Live from CrimeCon 2024 with Payne Lindsey, Dennis Cooper, and Liam Luxon

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Speaker 3 Hey listeners, John Street here from the Tenderfoot team. As you may know, many of Tenderfoot's shows have topped the charts over the years.

Speaker 3 Actually, we've had over a dozen number one shows since we started back in 2016. And that's thanks to you, our listeners.

Speaker 3 But have you ever wondered what it takes to make a successful podcast or what the journey's like for creators? Sometimes shows start slow and steady.

Speaker 3 Then next thing you know, they're reaching millions of listeners and making a real difference. And often they gain momentum overnight.
So what's the secret?

Speaker 1 Is it hard work?

Speaker 3 Sheer luck? Maybe some of both?

Speaker 3 Well, our team recently attended CrimeCon 2024 in Nashville, and I sat down with Payne Lindsay of Up and Vanished, Dennis Cooper of Culpable, and Liam Luxon of Status Untraced.

Speaker 3 And they talked about their experience as first-time hosts who created a number one show. And what they share might surprise you.
Enjoy the conversation.

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We're all here.

Speaker 3 Thanks for doing this, guys.

Speaker 1 Hey.

Speaker 1 We have our diehard fans here. Thank you.

Speaker 4 Thank you for joining us.

Speaker 3 We are at a place unlike anything else I've ever been to, the Gaylord Opryland. Like, first I want to get everybody's thoughts on this place.

Speaker 3 It's a very unique venue. Yeah.
Thoughts?

Speaker 1 Have you ever seen the movie Biodome? Yes.

Speaker 1 It reminds me of that, where it's a pretend outside, and for a moment, the illusion can trick you. And then, like, in a brief moment later, you're like, holy shit, I'm actually inside.

Speaker 1 Then you have this weird panic. And then you're like, wait, it's still cool.
There's a waterfall. But I don't think you can spend more than three days in here without completely losing your mind.

Speaker 1 No, right other than that, it's beautiful. They did a great job.

Speaker 3 So we're here at Crime Con. Payne, have you been to every Crime Con?

Speaker 1 Maybe. Maybe.
It definitely feels like I have.

Speaker 1 I'll just go ahead and say yes to that. All right.

Speaker 3 Hard yes from Payne.

Speaker 1 I went to the first one. I know that.
Okay.

Speaker 3 Which was where?

Speaker 1 It was in Indianapolis. Okay.
Yep.

Speaker 3 And the second one was here, right?

Speaker 1 I have no idea. We've definitely had a Crime Connect.
They all kind of blew together.

Speaker 1 With other conferences in between, I'm like, was that CrimeCon? Was that another thing? I don't know. But I've definitely been here

Speaker 1 before

Speaker 1 for CrimeCon, I believe. Right, Mike? Right, yeah.
18. So now it feels just like a deja vu thing.
It really does.

Speaker 3 All right, so we're here to talk about number one show. So obviously each of you have a different show that you've kind of pioneered, created.
Payne, everybody knows Payne.

Speaker 3 Liam, why don't you take a second to introduce yourself and the show?

Speaker 1 Sure.

Speaker 4 Yeah, so my name is Liam Luxon. My show is called Status Untraced.
It's about a nomadic traveler who went missing under extremely suspicious circumstances in India.

Speaker 4 He wasn't just like a nomadic traveler though, he was an extremely trained survivalist. One of the last things he ever said was

Speaker 4 I should be back mid-September. If I'm not back by then, don't come looking for me.
And then disappeared. Soon afterwards, like

Speaker 4 you could call him the lead suspect, was arrested and three weeks, spent three weeks in jail. And about three days before he was released, he was found hanging in his jail cell.

Speaker 4 And that was kind of, yeah, that's kind of that's that's the baseline of the story.

Speaker 1 There's a 10-episode series on it called Status Untraced, which is out now.

Speaker 4 And took four years to make.

Speaker 1 Yeah. Took four years to make, and it's incredible.
And it's a deep dive investigative story. And it's his very first podcast, and it actually went number one.

Speaker 3 Dennis, what you got?

Speaker 5 Oh, my intro.

Speaker 1 Yeah, I'm Dennis Cooper.

Speaker 5 I'm from Louisville, Kentucky, where I live live with my wife and four kids. And in 2019, I got into podcasting and created a podcast called Culpable.

Speaker 5 We covered the suspicious death of Christian Andreacchio, a 21-year-old in Meridian, Mississippi. We did a second season out of a small town, Brown County, Ohio.

Speaker 5 We covered the case of a young pregnant mother of one. who was killed while driving on the highway headed to her father's birthday.

Speaker 5 And from there, we've launched our case review series where we are covering more cases and less episodes, so just doing one episode per case.

Speaker 5 And then I'm in the middle of working on season three of Cold Bloor right now.

Speaker 3 So we're here at Crime Con, an entire conference dedicated to the genre of true crime. So I'm curious from each one of you: how long have you been a true crime fan?

Speaker 3 Like, what was that journey like for you?

Speaker 1 For me, I mean, I think

Speaker 1 the moniker true crime has kind of become something

Speaker 1 more representative of a larger genre that's existed for a while. I mean, going back to Unsolved Mysteries, I mean, I used to love that as a kid.
It scared the shit out of me.

