Ask Me Anything: Khloé Unfiltered

Okay, we're going.

So today I wanted to do a little bit of a different type of podcast recording.

So I didn't ask me anything.

Is your whale phobia real?

God, I'm like having all these visuals in my head.

Like my heart is racing right now talking about it actually.

Oh gosh, I have to calm down.

What is a weird food combo that I swear by?

It's such a strange combination.

I think it's like highly processed and not good.

And I devour it.

You feel really gross afterwards, but it's worth every minute.

Do I believe in life out in space?

And have I ever had an encounter or paranormal activity?

Okay,

you guys, that's a whole episode because I've had tons.

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So, today I wanted to do a little bit of a different type of podcast recording.

Normally, I have a guest and we get really deep and we talk about really anything and everything.

And it's normally the guest that is chit-chatting a lot.

And I wanted to do a solo taping.

And so, I did an Ask Me Anything.

I have a bunch of questions here in my hand, and I'm going to answer them to the best I know how.

I want to do something different.

I just, I'm, I wanted to hear from you guys.

You guys have been so loyal and great to me.

So I figured, why don't I bring you guys into my podcast world with me?

Okay, so let's get into it.

When I let you guys know that I was going to be doing an Ask Me Anything, we've been bombarded with questions, but amazing questions.

Some are ridiculous and whatever, but most of them are amazing.

And so I'm going to get started.

Okay.

Is your whale phobia real?

I don't know why someone would fake a whale phobia, but yes, it's not even just whales, but whales,

I just don't understand.

The size really makes me uncomfortable.

I

like my heart is racing right now talking about it, actually.

Thinking about.

God, I'm like having all these visual like visuals in my head.

Thinking about being in an ocean, there's no warning.

There's no ripples, all of a sudden a fucking whale comes out of the water.

That's horrifying.

Some of the whales, their hearts are as big as a small school bus.

Not sure if that's true, but Snapple told me it was.

And it fucking freaks me out.

The blowhole, the eyeball, the eyeball.

That is bigger than the size of my head.

I just don't.

Don't want to be around them.

You do you.

I'll do me.

We're good.

Don't want to hurt them.

Just don't need to be in the water.

But I also just don't like large bodies of water.

I don't like dark water.

Don't like a lot of sea animals.

Like they're just strange and you don't know what's down there.

80%

of our waters are unchartered, undocumented.

We don't fucking know.

Don't tell me there's not mermaids, by the way.

We don't know.

80% is not chartered.

Unmapped, undocumented.

You're telling me planes crash and we can't find debris from big planes and you're going to tell me, oh, there's no sharks in this water.

Like whenever you're on vacation and people tell you there's no sharks around you, how the fuck do you know?

You don't know.

You just want me to pay for whatever water activity this is and then I'm going to die.

No.

So my whale phobia is real.

Thinking about it, like my heart's really racing.

I don't like this.

And I could go on.

This could be a whole episode just on the whales or the water.

Oh, gosh, I have to calm down.

Okay.

That's that.

How do I stay so flawless?

Good transition.

How do I stay so flawless?

And what's my skincare regimen?

Oh my gosh.

Well,

I don't think anyone thinks that they are flawless.

I don't think anyone's like, oh, I have the best skin.

I have no pores.

No, I will sit there with a magnifying mirror and overanalyze my skin.

But I love

skincare, but I like to keep it simple.

I've used to do like the eight-step programs or whatever.

And I think that sometimes in this circumstance, I do think too much is too much.

And normally I'm a more is more type of girl.

But I think sometimes we just have to simplify things.

And whatever that is for you, everyone has different skin.

You have to find what's the perfect combination for you.

But I do believe in facials or even like you just have to wash your face every night before you go to bed.

People that sleep in makeup, I don't believe in that stuff.

And just, I believe in hydration for your skin, moisturizers at night.

I love beef tallow that I put specifically like around my eyes or aquaphore, like any petroleum, something that makes your eyes.

