thing on Monday, boy.

So it's going to be there.

Because for years, I'm that guy sent that late card, you know.

I send that bitch.

She'll get that bitch on Father's Day.

She gets that bitch.

And she did both jobs anyway.

So they should make that.

They should make that Mother Father's Day card, the 2-in-1 hitter now.

They should get that thing released out there.

Because you've heard me say it before, man.

The hardest working man I've ever met is my mother.

Big facts.

Happy Mother's Day to you and to your mothers.

Make sure to get that love line, hit her with that love line.

Do something.

Get over there.

Tickle her.

You know what I'm saying?

Buy her a bra that says, keep out on it.

And honor those words.

Because you're too tall to be titting.

You know that shit type shit, boy.

What's going on?

Feeling a little injured today?

I went picked up something at the gym.

Bam.

Injured.

Didn't even.

And it was that kind of thing where your back locks up and your lung

like that.

Just

where you,

it's like the wind got knocked out of your back.

And,

you know, and your friend's like, what's going on?

And you're like,

you can't even talk.

It just,

you just, so I just left.

I don't know what they thought.

I had cancer or whatever, but yeah, injured myself.

Went to the massage place over here.

And I go to the Chinese shop over there, that chop shop.

It say right on the sign, chop shop.

you know and they selling fucking rice right out the back of that bitch boy

they they'll remodel your

they'll remodel your spinal column they'll fucking unjanger that bitch and then hit you with that damn two grams of rice when you roll out the door

they got that shit in there

and i got i whenever i go get that massage at the uh Chinese place, I get, I ask for the big guy.

I'm on big guy.

When I call him on the phone, he knows me.

My buddy Yang over there, I call him on the phone.

He said, you come in.

I said, big guy.

You got big gay?

Sometimes he got him, sometimes he don't.

Because I've had the second string.

They said, big guy.

Big guy gone.

Big guy gone.

That's what he said.

I don't know what he meant.

But I think he was trying to say big guy gone, right?

And I spot him a letter.

If he ain't got it all, bro.

He from another country, you know?

that's kind of guy i am i'll give you a vowel big guy gone

gone

i got you i got you with that e twin

so yeah he said big guy gone so i went in there and they had a second big guy in that bitch bro

the second and he ain't that big bro he kind of he just

He trying to like make his neck long just trying to look big or something, you know, he put on mittens and shit.

Because Asian, they try to trick you when you're looking at them.

They trick you.

They visual.

They're the fucking.

They're the Bok Choy David Blaines, baby.

Them bitches will fucking.

They trick you, bro.

They'll put a piece of rice over each eye and tell you they sleeping.

That's who they are.

They tricksters like that.

But I said, big guy.

He said, big guy going.

But I showed up anyway.

I took that second, that fucking other big guy, bro.

And he went, wasn't shit.

This little motherfucker, this little fucking woodpecker, this

he couldn't do shit.

He would fucking hammer, just trying to hammer on me, bro.

He just put one of his arms out and was just like that, just woodpecking me with that elbow.

Didn't do shit.

I'm fucking still hurt.

But anyway, what else?

Big gay.

I want big gay.

Dude, I'll tell you this, bro.

So one time I'm in there and I was getting a massage at this other joint.

I went to this other joint.

And I'm in there, bruh.

And

I do the massage where it's like this chair thing that you sit kind of forward on.

Easton, can you bring that up for me, brother?

Yeah, I got you.

And we're borrowing Easton today.

He's helping us produce in blessings to you, man.

And Easton works on John Chris's podcast.

What's it called?

Net Positive.

Net Positive with John Chris, if you want to tap in with him.

What did I I ask, Easton?

Do you remember?

Pull up a chair picture.

Get that massage chair, that front

forward-leaning.

Let's go with that.

Oh, yeah.

Yeah, that's the kind they have right there.

They put your face in a little,

it's like a little soft, little tallest seat, but it's soft, but it's little.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Put your face on that.

And then they just start getting at you.

Anyway, so yeah, I'll go in.

He's got one of those chair, chair massages.

So I sit in there

and big gay, big gay,

big guy here.

Big guy gone.

Big guy here.

Big guy starts rattling on me, doing his big guy shit, fucking leaving sweat on my back.

