The Untapped Power of Psychic Business Intuition | Amber Cavanagh DSH #1032

And I would pray to go back to the other side so that I wouldn't be a burden to my family.

I don't feel like that anymore, but I just,

it was so amazing.

And that's our home.

There's no other, this is school, and it's a really hard school.

That's home.

And I knew it the second I got there.

I knew you know everything.

Like it feels like home.

All right, guys, we have Amber here today.

Came in from Vancouver.

Thanks for coming on.

Yes, thanks for having me.

Absolutely.

Near-death experience changed your life, right?

Yes.

2021.

Yeah, 2021, Christmas, 2021.

Wow, what a day to have a near-death experience.

Yeah, well, it was a couple days before

23rd.

Yeah.

What exactly happened?

So we were having a Christmas day.

We made gingerbread houses and then we're going to watch a Christmas movie.

And all of a sudden,

I got the worst headache, like blinding.

And I wish now like I wish I knew that a headache that bad is something to be concerned about I didn't so I went to bed and I just said to my family you know I'm gonna go to bed my head hurts super super bad so hopefully I will feel better the next day I was having 40 people for dinner for Christmas Eve and I went to bed and

Like an hour later, my husband was still on the couch with the kids and I texted and I don't remember this and I said, could you bring me some Tylenol and Advil?

Because my head hurts really, really bad.

And he did.

And that was my carotid dissecting.

And I didn't know that.

So your carotid is like an artery or vein in your neck.

And it was dissecting, which caused a severe, severe migraine.

And so I fell asleep.

And they think I had the first stroke around 11, 11.30.

I went to bed around 10.30.

And I didn't wake up because strokes are not painful.

And I didn't know that.

It doesn't wake you up.

So neurologists actually say, like, the witching hour for strokes is the middle of the night because nobody wakes up, and that seems to be when they happen.

And I woke up around 4.45 in the morning, and I was scared.

I thought I was dreaming.

Have you ever had sleep paralysis?

I have once.

So it felt, and I'd never had it.

And so, but people have explained it to me.

So I was like, this has to be sleep paralysis because I used to get dreams that there would be spiders crawling on me and I couldn't move.

So I'm like, I must be dreaming.

I'm going to try and get up to go to the bathroom.

I didn't know I was paralyzed completely on my right side, nonverbal as well.

I only could say two words, my sister's name and the F word, which was really wonderful.

And so I tried to get up, not realizing I was paralyzed.

And I tried to push off with my left hand because that still worked.

And I got my feet on the ground and fell because paralyzed weight is dead weight.

And then I was on the ground and I was in the bedroom by myself.

Long story short, my husband, I ended up banging on the wall because I tried to army crawl and I couldn't because I was paralyzed.

My husband came in, knew I was having a stroke because he has first aid training, called the ambulance, we got to the hospital.

It was a much longer thing than that, but got to the hospital.

And they can give you a medication to stop strokes.

And so they gave it to me, even though the stroke was very large.

So I'd had the first stroke, and because I didn't wake up, it caused a second stroke.

So I was still, I was having an active stroke.

But once the stroke is completed, there's nothing they can do, really.

The medication can stop it from completing.

And so they gave me, my husband had to sign the thing because the medication can kill you.

They gave it to me and it didn't work.

So it did stop the frontal lobe stroke, which was good because that's a lot of things that you need to be human and be functional.

But it didn't make me better.

It didn't reverse anything.

So I pretty much was, I wasn't getting worse, but I wasn't getting better.

I was still completely paralyzed, nonverbal, and I was blind in my right eye.

And so they life-flighted me to a bigger hospital to do brain surgery.

Dang.

Yeah.

And so

they let my husband come with me.

All my family came to say goodbye because they said more than likely I wasn't going to make it to the hospital, let alone long enough to get the surgery.

Whoa.

So my kids were 12 and 14, and they came to the hospital.

My parents, my sisters, just everybody came, said their goodbyes.

They let Mike come in the helicopter because they didn't want me to die alone on Christmas.

They usually don't let a family member in a life flight in

Canada at least.

And so we got

into the helicopter.

And we went up and a sunbeam hit my face.

And my husband lifted his arm up because I was really red and hot because I didn't know this.

When you're dying, your temperature can raise.

And so he tried to block my face from the sun.

And I wanted him to not, but I couldn't tell him because the second the sun hit my face, I closed my eyes or went like to everyone around me, unconscious, and I opened them and I was on the other side.

And it was that quick.

I didn't have to go to a light.

I didn't have, nobody called me there.

It wasn't like, My loved ones were there or my guides or anything like that.

I just closed my eyes eyes, and I was in a garden, in a beautiful garden.

Wow, no pain, no pain at all.

I was very, very scared before.

So, like, when I was in the hospital getting that medication, I actually had an anaphylactic response to the Benadryl they give with it.

Dang.

So, I was very scared.

I couldn't talk.

I just wanted my kids, nobody could understand me because I thought I was talking.

I had such severe aphasia.

I thought I was talking.

