Giggling about updates, crying, and stuff

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What's up, Gigglers? Harriet, fix your Wi-Fi. Manifest that shit.
We can't be managed. I mean, the day just got away from me.
What's up? Growing and learning, Gigglers. We're growing and realizing things every day.
I was trying to sound like Courtney. We're growing.
Okay. Long story short, we're going to start with some housekeeping up top.
We're both very nervous this episode. We have Radio City.
I think there's a couple tickets left. But then we added Nashvilleashville new orleans st augustine florida where we have no idea where that is hollywood florida i've never been to new orleans i'm actually so excited to eat a beignet oh my god that's honestly the chicest food i've ever heard i feel like beignet is the name of your next cat yes can you spell beignet i don't think it's important to be able to because the cat can't you i don't think anyone can spell beignet i don't think that's a thing that people spell they just say so then we have portland las vegas salt lake city check it out okay this is going to be a unique episode of giggly squad i mean not really yes and no, because here's what I'll first and foremost say.
Anything that's happening in my life, first I tell Hannah. First I tell my mom, then I tell Hannah, and then I tell the Gigglers.
So if something in the universe is going on and I haven't said it to the Gigglers first, then it's not true. And you've said things to me before that aren't true.
I've lied to you multiple times. What is reality? And so I was trying to think about how I was going to say this.
And one of the things that popped in my head was our beta blocker episode was probably one of the most nervous I've been to do an episode and like say just like something I've never talked about before in real time of like how I felt a couple days prior to that and I think it was like our biggest response episode because there were just so many gigglers were like wow like this was like on another level like we get each other we've truly formed a cult this pod was made off of making fun of each other most importantly ourselves but in that as you're making fun of yourself you start being like holy shit i'm seeing some real shit and we talk about it and we go in and out all the time but look the gigglers are our best friends yeah and it's kind of crazy like we've been doing this podcast now for five years it does not feel like that at all because we're only 26 because literally i'm 27 like when covid started so obviously i want to tell the gigglers first and i and i feel like the most comfortable with the gigglers and i know that like people are going to take these clips. And it's going to be a lot of non-gigglers chatting.
This is all just you announcing you have another UTI. And the gigglers are like, we're tired.
We're tired, Paige. Side note, this is going to be a little dramatic episode and we didn't have a plan we didn't have

a plan and i told her my plan was to let her talk and my plan was to let hannah talk never so we got on the pod and we realized that we have no plan this episode is pre-recorded so we'll say that in case like anything happens in the news that like we're not touching on because it's like all about me right now. What I did want to say was that Craig and I have decided to no longer be together.
And I know I said I would never cry on the internet. But like it's okay if I cry on the pod.
I feel like that's okay. It's weird.
Obviously it's weird. Like it's very weird.
I wasn't expecting this obviously when we first started dating like you don't you don't think like oh what's gonna happen like will we get married will we not you just kind of like are in this relationship and as you get older I mean I started dating Craig and I was 29 and I'm 32 now and your 30s for women I feel like really are very transformative and you change a lot and you grow a lot and him as well not to sound traditional and old-fashioned but like this is not a situation where like I have a 50-part series of like who the who the fuck was I dating like could not be more opposite of that I have so love and respect for Craig. I think he is one of the best people I've ever met in my entire life.
I will remain the biggest fan of him and want the best for him. And he truly will get the best because he is the best.
But with that said, I think it is just the right decision for both of us, like moving forward in our lives and like the direction that our lives are, are going in that we like didn't foresee or like, whatever. Um, it's a very sad thing.
And, and just to like say this, not that I even have to, but like in terms of people like saying rumors, like, Oh, Paige was told told to like wait until southern charm came out or like summer house came out no one can tell me what to do like the network has power but they did they don't have that much power so like that is not that was not a real thing um like rumors of us breaking up months ago again also not a real thing i feel like when we started dating, our first rumor was like we were in a PR relationship. So like we've been with these rumors our whole relationship.
So we didn't really give it a second thought. But I didn't want the gigglers to think like, oh, I was like leaving them out of the loop or something.
Like not at all. Like any time those rumors were happening, we were still together.
when we did break up like obviously I didn't run to social media and I didn't run to the pod like we both gave each other like a little time to deal with it on our own in private like with our family and friends and now I feel like it is appropriate to like be able to tell people um and so obviously I would come to the gigglers first I'm not like throwing up an adjoined Instagram post you know that's not how I'm gonna handle it but I love him I think he loves me I think we will remain friends no one did anything it wasn't like a bad thing I think we both were just being really mature and

