44. GABRIELLE UNION: Infertility, Bonus Parents & Free Families

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Speaker 2 So now get Untamed, the journal's coming out at this interesting time where we're all kind of trying to decide what we're going to build next.

Speaker 2 What I love about it is that I think in

Speaker 2 instead of figuring out what we're going to build next, we kind of have to figure out from where we're going to build.

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Speaker 2 And listen, we all know every freaking life is an unprecedented experiment. So I certainly don't have any answers.

Speaker 2 But in the journal, I kind of collected the questions, the right questions that I think will maybe help guide you toward the answers that are already inside of you.

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Speaker 2 Welcome, loves, to We Can Do Hard Things. You're in for a treat today.
We have a very special human being with us today. I would say one of my very favorite public women in the world.
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Speaker 2 I

Speaker 2 first remember encountering Gabrielle Union

Speaker 4 a long, long time ago.

Speaker 2 I was watching some kind of interview and I was much younger than I am today.

Speaker 2 And I remember distinctly Gabrielle Union being the first woman I ever saw speak vulnerably and powerfully about being a survivor of sexual assault. And it's seared into my memory.

Speaker 2 And then she went on to do all the things.

Speaker 2 Let me just read. Just a few.
Here's a few of the things. Gabrielle Union is an actress, executive producer, activist, best-selling author, and x100 cover honoree.

Speaker 2 She will next be seen in Disney's remake of Cheaper by the Dozen. Very excited about that.
Developed by Kenya Barris for Disney Plus.

Speaker 2 In May of 2021, Gabrielle released in partnership with her husband, Dwayne Wade, her second children's book, Shady Baby. Let us please just talk about the name.
Cavea of the Shady Baby all day long.

Speaker 2 She's one of my favorite Instagram followers. This is Gabrielle Union's, not her, but her daughter.

Speaker 2 You Got Anything Stronger, which is in my hand right now and highlighted to death, was released in September.

Speaker 2 In August of 2020, Gabrielle relaunched her hair care brand, Flawless, by Gabrielle Union for women with textured hair.

Speaker 2 Prior to relaunching Flawless, Union co-founded Bitsies with the goal of making healthy snacks that are accessible and affordable for all families, regardless of their socioeconomic or geographical status.

Speaker 2 Gabrielle serves as an advocate for inclusion in the entertainment industry, and she is a champion of breast health and combating sexual violence. Gabrielle, welcome to We Can Do Hard Things.

Speaker 2 Gabrielle can do freaking hard things.

Speaker 4 I mean,

Speaker 3 get out of here with that bio.

Speaker 4 Oh my God. I was like, did my mom write that bio? She's like, and when she was eight, she saved a cat.
No, thank you guys for having me.

Speaker 4 This is, this is, I have to say, there, there's, there was one request when my book tour started. And they're like, is there anyone? You know, they usually say, who do you want to avoid?

Speaker 4 And I'm like, nobody, I'll talk to anybody. They're like, is there anyone that you absolutely want to talk to? And I was like, please, Jesus.
And then, please, please. Are you serious? Please.

Speaker 4 Yes, I begged. I begged and I begged and I begged.

Speaker 4 And so this is this, you have no idea. My girlfriend gave me Untamed and like every,

Speaker 4 probably like on page two,

Speaker 4 I had already underlined so many things and I just kept calling her. She's like, I have a job, ma'am.
And I'm like, I know, but we have to talk about this.

Speaker 4 I'm in the cage. I'm pacing.
It arrived at the at a time where I was circling the drain and I it just saved me. And I just, I have to thank you.
And I've just been a fan of both of you.

Speaker 4 Yeah, I'm just, I'm going to try not to to fan out and be a weirdo.

Speaker 2 So I have to tell you, I had the same experience with your book. I

Speaker 2 remember having that conversation with my friend Austin Shanning Brown. We were both in the middle of the book and we called each other and we're like, holy shit.

Speaker 2 Like she's this, she's saying the true things.

Speaker 4 Yeah.

Speaker 4 Like

Speaker 2 I just kept being more surprised and more surprised every chapter by how honest

Speaker 2 you were in this book. I loved it so freaking much.

Speaker 2 But I have to tell you, before we even got this book in the mail, you got anything stronger, Abby and I have been, I don't know what the word would be, moved, inspired by your family. Yes.

Speaker 2 Okay.

Speaker 2 We've been watching.

Speaker 2 Yes.

Speaker 2 We've been reading Instagram captions aloud to each other. We see

Speaker 4 how boldly,

Speaker 2 you know, our biggest dream for our family is that everyone in our family feels both held and free,

Speaker 4 right?

Speaker 2 Held by each other, but also free to be their full selves. And you

Speaker 4 are

Speaker 2 modeling that so well with your children. And we'll get to that in a second.

Speaker 2 But when I read the first chapter or several chapters of this book, I knew not only did I need to know you personally, but also have you on because so many of our listeners deal deal with infertility.

Speaker 2 It's, I think, the top thing that people write to me and say, please talk about this, because so many people are suffering experiencing infertility.

Speaker 2 And you write about it so honestly and so beautiful.

Speaker 2 Gabrielle, you said, the reason I can't tell you how many miscarriages I have had is that my life became one long loss.

Speaker 2 I numbed myself growing used to the fact that life is not a series of heartbreaks, but an unending of failure and rejection.

Speaker 2 the worst thing about hope is that it remains to taunt you just out of reach can you talk to i love that by the way because people are always talking about hope as a good thing but actually hope is what kicks your ass

Speaker 4 absolutely because

Speaker 4 hope keeps you on the line it's the it's the carrot that that you're sort of chasing after because we talk about hope as if it's the as if it's our salvation as long as you have hope you'll be okay

Speaker 4 As long as you have an idea that there can be something different

Speaker 4 or better or

Speaker 4 change or evolution.

Speaker 4 Yes, yes, absolutely. There is the possibility of better days.

Speaker 4 But sometimes hope is fool's gold and

Speaker 4 our ideas around what hope can do.

Speaker 4 I don't know, I think we need to shift those a bit and be a little bit more honest about what it means to dive headfirst into a shallow pool of hope.

Speaker 4 You're not going to come out okay.

Speaker 4 You're not. You know what I mean?

Speaker 4 There will be injury, some that you can see, some that you will feel spiritually forever, for a lifetime.

Speaker 4 But we kind of have to need, we need to know that, that hope isn't the cure-all, the salvation for every one of life's ills.