I wasn't.

Apparently, I was like mumbling and saying the F word or my sister's name over and over and over again.

So I was very, very, very, I've never been more scared in my life that first hour and a half.

The dying process, the crossing over process, was so not scary.

Whatever the opposite of scary is, that's what it was.

It was the most amazing experience of my entire life.

That's good to know because a lot of people fear death.

Yeah, no, I don't now.

I fear leaving my kids.

I do not fear death.

And actually, the first six months after the stroke, it was so hard.

Like, I had to work for every gain.

And I would pray to go back to the other side so that I wouldn't be a burden to my family.

I don't feel like that anymore, but I just,

it was so amazing.

And that's our home.

There's no other, this is school.

And it's a really hard school.

That's home.

And I knew it the second I got there.

I knew you know everything.

Like it feels like home.

Did it feel familiar?

Yes, very familiar.

Like you've been there before.

Yeah.

And so

I don't know if you know this part,

but I people don't like this sometimes, but I was a psychic medium before

and I accepted my gifts in 2015.

So I had been working as a psychic medium, animal communicator, medical intuitive, all those things, healer

from 2015 to present.

So I knew my guides and I did have some beliefs.

and I do think we do manifest a little bit what we see if we're going to come back because they're not going to mess up your path here if you're going to come back.

And so when I opened my eyes in this beautiful garden to my left was some of my loved ones that have crossed over.

Some of my dogs, which I loved because I love my pets.

I love my family too, but

I talked to dead people, so I knew they would be there.

The animals, I always hoped my animals would be there and be okay.

And this isn't just it, but they were there.

And then my guides were there kind of there was like a little creek and a gazebo and they were sitting there on a bench.

And then to the right, which I think is not totally average for NDEs, was all of my other lives.

There was like a giant crowd of people from all different time dimensions, past, present, and future, all different

genders.

Some seemed very genderless.

And so I didn't walk up to talk to them.

I technically didn't walk up to talk to anybody but my guides because everything was telepathic.

So I could feel everything, even through the grass, like everything emanated with this like...

rainbow golden feeling of love

every molecule so like

people people like my loved ones, my grandma and stuff, didn't have to walk up to me and be like, oh, hi, it's so nice to see you.

It didn't have to happen.

You don't have to necessarily talk.

And I wasn't there for that.

So, I wasn't there to see my family.

My family didn't need to tell me to come back or anything like that.

I was there to make a decision.

And so, yeah,

it was the most amazing experience.

That's so interesting.

Wow.

You saw all your past and future lives.

Yeah.

And you said some of them were genderless.

So, like, you're talking aliens?

I don't know.

You know, technically anyone not from this dimension would be an alien, I guess, right?

They looked similar, like they looked human-ish, just not how we, like, we like to put people in boxes.

They wouldn't have fit in any box that we have yet.

So yeah, it wasn't.

There weren't like green guys or anything like that.

It was more, yeah, just

different levels of energy.

Like humans, we have it really hard.

We're here to learn a lot.

And so that shows on our faces, you know, like I haven't seen a human that just looks carefree all the time.

But a lot of the people that were there looked so carefree.

Well, all of them really, yeah.

And then the other thing that sometimes I mention, sometimes I don't.

My husband and my kids were there as well.

Whoa.

Even though they're dead, they're not dead, they're alive.

But their souls were there because

I knew without a shadow of a doubt, it would not be a choice if I actually fully had to leave my kids and my husband, but he would be okay.

But my kids were 12 and 14, right?

So they were there as well, their higher selves, just like all of us.

So there's a piece of you there right now, a piece of me there right now, sort of being like the marionette for all the lives we're living in all different time dimensions.

Well, there is that theory that the kids' souls choose the parents, right?

They do, yeah.

100%.

Yes.

Just like I chose my life.

I don't know why I chose to have a stroke.

And a lot of people say, you know, like,

why, what kind of psychic are you if you didn't know you weren't gonna have you were gonna have a stroke?

But I choose not to know things if I can't prevent them.

So, you know, if

that's an example, if my dad, my dad is in his 80s, you know, if he's going to break a hip when he goes to the mall, stepping on a curb wrong, and it's preventable, so not, it doesn't need to happen, I will tell him.

If he's going to break his hip and he has to, because that's part of his path and his learning, I don't want to know that.

I don't want to know when people are going to die or if something's going to happen, because I would be so...

anxious all the time.

And the stroke needed to happen.

Wow.

I had to have an NDE.

And when I was there, they explained that the stroke was one option.

The other option was a car accident.

And I would have been completely paralyzed, not just half paralyzed.

And one of my kids would be with me.

And then that kid would struggle with addiction because of the painkillers they would give them for their injuries.

Oh, my gosh.

And so, you know, it's like, which one do you choose?

I'm glad we don't have to choose.

My higher self did.

That's so interesting.

So it makes you wonder what's predetermined and what isn't done.

I think

we have a plan.

A lot of people use the word soul contract.

Contracts are very human.

We don't need to sign on a dotted line.