I can feel it.

Every now and then I know he's really popping back there if I feel a bead of sweat hit my fucking neck.

So he back there popping, right?

And then I look over, dude, in the chair.

Next to me, there's a kid getting a massage, right?

for i didn't even i didn't know this could happen right it's like a this kid look like kind of like the rizzler right like uh probably nine you're maybe

nine

and

like

kind of rubinesque you know uh chubbish or whatever they call it this chubbish little kid and and there's a guy just like just like just rubbing on over just like massaging him you know and I didn't know a kid could get him.

I didn't know.

And I'm like, am I watching like a, like, what am I watching like is this a kid getting a massage or is this like a

like is it legal or you know

i i just didn't know uh

yeah i'm like and like how long do you watch it's such a massage like if you know but yeah this kid but it was so crazy this kid was getting a massage like this kid got a massage or was getting a massage this kid so they're massaging a kid it's during the school day so i'm like what is you know

what rich little kid skips school to get a fucking massage, bro?

Then anyway, so we're sitting there and at some point, somebody did a

fart, you know, somebody did a, and I think it was this kid, right?

It was, it was crazy, dude.

I'm, I'm there.

It's already weird enough.

Somebody's massaging the kid.

I'm getting fucking big guy.

Big guy is over there fucking working me in and and the little dudes over here getting fucking chopped out you know this little fucking sixth fifths graders or whatever this little fifths graders he's getting over there fucking chopped out by chim chop your boy right and i'm like can you even massage a kid i'm thinking and then somebody just

uh started a fart out of their body and

i think it was the kid right because i think look If you massage a kid, they're going to fart.

They got to strike back somehow because it's illegal to touch them.

So, and it sounded like, it sounded like, like,

I don't know.

It sounded like somebody was drinking milk and then just like,

it was just,

it sounded like a,

it just sounded like a ghost wearing booty cologne that had just climbed out of that child.

And, and, and I'm not saying it was definitely the kid who was in there doing farts or whatever, but,

you know, I don't know, you know, I'm no farting Luther King or whatever, but

I have a dream that somebody fighting in here.

But there was another guy in there.

So it could have been other guy, you know,

whoever that was, Louis Fardakan.

No, it's just a

activist joke.

Anyway,

no, yeah, it could have been this other guy in there.

I don't know.

Because there was another guy in there, just a guy, like worked at a bank or something or was like cheating on his wife, some guy, right?

and they were over there signing him up they over there really getting into his shoulders and neck you know he had two kind of medium guys he didn't have no big gate

like i did

uh but they chopping into him and that and that and but at some point the room started to smell bad somebody chopped off a real fart

and it sounded like somebody had a like had put like milk on just like like their butt had been drinking milk and then just fought just did a fart fought bro it was crazy you could hear it just sounded like some uh

like a like somebody had taken a tight foot out of a wet boot you know

out of a wet uh

uh

rubber boot

just

but anyway what is that happy mother's day bro that's what i'm telling y'all

I got a massage and you got to take care of yourself when you get them.

When I go in a massage place, first thing I say, no pop pop.

I say no pop pop.

Touch a wiener, tap on my wiener two times, pop pop.

No pop pop for me.

That's what I say when I say when I go into those places.

We got

an episode.

Oh, and that means don't touch me.

Don't touch.

No.

Don't touch this, you know, don't don't wien it.

Don't stay off my wiener.

That's what I say, you know.

Stay off my small guy.

Stay off my small gay.

Big gay.

No, no.

Medium guy.

But I tell them right when I walk in, don't jerk me off.

I do that myself.

And I do it at home.

I do it under, you know, I do it under with closed blinds or whatever.

Music on, music off, whatever.

I don't jerk off with the fan on.

I say that point blank.

You see some dudes, bro.

I know I got buddies.

You could walk in their room.

It smell in there like they've been jerking out.

Oh, well.

And the fan is on, bro.

Have some respect, bro.

You out there drying out your root or whatever.

And you out there popping off, bruh.

You out there freaking earning pearls out of your own wean out there.

So, praise God.

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We got a new Pope.

Is that right there, Easton?

That is correct.

And what did you think about it?

What's the news on him?

You got any information on him?

He is the first American Pope.

No way.

He is.