Speaker 4 It just kind of keeps you in the game where you're like, maybe, maybe this time, I don't know. I don't know.
You know?

Speaker 2 That's why it's like a Buddhist principle of abandoning hope. I'm going to say that wrong and everyone's going to write to me about it.
But the idea that the hope is, am I going to be okay eventually?

Speaker 4 Yes. Yeah.

Speaker 2 I'm going to be okay eventually, but the hope is not, I'm going to still get this thing that I want so bad. That's good.

Speaker 4 Well, that's, I think, what we think of hope as, you know, logically, practically, I think we look at hope as the dream. You know, you can hope and you dream.
We kind of use those interchangeably.

Speaker 4 If we remove hope from your life, you don't exist.

Speaker 4 You know, if you remove dreams from your life, you don't exist.

Speaker 4 We just have to, I think we just need different language so we can be completely honest. Like, I want better.
I want more. I want different.

Speaker 4 But I recognize that it might not be the end be-all that I had chalked it all up to be. You know, I used to want

Speaker 4 a young man, you know, with bow legs. I thought that I had hope that if a man with bow legs just entered my life, I life would change.

Speaker 4 You know, I think to this day, I have hope that if I can learn to twerk, that my life will change. The world will open up to me.

Speaker 4 I, you know, maybe I need some different hopes or maybe I need need some different language, you know, surrounding some of these things.

Speaker 2 The infertility in particular is so interesting to me because there's, you were so honest when you were writing about how it felt like failure. And this always fascinates me about women.

Speaker 2 All these things that happen to us that have nothing to do with our control. We can't control them.

Speaker 2 But we, because of what society tells us we're supposed to be, they

Speaker 2 feel like failures. You said, if I could get pregnant, I would forever shake off the distrust society has for women who, for whatever reason, by choice or by nature, do not have babies.

Speaker 2 The murmur of the unseen crowd came to me. This woman is such a failure.
Can you talk to, I just want people who are listening to feel seen by this,

Speaker 2 I don't know, would you call it a

Speaker 2 struggle or this long period in your life when you were trying for this thing that you wanted so bad and couldn't get.

Speaker 4 Yeah, fertility is a journey. Like when they say journey,

Speaker 4 that's exactly what it is. I mean, I have our,

Speaker 4 you know, miracle child, Miss Kavia James. She's amazing.

Speaker 4 But there's that thing in the back of my head every month. I mean, I just turned 40.

Speaker 4 I don't know how many eggs are left.

Speaker 4 You know, like they could be filled with dust. I don't know.
But every month, when my period comes,

Speaker 4 to this day, it feels like a little death. And it feels like my body failed me.
It feels like

Speaker 4 the world failed me. It feels like every system that I bought into,

Speaker 4 you know, desperately and totally.

Speaker 4 It was all BS. It was all bullshit.

Speaker 4 Cause we tell kids, we tell kids, you do the right things, you know, you get good grades, you're a good person, you're, you're helpful, you're compassionate, you, you like your mother, whatever, you know, you're good people, good things are going to happen.

Speaker 4 And you just sort of assume, I'm not going to have any trouble. I'm a good person.
Like, you know, they tell you to eat like basically weeds and take the supplements and, you know, whatever.

Speaker 4 And then, you know, you're preparing your body for the life. And what if you do all of those things? and it doesn't fucking happen.

Speaker 4 What are you left with but feelings of failure? You either get it done or you don't. And, you know, Abby, you know, you could speak to this as a, as an, as an athlete.
I grew up as an athlete.

Speaker 4 My dad is very bot, you know, I don't know if you guys are familiar with Bobby Knight. He was a famed basketball coach, Indiana, who was notorious as being a bit psycho.

Speaker 4 Some say passionate, some say toxic and abusive.

Speaker 4 I think there's like a legal, like a legal trail behind that man.

Speaker 4 But my dad thought Bobby Knight was the messiah and he raised the the three of us girls with like bobby knight mentality with like a hard fist everything is black and white you put in the work you know you should win which is you know you could put in all the work and you never win

Speaker 4 but i i took that i took that mentality into every area of my life. And when you take that mentality into fertility, I'm doing all the things.
I'm making my appointments. I'm doing the shots.

Speaker 4 Like, I didn't, I stopped trusting myself to do the

Speaker 4 IVF shots. I hired the nurse from the clinic to come to my house because I'm like, why are you trusting me with such a big task and a big part of this journey? I don't trust myself.

Speaker 4 I'm clearly not getting it done. I'm clearly a loser.
I'm clearly a failure. And then it feels public, right?

Speaker 4 When people, you get married or you're in the committed relationship, and the question is always, when are you guys going to have kids?

Speaker 4 If someone loves your love, they want that love to spread and to create more, right?

Speaker 4 Children. And so the questions are nonstop.
And when you are someone that is known or in the spotlight, it's literally millions of people who are invested in you not getting your period, you know, and

Speaker 4 you creating this life and being able to hold this life and doing all the right things to show that you deserve this life and that you are worthy of this life. And when it doesn't happen,

Speaker 4 it feels like this

Speaker 4 public flogging, this public emotional flogging. It is emotional chaos that

Speaker 4 I don't, honestly, I probably didn't do a great job of it because it's so big, but you're trying, you're so covered in shame like syrup that you can't get out from underneath it.

Speaker 4 And it just feels like everyone can see

Speaker 4 everything.

Speaker 4 They can see your failure. They can see that you're a loser.
They can see inside of your womb and inside of your heart to know you don't deserve it and that you must be doing something

Speaker 4 that

Speaker 4 is is affecting your ability but it all comes down to you like character issues you know what i mean like character flaws

Speaker 4 and um

Speaker 4 it just feels like death every month i mean i

Speaker 3 what you just said was so profound for me because

Speaker 3 when when we got together, I came into this marriage with her and Craig had three children. And my dream was to have a child of my own.

Speaker 3 And over time, I realized that wasn't what this family was about. That was actually preventing me from getting close to these other children, these children that I want to bring into my own heart.

Speaker 3 But what you just said, every month when I get my period, I kind of like, there's a moment that I experience with myself.

Speaker 3 And I'm sure whether you you are trying to have a baby and cannot, or when you are choosing to not have a baby, I'm sure that that monthly reminder of your uterus being,

Speaker 3 and I'll say it for myself, feeling like my uterus was worthless. Like, what the fuck was all of these periods for?