It could be an oil, vitamin E oil, anything that makes your eyes really lubricated.

So when you sleep, you don't get wrinkles around your eyes.

Um, I like that,

but really just take care of yourself.

I love a laser.

I love skincare.

Anything like a facial, anything like that, I will do.

But I think don't overdo it.

Know your skin type and just do what's best for you.

But sometimes less is more.

What is the biggest lesson that being a mother has taught me?

Wow.

I feel like I...

I learn lessons every day about myself from being a mom.

I really do.

But I will say, I think my

most favorite thing about becoming a mother, besides my relationship with my kids and being able to have the most ultimate love in the world, is

the different level of respect and appreciation that I now have for my mother.

And although I knew my mom was amazing before I had kids, it's a different feeling.

Because once you have kids, you realize, wow,

okay, we really do make all these sacrifices, or you understand like silly things.

Like, I get why my mom wouldn't let me have a puppy at a certain age.

It's a lot of work.

Kids are a lot of work.

Like, they do so much.

And you don't realize when someone says, I want to have a pool party or a sleepover, how much more work that is on your parent.

There's like the smallest things to the biggest things.

It could be birthday parties or Christmases, like how much effort and work that takes.

And when you think back at your childhood and you're like, everything was so magical or the best my parent knew how to do.

For me, it makes me appreciate mine so much more.

And my mom was always such an incredible mom.

And for me to say, I want to be, I've learned so much from my mom, but I want to be like her times 100, like that says a lot.

Any pop music artists that I'm obsessed with right now, I'm not great with music these days.

This is not relatable, but I don't

feel like whenever I'm in the car, I'm with kids.

And so I'm listening to what they're listening to.

That part's probably relatable, but I'm not in the car that much by myself anymore.

And I don't know how relatable that is.

And I feel like I used to turn on the radio.

It's probably something I miss so much and

sing my heart out.

In LA, we had the fires in January.

And I remember we had to evacuate to Palm Springs.

And I had to go at a later time than my kids.

And I was in the car, not kidding, for seven hours to get to Palm Springs because everyone was evacuating.

I didn't care.

I had a concert for seven hours.

I was the lead performer.

It was amazing.

I thought I was Mariah Carey.

I was Ariana Grande.

It was everybody.

Loved it.

And I miss moments like that, but it was all oldies music.

Like

not oldies, oldies, but just music that's not current right now.

What makes me super happy?

Oh my gosh, I feel like I

am the happiest when I'm surrounded by my family.

I love being at home.

I, and I don't, I love people like coming to me.

I had a pool party the other day.

It was their first day, a summer party for all the cousins and my kids and just a few other kids.

And I love stuff like that.

Like for me, that makes my heart happy.

I love being the home.

That's the hub.

And everyone comes to my house.

take pride in that.

So that stuff makes me happy, even if I'm complaining and I'm exhausted at the the end of the day that's fun and I love those memories and I hope my kids are gonna have those memories forever

and then also what makes me really happy is laying in my bed and binge watching TV and no one talking to me so there's definitely two very different sides and they both make me equally happy

what is a weird food combo that I swear by

my aunt Shelly Ever since I was a kid, I used to lay in bed with her and she would have wheat thins and port wine spreadable cheese.

I don't think it's real cheese.

I think it's like highly processed and not good.

And I keep that in my fridge at all times because it's so nostalgic for me.

And sometimes I'm like, I'm just in a funk and I want to pig out.

And you literally scoop.

the port wine cheese with the wheat thins and that's your spoon and you eat it and it's such a strange combination and it's the saltiest cheese in the world and I love it but it's also also the memories of my childhood, I think, what's wrapped up in it.

And it's just amazing.

Be honest, how many alarms do I set in the morning?

I set one alarm in the morning.

And what's really fucking demented, sometimes I don't even need the alarm.