Speaker 1 But my mom let me watch Unsolved Mysteries. And

Speaker 1 I've always been fascinated by things that are unsolved, things that we can't explain or figure out. I mean, you could go back to like an Agatha Christie book.
It's just

Speaker 1 the suspense of not knowing. And just to me, that bothers me and it gets this little curiosity bug in my brain going.
And so for me, it's always been about solving a mystery and telling that story.

Speaker 1 And so in 2016, when I made Up and Vanish season one,

Speaker 1 I took a new approach and I made a podcast where I was going to personally go investigate an unsolved missing persons case, which at the time I had no real business doing.

Speaker 1 And that's really ultimately why I'm here today, was just kind of taking a leap out of my comfort zone.

Speaker 1 And, you know, for those who don't know me personally or like what would maybe drive me, it never really is about the

Speaker 1 nitty-gritty true crime parts of it. It's not about the forensics.
It's not about... you know, these are all interesting things to me.
But it's, to me, it's about who the hell did it or what happened.

Speaker 1 And like that part of it drives me.

Speaker 1 And as I've kind of grown into my shoes a little bit more, I've just tried to push the envelope more there because I feel like it's more authentic to me and it's what I have more control over.

Speaker 1 If I, if there's a suspect to a murder case and I know where they live, well, I could go knock on their door. And so that's kind of where I'm at.

Speaker 1 But true crime is, I think, a little bit different to everybody. But I think at the end of the day, I think that people are curious.
they want to know why people do fucked up shit

Speaker 1 and they want to learn from it and it's okay to have a little bit of a morbid curiosity i think if if you don't have that then maybe you're one of the people who is killing people out here

Speaker 1 i i agree with that for he's like two shifts

Speaker 4 pretty much all of that is true for me i i've always been really inquisitive i've been very curious Status Untrace and the disappearance of Justin Alexander Shettler for me was

Speaker 4 Justin himself was so so fascinating. He was this guy that gave up everything he owned and already lived all these crazy adventurous lives of being, you know,

Speaker 4 crossing the Himalayas and flip-flops or becoming a monk or living with indigenous tribes.

Speaker 3 And that's unique to you though, right?

Speaker 1 I mean, because not every true crime story, like you, you felt connected to the way he lived his life.

Speaker 4 I, well, in the fact that I had always aspired to do things like that, not that I had done things like that.

Speaker 4 So to me, it was kind of like that childhood hero that I grew up wanting to be, you know, and

Speaker 4 the mystery of what happened to him was so fascinating. There were so many different things that were just so odd about his disappearance that I immediately felt like I had to know what happened.

Speaker 4 I think that's that it was my draw to true crime originally.

Speaker 1 I think it still is too. Yeah.

Speaker 5 I've always been into true crime as far as I can remember.

Speaker 5 My parents were both into it, so it was always on the TV growing up.

Speaker 1 Like forensic files and stuff or what?

Speaker 5 Yeah, forensic files. More, uh, they were more like dateline, 2020, you know, those specials when they were on.
But

Speaker 5 a little bit of forensic files, unsolved mysteries, like you mentioned, one of my favorite shows to this date. I still, I still re-watch them.

Speaker 1 Oh, yeah, great re-watch.

Speaker 5 Oh, it's so good. It's so good.

Speaker 5 And then when I met my wife, she was an even bigger True Crime fan than I was.

Speaker 5 So then all of a sudden, I went from like watching sports at nighttime to like we'd fall asleep with like forensic files on the TV because, you know, it's just if that's what you want to watch.

Speaker 5 So it's just, I've just always been around and always had an interest, but didn't anticipate

Speaker 5 doing a podcast about it. But it's like you both hit on like, you find that story and your heart's just in it and you're just so

Speaker 5 you know, you're just so wrapped up in it and just want to get answers, like just want to make sense of this problem.

Speaker 5 Like Payne said, I think we all have a little bit of a problem solver in us and want to fix injustices and things that we see wrong.

Speaker 5 So yeah, you know, doing that was really cool because it was something I think I always envisioned was like being a creative and maybe even specifically in the true crime space.

Speaker 5 But I didn't put in the work to do it. I didn't go to school for it.
I didn't like try to go make it happen.

Speaker 1 Well like how do you do that? Right? I don't know. I don't know exactly.
I don't know. You just do it.

Speaker 1 You just do it.

Speaker 5 Nike, you know? Yeah, but you know, the stars aligned and here I am.

Speaker 3 So I'm curious, like, why podcasting? And Payne, specifically for you, well, I guess Lamu, too, because you both come from more of like a film background.

Speaker 3 So why is podcasting the platform that you were like, yeah, I'm going to do this and I'm going to take it to podcasting? And I feel like that's the right way.

Speaker 1 I was at the point in my life and career where I was dead broke and I just finished binging Making a Murderer and the Jinx when they had just came out.

Speaker 1 And like to this day, there's still landmark, legendary, like premium documentary true crime series.

Speaker 1 And I just had this like stupid thought at the time. I was like,

Speaker 1 I mean,

Speaker 1 I couldn't stop thinking about the cases. And I was like, how does one like become the person who does this? Like,

Speaker 1 did they just say, hey, I'm going to go do this? How did they even like put together the resources to do that at all?

Speaker 1 And that puzzled me. And so, actually, I never even said this before, but early on,

Speaker 1 I used to watch ID Channel 2. And there were some shows that, no offense,

Speaker 1 I thought were pretty trash,

Speaker 1 but I still watched them and kind of liked them. And I was like, maybe I should email some of the producers of this, not telling them that their show is trash, but more like, hey,

Speaker 1 you know, can I work on this show? Or

Speaker 1 I don't know. How could I get involved? No response.

