130. Lessons From Loneliness

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Shopify.com slash dax. This episode is fully gonna change the way you feel about loneliness and help you stop questioning yourself because periods of isolation can get real bad.
But what I wanna point out is a lot of things people don't realize. With periods of loneliness, you learn a lot of skills and you learn a lot of new things and you get a lot stronger than you realize.
Because what I'm going to share is going to help you rebuild your self-esteem and kick a lot of insecurities that have come up from all this. Basically, being lonely is no longer going to be painful after this video.
Hi, friends. This week, I'm going to tell you some lessons that loneliness teaches you without even realizing.
Whether you're going through a period of isolation now or you're trying to recover from what being isolated did to you, because it does fuck you up a little bit, this episode is going to help. And the main thing I'm going to do is help you remember who the fuck you are, because that's the key point to all this, because loneliness will only be a bad experience if you look at it like that.
So let's just jump into this. I have a big list of things we're going to talk about.
But first thing I want to point out is you are meant to be calling your life into question right now. This is happening for a reason.
As soon as you start questioning your entire life and everything's just up in the air, don't freak out that you're questioning everything and you feel like all these changes are coming. They're meant to come and you're meant to be questioning yourself right now.
So main thing here is I just want to prepare you mentally and set you up mentally not to catastrophize and make the whole change period and the questioning everything period even worse. Because when you look at it like something's gone wrong, it makes everything catastrophic.
It makes everything hell. It's going to make you feel trapped and make you feel even worse.
So that's the first thing to get is you're questioning everything right now because you're meant to. Question it, lean into it.
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And let's jump into lesson number one that loneliness will teach you. This is the biggest skill set you've gained.
And it's the ability to live against all of your biological instincts. Because human beings are a social and a group species.
We're meant to need each other and live in tribes and live around people. If you've gone through isolation or you're in a period of isolation right now, it does feel uncomfortable because it's the opposite of what we're biologically supposed to do.
We're supposed to be around people. We're supposed to live with people.
And if you've been through isolation, you now can survive that. A lot of people, you know, these friends that can't be single or can't not be doing shit.
They can't just sit with themselves. If you've learned how to do it, you have a skill set that is beyond what a lot of people are capable of.
And I just want to point that out because it's huge. You've learned to live against your own biological instincts.
Once you've learned to survive alone and be okay with it, that little inner peace that comes out. Oh, that's such a gift, but you have to get that gift by going through hell, but you did it.
And if you still don't feel okay with it yet, it's coming. It's going to get easier.
It's going to get better, but you're not meant to be alone forever so anyone that's going through isolation right now you feel just real alone or real lost you're meant to be questioning everything because you're meant to lead to new desires new things you want and follow those and all the people are going to fall in line with it so don't just beat yourself up over this shit you've've learned a really big skill. You know how to operate

