E572 Pickle Chili

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Just clearing the winter out of my throat, baby. Be gone.
Be gone, snow. Be gone, ice.
Or hail. Dude, what is hail? It's basically, it's like Italian snow or whatever.
I mean, that shit just f***s you up. It's like Memphis snow.
It's like, what are we... It's definitely...
I gotta look that up. What is hail? Because sometimes it's like you're relaxed and it's raining and then the rain's like, oh yeah, guess what, mother f***er.
And it just f***ing shows up. And it just starts like pinging off your car bouncing off your wife's shoulders and shit it's bouncing off your stepson or whatever and you makes you care about him hail is just yeah we gotta look into that and see what they're doing they're probably charging us for it you know we're probably getting charged for that, I'm sure.

Welcome to the episode.

Happy springtime, everybody.

Good to be here with you today.

What's happening?

Oh, I'll tell you.

Dude, so, oh, I went to a little chili cook-off around me.

And, you know, I like, man, I'm lying.

Chili is always, it's suspect. Chili is a suspect soup, really.
That's what it is. It's just a bunch of, it's like the hail of soups.
It's like, all right, all right, soup. I see what you doing.

We right here.

It's just that kind of soup, you know.

It's thickened up, baby.

It's like soup got a BBL, baby.

That's chili.

And so I went to a little, I stopped by a little,

they had a small chili tent cook-off area.

And they had four vendors or something in there just ladling booty gas edibles into small bowls for people. And so I get up there, and I got me some chili, and they had one place they were saying, we got all the fixings, toppings, and this and that.
You know, you could put anything on that bitch.

You could put cheese, onions, a little bit of GHB, and one place was offering.

But I just said, hey, do you have pickles?

And the guy just, I mean, this guy looked at me.

I mean, this dude, he was stirring this big pot of chili. He was just a damn chili witch, you know? And he was just stirring a big cauldron of fucking booty goop, you know? And I said, yeah, do you have any pickles for it? And he's like, you want pickles on your chili? And I was like, yeah.
Yeah, that's what I like. I like putting just pickles on there.
And he's like, you want pickles on your chili? You know what I can do? And it was like he couldn't understand. I was like, yes, yes, sir.

And he's like, you want pickles on your salad?

He couldn't handle it, man.

The dude couldn't handle it. So I guess the moral of that story, you want pickles on your salad?

I don't know what the moral of that story is, dude.

Who gives a dang?

The moral of the story is sometimes you want things that people can't give you. I think maybe that's the moral of the story.
I got this shirt on. This is a beautiful, beautiful shirt.
This was given to me by the Bronx Fire Department. Baby, engine 43, son.
Quatro dos, baby. QD in the house.
I'll tell you what happened. So I was walking down the street.
I had broken my toe, right? And so when you break your toe, you suddenly everything, you see everything a lot clearer because you can't go fast. So you go very slow.
You ever see that guy that's crossing the crosswalk like backwards in a wheelchair by himself? And you're like, Jesus, dude. You pray for him, but you're also a little bit pissed, you know? You're like, dear God, help this motherfucker.
Hurry up. Well, dude, when you break your toe, you go slower than that, dude.
He is the hare. You are the tortoise.
You go slower than that dude. So I'm in New York City.
I'm walking around, and I'd just broken my toe probably 48 hours before, and so that bitch was big and dark, and you could feel it had a little bit of heartbeat of its own you know like

it had a damn bass track running through it and i'm wearing some hey dudes that i have that uh because it's easy to get in and out of them the shoes and anyway i'm you're just slowly going everywhere you know so you start meeting people and people are saying stuff at you and yelling you know, hey, you know, I love their podcast.

Get out the street, faggot. Just different.
Just New York. Just New York hellos, you know.
And I'm walking past this one spot and this guy comes up and he's like, hey, you want to? And he'd been drinking and he he was either, he was Italian, or he was, like, fast Polish, you know, or he was, he was either Polish or slow Italian, one of the, you know what I'm saying, he was in that cross, and he's like, come on, hey, he's like, my cousin And Jeremy just got promoted to whatever the top of the fire department, like lead arsonist or whatever. So he brings me, there's just a door.
We go inside and it's a huge, it's like everybody's like, hey, you want some fire? It's like a fire department party. And I think this guy, Jeremy or something had had just won like hose of the month or whatever.
Like, I think whoever's got the most PSI coming out of them, they give them, you know, a, you know, you know, he'd done something, you know, it was an achievement for him. So all of his buddies are there and everybody, they're toasting and cheering and fucking like, hey, get look at this mother, you know? And they're like, hey, if you ever have a fire, here's my number.
Like, dude, I'm not, if there's a fire, I'm not looking through my phone if there's a fire, you know? And I'm going to call Antonio up, you know, in the South Bronx. I'm calling the fire department.

So they're just like, and then they gave me this shirt that we took some photos.

And they're like, cheers in and off for me.

They're like, hey, you want some matches?

You know, keep us in business.

Keep us in business.

They gave me like an eight pack of matches.

Those like the cool looking, the old school, like regular looking matchbooks. They gave me this shirt they're like hey it's flammable um but yeah it was just like a great experience so shout out to them shout out to all the fire departments out there congratulations to the guy that got the promotion i dated a girl in junior high school her dad um, great guy, threatened to kill me once, but outside of that, awesome.
He was a fire chief, and we used to go over there and watch him eat hot dogs and shit. This was before a lot of firemen are getting in shape and stuff.
Now, this is back when they were just over there

just snorting Oscar Myers and shit

and just squirting ketchup on each other's backs, you know?

And just basically just gambling, a lot of them.

But anyway, I'm not sure what I'm talking about,

what I'm rambling about,

but that was the first time at her dad's fire department that I ever had chili in my life. That I ever had it.
Somebody served it. I didn't know what it was.
I had a little bit of it. And then I'd had it.
You know, that's how that all works, you know. But you want to pick a runger jelly? You want

to pick a runger jelly?

What else has been going on?

Thank you to the people that have come out to the shows

recently. We've done some dates.

We went up to

the Pacific Northwest. That was really amazing

up there.

So, just

the way the buildings are,

the people, everybody,

a lot of people, they look clean up there because it rains so much. You just get cleaned even if you're just not even if you're dirty.
Um, yeah, we did a huge show in Seattle. That was amazing.
I think it maybe was too many people. I know that sounds like a, I'm grateful everybody came, but I just never been in a venue and it was a, it was a big venue.
Right. And I just felt a little bad.
Like maybe the people, um, like some of the seats they, it was hard to hear. I don't know.
I think some of that's just a fear of mine, but I don't think that we will do that again. Um,'s just a learning curve.
And yeah, we had a nice time there though. I got to see Max's girlfriend.
We got to go to the fish market. Dude, you go to the fish market.
I'd never been to the Seattle fish fair or whatever. It's like a little circus or whatever that they have every day.