He is from Chicago, Illinois.

The Bears, boy.

Wow.

I'll pull up his name here.

He's going by Pope Leo XIV,

and his name is Robert Prevost.

Bobby Prevost, baby.

And who do the Packers have?

Aaron Rodgers, dude?

It's a rap, bro.

Jordan loved it, dude.

Nobody.

The Pope.

Thank, thank.

Dude, we got the Pope, huh?

Go, Cubs, go.

Hey, Chicago, what do you say?

We got the Pope today.

Gang, boy, we right here.

Big gate.

Big gate.

Damn, bro.

Hope he stops the massaging of children.

You know what I'm talking about?

We shut it down, brother.

I don't think we can say that.

And how did we know when they picked the Pope?

So they,

I guess, all the cardinals, there's like a bunch of them, I don't know how many.

They all like silently, secretly, like, you know, that thing you did in school where you let it like close your eyes and raise your hand and the teacher counted?

I guess it's like that where they like secretly vote.

Oh.

And they don't decide until I think it's like a two-thirds majority.

So like heads up sovereign up or whatever.

Yeah.

So they, if the pope, I guess every day they do it.

And if the pope hasn't been chosen, they do like black smoke out of the chimney.

And then if the pope

does get chosen, then it's white smoke that comes out of the chimney.

Oh, really?

So how long did it take them to choose this pope?

I think just like two days.

Because yesterday it was black smoke and then or two days ago was black smoke and then yesterday it was white smoke.

Damn.

So it's only two days.

Have we ever had a black pope yet?

No.

Wow, bro.

That's what we got to get that black Pope, boy.

Big gay.

What about an Asian Pope?

Have we had it?

Oh, we got to get a damn low Asian Pope, boy.

Just a little bit of prayer-fried rice, boy, you feel me?

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I want to say thank you to mom.

for having all the answers.

She had them all.

She didn't, sometimes they were wrong yet, but she had them all.

Imagine something just asking you questions for 18 years and more.

And you do your best to answer every one.

Yep, that's a mom.

But this year we're answering for mom.

And the answer is, we're going to give them flowers plus a real break.

Because moms are at it 24-7.

And flowers, it's nice, but you know what they really want is a break from everyone's questions, from the endless to-do list, from momming.

Oh, I still ask my mom so many questions.

I will call and ask my mom what shoe size I wear.

I could look in my shoe.

I could do a ruler against my foot,

but I will call my mom.

And if she doesn't answer it when I call, I will just not know what my shoe size is for the day.

Oh, if I was a mom, I would just put earplugs in.

That's what I would do.

I would tell my kids I would have like one of those lights that taxis have above them on the top of a taxi that says when it's available or not.

I would turn the light off, not available.

And then I would,

what would I do if I were a mom?

Oh, I would get in a big bubble bath.

That's what my mom used to do.

She would yell.

She'd yell at us and say something

and say we weren't going to be able to have something.

Then you would hear, you'd hear her slam her door.

And then every now and then you'd hear her get in that bubble bath right there

and maybe crack open a cold beer or something, a cold little can of milk or whatever.

You'd hear her crack it open or get that bubble bath going.

Sud so high you couldn't see, hear, nothing.

Is she in there?

I don't know what she would.

And I think she would just sit in there

and in the bubbles and have a little sip of beer or cold milk.

Something to get her through the day, man.

So if I was a mother, I would do that.

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All right.

You know, one of the last episodes, the last solo episode we had called Chili Boy or something like that.

Was it Chili Baby?

Chili Boy?

Chili Baby?

Chili.

Oh, pickle chili.

And it was about a month ago.

And a man called in who

had lost his

girlfriend to cancer.

So we're going to take a quick listen to that.

Hey Theo, hope you're doing well.

I'm calling you today.

See if I can give you your perspective on something.

My girlfriend of four years,

she passed away five and a half months ago.

She

it was not a surprise, but you know, she had cancer.

We thought that she had a little more time,

but um, yeah.

Um,

since then, I've spent most of my time doing nothing, you know.

Um, I would visit her grave every day for uh months, which is good, I guess, for getting out.

He goes and visits her grave every day, you would say, for months onward.

Man, thank you for sharing this, brother.