against what's natural and you're doing all right. Look at you surviving.
Look at you. Strong little shit.
The next lesson from loneliness that's going to help you feel better about it is you learned how to take accountability for things because all the consequences fall on you. There's no one to blame.
There's no one to even falsely accuse or blame when you're living alone because it doesn't matter whose fault it is. You have to deal with the consequences regardless.
So you learned to take accountability and be accountable for shit and do things that need to be done because you're the one left to deal with it. It doesn't matter if Joe Schmo or your family member or your friend or somebody did something.
Nobody gives a fuck because who has to sit here and live with what happened because of it? You. When you're the only one that you've got around you for a little bit, everything falls on you.
And that's a lot of pressure and a lot of weight for a lot of people. And you're under it and you managed it it and a lot of you have been through it and you've gotten through it and you've got that under your belt that is a huge character development and a very humbling thing so your ego's probably died a little bit but that's a really big skill i want to point out and help you see that loneliness has made you be able to embody and get a grip on is accountability it's a bitch.
It's not fun. But that's something you really only get a mastery of when you are alone for a certain period of time.
You're the only one to do things. You're the only one to depend on.
You're the only one to blame. And you're the only one to deal with what goes on.
So you learn that. And this is really, really big.
This is a big achievement to have this character trait because social media and society and everything now is at a point where it's pathetic people weaponize the shit out of their incompetence they pretend like they don't know how to do certain things they just didn't know wait because they get to throw the blame off you don't have that you can't do it actually once you go through a period of isolation, you're so dead set. And like, I did contribute to this, or this is how I can fix something that's happened.
You get checked square into your control in life. And that's the best place to be is to always recognize your control over a situation.
And this is the key way to do it. So you've already got this huge skill.
And this is something that's going to do nothing but help you with anything else you do in life. I'm sure it's changed.
And I'm sure you're fed up now with certain people you didn't see for a while. Now you're seeing them and they're kind of bitchy and they throw accountability off to the side and they're just whiny or they don't take action and do things and make changes.
You're fed with it now welcome to another phase two of isolation it's like when you hermit and you go in away from everybody you grow you change you get these new character traits you try and go get back around the people you were around you're like what the fuck i don't like none of you you're annoying like they just seem very like ninny and you're gonna go through period two of isolation where you're trying to find new people but it's totally normal it's totally fine and don't get mad at yourself and freak out thinking oh i've changed in a bad way no everybody's gonna say you've changed absolutely it's a good thing and this kind of ties into my third lesson of loneliness is learning how to take care of yourself and look after yourself you're the only one to do it a lot of people babied. A lot of people need things done for them.
A lot of people need to be told, oh, go take out the trash, go do your laundry, go put the sheets on the bed, get them out of the dryer, flip the laundry in the dryer so it don't smell like shit because you left it there for a few hours. You've learned all this.
You've learned how to take care of yourself in a grand way. And it's not like you're going to have to do it forever.
But having the ability to know how to take care of yourself puts you in a more independent situation where your well-being and your ability to thrive and survive is not dependent on someone babying you and telling you what needs to be done and looking after you. You don't need people in your life now.
You've learned this. You're good now.
You could take care of yourself, make sure all your shit gets done, and you don't have any qualms about it. Now you're going to be baffled by people who can't seem to do it.
It's just, it's a funny little process, this is. But the thing that comes out of this is a sense of freedom, if you look at it like that.
Like, you're free. You're not dependent on people.
You don't need anyone. And that's a nice feeling to have because you get to be more selective with who you choose to depend on and ask for things or allow people to be in your life.
You're a lot more picky with it. You don't fucking need them.
You like them. You appreciate them.
You want them around and you become a lot more picky and you no longer have to tolerate bullshit than people you don't like. And people who don't respect your boundaries to do things for you because you can't do them for yourself.
Now you can do them for yourself. Now you have no reason or no benefit of having to talk to people around.
Kick them. But another big thing here is you got a lot of self-trust now.
It's the best feeling. But you can trust yourself to take care of yourself and look after yourself and the cute little shit you do for yourself like putting your little water by your

bed something i do every night is like make snacks and i take them to the bed on like a gold tray

and i just like lay there and fucking eat and just take care of myself and have a blast like

having fun by yourself is next level and doing little things to take care of yourself and buying

yourself little things here and there just the cute little shit that you do you now have experienced

I'm going to go public and doing shit you're not dependent on anybody needing to do it i know people from my past who couldn't go run errands by themselves the hell i've never related to that i had to grow up real fast at a young age but having the ability to go out and do things alone go take yourself to dinner go it's always cheaper when you go by yourself the food comes faster you have fun you socialize you meet people it's a big thing for you to be able to go do things by yourself for me i never looked at it like it was this big thing until i saw the contrast of people who couldn't do it you have a big skill and that's a big thing to appreciate it's funny because your sense of normal and what is normal to you people now look at you like how the hell

do you do that your sense of normal is a lot of people's thing that they achieve for so you're

I'm pointing out things that are just normal to you now and pointing out things you didn't see

to rebuild your self-esteem because this shit will make you start questioning yourself but just going

out in public doing what you want having fun with yourself take yourself on a little date go do shit like just being able to go out and do things it builds your social interaction skills too it builds your ability to get a grip on social anxiety not let it run you because like I said you got to go do shit you're the only one to do it so you've had to step up to the occasion and beat a lot of things and grow and get a lot stronger than you might have been before when you didn't have all of this. Okay, now let's get a little deep with it.
The next lesson you learn from loneliness is how impactful a human presence can be. And this is going to come into play when you start getting around people again.
So all the times you were alone and you were going through shit or you're upset or whatever it was, how bad you just wanted someone there or someone to talk to or someone just give you a goddamn hug. All those times taught you how valuable you are just by being a human being to other people, just by giving somebody hug just by being there for them just checking on them just letting them vent to you on the phone one night because they're alone or they're lonely or whatever they're going through you know how important that is and how impactful that is because you would have fucking killed for someone to do that for you when you were going through it you had to take care of yourself and get yourself through it.
But my point is, as bad as you've wanted a hug that many times, you will never question or underestimate yourself, the power of your presence, the power of you just being a genuine person out of people and caring about people. Just being a presence is enough.
A lot of people struggle with not feeling like enough. You know how bad you just needed someone to just be there at certain points.
And it didn't matter who the fuck it was. You just wanted the presence.
There's so much power in your presence. There's so much value in your presence as it is.
Do not ever forget that. And if you ever question and are worrying, does so-and-so like me? Does so-and-so think I'm a good friend? Why would they want to be friends with me? Why would they want me? Whatever.

