Trusting God in the Waiting Season | Girls Gone Bible

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Speaker 3 you guys i think the favorite my favorite part of the book is our love story literally me too it's june 3rd which means our book our devotional out of the wilderness

Speaker 3 out of the wilderness 31 devotions to get you through your hardest seasons is that what it's called

Speaker 3 It's a long title. 31 devotion, 31 devotions to get you through your hardest seasons.
31 devotions to walk with God. Yeah, I wrote that.
We wrote that, I know. In action.
In action.

Speaker 3 It's not even a real book. I'm boogie.
It's a real book.

Speaker 3 Can I be honest?

Speaker 3 I think the best part about this podcast is that we are the biggest amateurs I've ever seen.

Speaker 3 I want you guys to know, like, no matter how big it gets, we still don't know what's going on. We still don't know.
That is the best part of this.

Speaker 3 We don't try God shows us. Yes.
We don't try.

Speaker 3 We don't try.

Speaker 3 We don't know what we're doing. We go into meetings.
We're five minutes in. We're trying to figure out who we're talking to, what we're talking about.

Speaker 3 Ari and I, we both rely on each other to take notes. I'm always like, oh, I'm going to check out because she's here.
I'll have her. But she does the same thing.
So neither of us listen.

Speaker 3 Neither of us know what to do.

Speaker 3 No, it's really true. It's, I think that's been the most challenging thing about

Speaker 3 being in business together is that I truly check out because I rely so much on you listening that when I'm in meetings, I hear about five words in the whole meeting.

Speaker 3 And you know me, I listen to every third word.

Speaker 3 You really, you really just started disassociating lately. I believe you wanted to take a photo on the call last night.
I look up and she's like giving us instructions.

Speaker 3 I look at Angel and she's like, it was I looking at you. You were looking off screen.
I was fasting. I was so like, I didn't know.
I haven't fasted in almost what feels like a year. Yeah.

Speaker 3 Because I didn't fast when I was on. Last time I fasted, I fainted.
Last time you fasted, I fed you goldfish. Goldfish by the bathroom.
Did we tell people that? I don't think so.

Speaker 3 Be cautionary tale for fasting. Really? To a doctor first.
But you know why?

Speaker 3 You know why that happened, right? Because I am so highly addicted to coffee that not having a coffee, my migraine was so bad that I could not see straight.

Speaker 3 Then that's really good for you to fast, probably.

Speaker 3 You know, when people talk about idols, the first thing I think about is coffee. I have made an before I go to bed, I almost want to go to bed because I'm like, this is really not okay.

Speaker 3 But I'm like, and let me know if you feel this way too. I'm like,

Speaker 3 I can't wait to go to sleep because I get to wake up and have a coffee. Oh, it's so real.
My mom is like that. My mom sets up her coffee the night before.
You and my mom are the same person. I know.

Speaker 3 I know. Well, my, so that's your hyperfixation is coffee.
Yeah, are you kidding? And celery juice. I do love a good celery

Speaker 3 joyce.

Speaker 3 I love a good joy.

Speaker 3 And your other hyperfixation is that eggs have can't, uh, that eggs have diseases and I can't. I don't like eggs because they're bad for you

Speaker 3 who told you

Speaker 3 the medical medium who's that i follow him and i'm following everything he says is that demonic medical medium i don't know medium oh yeah i don't know no he loves jesus i think oh god

Speaker 3 my hyper fix okay

Speaker 3 If you go to Whole Foods, they have this dispenser that dispenses peanut butter and it dispenses almond butter and there's no oil. It's the best thing I've ever eaten in my life.

Speaker 3 I was at John's house the other day and I was eating a banana with you've been doing this.

Speaker 3 With the almond, yeah, with the almond butter on top and I'm freaking out about the almond butter and I go, John, like, I have never eaten anything as good as this almond butter in my life.

Speaker 3 Like, and I'm going on and on and on about this almond butter. And he goes, you need help.
There's something not right with the way you get it.

Speaker 3 He goes, no offense, there's nothing special about that almond butter. It's you, you get like this.
I just love what I love. But you got to go with it.
It's kind of cute. I'm like, okay, yeah.

Speaker 3 My favorite part is the excitement that you get when we pull into somewhere where you know you're going to get that hyperfixation bar or juice or whatever it is, the month that

Speaker 3 whatever obsession that you're in,

Speaker 3 it's like your joy. It's like Christmas morning.
She doesn't need anything else. I don't need expensive things i just she would rather just have that one little thing than

Speaker 3 like most girls would want a nice like i don't know bracelet

Speaker 3 not i

Speaker 3 just get her a bar just get her a bar what about when you and i first became friends and yeah i terrorized you i used to i was so depressed she just wanted a friend that i just wanted like I just followed everything Angela did.

Speaker 3 And so I just was like happy to be there. Like I I was just happy to be there and go along for the ride.

Speaker 3 I would pick her up every single day because I had just gotten out of a relationship, so I was like super down bad, too.

Speaker 3 And I would go to the every single day. I'd pick you up.
I'd say, Hey, you want to come to the farmer's market? Get a chicken, get chicken breast, raw chicken. And I didn't know her obsession.

Speaker 3 I didn't know what was going on. I just thought,

Speaker 3 okay, we're eating chicken every day and cutting up carrots every day. Same thing every day, same time, five o'clock.
It was, I have gotten so much better since then.

Speaker 3 You would go to the butcher every day. Every day.
I was like, oh, this is kind of nice. And then I was like, you had a boyfriend.

Speaker 3 And I remember, I think I asked you if you wanted to make something different one time, and you were like, no, let's just do the chicken and carrots. And I was like, okay.
You didn't know yet.

Speaker 3 You didn't know yet. No, there's nothing like the beef addiction.
That was scary. That was actually scary.

Speaker 3 The beef was something else. You guys know I went carnivore for a little bit.

Speaker 3 I was eating so much beef. Like, I literally carried it in a Tupperware everywhere I went.
Everywhere we went, you had a Tupperware. It was full of beef.

Speaker 3 The carnivore diet era, that was one that I like, I look back and I'm like, okay, that was not good. That's not funny at that point.
That was a crazy one.

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Anyways, so today I'm wearing my America shirt because I love America.

Speaker 3 No reason in particular. Today I look like Mary Poppins.
Why? No, there's a reason.

Speaker 3 You love America. I love America.
Do you love America? I do. Oh.
I do. Oh.
Well, who's under that?

