We're Not Really Strangers: Weird Dreams & Empath Problems

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Well, it's Wednesday, and you know what that means.

Pump day.

And a new episode of Kate and Ty Break It Down.

Baxter, it's okay.

We had the dog on Kate's lap, so if you hear like a random growl or...

He's right here because...

Chihuahua was.

And he's still getting used to everything.

Yeah, anyway.

The noises.

He hates Tyler's niece.

I don't know what it is.

I think she works at a dog groomer.

So she comes in here, and I swear that's what it is.

See, you hear him growling?

So she smells like 50 million dogs.

That's got to be why.

Like, he's sitting here shaking right now.

And every time she comes here, he's like,

I even went downstairs to grab my phone.

And she's like, look at he's barking and he can't even see me.

And I'm like, yeah, because he can smell you and all the

50 million dogs that you bathe a day, you know?

So yeah, well, Baxter's been been with us.

I don't know, what is probably two weeks?

Yeah, two weeks.

So,

he's still a new, he's still getting used to everything.

And he's a petrified PDSD.

This dog be having post-traumatic everything.

Listen, he definitely has post-traumatic stress disorder.

I've never seen a dog shake and tremble as much as this dog, or like have any

like, you can't even go behind him too fast, or else he'll crouch down.

And he'll yelp.

Like, you don't even touch him and he yelps.

Yeah, so he's, I don't know, man.

Yeah, so I don't know if, like, previous owners, like, spanked him on his rear end or what, but we're still just in the.

You said rear end.

Oh, I did, yeah.

Spanked him on his rear end.

I never.

I never heard you ever say rear end.

No.

You haven't?

No, it was like ass, but whatever.

I never heard you say rear end.

I spanked him on his rear end.

Wow, it sounded so professional.

Very, uh, yeah.

Yeah, professional.

Classy.

Very classy.

Which I supposedly we lack.

Oh, we definitely lack class.

No, I'm not even gonna pretend that we have.

I can go to a classy restaurant.

No, totally.

I mean, he'll business and still go to a classy restaurant, shine them up, spit on them, and there you go.

Put some nice shoes on and some gel in their hair, give them a bath, and they're ready to go.

Whatever.

But to pretend that we had class would be a lie.

What?

You think we're classy?

I think we have a volume of class.

No, no, okay, all right.

Definitely.

We have a volume of class.

Where are we at?

We got the mine coal miners.

We got the, you know.

What are you trying to say about coal miners?

No, I'm saying, saying, I'm thinking of old Western day.

We got the coal miner.

We got the

shopkeeper.

We got the, you know, tanner with all the hides.

I mean, I would say, like, aristocrats.

I would say that we are like,

like, we're classy but rough-edged.

Classy?

Like, I don't know what that means.

Like, like, we're not dirty people.

We're not like.

I don't know.

Like, we cuss and stuff.

Yeah, but

I don't, I don't know shitters,

I don't know, like, I don't, I don't know, I guess I don't know.

Well, I'm gonna tell you right now, and for my opinion, I don't think we're very classy at all.

I think what's your definition of classy?

Classy is like yacht clubs and you know, a whole bunch of little, like, nice cars driving with the, you know what I mean?

We got very normal cars, we got, you know,

nice cars.

I'm not wearing no Versace, dolce Gabbana.

That's all right.

So that's class, in your opinion class like but i guess that doesn't mean anything right i don't know what i'm trying to say all i know is i think we're just came from white trash

trailer park people i mean yeah i guess but you know and and but it's weird because i feel like some people like

i don't know some people's definition of white trash is like dirty gross yeah no i agree scummy and it's like no we were

dirty and scummy no i get it you know i guess yeah because i when i think of white trash i mean i think of like there's garbage all over, yeah, and there's like you know, the kids are wearing three XL shirts because you know what I'm saying, there's mama smoking meth in the bathroom, you know.

I mean, I mean, I don't know,

I don't, I don't know, but anyway, I just thought that was funny because you said that, and then I'm like, wait, what do you think we are class-wise?

I think we're

normal, yeah, I guess, if they're whatever your definition of normal.

Yeah, I'm not talking about like money-wise, I guess.

I'm not, no, right.

I'm talking about how we live and what we wear and how it is.

I think we're,

I think we just got above the white trash.

Wow, you have low status.

I don't think it's low.

I don't think it's low.

I think it's smart as hell.

I mean, think about it.

When we got out of school, we were young and we got the trailer.

We were still, I mean, that's smart.

Get a trailer.

We were in an apartment first.

Yeah, I know, but what do we do?

We went and got a trailer.

It's cheap.

Absolutely.

$8,000, guys.

I loved my trailer.

I mean, listen, or we redid it.

Yeah, we painted it.

I put, I added baseboard trim.

That made a big difference.

Didn't it, though?

Yeah.

I said, what you do.

I was like, how do you doctor up a trailer?

I'll tell you how you do it.

You go get the MDF cheap baseboards that are wobbly and kind of like, they're not, it's MDF.

It's not real wood.

You don't spend that, you know, get cheap shit.

And you border it out, you paint the paneling.

And then you trim out the windows with the same MDF.

Oh, right.

Yeah, we did trim out the windows.

We did, yeah.

And it gives, I'm telling you.

We painted everything.

We put the floors in there.

The carpet makes it feel,

you know?

Yeah, and it was a single wide.

And so after a while, it was like, you're sick and tired of just walking back and forth.

You can't really walk.

Yeah, you can't really walk width-wise.

But hey, I mean.

How long did we stay there for?

We were there for a few years.

Yeah.

I mean.

Up until we got Caesar, which was our Doberman.

And then they were like, you can't have Dobermans here.

And I was like, he's a minpin.

Liar.

Well, we were in the process of buying a house.

That's true.

And so I was just, I was like, whatever.

You know what's cool is that we left the trailer and and we literally were like, all right, we're just going to buy a house.

Cash.

Yeah.

We were, what, 19 years old?

It was 2000 and trying to think.

Oh, Lord.

Trying to think.

2010?

Maybe.

Housing was crap.

Everything was cheap.

It was like.

Well, it was a super, super cheap house.

Very, very cheap.

Like dirt cheap.

You ain't finding that ever again.

You ain't finding that house.

But yeah.

And we were blessed to be able to do that for sure.

Very blessed.

I remember.

Remember we got in our first house and we literally had to plan to get the floor sanded, but we didn't care.

