134. What I Learned From Almost Dying

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Speaker 11 All right, my first episode back since I almost died. Everything's different.

Speaker 11 Every single thing. I'm sitting here with my notebook like we used to back in the old days with all the new perspectives and all the new approaches and perspectives I have on life.

Speaker 11 I want to share them with you so you don't have to almost die to get them.

Speaker 11 And for those of you that don't know, I was in a very, very bad car accident recently and I shouldn't be alive right now, but I am. And in a way, I did die.
Old me, he's gone, long gone.

Speaker 11 I've already started making a lot of changes to my life with no fuck to give. Absolutely none.
Any ounce of give a fuck that was left in me got knocked out of me when my head hit the wall. Bah.

Speaker 11 But for this episode, I'm going to walk you through my biggest regrets when I accepted that I was going to die. And I didn't.
I'm going to give you the truth, the straight up.

Speaker 11 truth because everything is different.

Speaker 11 Read between the lines when I say that. I'm going to open up about more of it, but I live in a whole new place.
I live in Texas now. I'm living with my sister in her second bedroom.
I'm homeless.

Speaker 11 Let's just jump into this.

Speaker 11 I want to go through my regrets, everything that I instantly regretted not doing with my life and not being while I was alive when I accepted that I was going to die and then didn't.

Speaker 11 The first thing is living passively. There's been a big shift in me in the past year of everything that I've been posting online.
I was censored in a way. And this is my heads up.
Muzzles off.

Speaker 11 If you're a sensitive little dandelion, get fucked. Go away.
This is not going to be the channel for you.

Speaker 11 If this is your first time seeing me, I'm big on the truth and I prioritize the truth over people's feelings. So that's how I live.
That's what I like. That's what I prefer.
So that's how I live.

Speaker 11 And if you don't like that kind of advice and you don't like that kind of content.

Speaker 11 Don't consume mine. You're in control of what you're consuming.
If something pisses you off and you don't like it, don't watch it.

Speaker 11 That's checkpoint number one with my little list that I have is living passively. And the reason that I brought up being censored, old Leo, old me, who truly don't give a fuck, is so back.

Speaker 11 It's insane. The muzzle's off.
Nobody's telling me what I can and can't talk about again. Eat shit.

Speaker 11 But with this whole censor thing that I was kind of under, I was trying so hard to get myself to believe the things that I was saying and trying to like spiritually ascend and be like, I see these things different.

Speaker 11 I'm like this. I'm like that because I wasn't allowed to talk about it.
And I don't like to be fake. So whatever I say is what I believe and am living.

Speaker 11 So when I was talking about certain things, especially about defending yourself and not exposing people, that is something I was trying so hard to get myself to believe.

Speaker 11 But that is a passive, pussy bitch way to live. That's done.
I'm never doing it again.

Speaker 11 The thing I said in my video that pisses me off now that I said it is, oh, God protects people's secrets for a reason. He's going to expose them when it's time.

Speaker 11 Don't spend your time and energy lashing out and being mean and calling people out and all this and that.

Speaker 11 The new reality that I'm living in is one where you understand and live in a way where you realize God gave you a mouth for a reason. So fucking use it.

Speaker 11 If there is ever an attack on your character, you check motherfuckers immediately. You stand up for yourself.
I'm never. ever gonna let an attack on my character go unchecked again.

Speaker 11 People can criticize me, talk shit all they want. I don't care.
Call me bald, call me stupid, call me fat. I don't care.
Call me what you want to fucking call me.

Speaker 11 You attack my character i'm coming after you and i'm correcting you publicly and i have a hit list of people who have talked about me publicly and i'm deciding whether or not if i want to open the can of worms of dog cussing and brutally disrespecting every single one publicly like they did to me i was trying too hard to be the bigger person that ain't me i'm not the bigger person if being the bigger person means you got to sit back and let people dog you out and paint an image that ain't true fuck that I'm never going to live like that.