Of

my apartment, um, but I would just let the time pass, you know.

But, um,

recently I've started

going back to school full time and working again.

And honestly, I feel like I'm just doing it because it's

expected of me, you know, from like people around me, my family and my peers.

I guess another reason for that is I'm I'm pretty young.

So maybe some people just expect me to move forward pretty fast, but you know, I don't want to, you know.

yeah, um, I just, you know, sometimes you feel like you were like, I feel like I was like left behind, you know.

Um,

yeah, thank you for the call, brother.

And um,

and we, we, we discussed this on a previous episode, but we had, we got some calls that came in, and I wanted to listen to some of them here just so you can get an idea.

As always, the hotline guy is 985-664-9503.

And

here's a call that came in about grief.

We asked callers if they had any suggestions for that gentleman.

And here's some of the responses that we got.

Hey, Theo,

man, love you so, bro.

Listen to you every day or every time you make a podcast.

I'm actually listening to Pickle Chili right now.

And I heard the caller call in about he lost

his girlfriend or whatever.

And you asked some people to call in, give some ideas of how maybe he can handle this situation.

And look, i actually lost my daughter five years ago to this day

um

from a brain aneurysm and i guess the only advice i can say is look man don't let nobody tell you how long you should grieve uh it's gonna be different for everyone because not every

not every uh situation is gonna be built the same so uh do it at your own speed man

There's going to be a lot of people that's going to want to get involved and tell you how you should do these, but you have to experience this the way that you need to experience this to make it right for you.

I have dreams about my daughter often, man.

And it's funny because in my dreams, I know she's passed away and I know she's not with her.

So while I'm dreaming,

I just try to hug her and talk to her and make that dream last as long as I can.

You know, and look, bro, miss her.

Miss her every day.

I talk to my daughter.

I miss.

I mean, every night before I say a prayer, I talk to my daughter.

And I've been doing that since the day she's passed away.

And look, last but not least, bro,

this doesn't get easier.

It really doesn't.

It just becomes a new type of normal.

If that makes some sense, bro.

Man, Steo, Gang, Gang, love you, bro.

Love you too, bro.

Thank you, man.

Man.

Man, that's just

that's a lot, you know.

It's

that's nice of him to call.

He called out of Louisiana.

I see that area code 337 over there, and you can hear the bayou in the back of his throat right there.

Um,

yeah, I remember after my dad was gone, even still, sometimes if I'm having like a tough day, whenever I go to sleep at night, I'll uh

yeah, I'll hope that I get to see him or that he shows up, you know.

And then sometimes it's like gets to be further, sometimes it's like further and further between times.

And then,

yeah, and it just like you just wish some like you hope that somebody will be there, but then sometimes they are in your dream.

And yeah,

that's awesome, man.

That's a really nice

sentiment to share.

Thank you for that call.

Let's take another call here.

Hey, Theo.

Hey, man just wanted to call in uh in response listening to the

pickle chili podcast and uh

the guy thank you for listening man i appreciate that thank all you all anybody who listened

that lost his uh girlfriend and after five months wanted to respond as somebody that's been through that too

uh lost my fiancé um

high school sweethearts uh

yeah day before my birthday she was in a car accident.

And it's tough, man.

It's somebody that you've been with for seven years.

At a young age, I was

21.

She's 20.

So it's kind of rough.

But just wanted to respond to him and let him know the things that have helped me and maybe it'll help him and somebody else.

The biggest thing is I got all those the same symptoms as him.

You know, didn't want to do anything.

You lose your purpose in life.

And

some things that you touched on, Theo, you know,

you want to dream, you want to feel all that again.

And it's all true.

But the thing that helped me the most is surround yourself with

friends and family.

And

those things right there, the people that love and support you.

I'm still close with her family.

And those things help you get through it, man.

So anytime I'm having those rough days and weeks

and

you just, like you said, get out,

surround yourself with people that love you and your friends.

Go do some things with your friends.

They're always there for you.

And I got a dog, you know, and that really helped me get through that too, man.

You always got somebody excited to see you when you get home.

And that's it, man.

That's really the answer.

You'll never forget.

You'll never move on completely.

You hope to have a normal life,

but

the things that help you push through it are going to be

just love, surround yourself with people who love you,

amen.