And people come, there's dead fish and you can look at them, right? And you can eat them. You know, it's pretty, it's pretty, uh, Neanderthalic in a way.
But, um, so anyway, we go and Amir Kay, that's a guy that's touring with me, a great comedian. He like points at the guys running the fish fair.
And so next thing you know, they do a thing where you, somebody throws a fish and somebody catches a fish. And so they let me catch the fish and I fucking, you know, one toss, one kill, homie.
I gripped that bitch. And yeah, it was awesome.
I didn't know you're not supposed to spike it after you catch it so that that was i think frowned upon or whatever but i didn't know that and um and i'd been watching too many of those gronk commercials or whatever anyway i'm rambling um what else is going on let's get into the episode how about that we got a bunch of came in from you guys, and I'm going to focus on those today. I got one story.
I went to the Grand Ole Opry's 100th anniversary. I'm going to talk about that.

and we're going to speak to a miracle today.

A gentleman named Matt up there in Canada, Calgary.

He's up there and he has – he's a miracle and we're going

to get to, uh, have a moment with him There is a light shiningining for you Guiding your way Helping you through Shadows and gloom Are all that you see We'll find a place Where we can be free From the mountaintops down to the deepest shadows You like pickles on your chili, you like pickles on your chili You like pickles on your chili Yeah, my mother came in town for my birthday.

Actually, it was last week.

And we said thank you if you're wishing me a happy birthday in your head.

And if you're not, and you're just like, dude, keep talking, that's fine.

She came in, and they had the 100th anniversary at the Grand Ole Opry.

And my mom likes country music, and she likes older country music. And Blake Shelton was hosting the event, and Jelly Roll was going to perform.
And my mom likes both of them. And so I was like, oh, well, that would be fun for my birthday.
I'll have mom. I'll see if mom wants to come in, and then we'll go.
And so she came in, and we went. And what was it like? We got dressed up kind of.
I didn't do a good job of it. What I wanted to wear didn't really fit once I put it on, and so it was just, you know, I just had to change it and wore a jacket, actually, that somebody had thrown on stage in Montana to a comedy shop.

I wore that.

But, yeah, we went over there, and it was nice.

Who performed?

Oh, Alison Krauss performed.

And, I mean, she has the voice of the evening that I heard.

A lot of great voices in there, but my God. That just exceptional uh clint black we got to listen to um who's that other guy but don't rock did you alan jackson uh just it was awesome man we got to sit there and listen to some music together and and you know there was kind of a point in like there's one point we're sitting there and um this is kind of I guess a childish thought or whatever but I was like you know I wish I kind of wish my mom would um give me a little hug or hold my hand or something I know that sounds crazy to say I don't mean like mean like hold my hand, but just kind of squeeze my hand, just something, you know, like we don't see each other that much.
And I don't know, this, this sounds crazy to say this kind of, I guess, but I've said a lot of weird shit over the years. I just, I, I was thinking, man, it'd be nice if she gave me some sentimental, but physical sign, like sign of affection.
That's what I was i was thinking right and so i'm sitting there next to her and uh and then i just reached over and grabbed my mom's hand that's what i did and and then we were just kind of held hands for maybe 30 seconds or something you you know, just put my hand on top of hers, let her know that I care. And it was just something like, for me, like a moment like that is interesting because a lot of my life, I would just sit there and be like, man, I wish there was this moment of affection, but I wish somebody else would do it, right? Or I'm upset that they're not doing it, you know? And then I just did it.
I just reached over and yeah, my mom's an older lady, you know? And at some point I got to be, no, that's not it. I don't have to, but I don't, it was just like, well, if I want this, I can also get it for myself, you know, and it really had the same effect.
Once I got over the fact of like, oh, I wish they would show the affection first, or I wish they would do the action to be the person providing the affection, which is probably what I thought of a lot when I was a child. But then this time I just reached and I just put my hand on my mom's hand, you know, because she's getting older.
She's not the child now, but she's, you know, just where we're at in our lives. Things are kind of even.
And it still had the same outcome for me. It made me feel, okay.
The second I got over that little moment of kind of jealousy or wishing, or not jealousy, but like wishing somebody else had started the action. The second I got over that, I just had a nice moment where I got to sit there and just be with my mother and watch country music, which is something that we both enjoy doing.
And something that's important to me in my life, you know, to have moments with my mother where we're doing something that we like to do and we're doing it together, you know?

So I don't know if that sounds weird or whatever.

And I honestly,

man,

I don't care if it sounds weird,

you know,

I really don't.

Part of me does still,

but,

but I think the part of me that,

that needs those type of moments is like,

Hey man, finally you're meeting, you're trying to meet just the universe, how you're taking some direction to do something for how you feel. Instead of just, because I always in my life have been caught in this moment like, God, I wish they would do this.
I wish this, I wish this. So I don don't know that was just kind of an interesting moment for me and then i put my arm around my mom's shoulder and just like um yeah like she was you know like she was you know my mom and we were just having a nice time and uh and once i did that i was that, I was getting what I wanted out of the moment.
And I wouldn't have done it if I hadn't have made an effort. I'm not trying to say, hey, look at me.
I'm just trying to say, like, for so long, I've always been the person, and I still am a lot of times, but this time I wasn't, where I'm like, man, I wish somebody

would do this so that I would be able to have a certain type of moment right now or so that

to show me that they care.

And I didn't really realize that if I do it myself, some I can still get some of that

same result.

So I don't know if that makes a lot of sense or not, but, um, and yeah, just, I don't know. Yeah.
Sometimes you, you know, you may only want, you know, you may, sometimes you got to put your own pickles in the chili. That's what I'm saying.
I think, I don't know if that sounds crazy, but sometimes if you want pickles in the chili, and that's the only way you're going to have the chili, sometimes you got to bring the pickles, man, because sometimes the world just serves chili. So I don't know.
But, yeah, I want to speak that out loud too because you know it's just important to me that I start to live in a place in my life where um where I just don't let that uncomfortable moment of like man I wish they would do this so this could be the outcome where I don't let that prevent me from, even if I'm upset at them or whatever, that I don't let that prevent me from maybe trying to take the action myself. I don't know.
I know that doesn't apply to everything, but anyway, enough about me, man. Enough about me.
We got a lot of great calls that have come in today and I want to get to some of those. And again, I do want to apologize that we haven't gotten to do these type of episodes a lot.
I think about this all the time, you know, and I think that it's important. And sometimes it's just been tough.
And I'm not complaining. I'm just saying that it's been tough.
And then, you know, you also have the opportunity to talk to guests.