saying what we want and what we didn't want and I think that's like extremely powerful to be able to voice like how you're feeling in real time and what you want for your future wow wow you're so fucking strong for being in a public relationship and putting yourself out there and you guys you both like fought really hard for this and wanting to make it work and i do have to say shout out to craig because reality tv dating is really hard and i remember when you found him he was the first guy who really like lifted you up and was so. Yeah, who like got me.
He got you. He was so proud of you for what you were accomplishing like on TV and off TV.
And you hadn't had a guy support you like that. He's a huge reason for like who you are in the last couple of years becoming who you are.
Oh, my God god what a thank you for saying that because i would have not even remember like been able to say that to the gigglers he truly helped me grow so much in these past three years like i am a different person than when i started dating him like i truly do feel like more mature more just like confident all of these things um and that's definitely like a tribute to him it's just like so weird to talk about it like it's just so weird it's also weird because we forget people listen to the pod and i think why we're nervous is we know more people will like listen in to get the tea yeah no that's what it is i'm like we know that it's non-gigglers listening and we Yes, because I'm like beta blocker episode. Like once I got into the story, I was like, girls, listen up.
This is like, I feel awkward because I don't want to say anything that can be like taken and misconstrued about him or about the breakup or any of it. To make this about me.
Yeah, please. What was hardest about it for me.
No, it was hard. What was hardest about this relationship was that there wasn't a smoking gun and i think the positive for like anyone who's listening right now is that relationships don't just end because there was a murder suicide like relationships don't just end because there's a sandoval or like something or he's you know doing fucked up things the hardest relationship i think to get out of is sometimes when you're like i love this person do i want to be with this partner forever and am i the same person i was four years ago and i think for anyone listening i love a breakup they're scary but they're empowering and i'm excited to see like where you both go from here.
And I just have to say of a lot of the guys that do reality TV, he's definitely one of the better ones that's crossed my path. No, he's definitely like the best boyfriend I've ever had.
Like I can truly say that. Like he was a great boyfriend and he did everything correct and he never made me feel insecure or anything like that.
And so it almost is harder when like no one's done anything to be mad about. And that's hard.
I have a lot of empathy for people who are on reality TV and dating. There's a reason why a lot of housewives are not in healthy relationships um and it's not for the weak no it's it's not for the weak and it's not even i think maybe like why i was so nervous to say it is because i try and like live my life and be like i don't care what people think about me.
And that's just not true. I care a freaking lot.
So like, don't get down on yourself when you're like, when people are like, oh, you care too much what people think. Like, okay, sorry.
Like, yeah, it's human nature. I want people to like feel good around me and like me and all of this.
So I think like also saying it publicly, I'm like, I feel mean, like I feel like a bad person, like because I know there's so many people that are like, how are you two not getting engaged? And like, how is this whatever? It's just like a tough thing. And it's a tough world to like be in and and I want to feel like