But I kind of explain it as it's a weird, I like visuals.

So, you know, there's a buffet.

And your soul is like, okay, I'm going to plan this human life.

And you have one of your guides with you.

And then there's specialized guides just for planning lives.

And you go along with your buffet and you yourself, your soul, loads it up and put up, puts everything on, and your guides help you make the choices.

And then you get to the end of the line, and the guides who focus only on planning lives are like, oh, you know, you have a little bit too much of that.

Let's take some of that off.

Oh, you have maybe not quite enough of this, so put some of that back on.

And then you go into your life with your perfect little buffet plate.

So it's not like concrete, at least from what I have learned.

It's more we have infinite free will, but we have sort of a guideline.

Got it.

And if we choose, oh, I'm going to go this really hard way right now,

at another time you might get to go an easier way, or one of your other lives gets to go a much easier way because you chose a hard path in this life.

Interesting.

Yeah, I've heard you've got these guides, and if you don't accomplish the goals in that life, you'll just have to repeat it.

Do you think that's true?

There is no repetition because time doesn't exist.

So time and space don't exist on the other side.

So everything is happening at the same time.

So right now I'm living, right now, I'm living in the 1800s, the 2300s.

I'm living in different areas

right now in this dimension.

So I'm living a life, I don't know how, because

it seems foreign, but in one of the southern states, I'm like a 50-year-old woman with big hair.

I'm living a life in a different part of Canada.

millions, millions and millions of souls, but there's billions of people on the planet.

Whoa.

So, you know, all of us are living.

It's not important to know your other lives.

It doesn't necessarily impact you right now.

It's just, there's such a bigger picture,

which I don't think everybody who has NDEs learns all of this stuff.

You know, again, I had a good relationship with my guides, and when I was there and they helped me make the decision of whether I'm or not I wanted to come back, they were able to say, okay, if you come back, this and this and this this is going to happen and it's going to be great, but this and this and this is going to be, it's going to happen, and it is going to be the most difficult, horrible.

You will want to come back.

And so, I was fully aware of what I was signing up for coming back.

Wow, yeah, so you knew that would be super difficult.

Yes, I don't think it's like rose-colored glasses when you're over there.

It's like, oh, yeah, I can handle that.

No problem.

No, it was so hard, and

wanted to go back more than I wanted anything in my life in that first six months.

And they explained, you know, like

if you choose to go back, the first six months will be, you will learn a lifetime worth of patience, like a lifetime worth of patience in six months.

It will be the hardest time you have ever had in your life.

And my life has not been easy.

So to be more hard than, you know, like I moved out at 14.

I was homeless.

I

have had a very difficult life as far as like having to be independent, just

so, so much stuff.

It hasn't been an easy life.

And so, when I kind of thought about it over there, everything, yeah.

rainbows and unicorns, you come back and it's like, oh my gosh.

Like I woke up paralyzed on the right side, completely.

I didn't even have a shadow of movement.

I was non-verbal.

I did wake up with vision.

So I magically woke up and I wasn't blind anymore.

Because your right eye was blind, you said.

Completely.

Like in the first MRI, it was all the way to the back.

And they told my husband,

that's never coming back.

Like that's that's not something that can come back.

And so they actually took my license away because they didn't believe me that I could see it.

So I didn't have a license.

They did because I, so the thing that was going to kill me was a seizure that I started having when I landed there.

And I think,

you know, was not fun to have, but I had to be on a very strong medication for six months.

And so they take your license in Canada when you're having seizures and that sort of thing.

Jeez, you had a stroke and a seizure?

Yeah, so I had two strokes and then, yeah, a seizure when I was still unconscious.

Holy crap.

Yeah.

But thankfully, I was on the other side.

So I went to the other side when I was in the life flight.

I stayed there, like my soul stayed there.

I didn't have to feel anything.

So that part for my physical body was very, very painful from the helicopter all the way to when I had the seizure, extremely painful.

And so I was not in my body.

I was still on the other side until just before the seizure.

And that's when I made the decision.

Again, time and space don't exist there.

So it felt like I was there for 100 years.

Whoa.

or 50 or 10 or like there's just there was no pressure.

I didn't have to make the choice quickly.

I kept going from the grass to the water because it was like avatar.

Like everything,

you could feel everything just, I had no shoes on.

And so I would put my feet in the grass.

And I can still, anytime I have a hard time, I close my eyes and I can feel it.

Wow.

And so

I was still over there.

As soon as I made the decision, and was when the seizure started, and I chose to go back.

The second I chose, I was no longer in the garden, but I wasn't in my body.

I was in like this light-filled kind of waiting room.

And I know other NDEers, like people in surgery and stuff, kind of float above their body

just to be sort of outside of the pain.

And so I stayed in this like floating zone until the seizure was done.

And then, as soon as it was done, as soon as the, because it was long, because they had to give me a medication to stop because my brain was swelling so quickly.

And yeah, so as soon as it stopped, I closed my eyes again and I was in my body completely unconscious.

There was no still joining to the other side, nothing.