Man,

yeah, there's a song, uh, uh,

there's a song by this guy, Stephen Wilson Jr.

Thank you for that call, and thank you to the caller previously, too.

And thank you guys for both sharing uh your experience with loss.

Yeah, there's this song, uh, grief

is that uh

by Stephen Wilson Jr.

And it's uh, grief is only

love that has nowhere to go

and

and I thought about that

I thought about that since that gentleman called in

because love is like love is this feeling that it has to lands on someone or an object it has to land on a on something right like a person place that it has to it has to love has to have a place to land if you love like you can love yourself but

that's more like integrity and confidence.

And then it can even drift into ego or whatever.

But

when you really love, you love someone,

you know?

And so love is really, it's an outward thing.

It's

it's not, it's yours, but it's

if it's active, it's not yours.

It's

it's a

like a bridge almost kind of.

and then um

yeah once that recipient is gone once that place where it was landing is gone it's like um it almost becomes

it's crazy that something that is so wonderful can become so painful because then you have the all these same feelings but they don't have the place to land

um

yeah i remember when my father died i remember i just

i was at his funeral and it was like the most like scariest thing ever.

There was people there that I didn't even, I didn't know any of them.

And my neighbor,

this family that I just moved in with, the dad took me over there and

some of our neighbors went with me.

And I just remember like,

it was all these feelings that I think I didn't even know that I'd had that I wanted.

to be for my father and I didn't even know I had them.

And now it was just like they were, they hit a dam, you know, they just would never have a place to go.

And I just remember like

just so much tears and like

crying, like it would be like going into the cracks of the floor.

And I just wanted to,

I just wanted to be one of those tears.

I wanted to just disappear.

Let's take some other calls, man.

And we're not trying to make that, like, I guess it can't help but be

like sad, but I think it's real, right?

And it's real.

This is what you know, life is real, and it's full of real things.

And I'm just glad we don't have to go through them alone.

So that's a nice thought to have right now.

Hey, Theo,

I'm replying to the gentleman that had recently lost a girlfriend.

I had lost my girlfriend back in 2018, so it's going on seven years now.

it's tough and it sounds like he was looking for answers when

you know the only thing that I could say is like it sounds like he's on the right track and

if I was him I would just choose to live through the memories that they shared together

I remember my girlfriend always telling me that, you know, she thought I was a good teacher.

and

so now I'm in a field where I'm able to teach people things and

I just feel like every time I do I just

it reminds me of her and there's just like

it's no longer a sadness anymore it there's a happiness in it and

yeah

You know, it's funny.

Thank you.

Sorry, I'm belching at a little bit of Celsius, but

uh

thank you for the call, man.

Yeah, I remember my dad, like the one thing I like, one of the only things I remember he said to me ever in my life was that I was a survivor.

He used to always say that you're a survivor, you know, and maybe he knew that because he was so old that it would be something that I would need.

I don't know, but it's like it's like one thing that

I

just

feel like, you know, I relate to or something.

You know, like I'm going to get through this, I guess, you know.

So I think that's really magical that when you act out something that somebody who loves you told you you were, when you do those things,

that you are

kind of servicing that relationship that's no longer there.

You know?

Like if she says that, where you said this part.

I remember my girlfriend always telling me that, you know, she thought I was a good teacher.

And

so now I'm in a field where I'm able to teach people things and

yeah I could totally see that man that by then teaching that you feel like you're honoring her and it makes you feel that same way that you felt when she told you it was something that you did really well

yeah

It's interesting how we figure out how to

keep going in the world, all of us.

And that we want to, that's one thing that I think is amazing about life

is this will to survive, right?

It's like you have a man that lost his daughter and he's,

you know,

and there's,

it's like he wants to go and at least wake up and see the day every day because,

you know, probably through his eyes, his daughter somehow gets to see the day as well, you know?

I think there's just something in us that wants to survive so much.

And I don't even know what to say about that or what I think about that thought.

But thank you for that call, man.

Thanks for sharing that.

All right.

Let's take one more call.

Hey, Theo, this is Tyler from Cincinnati.

Hey, Tyler, thank you for calling, dude.

Cincinnati over there.

Will the Bangles have a decent defense?

I don't know.