And you're like, you're like, man, I'd love to talk with this person. And so you just try to balance it.
So just bear with me. I just want to let you know that this community is important to me.
And I'm trying to fine tune some things in my life a little bit better. So things are more organized.
So I'm able to spend my energy where I would like to be able to spend it. anyway

I know I don't need to say that but

I just like to be able to spend it. Anyway, I know I don't need to say that, but I just want you to know that.
All right. We have some calls that came in and thank you guys for continuing to hit the hotline.
As always, the number is 985-664-9503. And we got a call right here.

Here we go.

Hey, Theo.

My name is actually Theo as well.

Oh, hello, Theo.

Good to meet the others.

Onward.

I got a situation here.

I've been talking to this girl for like two years, and it turns out I got her pregnant.

After that all happened, the word got around, and somehow it turns out that she's my first cousin any advice would help and uh thank you so much wow dang brother that's uh oh that's you're gonna be raising a dang lizard homie you can't um wow brother good golly that's, you're going to be raising a dang lizard, homie. You can't, um, wow, brother.
Good golly. That's like shooting fish in a family or whatever.
I don't know. I mean, I haven't looked at a chart recently.
I don't know the, um, the genetic legalities of that, but it do. Yeah, I mean, they say, you know, know don't pee where or don't eat where you don't piss where your family is or whatever whatever that old saying is dude you i feel like you've gone past that at this point and um god that thing's gonna have you you're going to need a farrier to come and put shoes on that thing.
I'm just chirping you. I'm just chirping you, dude.
Look, I feel you. Look, it's having a child with a cousin, I think, at the very least, it's going to need glasses.
That thing is going to need bifocals, brother. You know, I mean, you're just playing Russian roulette with your DNA right there.
But, but at the same time, man, I don't want to scare you, you know, and I do believe, I'm kind of chirping you there still, but I believe that everything is going to be fine. You know, I believe that everything is going to be fine.
I think monitor the child's gestation closely. Make sure it's tracking.
You know, make sure that it has everything it needs. Because it is, bring it up.
Can you, who can, can you have a child with your cousin or not? Let's, now that's just a poll. That says 40% say yes.
That, but do you have any information on that? Oh, I should look it up. Who the hell am I even talking to? Dear God, out of my mind today.
Can you have child with one cousin? Ooh, yes, it is physically possible for first cousins to have children,

but it is important to understand that such relationships carry a slightly elevated risk

of genetic disorders compared to unrelated parents, brother.

So I'm just saying not everybody, you know, some people like things different.

You know, some people like pickles on their chili.

You feel me? So it's, yeah, I think you got to make sure that when that baby right out the gate, put that baby on a damn, you know, let some other people look at it and sign off on that bastard right out the gate, homie. And definitely I would make sure, you know, make sure it doesn't stand straight up when the moon is full and shit like that when it's real young.
I'd keep tabs on it. I'd hit a couple high notes near it on an instrument and see if its eyes turn red or anything.
But you're just going to have to keep tabs on it because that's risky. And look, a lot of people have good-looking cousins, let's say that.
But not a lot of them are as brave as you, brother. So, yeah, I would just stay conscious of that and recognize you have an at-risk child, hire a night nurse or lifeguard or whatever you got to get.
Sometimes lifeguards will work overnight. They're cheaper.
They know CPR. They don't know a lot of the shit that the nannies know, but they're still there.
Got a whistle. So, yeah, I think just, yeah, just stay safe, brother.
And I would back off that type of behavior. You know, if you win this round of DNA roulette brother

I'd leave the rest of the bullets in the chamber baby

when it comes to family

let's take another call here

and thank you to the last fella

Theo actually dear god

I didn't even realize that

man and look

hey bud I can't tell you to be honest with you

if I'd had a really good looking cousin

TBD homie

Thank you. man and look hey bud i can't tell you to be honest with you if i'd had a really good looking cousin tbd homie so the lord don't give you what you can't handle you know but i'm just saying yeah just get out you know just meet somebody else meet somebody you know because if you're not if you're dating, you're not even getting out there.
You're not even getting out there. But maybe you're getting married to your cousin.
I don't look, brother. I don't know.
I would ask probably a state official or somebody. I would ask a pastor about this one.
But yeah, let's get back to this call that came in. Hey, Dio.
I'm in welding school right now.

Oh, you're in welding school.

That's a good school.

And I had a family member

who started a welding school.

It's a good business.

Onward.

And I hate that shit.

Like, I genuinely hate that shit.

And so I've always said

my backup option is the military.

And I'm at the point

where I'm about to head down

to the recruiter's office

Thank you. shit and so I've always said my backup option is the military and I I'm at the point where I'm about to head down to the recruiter's office in the in the coming weeks possibly but I just I just wanted to know what you think I should do because I hate Welton but I don't know if I want to sign away four years of my life you know what I mean mean? And it's like, I'm 18, so I'm young, and I could get out after four years and still not even be 23.
But I don't know. It's just like a, I don't know what to do.
Should I stick with welding school and hate my life for the next few months or the next year and a half? Or should I quit that and go into the military and then get a bunch of free shit and a bunch of discounts for the rest of my life? Amen, brother. Thank you for asking and just for reaching out.
Yeah, it's a good, you know, this is a great question because you're like, do I do a trade or do I go into the military? And especially, um, you mentioned one thing, yeah, go into the military and you get discounts. Like I wouldn't go into the military just because you're going to get 15% off at a long John Silver's or whatever.
That's not a reason to go into the military for four years just so you can get, know uh free left shoes at dsw shoes or whatever you know or uh 11 off of uh cheesy biscuits over there at red lobsters

you know i you know that's not i would take that out of the equation and i would just look at do

you like welding you're saying you don't like it but do you not like the school part of it

Thank you. I would take that out of the equation.
And I would just look at, do you like welding? You're saying you don't like it. But do you not like the school part of it? If you don't like this, I would find out what don't I like.
Because sometimes we say that, it's like, I hate this. But what really do I hate about it? Do you hate that you're in school for it right now? Do you hate that you're having to learn it? Do you hate that you have to get up at certain hours to go learn it? Because you may love welding.
You may not be in it like being at class at 8 a.m. You know, and I'm not saying those things.
I'm just asking you to, or suggesting

that you think, you know, try to figure out, well, what don't I like about it? Because sometimes I'll

just be like, man, I hate that shit, but I never really look at, well, why do I hate it? What do,

and then I might realize I don't really hate that. I hate this other thing that comes with that.
But I do believe that if you get into a trade that you do not like, that you won't enjoy it. And I do believe that there's things out there that we can all do that we would enjoy doing.
I believe that there's so many things. So yeah, I would take a look at that, man.
I would take a look and just decide if you do not like welding and military is your backup, I think the military is a great idea. You know, I mean, you know, I don't think it's a bad idea, especially at your age.
I wished I'd have gone in the military. I spent a lot of time just sitting around, just trying to lick my own dick or whatever,

you know, or, you know, buying binoculars and shit

and just fucking not doing shit or whatever,

being a fucking shitty neighbor or whatever, pervert.