Think about this shit.

You know the power of just your presence now. And just the little things you wish someone would have done for you that would have comforted you and meant the world to you.

You got that.

You can give that.

And now you know how it feels to get it when you give it.

And you'll never question your value again.

But that also goes a lot further.

And it goes to my next point of just small little things you can do for people, small little shit that just brightens your fucking day that you wish someone would have done for you. For you to go do those things, for you to just be a friend to someone, for you to just give someone else the opportunity to have someone to call is huge.
You probably were going through a period where you didn't feel like you could call someone or you didn't feel like you had anyone you could go to dinner. Hey, do you want to go to dinner? Just the ability to have someone in your life to say, hey, I have an option of I could go see someone or not be alone right now.
Just to give someone that option is huge. But also the little things, like I said, the hug shit and all all that but there's bigger things than that there's small little acts you can do and just being a friend or dating someone you know how it is to be alone when you've had to celebrate certain things by yourself just to go celebrate with somebody how much it's gonna fucking mean to them the thing I want to point out here is don't ever fucking question yourself again don't ever question how valuable you are as a human being or if you have anything to offer or why anyone would want you or care about you.
You just got the full contrast of it. What you would have done for someone to come and be you to you when you needed someone, please don't ever fucking question yourself again.
Okay, before I get too heated, next lesson is learning how to be there for people. You learn, like I said, you learn the contrast, you learn what people could have said or done that would have meant the world.
You know how to do that. Now, you know how to be there for people.
Certain times in the past where you might've been, Oh, should like my friends upset. Should I call them? Should I not bother them? Should I give them a hug right now? Like they're crying.
I I don't fucking know what to do you now have the understanding of what to do and when to do it and how to be more comforting and caring toward people you know how to insert yourself and handle a situation or know what someone would want even without them asking like a lot of people would be like oh I'm not going to text to text them. I don't want to bother them.
You now understand it's not a bother. Fucking text somebody, check on them, check on everybody all the time.
It's never a bother. And you know how much it would have meant to you if someone checked on you.
So this gave you a big ability to insert yourself and assert yourself and stop being so scared and nitpicking yourself and judging yourself and allow you to actually be there more for people and be there better for people. You learn how to do all this.
This made you a better human all the way around. For all the relationships you have, all the people in your life, you now have, one, a deeper sense of connection to them because you know how to do things for them and truly touch them and make them feel better or feel good or comforted or cared about or whatever you know how to do that it's gonna deepen your bond and your connection with people so loneliness taught you how to truly connect with someone because all of the needs that came up for you and all the things you wish you could have fucking had you now know how to do it and that's gonna literally make you a magnet to the people that you want to be friends with or in a relationship with it's huge it's really big and i'm proud of you the next lesson is discipline bitch you learned it oh loneliness will teach you how to govern yourself because like i said before you learn the accountability aspect of things don't get done if you don't do them and you got to look out for yourself you got to do things you got to get what you need and do what you need for yourself to survive and do good but discipline no one's there to baby you and encourage you and tell you you need to do this and come on do that no one's there to poke holes in your excuses you got to fucking do it and you most likely have learned from consequences of not doing this thing or doing this thing led to this negative consequence i'm not gonna do it you learn how to fully govern yourself in a whole new way and that's a strength a lot of people envy is discipline and the ability to govern yourself you know now how to do shit and get things done and push yourself and rise to the occasion no matter how you feel you could be sad but you're still doing what you got to do you could be pissed off you could be depressed you could be whatever you're still up and moving you still got it you're so much stronger than you realize and this is a big skill big skill for anything you need in life anything you want going forward for anything do not ever question yourself and if you are questioning yourself replay this episode much as you fucking need it.
Because these are things you need to be reminded of is your strength and your power. And if you don't think that you are that disciplined, or you still need help with discipline, I have a podcast episode, episode 127, you can look that one up and it will help you with all my tactics about discipline.
But you learned it. You've got it.
You know how to govern yourself. You know how to make yourself do things.