We went in the only bedroom that had carpet and got an air mattress and put it in there.

I think we only did redid the bottom floor, though.

Yeah, we did.

Yeah.

So we were upstairs.

Yeah.

Oh, yeah.

We were sleeping in that house while the floors were getting done.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Never forget it.

Because I remember you couldn't step on the floors downstairs.

So you had to go down.

You had to like stop at the very base of the stairs and then hop out the front door.

Front door?

Because you couldn't touch the floors that were getting red.

Like, you might want to just move in after the floors are done.

We were so excited.

We were like, we can't.

No,

we're so excited.

Yep.

Air mattress in the bedroom.

Yeah, we've, I mean, shoot, I remember people, I'm sure people remember the scene too, even when we moved into our apartment and we got your mattress on your mom's minivan and we didn't have tie-downs.

What did we use?

Was that an extension cord?

It was extension cords.

Right.

And I had to hold it down in the back.

You just wrapped it a certain way.

I was like, oh,

if you hold this, if you keep tension on this extension cord that has no bungees.

Was it an extension cord?

Oh, yeah, it was an extension cord.

I had no bungees, and I was like, you know, we're getting this shit, moving it out on the van.

Yep, yep.

Oh, my God, that was funny.

And

it's our first place that we had to literally, like, we didn't have a couch.

It was a

futon mattress.

Yeah, like a futon couch that turned into a bed.

Cause I think that was my bed.

It was.

It was a war.

Yeah.

And it didn't even have feet.

Yeah.

Like, we literally had it.

Yeah.

We literally had it on milk crates.

Sitting on milk crates.

Yep.

Angled up like a couch.

And

my grandma

took me.

We went garage sale in, and that's where we got like our microwave.

And she took me to the resale shop.

So we got pots and pans and stuff like that.

And

do you remember though when we were sitting there and we were like, oh, yeah, this is so great.

I love this new apartment.

And then we're like, oh, oh, I'm going to start sweeping.

And I was like, oh, we don't got us.

We don't got a broom.

Right.

Just go ahead.

Dude, I was like, we don't have a fucking broom.

The little thing.

Holy shit.

Yeah, the little thing.

It's like the, it's like when you first move in, like move out on your own.

Yeah, you don't realize all the little tiny things that you need.

I know.

You know, crazy.

I was like, oh, wait, I don't have a,

I don't even know.

Like the most random shit.

I started thinking about the broom.

I was like, man, this is insane.

Yeah, I gotta buy a vacuum.

I'm ready for this.

I was like, this is when it all hit me.

I said, I'm, I'm, what is it called?

Imposter syndrome.

I said, dude, I don't, I'm not old enough.

I'm not mature enough.

I don't even have a broom.

Who moves out of the house without a broom?

We did.

Who's out of the house without proper pots and pans?

Yep.

We had one frying pan.

Well, you know,

we had to do what we had to do.

You know, it was like, I need to get out.

And then you were just coming.

I was going to be out regardless.

But

yeah, I was coming.

My mom was pissed.

Oh, yeah.

She was mad.

I'll never forget that.

That anxiety that I felt when she was like, you need to tell him no.

And I was like, uh,

do I please the mom?

Do I tell my wife right now?

Does he need it?

And I was was just kind of like, I can't, you need to tell him no.

Like, how, what, why am I telling him no?

Well, I guess that now that I think about it too is that I was 17.

So I'm trying to think now as a parent.

Like, all right, 17 is still like, you're still my kid in my house at 17.

Yeah.

So I don't know if Noah moved out at 17.

I mean, I guess, yeah, sure.

I wouldn't be mad about it.

I wouldn't be mad about it.

I would just be like, I mean, as long as you go to school and don't be stupid.

Yeah, and I think that's what your mom's fears were.

And it's funny because we lived on this, like, like one of the main corners in our town.

So, like, you had to take specific roads.

That's where all the trucks came.

Yeah, but you had to take like specific roads to get to the freeway every day.

And I know, like, Ty's mom, one of her biggest things was like, you have to go to school every day.

And so,

you know, when she would drive to work every day, I mean, she always had to pass by our apartment complex.

And I'll never forget the one and only time

we decided not to go to school the one day.

And she stopped.

She actually stopped at our apartment complex because she said she would always drive by and see if the smoke was coming from our car.

You know,

I leave.

Yeah.

And she literally stopped and she just banged on our window, our bedroom window.

Like she didn't even knock on the door.

She knew that.

She knew we were sleeping.

She knew where I was.

Boom, boom, boom.

Yeah.

Bro.

And it's like, we've been going to school every day.

The one day that we're like, man, we're not going to go today out of

all the days that we've gone.

I was like, you know what?

And I remember thinking in my head, I'm like, dude, I'm living on my own.

If I want to skip school one fucking day, I'm playing hooky today.

Right.

And the one day I do it, my mom banging on my window.

Oh, yeah, because that was one of her biggest fears: you know, you have to finish school, you have to finish school, you have to finish school.

Yeah, and we did, but I can understand as a parent, like being fearful, but I can understand that.

You know what I mean?

Like, you're out on your own, you think you know the world and all the things.

And yeah, and plus, we were so really young.

Look at it now that we're this age, though.

Like, I mean, I remember being that age,

and then now you think you are, and now I'm being our age.

Now, I'm like, dude, little 17-year-olds.

Oh my dude.

I'm like, dude, you don't know.

You know what I mean?

Like, now I know.

No,

now I get why.

Yeah, I get it, mom.

I understand.

Well, that's even like your niece and nephew and stuff when they say stuff.

And I'm like, oh, God, you have no clue.

I know.

You know?

You're just kind of like, oh, you just nod your head.

Yep.

Okay.

All right.

Got it.

You know.

Let me know how that goes.

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But also, I remember like, um, I hated one of the things that I, okay, so I hated living in an apartment just because, like, we didn't even really, like, know her.

I didn't, I don't even remember seeing any of our neighbors.

But that was, like, back in the day when we were, like, young and just crazy and dumb or whatever.

And I'll never for, like, I used to smoke weed back in that day.

Oh, yeah, you did.

Yeah, I did.

But I remember being so paranoid because you can smell it.

Everywhere.

You walk in the front door.

You know how the old, if everyone knows the old cheap apartments, you walk in the front door and it's got a door to the left, door to the right, stairs, door to the left, door to the right.

I mean, that's like a shared landing area.

Shared staircase area.

Yeah.