But what, you know, you, if you go in the military now,

yeah, you're out in four years

and you probably have a lot of skills.

You know, you may, it'll probably help you get up early, stay in shape, all these things that are going to really help shape the rest of your life, right? Now, some people may have went to the military and say, Theo, you know what the fuck you're talking about? Fucking honky, you little fucking queer, you little gun pussy or whatever. That's fine.
They can say those things. And I don't, I haven't been, but for you, you're saying that that's what you've've thought of as your backup option you know now you might you know I don't know how long the military will be that you know depending on what they keep having our military carry out and the different actions that they have them do but I think it's an honorable thing I have a ton of respect for, uh, and I don't think you would go wrong with that choice.
Um, so that's kind of where I'm at with it, you know? Uh, and if you went in there, you know, you'd probably make a lot of great friends and you'd learn things about yourself that you like and don't, and then you'd be, uh, be done. And you're right.
You'd only be 22 and a half years old, 23 years you got you have so much time there's so much time man I wasted a lot of time and one of the things I wish I had done as a military just because I think you don't also get those moments of camaraderie where you get to be around a bunch of other guys you know so those are just my thoughts recognize I have never been in the military. But I do think you have time to do that and do countless other things.
And if you don't like welding, you know you don't like it, then maybe it is time for a backup trade to try or a backup option. What else is going on? Yo.
I'm a girl and I like girls. I had a girlfriend for a while and recently I found out that.
Okay, so you're a girl, you like girls and okay, carry on. And recently I found out that my mom's gay too.

So now, I don't know if I'm gay anymore.

Oh, big fact, sister.

Okay.

Oh, once our parents start doing something,

we don't want to do it anymore.

So I think that all checks out.

I think you're good. I think just trust your instincts little mom here we got a call let's hear this one you know sometimes you land on hard times man and you just trying to get you know food to eat and a place to sleep or whatever and I'm like you know I got, I got a five-gallon bucket of pickles.
And I'm stealing bananas from the 7-Eleven, man. I'm going in there, and I'm pocketing these fucking bananas from the 7-Eleven.
Yeah, those are free. How long can I last is what I'm thinking.
I was just like, could i last two months on a five gallon bucket of pickles

and stealing bananas from 7-eleven because i'm eating bananas and pickles that's all i'm fucking eating that's all i got to eat man it's all i got to live upon live upon man yeah motherfucker blm dude look. If life gives you pickles and bananas, bitch, mix them bitches.
Okay? Fuck yeah, dude. I mean, there's only so long you can be trapped somewhere with pickles and bananas and not put them bitches together, dude.
Make some benicles, homie. You feel me? So, look.
Some picnana's homie i think that that all checks out brother so i don't think there's any shame in it you can always once you get your feedback onto you go back to that 7-eleven and give them money for those uh bananas let's hear a little more you know the world is a cruel place the world is a cruel fucking place The world is a cruel fucking place, man. And I realize that, man, when you're eating pickles and bananas just to survive.
You like pickles on your bananas? You like pickles on your bananas? You like pickles on your bananas? Well, it blows my fucking mind that we can give so much foreign aid to places when we have people who are eating pickles and bananas. Actually, pickles and bananas are pretty good, so that's not what I mean.
But yeah, you would think we'd be able to help our own people that are starving first over here. That's just kind of how I feel.
I'm kind of an American. I'm a North America first kind of guy, I guess, because that's us and our neighbors.
But what the fuck do I know? But yeah, man, honestly, you sound pretty healthy. You sound like you're doing pretty good.
You hit a couple of high notes, dude. I think you're fine.
I'd join a church choir, have somebody make some TikTok, see if you can start selling tickets on the road, brother. You're going to be fine.
But yeah, sometimes we all get in tough moments. Trying to think of something where I was kind of down to my last dime.
Oh, I do remember I'd get that block of damn hamburger meat. That bitch came in a missile.
That bitch, they dropped that bitch off a C-130. That thing, you know what I'm talking about?

It's shaped like a, like both ends are kind of a wiener,

kind of like the front end of a wiener.

God, that thing was heavy.

You had to carry it out like this, you know?

And sometimes I'd mix it up by the damn Duraflame logs

and actually put that

bitch in there and just cook that bitch and having to spoon it out the fire to eat it.

Call the fire department. Hey, take some matches, huh? But yeah, man, it sounds like you're doing

okay. Let's, what else is going on? What else can I tell you about that happened to me recently? Not much.
Going to eat dinner with my neighbors. Looking forward to that.
Hitting the road for some more shows. Yeah, we went last week.
Oh, Victoria Island, which is a beautiful,

fascinating little, it's like this cold white Hawaii off of the coast of Vancouver. But

just great people, man, Canadians and grateful to see them. And I'm a Winnipeg Jets fan.

Just letting everybody know that now too.

I don't want that to cause any issues

between me and anybody else,

but I'm a Winnipeg Jets fan.

So I think their jerseys are fire

and I like their...

They're doing good.

And that's good.

Okay, I think that works.

What else? Let's take this call right here. Hey, Theo.
Hope you're doing well. I'm calling you today to see if I can get you a perspective on something.
my girlfriend of four years she passed away

five and a half months ago. She, it wasn't a surprise, but, you know, she had cancer.
We thought that she had a little more time. But, yeah, since then I've spent most of my time doing nothing.
You know, I would visit her grade every day for months, which is good, I guess, for getting out of my apartment. But I would just let the time pass, you know.
But recently, I've started going back to school full time and, uh, working again. And honestly, I feel like I'm just doing it because it's, uh, expected of me, you know, from people around me, my family and my peers.
Um, so maybe some people just expect me to move forward pretty fast, but, you know, I don't want to,

you know?

Well, thanks for the call, man.

I'm sorry to hear about that.

I can't even imagine that in the sense of losing a girlfriend or a partner, spouse.

You know, I've lost people that I've loved, you know.

And yeah, it feels so impossible because I think it's so many things at once.