I have no recollection from like the moment I went back into my body until I woke up a day or two sort of later.

Wow.

Yeah.

So you were like unconscious, but you were in your body.

Yeah.

And were you having thoughts or?

Nope, that for all of that part.

No, I was fully, fully human again.

I was very medicated.

So I got there and my husband had to choose whether or not to do the brain surgery because I was too far gone.

So they pretty much said it's probably not going to do anything and because she had that very strong blood thinner it's probably going to kill her and so they said you have to decide if you want to do brain surgery or not and Mike my husband had no idea and so he's like well what would you do he said to the neurologist or neurosurgeon if it was your wife laying there and he said I would not do the surgery so if the neurosurgeon wouldn't do it for his wife, I think my husband made a good choice.

He was not educated about this stuff

and so because I wasn't going to get the surgery, they put me into the ICU just to try to keep me alive till my family got there.

Because we've like it was a short life flight, but it was a two-hour drive.

And while I was on the other side, not only could I sort of make decisions and be there and be with them, I could see all my family.

So I could see my kids packing a suitcase.

And I wanted wanted to be like, what are you packing?

They were packing like fancy clothes.

They had no idea what was going to happen.

I could see my one sister, she hates when I talk about this, but she gets a nervous stomach.

And so she was bawling her eyes out.

She was in the cartoon driving to her house and she was racing to try and make it to the bathroom because she was so nervous.

I could see my other sister bargaining with God.

If you let her live, I promise I will start going to church.

I will do anything if you let her live.

And so, I got to, I didn't feel sad watching it.

Even my kids, like, they were so scared.

And I didn't feel sad because everything made sense.

But I think it was still, it was helpful to be able to see them.

So, you were like astro projecting then.

Yeah,

I was on the other side.

And I think on the other side, you can kind of see anything anywhere.

Right.

Yeah.

That is so interesting.

Wow.

And then how long did it take to fully recover?

A long,

a long time.

To the doctors, it was miraculous.

To a mere human that doesn't understand doctor terms, it was the hardest thing I've ever done.

So being paralyzed, they told my husband, start looking for long-term care.

You probably won't be able to take her home ever.

I was in the ICU for two weeks.

And then after the ICU, they let me go home because I lived close to a hospital.

And then I did

rehab in the hospital for 10 weeks.

And then I did paid rehab

almost broke us for the whole first year.

Whoa.

Because not only was I paralyzed, the movement, I started moving on day maybe three.

That's quick.

Like maybe four.

They said you'd be paralyzed for life, right?

Yep.

On the right side.

So my left side worked fine.

No, they said I won't get anything back.

And they didn't believe my husband.

They thought I was like twitching.

But within three or four days, I was walking.

And we actually, my husband did a video the first time I I walked to the bathroom.

And I think that was like December 27th.

The stroke was the 21st or 22nd in the morning.

Yeah.

Yeah, or 23rd.

And I was saying words almost as soon as I woke up.

And I fully had to learn to talk again by repetition, speech therapy.

But when I, so I came home and my first checkup with the neurology we drove to,

and he could not believe it.

I was walking.

I was walking with like canes

and he actually called the stroke team from eMERGE to watch me because they were so affected by the mom who was dying in front of her kids on Christmas Day

and nobody could believe it.

But it was still, I'm still recovering.

I still have aphasia.

I can't feel the right side of my body at all.

Really?

No, I can move it.

I can move it better if it's mirrored to the other one.

I can't feel anything.

It's like a line.

Wow.

I have struggles eating.

Once it hits three o'clock, I start losing my words.

I do stumble over words still, or can't find words.

I'm missing all of this part of my brain and most of this part.

Yeah,

there's a picture in my book.

It's like it is all gone.

So they took it out?

No, it goes away.

So in the picture in the book, it's still there.

It still looks like brain tissue, but it's white.

And so that was right after the stroke.

But now, so when you have a stroke, it doesn't come back at all.

Like you don't heal that part of the brain.

So once it dies, it takes a while.

So I think it took like a year for it to change to look how it will look.

So now it's probably TMI, but when you see

scans of my brain, it looks kind of like a bladder looks in

an ultrasound.

It's just black water.

Wow.

So like it's, they call it sloughing.

It sloughs off all the brain tissue and it fills with fluid, like brain fluid.

And so you don't heal the brain, but you create new pathways.

Got it.

So

your brain relearns to do things from different parts of your brain.

And I shouldn't be able to talk.

Your speech center usually is on this side of the brain or this side.

But because I'm left-handed, very rarely a left-handed person will have a speech center on the other side of the brain.

And apparently, I do.

Wow.

Yeah.

Everything just happened, right?

And I call that a miracle, but you know better.

Yeah, I know.

If you go in my medical chart, every doctor, because I've had a few little strokes, which is part of recovery,

it says my miraculous patient at the top of the neurosurgeon's chart.

Yeah.

And because I shouldn't be able to do anything.

That's so fascinating.

Wow.

Did you lose memories?

Yes.

Yes.

