WRAPPING THIS CRAZY CRAZY 2020!

Hi guys, this is the last episode of this year of Cat on the Loose, and oh my god, there is so much

to reflect on.

Obviously, this was a very, very tough year for most people.

For sure, for me, it was what a crazy, crazy roller coaster ride.

And I'm still standing, so that's great.

And today I think that I want to say a few important things

looking back

when I look at all these episodes and all this horrible mean disrespectful rude men for sure

a lot of it was my fault as well because I think we open the doors

of our lives to people.

We choose who we allow in and who we do not.

So every time someone disrespected me, every time somebody was rude and mean to me, and I allowed them in over and over and over again, obviously it was my responsibility.

I think the lesson is: we should not ever, ever, ever allow someone to disrespect us in any way.

Nobody is worth it.

Our peace of mind is not worth it.

No man, no woman out there is worth us being violated in that way it is so much better to be alone and in peace and happy with ourselves so as funny as it is it took me all these men and all these experiences and all the situations to get to the point that i can actually say that and believe it maybe i was trying too hard to find someone and i ignored all the red flags and i ignored all the bad vibes and the bad energy.

And then I finally got to a point that I thought, well, we need to worry about ourselves first and foremost.

The highlight of my year for sure was that

way back in February, even before this pandemic started, I decided to adopt a dog.

And Phoenix is such a loving little creature.

He has the sweetest personality.

And as funny as it is, he has helped me so much during the entire year realize that I could be alone and I could be a strong person and I can still be a super happy woman.

I am productive.

I work really hard and I take care of this little dog that really just wanted love.

I think it's funny, but dogs.

people that know dogs know that they love us unconditionally.

You can be having a bad day.

You can be having a great day.

They're always there.

They love you forever.

And I think maybe a lot of us humans should learn a few lessons from dogs.

We should learn about love from dogs because we should learn how to love unconditionally.

We should learn how to love people for what they are during the good times and the bad times.

And he's going to be one year old on Monday.

And I am so, so glad and grateful that I decided to go and adopt him because he helps me for sure as much or more than I actually help him.

It was a year also, and I think for a lot of people that I talk to,

of learning how to make circles of friendships and relationships smaller.

Letting a ton of unnecessary energy and bad people and toxic people go.

If I learned anything from this pandemic, is that, oh my god, yes, life is so short.

And we are only here for a small period of time.

It's not about having 300, 400 friends, quote unquote, which of course we have.

If you're drinking champagne and you're partying and you have all this money and you're traveling to all these fantastic places, we have tons of friends.

But if you decide to make your life limited and concentrate on things that matter, then you know that the people that actually stick by your side are the people that really, really care about you and want to be with you through this journey and want to help you grow as a person and make you a better person, not the people that just want to take advantage of you.

So today I think I have way less people around me, but I know that the people that stuck around are the people that really, really matter.

I also

thank very, very much

the people that did me wrong.

I know it sounds crazy, but I thank them with all my heart.

The people that were nasty, the people that were rude, the people that are critical, not just talking about the man on these relationships, but people in general that did me wrong, the people that stole everything from me that my husband left, the people that were not supportive of me at all, a ton of people

that were just around me for the wrong reasons.

People that actually listen to this podcast, not because they're interested in the content or because they want to, oh my God, I want to hear about what Kat has to say.

Some people, believe it or not, listen to this podcast specifically

to be critical of it, to talk trash about me, try to destroy certain relationships that meant a lot to me.

But I thank them because every person that tries to do something bad to me, they just make me stronger.

They just make me realize that I'm just a woman that works hard.

I try to be a decent, honest, loving human being at the end of the day.

So I thank everyone with all my heart.

At the end of the day, you guys just make me a stronger, much stronger woman.

Plus, I'm a person, I am not very religious.

I respect every religion, but I'm not very religious.

But I believe in energy and I believe in karma.

And I most definitely think we get back in this life for sure,

whatever we give out there into the world.

I know I was told many, many times that I am too nice, too trusting, I open up too much.

But honestly, I always rather be this way.

I always rather treat people with respect and kindness

than be rude, than be disrespectful, than turn my back on someone.

I have a tattoo of the symbol of gratitude on my left wrist.

And I have the tattoo of the word strong on my right wrist.

And I think they're perfect to describe me

because as things happen in my life, and I'll tell you guys a lot more about it

next year, because I'm actually learning to open up more and more and more.

But anyways, I realize that I am strong.

Just the fact that I'm still standing and creating and working and going through this craziness makes me a super strong woman.