All the money's on the offensive side of the ball.

It feels like if they let Trey Hendrickson go.

Now, with that said, is it a Joe Burrow make or break year?

We'll see about that, baby.

Onward, brother.

I don't have personal experience with a loss of an immediate loved one, but I've walked next to someone who has, and our church offers counseling around that.

And one of the resources we use is this book called Dark Clouds, Deep Mercy.

I highly recommend it to everyone who is dealing with loss.

And I buy it for anyone close to me that I hear has a loved one who they've lost and they've found some piece from that book.

Yeah, hopefully that could be a resource to some people who are listening.

Thanks.

Bye.

All right.

Yeah.

Thank you for that suggestion, man.

I know there's a lot of grief books out there and stuff.

But just like, how do you go through it?

Yeah, it's interesting.

The young man who called earlier, the first of the original call was saying that he felt like he got left behind.

Yeah, it's just, it's all kind of fascinating,

even though it's so sad.

I was looking, I was, the other day, this came up on my feed when I was thinking about grief.

And it's Jim Carrey once said, or this site attributes it to him.

Grief is not just an emotion.

It's an unraveling, a space where something once lived but is now gone.

It carves through you, leaving a hollow ache where love once resided.

In the beginning, it feels unbearable, like a wound that will never close.

But over time, the raw edges begin to mend.

The pain softens, but the imprint remains, a quiet reminder of what once was.

The truth is you never really move on, you move with it.

The love you have does not disappear, it transforms.

It lingers in the echoes of laughter, in the warmth of old memories, in the silent moments where you still reach for what is no longer there, and that's okay.

Grief is not a burden to be hidden.

It's not a weakness to be ashamed of.

It is the deepest proof that love existed, that something beautiful once touched your life.

So let yourself feel it.

Let yourself mourn.

Let yourself remember.

There is no timeline.

There is no right way to grieve.

Some days will be heavy and some will feel lighter.

Some moments will bring unexpected waves of sadness while others will fill you with gratitude for the love you were lucky enough to experience.

Honor your grief, for for it is sacred.

It is a testament to the depth of your heart.

And in time, through the pain, you will find healing, not because you have forgotten, but because you have learned how to carry both love and loss together.

Man, that's pretty powerful.

Yeah, whenever I had heard that quote, that, yeah.

That grief is only love that has no place to go.

It's a great song, too, by Stephen Wilson Jr.

I don't believe that the quote is his, but it's a

great song.

Yeah, like you have memories and sometimes even just telling a funny story about someone

that's gone can almost make you have the same feeling as if they

are still alive sometimes.

But

yeah, thank you guys for anyway listening to that.

I know some of that stuff's kind of heavy and stuff to think about, but it's nice to take moments to think about people

and just hear what, just be alive.

Yeah, it's nice to just be alive.

Yeah, I don't mean that.

I just mean it's

I don't know what I mean.

Anyway, yeah, thank you everybody who made some calls and called in.

There was a lot of nice calls and suggestions.

We tried to put some together there.

You know, I wanted to say something.

There's been something that's just been kind of on my heart.

And so I feel like I should bring it up.

There is,

you know, we've had people on the podcast in the past that talk about it.

And

there's just a

There's a conflict that's been happening in the Middle East.

People know about it

between Israel and Palestine and some of the areas over there, the Gaza area they talk about.

And

I just think it's, it feels to me,

I don't know if I, it just, it feels to me like it's a genocide that's happening while we're alive here in front of our,

in front of our lives.

And I don't,

sometimes I feel like I should say something.

I'm not a geologist or geographer or anything like that, you know, so I don't know a lot of the

some of it I do know, though.

Like, I know the basics of the issues over there.

But for me, it's just like how I feel.

Like, you see all these photos of

people,

just children, women, people,

body parts, just

people like putting their kids back together.

And I just can't believe that we're watching that and that more isn't said about it.

And so I'm not saying anyone else needs to say anything, but I think I'm just that more isn't said about it by me.

So I just,

I want to be able to speak up about that, that I think we're watching probably like,

you know, one of the sickest things that's ever happened.

And

I'm sorry if I've kind of haven't said about it.

I've tried to talk about it and learn about it.

But I don't know.

Maybe I just want to,

I just wanted to say something.