I'm being vulnerable and authentic specifically to the gigglers but I also want to be like classy about it and like say everything in the correct way because I don't want things to be misconstrued of like that we hate each other or that like something happened or whatever it's really just like two people growing and changing and like things that they want in their lives changing. And like, I feel like I've been very vocal on the pod about how I hated turning 30.
Like everyone around that had turned 30 was like, you're being dramatic. It's the same thing as 29.
And I really had like a problem with it. Probably because I'm like so vain and narcissistic but whatever I like just didn't like getting older I love being 32 I've never felt more myself than in this past year like me crying squad tour like even though giggly squad tour I had like my first panic attack ever and And that was the craziest time of my life.
I'm so like thankful for it because like the connection I feel like I formed with the Gigglers became even deeper. And I just felt like so myself this year.
I loved throwing myself into work. Like I loved doing everything I was doing.
And it was stressful and it was hard. But like I just felt very me.
me and it's so funny because four years ago if I told you what we did these last six months and what we created and what you push yourself through I don't think you would have believed me no I would have been like I'm staying in bed that sounds like a lot and also I think I think one of the things that I get like the most insecure about is I am 32 and so a lot. And also I think one of the things that I get like the most insecure about is I am 32.
And so a lot of times the rhetoric like online and directed at me is you're 32. Like shouldn't you pack it in and get married and like you're not a kid anymore.
And while I fully acknowledge I'm not a child, you also don't have to use the phrase pack it in when you're talking about the rest of your life as a woman. Let's stop with the word geriatric I've been seeing on WebMD.
Yeah. Like so if you're mad that I'm not mature enough to like get married and maturity, it's not maturity.
Then you yeah, then you don't get me at all. Like you can be 32 and decide to change the entire course of your life you don't have to get married and have a baby because you think you have to like you just because you're in your 30s does not mean you're running out of time you can choose to do whatever you want there were timelines back then and back then was very different when were not allowed to get a credit card until 1975 of course the only thing their only accomplishment that they were told to do was have a baby with the husband they met at 18 who took their virginity and they didn't know what any other dick felt like so they were stuck with that one dick right not to go on a rampage right now to make it sexual it does annoy me um when yeah people put timelines on people and i do have to say reality tv producers put timelines on you because they're kind of like what's your story this season can't be the same as last season what's the new story and sometimes relationships aren't like that and like obviously i don't control like what what happens on our shows or like what they show what they don't show what like storylines are like I'm just living my life and they're painting a picture around it so like I get that people are like oh it was always was she wasn't she moving but like that was my life sorry like I couldn't like move forward for you we both did not anticipate like the amount of passion we'd have for giggly squad and like your the stuff you have based in new york no giggly squad's my whole life we didn't anticipate it giggly squad is my whole life it's truly the only thing i care about like i love daphne but i love giggly squad and she's part of giggly squad so it's it's a venn diagram yeah can i say something controversial truly is you keep bringing up the beta blocker episode um i was told by a therapist who i've since fired no i'm just kidding i just like saying that but um that anxiety comes from when you feel like you're not being your authentic self you're not in alignment with what you should do and I remember during tour when you started having panic attacks thinking like this isn't because of the gigglers this isn't because you don't love performing this isn't because you don't love your outfit there's other stuff going on in your life that you're trying to figure out and you're feeling a little stuck and i think and i i don't think i like saw i like fully you were like i'm nervous about going on stage and i'm like no you're not like you never were yeah i just i didn't feel aligned like in myself and i'm someone that's very very in touch with my body like perfect example i know when i have a uti i know when i have a yeast infection like i've never had a pregnancy scare like i thought my favorite is when page cancels plans because she feels a uti coming on but that's real i know when they're coming on like i i will say i feel very in tune with like how my body feels and so like when my body does and this has happened to me in the past this isn't like the first time when my body does kind of like betray me in a moment i do know like oh fuck some i'm ignoring something so big and i'm trying to act like it's not a big deal and like yeah and to listen to your body like don't take it as like i'm fucked up take it as oh what is this message it's not just that you're gluten intolerant it's that your body's it's giving you that like fight or flight response and you're like what the fuck i'm just sitting here about to perform why am i treating this like a lion's chasing me but i also do think that in your 20s you date because you're like this guy's great i'm into him let's go and then as you approach 30 it becomes like I feel like you guys could have dated for a long time yes well people get so much more serious obviously in their 30s and people it you take it more seriously but that doesn't mean you're locked in like I just I feel like obviously the message I want to like send across to this episode is like giving the gigglers like information about my life of like what's going on so they're in the loop.
But also if you are in the same situation that I am in right now and you're in your 30s and you're like, but I'm so torn and I don't know what to do I this is the first time I've never had a plan or the first time I don't know what the next five years is like that's where you should be at like not everyone who's married and has kids feels like they know what the next five years of their life is or know what the plan is they just may know some of the people that might be around but they don't also know

like they're not better than you because they may seem like they have it all together because they're married and have children like you are worth just as much as a single 32 year old woman like you have thoughts ideas and things you want to do and like you don't have to put them in the back seat because your eggs might dry up in a little.