It's like, you know, something is gone and then the finality and the viciousness of life

Thank you. The finality and the viciousness of life is so evident.
And at the same time, the preciousness of life and how beautiful life is that it could even exist. All that happens at the same time.
And then it's not even about us really, because they're the ones who has life has ended. So there's probably sometimes feelings of guilt that I had of like feeling bad.
That's I'd lost someone, you know, or not being able to separate the feelings into, okay, I'm in pain or I miss them or I'm just loathing in my own sadness. I'm getting into self-pity.
Like all those types of things happened, I remember for me at the same time. And for one, it's just so much.
And for two, it's hard to organize it and to even start to think and decide which feelings go where. I'd rather just sleep.
I'd rather just hope that this goes away. I'd rather dream.
I used to do that a lot. When my dad died, I would just try and dream a lot.
Because I felt like if I was dreaming, maybe I had a chance to like see him or that my feelings could be different or I could be living a completely different experience.

So I think a lot of it is normal.

And I bet it's hard to get back into the flow of something when you've lost like a partner.

Because you probably think a lot of your life as having that partner there with you and i think even if you're doing something just even if you don't feel it just have the practice of it until your feelings and your emotional wellness catch up with your actions because one day they will you know And you'll be glad that you had started doing these things. Yeah, I don't really know what to say, man.
I just appreciate you just telling us what's going on. Hmm.
Maybe some people could call in, actually. And share things that if you had some experience with the loss of a loved one.
And I would say a wife. Because this is a man calling, I believe.
So if you lost a wife or a girlfriend, you know, and they passed away. And if you have just maybe some experience with that,

if you could call on the voicemail, 985-664-9503,

we will come back to that on our next solo episode.

I don't know when it'll be.

It'll be within the next month.

But we'll come back to that and see if we have some answers. Maybe we can get some suggestions from other people.

But, yeah, man, I hate to even leave you on this call. But, yeah, life is just, sometimes it's just a lot of freaking pickles on your chili, isn't it? Love you, brother.

Let's take another call.

It's hard to say when somebody's going through something like that.

You know, but that's just also the oddness of the world.

It just keeps moving.

You can't stop it.

The world doesn't have any handlebars on it.

Time just doesn't have any.

It doesn't.

You can't get your hands into it. That's the most painful part sometimes of everything.
Let's take a call here. Hey Theo.
I'm having a really hard time right now. I'm 16 years old.

I don't have a job.

Nothing. I got my girlfriend pregnant.
Okay. She just turned 18 actually, not too long ago.
I'm just kind of in this moment where I don't know what's coming for me in life. Like, I feel like I failed myself because I made stupid adult decisions at such a young age.
Um, and it hurts me really bad.

Um, and I honestly just don't know what to do. I'm kind of in this, like, moment where

I feel like I failed felt everybody around me,

including my parents,

and I'm just not going to be the dad that I'm supposed to be.

And I'm just scared.

I'm just looking for any advice.

Well, at least she's not your cousin brother i'll start right there uh and people can say well that's just that's cool to be joking but hey one last thing the guy's got to kind of think about right now um no man look first of all the fact that you're calling even to talk about this shows, I think, a

level of maturity that is a lot of people wouldn't do.

So, right, you're curious.

You're looking at what's going on.

You're evaluating where you're at and you're like, well, I want to get to a place where

I feel either confident about this or I have some support in this.

So how do I get there?

Well, I'm going to reach out to other people and see what's going on. See if I can get some thoughts, some suggestions, even to somebody to listen to me.
Yeah, that's young to be out there gunning like that, you know, just to be rooting through some trap out there with no visor on, daddy, you know, with no hoodie on. Yeah, but that's, that's the world we're in.
Um, so I wouldn't be, you are where you are. You could

also look at it as. with no hoodie on.
Yeah, but that's the world we're in.

So I wouldn't be, you are where you are.

You could also look at it as that God has gifted you guys with an opportunity.

I think people will probably be disappointed maybe

in where you're at because they don't want to see you

miss out on opportunities for yourself

that there might be less of if you have a child. That's probably what the disappointment is.
I don't think it's disappointment in you having a child. It's probably disappointment that, well, this may affect your ability to chase some of your dreams or ideas because you have a responsibility now.
Now, I'm sure that as time goes on and this child comes into the world, it's going to bring a lot of love in everybody's life. So...
I feel like I've felt everybody around me, including my parents.

And I'm just not going to be the dad that I'm supposed to be.

Well, we don't know if you're going to be the dad that you're supposed to be.

You know, that's ways still to be determined.

You know, we don't know.

That hasn't happened yet.

So don't future trip like that.

Shit, the fact you care about this this much already, I think you're probably going to be a pretty caring guy.

You know? And you're going to have, I'm assuming a girlfriend or wife or her and her family as well are going to help support this child. So you didn't mention that, that that's going to be a fear.
I think everything's going to be okay, dude. I think it's going to take some time.
I bet it's super scary, bro. 16 years old and you're having a child.

That's kind of scary. I think you got to let this play out, man.
I think you have a chance to be a young dad. Now, that'd be cool.
Think about that. You're going to get to do stuff with your kid that a lot of parents will not be able to do.
So he gets to play tetherball Get to do probably some

Racing quads your kid that a lot of parents will not be able to do. So, get to play tetherball, get to do probably some

racing quads,

like some kind of high speed shit that

some parents kind of age out of when their kids

age into it. Probably be able

to play video games, do some VR

type shit. So, there's going to

be interesting stuff.

But

all I'm saying is don't let all the fear take away all the possibility.

You know?

Now, you're probably going to have to grow up pretty quick.

And there might be a part of your adolescence you're going to miss out on.

Or it's going to be different or trickier.

In fact, you're probably going to grow up pretty fast in some ways.

But maybe that's what God needs you for. You know, you just don't know.
We don't know what we're needed for in the future. So just hang in there, man.
This isn't the end of the world. Hell, this is the beginning of a life that you're responsible for.
So it's just, I know it's got to be scary. It's easy for me to say that.
You know, I'm sure there's gonna be moments

where it's really scary.

But try to squeeze into those moments of fear

some possibility.

Man, because that's cool, dude.

You get to have a, you get to make a child.

You get to have a child that you're gonna take care of.

So amen, brother, and God luck.

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Thank you. From time to time on this program, we talk with miracles, human beings that have, that are the corn of the, that are the cream of the death crop.

People that have come so close to the grave but managed to stay out of it.

Big bosses, we call them, big bosses.

They call them in some, um, Polynesian areas. And today we're grateful to be able to talk with another miracle here.
There he is. Big dog, Matt, how are you? I'm living the dream, man.
Living the dream. Amen, brother.
Yeah. We love to get to talk to people who've had miracle experiences in their lives.
And I just really appreciate your time today.

How do you say your last name there, brother?

Tyberg, Matthias Tyberg.

Oh, this angle makes me look so fat, but that's okay.

Oh, that's fine, man. My sister's fat.