Speaker 11 And I'm trying to figure out how I want to go about it the best. But that's the first thing I realized is fuck the pussy shit.

Speaker 11 If someone tries to degrade your character or talk about your integrity, you check them every fucking time. And the reason I get so angry about it, anger is not a bad thing.
All the emotions are fine.

Speaker 11 The reason I get so goddamn irritated and pissed off when people want to attack my character is because these people who talk about my character and my integrity, these people who are making up bullshit, do not understand the pain you have to take on and choose to have integrity.

Speaker 11 These people could not walk in my shoes. Their knees would break the first step they took.

Speaker 11 The amount of pain I've had to endure to have the integrity that I have, how I've had every opportunity to fuck anybody over I wanted to get to where I am. And my shoes are clean.

Speaker 11 I've never stepped on nobody. And these same people, when given the opportunity, stepped on my neck when it was on a line to benefit themselves.
These people who make these claims about me, fuck you.

Speaker 11 I don't care no more. But my thing now is standing up for yourself and defending the pain you've been through and taken on to have the fucking character you've got.

Speaker 11 And every single one of you understands what I'm talking about.

Speaker 11 I've had to turn down so many opportunities and protect people and help people at the cost of myself many times because that is my character. That's how I live.
These people have no integrity.

Speaker 11 They have no character. They have no morals.
And I will never condone letting people who ain't worth shit talk about me and my character and what I've had to go through to be who I am.

Speaker 11 And I'm never going to tell you to do that. I'm never going to tell you to be silent again.
I'm never going to tell you to not defend yourself. We're fucking done with that.

Speaker 11 That was one of my biggest sources of enragement when I opened my eyes.

Speaker 11 All the airbags were off in the car, and I was so angry that I almost died a fucking pussy by not calling these people what they are, which is worthless pieces of shit who don't even have an ounce of anything to stand on to speak about integrity or character.

Speaker 11 Not checking these people was one of my biggest regrets. I will never make that mistake again.
I will never fail to defend myself again. And that's not being egotistical and being not spiritual.

Speaker 11 I don't give a shit about none of that anymore. You can call it whatever you want.
I'm not doing it. You could say I'm talking from ego, so fucking be it.

Speaker 11 All it comes from is a source of defending the pain that I've taken on. to be able to be who I am and claim and say that I lived by certain morals and a certain code.

Speaker 11 A lot of people that say they live like that fucking don't.

Speaker 11 That's the first thing I wanted to clear up and tell you and give you that because I was steered in the wrong direction by a lot of people and I was trying to pretend like I gave a fuck about certain things.

Speaker 11 I don't. You're never going to see me try and be delusional again and talk myself into being a certain way.
No, I am how I am. That's fucking it.
And it's very clear now.

Speaker 11 And I'm very, very, very unapologetic about it now because I will not live this life dictated by other people. And I will not die living for other people.

Speaker 11 I was in that car and I literally had to accept the fact that I was going to die. We hydroplaned in this rental car that I had because they had no tread on the tires.

Speaker 11 This piece of shit fucking rental company gave me a car that was bad. But me and my mom were in the car and I was driving.
We hydroplaned going like 70 miles an hour and lost full control of the car.

Speaker 11 I know how to handle a car. There was no getting a grip on nothing.
There was absolutely nothing I could do. I'm just glad I was driving and not my mom.

Speaker 11 But when we were going into the trees, when we hit the trees, my wheel was turned. We were going diagonally and we were in mud.
There was no stopping the car.

Speaker 11 So when we were headed toward the trees, I saw them coming. I knew there was nothing I could fucking do.

Speaker 11 And I was like, if there's trees sticking out or branches or something, they'll go through my face. Like there's no stopping the car.
There's most likely something that's going to kill me.

Speaker 11 So I threw my arm over my mom because she was in the passenger seat. And I just closed closed my eyes and said, fuck, boom.
And we hit the trees. All the airbags went off.
It was a whole fiasco.