Speaker 3 What was all of this?

Speaker 3 I mean, listen, it's not easy to get your period every freaking month. There's a lot of drama that goes into it and stress and money and pain.

Speaker 3 I mean the pain, the cramps, all of it. It just feels like, what was this all for?

Speaker 4 Yeah, good call.

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Speaker 2 i loved this part where i was trying to figure out this in my own life where you said gabrielle yet you're still trying to find the difference like when do you know when to stop trying yes especially if your dad loved bobby knight and that's your whole my dad was a football coach okay so i'm with you no pain no gain no guts no glory it's too far from the heart to hurt It's time for a Hail Mary.

Speaker 2 Your book was so full of sports metaphors that I actually had to ask Abby about a lot of things. Yeah.

Speaker 4 Okay.

Speaker 2 So I loved the part where you had to decide where was the line between continuing to try or go a different route. Right.

Speaker 2 And you said, I'm still trying to learn the difference between resilience and neglecting my emotional reality.

Speaker 4 I mean,

Speaker 4 listen, I wish I had the complete answer, but the reality is I still struggle struggle with this.

Speaker 4 And the choice was kind of made, not kind of, it was my husband who had been along on this journey.

Speaker 4 And we were going through our own thing that made this journey feel so much more public and so much more fraught with

Speaker 4 chaos

Speaker 4 and scrutiny. And

Speaker 4 by the time we got the diagnosis and finally someone was like, oh, girl, you got adenomyosis. I don't know what you were thinking was going to happen.

Speaker 4 You know, your adenomyosis is in a part of your uterus where most implantation occurs. And what it does is as the embryo implants and tries to grow, the adenomyosis covers it like a blob.

Speaker 4 And the only hope for you to carry a baby to term would be to try this drug, Lupron. And Lupron gives you a 30% chance of carrying a baby to term.

Speaker 4 But the fun part of Lupron is that it throws your body into early menopause and kind of makes your bones super brittle. So I was like, what? I could break bones and

Speaker 4 still not be able to have a baby? Sounds perfect. And my husband was like,

Speaker 4 ma'am, ma'am,

Speaker 4 enough.

Speaker 4 He threw in the towel. And it felt very much like, you know, I am full of sports, you know, metaphors and references, but that moment of, you know,

Speaker 4 he's like that, the Apollo Creeds manager that's watching him die. You know what I mean? And

Speaker 4 Rocky III, and he's like, and he's fighting Clubberlane, like my infertility was like Club Berlane and my ass was Apollo Creed. And D is the manager, like, that's it.
I'm throwing in the towel.

Speaker 4 And he's like, no,

Speaker 4 cut to, he's dead. R.I.P.
Apollo Creed. But I just didn't want to give up, you know? And if there was a chance, 30%, sound might as well be 110.
I'm going for it. And D was like, you've done enough.

Speaker 4 And there was the logical part of my brain that was like trying to fight its way out. That was like, ma'am, you've, you've, you squashed me for long enough.
Might I make an appearance?

Speaker 4 And I'm like, ooh, logic, how are you? And it's like, stop, it's enough. Like, you've reached the end of the rope.

Speaker 4 And, but my emotional side was like, you, motherfucker, you are going to be the one to tell me

Speaker 4 I've done enough.

Speaker 4 So it was a decision. It was a decision that was sort of foisted upon me, and I begrudgingly accepted it.
And

Speaker 4 I don't know, through a lot of therapy and

Speaker 4 Brene Brown, you know, TED talks and podcasts and books.

Speaker 4 I read certain chat, like I've read certain little excerpts at the right time, just like when I read your book at the right time, when I'm circling the drain, and she was like,

Speaker 4 vulnerability is a superpower.

Speaker 4 vulnerability is where it's at and throughout this whole thing i'm holding it all in because i'm i'm enveloped in shame you know and humiliation every period was humiliating every every every time my body betrayed me it was shame and

Speaker 4 here is this woman this gift saying

Speaker 4 yeah yeah sucks um But what if you were honest about it? What if you just told the fucking truth about what you feel

Speaker 4 to everybody? And you release the shame and you release the humiliation. Because I thought those things were protecting me from reality.

Speaker 4 They're not. It's a delay from reality.
It kind of morphs reality.

Speaker 4 It's going to look a thousand times worse than it actually is, you know, when it's framed through the prism of shame and humiliation. But when you embrace the truth and radical transparency,

Speaker 4 holy shit, it was, I, I freed myself. I freed, I freed, I freed myself to exist as I actually was.

Speaker 4 And at that time, I was broken and I had to be okay with being broken, but

Speaker 4 kind of committing to maybe I don't need to stay here. Yeah.
You know, being vulnerable isn't just like, yeah, oh, girl, this shit sucks.

Speaker 4 I feel terrible and i'm just going to be here forever uh feel free to circle back and you know throw a dime in my cup um vulnerability made me want to get help yeah vulnerability made me want to seek community yes yes and and and talk to other people who are in this pumped up space yeah tell me how you got out this is where i'm at this is what i'm dealing with how did you see the light

Speaker 4 how did you get there even if there wasn't a baby at the end of it how did you get there And what I realized was when you embrace radical transparency, it breeds community.

Speaker 4 But when you embrace the lie and you embrace caginess and being vague and

Speaker 4 silence, it breeds isolation. That's right.

Speaker 3 Yes.

Speaker 2 I learned that, Gabrielle, in recovery. I mean, walking into recovery meetings and sitting in those circles.

Speaker 2 And then it's like you have that uncomfortable truth part where you're actually doing the thing.

Speaker 2 But then what's so cool after these recovery meetings is like you, you go outside and see all these, well, they're always like chugging mountain dews and smoking cigarettes because that's something you have to do for a long while.

Speaker 2 But like the joy and the community and the release that is the vibe after those meetings is because of that.

Speaker 2 It's because you feel free and then you want to, it's just this magical connection.

Speaker 3 Yeah. One person tells the truth and it makes somebody go, oh, I'm less alone inside of my thought of shame or humiliation.
It's like,

Speaker 3 if you can get comfortable being vulnerable, that is the freedom because then you find all the other people that what Glennon always says is that come around and they just start saying, me too, me too, me too.

Speaker 3 Then you find your people and you feel less lonely. And then you've also released this shame and humiliation that is just like made up inside of you.
You're an inspiration.

Speaker 4 Yes.