And that's perfectly fine. Matthias Tyberg, where are located brother i live in calgary alberta oh yeah yeah a lot of good people up there eating steaks and just what are they doing mining for gold is that the gold area gold oil yeah memphis gold memphis gold Yeah.
Now, you've had quite an experience in your life. I've heard that you've had a couple miracles kind of occur in your life.
Can you kind of take me through some of that situation? Yeah. How did it start? Well, there's so many different situations.
I mean, I've been at a party where i seen somebody that jumped me before so i told him let's run the fade or just apologize to me and i guess he didn't want to do that so he ended up chasing me and i tripped and i got stabbed 10 times at once. Oh, two thirds of the blood in my body.
My God, brother. I'm sorry to hear that.
Thank you for, for just telling us about that. 10 times.
That's a lot. I mean, did they, do you, do you feel like that was a lot? You feel like it was too many? Like, how did you? Honestly, you can't feel it because all of your nerves are on the top of your skin.
So it just feels like you're getting punched, but you're bleeding, you're leaking. Oh, God, brother.
And what do you, how do you, and if, if two thirds of you is gone, what do you do at that point? Were you to call uh the authorities or what do you do oh one of my buddies was on the phone with ems and snapchat he was snapchatting also yeah oh dark times but you got to make content you know yeah and which hold do you plug say you have 10 stab wounds i guess they're referred to as by the government or whatever do you plug one up do you pick the most kind of active one what do you do there um honestly you don't really know what what to hold on to man i it was more my more or less my stomach hurt so that's why i was holding my stomach but i was half dead by the time i got to the hospital so did you pass out oh yeah wow and did you have any experience you remember anything when you passed out like did you i just remember because i was on Xanax too. So I woke up in the hospital.
And then, yeah, I woke up in the hospital. And then apparently you're only allowed two visitors at once.
And eight people come at once to come visit me. So then they kicked me out of the hospital like three days after it happened.
Because what, you guys were partying a little too much or whatever yeah pretty much and were you allowed to drink in the hospital or no no no i wouldn't drink they were just mad because all my friends showed up at once to see if i was okay wow man yeah a lot of people don't live through something like that man no i've been hit've been hit by the C train. Oh, yeah, the best one is.
Wait, hold on. You got hit by a.
Well, what happened was is my buddy knew this foreign exchange student. He gave money to these guys to try and buy him a pack of cigarettes.
These guys are like 30 years old. They just told him to fuck off.
We we're keeping your money so i decided to go up and punch him as hard as i could in the head and i didn't realize the police are there so i'm getting chased by this guy's buddy with like a foot long knife i keep looking back still getting chased by the guy with the knife then i look back it's the cops chasing me

so i'm at one end of a semi and the cop is at the other end of a semi truck yeah we're playing peekaboo to see where i go i'm wearing a bright red chicago bulls jacket and i'm freaking hammered Dude, that's a fresh outfit, baby.

Scotty dripping, huh?

Yeah.

And what happened was I ended up getting arrested for assault. I got bailed two weeks later.
I'm at the same train station that I punched the guy at. I'm hammered standing on the platform and then I get sucker punched in the back of the head.
And who is it the guy stole that guy that kid's 20 bucks and then the he just ended up pushing me like that and i fell onto the train tracks and the train was coming in so there's i didn't know what to do i just throw my body above the yellow line and it caught my legs and dragged me like 15 feet. They like rip my shoes off, rip my pants in half.
Oh God, it's a pervert basically. Yeah.
Yeah. That train was a pedophile.
Also, that sounds like a bit much, huh? Dude, that's insane, man. So, and were you drunk or were you already impaired when the train hit you or what kind of condition were you in physically just at that point in your life oh yeah i was an everyday alcoholic we would all the boys would meet well i got this question though what sorry to interrupt you there but what kind of train driver would hit a drunk just hit a guy we'd hit a drunk guy.
Did you ever speak to the driver?

No. Well, the thing is, the C train's moving so fast, right? So it's coming to dock into the station to let everybody off.
There's nothing he really could have done to. I don't know.
You can see a white dude most of the time, you know, no matter what's going on. But damn, brother, I can't believe that.
And so you were stabbed 10 times. You've been hit by a train.
But God had more in store for you, didn't he? What else happened? The biggest one was the balcony because I ended up buying some cocaine that wasn't all cocaine. cocaine so there was meth in it oh yeah right them moguls got some bounce to them huh shit man every time i look through the little hole in my door there'd be four people outside with weapons trying to bust in that's what i would see i'm dragging the like a diorama kind Yeah, I'm dragging the couch with the landlord on it to the front door to try and block it.
Damn, brother. He told me to go to bed.
So I went to bed and woke up. All I could do was get a glass of water.
I looked through that people in the door. And the same thing.
People looks like people with guns are trying to bust in the apartment so i tried to go from my balcony over to the neighbors and i'm on the seventh floor so and who are the neighbors can we let's let's who are they there there was nobody even in there that's why i was trying to get over to the okay and how far is that is that a jump're trying to make? Or did you have a kind of a rope set up or anything like that? Did you have a little trebuchet, anything? Shit. Like you could, if you reached across, you could pass a beer to your neighbor.
So it wasn't that far. Okay.
I just kind of was trying to leapfrog over. I know it's kind of stupid, but when you're fucked up like that well it's a great idea i mean here's the thing people don't realize that people that are wasted have done amazing things you know one of the guys um have you heard of lewis and clark uh yeah i think so one of them was an addict and they discovered like a third of the North America.
So let's don't – you can't always beat down on addicts. But so take me out there.
You're on the balcony. You're high on cocaine.
And what is – your plan is to make that leap over to the other balcony? Yeah. And then the shittiest – I guess the shittiest attempt ever.
And was it Wendy? Was it Wendy?

Yes, it was. Yeah.
Brother. Big Matty, dude.
Taking on the freaking Boreas twins, brother. Taking on the Jetstream up there.
Seventh floor Matty. One shot.
And how do you make that leap, dude? Tell me, take me through that. Are you wearing shoes? At first, I stood up right on the thing and held my hand on the wall, but I was wobbling.

With the balcony?

Yeah, on the rail of it.

So then I was wobbling.

So I was like, oh, shit, I'm going to fall.

So I crouched down to try and leap like that.