Like sometimes I'm up a few minutes before.

And I almost get angry with myself because I'm like, you had 10 more minutes to sleep.

And those 10 minutes matter.

But my body clock, it's so used to getting up at a certain time.

And if I don't have to set an alarm, I'll still wake up at that time.

I'm not someone that can sleep in, even since I was a kid, but that's because of my mom.

My mom didn't allow us to sleep in.

And as a kid, I obviously didn't like that.

But as an adult, I'm so grateful that she instilled certain qualities and traits in us because,

I mean, we're very productive people and I feel like we're that way because we seize the day.

I do believe in that.

How do I fight my fears?

Well, I feel like fears

are fears because they're unknown.

I think you have to

just familiarize yourself with them or maybe name your fear.

Like, okay, for example, if I'm on a roller coaster, don't like roller coasters, but I've literally said to myself, it's not like I'm going to die, right?

You might actually.

In today's world, you might die being on a roller coaster.

So just don't go.

That's how I would feel now.

But when I was younger, you'd be like, no, I'm not going to die.

So let's just get this over with and go on the ride.

You have to like acknowledge your fears, name your fears.

I would say a prayer.

That's what I would do.

But fears are fears.

Like, I don't like whales or big bodies of water.

And if I ask myself, can I possibly die?

Yes.

Yes, I can.

So it's a rational fear.

Except right now, being in this podcast room, it's irrational because it's not like a whale can walk in the door.

But for some reason, my heart still races.

What moment of my life made me feel like the strongest version of myself?

I don't know if there was one

particular moment.

I mean, I feel like I've had many moments.

that sort of prepared me for other situations in my life where I was able able to endure them.

So I feel like everything that happens in our lives is meant to happen.

And even if they're not all positive situations, I do think that everything,

there's

steps in why things happen to you.

For example,

with me and my ex-husband, me going through such a public divorce and handling that.

And yes, it was between him and I and it was a great love that was now lost and that whole thing.

It was so public, so public that I've never dealt with something like that before, but I dealt with it and I had my family support and all of that.

That

was sort of a stepping stone, if you will, for

the next big traumatic thing that happened to me was when Tristan

cheated on me right before I gave birth.

And I don't, I've obviously no one can prepare you for something like that.

And it wasn't the cheating that's like, oh, like people get cheated on, but it was more that I was nine months pregnant.

I was having a baby two days later.

And

it was so public and it was everywhere.

But

I think I handled it the best that I knew how

because

I almost

got

a little experience of it or a lot of experience of it from my divorce with Lamar.

So it sort of prepared me.

But if it was maybe just the one-off situation and while you're have these newly fresh hormones and you're just trying to even be a first-time mom or be present in this moment and experience this moment, I don't know if I would have been able just to handle that isolated incident.

And so everything

prepared me.

for each experience in my life.

And I think when you overcome those experiences, you feel really strong.

And also for how I handled so many of those moments in my life, I'm really proud of myself for the way I handled them.

What is a habit that I'm proud of developing lately?

I love that I take time for myself every morning.

I love that I've

like I realized how good that makes me feel.

throughout my day.

I love that I wake up early, but I have my coffee.

I have my Bible time, my prayer time.

And the way I set the tone for my day, it just makes me feel really good.

And my day functions better.

And I love that I've

done that.

And I've done it long enough that I've noticed such a change within myself or how my day feels that I continue to do that because consistency is key.

And it's easy to do something for a few days, but to do it.

religiously,

it's harder work to do.

Like we had a sleepover last night and I had all these little kids in my room and it wasn't as easy to make that time for myself, but I made sure I made it.

It was a little later than normal, but I made sure I made it and it just makes me feel better.

So I'm proud of myself for developing that habit.

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What does home mean to me right now?

Is it a place, a person, or a feeling?

You know, home for me, it's really my family.

And I feel like it's always been my family.

And for me, it's my very big family.

It's not just my kids and myself.