Speaker 2 She is. I mean, if you all want to know like the actual level of truth, because one of the things I love about you in general, and of course, the way you wrote the book is that there's no moment.

Speaker 2 I'm so wary of like the Cinderella stories where it's like, This was so, so hard. And now,

Speaker 2 right? Like, so many people, I think, even think they have to write books that way. Yeah.
And then it always sounds like bullshit because it is.

Speaker 2 Because it is, because what you're talking about, hope also.

Speaker 2 Well, I'll be okay once I have the baby.

Speaker 2 I'll be okay once I find the love of my life. I'll be okay once,

Speaker 2 and then the once you keep landing there and you keep freaking being yourself.

Speaker 2 And then

Speaker 2 it's just a total like the carrot, the chasing of the carrot can be forever. So, the truth that you bring in this book,

Speaker 2 can you talk to us? You had a there she is moment, which actually freaked me out because the there she is moment is from Untamed is the most important moment of my life.

Speaker 2 But this is the moment where you first saw Kavia, okay, as like a little,

Speaker 2 what are they, a heartbeat.

Speaker 4 And one of those sonogram pictures?

Speaker 2 Yes, yes, yes.

Speaker 2 Natalie, who was your surrogate,

Speaker 2 laid down for Dr. Bach to pass the ultrasound wand over the bump.
There she is, she said.

Speaker 2 And she was there here, this very clear little baby in there.

Speaker 2 And you go on to say, Dwayne took my hand and there was so much happiness on his face, I lost it. My cry was a choke stopped up in my throat, tears streaming down.
It was grief.

Speaker 2 Can you tell us about that? That moment where should have, this is life, right? Should be joy, should be joy. Is joy is also grief.
Yeah.

Speaker 4 Yeah.

Speaker 4 Yeah.

Speaker 4 Um,

Speaker 4 there are similar feelings in that moment to feelings of infidelity when you are like well what did she have that i didn't have what did they have that i didn't have

Speaker 4 and and what can i do to be more like that right so as i'm looking at the the screen and it's life

Speaker 4 right this life has been created

Speaker 4 i'm like i'm looking at the chick that got it done

Speaker 4 I'm looking at the motherfucker that had the goods to get it done. And it just, again, felt like humiliation and shame and worthlessness.
And

Speaker 4 yeah, I just, I couldn't,

Speaker 4 I couldn't get past that, that someone else had to be called in to get it done.

Speaker 4 Like to this day, I watch baseball and, you know, when they call up a pinch hitter, in my heart, this is terrible. This is terrible.
I'm just, but I'm being honest. I'm like, I hope they whiff.

Speaker 4 Um, because in

Speaker 4 I'm like,

Speaker 4 I don't care if it's my team, like, I'm like,

Speaker 4 like, I want the guy that got subbed out to be to have that moment of like, see, he couldn't get it done either. Um,

Speaker 4 like,

Speaker 4 I am so grateful that Kavia James is here. But in that moment, watching someone else get it done, and watching someone else provide this joy

Speaker 4 for my man

Speaker 4 and our family that

Speaker 4 I felt removed from

Speaker 4 was excruciating.

Speaker 4 And all of the surrogacy stories that I read about were just pure gratefulness and moonlight and roses and unicorns and shit. And I was like, oh, now I'm a bad person.

Speaker 4 I'm definitely not worthy of being this little miracle's mother.

Speaker 4 I'm an actual asshole. Like I shouldn't be allowed around human beings.
Like I have these thoughts.

Speaker 4 But that's the reality of where I was at. That is my truth.
And if I'm going to keep it a buck, like

Speaker 4 a lot of people, when we're really honest,

Speaker 4 other women, other families who've gone through surrogacy journeys. talk about that.
You're not allowed to talk about it, certainly not publicly.

Speaker 4 You know, when you go, when you take the baby to the first

Speaker 4 family gathering, it's got to be all moonlight and roses and just, you know, pure gratitude.

Speaker 4 But when we're allowed those honest moments where we're just talking amongst our, you know, our little crew of people who know this intimately, some of us had feelings of like

Speaker 4 just negative feelings toward the surrogate because it was a reflection. It was a mirror of how we felt about ourselves.

Speaker 4 um you know some people didn't want to talk to their surrogate or see their surrogate because watching life grow outside of your body your your child growing outside of your body.

Speaker 4 These nine, 10 months are supposed to be when you bond with your baby. And here you are, it's, you're removed from it.
You're no better than the husband.

Speaker 4 You're no better than the other spouse that is where it's happening outside of your body. You're both at the same place.
And mothers are supposed to be ahead of fathers in that way.

Speaker 4 But here we are, you know, and he's, you know, he was a teen parent. So he's been a parent longer, you know, over half his life, my husband.
And I'm like, I didn't even babysit.

Speaker 4 Like I was like, I'll mow your lawn. Don't give me your kids.
Like, oh, no, thank you. I'll clean the gutters before I watch your kids.

Speaker 4 And it just, everything was just foreign. And

Speaker 4 there was, there was so much shame and hurt

Speaker 4 watching someone else get it done that it,

Speaker 4 yeah, it just was a walking, breathing monument of my failure.

Speaker 4 And everyone was celebrating her.

Speaker 4 And here I was struggling with my feelings.

Speaker 4 But when I talk to other families and we're being honest, I know I'm not alone.

Speaker 3 That's right.

Speaker 4 But it really comes down to, it's a reflection.

Speaker 4 It's all a reflection of how we feel about ourselves and those feelings that we don't allow to see the light of day, that we keep pressed down because of shame and because of our fear of humiliation.

Speaker 4 and our fear of judgment.

Speaker 2 That is the kind of vulnerability and honesty that changes lives and frees people because women are allowed to say, it was very sad,

Speaker 2 and then it was very happy and ungrateful.

Speaker 2 That's the storyline we're allowed. So to say, it was sad and infuriating, and I was jealous.
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Speaker 4 might be.

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Speaker 2 Can we go back and just flag something that you said earlier?

Speaker 2 When people love your love, they want to you to expand they want it to expand that is the kind i will i cannot stand when people say anything about have you had are you going to have a baby but that is the most generous i'm going to remember that forever okay

Speaker 4 um

Speaker 2 you are a step parent yes yeah um can you can you tell us a little bit about um well actually you wanted to ask questions go ahead i should probably let you since you are the actual step parent yeah one of the things that i go through in my life that I could relate with you, I think,

Speaker 3 is this idea of step-parenting. And I never really quite liked the word itself, step parent.
And I think

Speaker 3 the way that I watch you

Speaker 3 interact and stand with and stand up

Speaker 3 for Zaire and Zaya, I think that It's just astonishing to do it in such a public way. I feel like I've felt so much of what you have been going through.