Speaker 3 I love America, but when I go to Italy and I see families sitting there and no one's on their phone and they're all just so, like the kids are well-behaved.

Speaker 3 They're actually talking and interacting with each other and no one's on their phone. Yeah.
No one's on their phone in Italy. They're all just enjoying the moment playing.

Speaker 3 And so I'm like, that and the food that's poisoning us and giving us all cancer is just, ugh.

Speaker 3 Where you can go into a train station in Italy and you can get a croissant.

Speaker 3 Oh, it's not. There I am.
I'm going. I'm gone.
Oh, just kidding. I'm just kidding.
We can joke now after last week's episode. It was beautiful.

Speaker 3 Yeah, but if I'm being honest, you can go to Idaho and you see that same thing. You can go to, I loved Idaho.
You loved Idaho. It was a beautiful.

Speaker 3 I was not, I was expecting to land and see like a bunch of big fat potatoes. And like, just I've never seen potatoes in my farms.
Yeah. No.
It's cute. Boise, Idaho is up and coming.

Speaker 3 We're putting it on the map. It reminded me so much of South Carolina.
They just need to add in some cute little clothing store.

Speaker 3 There's a little bit of Nordstrom, a little bit of Reformation, a little bit of this, a little bit of that. But there are places in America where

Speaker 3 people actually do sit and talk to each other. Maybe not in big major cities where there are no families.
You and I are just desperately wanting to be around families.

Speaker 3 And like, oh, it's just so crazy how life changes in your like

Speaker 3 just the independent lifestyle of like somewhere like LA or another major city where everybody's alone. We're not meant to live alone.
We're not. You know, we're not meant to be alone.

Speaker 3 We're not meant to be alone. Yeah, I agree.
We're not meant to be alone.

Speaker 3 I just want to be around greenery and

Speaker 3 children and like sidewalks and I don't know, this fast-paced life. I like it.
Like, I love the city life. Oh, same.

Speaker 3 Like, I like to, but I want to come home and just, that's why I love Massachusetts because it's just, like, I was on FaceTime with Jen this morning, my sister, and she's just walking on this trail and the trees and the greenery.

Speaker 3 And I hear kids, and it's just like that normal life. I love it.
I long for it. You're going to have it.
It's time. It's time.
Angela says this to me all the time. She goes, enough is enough.

Speaker 3 It's time, R.

Speaker 3 It's time. I'm like, I know, Angel.
It is happening. No, I like,

Speaker 3 it's so funny about Albanians. We're like the most patriotic people in the world.
Albanians love being Albanian, and then Albanians who live in America love being Albanian-American. Like, we're so.

Speaker 3 Well, tell them about

Speaker 3 what you guys are going to do at your wedding with

Speaker 3 the guns. This is really cool.
Oh, well. Did we ever tell them this? No, so...
I don't know. There might be Albanians who get, I don't know.
No, it's guns with the money.

Speaker 3 Yeah, well, so at Albanian weddings, like, everybody, like, there's money all over the floor. Like, it's, okay, I have to be honest.

Speaker 3 i haven't been to that many american weddings but america you did you guys see my story i actually need to post that to my v did you guys see my story when i went to a wedding with john and john

Speaker 3 walked down the aisle with another girl oh that was that's what americans do and it's fine but albanians would never

Speaker 3 the their spouse is also in the bridal party and they're walking down the aisle together like they don't play those games at all so they don't have uh bridesmaids and they do.

Speaker 3 Yeah, but they have like 45 bridesmaids and 45 because everybody's in, because they like, I don't know, it's like honor. It's like they're super like honor culture.
Like, they don't leave people out.

Speaker 3 And yeah, so at Albanian weddings, like, it's a party. I feel like American weddings can sometimes be a little like just whatever.
Just like, it's sweet, it's classy and reserved.

Speaker 3 AMCA.

Speaker 3 Oh,

Speaker 3 anyway.

Speaker 3 They wear like little like sundresses. It's beautiful.
Like it's really Albanians wear gowns, full glam, hair to like to the heavens. Like they're, it's huge.
Like they're big.

Speaker 3 Like Eastern European weddings are huge. There are like 500 people and you don't know who anybody is.
And there's money all over the floor and they shoot guns in the air and it's just like opa, opa.

Speaker 3 Like it's fun.

Speaker 3 And John has no idea what's coming for him one day.

Speaker 3 I want to have a like super like half Albanian wedding. Like I want him to come out and do where the like, and he would do anything I ask him to do.

Speaker 3 I want him to wear like the Albanian old-timey, like, outfits, the hat and the little outfit, and then go out and do like a little hale.

Speaker 3 The poor guy has no idea. His family is going to be like

Speaker 3 shooting money out of guns. And then his family is so

Speaker 3 like, they're so sweet. So sweet.
Like, that is so, I can't. My family comes to tear the house down.
I'm not missing one second of not documenting this wedding. That is all I have to say.

Speaker 3 Oh, speaking of weddings.

Speaker 3 Speaking of weddings, if and when, no, no, that's, that's negative. But I always like,

Speaker 3 I don't know. Like, I see these big weddings and I'm like, I don't even want to spend a lot of money.

Speaker 3 I want to have a party and I want good food and I want to have a band and I just want to party all night with my friends, listen to music, dance.

Speaker 3 Go on someone's shoulders and just yes.

Speaker 3 I have a feeling you're going to have like a smaller one.

Speaker 3 Well, I'm going to have 13 bridesmaids. You have 45 bridesmaids.
But you, I feel like you'll want to. You've always wanted a smaller one, right? Yeah, just like people I love and just have fun.
Yeah.

Speaker 3 Because boy, do I deserve it. Yes, you do.
With this waiting season.

Speaker 3 Let's talk about it. Let's talk about it.
Yeah. So, anyways, I love America.
God bless America. God bless America.

Speaker 3 All right. What are we doing today, ah?

Speaker 3 Ah? Ah.

Speaker 3 Ah.

Speaker 3 Say hi to our moms and dads.

Speaker 3 Go ahead.

Speaker 3 No, you. Hi, mom and dad.
I love you guys so much. My mom always asks for a

Speaker 3 shout out. Hi, Roberta.
I love you. I am wearing my underwear today.

Speaker 3 I did lock the doors.

Speaker 3 And I'm not talking to strangers. Your daughter probably is, but I'm not.
She's going to love that. I love you, birdie.
Hi, mom. Si spircha y t boss sonde.
What if I just wait came off here?