Speaker 1 And then I was on a road trip with my friend to Louisville, actually. And Serial had just came out.
And the first five episodes of the podcast Serial were out.

Speaker 1 And he's like, dude, you got to listen to this show. And I'm like, okay, what is it? And he's like, audio show.
I was like, man, I don't like audio, radio shit. He's like, just trust me.

Speaker 1 And so we binged it on the way up there.

Speaker 1 Got the episode five. We're there for like three days.
And then a new one had come out. And we got to binge that on the way back.

Speaker 1 And then from the rest was just me at my house waiting for Sarah Koenig to upload that last one.

Speaker 1 And,

Speaker 1 you know, culmination of events a few months later, I kind of went back to the drawing board on, okay, if I wanted to make a true crime show, what's my entry point? And I was like, you know what?

Speaker 1 I never imagined how

Speaker 1 enthralled and compelled I could be by an audio show the way that serial season one did for me. And so it told me that that was possible.

Speaker 1 Thankfully, I've been like an editor of video stuff for a majority of my life. And so I just just had the crazy idea of, you know what, fuck it.

Speaker 1 I'm going to go find a case in my home state and go put together a true crime podcast about it. And I don't know what it should sound like.

Speaker 1 And I'm just going to make it sound like, I guess, whatever I would want to listen to as someone who didn't like listening to audio shows, right? And that was just the basic premise.

Speaker 1 And then, you know, that evolved over time, but that's how I got into it.

Speaker 4 And I think something audio only allows you to do that video doesn't, because I think something that Alex and I did a lot when working on status on traces, we would constantly go, okay, but why is it better as audio than as video?

Speaker 4 And the thing that we kept on coming back to was, okay,

Speaker 4 you're most likely doing something when you're listening to a podcast. You're driving, you're

Speaker 4 working, you're doing something typically.

Speaker 4 So like, how can you put that person or put yourself in their head so they're in the same adventure kind of as you are, but you're with it?

Speaker 4 And the same way that you read a book and sometimes you add context to the pages, I think adding that audio, you get to hear all of these interviews and things like that, but you actually get to feel like you're there with them in a way that you're not watching it on TV, you're kind of there with them.

Speaker 4 So that was kind of one of the things that made us lean back into it while creating the podcast itself.

Speaker 4 That's not necessarily why I chose a podcast. I think I chose a podcast because of circumstances, the same way that I fell into doing this in the first one.

Speaker 1 So did I.

Speaker 4 Yeah, exactly. I think it was more circumstantial than just anything else.
But I think that there is something to

Speaker 4 podcasts having a special edge over, not necessarily edge, but it's in its own medium for a reason.

Speaker 4 And I think that there's a true crime docu series, I think, fit very well into that because you are interviewing people. You are generally...

Speaker 4 trying to solve something and you can really be drawn in and pulled with that in that way. Yeah.

Speaker 5 Yeah. There's something like attractive about podcasting.
Like it just

Speaker 5 feels more feasible. I don't come from film, but maybe you all can speak on it.
But I just imagine like getting into podcasting has to be immensely easier than film. I could be wrong, though.

Speaker 1 That's also true. That was also one of the reasons.
I mean, like, coming from a filmmaking background, I'm like, I don't want to raise money to do this.

Speaker 1 I went to Best Buy and I Googled, you know, podcast starter pack.

Speaker 1 Didn't exist. Seeing them now, I'm just like,

Speaker 1 lucky bastards, because there was just not any sort of guidance online for how to get started. But it turns out it was just very simple.
It was just a microphone and something to record into.

Speaker 1 And I was like, oh, duh. But now they make it all neat.
And it looks like it's. I know, right?

Speaker 5 That's why, yeah, it's even easier to get into it right now, probably.

Speaker 5 But yeah, I think, you know, it's cool for me because... Honestly, I probably don't make culpable unless I listen to Up and Vanish.
Like, I always say, like, I'm the same way. I listen to serial.

Speaker 5 I still vividly remember binging it and it got me into it. It was the first like, oh, this is cool.
I didn't even know that they did these types of stories.

Speaker 5 The ones I'm watching late at night, they do these in audio only. I'm interested in that.
That's cool. And then what was it, a year later when the first season of Up and Vanished came out?

Speaker 5 Yeah, about so. Yeah, and that was, I listened to that and was just enthralled.
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Speaker 5 it was encouraging for somebody like like me who was even considering that as an idea of like, hey, maybe I could do this too, actually. And so that was very much a blueprint in a lot of ways and

Speaker 5 kind of helped jumpstart that idea of like, I could do something like this.

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Speaker 3 Yeah, Pam, I'm sure you get that feedback a lot from listeners.

Speaker 3 Like just the connection that people can have with you because you're there, your mindset is like, I'm diving in, I'm digging in, I want to know.

Speaker 3 But also, I don't want to put on this front that like I know exactly what I'm doing because this is my first time.

Speaker 3 Tell us a little bit more about that. Like what is that process like for you of trying something new while also not being an expert coming into it?

Speaker 1 If you're watching a movie,

Speaker 1 a lot of times it's with your friends or your significant other on the couch, and you're not both wearing headphones, right?

Speaker 1 So, I think there's, you know, oftentimes, I don't know the statistics, but there's a more personal side of,

Speaker 1 you know, I'm listening to this person talk about whatever, this unsolved crime, into my my ears, and you start to follow along. And

Speaker 1 like, I've done the same thing with other shows. I felt that way with Sarah Koenig.
I don't know her, but I

Speaker 1 bet you, you know, if I ever met her, I'd be like, oh my God,

Speaker 1 you know, I feel like I know you.