Speaker 3 You said in your book that you kept a fence up

Speaker 3 between

Speaker 3 you and them. And I would love to know a little bit more about that because I can relate.
I'm just curious to know what you think about that.

Speaker 4 Yeah, I was a, you know, I was an adult child of divorce. So my parents were married almost 30 years and they got divorced after almost 30 years.
And I was in college. So

Speaker 4 all of a sudden, I'm a grown-ass person. Well, you know, you're a kid in college, but like, I was, I'm an adult.

Speaker 4 And here I am having to deal with these, these, these, this new terminology for this other grown-ass woman that's now saying, I'm your stepmom. And I was like,

Speaker 4 we don't,

Speaker 4 I'm going to call you your name and you call me my name, but we're, that, that's stupid. And I, to this day, I refer to her as my dad's wife and her name.
I don't use the phrase stepmom.

Speaker 4 And so when I first started dating Dwayne,

Speaker 4 obviously I knew he had children.

Speaker 4 And then he very quickly went through a very public custody battle. And

Speaker 4 to this day, I'm kind of like, this is kind of wild. You were a single NBA.

Speaker 4 player who got full custody

Speaker 4 of small children. It's not common.

Speaker 4 But yeah, so all of a sudden it was like Monday, we were just this carefree, you know, couple. I had, you know, gotten divorced a few years prior.
And, you know, I was enjoying my life.

Speaker 4 Let us just, we were fully enjoying all of the things. And then Tuesday, the kids arrived like on a dime, right?

Speaker 4 The ruling came down and here are these kids and they need

Speaker 4 they need guidance and they need parenting.

Speaker 4 and i i you know we weren't married at that point so i was just this additional adult in their life um that i wanted to make sure that i was consistent in their lives um

Speaker 4 whatever personality that i was trying on that day or you know whatever whoever i was i just needed to be consistent so they could get used to me right there they've already gone through so much upheaval you know moving states away not knowing anyone you know having gone through the the trauma of divorce and i just I knew I needed to be consistent, but I just didn't know what my role was.

Speaker 4 And so by the time they proposed to me, because it was Dee and the kids proposing to me,

Speaker 4 I knew that when I married him, I was marrying them. The step parent label was put on me by the kids' school because you have to describe yourself.
Like, who are you if you are not their mother?

Speaker 3 God, it's so annoying.

Speaker 4 It's very annoying. And it's not a word I would use.
There's something about the second you say step parent stepmother stepfather

Speaker 4 i mean it's just thank you disney for making you know

Speaker 4 like the worst villains ever the wicked witch from the west yeah it's like terrible so you're automatically going into it with a kind of vibe like let's see what this mom are gonna say um

Speaker 4 and so you're already behind the eight ball so uh what i realized very quickly is you will never ever, I don't care if the other parent is dead, you will never be able to replace that other parent.

Speaker 4 Don't try to replace that other parent. That is not your job.
Your job is to be consistent. Like if you're a disciplinarian in your own life, continue to be that.
Don't be sometime, as the kids say.

Speaker 4 Just be consistent so they know who you are. And kids adapt, like whatever, whatever.
Don't put on a weird act and that you cannot keep up. Be consistent.

Speaker 4 Understand that you are never going to be their parent, but you can be a consistent, loving, compassionate adult in their life that they can always count on.

Speaker 4 And you need to be the sanctuary in the storm. It is not your job to offer commentary about the non-custodial parent.

Speaker 4 It is not your job to point children in the direction of, you know, the truth that you feel like is going to set you free, but burden them. with knowledge that they don't really need,

Speaker 4 especially, you know, children.

Speaker 4 And always remember that

Speaker 4 there is a gap in ages for a reason. One of y'all is the adult

Speaker 4 and then there are children. And you always need to be the responsible adult that knows better.

Speaker 4 The high road is empty because it sucks, but when it comes to the peace and

Speaker 4 sanctity of your children's lives, as much as I hate it, I will only take the high road when it comes to the kids and protecting their peace and their grace.

Speaker 4 All others

Speaker 4 meet me on the low ground because we will be fighting bare knuckle brawl. But

Speaker 4 with their peace,

Speaker 4 it's like, don't take family stuff or the past marriage relationship stuff and make it current topics in their presence.

Speaker 4 That is not your lane.

Speaker 4 And I just talk about staying in my lane. My lane is to be consistent and a sanctuary in the storm and to just be an additional set of eyes and ears to help them be amazing people.

Speaker 2 Yeah.

Speaker 2 And I think what's so wild and why everyone really needs to read this book is that what Gabrielle is saying, she actually shows when you talk about a sanctuary.

Speaker 2 You were such and are such a sanctuary for Zaya. And this is how we always liked you, but we fell deeply in love with you

Speaker 2 watching you lead the way

Speaker 2 with little Zaya.

Speaker 2 So I just, one of my favorite parts of the book, which there are many, is when you're preparing Dwayne for Zaya to tell him that she, I think this isn't when she came out as gay, but when she came out as trans.

Speaker 2 You said to Dwayne, I need you to practice your listening face. I need open face, eyebrows up, like, oh, this is a pleasant discovery.

Speaker 2 And then you go on to say, which I love so much, this test wasn't about Zaya. It was about who he was as a father.
That is right.

Speaker 4 Yes. Your kids are your kids.

Speaker 4 They are who they are.

Speaker 4 But this was when Zaya came out as gay at the time.

Speaker 4 It was a very quick, you know, transition.

Speaker 4 She had different language.

Speaker 4 She only knew the language that she knew at that time. So she came out as gay in the third grade.

Speaker 4 And she had done this

Speaker 4 school project about identity. And it was, you know, a picture of her in the middle.
And she had all these folks and, you know, I'm a middle child. I'm this.

Speaker 4 She also said she was Native American.

Speaker 2 And we were like, ma'am,

Speaker 4 that's not what the 23 in me said. But, you know, and then she said, I'm gay.
And her teacher, who was an amazing lesbian in Chicago, she was like, okay, this is amazing.

Speaker 4 Don't know if this information is safe with the other parents because this project was going up for open school, what is it, back to school night or open house or whatever it is.