Yes, that is a version of home.

But I think when I think of my like ultimate home, it's...

My kids and myself and then my mom and my siblings and all of their kids that come with it.

It's the best and it's the best craziest chaos, but I love it.

And I'm so grateful and blessed that I have that.

And it's something that makes me feel

safe

and

comfortable and happy.

And yes, there might be fighting and drama, but it's also the best kind.

And kind that you know, like you, I think when you're family, you fight the hardest because at least for us, we're always going to talk to each other again we're never not going to

not speak to each other so

it's where you can be your complete

self and not feel like you have to perform for anybody i guess what's a boundary you've set recently that's changed your piece

i am very much a people pleaser And I, for years, have always said yes, or I've done things just because I felt guilty to not do them.

And

I don't know, maybe the past

two years or so, it could be longer, but I've made a very

strong conscious effort to

no means no.

I'm allowed to say no.

No is a complete sentence.

Of course, I'm not good at just being no.

with a smile.

I have to explain why I don't want to do something, but I'm working on it.

If I'm truly uncomfortable being somewhere or just not happy or if if it messes me up for the next day, you're allowed to say no.

And that has made a huge difference, even on my

mental health is an overused word, but yes, on my mental health, I feel like I used to feel so pressured or insecure sometimes just doing some of these commitments.

And I feel really great that I

have such power in no-now.

Would I have another baby?

I get that question a lot.

So I, right now, no.

I am,

it's not about age.

I'm going to be 41

shortly.

And it's not about age.

I know women can have babies later now.

I would consider having another baby if I was married.

But otherwise, no.

I don't want to just

have another kid and be a single mom.

I have a great system right now with my kids.

And I also take care of a lot of other children too.

So there's a lot on my plate.

But if

when,

not if, when I meet my husband

and if it's something that

he wants, then we can talk about it.

I'm not

like I'm I don't feel that I'm missing anything in my life.

I know some women are like, I want a third baby or a fourth, and that's amazing, but I feel so happy.

I love my life.

I love my kids.

I feel like I, there's enough of me right now that can go around for everyone.

And I'm sure I'll make you find the energy for all your children.

So if I do have a third one day,

I'll find the energy.

that I need for that child.

But right now, I just think everything's great.

But we'll have to see for when I find that husband and if that's something, if it's something he wants I would consider it people are also asking if you're dating I am not dating I know very exciting news.

I'm not dating

but I'm

I love it here.

I really do.

I feel like my life has been so happy and light and

it's really sad, but like enjoyable.

And maybe that's because I haven't been dating.

I feel like a lot of the drama is out of my life.

And I love that for me.

Like I haven't had that in a long time.

And I'm enjoying this space where I'm in.

I love my routine.

I love that I'm really focused on work

and my kids right now.

And then of course, my extended family.

And also,

I do have fears about dating with kids.

I don't know why these are my fears, but like I would never want to change who I am for my children because another person came into my life.

And I don't know if these fears are rational or I'm making everything up in my head, but like that's a big fear of mine.

I never want to be taken away from my kids, even emotionally.

Like that's just not what I'm about right now.

My kids are so young.

They're three and seven.

And I...

That's a fear of mine.

Just changing my routine, changing

how much time I spend with my kids, I just don't want that to be a factor.

That's one.

You also, people are fucking scary.

Like, I don't know if I, I don't know how long it would take for me to feel comfortable with someone else around my kids.

I don't trust anyone.

I don't, I don't know.

I just see and read crazy shit.

And I'm like, I don't know what anyone's about, what anyone does in their private time.

So I don't, that really scares me.

Having

like a man around my kids, That's, I don't know, I don't know.

I don't think I can do that.

I love my life right now and I'm happy.

I feel great every day.

And if I meet someone, if someone walks in this podcast room right now and is like, hey, and I get, I love that person's energy, then I would think about it.

But I'm not actively trying to go on dates.