Speaker 3 That's kind of hot.

Speaker 3 So many of us are in this

Speaker 3 waiting season.

Speaker 3 It's like this in-between where

Speaker 3 you're just like waiting, but you're also having faith.

Speaker 3 And you know it's good for you because the waiting season is nothing less than a blessing, blessing, but people try to make it feel like it's a curse.

Speaker 3 And so you're just in this in-between of being like,

Speaker 3 I trust you, Jesus, and I know you're doing something,

Speaker 3 but there's also this like

Speaker 3 longing ache in your heart

Speaker 3 that seems to sit sometimes.

Speaker 3 And so I know so many of us are going through it. And we feel like time is running out.

Speaker 3 And it's just really hard, but yet so,

Speaker 3 just such a blessing. So, I really wanted to talk about it because

Speaker 3 this is a season so many of us are in.

Speaker 3 And I just hope today that you can leave this episode feeling

Speaker 3 seen, feeling like I'm not alone, and feeling like what he's going to bring me is far greater than what I can even imagine. And I just hope this episode really brings you some hope

Speaker 3 through my story.

Speaker 3 And I believe I'm going through this because I'm meant to sit here and share and not hide it. And I think a lot of the times

Speaker 3 I've shared so much about my heartbreak and you guys have walked with me through it. And I've been very vulnerable, but I've also

Speaker 3 felt a lot of

Speaker 3 I've also hit a lot of it because,

Speaker 3 I don't know,

Speaker 3 it's very vulnerable. It's been a little bit embarrassing at times being in my 30s.
And I'm like, no, I want to be strong. Like, I want to get through this.

Speaker 3 I want to look at what God's doing in my life.

Speaker 3 But at the same time, like, I do hurt. And I think people need to hear that side too.
When

Speaker 3 I've just noticed lately, like, God's been putting it on my heart that you're in this season because you're meant to talk about it. You need to talk about it more.

Speaker 3 I have you in this place because I need you to share with these other people. And so I want to be more open.

Speaker 3 I was watching some old episodes and watching some of my old clips and I used to be just, you know, when you're going through something and you can just bleed out and then you become, you have a little bit of bitterness in your soul and you have to get tough and your body becomes, your nervous system almost gets in survival mode of like, I have to get through this.

Speaker 3 So I think I've, I've been going through that a little bit and just feeling like, I, I don't want to talk about it anymore. And people probably don't want to hear it.

Speaker 3 And I'm like, no, we need to talk about it. I talk about this so much in the book.
I wrote as I wrote in these devotions, I actually was in my healing process. And so that's what's so beautiful.

Speaker 3 When I was reading back on this, I can't believe

Speaker 3 how far I've come.

Speaker 3 And so it's like,

Speaker 3 I'm like, no, we're going to talk about this because I know you guys

Speaker 3 feel like it's never going to end. Like,

Speaker 3 am I being punished? And

Speaker 3 your waiting season is the furthest thing from a punishment. Let me tell you.

Speaker 3 I wrote in a couple devotions about

Speaker 3 the waiting season, but one of them, the title is His Timeline, Not Mine.

Speaker 3 A couple of scriptures that I wrote.

Speaker 3 One of my favorites, and I hope you guys can even write this in your notes and just kind of speak them out loud when the thoughts come of

Speaker 3 will it ever happen? What is going on? Like these longing aches of grief that you feel.

Speaker 3 John 13, verse 7 says, you do not understand now what I am doing, but you will understand later.

Speaker 3 Romans 8, 28 says, we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

Speaker 3 Ecclesiastes 3, verse 1 says, there is a time for everything and a season for activity under the heavens.

Speaker 3 I can just read a little bit. We love to do things in our own timing.
Eager for all the good things, we often try to jump ahead and do things our way.

Speaker 3 And if what we want doesn't happen, we get impatient with God. But God allows different seasons for a reason, and we might miss out on his plans if we try to skip any of them.

Speaker 3 Maybe your current wilderness season involves singleness. This isn't because God wants to withhold good things from you.

Speaker 3 He wants to build trust with you and to create an intimate relationship where he is first in your life.

Speaker 3 If you experience hard circumstances or challenges in your wilderness season, he wants you to come to him instead of running to other people

Speaker 3 or comforts of the world because he loves you and he wants to build something in you. He is using this time to prepare you to step into whatever new season he has.

Speaker 3 in store for your next.

Speaker 3 It's so good.

Speaker 3 And then I just like, I'll just read this little thing.

Speaker 3 I often heard how fun singleness could be, but no one prepared me for how much of a shock it would be for someone who was always used to being in a relationship.

Speaker 3 When I entered a season of singleness for the first time, let's just say it was the furthest thing from fun or easy.

Speaker 3 So, gosh, can I just say,

Speaker 3 I just want to give you your flowers,

Speaker 3 Ari,

Speaker 3 for somebody who

Speaker 3 has had an attack on your mind your whole life

Speaker 3 and like Satan has always told you that you can't speak and you can't do this and you can't do that, you are such a phenomenal writer.

Speaker 3 Reading your words challenged me so deeply as we wrote this together. It is so beyond impressive your gifting.
You guys are, it's going to blow your mind.

Speaker 3 And I'm telling you right now, this is not the only book Ari writes. Ari is going to write books her entire life because you are a natural-born storyteller.

Speaker 3 You wear your heart on your sleeve, you're able to recount stories and express things and communicate in a way that, like, other people just can't. I can't.
Some people have it and some people don't.

Speaker 3 The way that you write is so, you guys are going to lose your mind. Ari's writing in this book.
You're going to bawl your eyes out. You are insane.
You are so gifted.

Speaker 3 For somebody who got bad grades in school and Satan said you're not smart and they put you in the class and whatever. Look at who you are and look at what you're doing.
Thank you.

Speaker 3 You deserve every bit of it. I swear on my life.
I know. I love you so much.
I love you so much. I really didn't think we would be gone.

Speaker 3 Thank you so much. They're going to look so kind.
That really is so kind of you to say that. Thank you.

Speaker 3 Love you. Thank you.

Speaker 3 Yeah.

Speaker 3 Waiting, man. I mean,

Speaker 3 waiting seasons are, they're brutal. They're so brutal.
And your waiting season

Speaker 3 has been so hard. Can you just take us through,

Speaker 3 I think one part of your story that I love so much, I don't love it for you, but

Speaker 3 this idea that like your life was headed a direction

Speaker 3 and then everything got taken from you and you had to completely make a 180 And like you found yourself back to square one after everything was taken.