Speaker 4 So the other parents were going to be touring, you know, the classroom. And because

Speaker 4 we are both in the spotlight, her concern was that Zaya's privacy would not be, and her peace would not be respected.

Speaker 4 maybe some folks might use her truth as conversation starters, as folks do.

Speaker 4 So she gave us the heads up that this was happening. And I was like, perfect.
I've seen this coming for a while. And I was like, welcome.

Speaker 4 But with Dwayne,

Speaker 4 you know, my mom took us to our first gay pride parade

Speaker 4 in 82 when we moved to San Francisco. And she brought us these stickers that said straight, but not narrow minded.

Speaker 4 And my mom is like a super duper Catholic, like teaches CCD, like all of her friends are. priests and nuns.
She's that kind of Catholic.

Speaker 4 And she, but we're, and we're from Omaha, Nebraska, the north side. So it's just even smaller.

Speaker 4 And, but her thing was, I've always wanted to raise my girls with a global perspective, not a town perspective.

Speaker 4 And she was like, and now we're in the Bay Area and there's all these amazing communities. And I want you to, you know, to see it all and experience it all and

Speaker 4 get in there.

Speaker 4 And

Speaker 4 so that's how I was raised. I mean, that's just sort of how I was raised.
But Dwayne, maybe a little different on South Side of Chicago, you know, his mom is a pastor. And,

Speaker 4 you know, and in sport, there is, you know, as you know, there's just a lot of bigotry. It's a lot of bigotry, a lot of fear, a lot of hatred, a lot of ignorance.
People say a lot of stupid crap.

Speaker 4 And when we first got together, I have a gaggle of friends in the LGBTQIA community. And he was like, oh, oh, every day.
I'm like, oh, yeah, yeah. Every day.

Speaker 4 you're going to be in the community. So I need you to get comfortable.

Speaker 4 Every day.

Speaker 2 I'm so tired every day, Gabrielle, I got to tell you.

Speaker 4 I mean,

Speaker 4 my best friends in the world. So they're around a lot.

Speaker 4 And he was like,

Speaker 4 oh, wait, are you sure so-and-so is gay? Cause like, he's like, I was like, get this. There's all kinds of gay, gay guys just like you.
There's gay guys on your team. Yeah.

Speaker 4 He's like, what, what, what? Like, yeah, yeah. And guess what? You're not their type.
Yeah.

Speaker 4 You know, anyway, so we just, it was an education constantly throughout our relationship and so when i knew that you know zaya was coming home to share her truth with us i was i also knew that d's listening face he listens like he's listening to a coach and it's not like you're listening like you're in the huddle and you're like yeah tell us about that plague spolstra this sounds amazing um you know the eyebrows aren't up your face isn't open he just he lists you know

Speaker 4 scrunchy face and the whole thing. And I was like, so when Zaya tells you, I need open face, eyebrows up, smile.
And he's like, okay, okay, okay, okay. So Zaya comes home and she is shaking.

Speaker 4 She's just, she's shaking. She has no idea what our reaction is going to be, which

Speaker 4 to me, I was like,

Speaker 4 damn, I feel unsafe to this child.

Speaker 4 And I thought I was doing all the right things,

Speaker 4 but it lets you know as much as you think you're doing, you probably really aren't doing shit. And she's turning into me, just bawling.
And I was like, what is it, baby? What is it?

Speaker 4 And she was like, I'm gay. And I said, oh my gosh, this is wonderful.
This is, we're going to celebrate. This is so awesome.
I'm so happy that you told us. This is so great.
And she's like,

Speaker 4 I was like, do you think you can tell dad?

Speaker 4 And she was like, I don't know. I don't know.
And I was like, I think dad might surprise you. So D comes in from practice.
And, you know, he's still got the.

Speaker 4 the D face on, which is kind of scrunched face, eyebrows, you know, looking like a villain. And I'm like, I'm behind zaya

Speaker 4 you know i'm looking psychotic and and he's like you know now he's putting on this weird face and zaya's like i don't now you look nuts i don't even know what to say to you but she told d and d was like this is so wonderful i'm so happy for you i'm so proud of you um

Speaker 4 and then she was like hmm maybe i could tell others And she had this list called the never ever list, the people that she, she did not, she never wanted to tell about her identity.

Speaker 4 And it was like, you know, 10 names deep. And half the people on that list lived in our house or worked in our house.

Speaker 4 And I don't know, 15 minutes later, the, you know, the older kids came home and she goes upstairs, comes, flies back down. And she's like, I told him, I told Zaire and Dada.

Speaker 4 And we were like, what did they say? And she's like, Zaire was like, oh, okay, cool.

Speaker 4 And what did Dada say?

Speaker 4 All right.

Speaker 4 And we're like, that's great for them. They're teens.
They don't talk. But she was like, so surprised that she was being embraced with love and understanding and joy.

Speaker 4 And people, by the end of the week, everyone on the never ever list, they had flown off the list. And she was able to live free.

Speaker 4 And we made it clear that our home and anything that we touch is a sanctuary. And if you can't get right by how we are living and embracing of all of our family members, you are not welcome.

Speaker 4 That's right.

Speaker 2 That's right.

Speaker 4 I'm going to love you from across the street and wave, but this home is a sanctuary.

Speaker 4 I can't protect them from everything out there, but this house, no, you got to save all that shit for, you know, your group chat. But I hope that you, your, your actual soul changes and expands.

Speaker 4 But if you can't pull it together to, you know, to be decent in our home, you're not welcome in our home. And we were clear about that.

Speaker 2 And then you told the school, and I just, for all the teachers, so many teachers listen to this podcast. And I just want to read this one part.
Okay. So Gabrielle goes or calls, calls the school.

Speaker 2 Gabrielle decided, I'm sure you could never guess this, but she describes herself as ready for battle. Okay, she's going to tell the school.

Speaker 2 And

Speaker 2 the t, I guess, the teacher or the principal on the other side, when you said you described what Zaya was going to go by, you said Zaya is her name, and her pronouns are she and her. Yeah.

Speaker 2 And they said, Okay,

Speaker 2 no problem.

Speaker 2 No problem. When I tell you that I wish this for every parent of an LGBTQ child, that the person they adore and cherish is not seen as a problem.

Speaker 2 I say this from the deepest part of my soul.