So that's wonderful.

And I think gratitude is by far the most important thing we should feel in life.

If you're grateful for experiences, if you're grateful for people, if you're grateful for lessons, if you're grateful for whatever it is that you have, if you're grateful for every person that comes across your life, I'm telling you, your way, your path is going to be so much easier and happier.

I know it is still a huge taboo for women to talk about the topics that I talk about: dating, relationships, sex.

Oh my God.

I know this is a major taboo.

I know there are very, very few podcasts, women podcasters out there that open up this much

because you will get bombarded by people.

You get wonderful messages.

When I get messages from girls out there telling me, oh my God, Kat, I was also in an abusive relationship.

Oh my God, this guy was being mean to me and rude to me.

And after I listened to you, I realized I shouldn't put up with it.

And I get messages from men too saying, thank you for saying all these things.

Thank you for making me realize that I deserve better.

So I get wonderful messages, but I also get pounded by critics.

um that just tell me you shouldn't talk about these things oh my god

But I think that, and I have thought about giving up many times.

I'm not going to lie to you guys.

So many times I question myself.

I question my work.

I question my pictures.

I question everything I do.

Like I think a lot of people do.

I wonder like, oh my God, should I stop doing social media?

Should I delete my account?

Should I stop this podcast?

Should I change my personality?

Should I change what I do?

I question it all the time and I get emotional about it because I know my stuff is very raw.

It's very me.

I tell you guys, I don't edit anything.

I don't edit my photos.

I don't edit my videos

because I think people should see us for who we are.

And if somebody loves you, they should love you for who you are.

They should love your essence.

They should love your core, not the shell, not just the image, because image is very fleeting.

Image comes and goes.

And see, like, now I'm crying.

And you guys are going to say, oh, my God.

Yeah, I'm crying because it's been such a difficult, emotional year.

And at the end of the year, I really think if you're working and you're making money, no matter what it is that you do, you should be so proud of yourself.

And the people that love you, they should be happy for you and proud of you.

So I guess my message is

if someone cares about you, they will stay by your side no matter what, no matter what you do.

And number two,

don't ever let anyone make you stop

working if you need to support yourself.

if you need to pay bills.

Don't let anyone make you stop dreaming.

If you have a dream, it doesn't matter what it is.

If it is to be a podcaster, to be a model, to be an actress, to be a chef, to be a mom, to be a good wife, to be whatever the hell it is.

Don't let anyone tell you you can't do it.

Because you can.

Just starting it, taking the steps towards doing it, means you can do it.

As long as we're alive and kicking, we can do it.

And I think this pandemic shows this lesson.

Look at what happened to the world.

Now,

tomorrow,

millions of people will be celebrating a new year.

And millions of people are dead.

They didn't have this opportunity.

They're gone.

They never thought.

Think about January 30th of last year.

I mean, I was in Aspen

with this boyfriend that I loved.

I mean, I was crazy about him.

I told you guys the story about him, and we were like in this honeymoon-ish vacation.

And I remember on January 29th, we were sitting on top of this mountain and making plans and thinking about what a wonderful year it was going to be.

And

how glad I was so glad that everything was working out.

And look what happened.

Poofed.

Everything went downhill.

Turns out, out obviously he didn't love me back he didn't respect me back

he was cheating on me he was living a double life he had another girl he was with another girl on my birthday and then

he got sick and he died in july

sorry i'm drinking sip of water guys

and uh

So it goes to show life changes with the snap of a finger.

So you can make a gazillion plans for the future.

And we don't even know if we're going to be there.

So I think live life today.

Love today.

Say what you have to say today.

Forgive today.

Be a good friend today.

Be a good human today.

And I'm crying.

I'm emotional like happy emotions

because I think

As crazy as it is, I'm happy today because of the things that I accomplished and because of the person that I was.

No matter how people treated me, I treat them with kindness back.

I treat them with respect back.

I treat them with love back.

And I try to be a decent human being.

If I hurt someone, for sure,

1 million percent, it's never on purpose.

I know saying sorry is one of the hardest things that we learn as people,

but I always try to say sorry, always.

And I've had people say to me, oh, I'm never going to say sorry.

I don't apologize, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.

But you know, like I said, your karma of not saying sorry and not trying to be a better person is so much worse than the people that do know how to apologize.

So anyways.

Don't ever let people feel that you're undeserving of love and respect

because we all are.

If there is no respect, there is nothing, nothing.

So, whoever it is that you're going to meet, and I'm saying that for myself as well,

if they don't respect you from the get-go, forget it.