So I have retrograde amnesia.

So for me, every morning when I wake up, it is March 2820.

What?

It's like that movie where the girl wakes up at the same day every day.

And I have to tell myself and reorient.

So I lost, so the stroke was in 2021.

I lost the two years before completely.

And then the four years before that were patchy.

So I created memories through pictures.

So like, you know, when you see a picture of yourself when you're three and you think you remember that birthday when more than likely you don't?

Yeah.

I have created as part of rehab, looking at pictures and my family would tell me what we were doing and I would create memories.

So I remember some stuff now, but I always like when I write a date,

2020.

Wow.

Yeah.

It's anything.

And I have short-term memory loss now, long-term memory loss,

which is kind of nice.

You know, when I get mad, I stay mad for like half an hour and then I'm like, oh, it's fine now.

It's crazy.

Wow.

So do you even remember any of your past patients that you've done work for, psychic work for?

I didn't ever.

I like to leave work at work.

So when I'm even sitting here, I meditate beforehand and allow them to, their thoughts become my words.

So it's them talking.

So unless I am learning something, I don't want to remember anything I say.

And so I do groups and private readings and stuff like that.

So when I sit down, I let spirit come in.

And then when I'm done, whatever work I'm doing, I let them leave and I take nothing with me.

That is fascinating.

So is that channeling?

Yeah.

Yeah.

So that's your higher self coming down to take over.

Or my guides.

It's mostly my guides.

Okay.

My human self, I'm just human, right?

I don't know any more than the average person other than I can read people's energy and stuff.

But I think even that is the other side.

But it's their guides.

It's their loved ones.

I don't physically channel loved ones through my body.

Like I don't let them come into my body because I think that would be, number one, kind of weird.

Also, yeah, very tiring, I think.

Yeah.

But guides.

It's all telepathic.

And that part of it got a lot easier after being on the other side.

It's because I'm not as scared of it, I think.

Before I wanted like a separation, like I always let them stand to the right, so I made them stand over there.

I like a separation.

I don't want them like fully in my,

I know people that do that and are fine, but I like a little bit of separation.

I could see that.

Do you think it's important for people to know or connect with their spirit guides?

It depends on your path.

You know, I don't think my life's any easier or better because of it.

And if you are

a soul that's here to learn more than teach, it's probably better not to

because it's a little easier, I think.

So if you are kind of like a mid-energy soul or higher, then it's probably good and helpful.

But there's certain people I could talk for 10 hours and they would never understand what I'm saying because they're not meant to.

It's not my job to give anybody faith.

They have to get there by themselves.

And I think same with guides.

You know,

certain people I think can get obsessive and then not make decisions for themselves.

So I don't ask my guides to make decisions for me.

And I think people who want to know their guides, it's more like, hey, tell me what to do now, to be the best me or be on the right path.

And if it's like more obsessive like that, it's probably not great.

There's no way of being human that's wrong.

Just because I can see my guides, talk to loved ones, that sort of stuff, doesn't make me any better than somebody who can't.

And it's all different levels of learning.

And if you take like

somebody in kindergarten and stick them in a PhD class, they're not going to understand anything and vice versa.

Somebody with a PhD would be real bored in a kindergarten class.

So saying to like a lower energy soul, hey, get to know your guides if you want to be this good human that can understand things, it's not necessarily great.

Makes sense.

So So when you say lower energy soul, is that someone that hasn't had as many life experiences and you were soul?

Yeah.

I use soul age, but then people get angry because it's, yes, it's easy to understand age, but then people will be like, but I know a three-year-old that's clearly like an old.

I don't mean age, I mean how many lives they have lived, right?

But I think people get confused there.

But yes, a lower, like a younger soul would, it would be, there would be no benefit.

They need to to forget the other side or else they will go back there.

So like when we plan our lives, we plan a beginning and an end, but then in that time span, we plan anywhere from two to ten exit points.

So the stroke would have been an exit point.

And if you're a young soul and all of a sudden the entire world gets dumped on your lap, you're going to take the next exit point.

And it doesn't mean suicide necessarily.

It's just like people maybe drive the same way to work every single day.

And one day they're like, ooh, you know, I'm going to go this way.

I want this different type of coffee.

And then there was an accident

where they were supposed to be.

Or maybe there's not, but there would have been, and they went that way.

That's avoiding an exit point.

So it's not always this blatant, oh, I almost died.

Right.

It can just be certain circumstances where if you do it, you're going to the other side.

Wow.

So everyone deals with these exit points, huh?

I don't think I've met anybody that doesn't have any, other than maybe, you know, a baby lost very young or in utero or something like that.

But even those are like lessons, right?

Yep.

For the parents.

Yeah.

My dad lost his baby at birth.

Yeah.

And that was really tough for him.

But I think it was a lesson, right?

It is for the parents for sure.

And we will live every human experience.

So in this life, he lost a baby.

In another life, he will be that baby that was lost.

Whoa.

Right?

You have to experience every facet of what it means to be human.