And then there's the thought of like on my end as someone who is married, I'm petrified of having kids and it slowing down everything that I've worked so hard to accomplish. where like I'm now having momentum

and I feel like if I have kids,

is it going to,

I'm going to lose my identity

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Let's get those nails looking fabulous, shall we? And I do have to say one other thing about reality TV is that why people love it is it's very like WWE. I was watching a documentary about WWE and it's funny because they would just like create storylines and they wouldn't know how the audience would react.
They just wanted the audience to react and they wanted to make it clear like who the villain was, who the good person is. And you can enjoy Southern Charm, Summer House, whatever, but just just know like on giggly squad there's it's not black and white there's not a villain there's not a good like this is two people who love each other and just like remember that they yeah these are two people who had an amazing experience with each other and actually to keep it on the bravo theme i remember one of my first ever interviews with was with margaret josephs on new jersey and she was telling me how she had a husband and then left him for like the contractor and i was like do you regret marrying your husband and she was like no and i was like but you fucked a contractor and she was like no because at that time in my life, he was perfect for me.
And he's exactly what I needed. And I love him to death.
And it was kind of this beautiful thing of, oh, my God, we're like taught like you wake up, you wake up, you come out of your mom's pussy, you wake up and you're searching for Prince Charming, which is everything we like talk about de-centering on this pod, which is not OK. Yeah.
And also that like you're not just going to find that one person there's going to be different people for different stages of your life honestly and this is like me being so truthful you will not hear me say a bad thing about craig i have nothing bad to say about him he truly let me feel all my feelings like go through like everything that like would pop into my head and I'm so beyond grateful for