Oh my god, I used to be so paranoid.

Seven towels on the door?

Stupid as fuck.

When really it's like, if we're old enough to pay our own bills i'm old enough to smoke a joint in my living room it's just calm down let me do it man let me smoke my dube you know yeah

you would get paranoid

yeah dude and then i'll never forget too when we so we ended up buying our trailer like i think we lived there i don't even know probably less than he was not um so i know i know it was for a fact he got older he was a little dog to big dog so it had him at least a year no but i'm saying the apartment oh the apartment was uh eight months i think yeah i was gonna going to say, I think we left before a year.

And, but I'll never forget because we left.

And this freaking slum lord, dude, he took us to court because he wanted us to pay like the last few months of the rent and stuff.

And I was like, hell no, because I remember I kept all my receipts that I paid for rent.

all the things and i had it documented so many times like the reason why we moved into this specific apartment was because it came with all the appliances it had a dishwasher it had a washer and dryer fridge stove all of that we yeah yeah because all the the other apartments we looked at, it was like you had to buy your own appliances.

And we didn't have that, you know.

And so, and I'll never forget the dishwasher never worked one time while we were there.

And it had sitting water in it.

And it was disgusting.

And I filmed it.

I mean, I got over it.

I filmed it.

I wanted to make sure I had it documented, but I didn't.

Well, after I reached out so many freaking times, I'm like, yeah.

And then he took us to court and his lawyer was like, well, you need to pay, you know, if you, you need to pay the last months of rent or something like that.

And I was like, I said, well, I have proof.

And I was, thankfully, we were smart and documented all the times that we reached out to him and all the things.

And, um, and I was like, it was the old school flip cam days, you know.

Yep.

And so I was like, I have videos of the standing water and the mold and this dishwasher.

And all the times that I have asked him to do.

Reached out to him and said, Hey, can you please fix your dishwasher?

Yeah, I'll do it.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Oh, my God.

My dwasher, do it.

Remember the sink was, okay, fix the sink.

You know, I'm like, all right.

So many things.

So many things that, and then I'll never forget sliding that flip camera across the table to the attorney.

I said, here, look at.

And he looked at it and he closed it and he's like, I'll be right back.

Yeah, and then he came back and then he came back and he came back

dismissal, whatever.

Well, no, but he was like, he came back and he said, just pay one month.

And I was like, that's fine.

That's true.

But, you know, we didn't leave in the mid in the beginning of the month.

And we said, oh, I'm not going to pay.

Or in the middle of the month.

And I remember thinking when I was younger back now, I was like, oh, I'm not going to pay.

you know, for a full month when I left halfway through the month.

Right.

But that's not, yeah, that's not how it looks, how adults look.

I was like, two weeks, you know what I mean?

So anyway, yeah.

But yeah, then his lawyer came back and and was like, oh, okay.

Well, you know what?

Just pay a month or whatever.

And you know what's funny is, too, is like when we live in that apartment, our blinds in our bedroom had like a whole square cut out of it.

Yeah.

And we would drive by that apartment conflicts for years.

And it was the same fucking blinds with the same cutout.

Remember, I wrote him, I said, hey, like, just for, I was trying to be nice and like suggestions.

Yeah.

I wasn't like, hey, you know, like, just a new blind thing, whatever.

He was weird.

And I mean, I guess I I could have got my own new blinds, but I remember like thinking in my head, like, no, man, I picked this apartment because

you're supposed to have a blind anyway.

Yeah, but I remember, yeah, driving by for years, and I'm like, dude, this blind has still got to cut out.

It's like, what?

That's crazy to me.

Isn't it?

Yeah.

I feel like we're all over the place.

Sorry, guys.

I know.

Talking about old shit.

But it just made me laugh.

It was funny.

But so we actually, we're going to Ty's mom's house this weekend, taking the kids trick-or-treating, so that'll be fun.

Can't wait.

Yeah.

they always love her, like, her, like, I don't know if campground place does like early trick-or-treating and stuff like that.

Um, so we get to go camping with the kids this weekend, and that'll be fun.

And then it's only like less than two weeks till we go to Disney.

Disney, and I'm just praying that nobody gets sick.

I'm not sick.

What?

I'm praying that nobody gets sick.

Okay, no one's gonna get sick.

Oh, I sure shit hope not.

No one's getting sick.

And if they are, then we're sick.

We're doing it.

Give them some

medicine.

Sure.

Nah.

Nah.

What are we going to do?

We can't just skip out of Disney.

Oh, somebody's going to have to stay home with the sick kid.

I don't know.

It ain't going to be us.

Waiting my whole life for this.

No, because I'm just like, oh, my God.

My brother, my mom's house, I guess, just tested positive for

two different types of COVID.

Like, he's got two types of COVID right now.

What does that mean?

At the same time.

Oh, at the same time?

Yes.

Oh, I thought, oh, what?

Yeah.

And I guess it can happen.

He had something and he had something.

Oh, he's got, I guess he tested positive for two different variants, and he's got it both right now.

And I'm just thinking in my head, I'm like, bro, it can take like days until somebody else tests positive for it.

And then if you're out there fucking spreading it, and then you give it to us, and then we're at fucking Disney, and everybody's got COVID.

Could you imagine?

Knock out what?

No, yeah, please.

I don't understand why you even say this out loud.

Oh.

Don't even say this out loud.

The universe doesn't even know what's going on.

I retract all of my statements.

Retract, retract.

I retract them all.

Nothing's happening.

It's going to be the best time ever.

Woohoo!

I know.

I'm excited.

I'm excited for it.

I can't wait to go.

I asked my dad if he would, I told him actually.

I was like, I'll fly you out if we'll drive up there.

But I guess he's just like, we're just really, things are really tight right now.

Oh, okay.

All right.

I'm sorry.

I mean, it's a long, he's not like, we're going down here in Florida and...

He's all the way up there.

Yeah, I know.

But I was like, I'll fly you guys out, like, even just like for the weekend or whatever.

Oh, yeah.

He said things are really tight right now for him.

Um,

even working, like, on the weekends, too.

So, I don't know.

Yeah, well, yeah, whatever.

It's a whole different, yeah, I know, but I would really like to see my dad.

I'm mad that I didn't go out there this summer like I wanted to.

We can still go out there, or you could go out there, whatever.

Yeah, I would just obviously they would like to see the kids, too.

I know, I feel like it's almost mean.

It is.

If I show up and your dad's like, what?