Speaker 2 And Gabrielle, what I loved about that is like you were, it was a shout out to parents. It wasn't, you know, we worry so much about the kid, how's the kid going to feel? And that is

Speaker 2 the first priority. But the gift of LGBTQ parents,

Speaker 2 being able to say, here is my most precious, the most precious thing in my world. Will you please not consider this precious thing a problem?

Speaker 2 Exactly.

Speaker 2 So powerful. And to all the teachers and administrators, just no problem.

Speaker 4 I mean,

Speaker 4 we have been very lucky, very, very, very, very, very lucky. And I say luck because it is the luck of the draw, but there is the opportunity

Speaker 4 at every institution, you can either respond in kind and compassion and love. And I'm not even going to say understanding because I don't need you to understand.

Speaker 4 I need you to say, maybe I don't have all the answers, but let's figure it out together.

Speaker 4 And I'm going to always make sure that I'm creating a safe space for you to learn and grow and nurture, be nurtured.

Speaker 4 But every year I meet with not just the teachers, but if the teachers aren't supported by the administration,

Speaker 4 then you're only going as far as that classroom. And

Speaker 4 I want it to be clear.

Speaker 4 I don't have a problem suing people. I've sued many people.
You could be added to the list if you want to with my kids.

Speaker 4 No problem, but let's be really clear.

Speaker 4 This is the situation, and

Speaker 4 don't start none, won't be none. And how are we doing, guys?

Speaker 4 And I've never been met with anything but, you know, and I say luckily because I know there's a lot of parents who've been met with derision and

Speaker 4 just discrimination and just horror stories. I've just been very lucky.
Um,

Speaker 2 that there's horror stories, and then there's the general annoyance,

Speaker 2 the beauty of, you know,

Speaker 2 my child is trans, my child is, my child is anything. And then the reaction that makes it seem very clear that it's inconvenient for the other person, right?

Speaker 2 It's just like annoying, like they don't fit in a box or they don't fit in it. So it's going to make it more paperwork or it's going to make me switch my brain.

Speaker 2 And this idea that even if it's inconvenient, love is always inconvenient.

Speaker 2 And if you're working with kids, just ready, be ready for a lot of inconvenience if they feel safe enough to actually tell you who they are,

Speaker 2 which is what we're trying to create anyway. Yes.

Speaker 3 Yes. I just want to say this before we move on.

Speaker 3 The way that you celebrate Zaya is

Speaker 3 something

Speaker 3 to behold. It's something to witness.
And I watch you all on Instagram and I see the way that you're not just like letting her be a part of your family. Like you're like, no, this is who we are.

Speaker 3 And having her step in front of you and Dwayne at times to be almost like the face of your family. And to me, like as a

Speaker 3 I've been a gay person all my life. And I just want you to know that

Speaker 3 It is the modeling you're doing for other parents is maybe some of the most important work you and Dwayne will ever do. And you're saving actual lives.
What you guys are doing now is saving lives.

Speaker 3 And I just,

Speaker 3 that kind of love is not, it's not common. And I'm just so grateful for it.

Speaker 2 And we see it coming from you. We see it all.
We see you leading that way.

Speaker 3 I mean, did you see like their outfits today?

Speaker 2 I know. It's too

Speaker 2 much.

Speaker 4 It's just, well, Zaya is like, you know, she wants to go into fashion. So we're like, but say less.

Speaker 4 and shit so she's like it was weird because

Speaker 4 you know the the whole people ask us all the time like why would you you know make her story so public and the the reality is we weren't that wasn't Zaya's you know wish but there was a time you know year and a half ago or so at the start of seventh grade where Dee was doing this documentary about his basketball career and they were using a lot of footage of Zaya as a young little person, as a young child, and not any current footage, because current footage would show that she's wearing women's clothing.

Speaker 4 And the filmmakers were just, you know, trying to avoid it. But when they would use her dead name, you know, because they're filming at our house, so she can, Zaya could hear them using her dead name.

Speaker 4 And so she came to us, she's like, hey, you know, can you, can you have them use my name, Zaya?

Speaker 4 And we're like, yes, absolutely, but we need to explain to you what comes with that. This is a public thing.
This is going out to the world. Dad will have to do press surrounding this documentary.

Speaker 4 It's going to open up a can of worms. You know, I don't know if you're ready for that.

Speaker 4 You're a kid. And she was like, uh-huh, I get that, but I need them to use my name.

Speaker 4 I want my name.

Speaker 4 And we were like, she was like, so whatever, the chips, let the chips fall, but they're going to need to use my name

Speaker 4 and from that moment she has led you know there's a reason she's walking in front you know she's she's leading us in many many ways she drags us for filth often um you know we only

Speaker 4 we only know what we know and you know so like sometimes you might use uh the wrong the wrong words or phrase or or you're just ignorant to something and she's like

Speaker 4 okay sit down story time kids and she educates us you know with in her smart butt way um

Speaker 4 but it that's that's how it has to work you know sometimes when you don't have all the answers and even if someone younger than you maybe has more knowledge about certain things than you humble yourself it's okay life's not going to end and and let the children lead you know that's right whitney whitney and dolly said it best you know um let the children lead the way um

Speaker 2 yeah we don't have to have the answers i mean we're always so afraid to talk to the kids because we don't have the answers but we never have had the answers we just have to be as you would say a sanctuary where they can tell us what they know.

Speaker 4 Well, a lot of parents, and it was weird at first, because it just feels, I don't know,

Speaker 4 harsh and hateful, but they'll say, I don't know how to love her like that.

Speaker 4 I don't know how to love him if he's going to do that, if he's going to be that way.

Speaker 4 And you're like, you can't love your kid? And they're like, no, but like, like, just no hesitation, just like, I mean, can you imagine? I'm like,

Speaker 4 you just, just love them. You don't have to understand every single thing.
That's what it is.

Speaker 2 I think they think love means understand.

Speaker 4 Yeah, or they're doing what you're doing. And it's like,

Speaker 4 you don't have to approve or condone or condemn or understand every single thing.

Speaker 2 That's your baby.

Speaker 4 Love them. Love them and protect their peace like it is, like it is your peace.

Speaker 4 And in the way that you're trying to make your, force your kids to to shape, shift to make you more comfortable, so you're not dealing with questions and conversations that you may not be ready for.

Speaker 4 Ma'am, sir, how about like address your shit? Don't put that on your kid. That's an option.
That's an actual option.

Speaker 4 Don't jack up your kids because you're not right with yourself because you're afraid of your neighbors and what they have to say.