Speaker 3 And so can you just talk about what that was like?

Speaker 3 To be in your 30s and to have everything just completely stripped from you was,

Speaker 3 it was so jarring.

Speaker 3 And you get into your 30s because society makes you feel like.

Speaker 3 Like that's it. Like if you haven't already been married or if you already haven't found your career, like hang it up because it's done

Speaker 3 and so i felt like my life was over like i really i i felt like my time was up and i remember feeling like

Speaker 3 how will i ever move on like how will i ever like this was someone i loved so much like how

Speaker 3 like why is this happening Like, I don't, I don't want, I just remember so many nights just being on my hands and knees and bargaining, being like, please, please don't take this away from me.

Speaker 3 Like, this is why, like, you have no idea.

Speaker 3 I, I could be going through help, but knowing that I had someone that I found that I loved so much that I was going to marry, like, it got me through everything.

Speaker 3 Like, you know, and so when that was gone, it was just, it was so unbearable, the grief.

Speaker 3 So, when that happened, I, I'm, and I've shared this when I first started the episode, going through days of like complete isolation.

Speaker 3 Like I've shared with you guys, I would go to this park every day and I would like,

Speaker 3 I was completely isolated. None of my friends lived in LA.

Speaker 3 And I would be in this park and I would just be sitting there and like

Speaker 3 the grief, like I was like, just.

Speaker 3 I was dying. Like emotionally, I was dying.
And I'd just be sitting there and I'd be

Speaker 3 gutted and I'd be like, what am I going to do? Like, what, what, what am I going to do? And so I'm sitting in this park every day and I went through hell.

Speaker 3 I went through a hell that no one will ever be able to understand but me and God.

Speaker 3 I

Speaker 3 fought so hard to the point where I was like, I cannot fight anymore. Like I was so sick emotionally and I was so tired and I just thought my time was up.
And I had no money. I had no career.

Speaker 3 The guy that I loved just completely left and never said anything again.

Speaker 3 Can you just tell them about what it was like? Because I feel like for people who start over, like that's such a thing for people.

Speaker 3 Can you talk about how you go from like being in this like beautiful situation, a beautiful home, like all this stuff?

Speaker 3 And then you find yourself in a studio apartment in Woodland Hills, like you had barely any money to pay your rent and you're just like, and you're looking for jobs like before.

Speaker 3 And you're like, how did we go from this to this? Thanks for asking about about that. Yeah.

Speaker 3 I had my person and I was safe, right?

Speaker 3 And then

Speaker 3 it's gone. It felt like it was just overnight.
It was gone. So I have all these hopes and dreams.
And I'm thinking I'm going to be having a home and planning my wedding and doing this life,

Speaker 3 starting my life. And then all of a sudden, one day, everything is gone.
And I'm in this little studio apartment and I'm sitting on my floor and I'm looking up and I'm like

Speaker 3 like what now

Speaker 3 like

Speaker 3 like what now like

Speaker 3 how will I ever be okay again

Speaker 3 like how and I would and I found this like therapist in Agora Hills and I would go to her and

Speaker 3 she said she's never seen anyone in that much pain and she would my that this this therapist would hold me, and she would just be like,

Speaker 3 I had no one at this time. And she would like hold me in her arms, and I would be like, is it ever going to go away?

Speaker 3 And it was just so,

Speaker 3 it was so dark this time of my life. And I would sit in that park and I would look up and I would just be like,

Speaker 3 this isn't real. Like, this isn't real.
Like, it's, it's, he's like, it's going to work out again.

Speaker 3 And just like trying to figure out what I'm going to do with my life because I had these hopes and dreams, and it was all gone. It was just gone.

Speaker 3 And I didn't know what to do with my life. I didn't feel adequate.
I didn't feel worthy.

Speaker 3 I remember at the time I was going to,

Speaker 3 I told you this, but I was going to like elderly homes. Like I always had this longing to help other people.
And I was trying to get jobs at elderly homes. And I tried to start an

Speaker 3 organization to help kids and just everything was falling through. Nothing was happening.
I was on ZipRecruiter trying to find jobs and no one would hire me. Like it was crazy.

Speaker 3 I it was like, I literally relate to Job so much because

Speaker 3 like Job says, the very thing I fear happened to me and the very thing that I feared had happened to me.

Speaker 3 And I'm just sitting in my 30s alone in this small dark apartment.

Speaker 3 And I was so, I was, I was done I was done

Speaker 3 and

Speaker 3 little did I know that it was

Speaker 3 God's greatest gift to me God's greatest gift to me

Speaker 3 I think about the decisions that I could have made and that I almost made because I was so tired and because I was so sick And I feel so much for people because you're so tired and the grief takes over you so much.

Speaker 3 That's how much pain I was in.

Speaker 3 Like, I was so tired.

Speaker 3 And you know how tired I was.

Speaker 3 And so I feel for so many people

Speaker 3 because I know that feeling of grief and pain.

Speaker 3 And it's not just because of a heartbreak.

Speaker 3 It's more than that. It's like,

Speaker 3 you just feel so defeated. You feel like life can get so hard and it can eat you alive if you let it it really can

Speaker 3 And so I think about how it almost did take me out

Speaker 3 and So this is why I talk about this today because

Speaker 3 I Hope that I can be an example for you guys because I could have went that way right I could have just sat and complained and sat in that little studio I could have sat in the dark and cried and years could have went by.

Speaker 3 And I know many people that that happens to.

Speaker 3 Or I could have went the other way. Thank God I didn't.

Speaker 3 I remember before I met Jesus, I

Speaker 3 tried everything else. He was my last resort.
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Speaker 3 I had the lucky rock. I was trying, I was like listening to books on manifesting.
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Speaker 3 I could have sat and wallowed in pity and just been in depression for years.

Speaker 3 But I thank God that I fought. So when I found Jesus in that church that day, I talk about this a lot, but

Speaker 3 it was that little bit of hope and safety that I found for the first time in my life.

Speaker 3 And I held on to that. And I hope you guys can too.

Speaker 3 And

Speaker 3 I just remember like

Speaker 3 the greatest gift that He did for me, he let me suffer

Speaker 3 And

Speaker 3 he didn't heal me overnight. And he kept me in the waiting.
And I could have,

Speaker 3 like I always have my whole life, because

Speaker 3 I've never been alone.