His wife would be like, Where's Raya?

Where are the kids?

Where's Raya?

I know you're right.

Yeah.

But I did, I got these little cards out again because

I thought that they were fine

the last time that we did them.

And I think a few of these

are red.

I just wanted to take those ones out because

I don't even know if we told people.

So we got, they're actually, the cards are called We're Not Really Strangers.

And it's like, what's more romantic than being understood?

Ooh.

No, I'm just kidding.

All right.

So I figured we could pull a couple of these too.

Unless you have anything else to talk about, too.

No, no, I was saying I wanted to get to this because this is what people really liked last time.

Oh.

They liked the little questions.

I'm going to do one first.

I think it's like level one.

And then, you know, level two.

Let's start with level one.

It's level one.

What?

Is it lame?

Is it lame?

What assumption

did you make about me that turned out to be right?

What assumption did I make about you that turned out to be right?

Yeah.

Well, that you're being a good mom.

Oh, thanks.

That's sweet.

Yep.

That was, I mean, that, that's one thing.

Hmm.

An assumption that I made about you.

An assumption.

Yeah, I'm like, wait, what?

An assumption that I made about you.

I could also say the good dad thing to you, but that I always knew that you would be a very good.

I made the assumption that you'd be a very good partner, husband.

Oh, there you go.

And you are.

That was easy.

That's a weird question.

But I feel like you knew before I ever did.

I did.

So I don't know, man.

I think you manifested that you put, you put some weird ass kind of spell out there in the world.

No, I don't know.

I just, the moment I met, I was like, I'm going to marry him and have his babies.

I just knew it.

And then your dreams were so weird.

Yeah.

Yeah, I had weird dreams.

Yeah.

It's because I'm a fucking psychic.

Watch out.

I'm fucking psychic.

My dreams tell me shit.

Like the one today.

Dude.

Nah, bro.

That dream.

Ah.

Literally weird as shit.

You had the weirdest dreams.

I swear.

It's like, what is it?

What the fuck?

Dude, dude, yeah.

And it had to do with our friend Ray, and she's like a lesbian and married, has a wife, and shit.

He wasn't doing anything with her.

Now you're going to talk to me.

Now you have to explain yourself.

Now you have to explain yourself.

Okay, go on, guys.

What was your dream?

Oh, my God.

What's the dream?

Go ahead.

So I had a dream this morning that I saw a video that Tyler took of himself.

Go ahead, go ahead, yeah, yeah, yeah.

He was in our spare bedroom downstairs, laying on the bed.

So, in this video, he's still like seeing a video that he took of himself.

In your dream.

Yeah, in my dream.

And so, he was like shooting a video of himself from the waist down.

Like, he was laying in the spare bed and he was like naked from the waist down.

But, you you know, if you ever seen a guy when they tucked,

they do a tuck a badge, tuck a badge,

and you get a badge, they tuck their

vagina,

all the guys out there have done it.

You know, it's funny as hell.

You don't even joke around, take all your shit.

So, in the video,

I'm a girl.

Yeah, he had it.

He was like shooting a video, and it was like the waist down.

And he was completely naked, but he had his dick tucked, you know, so like you couldn't see his dick.

Tuck a badge.

Tuck a badge.

And he's shooting this video.

And then my mom is in the room.

Her mom, everyone, if you didn't hear, her mom in the drain was in her room.

In the room with you.

While you're taking the video.

My tuck-a-vadge video.

All right?

Just put it in context for everybody.

Trying to keep them up.

And my mom said, well, she said something to the effect of like, well, it's okay if it's broken.

You can get a new one.

Of course, it's broken.

I'm talking it.

It's done.

And in my dream, it was like, I'm seeing this video because he sent this video to my friend Ray.

And I remember in my dream, I was pissed off because I'm like, why the fuck are you sending this video to Ray?

Like, half-naked fucking video.

Like, that's fucked up.

And I guess in my dream, supposedly, should I even say this part?

Yeah, yeah.

I guess in my dream, the the reason why my mom said, Well, it's okay if it's broken, you can get a new one.

See, it's okay if it's broken, you can get a new one.

You didn't tell them that part, it's like the mom says, Hey, in the video, she's like, You all tell her students video of it.

My mom's standing in the corner of the room in the video, and she says, It's okay if it's broken, you can get a new one.

And I guess the reason why she said that was because I guess supposedly I was like trying to get him hard for six hours and it wasn't working.

But I just, in my dream, I was like, I just remember being so mad that you sent a half-naked, I guess, half-naked, because your dick was tucked, a half-naked video to my friend Ray.

And then this morning, Tyler was like, How come you're not more upset that your mom was in this video?

She's like, well, I don't know why you're sent this video.

I was like, bro, it wasn't even a real dick.

It was a tuck-a-badge.

It's like, it's just skin for one.

So you shouldn't be mad.

You should be more mad that your mom's in the motherfucking room while I'm filming a tuck-a-badge video.

You're what I mean.

It was the most random fucking dream I've ever had in my life.

And I've had some weird ones.

No, you've had some very strange dreams.

I have had some really weird ones.

Yeah.

No, but you have, I will say, I don't know.

Okay.

I don't know how often this is about how people, but I feel like you have a lot of sex dreams more than I've ever heard of anyone ever having.

A lot.

You have at least

two a month.

Uh, not that much.

Well, that's what it feels like.

Like every other time is like, hey, I had a dream.

I'm always like, was it me?

Oh, and it is.

It is, which is crazy.

Yeah, but that was just a fun.

I just remember waking up this morning.

I was like, that is a fucking weird dream.

You have some weird weird ass dreams.

And I know for a fact, it wouldn't take me six hours.

You're in your own dream land.

Like, hmm, how the hell does this happen?

Yeah, but for my mom, I'm in the dream.

It's okay if it's broken.

You just can't get a new one.

Like, did she mean like a new man?

A new, like, of course not what she meant.

You know what I mean?

We'll take it out.

And why would you

send it to Ray?

Like, sorry, Ray, if you're hearing this.

I don't know why.

Some fucking weird shit, bro.

And maybe that's why it was a tuck-a-batch because you're gay and like lesbian.

Oh, maybe.

Maybe like subconscious.

Yeah, you're right.

Like subconscious, you know, so it's playing in my dream.

I don't fucking know, but I have had some dreams that like.

I'm like rumors with real life and then weird shit.

Oh my god.

Damn.

Yeah.