Do I believe in life out in space?

And have I ever had an encounter or paranormal activity okay well is paranormal activity like ghosts yes

you guys that's a whole episode because i've had tons but okay do i believe in life out in space duh

you guys

we can't be that narcissistic to think that we're the only living planet out there there's When you're in school, you're taught, I think there was like eight or nine planets.

This is your solar system.

Yes, this is our solar system.

There's black hole after black hole, and there's planets after planets that we're discovering all the time.

So

I'm not saying that there's another planet out there that can support human life, but there are other living organisms on another planet somewhere.

That's my opinion.

And

just because,

hello, feel like that has to be.

And have I ever had an encounter or paranormal activity?

I have seen a UFO.

Have.

I was with Malika.

This was ages ago.

And I was, I remember where I was driving.

I saw a UFO and she never saw it, but my reaction, she's always believed me because we were driving to, it was for keeping up.

We were not filming at the time, but I was driving to my interview session and I know exactly where I was.

And I remember I like screamed and I said, oh my gosh, Malika.

Like, I couldn't get the words out, and the thing just disappeared.

And Malika believed me because she was like, How

sure and confident I was.

The shriek in my voice, she was like, I know you saw something,

and that was it.

And we didn't really talk about it.

And I've definitely seen things, I've never seen like an alien or anything like that, but I do believe in that.

Um,

and paranormal activity happens all the time to me, it's pretty creepy,

but

I'm also okay with it at the same time.

My last house,

I've had a few situations happen.

I think we even filmed

some of them, like an

energy clearer

ghost clearer.

Someone came to my house because I was sleeping.

And I remember it was in the day and something happened that night where I couldn't sleep.

So I text my sister because I never take naps in the day.

And Court lived like a block away from me.

And I remember saying, I'm going to take a nap.

So if you need me, I'm just not like, come over.

I'm not going to answer the phone.

And that was weird for me.

And something whispered in my ear and was saying, Chloe, wake up.

And it said it.

And I was like, and I remember closing my eyes.

And I said, I'm going to open my eyes now.

Please don't be there.

Cause it was, it was a man's voice and it freaked me out.

And I opened my eyes slowly.

Nothing was there.

I was like, thank God.

God.

And then my bedroom door opened and shut.

And I remember, Alexa, you know this.

Yeah, I know.

This is crazy.

I have chills again.

And I was,

I called Courtney and I was like, you need to get the fuck over here.

There's some, it was, it freaked me out.

I lived alone at the time.

It was horrible.

We had someone come over.

and did like an energy reading.

I did not tell them where this situation happened.

They knew exactly where the spirit was.

They said, did your door open and shut?

Like this person knew everything.

His name is Jerry.

That's his name.

That's what, well, R.I.P., his name's Geraldo, but we nicknamed him Jerry.

Jerry's nice.

He just wanted to be acknowledged.

Once I acknowledged, and the door would open and shut from time to time, and I would hate it and it would freak me out.

And that was sort of that.

But I always had, they say, spirits speak through

electronics and like your TV, that kind of stuff.

And so I always was having problems with my music like it was there was tons of shit then i had a rental house while i was building my last house and there was a little girl in the house i mean

like a paranormal little girl and i she

was horrif she was horrible we do not like her i don't know her don't know her name i never had anyone come to detect her but even true

true noticed her true never had nightmares in her life and then this girl would go in her room.

She would wake her up.

True would tell me about her.

I would never let True sleep in there.

And I would sleep on True's floor.

She was still in a crib.

My one nanny is so against anything paranormal.

She would be like, don't talk to me about it.

I don't believe in this shit.

None of it.

When we were moving out, she said, I'm.

I want to tell you something.

I'm so glad that we're finally leaving because I saw the shadows that True speaks of and I didn't want to admit it, but we need to get out of here.

It's horrible.

And I'm like, now you're telling me like I've, because I knew the shadows were there.