that like his family his friends are like all amazing people yeah I just I stand with the the early 30s single girlies I love that for you um I also I feel like me and the single early 30s girls gigglerslers, just got exponentially. There's something very powerful about a girl who's single in her early 30s.
So yeah, I don't think the gigglers were expecting this type of episode. But here we freaking are.
Life comes at you so fast. I think one other thing that I'm really grappling with, and if anyone's going going through a breakup or like a change in career or anything, it's not that I love where my life is at.
Like I truly can say that like I wake up every morning and I really am like, okay, fuck yeah. Like I do, like I love my life.
I think it's more the fact that you have to come to terms with the fact that your life is not what you thought it would be, whether it's better or worse. It's just not what you thought it would be.
I truly do feel like my life is better than what I was imagining when I was 16 years old. Like, oh yeah, by 32.
Are you kidding? I'll have two kids. It's not that.
And that would have been amazing too. It's better.
but getting over the fact that it's not what you made up in your head is like kind of a thing you're not the person you were when you were seven years old and you were just taught from society what your life should be I mean I didn't think I'd be 33 married and like not in the mood for children like right have you ever seen a 33 year old in a movie when in the 90s they literally are like grandmas yeah like there was no thought in my mind that i would be like no i want to like work like if you told 16 year old page like no you're gonna be like i want to like work on my career i'd be like fuck that bitch pack it in take a nap but that just like i grew up to not be like that and i that i did not see that quote that like whenever you make a plan god laughs at it i think if we're gonna go back to something that's very giggly coded this reminds me of like the concept of karma and me and you always talk about this like when someone wrongs you you can like try to be like oh i'm gonna go revenge or this is what i'm gonna do natural karmic cycle that's gonna happen by you stepping back and focusing on yourself the universe is so much more creative than anything you could come up with you just put good energy into the world and watch it come back and that's how i feel with like your plans like we both put it out there that you know we want to express ourself we want to make people laugh we want to be kind we want to be creative and that's how giggly squad happened and when things don't match up with that that's okay because plans are a fucking social construct in your own little yeah teenager head I've been sending you a lot of inspirational quotes. You've been sending me a lot of inspirational things.
Now that we're getting into like our mental health moments, it's that the universe will keep sending you the same thing to see if you learned your lesson yet and it'll keep giving you the same result. And then once you can like get the balls to evolve and change and do the hard thing then good things will happen because if everyone could do the hard thing then everything would be easy but it's not the hard thing is hard and you did something really difficult and it was confusing yeah and I think like one of like which I'm like almost mad about myself was like saying it publicly because i was just like oh my god what are like people gonna like make like construe of this and like no so like i don't know whether to like laugh or cry or like and obviously like there are days where i'm just like what am i doing like who am i what do I want where am I going like and it's confusing and it's hard and I feel like people are just walking around acting like their 30s are so easy like here's a perfect example on how you and I are very different I feel like you're very vocal about how your 20s you were like I'm flailing I have no idea what the fuck's going on like you hated your 20s I loved my 20s could not have been more in my vibe in my 20s had a job I didn't really give a fuck about had so many fun friends all I did was party all I did was go out and go on dates like I didn't live at college I lived at home for college so like when I moved to New York I really felt like I was like finding myself I loved my 20s my 30s have been a little bit more difficult than I had planned well because you have to start taking responsibility for some shit how dare you in my breakup episode during my breakup sorry that was so out of pocket i'm so you're gonna come at me during my freaking breakup episode no that was so fucked up i'm sorry i need to apologize no but no no no you actually made a good point because things like in my 20s that I would be like insecure about, I feel like I've really in my 30s had to be like, it's enough.
Like and enough with being like insecure about that, like deal with that, like and move on. And one of the things in my 20s was like, oh my God, what if I didn't have a boyfriend? And like, what if no one wanted to marry me? And like then i loved having a boyfriend in my 20s yeah and so like and now in my 30s i'm like why are you so fucking insecure about that wow you've been meeting with energy healers you i i was just gonna say the girlies that are going through breakups i've been doing the work the stuff i've been putting in the time i've been seeing my energy healers i've seen two psychics i'm obsessed with that i'm like do i start reiki you're about to get a degree from harvard you're gonna start you're doing pilates again every day i mean you already have bangs that should have been a sign actually i did start working i did start working out again because i was like i need some like natural dope i always say that breakups are like when you get fired from a job, which, you know, is my favorite hobby, because whenever you leave something, you level up.
Like if you're a corporate girly, the way you get a big raise is by leaving that job for the next job and then you just keep growing. And I do think there's this crazy time in your 20s where first you're just like, oh, are fun what can I get who can I see who can I be with and then when you realize that the wrong person is actually like so much worse than you being single then you start having this mentality of like okay I love me I don't like me with the wrong person and I love me with the right person.
And that's when you start being smart. I traumatized myself in my twenties.
I traumatized myself. If anyone knew me in my twenties or knew any of the guys that I dated in my twenties, then you know that I traumatized myself.
And so I think like when I got out of my previous relationship and I was single and I met Craig, like I was like, I finally figured it out. Like I'm going to be with someone that like loves the fuck out of me.
And I'm going to like it's good. This is all like happening the way it's supposed to be.
And I don't think I realized that I didn't give myself time to like get over those men in my 20s and like be alone. You Craig to like heal those and that's not his job yeah I think I looked at him to like heal certain things that I like on why I dated who I dated like yes there are some girls that just like pop out of the womb and they're confident I was not one of them like maybe in my teens I was confident because I didn't know any better.
Maybe as a two month old when my skin was perfect. When I peaked at four years old on the Easy Bake Oven.
Yeah, that was my freaking time. I was at my goal weight of 72 pounds.
But like, no, I think I was I probably got my most insecure when I was like 19 or 20 I dated like a really physically and mentally abusive man and it changed my whole course of like dating in my 20s and so then I looked for like chaos and I looked for like pure just like adrenaline and emotion and I like, this is so fun and this is so crazy.

And like, so I would get out of one bad relationship

and get into like a slightly better one,

but like by standards, very bad.

And I just like filled this pattern until I was like 26,

thought I was dating someone that like,

okay, this is like normal.

And I was like, no, this is not like,

I can't do this either.