You're no longer a slave to your emotions. You now have emotional discipline.
You have mental discipline. You have physical discipline.
Duh, that's a given. But the emotional one is the one that runs so many people so far into the ground.
And it's honestly what holds a lot of people back. You don't have that.
You don't have that limitation anymore. Loneliness removed the limitation of not being able to govern yourself.
You got that shit in your pocket. And this pulls in a whole other aspect of freedom.
You're not controlled and dicked around by your emotions. You do what needs to be done.
You got it. You know how to control yourself.
You know how to govern yourself. You're literally free from your emotions running you and controlling you.
You're also free, like I said before, with being dependent on anyone. You're not dependent on feeling like it.
You're not dependent on being motivated. You goddamn get up and do it.
And the best part of it is you now have a track record and you have proof that you've done it. All the hard things that you didn't want to do.
All the didn't want to be disciplined you want to just be like fuck it i don't feel like it today but you did it anyway whenever you question yourself or you feel weak or you start doubting shit you have so much experience and proof to look back on and recall and be reminded of your power and the strength you do have you made it through all that you've done xyz look at any proof you got and it will give you encouragement to go forward because like I said, this whole loneliness thing will make you question yourself. It'll make you insecure.
That's what this episode is for is to put it in the opposite direction. The isolation can be empowering or it can be crippling and it can make you insecure and ruin your self-esteem.
My advice is don't let it do that. Look at everything you gained and if you ever feel like you doubt yourself or you're worried you got all this proof stacked up now you got this all right the next little lesson from loneliness is you stop taking shit for granted you learn how to stop doing that you learn how to appreciate people a little more there's a lot of people in your life you probably were irritated with and you're just fed up with their shit because when someone is too consistent or around too much you start to get annoyed or you start just get comfortable and used to their presence and you start to only kind of focus on and see the bad parts and the irritating things but a period of isolation or not having certain people around will tap you into a whole new level of appreciation for them and help you see things and appreciate things you never saw before.
And it might rewrite who you thought was bad in the past. You might actually realize you appreciated someone more or you actually did like somebody that you thought you didn't like.
And this goes into opportunities too. So activities and things that you might have gotten worn out with, like getting invited to go out, invited to parties, invited to all kind of shit.
You might've been annoyed with it at one point, but now you're at a place where you've experienced the contrast and the lack of it. And now when it comes back, you're a little bit more excited.
These moments mean more to you because you have a new appreciation for them. And the other part with that, it's kind of a bitch, is after you get to that level of peace, you know what I'm talking about, with being alone, and you are enjoying your own presence and your own peace, and you just feel happy, and you have your own little vibe going on, your own little routine, and you're just having a blast.
Everything's going great. When people start to come in and opportunities come up, you become a lot more selective because you see things more clearly and you're not so desperate for people in your life who are going to fuck it up and i'm just talking about your life at that like in the past you used to let people in just to have somebody even if it was negative now that you've found that piece you're a lot more protective of it so the quality of people you're going to have in life and have around you, the people you're going to spend your time with are going to be at the cost of the peace.
So you now have something to lose and you're now going to become a lot more protective of yourself and a lot more picky and a lot less tolerant of bullshit. Setting boundaries, it has never been easier than after you find that peace and you're like, people are fucking it up.
It's going to be so easy to set boundaries and maintain your peace or weed people out. And it's a good thing to be picky with the things you go to, the nights you go out, the parties you go to, the events you go to, whatever it is.
Being more picky with it is a good thing. You don't want to be doing things that are going to wreck everything else you got going on for yourself and the new little piece you found you don't want that to happen you don't want these people who are nobodies and have nothing to contribute but chaos and gossip trying to come into your life no you're not going to want that you're going to get a little can of raid some bug spray get a little roaches out of here but this leads you into feeling a lot more confident with friends and relationships that you have going forward because you're a lot more picky.
You're not going into things out of just desperation. You're able to trust and relax and ease into things because you'll find people who your peace can exist with.
And if you haven't found them yet, keep fucking looking. the peace you have now the people who are meant to be in your life with this version of you