And you can't do that in one life.

you need infinite lives and infinite dimensions to understand

so is that like the game then we we live all these experiences and then what what's the end do you think

i don't a hundred percent know yet i i know eventually you know so

I have an analogy of rain clouds because I think it under it helps me understand.

So picture your higher self as a rain cloud and all the lives you're living are raindrops.

And so they come down, they live, they go go about, and then they go back up to that rain cloud.

And there is a higher rain cloud above, so God's source, whatever you want to call it.

And that rain cloud has created all the other rain clouds by their raindrops.

I do think eventually we go back to source.

I don't fully understand how it happens.

Because I wanted to go there so bad, I don't want to know necessarily how it happens.

But I know there's no pressure and we want to come here.

Life is not punishment, even though sometimes it feels like it.

It's not like, oh, you messed up or you made a mistake and now

you have to do it again.

No.

It's more a learning experience.

So you live your life, you have your buffet plate, you go back.

And then you do a life review and you see how you affected the world and how the world affected you.

And you also get to see, like, say you had an argument with a family member and, you know, you felt really vindicated, like, oh yeah, I'm right, I won that.

And then you go about your life.

When you do your life review, you then need to watch the other person.

And maybe something you said offhand, not even thinking about it, really, really hurt them.

And they then carried that with them for the rest of their life.

You get to...

look at that, experience it, learn from it.

But that soul also is over there.

So it's not like you're stuck, unfinished business.

Oh, God, I'm going to have to apologize when they get here.

That's not it.

It's more a very objective, loving, learning experience.

You don't get punished for that?

Not at all.

There is no punishment.

Oh, no bad karma or anything.

Because I believe in karma.

Karma for humans.

So we

here,

we need a reward-punishment society in order to function and exist.

Otherwise, we will all just offer each other, get mad and be like, screw you, right?

You have to have that here.

On the other side, no, it's just love.

Really?

100%.

And that's very hard to understand when you think about some of the horrible people in the world.

Like, I want certain people that do certain things to be punished.

Like, in the core of my soul, I want them to be punished because you want them to feel some of the pain that they have caused other people.

But when you get to the other side, those people that have done those horrible things, even though I still don't agree with this, I'm getting on board with it, they are older souls because they're not here to learn.

They're not learning anything.

They're horrible people.

They're here to teach.

Think of the worst, and everybody brings up almost the same examples.

I'm not going to say it because everybody's thinking the same thing, but

that somebody who every almost every human on the planet agrees this is a horrible person.

They are not learning, but think how much they're teaching like somebody who died decades ago we're still learning from them now that's true right that is a teacher maybe not the type of teacher we want but it is part of the human condition and i think it's hard to like

objectively see being human that way yeah well there's no good and bad right no good and evil or whatever it's all relative and i've never seen a demon or a negative energy you know and there can be an argument made that I have really good protection.

So, you know, I'm not saying I'm completely right and I probably wouldn't disagree if somebody has something different to say.

Yeah.

But I only see love.

And I've talked to horrible people, like when I've done readings, that people who only come forward to apologize for the pain or crimes they have committed.

But they were on the other side just like everybody else.

Interesting.

Well, I also think your vibration is really high.

So I don't, if there are demons, I don't think they would even reach you, honestly.

No, you know.

No.

But I, you know, the fact that I've seen, I don't know what kind of censorship or if you have to take it out, but like I've seen pedophiles, I've seen rapists, you know, not physically in person, but like talking, you know, a daughter will come for a reading and doesn't want to talk to this person.

I do have boundaries and I don't let them speak a long piece, but sometimes they will, if they think it will help that person, they will apologize.

And they are surrounded in the exact same love.

Because how, if you see that rain cloud, how can you punish the rain cloud and all of the raindrops because one raindrop did something horrible?

And that soul would have to be punished at the same time as that one raindrop.

So it would affect everyone you're saying.

Yeah.

Wow.

That's crazy to think about.

Yeah, forgiveness is important, right?

Yeah.

And it's okay here to not, because maybe that's your lesson.

You know, if you're going to be an angry person for your whole life, which I would not recommend because guilt, shame, regret, and anger cause cancer, cause heart attacks

and cause very awful people.

But you can be angry and horrible and grumpy your whole life, and you're not going to be treated any different when you get to the other side.

Wow.

Yeah.

I did not expect that answer.

Yeah, I assumed karma would come get them in the next life or something.

Nope, because it's all happening at once, right?

So maybe they're a complete nightmare here doing awful things, but they're living 50 other lives doing wonderful, loving things.

So in that way, karma is balancing everything.

Okay, you're doing awful things in this life.

So let's make sure that this life is doing something amazing for humanity because it has to balance.

Everything has to balance.

Yin and yang.

That's crazy.

When you hear people taking DMT, which is released when you die,

is that like a cheat code to experience what death looks like?

I think

maybe, but I think you have to be cautious.

A lot of people talk about, what is that?

Where they go to like, yes.

And if you are somebody that is at least like a middle-aged soul, I think it can be beneficial.