Speaker 1 And she's like, no, you don't. And I'm like, I know.

Speaker 1 But I think that part of podcasting is special and like is,

Speaker 1 especially in the true crime genre, feeling like you're at the edge of the seat or right there with like an investigative journalist who, you know, it feels like you're a part of it in a way that you can't really recreate many other places.

Speaker 1 And so I think that that's, and I didn't even really know that going into Making Up and Vanished.

Speaker 1 I kind of realized that after making episodes and realizing how they felt felt and sounded to me and sort of just general feedback. And I just kind of leaned more into, you know,

Speaker 1 peeling the curtain back and it being okay that

Speaker 1 I don't have the credentials. Maybe that's what's kind of interesting about this.
Yeah. You know, this whole thing could bomb, but at least it was.
authentic. Yeah.

Speaker 1 And I really was only making a podcast back then as a stepping stone to try to do something bigger in my mind, like a TV show or a documentary.

Speaker 1 I didn't think that there was any business or money to be made in podcasting. I thought serial was just a really cool thing that happened, and that was the end.
I'm going to use this as a

Speaker 1 just a blanket blueprint for how I would do a podcast, go do my own. And maybe that's my proof of concept to sell to the money guy that, hey, pick me.

Speaker 1 I want to do uh one of those id channel shows that i hate you know

Speaker 1 that i emailed you about you know that i emailed you about he never got back to me yeah

Speaker 4 i i do i do think that having it like uniquely

Speaker 4 starting as an amateur and going into it again makes it more relatable it's just like have you ever seen don't fuck with cats yeah yeah like that like was like to me was more relatable.

Speaker 4 Like

Speaker 1 because

Speaker 4 they just started doing, like, none of them had any business doing that which then leads to finding something which is unique yeah i think that's kind of the sums up the nature of this industry generally yeah what do you what do you think because you know i

Speaker 1 i look at cereal and up and vanish and then it's it's funny to hear you say that like you were like inspired by both of them right and i feel like that's just the natural evolution of of how things go which is it's it's cool to hear you say that.

Speaker 1 Right. But what was it for you, though? Like, I guess just dipping your toe in the water.

Speaker 5 It was, uh,

Speaker 5 you hit on something a minute ago that made me think of something you were talking about. Um,

Speaker 5 like, once you got into it, like, that perspective changes. And

Speaker 5 I didn't know if I would actually enjoy doing it. Like, I just,

Speaker 1 it was more of like a challenge.

Speaker 5 Like, I always say it was on my bucket list. Like, after I listened to cereal, it was like on my bucket list, right? I was like, I'm going to do that someday.

Speaker 5 And, like I said, I give a lot of credit to you because listening to you, I mean, Sarah Koenig's Sarah Koenig.

Speaker 1 Like, she's,

Speaker 5 I mean, she's kind of a big deal in this space, you know?

Speaker 1 Where are you, by the way, Sarah?

Speaker 5 She's not here. She probably had better engagements.

Speaker 5 But you, on the other hand, getting into it, were just an amateur.

Speaker 1 This guy's just... Fucking naughty.

Speaker 5 This guy has no idea what he's doing.

Speaker 4 This guy ain't doing shit. Like, I don't know.

Speaker 1 I could do better.

Speaker 5 But, no.

Speaker 5 I get it, though. But yeah, it just made it seem like, okay, that's doable.
Like, I can definitely do that.

Speaker 5 But at the same time, I didn't necessarily expect to enjoy doing it because none of my career up to that point was anything remotely close to that field.

Speaker 5 I mean, I worked in like healthcare and telecommunications, a bunch of random things.

Speaker 1 You should have been the opposite of that. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

Speaker 5 So it didn't really make sense at the same time to even be trying it. Like, I...

Speaker 5 I shouldn't have been the one doing it, right? But I found something I love. You get in the weeds of it, and all of a sudden you realize, like, wait, actually, I'm enjoying this.

Speaker 5 Like, this is the most fun I've ever had doing work before and the most meaning that I've put into work.

Speaker 1 There's never a dull moment, right?

Speaker 5 Never a dull moment.

Speaker 1 There may be a lot of stressful moments, but it's not dull. It's stressful.
There's definitely purpose, too. Oh, yeah.
Yeah, it challenges yourself in ways that maybe you never had before, right?

Speaker 1 Right.

Speaker 4 That, and then, like, there's a responsibility that you immediately start to feel to the victims' families and finding answers. There's a lot of things that just start to like that.

Speaker 1 That force that self-reflection a little bit, too, right?

Speaker 4 Oh, 100%. Yeah, sure.

Speaker 3 Yeah. So, what are the things that keep you up at night, I guess, as a creator or podcaster? I mean, are they more like process-driven?

Speaker 3 Like, I got an episode, it's coming out in a day, I'm falling behind, I got to get locked into the edit, or is it more story-driven and like wrestling internally with

Speaker 3 what makes the cut? What the, you know, how much do I put into my own bias or thought process? Like, what are the things that are kind of stressing you or keeping you up at night?

Speaker 1 There's been an evolution of different things that have done that, but I would say, just like more recently and more, I guess, like more like six, seven years in,

Speaker 1 the things that bother me the most or keep me up at night, which,

Speaker 1 you know, is not always the case, is shit like, why is this person being like that?