Speaker 3 I could have put a band-aid over the wound and I could have went to somebody else. And I didn't.

Speaker 3 And he kept me just with him.

Speaker 3 And

Speaker 3 that's how it all started for me. And I would just sit in this church all day and I would just talk to him.

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And so we can go two ways.

Speaker 3 We can sit in the depression or we can fight.

Speaker 3 And I can't quite believe the woman that I am.

Speaker 3 And it was only because of this waiting season and I held on to that vision that you always told me about the me

Speaker 3 that you when you saw me and I'll never forget it you saw me in my worst when I was so depressed and that vision of you that you saw me of me in that white dress and I'm glowing and I'm happy and I'm strong

Speaker 3 and I held on to that vision

Speaker 3 And I'm that woman now. Yeah, you are.

Speaker 3 And that is only because of my waiting season and this waiting season man it has been

Speaker 3 so insane

Speaker 3 but i'm i've gotten really comfortable with being uncomfortable yeah you have and i can wake up in peace and i love myself and i'm comfortable with myself

Speaker 3 And I can't quite believe, like,

Speaker 3 I can't believe that I'm in this place. I never thought I would ever be comfortable with myself.
I was never comfortable with myself.

Speaker 3 I couldn't even be with friends with obsessing about somebody else. I always needed something or someone to fill that void.

Speaker 3 And that's why I never had peace in my mind because I was always trying to fill the void with somebody else. And so,

Speaker 3 if God took a girl at 32

Speaker 3 and changed my life in eight months of complete surrender and dependency. He can take every single one of you guys that is listening right now that is going through this grueling waiting season

Speaker 3 because I'm not better than you and he doesn't favor anyone above the other.

Speaker 3 He loves us just the same.

Speaker 3 But what I know about the waiting season is I could have lengthened my season so much and I could have stayed stuck.

Speaker 3 But look at what God had for me.

Speaker 3 Look at what God had. Look at my life, you guys.
Look at what he did in my life

Speaker 3 because

Speaker 3 I didn't stay stuck. I didn't give in.
I fought with him. I surrendered to him.
I loved him. I had a heart for him and a hunger for him.
And that was only because I was alone.

Speaker 3 That was only because

Speaker 3 I learned what true love is. Like my heart needed love.
It needed safety. It needed peace and it needed hope.
And I always thought that was found in somebody else. Yeah.

Speaker 3 But I realized that that's only found in Jesus.

Speaker 3 And then when you find it in Jesus, he will bring you someone that brings you love and brings you hope.

Speaker 3 But if you're only searching, if you only are searching for that in somebody else, you will always come up feeling empty. There's so much I can say about the waiting season.
Nothing is wasted.

Speaker 3 He does not waste anything.

Speaker 3 If he would have brought, I remember even going back to my career being like,

Speaker 3 I want this so bad. I want to help people.
I want my, if he would have brought me anything, even a like a couple months earlier, I would not have been ready for it.

Speaker 3 So everything he was doing, I struggled for years and years and years, but he did not waste anything I went through.

Speaker 3 Even going back to my career, I think about all the classes I took, all the training I did. It prepared me to be on film.
It prepared me to speak. It prepared me for everything.
So nothing is wasted.

Speaker 3 He uses everything.

Speaker 3 Every single moment of pain, he used.

Speaker 3 Every day that you feel like is being wasted, it's not. Everything, even if like you have a failed career, it's not.
He knows the desires in your heart.

Speaker 3 I had such a desire to act, but he used all of the things that I, like he used it.

Speaker 3 He used it for us. Your waiting season is connected to so much more than just you.

Speaker 3 I learned that so much in the shows. I can't tell you how many of you guys have come up to me and said, I

Speaker 3 am in this waiting season, but I am able to do it because I don't feel alone because of your story. Understand that your waiting season is connected to so

Speaker 3 you're a seed to somebody else. You're a seed of faith to somebody else.
I have been able to be a seed of faith for everybody that is single right now.

Speaker 3 Listen to me when I tell you this, that your waiting season, and I know so many people say this, but your waiting season truly is preparation. It is preparation.

Speaker 3 I look at this woman that I am today.

Speaker 3 It was only done in the waiting season. For someone that was always in relationships, I had to be in this season of

Speaker 3 just with Jesus. I had to face myself.
I had to learn to wake up.

Speaker 3 Can I give you an example? I had to learn how to wake up and feel content with myself.

Speaker 3 And then like my preparation too, like I've gotten to,

Speaker 3 I can't believe what I've gotten to accomplish being on my own with just Jesus. I can't imagine if I would have had someone during this time of my new faith, of learning.

Speaker 3 I've gotten to spend my Friday nights, like, it's insane. Like, I'll give you an example.

Speaker 3 It was Memorial Day weekend. It was a Friday.
I was

Speaker 3 having such a hard time. All my friends were with their partners.
They were on vacations. They were doing all these things.
And it was, I was just so excited because I finally had time off.

Speaker 3 And it was Memorial Day. And I, like, I wanted to, I wanted to have fun.
I wanted to be with my friends. And everybody was gone.
And so it was Friday.

Speaker 3 And I'm sitting there and I'm like, okay, I'm like,

Speaker 3 I guess I'm just alone again. Like, I'm just, I guess I'm just going to, whatever.

Speaker 3 And so I had a moment of grief of just being like, God, why? Like,

Speaker 3 I love celebrating everybody else, but this is really hard. It's been really hard.
You know, I'm in my 30s. I'm, I'm watching everybody have these beautiful relationships.

Speaker 3 And I'm here on a holiday weekend. And and I'm just, this is so hard.

Speaker 3 So, I had a moment of grief, and then I picked myself up, and I said, No, I will not allow myself to, I, I, I let myself have that moment. I called a girlfriend who lives out of state,

Speaker 3 and we started reading the Bible together. Four hours go by.
It was probably the best Friday night of my life. Like, one of the best Friday nights I've ever had.

Speaker 3 We're talking about Jesus, we're reading the Bible, we're laughing.

Speaker 3 And I look up and I go, She goes, See, if we were in relationships, we'd never be able to do this. That's so true.

Speaker 3 And so I have gotten to have the most amazing nights where everybody was out with boyfriends. And I've gotten to know Jesus.
I've got to be with Jesus. I've got to understand his love.