And this little girl, I remember at this rental, I had my bedroom and there was like a hallway and the floor is wood.

And you know, if someone, you could hear someone's footsteps and you could sort of hear the weight of their footsteps.

Like, you know, oh, that's a little kid's footsteps versus an adult.

I was in my room and I heard somebody walking down the hallway.

And I was like, did True get out of her crib?

Because it was a little kid's footsteps.

True was still sleeping.

It was a little girl.

I remember she brushed my hair when I was laying down.

That was horrifying.

And I never slept with the light off in that room because I asked someone and they were like, she likes when the lights are off.

And I was like, no, you don't.

Uh-uh.

And.

The pool, we had a jacuzzi.

The jacuzzi was one day I looked out.

So there was a little window window and there was, I can see the jacuzzi.

I look, this was like probably the next day after this girl brushed my hair and I just heard her humming like I could have chills.

And

there was a Barbie or a doll in the jacuzzi and the whole jacuzzi was drained and a toy was at the bottom of it.

And we were, I was so freaked out.

Alexa is in here.

We were all freaked out.

I don't know

if they follow me.

We don't know, guys, but I don't think Jerry's come with us anywhere.

But this little girl, thank God she doesn't come with us anywhere.

True

and Tatum, they both have a little gift.

They are able.

So

when

Tristan's mom is Jamaican, so Jamaican, you have a thick accent.

True at the time.

Maybe four and a half or five when Tristan's mom passed away.

And she lived in Canada during COVID.

The border was closed, so True didn't get to see her very much, but we spoke to her on the phone.

But True didn't get to be with her as much as we would have liked.

But they were still very connected.

Her name is Andrea.

Andrea

passed away in the morning, but that night, True was up the entire night.

She kept saying, mommy, mommy, there's a lady in my room.

And I was like, oh, okay.

But I always believe her because I believe in this stuff.

So I was like, okay, where's the lady?

She's like she's there she has a silly voice um but she's laughing and tristan's mom is the funniest like jolliest person like all she does is laugh and

she

true was like i i never put two and two together but true was telling me about this lady who was keeping her up at night and the lady told her how much she loved her and she was going home.

And Andrea is very religious.

So now when Heinz said, all this makes sense.

Anyways, that the next morning, we get the call that Tristan's mom passed away.

And I said, can someone, I had to fly to Canada that day to be with Tristan and do funeral arrangements for Andrea.

And I said, I need someone to go pick up True.

I can't just leave the country and not say bye to her while she's at school.

So they did.

And my nanny said,

You know, in the car ride home, she kept talking about this lady that she saw last night in her room and was saying about the funny voice.

I'm like, I don't know.

I'm still like, I don't know what she's talking about.

We'll deal with the lady later.

And they were like, I think she's talking about Andrea and her accent is the funny voice because everything she's describing and she, everything she's describing is Andrea.

And she said, I love you and I want you to know I'm going home and home being heaven.

And Andrea would have that ability.

that she would know like Andrea was so connected to God.

And I believe that.

And True,

True just has stayed with this story.

I believe her story.

I believe all my kids, when they tell me they see things or hear things, I never want to put doubt in them because that's why people stop seeing things or believing things.

I have a pair of boots in my closet that my dad gave me.

It was my first designer thing.

My dad was like really big on not giving us designer things.

And I remember Neiman Marcus had like a double sale.

And my dad was like, I'll buy you a pair of of designer boots.

It was my first pair.

I think it was like 14 or 15.

And anyways, they're these Dolce and Gabbana boots, but they were like probably $50 because he got them at like this crazy sale and felt like he was, it was amazing.

I like idolat.

I still have the boots because they're so special to me.

These boots, they're on display like in my closet because they're not to be worn.

It's just a memory.

And they'll fall over all the time.

Like if I'm thinking about my, something about my dad.

It's, and I'm like, and I'll, I've learned to be like, okay, hi, dad.