Speaker 1 Like, why, why are they talking to me like that? What do I not understand about that from some human nature psychology thing? Like, or,

Speaker 1 you know, Why would this person do this if this is what happened? And

Speaker 1 how do I bypass the obvious,

Speaker 1 fuck you, I don't want to talk to you?

Speaker 1 How do I get there? Because if I can't figure out a way to do that, then I'm just retelling a horrible tragedy. Right.
And I don't have any genuine interest in doing that at all.

Speaker 1 And so if I ever feel like

Speaker 1 that's all I can do,

Speaker 1 then I'm probably out. Yeah.

Speaker 1 And so that will keep me up at night. And I lead with that and it opens up all these other doors.
And so much is out of your control. But, you know,

Speaker 1 I want to have a pulse and

Speaker 1 like a thumb on the persons of interest. Because most of the time, in any cases I've looked into, that's what the police haven't been doing.
So if I'm going to go cover this and really do it,

Speaker 1 or if it's going to sound like that, then I'd rather get better sleep at night knowing that I really am doing that.

Speaker 1 And you can think whatever, if I'm really am or not, or if you would have done it differently, that's fine. But I go to sleep at night knowing that this shit's fucking hard.

Speaker 1 And I did all that I could, and I will learn from that and get better the next day. But I really want to find the bad guy because that's what the family is telling me.

Speaker 1 They're not thinking that, like, I'm going to get too scared or like uncomfortable at some point and say, sorry, got to stop here.

Speaker 1 That's what mine would be.

Speaker 4 I think the thing that I fixated on, I'm just going to do just status and trace because I have one. You know, yeah, so

Speaker 5 great examples in there.

Speaker 4 Yeah, I think the thing that I fixated on more than anything else was

Speaker 4 beyond like, how are we going to do this?

Speaker 4 Because everything was like difficult finding, you know, searching in another country is not easy and getting into another country during COVID was not easy and all of those things.

Speaker 4 But was finding a way to accurately tell the story and the findings while also honoring Justin's legacy that was like I constantly like I would go to I'd be like am I doing a good job of that always because

Speaker 1 I that that for me was the thing that I constantly was thinking about it's simple and sweet honestly yeah I think you answered it that's how I think that's how you do it you have to you have to constantly check yourself you have to remind yourself you don't just like say like

Speaker 1 day one I got to figure it out and then day 365 still be in that same mindset. Right.
You fucked up up if that's the case.

Speaker 1 You got to be constantly like, okay, reshaping, re-evolving, look in the mirror. How would else, how would they perceive this? I mean, you have experience.
You have a lot of experience with that.

Speaker 5 Yeah. I mean, truthfully, to answer your question, like, not much keeps me up at night these days as far as work goes, but I think that's.

Speaker 1 It's the ambience. That works, right?

Speaker 1 Yeah, okay.

Speaker 1 Yeah.

Speaker 5 No, it's just, it's like you said, you mature into the role, you grow,

Speaker 5 you learn how to work-life balance, but there's always going to be those

Speaker 5 things that kind of nag at you. For me, it's usually more like beating myself up, like, damn, I should have asked them that question earlier.

Speaker 5 Or like, you know, did I sound like an idiot when I said the wrong name earlier? Like, really, really stupid stuff like that is honestly what I get hung up on. It's kind of weird.

Speaker 5 But no, for the most part, like, I enjoy what I do. And now where I'm at, like.

Speaker 5 It's just so much more of a breeze. It's heavy at times.
It can be taxing investing in a case. But like compared to making season one, I didn't know what the fuck I was doing.

Speaker 5 I didn't have the resources I have now. Like, I probably shaved years off my life working season one.

Speaker 1 Oh, 100%.

Speaker 5 You know, yeah, you know, and you probably did too.

Speaker 5 Absolutely. You took four years to make your show.

Speaker 1 Yeah, so I can't even imagine. Four years, bro.
You got times of four years.

Speaker 1 You might have lost 10.

Speaker 5 Yeah. But no, like now it's, you know, I got a good team, good sports system.
I've matured into the role. So, I mean, truthfully, not a lot keeps me up at night now.

Speaker 1 But you never forget those things that you felt dumb about, do you?

Speaker 5 No, No, no. I mean, I've got it.

Speaker 1 Because also, there's no take-backs usually. Yeah.
There's no redo's.

Speaker 5 Yeah, the ambience fix it at night.

Speaker 1 I think about it all day long, though.

Speaker 5 I'm like, damn, that sounded so stupid when I said that. They're probably going to hate me.
Yeah.

Speaker 4 I think that's just a piece of the rule.

Speaker 1 Yeah, yeah.

Speaker 1 You're never going to be perfect. That's going to be how that is.

Speaker 5 So you're like, yeah.

Speaker 1 Boy, he's not cutting it.

Speaker 3 So you all are digging into stories that are really hard and can be very dark.

Speaker 3 So I'm curious, like, the idea of a moral compass, what does that mean to each one of you and how do you bring that into your creative process?

Speaker 1 I mean, if you polled every single person in this building, they'd all give a slightly different answer, maybe if it says 0.1% different, of what their moral compass is, what their belief system is, what their religion is,

Speaker 1 what they believe in, right? And so I think that's person to person.

Speaker 1 For me, the easiest way to always

Speaker 1 kind of just stay in a straight line is remembering one thing only.

Speaker 1 There's prongs to it, but one main thing.