are people who do not ruin or disturb the peace that you have they will add to it or they'll fuck off there's not going to be any space for them and this is a good way to find people who are meant for you if they fuck up your peace they're not meant for you let them go and this increase the quality of your life, your relationships, your friendships. It's going to make you all around just a better person and a more enjoyable person and a funner person to be around.
And a lot of people get worried that when they like to spend time alone or they have their own life going on, when they don't deal with the measurement trauma, if you don't know what that is that is google it but people who don't know how to not revolve their life around someone else people pleasers your biggest fear is pushing people away and pissing them off it's actually more enticing and more attractive for other people to see you with your own life your own views your own things you're doing and being protective of it and having boundaries you're safe to care about because you don't just fully mold to them and latch to them like a leech to figure out what is my guidance? What am I doing today? What do we feel? What do we like? What do we not like? You come in as a person now with your own shit going on, and it's attractive. It's not attractive, and it's not fun to be with someone who is fully dependent on you for their sense of self and what they're doing and they don't act like they have any needs.
That's how you match with a narcissist. Being a codependent, acting like you have no feelings, wants, needs, everything's fine.
You just go with the flow. It's how you line up with a narcissist.
It takes two to tango. So if you want to unpack that, go for it.
Basically, my whole point with this is you now know how to clean house and now you have a house you're not desperate for people to come into you're more protective and picky over who gets to come in the goddamn house you're happy in your house you got peace in your little house you're not letting little homeless people come in and squat in it no more and nobody's staying for free you're gonna clean you're gonna contribute to the peace you're gonna have a good the fuck out. Okay, the next one.
Oh, I got to get situated for this one. You now know how to be your own first resource.
You now know how to form your own opinion and not need opinions from other people. You're your own first resource for judgment on things.
You now know how to make your own assessment, make your own opinion of

something and trust it. And also make decisions based off of what you think and feel like and don't like.
You don't have other people to be bouncing opinions off of like basketball. You don't have that no more or you didn't have it at a point.
And you learned how to fully trust your own opinion and your own judgment that is the most valuable thing in this life is it yeah that's it i can't even think of anything more valuable is the ability to trust your own opinion to form your own opinion and to trust your own judgment of things and to validate your own feelings and your own experience in this life. You don't look to other people.
Oh, what do you think? That's having your life be dictated by the opinions of others. When you let that in too much, it's not a good thing.
When you're grown, you need to be able to trust your own judgment. When you're young, you need to call in advice.
Maybe see some things that you're not seeing from people who are wiser and get it. You should ask for more opinions but the whole thing is you know how to form your own opinion first your opinions are not formed for you you know what you think and feel and believe you know how to educate yourself and get your own grip on reality and what you think and what you want to do and what you think the next best steps are and if if you know what's best for you, you know what's best for you.
No one else knows what's best for you. Everybody's different and nobody lives in the same body.
You know what's best for you. And when you can trust that and you know what is best for you and you feel it and you can trust that, unfuck what the boy you're going to be.
That's how you get there. And the way to know that you've actually got this is if you get annoyed or irritated when people start talking and voicing shit before you've made your own opinion about something.
I experienced this a few times. I still deal with it.
When I was touring houses, I was with my realtor. We'd walk in the door.
I don't want nobody to say nothing to me. I want to walk in the house.
I want to go walk around. I want to go touch everything.
I want to go look around, get my own assessment of the place, take it in visually, feel the energy of it, see if anything's off. But when my realtor would start talking, I would get pissed off.
Like, let me go look at everything first. When we walk in the living room, you don't have to say, oh, this is the living room.
This is beautiful. Shut up.
I'm just trying to fucking look at it. But that's the thing.
When you haven't even formed your own opinion of something yet, and someone's already yapping, you're going to get irritated. And that's how you know.
You trust your own opinion, and opinion and you value it now that's huge so pay attention to a little irritation because it's going to be validation of yeah you know what you think now you know what you like you don't need someone to point it out but just pay attention to that don't snap at people don't get mad at people just kind of like tune them out if you need to but forming your own opinion huge okay the last