I don't even know what to do.

You know, and it's crazy because our country is also complicit in it.

You know, it's in it and has been for a long time.

And

it's just kind of interesting because then you just realize, oh, well, I'm just a, yeah, I'm a member of this country, but I'm just

what we want sometimes doesn't matter.

You know, and you just have to be a member of a place and your government is making making other choices.

So

I don't know if I said that correctly or I don't even know exactly what I said, but I just, I just have, it's just like been making me really sick.

And I feel like I just needed to say something

that I think you don't have to think that.

I'm not asking you to do anything.

But I just have to say that.

So I'm not sitting by,

you know, there's that peace inside of me.

Like, why wouldn't you

say something?

You know, there's people that can't even speak, and you can say something, you know.

And so, that's how I

just had to speak up.

Anyway, I think maybe it's starting to make it about me there at the end.

But, um,

yeah.

So, just praying for those people and just the grief that that is all going to cause

you notice, like, what are we doing?

But, um, and I know that this has happened to other ethnicities and other cultures.

I know that it's happening to other places, too.

Um, I just don't see that as much.

And so, uh, yeah, anyway.

Um, anyway, that was kind of a downer ending, but

big guy.

So

Mother's Day is a good day to just be a reminded to love people, whether it's your mother or a kid or a puppy or a

little alligator, whatever you got over there.

You know, even if it's a memory, you know, get a picture out of somebody that was a member of your life or that loved you

and

spend a few moments with them, you know.

Or that's what I'm going to try to do.

You know, I got a couple pictures of my dad.

I think there's a couple memories that I keep of him that are like,

that are just mine, it feels like, you know?

Yeah, there's a couple memories of him that I feel like are just mine.

And so, yeah, I can just, you know, I can, you can spend time with those.

You're the only two people that have those in the world is you and that other person.

So that's a really,

that's one of a kind.

So that's really something cool that you can do.

But anyway, this is getting long.

Happy Mother's Day.

Thanks for letting me be a part of your life today.

Thanks for being a part of my life today.

And

I don't even know how to end this, what to do.

I don't even have any music on today.

Big gay.

It'd be gay.

It'd be gay.

But yeah, anyway, quit listening to me.

Text your mom.

Even if you hate her, text her and be like, hey, ma, love you.

And then just send a wink emoji after it.

That's hey, look, hey.

It's a start, right?

You guys be good to yourselves, baby.

Praise God.

Thank you.

Oh, and Easton, thank you so much, Easton, for helping us out today.

Dude came over.

We never even met.

We never even met.

What are you getting your mom for Mother's Day, Easton?

I think

me and my siblings went in on something.

I don't really know what it is yet.

I'll find out on Mother's Day as well.

Type shit.

Dude, the craziest is when you buy something to your siblings, right?

They picked it out.

They show up with it.

Mom opens it.

She likes it, but you don't fucking like it.

Yeah, it's happened a few times.

Yeah, that's crazy.

That's like, dude, that's one of the crazy.

That's got

being a mom has to be so crazy.

Something crawls out of your body, right?

Hangs out in the kitchen for probably 15 years, right?

And then

basically,

I don't even know.

Sorry, I don't know.

There wasn't an ending to that, but

yeah, dude, that would be the thing.

Somebody got my mom one of those boat-in-a-bottle things, ship in a bottle.

You know what I'm talking about?

Yeah.

Yeah.

We all gave my sister some money and she was going.

She was, she'd been using or whatever, or mountain climbing or whatever she called it.

But she, um, we gave her the money.

She shows up.

We each gave her like 80 bucks.

She shows up.

She was supposed to have have something nice for her mom.

She got her one of those fucking

ship in a bottles, dog.

Had no change with it.

Like, bitch,

give me that fucking change, bitch.

Come on, big guy.

All right, man.

Thank you, Easton, bro.

Much obliged.

Appreciate you.

And make sure to check out Net Positive with John Chris and

Easton on there.

And you guys be good to yourselves, dude.

Okay.

Now I'm just floating on the breeze, and I feel I'm falling like these leaves.

I must be

cornerstone.

Oh, but when I reach that ground, I'll share this peace of mind.

I found I can feel it in my bones.

But it's gonna take

a little bit of

time.