Speaker 1 There's a family out there who either doesn't know what happened to their loved one,

Speaker 1 knows just this information, or somebody murdered them and they want to find out what happened.

Speaker 1 I think as long as I'm not breaking any laws and they feel okay about what I'm doing, then for the most part, generally speaking, all the other stuff I add is just my own two cents and my own opinion and my own moral compass.

Speaker 1 But staying on that

Speaker 1 is where I start.

Speaker 1 If they're upset with me, then I probably did something wrong, right? And you might think that too. But if I'm leading with that, then

Speaker 1 we can take the risk that we might need to take to get to the answers. And

Speaker 1 I mean,

Speaker 1 usually if a family is at a point in an unsolved like case of one of their loved ones and they're willing to make a true crime podcast about it, right?

Speaker 1 Then they're already at the point where they're willing to take that risk.

Speaker 1 So I look at that as a responsibility of like, okay,

Speaker 1 am I just like one of those trope true crime podcasts? Or am I, or do they actually think that I can help? And what am I going to do to prove that to be true?

Speaker 1 Or how hard am I going to push myself to make it as true as I can within the means of my own control, right?

Speaker 4 Yeah, I mean, I agree pretty much wholeheartedly with that. I think it's,

Speaker 4 on top of that,

Speaker 4 it's finding the truth. It's finding whatever you can find or furthering the case as far as you can further.
It's doing what...

Speaker 4 the family has not been able to do so far and it's finding a way to go do that.

Speaker 4 That is that, to me, that's the social construct, like the contract that we sign with them when we when we start doing a case like this, you know, it's it's

Speaker 4 we're going to put all like everything we can into figuring out what you haven't been able to figure out yet.

Speaker 1 And you might not always agree on the same things. Which is definitely weird.

Speaker 1 And I'm thinking like,

Speaker 1 there's no way. Now, I'm not going to come out bluntly and just say that blindly, right? But I'm going to

Speaker 1 consider that more than anyone anyone else's opinion, you know? Yeah.

Speaker 1 Because

Speaker 1 why do they think that? Right. Is there something to that? And

Speaker 1 as long as I'm listening and communicating, you know, if any of us are right and get somewhere, then we already forgot about that time where we were confused. Right.
The whole thing's confusing.

Speaker 1 It's why we're here in the first place, right? Yep. Yep.

Speaker 5 Yeah, you can really can't put it much better than Payne did starting it off.

Speaker 5 Like, definitely keeping the family at the center of it all and their trauma because none of us can truly put ourselves in their shoes.

Speaker 5 But we can do our best and we can be compassionate and try to understand who the victim was. And that's always been like,

Speaker 5 you know, at the center of what, you know, what I wanted to do with Culpable was a lot of what started that was a conversation with the mom.

Speaker 5 And just my heart went out for her and everything she'd done for five years, just like doing everything in her power to try to get justice for her son.

Speaker 5 And more than anything, even more than justice, just get answers. Like you said, the not having answers.
I'm working on a case right now. And John, you're familiar with this where

Speaker 5 this girl doesn't even know the victim and is just helping out because every year she'd see at the anniversary this post about this kid that died in her hometown. And

Speaker 5 you know, flash forward years later and she has a young child who dies while with a babysitter. It turned out to just be some virus, but for months they didn't have answers to that.

Speaker 5 And she said like that just completely changed her perspective of his case and was like, I want to help this family any way I can. And I was like, heck, I do too.

Speaker 5 Now that she just said that, like, holy cow, like, that's, that's tough, you know, losing a child.

Speaker 5 And then that's, that's what puts it into perspective of like, that's what it must feel like, you know, when we didn't have those answers for two months, they haven't had answers for 25 years to their son's death.

Speaker 5 So

Speaker 5 that was just refreshed on that recently after meeting with them and talking about that. So, yeah, the family's got to be

Speaker 5 at the center of it all. And obviously, even more central is the victim.

Speaker 1 And family can mean a lot, though. Yes.
Like, family doesn't necessarily have to definitively mean mom and dad

Speaker 1 families are different sometimes it's it's a cousin it's a sister it's it's the best friend

Speaker 1 it's it's the person who is spearheading some sort of because it's difficult not everyone can do that at the same time but they're always going to be solely focused on justice for that person and so you have to learn from them and stay closely tied to that

Speaker 1 because

Speaker 1 you didn't come out of the womb naturally feeling that way you can develop that compassion and empathy for the situation but you could you could never it could never match what they're feeling yeah and so like

Speaker 1 just wanted to add that like it's it whoever that person is in their life or per sends

Speaker 1 and aligning with that because they don't have any other motive other than finding the truth and if you stick to that I think that the rest you can navigate if you're just not a shitty person and you're actually considering what others may be thinking and feeling about what you're doing.

Speaker 1 Yeah. Yeah.

Speaker 4 The very first in-person interview I did for Untraced was with one of Justin's best friends. And I sat down there and we're sitting across the table.

Speaker 4 And of course, this is the first time in the genre, first time in all of us. And he's like, the not knowing is the hardest part.

Speaker 4 He's like, if I know my friend is dead, it's at least like I can start mourning. He's like, but if you, but if you don't know, like, am I giving up on him? I don't know.

Speaker 4 That's still like, it's a piece that just is always constantly running around. So for me, that, that, like, the answers and finding that is, that's, that is like the, the guide, like the guide.

Speaker 1 Also, like, why we just all three said we do this. Yeah.
That would be absolutely maddening to not know. Yeah.
That would be horrible. Yep.