Speaker 11 The EMTs had to cut my mom out of the car with a chainsaw. Very, very traumatic thing.
And I got a lot of perspective about what really matters in this life.

Speaker 11 And my whole thing is I accepted that I was going to die in that moment. And when I opened my eyes and I didn't, I was so angry about not defending myself.

Speaker 11 So that's just one little thing I want to give you.

Speaker 11 Do it.

Speaker 11 Use your mouth God gave you and check these motherfuckers okay next thing on my list oh jesus christ is trusting other people's judgment or feeling like you need to wait for other people's input or other people's opinion about things to make a change or do something in your life

Speaker 11 i

Speaker 11 was

Speaker 11 i'm so disgusted with how i was living like i needed that wreck i needed to be waking up like that I needed that jolt of reality of like, wake the fuck up. Universe slap me in my face.

Speaker 11 But consider the message received. The way I was living

Speaker 11 was very trusting other people's judgment and trying to let people lead me. And I realized there's no one that knows how to live your life, but you.

Speaker 11 There's no one that knows how to achieve what you want in the way you want to do it, but you. You can listen to people.
You can take their advice. Sure.

Speaker 11 Listen to it and take it into consideration and do not hold yourself back waiting for other people's opinion or waiting for other people's guidance.

Speaker 11 But that kind of led me to like the whole censoring myself thing. There was a lot of people that I was hearing different things from from every angle.
And also social media itself.

Speaker 11 These people on social media have to understand and take into consideration, I am a different type of human being. One, I'm Albanian.

Speaker 11 I have a very different mindset, a very different set of beliefs, and a very different way that I operate. I have a lot of different views about life.

Speaker 11 So to think me and any of these dumb little twinks who run around with a fucking Stanley cup, little tumbler,

Speaker 11 when it lands on the ground. Like Tana Mongeau said, looking like they're running around with a blender.

Speaker 11 Any like basic little white bitch or basic twink or any people, these little they thems on TikTok who have all these opinions about me. Y'all live inside.

Speaker 11 You're able to have all of these opinions because you don't fucking leave the house. It's like when I talk about violence, just to let you know, violence is back on the table.
That's not something.

Speaker 11 I relate to is these people's mentality. I was trying so hard to believe it that like violence isn't the answer.

Speaker 11 violence is bad may nay nay i was listening to so many people's opinions they don't have the same life experience they don't understand what i understand they don't see things the way that i see them if you live in your house and do nothing all day you sit on reddit like a fucking rat and you just sit there and talk shit and make all these assessments of how everybody's living their life awful and you're eating 10 000 calories a day sitting on your fucking ass and you think you have a mouth that has any credibility to speak with yeah we're gonna have very different opinions because i'm out actually living my life and achieving shit and doing things when you go about normal life even for everyone watching normal day-to-day things you do you're gonna understand this advice you see online doesn't apply being the bigger person walking away isn't always the thing to be so hyper aware and considerate of everybody's feelings and people saying that words and saying certain slurs is violence, babe.

Speaker 11 Have you never been slapped in a fucking head? Clearly not.

Speaker 11 People have this warped perception of what they think their opinions are and what the world should be like because they're living in a fucking house.

Speaker 11 They're not leaving and going and interacting in society. It's like these people with the whole pronoun shit, they want to identify as a fucking lamp.

Speaker 11 Yeah, it might fly online because you have people that are too scared to speak against you because you're fucking little bullies and this whole cancel culture shit.

Speaker 11 But you go out in real life and you try and tell somebody, oh, it's Zeser. You're going to get laughed at.

Speaker 11 The shit that people online live in is online world i live in real life and for so long i'm mad as at myself that i even tried to understand this

Speaker 11 i was never behind the whole like being a lamp identifying as a lamp identifying as half wolf that's stupid shove it up your ass i'm saying people's judgments and assessments about certain things that i've experienced like i went against my own experiences because everybody was like this is what you have to do when you're in the public eye you have to be this way if you want to achieve anything or go anywhere you can't have these opinions.