Speaker 3 I would have never understood his love if he didn't put me just with him. Because I would have said, I'm getting my love from this person.
And so I've gotten to seriously,

Speaker 3 like, that's why I talk about the love of God, because I have been in moments of such deep grief. He's gotten me through each of the, like, he has,

Speaker 3 he has poured his love. He has been with me through everything.

Speaker 3 And so I'm not saying that it's going to be easy. It's been like, it's like this, right?

Speaker 3 That Sunday,

Speaker 3 I went with my, my best friend and I'm sitting there and I'm at the same spot where I was just trying to survive the hour. Like I didn't even know how to get through the hour of grief.

Speaker 3 This was two years ago. I'm sitting in the same spot and I'm sitting on the grass and this band is playing this beautiful music

Speaker 3 and I'm looking at the band and every single lyric is just going through my veins and I'm just like

Speaker 3 The sun is shining down on my face and I'm looking up and then I'm looking at my best friend who I would have never met if I didn't go through my heartbreak and she puts her head on my shoulder and I'm just in complete peace and I'm in that same spot where I was just trying to survive the hour and I look up at God and I'm like

Speaker 3 this is what it feels like this is what it feels like to be safe with you

Speaker 3 this is it like this is what you this is what you've done this is why you've had me wait so long so I had that moment of just being like

Speaker 3 it all makes sense

Speaker 3 but then I have moments of feeling grief and I know that that's okay too yeah but we just can't sit in it can I can I tell you one more thing that you would have never discovered have you

Speaker 3 there's obviously a massive call of God on your life in regards to helping people

Speaker 3 and I think you've spent your whole life

Speaker 3 focused on

Speaker 3 because you're so giving and you're so nurturing. And it was always like in your relationship.
Like it was like the one, like one person got that.

Speaker 3 And you being single the last two years has you would have never discovered your gift of helping people. I know you wanted to help people, but you've like actually, like, it's come into fruition.

Speaker 3 Your gift of encouragement, your gift of healing, your gift of being there for people. You pour into people in a way that you just wouldn't if you were not single.
No.

Speaker 3 And when you do get in a relationship and you do get married and you have your own children, you won't ever be able to pour into people like you do now. Yeah.

Speaker 3 You guys don't understand who Ari is to people. Like you will, that's what's come out of the past two years is you know who you are.
You know you're gifting now. Yeah.
I wouldn't have.

Speaker 3 I wouldn't have because I didn't love myself. Yeah.
I didn't love myself. So you, when you, when you're not comfortable with yourself, you can't, you can't

Speaker 3 love people, right?

Speaker 3 And so I just, I look back at myself and I'm like, I'm I'm not a damsel in distress anymore.

Speaker 3 And that's what Jesus wanted to show me. You are not a damsel in distress.
Your life is not in the hands of another person and it's not in the hands of

Speaker 3 a career. And that's not what's going to fill you.
It's in the hands of me.

Speaker 3 And he's like, you are not a damsel in distress. You are strong.
You are smart. You are worthy.

Speaker 3 You are lovable. You are not all these things that you always thought you were.
But in order to understand that, you need to understand me.

Speaker 3 And the only way to understand me is to come into a season where it's just you and I. And so now I can sit with my shoulders back.

Speaker 3 And that's why I'm able to look straight and I'm able to have confidence. It's not because

Speaker 3 I know I'm able to be with myself now.

Speaker 3 And that's only because of the waiting season. Like

Speaker 3 what he produces in your waiting season

Speaker 3 is something you will never be able to do with another person or on your own. And when you are in this waiting season,

Speaker 3 I just want to say this, like,

Speaker 3 I can't even imagine if I would have wasted this waiting season of going back to somebody else, of putting a bandaid on and just like,

Speaker 3 I can't even imagine. I would never be here right now.
I would never be as strong as I am. I would never be able to help people the way I do.
And so the waiting season is,

Speaker 3 it's, it really, like, people really,

Speaker 3 society puts this pressure on people, especially women in their 30s, that it's a curse. And what I want you to tell you guys is everybody has their own path.
My path was to learn it later in life.

Speaker 3 Yeah. Angela went through that with your photo.
Tell them. Yeah, I went through some, it's just so interesting.

Speaker 3 You know, God has such a beautiful, intentional, specific plan for every single one of us that is not restricted to like societal constructs. Like

Speaker 3 my life is different than Ari's life, and it's different than your life, and we're all on a different journey.

Speaker 3 And so much shame comes from us thinking that we look to other people and we think we need to be like them, and we think we should be where they are.

Speaker 3 And like, maybe Ari would look at me in a relationship and think she should be there, but then I look at someone who's already engaged and think that I should be there, and they look at someone who got engaged sooner than they did.

Speaker 3 So, we're all like, but that's what society does to us.

Speaker 3 And the church, I feel like, does that to us a lot i posted a photo recently of john and i and i said that we like celebrated our one year anniversary of dating obviously and

Speaker 3 i got hundreds of comments and then hundreds what felt like maybe less of messages of people literally being like if he really liked you he would have proposed already like it's i had and do these people that call themselves christians yeah and there was even a um a man from a page that i follow and really respect, like a Christian, like educational page, who was like,

Speaker 3 it's been a year and he hasn't proposed question mark, like commented on the photo, which was like so embarrassing. It got me so in my head.
I got so triggered. And he just talked me through it.

Speaker 3 And he's like, well, first of all, we've been dating long distance, our entire relationship up until a month ago. I'm on tour.

Speaker 3 Our dating just doesn't look like other peoples in the church who get married in seven months, which is great for them. That's just not our story.

Speaker 3 So, anyways, the church puts so much pressure, especially on women, and it's always like us. It's never the man,

Speaker 3 you know. It's always like, oh, what did the, it's almost like they make us feel like damaged goods if somebody hasn't already like

Speaker 3 chosen us and picked us and proposed to us and married us. And it's like, we're the problem, yeah.
You know, yeah, and

Speaker 3 yeah.

Speaker 3 Um,

Speaker 3 it's crazy. Everybody has a different path.

Speaker 3 I feel like

Speaker 3 at my age right now in my 30s, I finally know who I am. He had to prepare me.
He's been preparing me. And I'm so glad that I've been able to do it by myself with just with Jesus.

Speaker 3 Like, I don't, I feel like right now with men, like me and my girlfriend were talking about this, but men are tired because the win, like us as women, we unpack it with the men and we're not supposed to do that.

Speaker 3 You do a really really good job at not doing that. You really, you go to Jesus.
Like you're, you, I've learned so much from you in your relationship because you,

Speaker 3 you're really good at that. Thanks, Arch.