And so it's hard to not look at yourself as a girl and be like, maybe I am the problem. Maybe it is me.
And in part, like, yes, it was definitely like people I would pick in the past. Like I put myself in a lot of situations, but also at a lot of times it wasn't my fault.
Like it truly wasn't. Like I was just vibing and people were fucked up.
So like it wasn't my fault like it truly wasn't like I was just vibing and people were fucked up so like it wasn't my fault and so to be in my early 30s and like be like hey bitch you're fine like I'm thankful for like I I don't regret any part any of my relationships because I would have never learned certain things about myself and I don't even know if I've like ever even said that on the pod that like I was in like an abusive relationship before but like I feel like if I'm gonna say it this is like the episode I would say it because I'm I know for a fact a ton of other girls have been in them too now crying again don't cry it was definitely like a very weird time of my life it was I was 19 I was 20 years I couldn't legally drink. And it really did change a lot of like how I looked at relationships.
I'd never been exposed to that ever. I never thought that that could be me.
I never like I would hear people say like, oh, you get like brainwashed. And I'm like, there's just no way.
And I was fully brainwashed. Like I didn't even until I got out of that, like I didn't even know that know that person and obviously I don't think about that now because it was like over 10 years ago but that was one of your first relationships like yeah and so it definitely changed a lot of like how I dated and I'm not like ashamed I used to be very ashamed of it like I would never tell anyone And I'm not ashamed of it at all because I'm really proud of myself on how I handled it and how I handled it afterward and I'm proud of myself on like talking about it and letting girls know like it can literally happen to anyone like I feel like a lot of gigglers see me as like very confident and it's like but it also happened to me that doesn't mean make you not confident no but guys like that go for confident women they try to find confident women that they can bring down and manipulate or groom and it was never your fault if anything you were shining so bright he wanted to dim your light and sometimes a relationship like that you don't know but you're coping with it by trying to convince yourself that like you can handle that or that it did like i'm not a therapist i don't know the extent of it but it's like i know that i was going for guys who were not emotionally available because i wasn't emotionally available because i didn't want to get hurt because i wanted to protect myself and long story short is like thank you for being so vulnerable and open because you don't have to give us any of this information no but you know what I do it's not that I feel like I have to give it to the gigglers but like here's one thing about me I am loyal and protective and I'll be damned if I was gonna see online people coming at the gigglers and being like you don't know what's going on with page like and the gigglers being like yeah we do like yes the gigglers will always fucking know first what's going on with me if they've been listening like they know that it's been this like this thing of you being busy and and your career and what you're trying to prioritize and also like yeah you j, you joked a lot about him, but it shows like how nice of a guy Craig is that like he loves when you make fun of him.
He loves the banter. And that was part of like the fun of your relationship.
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People also don't factor in, yeah, the third lens that's in the relationship which is the the public eye wait I

there was a new giggler that dm'd me and he's like hey I'm a new giggler I'm a guy but I'm gay like where do I stand in this and I'm like oh my god you missed the episode you're a giggler you're actually very important in the giggler you're actually really high up on the hierarchy So we need you.

We need you in these streets.

How do you feel?