Why was my mom there?

No, there's actually people who like study dreams.

I mean, I've had dreams that have been like, they have came true.

Like the exact thing that has played out in my dream happened.

Which is trippy.

I'm telling you, I'm fucking psychic, bro.

So, Ray, if he ever texts you a picture of his tongue,

you better tell me, girl.

No, just kidding.

But no, I have.

I have had like dreams that have actually happened and like played out exactly to detail.

So I have never had dreams that have played out exactly to detail, but I have literally sat in an experience and let it go as long as it could go.

Oh, in a dream?

Yeah, and I knew, and I just like, it's repeating itself.

It's, I, this is it.

This is it.

Like, I, and it's weird I make sure to try to almost like, I try to like not ruin it.

I don't want to like admit to myself that's actually happening.

So I'll be like, oh, it's that thing's going on again.

Let's just see what happens.

That thing ding over there?

It dings over there.

There's like people that say that too.

You shouldn't say it out loud.

No, right.

I actually try to ignore it.

Like, I'm like, oh my God, I feel this happening to her.

Don't even think about it.

Oh, let's just experience the thing.

Yeah.

But I can't help it because I'm like, if this thing dings or something stupid, ding.

I'm like, oh my God, it's happening.

So it's like the same repetitive dream?

No, it's not repetitive.

I'm talking like, I guess you call it it deja vu.

Yeah.

Or something.

Of a dream.

No, it's not a dream.

I'm like living in real life.

And all of a sudden, all of a sudden, it's like...

Oh, so you mean like you let you try to let deja vu play out?

Yeah,

I try to ignore that it's happening, but like for instance, like, oh my god, you know, something happens over here.

Like, he barks.

I'm like, I knew he was in a bark.

Right.

You know what I'm saying?

Deja vu is trippy.

Dude.

It freaks me out a little bit.

Yeah.

It happens to me.

It is weird.

I don't know.

I just feel really weird when it happens and I'm like, what's going on?

And

I wonder if it's because your soul

has experienced the same thing but in a different time so like maybe

yeah no i that's what i'm saying because there's no way like how do they even explain deja vu how how how i i know and it's really weird i haven't had deja vu in a long time i have it all the time oh i it's trippy it is trippy yeah and i remember when i was younger i remember feeling like really um

you ever heard like derealization where you feel like you're literally it's not that i'm the truman show but like i'm trying like you know that but but it's just nothing is real.

This is all fake.

Like, do you know what I mean?

Like, nothing.

Is that come from autism?

I don't fucking know.

Maybe.

I don't fucking know.

It's a good thing to look at.

I don't know.

But, but, derealization.

It's like, for me, at least, it's literally like everything is fake.

Like,

and then it'll go on a little bit where it gets really scary.

It gets, it gets kind of freaky.

You know what I mean?

Like, like, eerie feeling.

Okay.

So then I try to be like, I'll literally be like, oh, leaf.

Like, the leaf is real.

You know what what I'm saying like isn't that weird I know I'll probably sound like freaking nuts

so do I saying that I have dreams that play out and you know my mom's saying

dude it's really weird so what I'm gonna say what is what is it

derealization realization oh it was the closest thing I could ever get to what it

is a mental health condition that causes people to feel detached from the world around them

or to perceive it as a distorted unreal yeah it's a type of dissociation which is a disconnect between person's sense of self, thoughts, and body.

Symptoms include distorted perception.

Objects may appear the wrong size or color, or surroundings may seem blurry or colorless.

Okay, nothing seems bigger or out of order, but I will say that it feels like I'm slowly

that's what it says right

here.

Almost a drain, you know, a pool.

If you took a pool and it starts tornadoing, yeah, and it starts going down that drain, it feels like nothing is bigger than it's supposed to be, but I do feel a sense of like I'm going down

well it says that

it says I know I sound crazy but well no but it says it feels like an out-of-body sensation from your surroundings foggy or detached people object objects and time and time may seem distorted yeah it's like a dreamlike state well I'll be honest with you I didn't know it was a mental condition I'm not saying I have no it makes sense well no because when you were talking about it explains what it feels like but when you were talking about it that's what it reminded me of was like dissociation yeah yeah right right I guess, yeah, dissociation.

Yeah, right.

Does that happen to you often?

No, not often.

But when it does happen,

you'll never know what happens.

I guess I can tell you afterward, but hey, I just had to do a dation moment.

But like, no, I mean, I've always kept it to myself.

I'm like, does that happen to you often?

I mean, I remember being a kid and being,

it would freak me out a little bit.

Like, I'd feel scared.

I guess scared's the wrong word.

I knew I was safe technically, but it just felt

like freaky, you know, like creepy.

Like, weird.

That's weird.

Yeah.

I wonder if it's dissociation, though, and not really derealization.

Dude, I'm freaking myself out.

I'm sorry.

Don't do that.

I'm just thinking out loud here.

I don't know.

What I didn't really know what, I mean, I just, I remember being a kid and looking it up, and that was the closest thing I got.

I was like, I don't know.

I remember typing in, like, feeling like, I'm not feeling like life's not real.

I'm an object in a weird thing that I'm not.

My object doesn't have any relation to this realness around me.

That's autism.

Dude, literally.

I don't know.

Anyway, let's see where we get on track.

Sorry.

No, you should probably talk to a therapist about that.

What, dude?

What?

I don't know.

I'm just thinking.

I feel like I need to talk to a therapist too.

So.

We're just the nutty.

Wait, Agony.

I don't know.

Anyway, probably shouldn't have said that out loud.

Fuck it.

Whatever.

I'm not, I'm real, guys.

This is what you're getting.

You know, I'm no, no, no filters here with this.

I feel like since the kids have been in school, I'm like I feel like I have more anxiety.

I don't know if it's because of things going on in the world per se.

You know what I mean?

Do you?

Yeah, like I feel just a sense of

it's just

feels a lot of energy shifting and swirling and kind of just heavy.

It feels heavy.

I think it's still heavy.

I was thinking about it today.

I'm like, is it

because they're all in school and I don't know what to do with myself?

Or is it because of just everything going on in the world?

um but the one morning where i got up with them and took them all to school and stuff i was like

not like panic attack but definitely like high anxiety yeah um but that was just right after all that craziness that happened in colorado and you know just

everything

did it um

did it feel different as the day as the morning went on or did it alleviate when you dropped them off you know what i mean like when did no no it lasted a lot of the day.