Speaker 4 It is okay to cut out people that are trying to shame you or force you or cajole you into not loving your children, eh? Fucking men.

Speaker 4 No, that that should not loving your kids, putting your children out like the garbage

Speaker 4 should never be on the table ever, ever.

Speaker 2 And there is no love without full and radical acceptance.

Speaker 2 Just don't, it's something less than love when we are holding that, whatever we call it, approval celebration

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Speaker 2 I want to end with this

Speaker 2 few sentences you said about little Kaviya James.

Speaker 2 You said the moment she pressed the plunger to transfer the embryo, there was this bright burst of of light into the void. It was like watching the birth of a star.

Speaker 2 We just had to hope that the light stayed bright and was not extinguished.

Speaker 2 And I just read that sentence like 13,000 times because I understand that that sentence was just about that moment where the embryo was being transferred.

Speaker 2 But it feels so much, Gabrielle, like that's what you do day in and day out with all of your kids.

Speaker 2 Like that you are just making sure that their light is not extinguished in any way and you can watch the their little faces they just are so full of light or they're so full of whoever the hell they are each of them is so different they're just but your celebration of them is our favorite it's just it's a beautiful thing and i hope that you are also making sure that your light is never extinguished because you're a freaking light in this world.

Speaker 3 That's right.

Speaker 4 I mean, I do, you know, it's a struggle. You know, we all have our path and some days we're better than others.

Speaker 4 But it's a phrase that I have used not only for our children, but for our marriage, for business, for my friendships, for my familial relationships, because there's always that opportunity to snuff out somebody's light or to be in such a state where you're open for your light to be snuffed out.

Speaker 4 And

Speaker 4 there's just the little stupid things that you can do that just lets people know. And I'm such a cusser.
I was about to say, let motherfuckers know.

Speaker 2 Let people know. I am too.

Speaker 4 It's a problem. To let people know that their light is not just shining where they can see it.

Speaker 4 Their light is so bright that it's illuminating worlds that they can't even imagine that they are illuminating. Okay.

Speaker 4 And those are just, I mean, they're little, they're little things that like go a long way, you know?

Speaker 4 So yeah, just try not to extinguish anyone else's light.

Speaker 2 Let's do that today. That's going to be our next straight thing.
Blow out no one's light today.

Speaker 2 Also, please, please go out and get Gabrielle's newest book, which is already in New York Times bestseller the first week it was out. You got anything stronger?

Speaker 2 Because you're going to love every chapter because it's so freaking honest and beautiful, but also because we didn't get to the one part that I was dying to get to, which I am going to invite you back, please, to talk to me about, which is the chapter about ISIS and how you would redo her entire.

Speaker 2 I mean, oh,

Speaker 2 you're going to need to get the book just so you can read what we didn't talk about yet. But someday, will you come back and talk to us just about someday next week?

Speaker 4 Listen, we got to talk about ISIS. We got to talk about, you know, me, my love of strip clubs and perhaps don't drink dark liquor and take X Lax and go to a strip club.
That's a chapter in there.

Speaker 4 But yeah, there's lots to talk about. And I would love to come back if you guys would have me.
And I, you know, again, I don't want to be a psycho fan, but I am a psycho fan of both of you.

Speaker 4 You know, Abby, I watched your whole career. We're similar in age.
And, you know, you played with some of the greats that I came up with and, you know, played against Tiffany Roberts back in the day.

Speaker 4 Like, oh, hey, you know, girl.

Speaker 4 Like, this is like, I mean, like, so I've just been a fan forever. And what you've done for sport and what you've done for

Speaker 4 all women has just been, you know, amazing. And the fact that you all found each other, that is, that's.
That's everything. And I just want to thank you guys, you know, for having me on.

Speaker 4 Proof of hope.

Speaker 2 Freaking hope that either saves us or kills us every damn day.

Speaker 4 Copy.

Speaker 2 All right. Then we will see you back here soon.
And we will see you on Instagram where we stop them.

Speaker 4 Yes.

Speaker 2 Yes. Thanks, love.

Speaker 4 Thank you guys. Thank you.
And bye, sister, if you're listening. See, I got it in there.

Speaker 2 I give you Tish Melton and Brandy Carlisle.

Speaker 4 I walked through fire. I came out the other side.

Speaker 4 I chased desire,

Speaker 4 I made sure I got what's mine

Speaker 4 And I continue

Speaker 4 to believe

Speaker 4 that I'm the one for me

Speaker 4 And because I'm mine,

Speaker 4 I walk the line

Speaker 4 Cause we're adventurers and heartbreaks on map

Speaker 4 A final destination

Speaker 4 lack

Speaker 4 We've stopped asking directions

Speaker 4 to places they've never been

Speaker 4 And to be loved, we need to be known

Speaker 4 We'll finally find our way back home.

Speaker 4 And through the joy and pain

Speaker 4 that our lives

Speaker 4 bring,

Speaker 4 we can do a hard pain.

Speaker 4 I hit rock bottom, it felt like a brand new start.

Speaker 4 I'm not the problem.

Speaker 4 Sometimes things fall apart.

Speaker 4 And I continue

Speaker 4 to believe

Speaker 4 the best

Speaker 4 people are free.

Speaker 4 And it took some time,

Speaker 4 but I'm finally fine.

Speaker 4 Cause we're adventurers and heartbreaks on that

Speaker 4 A final destination

Speaker 4 we lack

Speaker 4 We've stopped asking directions

Speaker 4 to places they've never been

Speaker 4 And to be loved, we need to be known We'll finally find our way back home.

Speaker 4 And through the joy and pain

Speaker 4 that our lives

Speaker 4 bring,

Speaker 4 we can do a hard pain.

Speaker 4 These were adventurers and heartbreaks on that.

Speaker 4 We might get lost, but we're okay.

Speaker 4 We've stopped asking directions

Speaker 4 in some places they've never been.

Speaker 4 And to be loved, we need to be known.

Speaker 4 We'll finally find our way back on.

Speaker 4 And through the joy and pain

Speaker 4 that our lives bring,

Speaker 4 we can do hard things.

Speaker 4 Yeah, we can do hard things.

Speaker 4 Yeah, we

Speaker 4 can do hard

Speaker 4 things.

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Speaker 2 Especially be sure to rate and review the podcast if you really liked it. If you didn't, don't worry about it.

Speaker 4 It's fine.