It's like building a house of sand.

It's not going to last because the smallest wind is going to make it all go away.

And obviously, these

things that happened to me this year were just an illusion.

They were just

houses of sand.

Because when people respect you,

when people care about you, they will stay.

And also, I tell you, don't let anybody criticize you on your work, on your personal life, on your

appearance.

Unless it's criticism to build you up.

If it's a friend that loves you and is going to tell you something that's going to make you better, by all means, yes, I love those.

But if it's somebody that's going to criticize you to tear you down,

just tune out the noise.

Tune out the noise.

You know, like those horses that have those things like on the side of their eyes when they need to concentrate on the way, just tune out the noise because I promise you, people will criticize you no matter what you do in life.

You can be the most beautiful, perfect man,

woman.

You can be the skinniest, you can be the smartest, you can be perfect all the time as much as perfection doesn't exist.

There will always be somebody who will criticize you and try to take you down.

So honestly, ignore it because you're never going to be too thin or you're never going to be too fat or you're never going to be too rich or you're never going to be too classy or you're never going to dress properly all the time or your pictures are going to be too sexy or your pictures are going to be too conservative of what you say is not going to be perfect.

So seriously, live your life for you and the people that love you, but just ignore what.

the mean girls, you know, the famous mean girls that want to tear you down.

At the end of the day,

they probably just are sad in their own lives, really, really sad people

and bitter people, and people that don't have love themselves.

Because if someone takes their time coming into your life to criticize you, to say bad things about you, to look at your pictures and make comments about them, it's, I promise, it's because they're not happy with their own lives.

Because if you're happy with your own life, you are living your own life

instead of

pretty much trying to destroy somebody else's life and criticize somebody else's life

at the end of the day

i always remember that i got here

alone

that

whatever i have

I pay with my own money.

I never stole from anybody.

I never committed any crimes.

I have done a lot of wrong things, like all of us.

I mean, life is a set of trial and error.

But at the end of the day, the people that try to bring me down, the people that try to bring us down, they honestly not helping.

They're honestly not paying our bills.

They don't know anything about our lives to be out there criticizing us.

What you see on social media.

What you see on photographs, what you see out there does not represent a person.

Only people that come inside our personal lives know our battles and our fights and our pains and our scars.

So honestly, if someone is out there saying something about me and they don't even know me, seriously, why are you even wasting your time?

The people that get inside our personal lives are the ones that should be loving and supportive of us.

This podcast for sure has been fun.

It has been crazy.

It has been difficult because it is very, very difficult to talk about these things, but it has been cathartic.

And I appreciate every single listener.

I appreciate every message, every girl, every guy, everybody that tells me that my podcast helped them in any way.

I really, really appreciate you guys.

And I want to keep getting these messages from you.

I am not in this life to hurt anyone for sure.

I'm not in this life to be mean.

I'm not in this life to be

negative.

My message is always to spread love.

I try to spread love to the people that even the people that did me wrong.

I wish them nothing, nothing, nothing but the best.

If I weren't the right person for them, I really hope they find the right person for them i hope they find love i hope they find kindness i hope they find friendships and i know that as long as i'm alive i will find the right person hopefully for me i will find love for me i will find somebody that wants to stick by my side through this journey and help me be a much better person day after day after day.

And the people that didn't want to stay by my side, well, maybe I wasn't the right person for them.

And I still wish them a lot of love.

I will be back with new episodes after the new year.

I'm lining up a lot of fun, exciting new guests.

And I am trying to line up love stories too because I think we don't want to only listen to relationships that didn't work out.

We want to listen to wonderful relationships that do work out.

There are tons of men out there that are super,

super supportive of their women and they're faithful to their women and they love their women and they stick by their side.

So, I want to bring them over as well to talk about it, and vice versa.

There are women that are in loving long-term relationships, and I can't wait to hear from them.

So,

I mean, I want you guys to remember that true love is kind, true love is peaceful, true love is forgiving.

True love stays.

True love makes us feel good at the end of the day.

And that's all that matters.

Thank you each and every single one of you for listening.

I hope you guys had some laughs.

I hope you had some tears.

I know you cringed.

But hey, if I...

made you feel any kind of emotion, I think I did my job because podcasts and social media, movies, TV, any art is supposed to make us feel emotions and it's supposed to make us talk about it.

I wish everyone a truly, truly wonderful, wonderful new year ahead, filled with happiness, filled with love, filled with health.

Because if we don't have our health, we don't have anything.

And I'll see you soon.

Happy New Year.

Love, love, love.

Thank you.