Oh, yeah, get some, build up a little bit of energy or whatever. is it called potential energy you crouch down yeah yeah leap my leapfrog my way down all the way 70 feet what happened did you bounce off the rail or you even hit the other balcony oh i didn't even hit the other balcony i'm sorry dude sorry to laugh there's laugh.
There's a glitch in the audio. Yeah, no, it's all good.
It's pretty. I laugh about it, dude.
And now, man, you play stupid games, you win stupid prizes, you know? Yeah, but that's one way to look at it, man. But I think another way to look at it is that you're a miracle, you know? A lot of people do not get to live through stabbings, through train hitings, through falling.
How far did you fall? 70 feet. OK, and take me.
Jesus Christ, that's a lot. And take me through some of that.
Like when you first hit the one you once you first realized you're not going to make the first balcony. Were there lower balconies you could have grabbed? uh not when because damn you fall so fast i was 200 pounds at the time and if you weigh 200 pounds and you go over 50 feet you go terminal velocity really so i yeah i hit the ground going terminal velocity for the last 20 feet big dog went down brother god dude and so what were some of your thoughts during that did you get into a certain position to absorb the impact or were you just kind of like letting were you praying what was going on when i fell down actually i've seen like some people on like the third or fourth or whatever floor it was they were outside smoking on their balcony oh that's pretty cool i hit the ground they look over at me and i tell them to bring me some liquor because i know i'm going to the hospital i can't move my damn body and i was an alcoholic at the time so god who survives that brother i don't know man i've honestly almost died even more times than that like when i was a baby i fell into a motel pool while my parents weren't there and i i was drowned pronounced dead and i came back so yeah well you must feel like god wants you here for a reason brother yeah what do you feel like that is after all this i mean that's countless times you've escaped death man you know yeah you know forced to swim as a baby train hitting stabbing stabbing uh or high you know high amount stabbing 70 foot fall off of a balcony.
Yeah.

I've been stabbed other times too but i think right i i understand what you're getting at but i think what do you feel like you're do you feel like you have a bigger purpose there's a reason a lot of people are not able to go through all that man you understand that's pretty miraculous do you. Do you understand that? Yeah.
Amen, brother. And how are you doing today? What's your physical state today? I'm a tetraplegic, so I can, like, I can't feel or move anything chest down.
I can move my arms, but my fingers are stuck like this. Oh, yeah, kind of like Muhammad Ali or whatever.

Yeah, but at the end of the day, I don't ever complain about it because, man, I'm the one who wanted to do coke, and I can't blame that on somebody else.

I mean –

And you're a survivor, brother.

You're a damn survivor, dude.

You're a damn – you know what I'm saying?

You're a damn gravity monkey, dude. Do you think you will ever walk again, brother? Um, probably not, but I'm okay with that.
I don't really, I love watching YouTube. There's so much people come up with stuff every day.
Oh yeah. Gives me something to do.
Oh yeah. You can watch people walk on YouTube all day if you want and take it easy you know um yeah but man i just yeah i appreciate you just jumping on and i appreciate you paying attention to the show and um yeah we're gonna come to calgary dude you gotta come out i'd love to get to meet you out there yeah i'm coming i already got my vip tickets so sweet bro well yeah we'll have to catch up dude i want to touch some uh magic limbs already got my VIP tickets.
Sweet, bro. Well, yeah, we'll have to catch up, dude.
I want to touch some magic limbs you got on you, daddy. I'm going to rub them bitches for good luck.
Hell yeah. Where do you live these days, man? I live in, well, now I'm so crippled.
I got to live in like a long-term care home. So I'm the youngest here.
It's pretty much just older people. Any chicks in there or what? No, not really.
Any disabled chicks. You got to pray to meet the one you want.
That's what my friend told me the other day. He said, are you praying to meet the woman you want to meet, you know? Yeah.
So I got to start working on that. I kind of gave up because once you once you sever your spinal

cord man you can't even bust a nut i've busted a nut since i fell from that balcony oh damn how how long before you had fallen to had you busted a nut you think uh the day before amen brother finish strong

yeah finish strong

and look man you're gonna bust one Oh, the day before. Amen, brother.
Amen. Finish strong.

Yeah, finish strong.

And look, man, you're going to bust one. If we can do anything, if we hear of anything that could help you,

any elixirs or anything like that, we'll see what we can do, man.

But, yeah, dude, if you can get hit by a train and still be alive or whatever, you can, you'll get another nut out. Oh, yeah, that would be nice.
Amen, brother. Well, thank you so much, dude.
Give my best to everybody up there in Calgary, bro. America's getting weird.
We're probably all going to come up there soon. So save me room up there, big dog.
yeah calgary is probably the best nicest city in canada i think so dude canada is so great man and it's safe too that's the best thing about your stories unnoticed is that you didn't get shot in one of them yeah i've been shot at but but that don't count you got to come to america to get shot brother that's where we do so they won't let me across the border oh we'll see what we can do well look right now you're probably an insurance risk i would guess so yeah um but yeah dude that's a good thing about canada they got knives so you always stand a chance you know that's one thing i like yeah yeah at least you're not getting shot just killed instantly yeah that's so bullshit and lame dude i mean look at you if you got shot that first time we wouldn't even you wouldn't even uh um you wouldn't even got hit by a train that's crazy to say but you would you know the other stuff wouldn't even have happened you wouldn't have had these other experiences you know yeah so you're like the worst evil knievel in some ways you know sorry dude that's not funny but it's all good it is funny dude i laugh at anything man if i didn't become a criminal before, I would have became a comedian, dude.

I just didn't have any

father figure in my life.

I was homeless 16 years old

downtown selling weed.

So, not

making good choices, but...

Well, you're alive

today, man. Yeah, I do believe you're here for a purpose.

And even just sharing your story right here today, man.

You know, resilience is huge. And I think the future is bright, brother.
I believe that. And I'm just glad I got to talk to you today.
And well, we got our first Canadian miracle right there, Matt. How do you say your last name? Tyberg.
Matt Tyberg right there, ladies and gentlemen. If you don't believe in miracles, you got to believe in them now.
That's what feel like and uh matt thanks for your time dude i look forward to catching up within a couple months all right awesome sounds good have a great day all right you too brother cheers man cheers matthew tyberg right there let's see if we got one more call That came in here Hey Theo