little lesson from loneliness i'm going to talk about in this episode loneliness teaches you how to live by your own approval and also be a lot more accepting of yourself and other people and it sounds like okay sure fine before you click off hold on a fucking second living by your own approval means you're operating off of your morals, your values, and your own integrity. Also, you're not living by other people's limitations.
What you think you can do, your own assessment, and your own approval for what you're going to take on comes from you, your experience, what you feel, and what you feel capable of. You're not over here living by other people's limitations of what they can't do, what they would be scared to do, that they're going to project onto you when you go and try and do it.
Like I said, your state of normal now is higher functioning than a lot of people. And when you try and go do things after you've hit this new little like self-governing level, and you've got the skills I'm talking about in this episode.
People are going to look at you when you say you want to do something and they're going to project all their shit onto you of like, oh my God, no, it's scary. How can you do that? They're going to see all the work and the effort it's going to take.
For them, it's a lot of work and effort. For you, not much.
You know how to be disciplined. You know how to make sure shit gets done.
You know how to be accountable. You know how to trust your own judgment.
For other people who don't have these skills, they're not going to get it. They're not going to understand.
But you're living by your approval now. You don't need anyone's blessing or anyone's approval to live by your own approval.
You live by what you think, what you feel, and what you feel capable of. And that's how it should fucking be.
But with that, with being more accepting, it kind of goes hand in hand because you get perspective around other people's limitations and yours, and you also get perspective around what really matters. With being more accepting, there's plenty of times you were by yourself and you were desperate as hell, just wanting someone to be there.
You didn't care about skin color, weight, looks, or sexuality. None of it mattered.
A human would have sufficed. You'd have been happy with presence from anyone.
You now know if you had any qualms about any of this before, or if you didn't, you now just have an even broader understanding of how none of that shit even matters we're human beings at the end of the day we need each other and you now know the comfort you get can come from someone gay can come from someone overweight or underweight can come from someone of any skin color we're all humans and you're not the only one looking for connection that's the biggest thing i want to remind you of it's very very weird the mindset you get in when you're isolated you look around and you see everybody living life and seeming like they're fine everybody wants connection everybody's open to new friends and relationships and all kind of shit if they're single you should be open to a new relationship if you're in a relationship close your fucking legs all right but want to say it again. You're not the only one looking for connection.
And now you don't have any limits around the connection you can have. But you also have confidence going forward.
All the little shit you were worried about and insecure about doesn't matter. Anything you're worried about that you feel like is wrong or off or bad about you or shameful, it doesn't matter.
You have perspective around what actually difficult is, what actually hard is, but you also have perspective around what matters and it's just connection and presence from a human being. No one really gives a shit if you haven't got your hair cut in a few days.
Me right now, I have a little extra hair than usual, like a fucking tennis ball. You don't have to worry about these things anymore because you now feel how not important they really are.
They used to be the biggest thing to you. Now you don't really care and you shouldn't care.
And it's not that big of a fucking deal. Change whatever you want to change.
I'm always a big promoter of that. I've like always change what you want to change.
If you don't like something, fix it, whatever whatever but you now no longer have an excuse to hold yourself back from people and hold yourself back from connection by saying oh this this and this is bad it makes me insecure your insecurities can't stop you no more that's the biggest thing you got set free from is your insecurities stopping you it doesn't even feel comfortable to think about them anymore i. I see you.
You're now at a place where you have so much perspective. You don't give a shit.
You know what really matters. And when I talk about the contrast thing, my hair, the situation with my hair and when I shaved it a couple of years ago and I've shaved it every week since is I was so busy doing so much stuff that dealing with trying to find barbers and set up appointments and go travel to the appointment and go spend time doing all that my hair just got to a point it was such an inconvenience it was such a worry in my head and every day I was so like just conscious of it it took up too much mental real estate and it was too much of an inconvenience to upkeep so I was like okay let's just get rid of it and just shave it so I can be more optimal mental space is cleared up and also I could focus on what I need to focus on before I was busy before I was alone before I was actually working on shit and cared about my piece I was so concerned with my hair I was so worried about it all the time I just removed it but having the things going on that I was doing at the time that made it urgent and put it into perspective how small of a thing that was to give a fuck about it's hair girl shave it if it's that much of an inconvenience and I did and I don't regret it and I love it and I've shaved it every week since like I said but that's the biggest thing you got the contrast you know what actually is important you know what's important what's not and when you have so many things you're working on like the first day after I shaved it walking around in public I felt so like off I was like what the fuck like I could feel the wind on my head I was like ew now I love it but walking around I didn't have time to be insecure I was going to the gym and running my errands and working and doing what I had to do.
And I didn't even give my hair two thoughts. Okay, I'm bald.
So what? And I did cut it way too short the first time. I was like, neck and mole rat bald.
But living on my own for the first time, being in a whole new city when I moved to Houston, when I was doing this whole period of shaving my head, there was so much more going on. I didn't even have time to entertain this little insecurity.
And I got so much clarity around how small it really is. That's the biggest thing here.
So if you made it to this point, loneliness no longer gets to fuck with you and no longer gets to be a painful thing. And it's not something that has to limit you anymore.
Come to this video anytime you need it. And hear me in the back of your head.

Whenever you have a worry or a doubt or anything going on,

remember who the fuck you are.

And remember who the fuck you are now that I've pointed it out.

You're way much more better, much more sickening, much more strong,

much more everything than you thought.

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