Oh, okay.

So it was one of those days.

Yeah, but like, not like overtaking it, but it was just like, oh.

And I still have been feeling a little bit of anxiety.

And I think it is just because of the world.

And,

you know, not

feeling, I don't know, 100%

safe sending your kids to school, which is fucked up.

Yeah.

You know?

But

I think you just take on a lot of...

I think you're just feeling everything.

Yeah, I don't like it.

Yeah.

Well, I mean, yeah, I don't think anybody does.

Yay, empath.

Woo!

Love it for me.

Let me just take all your heavy burden emotions and I'll just put them on myself.

And feel up.

I do have to remember, though, because I remember, um,

so I listened to Teresa Caputo's podcast a lot.

And I need her.

I, she says this thing, which I love is like, when you are an empath and stuff, and you're feeling thing is like, a lot of the times you need to talk to yourself and say, like, be gone.

You are not of me.

Like, you are somebody, like, you have to kind kind of talk to yourself and be like, you are not of me.

You are somebody else's feelings and emotions, and whatever.

Like, you have to, like, I don't know, talk to your body or whatever.

No,

separate yourself from it.

You can get like, kind of like, drown in it.

And I remember the first time she said that, I was like, oh my God, I love the way she said it, which was so powerful.

And I'm like, dude, yes, because as empaths, like, we feel everything going on in the world and people's emotions.

Be gone, you are not of me.

Be gone.

You are not of me.

Yeah, be gone.

You are not of me.

You are not my feelings.

I am feeling the world's feelings or somebody else's or whatever.

But yeah.

Woo.

Love being an empath for me.

It's weird because I don't think I'm, I don't even know what I would classify myself as.

I don't know what I am.

I don't know.

I'm definitely an empath.

I can feel people.

My question is: what are the different categories?

There's empathy.

What is it?

You know what I'm saying?

What would that be considered?

Google.

I don't know.

Would that be considered?

Like, what is it?

What else is there besides empath?

Let's say that.

What else is there besides being an empath?

I don't really know.

Let's see.

Four emotional.

Oh, so there's four.

Yeah.

Okay.

What are they?

Okay, besides an empath, there are many other personal personality traits, roles, and paths.

So being an intellectual.

I feel like that's you.

A rock.

I will say my therapist told me that I intellectualize as a coping mechanism.

That was like.

blew my mind

actually because that's exactly what I do.

God, there's so many different types of empaths, to what the fuck.

Okay, so intellectual, a rock, a gush.

A what?

Or an apathy type?

A gush.

The intellectual, this type often focuses on logical thinking and can be more detached from emotions.

The rock, this person tends to be a stable and supportive individual for others, remaining grounded.

The gusher, this type is expressive and open, often sharing their emotions and feelings readily.

I feel like I'm all of them mashing together.

Right?

Yeah.

Oh, no.

That's weird.

See, like, I'm definitely a conventional, I feel like highly sensitive to emotions and energies, sometimes absorbing others' feelings without a filter.

Yeah, I think I agree because I even watch old clips sometimes, and I can see, like, I know you so well now that I look at yourself when you're like with your mom and she's going through all her shit.

And you can see you can, well, I don't know about anyone else.

I can literally see your body shift into a different position mode.

Your eyes, your brow gets different.

And you can, like, I can tell that you're gonna say something really uh you're not gonna argue it's just gonna be like very like

okay yeah like you're just like i don't know you're just taking the brunt of that i can literally see it in your body like when you do it yeah no it's really it's really trippy yeah i mean i'm the type of person i can like literally i can even with you i can tell off rip when you're in a bad mood no words spoken yeah oh i

feel it yeah which i think that's honestly probably a part of like i mean you probably just had to do that for survival probably you know what i'm saying yeah i was was wired to be an empath.

Literally, because you're, I mean, she's unpredictable.

Yeah, I don't know.

Nova's an empath too, though.

She's very, our, she's very, our,

she is our

sensitive, you know.

I showed her this video yesterday.

What?

I sent it to her phone because it made me think of her.

What was it?

And then I look at her in the car because I'm like, did you see what I sent you or whatever?

And she's like, no, I didn't.

And so I showed her.

And then she started crying.

And then I started crying.

And then I gave her a hug in the car.

And I was like, I was like, it just made me think of you.

Yeah.

That's cute.

It was cute.

Should I play it?

What?

What is it?

I don't want to cry.

What is it, honey?

What is it?

Because I'll tell you what, I was, you see me last night?

I was a stupid wreck from that old man.

I was a rat.

That's I was a rat.

I mean, when old people cry, he said, think about her smile.

And he goes, oh, and he like he lit up.

So it was this one.

That's a

let me see.

Oh, it's a poem.

Yeah.

Not the loudest, not the easiest, but the kind that wraps itself around your heart and never lets go.

I blinked, blinked and the newborn I rocked to sleep turned into a toddler with scraped knees and wild opinions.

You used to reach for me with tiny hands and sleepy eyes, and now you're running ahead, already needing me a little less.

And I know that's the goal.

To raise you up, not hold you back.

But some days I miss the weight of you pressed against my chest, your breath sinking with mine like the world stopped spinning just for us.

I missed the firsts.

First giggle, first steps, first time you said mama like it was the only word that mattered.

And still, every phase has brought its own kind of magic.

New laughs, new lessons, new versions of you that I get the honor of meeting.

Being your mother has stretched me, changed me, made me softer in places that used to be guarded.

And I know, someday you'll be too big to carry, too cool for bedtime kisses, too busy for Saturday morning pancakes, but I'll never stop showing up.

Never stop cheering you on.

I'll never stop being your safe place.

Because being your mom is the kind of blessing that only grows with time and I'll spend the rest of my life grateful that I got to be yours.

Oh I know there you go honey I know so all so she like put my vault she looked at me she's like

and I was like oh you're crying

guarantee oh for sure and I was like it just made me think of you like you know you are you're getting bigger and

all those little things, you know, and I was just when I saw it, I was like crying on the couch to myself in the house.

You were in the garage putting stupid bike seat on the bike.

I'm watching stupid TikTok got me fucking crying.

All the time.

Oh, my God.

That's what I'm doing.

All the time.

Well, anytime old men cry or old people, period, it's fucking sad.

I know, but Hunter Prosper.

If you don't know him, go on Instagram.

Hunter Prosper.

He posted these, he'll just like stories from strangers, secrets from strangers.