And like, I'll talk to him.

But no other time do these boots move unless it's something to do with my, like you, it's hard to explain and give an example for it, but I believe in that stuff.

So I don't think spirits are bad besides that girl.

That girl did not feel good, that little girl.

But everything else, I'm like, I always will say out loud because I was told, like, acknowledge that like, I, I see you or I hear you,

but I'm a believer of God.

You don't have power.

I only give power to God.

Like, I'm not here to take over your space.

Like, you just say whatever, something like that.

You just, you acknowledge them, but tell them, don't fuck with you.

And like, who you believe in.

Like,

but it is crazy.

And I believe in all of that.

Does your dad visit the kids?

You know, I get,

I feel like my dad visits Tatum, but he can't really articulate it.

But I just feel like that.

It could be wishful thinking.

I don't know.

My dad, I get frustrated with because I don't feel him as much as I would like.

And sometimes I'm like, come on, come and visit us.

But I know he's always there.

Sometimes I just want a stronger presence of him.

And I don't,

I don't know if he visits true.

Not that she says, but they will all talk about him.

Like they they all talk about their grandpa as if they've met him and none of them have met him.

So I feel like he makes his presence known,

even if they don't realize it, not in a scary way or anything, but to be gone

21 years,

he's gone longer than I've known him for.

I knew my dad for 19 years, and he's been gone longer than that.

So for you to be gone for that many years, normally,

which is a sad reality of life, but normally

the stories sort of fade away.

Maybe you're spoken about on certain holidays or certain days, but my dad gets spoken about a few times a week, which makes me so happy.

It brings all of us joy.

The kids speak about him.

And that's a beautiful thing because, you know, none of them have met him.

And normally that wouldn't be the case.

So I don't know if my dad visits the kids, but I feel like he does because

he's spoken about so often.

What's your favorite memory with my mom?

I have so many amazing memories with my mom.

I don't know if I have a favorite.

I just know I love her and she's the best.

And I have

such...

such great memories.

And Kim said something really interesting

that I never thought of that

it for our family.

My dad was such an incredible dad.

We had such a great relationship.

And my mom, that doesn't make our relationship or her less.

She was equally as incredible and is as incredible.

But sometimes when you lose a parent,

they become.

this hero he always was, but you speak about them so much and sometimes that your living parent, which is so sad, Kim made this point, they sort of get overshadowed and like they don't get enough recognition.

Like we're always like, my dad, my dad, my dad.

And my mom is equally as great.

I know I'm supposed to talk about a memory, but sometimes I think about that, that

not that she would ever be jealous.

That's like crazy.

I'm not suggesting that.

We do sort of isolate sometimes and say, my dad did all of this for our childhood.

And she's like, what about me?

Like, she's right.

It is, it's a tough position for, I think, any parent to be in.

Cause you can't be jealous either.

Like, that's a very weird emotion, but I'm sure she might feel

like left out when we tell these stories and we focus on my dad so much because we're trying to honor him and keep his memory alive, but we sort of take away that she was there too.

And we don't mean to.

Does my life feel normal or do you still feel the difference between pre-fame and now?

Oh, there's such a big difference.

I mean, the things, and I don't know

if also just time, I think it's both.

So there's a huge difference.

I mean, I used to be able to like go anywhere and do anything

and have the fucking time of my life and not worry about how I looked, how I have to like present myself because no one knew who I was.

You can just do whatever.

And, but I also lived in a time where there wasn't camera phones like that.

So I don't know if it's a mix.

I feel like I grew up in like the best era because it was my childhood and teenage and young 20s didn't have camera phones.

And I also wasn't famous.

And then both came at similar times.

But there's a huge difference.

And I do like I love where I am now, but I also miss certain

simple

pleasures of like just running into the store.

You don't have to worry about like how you look or just if you're just like are in a hurry having to do something, like those things are gone.