Speaker 11 You have to think like this and be like this. And I was weirdly, like subconsciously thinking, okay, this is just the way it's supposed to go.
If that's the case, I don't fucking want it.

Speaker 11 That's part of the reason I moved out of LA so fast after this accident. I didn't care.
I wanted to get out. I don't want anything to do with LA.
I don't want anything to do with this industry.

Speaker 11 I want absolutely zero to do with this delusion, this bullshit and this trash. I don't want to be involved in it.

Speaker 11 I don't want to deal with these stupid people because that's what the industry calls for. I don't give a fuck.
I'm not going to be in the industry then. I don't care.

Speaker 11 I don't want to be around these influencers. They're all fucking stupid.
Genuinely

Speaker 11 the most brain rotted people I've ever met in my fucking life.

Speaker 11 And a lot of people online, a lot of influencers will say all this and that and pretend like they're on your side and they think the way that you do.

Speaker 11 Behind closed doors, we're all fucking laughing at you. But I'm not one to put on the front and fake it.
I was trying to believe it.

Speaker 11 I was was trying to like be more understanding and considerate until I actually got on that accident and got really realigned with what I think, who I am, and what I feel. That shit's fucking stupid.

Speaker 11 Okay. I'm not doing it and I'm not pretending that I'm cool with it and that I like it.
But my other part with that is people trying to shame everybody for not thinking the way that they do.

Speaker 11 Babe, if all you do is live in the goddamn house, of course you're going to be able to sit here and make up any rule because any rule flies in your little house.

Speaker 11 But you step outside in real life, people going to make fun of you. Real society is not going to let your bullshit slide.

Speaker 11 I want y'all to have hope that the things that you see on social media, they don't go in real life. A lot of people are so brainwashed and they live in their little house and do nothing.

Speaker 11 And they think everything they see is how everybody else is. They don't have the contrast of going out in real life because they avoid it because it's not what they...
see as reality.

Speaker 11 They look for nothing but things that enable them to stay trapped in their delusion. I'm not like that.
I don't like it. I'm not falling into it.
I'm not playing into it.

Speaker 11 And I'm not coddling anybody's feelings for the sake of brand deals and money and the industry. Okay, let me calm down a little bit.
You could tell I'm riled up in this episode.

Speaker 11 That's one thing I was kind of advised to do is not show so many emotions online. Fuck that.
I'm angry. This is called aware and aggravated.
Shit like this pisses me off. So let's just talk about it.

Speaker 11 I don't want to steer. Hey guys.
So this is what I learned when I had a near-death experience. That's not me.
I'm not like these fucking little losers online. I'm living my life my way.

Speaker 11 I'm doing things how I want to do it. And I'm talking how I want to talk.
If you don't like it, like I said, go ahead, go. Leave, babe.
Hit the block button. You know where that is.

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Speaker 11 The next thing I want to talk about that I regretted is not expressing my disappointments in people.

Speaker 11 I have experienced a level of disappointment I didn't understand was real

Speaker 11 with the last year of my life, especially with LA and just people in general. The level of disappointment and heartbreak and betrayal I've been through.

Speaker 11 I'm surprised I've handled it. I'm surprised genuinely.
I'm not trying to sound like a fucking tough ass. Like, oh, woe is me.
It's so bad. No, bitch, it's a lot.

Speaker 11 Like, I'm surprised I still have faith in people. It's waning.
It's very much like last hair. One of my hairs.
That's how fucking little it is.

Speaker 11 One of my hairs is all the patience and hope I have left in humanity. But this whole thing of trying to be the bigger person and trying to not hurt people's feelings.
I always start off nice.

Speaker 11 I always start off very considerate, polite, level-headed. I let people set their expectations for me.
I don't ever go into it blind and hurt my own feelings.

Speaker 11 I let people lay out, okay, these are the things you can expect from me. This is what I'm going to do.
I let you set the expectations.