And oh, dude, this guy, man.

Oh, he was talking about his wife that just died.

And he's, oh, it's horrible.

It's horrible.

What are you doing?

What?

What are you doing?

What are you doing, Dad?

What?

I'm recording, actually, right now.

What are you...

Oh, hi, Dad.

My podcast.

Dad says hi.

Let me fix my hair.

Hey, I'll call you back later when you're not busy.

All right, I love you.

No, he said, I got him a new pet.

I know.

That's why I froze.

I was like, oh man, your dad has to get a new pet.

My dad is frozen.

That's crazy.

Yeah.

No, he actually, I talked to him the other day, and he was like, so he's like, we have these big, like, skinks down here.

They're like What?

It's like lizards.

Okay.

They're like purple and like yellow and all these different colors.

He's like, I don't really know how I would ship one to Nova.

What?

No.

Dad?

Hey, hey, hey, Dad.

Hey, Dad, keep the damn lizards, amphibians, and everything like that in Florida.

I don't know.

No, that's funny.

No.

You can't do it.

That's funny.

One more card.

We're getting distracted.

See?

Oh, I'm sorry.

See?

Well, because

it leads to other conversations.

We can't pull these cards when we do it.

Sorry, because it leads to other things.

I know, know i guess you're right let's say if you think they're stupid discard i don't know if it's stupid or not what's one small thing i do that tells you everything you need to know about me oh damn it's a hard one

small thing that lets you know everything you need to know about me one small thing I would say the way that you, for me, I would say the way that you play with our girls tells me everything about you.

Oh.

I would say because how it tells me everything about you was like because when you play with our girls and stuff, and like you're just doing, like, they're laughing and doing all those things.

I'm like, oh my God, look at him being a dad that he didn't have.

Yeah.

You know what I mean?

It was funny because I was going to say, now when you said that, I was like, the one small thing is just how you have the kids' stuff lined up in the morning.

Oh.

And you're, and you're, you're, uh, the lunch.

Like, you have everything so, like, and that because your care, you just love.

You love so endlessly and so just your capacity for it.

It's endless.

And I can, you can see it.

You can see it.

Yeah,

I mean, it's a small thing, but it's a big thing.

I guess

that's what I got from that question.

Yeah.

Right.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Definitely with me.

It's like more structure thing.

Everything's got to be in its place, laid out.

Yeah, but that shows because, you know, it's like you're a caring,

not even just mother, but just that shows what's, that's my opinion.

Picture days tomorrow.

Oh!

Shit.

Yep.

Tomorrow.

Well,

I told Noah, though.

Yeah, shower night anyway.

So it's

hers is Vedas.

Oh, it's Vada's.

All right.

Yeah.

Do you think I have any unconventional views on love?

Unconventional?

No.

I don't think you do.

No, no, no.

I think our views are pretty normal.

I mean,

maybe not to some people.

I believe love is love, and everybody should be able to love whoever they want to love.

And I also think, like, well, I will say unconventional on love.

I think

what might be considered unconventional is that a lot of people are like, oh, I don't need anyone to be happy.

And it's like, I believe that.

I'm not saying shit.

See what I'm saying?

I'm not saying I don't believe you when you're telling me that, oh, I don't need to be with someone to be happy.

And I believe that.

And I think that's great.

But I really do think that our lives and our cycle that we're here for,

like love makes it better.

Love makes the whole thing.

Sharing itself.

That's what makes this little slice of journey that you're having.

You know what I'm saying?

More fun or I don't know.

Just share it with somebody.

I think you owe it to yourself to not give up on it and just

find it.

Try to find it.

Because once you do,

like that one guy said, 67 years wasn't enough.

He said,

He said, what we had, 67 years wasn't enough.

What's that?

67 years.

He said, because it got better every time.

It got better.

Anyway.

Yeah, he said, because he was like, so what did he say?

He's like, 65 was better than year one.

Yeah, 65 was better than year one.

Mm-hmm.

Oh, damn.

What about me first stood out to you physically?

Oh, that's, we already answered.

I already told you.

My boobs.

Yeah,

I mean, I was in the seventh grade.

That dick?

No,

that was your answer.

No, I'm just kidding.

I never even saw the dick for a long time.

She was actually, guys.

She was.

Oh, you want to pull one?

Oh, yeah.

I was a prude.

Yeah, you were.

Well, had to make sure you weren't going to stick around.

Okay, yeah.

Um, have I ever betrayed your trust in

any way, big or small?

What would help rebuild that trust?

Jesus.

Well, we've already rebuilt trust for sure.

Um,

I think the only thing for me,

which, God, we've been together so long, it's like over with now.

But I think the only thing that really hurt me was back in the day when you dumped me for another girl because she said that I was cheating on you when it wasn't true or accurate.

Right.

And then you ended up dating her.

And yeah, she was not a very nice person.

No.

No, she wasn't.

Yeah.

Okay.

Next one.

What fight of ours did you struggle with most?

What felt particularly hard for you about it?

Mine would be,

which we've talked about this on a previous episode, but I would have to say the time when we quote unquote, I guess, separated.

That was the hardest for me.

Yeah, we didn't really separate anymore.

But yeah, I think that was the hardest for me, especially just like being pregnant and having all these feelings and emotions.

I'm like, oh my God, he doesn't, does he not want to be with me?

We're going to get divorced.

Yeah, all that shit.

I would have to say when we were younger, yeah, all that stuff from Florida stuff just was killing me.

Yeah, it killed me.

Okay.

Oh, I don't know what this means.

What does it say?

Wild card.

Oh.

Between the two of us, who apologizes first after a fight?

Me.

Write down their name and compare answers.

Oh, I get it.

If you're supposed to do something.

I feel like I apologize first.

I apologize.

You don't mean I apologize?

Um,

you do,

but I feel like I apologize more.

I mean,

okay, yes, you definitely apologize more than me.

What question felt most vulnerable for you to ask?

Nothing.

Yeah, that's dumb.

Reflection.

No more wild cards.

Why?

What is this one?

I don't know.

Rate each other's cooking skills on a scale of one to ten.

Oh, oh, I would say you are definitely a solid

7.5.

No, okay.

I was going to say 8.

I almost said 8, but then I'm like, yeah, no, I would say 8.

I would say eight.

I would say eight.

Yeah, yeah.

I would, yeah.

Okay.

You're all about seasoning.

Rate each other's cuddling skills on a scale of one to ten.