Or if I want to just go to a bar or go dancing or do something like you can't do those things anymore unless you want to be videotaped the entire time.

It's just a different thing.

Going out, having a wild night in Vegas or Miami and just like having fun with your girlfriends, like that you can't do unless it's in a very controlled setting.

But maybe

people feel that way more now because of camera phones, like just in general.

I don't know.

How do you deal with protecting your kids from things that have happened in your relationships or the media?

Well, my kids don't have social media.

So I'm really lucky that

my kids are at an age where I can control those things still.

Tatum is going to be three at the end of July, True Seven.

And so they don't have, like, their phones are, they don't have phones, but their iPads are, you know, to watch YouTube or whatever.

It's not,

they don't have a social media app, none of that stuff.

So I'm lucky in that regard.

A lot of people were fascinated and wanted to know

a lot about you consuming cereal.

Oh, I love cereal.

What about any cereal questions?

Stop.

Well, I do love cereal.

I didn't realize this was such a big question.

I love cereal.

It's interesting.

I would rather have cereal at night.

Like, I think it tastes so much better.

I don't really care.

I'm not a huge breakfast girl, but I don't really care.

For I don't think I go for cereal in the morning.

I want cereal at night.

No one's around me and I'm like watching a TV show.

And I want it to be a sugary kids' cereal,

i.e.,

Fruit Loops, Lucky Charms, Cinnamon Toast Crunch.

I can do Honey Nut Chiras, but it's not as exciting as the other ones.

Sometimes I'm like, God, I want to vibe with Cocoa Puffs again and just see what it's like because it's nostalgic.

I used to like tricks as a kid.

I haven't had tricks in a long time.

I would try that again.

Frosted Flakes, that's a vibe.

And people asked, what are you watching while you're like, what are your shows right now?

Gosh, I don't have, I'm not very exciting with the shows I watch.

So what I did watch this weekend was the Pee Wee Herman documentary.

So fucking sad.

He, we treated him so unfairly.

And all of us, shame to us all.

That's that.

The Osama bin Laden documentary, top tier.

Amazing.

I've been promoting it to everyone.

It's great.

I might watch it a second time.

It's great.

So those are my documentaries.

Kim just told me about, I want to say it's torn of a documentary.

I want to see that.

And then for shows,

I'm going to start Love Island maybe tonight because I should be kid-free.

Love Island isn't really my jam.

I got into last season because of Kim.

And we went to India.

So I had like a 20-hour flight, got into Love Island.

I I didn't realize that all these competitions are for nothing though.

Like,

I think I have to watch it live.

I thought they voted each other out.

I just thought, I think I thought something different.

So I'm going to try to watch Love Island again.

Kim and Kendall love it.

I love Bravo shows.

I like

housewives.

Some of them, it's just too much fighting sometimes, but I'm trying to stick with some of them because it's good TV.

But I love True Makes Fun of Me.

I love watching cooking shows.

I love watching, especially like Kids Baking Championship, Top Chef Junior.

They're so

calming.

So at night, I watch those.

At night, I don't want to watch anything that is stressing me out.

I need to chill and go to sleep.

And I will watch

nostalgic things.

Like I love Seinfeld because it was my dad's favorite show.

Friends, those types of things, Sex in the City, easy

you know what you're getting and i can fall asleep and i love them and i feel good so you guys i have so many questions that i didn't even get to today and i feel like i can do this for hours so i imagine i will do an ask me anything again because i didn't even get to a handful of my cards um and i realized that you guys have tons of very interesting questions for me, which I love.

And

this didn't feel as weird as I thought it was going to feel because I was like, how am I going to talk talk to myself for this long?

It wasn't that strange.

So

I'm going to do an Ask Me Anything again.

And hopefully, you guys enjoyed this solo episode because there's going to be a few more.

Thank you guys for chatting with me today and submitting your questions.

And if for anyone that I missed, I will get to those questions very soon.