Speaker 11 And then when people do not live up to the expectations that they set, I'm letting you motherfucking know you fucked up. I'm disappointed.
And now I'm pissed off. Now what?

Speaker 11 And when you hit people like that and don't let people waste your time and dick you around, what happens? They do it.

Speaker 11 If your conscience is not enough to wake you up, I have no fucking problem doing it.

Speaker 11 But I no longer feel bad about being an asshole when I need to because you saw it was fit to fuck me over over and play with me. So now it's a fair game and now I'm the asshole for it.

Speaker 11 That's the thing. I don't care no more about people's reactions.
I don't care no more about people trying to shame me and say, you can't act like this, you can't act like that.

Speaker 11 There's not going to be a situation where I drop the ball or let someone down or take money from someone and not give them and make sure they got what they paid for.

Speaker 11 But people like to get upset about things being harsh. Let's be so genuinely honest for a second.
Are you mad it was harsh or are you mad it was true?

Speaker 11 Are you mad that you got called out or are you mad I was rude about it? How else do you want me to come to you and say, hey, you're fucking up big time? There's no nice way to say it.

Speaker 11 And that's what's made a lot of people be great and be successful is hearing the fucking truth, whether it's harsh or not. Sometimes it's got to be harsh to wake you up, like with me in that accident.

Speaker 11 I had to get slammed into a fucking tree and almost die to wake up. But what did I do? Wake up.
Sometimes it has to be harsh.

Speaker 11 Sometimes the truth has to be harsh enough where it will shatter any false reality you're living in. And I have no problem delivering that anymore.
It's the reality that I live in.

Speaker 11 And if you want to be around me, you're going to be in real reality, not this fake bullshit that people want to promote online. Well, you have to be this way.
You have to be that way.

Speaker 11 No, the fuck, I don't. This is getting a little ranchy, but it feels good.

Speaker 11 The last thing I want to talk about is living life safe. and trying to play life safe and like do everything right and think about the consequences and overthink everything.

Speaker 11 Stop.

Speaker 11 Literally stop playing life safe. What are you going to do? Die safely? For what? For what? You're going to be bored, have achieved nothing, hate your life, be miserable.

Speaker 11 And that's one thing I want to do my next podcast episode on is excuses to not make changes are not valid enough. I think that's going to be my next episode.

Speaker 11 But the whole thing with playing life safe, you literally could go at any moment. Like within five seconds, I almost died.

Speaker 11 And I don't, I haven't had time to fully take it in because immediately after the wreck, I drove to my next location, flew where I had to go and did five more shows, got home from tour, and then packed immediately.

Speaker 11 Two days later, moved. And now I'm in Texas.
I haven't had a chance to slow down and really process everything fully. I don't think I'm ever going to.

Speaker 11 I'm just taking what I've learned and I'm living off of that. And I've made changes immediately off of what I've learned, especially with playing life safe.

Speaker 11 The biggest thing I want to tell you about playing life safe and it's important that it comes from someone like me is i tried to play life safe i did everything right i did everything by the book at 18 years old i jumped into nursing school asap i went into college that summer i had a week off between high school and college i went through nursing school at 21 was a nurse met someone dated someone and

Speaker 11 All of it got fucked up. All of it got destroyed.
Everything I worked for got destroyed.

Speaker 11 and i played it so safe i did it right i did it by the book i did life how you're supposed to do and set up your career and it was taken from me from external circumstances and from some just rabid piece of

Speaker 11 and i am going to make a podcast episode soon addressing the video that i deleted talking about my ex and my plans of what i wanted to do to him i have a lot of things i want to clear up about that and be open and honest about it because a lot of people were posting that shit out of context for a reason so i'm going to clear that the fuck up and also collect these people who wanted to speak and i'm gonna show that they had no grounds to speak but that's for another episode the whole thing with playing life safe is i did everything right i did everything by the book and it still got taken it still got up i'm over here online now fame is the most traumatic thing that's ever happened to me if you want to be famous think fucking 12 times before you try and act on it fame is the most traumatic thing that has ever happened to me ever i despise fame

Speaker 11 It's a byproduct of trying to share the message that I have to share. So I will take it.
I will choose that consequence. But for people who just want fame, run like hell.