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Speaker 3 So,

Speaker 3 you're sitting down with family who's in the middle of, or, you know, potentially it's years removed, but they're dealing with a very difficult loss in their life, and you're asking difficult questions, even if you're not probing necessarily or trying to dig for information, but you're just trying to learn and discover.

Speaker 3 Like, how do you process their grief and where they're at while also still understanding that you're trying to learn something in your own discovery process? Like, how do you balance those two things?

Speaker 1 Just listen. Yeah.

Speaker 4 You took my answer.

Speaker 1 You could go deeper with more nuance,

Speaker 1 but they're sharing their emotions and you're just listening. Yeah.
You're listening and understanding and you don't forget that. Yeah.
Right.

Speaker 1 And that's what I do.

Speaker 1 I just kind of just shut up.

Speaker 1 And once, you know, maybe the tone of the room has changed a little bit,

Speaker 1 I'll shift it to,

Speaker 1 you know,

Speaker 1 a rational, realistic, positive, small step that we could all take

Speaker 1 together that goes in a direction so we don't feel like we're absolutely helpless that I actually truly believe in. Right.
But, you know, I'm not necessarily there to console them.

Speaker 1 I'm there to listen and understand so I can take that information. They always know that they can call me and I'm always going to listen.
But most of the time, that's what they want.

Speaker 1 They want someone to hear them out. That's why they're here.
No one believed me. The cops aren't listening.
My family's tired of hearing me say this. Well,

Speaker 1 I'm all ears, right? And I think that is really at the core.

Speaker 1 That's it. And with every person in a situation, there's a lot of nuance to that.
But put quite simply, that's what I do is listen. And that's that's what you should be doing.

Speaker 1 It's not the Payne Lindsay show. It's like, holy shit, this person is unpacking traumatic events.
And

Speaker 1 I'm just here. I'm here listening.
Yeah.

Speaker 4 Yeah, that's exactly that. I don't really have anything more to add to that.
It's not one conversation. It's many conversations, you know? And like...

Speaker 4 For me, I didn't end up getting to Justin's, like the specifics of Justin's disappearance until like five or six sit-down conversations with both of his parents.

Speaker 4 Like we had we had done a lot of conversations about who he was, understanding Justin before we ever really got into

Speaker 1 the business.

Speaker 4 Kind of, but also like

Speaker 4 in a way, but it wasn't necessarily the

Speaker 4 specifics of

Speaker 4 it always comes down to

Speaker 4 what is actually there to learn immediately from it, right? But yeah, it's just... It's listening and understanding and learning who the person is.

Speaker 1 And to be honest,

Speaker 4 the reason I I did the show in the first place is because I was fascinated in Justin.

Speaker 1 And that's authentic.

Speaker 1 And

Speaker 1 it's okay to show that. I think that builds trust.

Speaker 4 Yeah. So listen.
I think listen is literally the answer to that. This is the only answer I really have.

Speaker 5 I'm going to echo that same thing. The only thing I would add is just like investing time.
Like you can't just schedule out one four-hour sit down and think, you know what?

Speaker 5 That one person only knows one detail. I don't even really need to spend an hour with them.
But this is the family. So I'm going to go spend four hours with them.

Speaker 5 Like when I went into this, that's like the mindset I had was that like, you know, you could, you just kind of block out time.

Speaker 5 You talk to them once and then you go hit the ground and figure out the next thing.

Speaker 1 It's not work from home job at a tech company. Right, right.

Speaker 5 And it was just like, no, like you, you really got to invest time.

Speaker 5 One, to understand them,

Speaker 5 to connect with them on a deeper level. Like, you know, ideally, I'd like to shed a tear with them at some point.

Speaker 1 Like, I mean, if you left me on red, I'd be upset too. Right.

Speaker 5 Right. And that's the thing.
Like you said, like, the phone's got to be open.

Speaker 5 You got to be willing to keep the conversation going because I've just seen like time and time and time again where, you know, families want to protect their kid.

Speaker 5 Like they don't want to, typically they don't want to talk about how rough their life was. They want to paint it in a different way.
And I totally understand that.

Speaker 5 But the longer you spend with them, the more open, the more trusting they are to talk about and get real with you. And you worked on a case with me, you know what I'm talking about, where

Speaker 5 we was like pulling teeth to like get answers out.

Speaker 5 Like

Speaker 5 that's all you want to say about their life. Like you're awfully quiet.

Speaker 5 And then over time,

Speaker 5 those walls start to come down. You're like, oh, so they were addicted to drugs.
That's interesting. Right.
Surprised you didn't say that when we first met.

Speaker 1 Yeah, I mean, because, yeah, your instinct would be like,

Speaker 1 that's not how my son died. Right.
And it probably wasn't.

Speaker 1 But we need to know everything, right? Yep. And do I trust you enough to tell you that, right? Yeah.

Speaker 5 Yeah, if you're a trusting us with this, like, we can only work with what we're getting, you know? So

Speaker 5 it's not only listening, but also just investing the necessary time and being open to talking to those people. Family, or like you said, friends.

Speaker 5 I mean, often friends know way more than they usually do, actually.

Speaker 5 So friends are huge, you know, so investing time with, you know, really anybody in the case, even persons of interest, you know?

Speaker 3 I think it's easy to approach like an investigation or like an interview, quote unquote, as like a checklist. It's like, these are the people I got to talk to.
These are the things I got to learn.