It can help you get to where I am when I'm channeling, right?

Because I can just sit down and talk to dead people or talk to my guides.

So I think it can kind of bump you up so that you can, at least for yourself, get that kind of knowledge.

And I think that's wonderful.

But if you are a little bit of a younger soul, or if it's not meant for you in this life, it can actually cause mental illness and psychosis.

So you have to be cautious.

You have to make sure you're cleansing your energy, cleansing your space, and you have very trustworthy people around you.

Same with if you ever go to somebody like me.

If the energy feels off or heavy or just, just tell them, say, hey, you know what?

No, thank you.

You know, because not everybody is coming from a really loving, high-energy place.

Very quickly, if people start making a lot of money,

they're not necessarily delving in like somebody who isn't or you know, the focus can shift.

But I think, yes, any substance that could potentially push you a little bit higher in this dimension

can be good, but maybe with caution.

Right.

Have you doubled?

No.

Psychedelics?

No.

So part of my past was I was born this way.

So I could see dead people from

a young age.

Three, four.

I remember it.

I also had psychic vision, so I would see a plane crash and then it would happen, a bear attack, and it would happen.

And I thought I was causing them because I had no reference.

So I didn't want to tell anyone.

I thought adults were rude because they didn't talk to half the people in the room.

And I couldn't understand why they just ignored, because I didn't know they were all dead.

And so I learned through, like at some point, I was like, I'm not doing that.

I'm so scared.

I don't want to do this anymore.

I hate it.

I don't.

And I learned any type of substance, shut it off.

And let me ignore it.

So I started, I live in Canada and on the west coast, so it's like weed central.

So I started smoking weed, which led to things like psychedelics,

alcohol, stuff like that.

And then I had, I think when I was 16, had like a spiritual awakening where there was this bright light.

I was in Mexico.

I dropped out of school.

My parents took me there because I was not doing good.

And there was two paths shown to me.

This bright light was there and this path of one way was just light.

The other way was all my friends and all the stuff I was doing, which was comfortable to me.

And I had to make a choice.

And I had no idea what I was doing.

I was fifteen or si I think fifteen, whatever grade nine is.

And I chose light.

And I didn't pick up drugs anymore.

I came back, started going to church.

Unfortunately, I soon lur learned

necessarily'cause for me, light, when I was young, I was like, light is religion, right?

Because that's what society tells you.

No, no, that's not what they were trying to tell me.

I maybe misinterpreted a little and I ended up at a church where I went all in and I ended up getting married at 18.

A week after I got turned 18.

Not the greatest choice.

I learned a lot and I'm so grateful for it, but it was a slightly cultivate.

Was it Mormon?

No, it was like a very Pentecostal Christian, like born-again Christian.

But like we couldn't do things like dance, play cards.

That was all of the devil.

Wow.

And being a medium was like the psychic.

The psychic was the problem because then it's a false prophet.

So you probably had a lot of shame just like

seeing those visions.

Yeah, but I think it saved my life.

I think I would have

stepped it up to much worse drugs.

And I probably wouldn't have, I would have had an exit point there of an overdose or something like that.

Wow.

So the religion saved you in a way?

I think it 100% saved me.

And I practiced religion, the same religion, not quite quite as strict.

I didn't stay with that husband.

I was with him for five years altogether.

But I practiced religion until I accepted my gifts.

And when I told the church,

like 2015, I think I was 35, you know, this is, I was born to do this.

I had this awakening.

And they said, I was a Sunday school teacher and they're like, nope, you know, you can do the mediumship is okay because that's, you know,

okay to talk to them.

They're your loved ones.

It's okay to do the medical stuff.

Not psychic.

That's a false prophet.

You don't, and so I didn't go back.

Wow.

You had to pick.

Yeah.

Wow.

I mean, lots of choices in my life.

Yeah, but I think you chose the right one.

You helped a lot of people choosing the psychic path.

I don't think you would have impacted as many people with the other route.

No, and I think for my human self, I needed...

I needed the calm before the storm because, you know, being psych is fun sometimes.

It's not always fun to know everything, you know?

Like, not everybody walks into a room and knows exactly what everybody's thinking of them.

And a lot of people are scared of me.

So you could walk into any room and just know who they're thinking?

Yeah.

Whoa.

But I also know the why.

I know why you are the way you are and how you got here and where you're going.

And that's hard.

And at first, I didn't know how to shut it off.

Now it's like a light switch.

But, you know, like

it's, it's hard to be around somebody like me.

It's hard to be friends with me

because I think a lot of people feel on edge.

My sister, the one whose name I could say, who's like one of my closest soul bonds in this life,

would in the beginning, like she tried to be so cool with everything and she was trying to learn because she didn't really understand any of it.

But every time she's

around me, she's like, I don't know why, but like, I know I shouldn't think bad things, but all of a sudden I'm thinking about like dead babies and mass shooting and like all these horrible things.

And she's like, I know, I'm not actually thinking that, but because I know you can read my mind, I just start thinking.

And I think a lot of people think that.