Speaker 11 If you want fame just for fame, do not. It's not worth nothing.
Fame is not what human beings are built for. It is the worst shit in the world.

Speaker 11 There are perks to it, but none of them are good enough to outweigh the cons and outweigh the bad of it. Just my heads up.
But that's the whole thing is you don't know where your life is going to go.

Speaker 11 You don't know how it's going to end up. You can do everything by the book and do it right.
And it still can get taken from you or it can still fuck up. And there's no way to control it.

Speaker 11 So if something does not make you happy and it is not what you want to do, do not waste your life doing it. It can get ruined anyway.

Speaker 11 If there's not actually something you want out of what you're doing, stop. Do something the fuck else.
Because like I said, you could goddamn die tomorrow.

Speaker 11 And I'm knocking on wood because I don't wish that on anybody. I don't want that to happen to any of you.

Speaker 11 I just want to give you this perspective because I don't want you guys to be trapped living a life that you hate because you think you have to play things a certain way.

Speaker 11 Everything can change at the drop of a dime, at the drop of a hat. Any change you want to make, you can make it tonight.
You can make it tomorrow.

Speaker 11 You can literally do anything you want to do right now. Nothing is stopping you.
Nothing is limiting you. And the things that you think are limiting you are false limitations that you are perceiving.

Speaker 11 They are not real.

Speaker 11 And I just went through a big like combustion of the false reality and the false limitations that I I was perceiving None of that shit's real You're gonna be more than okay.

Speaker 11 You're gonna be fine make the damn change if you've made it this far in the episode You meant to hear that make the fucking change you want to make stop playing life safely. You're gonna be fine.

Speaker 11 You're gonna figure it out. You're gonna be more than okay.
I promise you are being urged to make certain changes with your life for a reason. Follow them before you are forced to make the changes.

Speaker 11 I've been in positions before where I've been forced into making changes.

Speaker 11 And I've also recently just gone through another situation where I was so harshly woken up and like danced with death way too close that it gave me such a jolt and took away any false perception that I had and any false sense of give a fuck and false fear.

Speaker 11 All of it got wiped out. It's like it set me free from it.
It all got like ripped out of me. And now I get to go live life and have fun.
I'm so much happier in Texas. I...
never wanted to go to LA.

Speaker 11 To be honest, everybody was telling me that's what you need to do for business. Fuck that.
It's not worth your happiness. Nothing is worth that.
And your happiness is not waiting for you.

Speaker 11 Happiness don't wait around for goddamn nobody. You got to go make the changes and do what you need to do to line up with it, to live a happier life.

Speaker 11 To live the life you want to live, you got to go do it. Nothing's going to sit here and wait for you.
You have to do it. And I want to give you the encouragement to goddamn just do it, babe.

Speaker 11 This life is so fragile. It's so stupid if you think about it.
If you really think about it, like the things you're worried about, dumb.

Speaker 11 They're valid, but they're not valid enough to justify you being unhappy. Because if your last day was today, what would you fucking hate yourself for not changing or doing?

Speaker 11 And that's how I want to leave this episode because these were the main things that I was so mad at myself about. And I wanted to get it out and share it with you.

Speaker 11 Cause I want you to feel like you're not crazy and alone. Because like I said, this fake woke ass social media game.
Yeah, you're not alone in it. Everyone else who's smart enough sees through it.

Speaker 11 That's why you're here. So I'm proud of you.
Thank you for being who you are and go make the goddamn change. You've got this.

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Speaker 12 Owning a home is full of surprises. Some wonderful, some

Speaker 12 not so much.

Speaker 11 And when something breaks, it can feel like the whole day unravels.

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Speaker 12 Terms apply on covered repairs.