Speaker 3 But yeah, I,

Speaker 3 we're supposed to unpack all this with Jesus, you know? So that's what the waiting season is for. It's like, prepare yourself.
Don't

Speaker 3 heal.

Speaker 3 Heal. It's okay to grieve.
It's like one of the most special things about my waiting season is I got to grieve with Jesus. Like

Speaker 3 it's the dependency, like the heart, the heartbreak, the grieving. It's all dependency.
And that's what created my relationship. I didn't hide anything from Jesus.

Speaker 3 I didn't want to bring that into another relationship. I wanted to face myself.

Speaker 3 I wanted to be able to wake up and love myself. I wanted to be able to feel peace.

Speaker 3 I want somebody to add to me. I don't want to need something.
Exactly. My whole life, I needed something.
I don't, when you are in the place of needing that, like you need it,

Speaker 3 that's what an idol is.

Speaker 3 I've always had, like, I've, I made an idol out of that thing that I had.

Speaker 3 And when you have an idol, where's God's place in your life? Because whatever you're thinking about,

Speaker 3 whatever has your attention the most

Speaker 3 is your God. And so that's why I was so dry.
Like, that's why I was always coming up empty.

Speaker 3 And so, yes, you will,

Speaker 3 I grieve. I really do.
I have moments, you know, I'm at all these weddings. I look around.
I have, I'm like by myself at these, it's like crazy what he's done.

Speaker 3 You know, because I never understood, I never understood people that were in their waiting season. I'm so blessed blessed that I now, I will,

Speaker 3 whatever friend comes in my life that is in a waiting season, I will have so much compassion for. I will literally be, I can understand now.
And that's such a gift.

Speaker 3 When you can understand others, it's the biggest gift. I'm so proud of myself because I could easily go to someone else.
I could easily just put that band, and I didn't.

Speaker 3 You were saying how, like, you have to wake up content because you want someone to add to your life. And, like, you can't put all your problems basically on.

Speaker 3 and like we know this that a relationship doesn't fix your problems and i can tell you firsthand that it doesn't fix your problems i have severe abandonment issues and marrying john will not heal my abandonment issues i will still have them jesus has to heal my abandonment issues yeah you know and like

Speaker 3 Yeah, it just, I know that. I know it's not, he's not going to heal it.
Getting married to John isn't going to heal my insecurities.

Speaker 3 I might feel safe. Of course, you're in a covenant relationship.
Of course, it brings safety.

Speaker 3 But anybody, like, we can't, we know deep down, deep, deep, deep in our innermost being, like, we know that we can't fully 100,000% depend on another human. They can leave at any point.

Speaker 3 And just being married, even if you know they won't, it just doesn't heal those parts of you. Jesus has to heal that.
He has to, or you'll always come up empty. Yeah.

Speaker 3 One of the things in the waiting that can be so hard is

Speaker 3 you

Speaker 3 are doing so good and all these things and then you start to almost covet other relationships you start to it's okay to look at other relationships and be like oh my gosh that's that's so beautiful but when you start to covet them when you start to obsess when you start to um

Speaker 3 wish you had what they have that all starts on you you go on social media you

Speaker 3 So you start to covet other people's relationship, comparing, then

Speaker 3 all of a a sudden the grief comes and then you go down this rabbit hole and then you start feeling so sick and then

Speaker 3 you just feel like you've been set apart, like you've, God has forgotten about you. Like you, yeah, you just, you can go down that hole.
And so

Speaker 3 I have done that.

Speaker 3 This happened to me recently where I started to compare and I started to think, if has God forgotten about me?

Speaker 3 And then my mind starts spinning and then I'm in a hole of grief and then I have bitterness because grief turns into bitterness and then I'm starting to feel sick and then two days go by and I'm I'm just I feel I'm like a rack and so and then I'm not even going to Jesus I'm not even talking to him and so

Speaker 3 this happened to me recently and I just want to tell you guys

Speaker 3 You we have like we have to constantly be fighting against our flesh

Speaker 3 Because the flesh is so weak and it's so easy to walk in our flesh and start comparing and start going down the rabbit hole in social media and start thinking oh well did did God has God forgotten me about me is my time up

Speaker 3 will my person ever come I it's so hard to date now am I you know and so it's so easy to do that and so

Speaker 3 Just constantly being filled up by his word, constantly going to him. The minute, so two days went by where I was comparing, I was being bitter, I was had negative self-talk.

Speaker 3 I started to think, it's never going to happen for me. I found myself saying that on the phone, it's never going to happen.
I'm never going to meet the person that I want.

Speaker 3 And I was so sick emotionally.

Speaker 3 Then I go home and I start and I and I start fighting. I start fighting in the spirit.
I start getting filled up by the word. I start going to bad in prayer.
I'm like, Jesus, help me right now.

Speaker 3 Help me. I don't feel good.
I'm bitter.

Speaker 3 I feel like it's never going to come. Like, help me right now.
All of a sudden, it was like water. That's what he means.
Like,

Speaker 3 he fills you.

Speaker 3 And I'm like, that's all I needed. All I needed was to just come down on my hands and knees, read your word

Speaker 3 and call out to you. And then you fill me.
And so,

Speaker 3 yeah.

Speaker 3 We have to constantly being be filled and walking in the spirit because when we walk in the spirit, he sustains us in the season.

Speaker 3 you know we we always question things sometimes when things haven't happened to us that we want

Speaker 3 and i

Speaker 3 i was having a morning where i was just like oh god why like why did this happen why you know why did i have to wait and i opened my bible this was this is a morning i will never forget i opened to isaiah 30

Speaker 3 verse 18. I literally looked down at my Bible.
Isaiah is the best book of the Bible. Is that your favorite? It's my favorite.

Speaker 3 Really?

Speaker 3 And I read,

Speaker 3 so the Lord must wait for you to come to him so he can show you his love and compassion.

Speaker 3 How many times has Jesus tried to come after us?

Speaker 3 But we just keep turning the other way.

Speaker 3 So he's not going to force anything on you. He was not going to force me in my journey to come to him.
But when I finally hit the bottom, I came to him.

Speaker 3 And that's when he showed me his love and compassion. He's faithful.
Blessed are those who wait for his help.

Speaker 3 The waiting season is about waiting for his help. He's not a magician.
He's not a genie. He's not all of a sudden.