And a lot of people are scared of me.

And that's

it.

Yeah, as a human in my human life, it's hard.

My spiritual life and when I'm working, doing videos, interviews, readings, it's the best gift.

Yeah, absolutely.

Because you could just read people.

I can see why people are scared because a lot of people are not being their authentic selves.

So they're hiding something.

And it's hard for me to react to what you're showing me on your face.

So like so many very unhappy people joke a lot, laugh a lot, smile a lot.

And I try not to react to how they're actually feeling

because I want to be like, why?

Like, how come you're joking so much when, you know, like your grandma is dying or you just got in a fight with your spouse?

Like, let's talk about that.

Yeah.

But people don't like that.

No, they don't.

You know, and that's, and it's not helpful, you know, unless somebody invites me in, I have no right being there.

And that's a hard line.

And I don't think everyone who has

like gifts like I do

practices the hard line.

And I try to, like with my kids, I really try not to invade their personal thoughts and feelings.

Although the other day, my daughter came up and she's like, I don't feel very good.

And I get a look and I like, was, I don't know, scanning her kind of.

And she looks at me and she's like, mom, stop scanning me.

I'm like, what are you talking about?

She's like, I can tell.

I'm fine.

I'll tell you if I'm not.

They probably have powers too, right?

It's genetic.

Yeah, both of them have, they don't have all my gifts.

And I am grateful for that because even though now I look so balanced, I was not.

Like my life has not been easy, but both of my daughter's very intuitive.

And I think my son is going to be a bit like me with the empath gifts.

Like he feels

everything

and has a super high IQ with it, which I think makes it kind of worse.

Nice.

Man, I'm, I guess.

Yeah, but both kids have parts of me.

Neither of them are exactly like me.

I don't have a genetic line of people like me.

And most people do.

I don't have any.

Yeah.

Wow.

So are you adopted?

We thought, no.

I'm not, but my soul chose this because

my path, I needed to not feel understood.

I think my life would have looked a lot different if you could relate to people.

Yeah, and if I wasn't so isolated in who I was.

So we choose even the painful things for a reason.

So now I don't have any regrets about everything I did or said when I was young, but I sure did before.

Oh, for sure.

I felt super isolated growing up and I always was like,

I had a victim mentality at the time.

But now, looking back, I was like, that was probably really good for me.

Yeah.

And

like, made your path so much stronger.

Yeah.

Right.

It's not woe is me.

And I was pretty woe is me for a long time.

Like, I couldn't understand why I just didn't fit.

Like, I felt like I was a square peg trying to jam myself into a really round hole.

It just didn't work.

And I couldn't understand.

And I was very blamey.

you know, like, well, if that person did that, didn't do that, then I wouldn't be who I was now.

And so it's their fault.

But no, I chose this path and I chose these lessons.

I love it.

Well, let's end off with the book and talk to everyone about this and where can people get it.

Yeah, so you can get it on Amazon.

I self-published because I am not fancy like that.

And I did write it.

So my guide said the first six months would be horrible, but the first 18 months would be really difficult.

And then it would slowly start getting better.

And I started writing it like right at the 18-month mark.

I can't type.

Again, I can't feel the right side in my body.

So somebody typed while I talked.

And so it is quite simple language.

I still had very

limited verbal skills from aphasia, but it's the story of my life and then the stroke and the other side and everything I learned from the other side, from my guides.

And then each of my guides, my guides' names are Peter, Jessica, and Gail.

Each one of them have a chapter that they answer questions because they're very different.

And Peter, I gave him the name Peter.

His name's not Peter.

It's like something weird like pa or raw, and I don't know.

So I just call him Peter because it's non-threatening.

And they're very different types of energy, so they each have a chapter as well.

That's beautiful.

I can't wait to read that.

Thank you.

Is it on Audible too?

I don't know how to do it on Audible yet.

I'm trying to learn.

So I'm not very techie.

Okay.

You're going to have to, man, I haven't read a book in a while.

I'm an audiobook guy, but I'll do it for you.

Because for me, I think, I hope it's not an imposition tuning into your energy, but I think your attention span is not wonderful.

I have ADHD, so that's not an insult at all.

Okay.

I made it ADHD and stroke.

brain injury friendly.

Oh, nice.

It's almost double space, and the writing is bigger, so it's much easier for people whose brains aren't totally able to focus to actually read it.

I'll definitely give it a go then.

And then I also write poetry.

My guides help me write poetry.

So at the beginning of each chapter,

there's a poem that I wrote.

I also came back with the gift of painting.

So I painted a flower in there for you.

I always hear stories of that where like some guy will wake up, know how to play the piano.

Yeah.

My guides kept saying, pick up a paintbrush.

And I was like, what are you talking about?

I've painted my life.

No,

I can paint.

Beautiful.

Well, I'll definitely read it and let you know.

I take it.

Thank you.

Thank you so much for having me.

Thanks for coming on.

Yeah, we'll link it in the description below.

Thanks for watching, guys, as always.

See you next time.

Bye-bye.