This is Willie Boone

What's up pal

Willie Boone's coming through baby

Breaker Breaker 1-9 go through Boone's

What's up gang

Yo man

I just got one question for you man

I'm dealing with active addiction

With you know

The blow or whatever

Yeah doing cocaine brother

I hear you what's going on

Thank you. What's going on? And I'm just wanting tips or some advice, man, on how I can keep this shit.
I just have problems, man. I say I'm going to stop and never do.
I'm sure you know. You went through the same shit, eh? But.
Well, thanks for calling, Willie. the only things i know about this are i don't think you can uh quit cocaine without quitting alcohol that's for me that's what i've seen i'm not saying that's everybody's case i'm not that's for me for me that's what i've seen and then let me think about what else um yeah i think think you have to get into recovery.
Now, if you're pretty bad off, first you need to go to a detox. And then once you're clean, then you need to get into a recovery program.
You know, maybe a 30-day or an inpatient or then start to go to cocaine anonymous or alcoholics anonymous meetings with a friend. If you don't like cocaine anonymous meetings, I suggest alcoholics anonymousonymous because there's more meetings and it's the same thing.
Cocaine and alcohol aren't the same thing, but addiction is the same. So if you can, you can apply the same principles and you can talk to a sponsor about doing that.
I wish I had some other cure for you. That's the only thing that I know that's ever helped me.
So I wish you the best of luck, man. It's scary You know what I realized too about drugs for me? I was just too much of a pussy to do them really Some people could get all fucked up and have a blast.
I couldn't do that I'd get all fucked up and squirrel away. I'd hide in your fucking mailbox bitch Ups boy I'll hide in your cousin's ass boy and take everybody's temperature in there dog praise God man thank you for calling brother and thank you guys again for all the support we may add a few more shows to this tour we're almost done with it and I just want to let you know that and thank you to everybody that's come out I can't even believe it can I update you on? Oh, we're figuring out some of our stuff with the foundation and what we're going to do.
Been doing some calls with different people and just figuring out how to make a positive difference in the world or in our community starting there. So that's something that's exciting.
I want it to be in the recovery space. I don don't know what it all looks like But in my spare time I've been just discussing with other people Who have done similar type things And And I just need to pray a little bit more And see if I can get more insight You know Just to lead me to something Because I Yeah I mean there's causes for sure.
There's lots of things, but I want to, yeah, I want to land in a space that I'm going to feel motivated to keep doing, you know? One more call that came in. Hi, Theo.
It's Lenore from Florida. Hey, Lenore from Florida.

Thank you for calling.

I'm calling to wish you a happy birthday.

If I remember right,

it's March 17th.

Anyway, I'm sending you

a big virtual hug.

I want you to know

you're a very special person,

a shining light

of not only laughs, but of so much love and compassion. I hope you're doing whatever makes you happy today.
Keep shining your light. Love you, Theo.
Gang. Thanks, Eleanor.
That's sweet of you. I appreciate that.
Yeah. That's just sweet of you to say.
I feel, you know, I think I feel a little more purposeful sometimes in my life these days, I think. I think there was this moment kind of even when I had, whenever we talked with Cat Williams on the episode, and he said, well, I was talking about, well, I don't know about this.

I don't know about that. And he's like, well, what don't you know? He's like, you're here.

You're in this conversation right now. You're in this moment.
So to keep second guessing everything,

you know, you're here, there's a, you're here, right? Like, like, cause I think there was

something like, I don't know if we should talk about that. He's like, well, when are we going to talk about it? We have to talk about this is we're here talking about it.
You know, in a lot of my life I've, I've, I've, I've been standing in, you know, I've been standing in the, in the water, but not really ready to get wet, but it's like I'm in the water, but not really ready to get wet. But it's like, but I'm, I'm in the water, you know, but it's like, I'm waiting for this Thursday, you know, but there was this moment with him where he's just like, this is where you are.
This is, and I don't mean me, but it's anybody. This is where this, it's, if it's happening now, it's happening now.
Like the, you know, cause a lot of them, I'm always like, you know, this and later and then's if it's happening now it's happening now like the you know because a lot of them i'm always like get all this and later and then and it's like you know so i do feel sometimes a little more purposeful um i don't know even what that means exactly but i just i don't know i start to feel a little bit more okay where I am, you know, and that, yeah, I believe that, um, yeah, I believe that God's given me a lot of neat stuff, opportunity. Um, like, you know, I believe that you guys have helped me learn like how to express like my feelings and learn about, um, yeah, just thinking and feeling together.
We've done a lot of that on this program over the years. Um, and yeah, I think at some point it, you know, uh, there are positives from that, you know? And so I think, um, yeah, that's where I feel.
I feel like a little bit like there's a reason that all this has kind of happened and that there are some positives and let's start to maybe see what those are. And not just in me, but just like, yeah, what can be done as a group? What can I start or be a part of starting? Or what can we be a part of starting that could be of service? I don't know.
I don't know exactly what I'm saying, but I'm able to say it now more than I felt like I was in the past and feel like that's where I'm supposed to be. You gotta feel lucky to be alive.
Lucky to get to see certain things. I think America's getting weird and interesting and it's getting like good versus evil type shit and I'm here for that shit.
I think we've all always wanted to live in like in the Gryffindor versus Slytherin type shit. Type shit.
But anyway, thank you. Thanks for the happy birthday wishes.
What did I do? My buddy John Shahidi from Happy Dead sent me a gift. I haven't even opened it yet.

My, did my brother get me something?

I don't know.

My brother came in town too.

And his buddy's friend was up here

visiting their kid.

Their kid was in show choir

at the Grand Ole Opry

or at the Opry Mills.

So I got to spend some time with them.

What else did we do?

Took mom to my favorite breakfast place. That was fun.
Oh, my mom did give me a gift. She got me an ounce of silver.
You know, my mom was never a gold digger. She was a silver digger though.
Shout out to silver diggers, dude. They don't end up with shit, but, you know, but they're not gold diggers, dude.
But my mom, like, you know, she's ready for like the end of things, right? So she's ready. She's like when the banks go awry and all the, you know, everything falls apart online, you're going to have real silver and you can trade it for stuff.
So she got me like an ounce of silver. So that was really cool.
I never had that. And what else? Oh, I got a pair of boots.
Bought myself a pair of boots that I really like. And what else did I do? Oh, I texted some of my friends that had the same birthday.
Trying to think. Oh, I had to work.
I had a podcast that I did with a hostage negotiator that was pretty cool so uh got to do that and uh did i was that when i did that yep yeah so that's what i did man i did the things yeah that i like to do on my birthday i think i went and worked out i to podcast. I got to listen to some music with my mom.

And it was great.

And I'm grateful to be here with you guys today.

And yeah,

thank you, Lenore, for the sweet message.

And I don't know what that was.

And thank you, everybody, for the support.

And yeah, the hotline is always, if you need it,

985-664-9503.

And yeah, there's a light out if you need it, 985-664-9503.

And yeah, there's a light out there for all of us, man.

You know, for all types of people.

And life sometimes, you know, you just don't get it the way you want it.

But it's still, I don't know, sometimes you got to meet it halfway, man.

Sometimes you got to put your own pickles on your chili, brother. But there's a life for all of us.
You guys be good to yourselves, baby. You deserve it, man.
Whenever you're down, out the cold Faceless and tired No reason to own Come take my hand And walk there with me I know a place Where we can be free There is a light Shining for you Who needs matches? I'm on fire Hey! Two shots of fireball The Bronx is burning! From the mountaintops and through the deepest valleys We hear a voice calling you Do the trunk! And a rising sign And I know that love is happening

Can't you see

You can be free

I am the world

I am the world

I am the world

Searching for you