Speaker 3 He's so intentional about the timing, about the preparation, about not having you and any distractions, about growing you and building you and pruning you.

Speaker 3 And and his time is so much better than our time and so if we could just write that down in our notes and say every time we have these moments because it's normal in the human experience to feel like i'm tired but to say your time is so much better than my time i'm gonna wait for you because you know my jesus knows better than i do

Speaker 3 He will be gracious if you ask for help. He surely will respond to the sound of your cries.
He's so gracious when you reach out and say, help me. He's so kind.

Speaker 3 He hears every single, he sees every single one of your tears and none of it goes wasted. And he's so pleased when you go to him and you cry out to him.

Speaker 3 He's like, that's my daughter. That's my son.
You have no idea what I'm going to do through this pain and all the cries and all the nights of grief that you've been going through.

Speaker 3 Though the Lord gave you adversity for food and suffering for drink, he will be with you to teach you. It's only through the adversity that you go through and the suffering that you endure

Speaker 3 that he teaches you. That's where you are taught your most valuable lessons.
That's where you

Speaker 3 grow the most. That's where you become the person that you would never be if you did not go through the suffering, the waiting, and the adversity.

Speaker 3 Your own ears will hear him.

Speaker 3 And right behind you, a voice will say, this is the way you should go. When you go into relationship with Jesus in the waiting season, when it's just you and him,

Speaker 3 You can hear him so clearly. You can see him with your own two eyes.
And then you won't have to figure out, do I need to go to this person? Do I do this? Which way do I go? You hear him.

Speaker 3 That's the most special part about the waiting season: you hear him, you see him, and then you don't have to go by your own strength. You just follow him.
He shows you where to go.

Speaker 3 He shows you what to do.

Speaker 3 Then you will destroy

Speaker 3 all of your silver idols and your precious gold images. You will throw them away like filthy rags, saying to them, Good riddance.
Good riddance.

Speaker 3 The very thing that you think you want are you lost. That person,

Speaker 3 you look and you say, but I love them so much. This was my person.
This is, I, I, and then, and there's nothing wrong with that.

Speaker 3 I can't tell you how many days I sat, I had to say, I know you took this person away from my good, but I need to understand. I loved them, and that's okay.

Speaker 3 Love is such a beautiful thing, and what a powerful, amazing thing that you loved so much that you hurt as much as you do, and you grieve as much as you do.

Speaker 3 That just shows how much in the capacity that you have to love, and how good of a wife or a husband you'll be someday.

Speaker 3 But man, when God shows you his love

Speaker 3 and who he is,

Speaker 3 and how he doesn't just get up and walk away and leave you, how he heals you, how he sits with you in grief, how he will never walk away from you and abandon you, how

Speaker 3 he literally will take your broken pieces and he will begin to restore you and patch you up and he will set you up on in his right hand he will launch you out into something

Speaker 3 that your mind will be blown you will no longer have these things pulling you down these idols and these things that you've put on such a pedestal because you know that will never fulfill you only he does and then whatever he brings to you when you seek him it will be added.

Speaker 3 It won't be this thing where you have constant anxiety over. You will already be filled.
So whoever comes to you, it's just going to be an added thing and it's going to be beautiful.

Speaker 3 And then the Lord will bless you with rain at planting time.

Speaker 3 There will be wonderful harvests at planting time is the key. Time.
Specific time. At planting time.
But right now,

Speaker 3 he's planting your harvest and he's building you and he's doing something. He's keeping you in this waiting where there's no distractions, where it's just you and him.

Speaker 3 And later on, you will thank him for every tear, for every day that you were alone, for every moment where you were like, why, why, why? Why did you take this? Why has it?

Speaker 3 Because you will look back and say, this is why.

Speaker 3 And you will have your shoulders back and your chin up and you will look in the mirror and you will say, thank you, Jesus, for my waiting season, because without it, I would not be this person.

Speaker 3 But do not waste it. Do not, it's okay to grieve, it's okay to hurt, it's okay to cry to him, but please do not waste it.
Fight for friendships. This is a time to do things that

Speaker 3 you would never typically do, to be with friends, to meet new people, to go places that you would never typically go, to be with family.

Speaker 3 Yeah,

Speaker 3 Yeah.

Speaker 3 This is your time to do things that you wouldn't typically do.

Speaker 3 This is the definition of someone preaching something they've lived. Yeah.

Speaker 3 Yeah.

Speaker 3 If only everyone who gets on a stage with a mic and opens their mouth to preach something has lived it the way you live, what you preach.

Speaker 3 It's authentic. It's real.
You're insane. I love you.
I'm so like. And I never have my best friend.
Dude, thank God that guy's out of here. Thank God.

Speaker 3 Bye. She's mine.

Speaker 3 I want you guys to write this scripture down. And every time you start to feel this feeling, I want you to say it.
I've been, this is a script.

Speaker 3 This is a scripture that I am repeating out loud to myself constantly throughout the day.

Speaker 3 No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has imagined the plans that God has for those who love him. Focus on loving him, focus on knowing him, and focus on being in relationship with him.

Speaker 3 That's your only job. What a beautiful thing.

Speaker 3 And the plans he has for you at the end of whatever season, whatever waiting season he has, it is going to blow your mind and you are going to thank him for keeping you in this holding season.

Speaker 3 So hold on. If you're in a waiting season, this is what God might be doing.
He's strengthening your patience. He's protecting you from what you can't see.

Speaker 3 He's preparing a bigger blessing than what you asked for. He's working on someone else's heart before they step into your story.

Speaker 3 He's removing the people and things that could not go with where God is taking you. He's making sure your faith is in him.

Speaker 3 not just in the outcome you want. He's closed the doors that you begged for for him to bring you back because he sees the hurt that they would have caused you.

Speaker 3 He's making you wait because what he has for you isn't ready or maybe you aren't just quite yet. And the last thing is,

Speaker 3 he's making sure that your heart is healed

Speaker 3 before he gives you what you're praying for.

Speaker 3 So I would love you guys to write all these things down. We love you.

Speaker 3 We hope that you feel less alone today and just know that you have a sister who's waiting with you you're not alone you're not inadequate you're not being pushed to the side he's right on time he's never late so don't panic just rest in him thank you jesus

Speaker 3 We love you guys so much. We love you.
We love you. We love you.
May the Lord bless you and keep you. May he make his face to shine upon you and be gracious to you.

Speaker 3 May he turn his face towards you and give you peace. Shalom, shalom.