Speaker 3 I'm going to go in there. I'm going to ask these questions, check, right? But we've all talked about the humanity.
I think at the end of the day,

Speaker 3 that is what has to drive it is like, I'm sitting across from a human being.

Speaker 3 Maybe they are related to the victim. Maybe they are somebody who knows something.
Maybe they're a potential suspect. But at the end of the day, they're a human.

Speaker 3 And I have to be able to learn more about what they could potentially be bringing to this story.

Speaker 3 So you've all had very successful shows. From an outside-looking in perspective, right? Whether it's ranking, number of, you know, millions of downloads, you know, whatever it would be.

Speaker 3 But I'm curious from each of you, like, what would you point to as the benchmark of success?

Speaker 1 Oh, man.

Speaker 1 So, I had to ask myself that.

Speaker 1 I think I have to often keep asking myself that, right?

Speaker 1 I think that

Speaker 1 the benchmark for success in really anything is what you determine it to be, right?

Speaker 1 There had been a time where I surpassed what I thought was even possible for a

Speaker 1 28-year-old, inexperienced person playing investigative journalist in a small Georgia town, right?

Speaker 1 But then, you know, the creative bone of my body and the childhood dreams part of me was like, well, I'm not done yet. And so

Speaker 1 I had

Speaker 1 another sort of, you know,

Speaker 1 big like revelatory moment last year when I was making a

Speaker 1 new podcast that's out now called High Strange. I took a little pivot and I did an eight-part series investigating the UFO phenomenon from like a real objective non-tinfoil hat standpoint.

Speaker 1 And I was sitting there and at my house in like this studio that I have in there, and I was playing it. And I just, I stopped and I go, wow.
I was like, you know what's crazy?

Speaker 1 This is my favorite place.

Speaker 1 This moment right here is

Speaker 1 outside of all of the good that comes with

Speaker 1 telling a true crime story and trying to find out what happened and bring justice. As a creator, this

Speaker 1 is it.

Speaker 1 To be able to do this

Speaker 1 however I kind of want to to a degree and it be my job and be able to keep pushing myself and be allowed to do that.

Speaker 1 And like, as a kid, that's

Speaker 1 that, that was the dream. Like, I felt like throughout my whole career as a creator, it's like all I ever was doing was begging people to take a chance on me, right?

Speaker 1 And so, in that moment, I realized that, man, it's not

Speaker 1 about all of the accolades. Those are cool, those are fun.
It's like, was it well received? Do did people respond to this?

Speaker 1 Do you feel re-inspired by your own work?

Speaker 1 So I think your benchmark for success is a thing that you create for yourself that can evolve over time. And, you know, mine's continually evolving.
And I think it'll be different.

Speaker 1 It'd be different the next time you ask me. But, you know, just recent recollection that that was the moment I had where I was like, man, I just...
I want to be able to keep doing this.

Speaker 1 Like, to be able to go to Alaska, which is not cheap and not easy and go try to find out what happened to a missing person that is a like

Speaker 1 not everyone can do that that to me is fucking cool and so I'm cool with that and I'm not gonna lose sight of how special that is and how fortunate I am to do that and try not to squander that.

Speaker 4 I think the one I'm hoping still comes, the one that hit immediately wasn't hitting number one. It was like two days after we had released the show, the dad and

Speaker 4 one of his best friends had binged the whole show and called me and were like, we were like crying, we were like, like learn new things, we were like happy tears, sad tears.

Speaker 4 That to me was the most like.

Speaker 4 That was the point of the show, like was to make it that way.

Speaker 4 So I think, and in the future, I'm hoping that other people will, I personally find Justin himself to be inspiring and I hope other people will end up finding the same thing because I think Justin,

Speaker 4 from all the conversations that I had with friends and family,

Speaker 4 his goal was to leave people

Speaker 4 and like to inspire people to go do what they loved and to just follow that, whatever it is. And

Speaker 4 I hope that translates the same way it did to me as it does for other people through the show. So that would be a sign of success for me.

Speaker 1 Yeah, his legacy is alive in the same way that it inspired you. And I can only imagine, as someone who was close to him, that's special because that's what he was all about.

Speaker 4 And I hope that translates. So, to me, that's that's a sign of success.

Speaker 1 100%.

Speaker 5 Yeah, like Payne said, it kind of depends on where you're at and career and life, I guess.

Speaker 5 But I definitely remember feeling like all those same things, like the accolades, the feedback, the thanks, like that, all meant a lot at the time.

Speaker 5 But I think, like, where I'm at now, I just look back and I say, like, I did work that I did not like doing for 15 years of my life. So, to be able able to like

Speaker 5 do this as my work is like,

Speaker 5 I think that's my benchmark.

Speaker 1 You want to go back? No. No, I wouldn't work in the back.
You want to put the tie back on?

Speaker 5 No, I wouldn't work in any of those jobs now.

Speaker 1 Do you want to miss those

Speaker 1 quarterly meetings? Oh, there was just void of meaning.

Speaker 1 Purposeless. Yeah, purposeless.

Speaker 5 So to find not only something you like doing, but something that you feel like has purpose and you're doing a good work, a service almost in some ways,

Speaker 5 means a lot. So I don't take that for granted.

Speaker 3 Special thanks to Dylan Harrington, Mike Rooney, and Dayton Cole for support on this episode.

Speaker 3 If you haven't listened to Up Unvanished, Culpable, or Status Untraced, go right now in your podcast app and follow the shows.

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