Oh, ten.

Ten.

He's always the big spoon.

We fit together like

PB and J.

Listen.

Listen, dead arm, one arm under the head.

Which you know you got a dead arm if you're guy.

I mean a big spoon, I guess, whatever.

One arm under the head, other hand, titty.

Perfectly fit like a little spoon.

Mm-hmm.

Great.

Company.

10.

10 out of 10.

11 out of 10.

Yeah, love cuddles.

Somebody kind of fucking fall asleep last night.

Fucking life, dude.

What?

What title would you give this chapter of our sex life?

Wait, what?

Title?

Yeah, title.

Yeah, that's what it said.

What title would you give this chapter?

No fucks given.

Yeah, no fucks given.

I don't know.

That's just what came into my mind.

No, that's actually exactly.

Even the one night time I was like, I thought we were, I thought, like, don't you care about being quiet anymore?

I know, dude.

I was like, what's going on?

I thought we were like, bro, like, I'm not.

And we have to be because she's right there.

Okay, well, you better tell yourself that, dude.

I'm over here, like, having a great time.

And I'm looking, I'm like, but I'm also like, hey, man, I'm.

We need to switch her room.

She needs to go downstairs.

Because I'm like, what, what, tonight you don't care?

Like, what's going on?

I'm like, whatever.

I don't care.

Traumatize each other.

I don't give a shit.

Traumatizing each other.

You're like, listen, we'll pay for therapy later, but this moment is mine.

And you're claiming it.

I guess.

Hey, whatever.

Oh, the fucking Eddie.

That is so funny.

Hello.

Yeah.

Can you get it?

Share a house.

You've got to switch rooms.

That's stupid.

When during this game, did you feel connected to me?

It's like, wait, we don't care about that.

In what ways is the relationship unlike any other before?

Well, you're not a hoe, and you didn't cheat on me, so that's good.

You're not a drug addict.

You don't have a big nose.

It's fucked up.

That's fucked up.

You better calm your ass down.

I don't know what else to think of.

Oh, my God.

You said big nose.

Do your best impersonation of each other?

Did you know?

Did you know

that our bodies are 99.9% Stardust?

Oh, also, and it's like 10.30 at night, you know, and you're laying in bed.

Did you know?

No, listen, be honest, because I'm telling you, I know there are times that I'm speaking, or I'll be like,

and you're just like,

you are just like.

Sometimes I just don't want to think.

I always want to think.

Yeah, I don't feel like...

No, sometimes I don't want to think because I think all day.

Okay.

Well,

and I'm overstimulated all day.

And it seems like you're not thinking a lot.

Or trying not to think a lot.

All day?

No, not all day.

I'm saying, you know what I'm saying?

You're saying, like, you're doing a lot of time.

No, at nighttime, I'm like.

There's moments in time when I'm like,

saying something.

I look over.

I can just tell, and you're just, I'm not sure.

She ain't listening.

Some, some.

All right, but listen.

Can you just look at me and say, I didn't hear anything you just said?

Yeah, I heard you.

No, I hear what you say.

Yes, I do.

I do.

I hear what you say.

Yes.

You hear what I say, but you're just like, uh,

or what?

What, you know what I'm saying?

I don't know.

Sometimes I'm just

what I got to be annoying.

I understand this.

No, it's not annoying.

I feel like sometimes.

Listen, guys, don't let her fool you.

I know.

I'm in my

feel like sometimes at the end of the day, I have been so overstimulated all day.

I want to sit and not think about nothing.

No, it happens not even at nighttime.

Middle of the day.

When you're on the phone, I can see on your phone.

You're on something.

You're doing whatever.

And I'm like, uh,

please, Mr.

Scroller, Scroller, scroller, scroller, scroller, scroll, scroll, scroll, scroll, scroll, scroll.

I'm saying, in the moments that I'm looking, you know what I mean?

I'll be like, yeah, say something, and then I can see you, and you're just like, uh, I can tell,

I'm like, yeah, she's doing the head.

Here's Ty with his.

Did you know?

I'm just kidding.

But why not just say, I don't want to hear anything right now?

That's so rude as fuck.

Is it really?

Yeah.

Is that rude?

I want to talk right now.

Or

not, not right now.

Or why don't you do anything?

How do you do it?

How would you do do it?

Not right now.

Well, see, when you, I'm very honest, Anna, I can't, like, if I'm doing something,

I'm like, ah, I can't.

I know.

Yeah, you don't, no, you don't even answer.

You just ignore.

And I'm like, hello.

Because I, because I had to make a choice.

So you ignore me, but listen.

But you, I'm here.

You ignore me, but you just attach to the phone.

No, no, no.

No.

No, that's what happens.

Usually when I'm writing or I'm reading, if I'm reading, bro, it's really hard.

I cannot stop.

Because if I stop reading now, I'm going to lose a place.

I'm going to go to tempo.

Yeah.

But, like, yeah, it's usually when that happens.

And then I, but I say, I can't talk right now.

I can't, I don't hear what you're saying.

Or I'll say, uh, I don't know what you just said.

I don't know what you just said.

Or you'll go, eh.

Yeah.

Okay, what's what?

Yeah.

You fucking short circuit.

I get like, I'm reading or whatever.

I don't know.

Oh, shit.

I gotta go get these kids.

Oh, okay.

Wait.

It's 226.

Oh, shh.

Okay.

Oh, my God.

I'm so sorry, guys.

We were, what a sloppy episode.

We're just all over the place.

Sorry.

All right.

What's one way our relationship has gotten better over time?

What's one way it's gotten better?

Yeah.

I honestly, in every way I could think.

I'll say, I feel like

everything, communication, everything, just all of it.

I mean, just all of it.

I would.

Yeah.

Like that old guy said.

Oh, 67 years is never enough.

He says 65 was better than year one.

He was 100 was better than year one, and it just kept getting better.

And 67 years wasn't enough for what we were experiencing with each other that's what he said

bro that quote but dude yeah yeah i was i was crying in mid last night like a little bitch no it is it is sad even that even the old guy that was crying on the he was there was an old guy crying on the news this morning i'm like oh no dad's cry because i'm gonna cry

listen listen linda okay

thanks for being with us while we're just sloppy and

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Yeah, you've been busy planning and kind of getting the whole thing.

Yes, we get to get we get to recording with all those people in like two weeks.

Um, actually, less than two weeks.

Yes, less than two weeks, yeah.

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