I feel like the last piece of the puzzle was like saying it out loud like I haven't said it to literally anyone like nobody knows this like my family and like my very very close friends know this but nobody else and so I think like the last part for me was like saying it to the gigglers and and like seeing what like what would come out of my mouth when I said it to the gigglers because I was like this is something I can't like can't like I'm not like rehearsing what I'm gonna say but also like I want to be thoughtful and like organic yeah and it's not gonna be cut up for a three-minute scene right and so I I'm like thankful for the gigglers for like knowing me and like knowing me at my core and so and like giving me the space to be able to say like how i truly feel without feeling like so judged even though i know there's like a lot of non-gigglers probably listening to this right now which like happy to have you thank you for the engagement also you may be a giggler if you like to make fun of yourself. Stay, swipe up.
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Which we actually do get into a lot more deeper stuff in the book. But I do think with you, this is important for the gigglers because anything moving forward that you speak on, like, they have to know what you you've been through and they have to know every single part of the journey so that we all can understand each other and I do think like Paige of four years ago wouldn't have done this no here's another thing for the gigglers yeah every time I do something in my life thinking back like would 25 year old Paige even believe this no she would have ran away so fucking quick or she would have just like been gone with the flow she was such a go with the flow girl and so like there is a sense of like I'm really proud of myself for like being like how do you feel okay that's how you feel what do you want to do about it okay that's what you want to do like then we're gonna do it and then like doing it seeing it through and then being like and you came out the other side and like you are fine like every crazy scenario you made up in your head whether it happened or it didn't like you're fine and I think that's like something if any giggler needs to hear that like you are fine you're going to going to be fine.
He's going to be fine. Like, why am I crying the entire episode? No, you cried this whole pod.
Also, this could be totally off and this might not pertain to you, but could pertain to other people. But I was thinking about like when you're in a relationship where someone treats you horribly and does not respect you, the way to cope is to not yourself yeah i wasn't in that i still like loved myself i wasn't in that but yeah and like then when you get treated badly in the future you're just like well i don't care because it's fine it's not a big deal i i'm not you're not hurting me this has to do with friendships if you're in a place right now that you're not happy you do not have to stay in it and you're not selfish you're not being a bitch because like next week you could be in a different room with all different people and having a completely different experience than you were this that was your biggest fear you've always been so afraid of change yeah i've always been really afraid of change my last boyfriend when we broke up I was like I'm so happy I can laugh about it now I was like so terrified that none of my friends would stay friends with me like I felt like they were going to be so mad at me that I was like breaking up with this guy and and that I wasn't ever going to be able to go out anymore I wasn wasn't going to be invited anyplace.
And I definitely lost some friends.

Like I had some friends truly do that.

And it was not as bad as I thought it was going to be.

I think that was the biggest takeaway.

People who would leave that easy.

Right.

I was like, oh, you don't fuck with me anymore.

Great.

I've been not fucking with you.

Any scenario that you've created in your head that you're like, that's going to be the worst.

Even if it plays out, it's not as bad as like you thought it was gonna be in your head oh my god thank god i have a kitty again thank god i got a fucking cat i'm because her just purring on my chest i'm like the world's okay life is worth living i do have to say if you guys are having a rough time

go to your local adoption shelter find the cutest fucking kitten in there take it and pretty much 98 of your problems will be solved and that's just science that's just science we didn't plan this by the way um because we don't do admin i thought you were going to come on say kind of a simple statement me too yeah okay yeah this took a turn i thought i was gonna say like a quick hit and then we were gonna resume the episode like normal but i just couldn't i couldn't go into like blake lively justin baldoni what's going on what's going on like i, I don't actually have the mental capacity to read any of those articles, watch any of the videos because I'm dealing with my own trauma right now. But truly I did not expect, I certainly didn't expect to tell everyone about my 19 year old boyfriend, but it feels right.
Like it felt like this episode felt organic. And if we learned anything from this episode if you enjoy giggly squad because you you enjoy the comedy you now realize it's because both of us um have dark dark demons and that's not great over here we're only sarcastic because we've had major trauma that we will not unpack we refuse and it's for the good of the gigglers

because we would not be this funny unpack your trauma is page venting to me on a pot of me going you're so right you're literally so right now let's go back to being stupid sorry that this is like right before i didn't want to ruin your i didn't want to ruin everyone's Christmas but like I will ruin your New Year's Eve

Imagine

Someone goes I can't

Cause Greg and B i didn't want to ruin your i didn't want to ruin everyone's christmas but like i will ruin your new year's eve i can't because craig and page i don't believe in love anymore also guys stop with that i can't with the like i don't believe in love anymore when a relationship fall apart that like you don't know anything about they were very good looking together we all can acknowledge that and let's let's not project that onto them. I think this is a cool ending.
That was cool. Thank you so much for going through this journey with me and letting me be able to like freely speak and not worry about like how it's going to be edited, how it's going to be cut up, like what people are going to say about it, what like who did what, like all the speculation.
Thank you for giving me this platform of like all of these amazing gigglers to it's truly therapeutic for me to like say how i feel and what i'm going through and know that there's girls out there that like whether they take like a minute of this to like relate to or a second of it like i'm thankful for it and just thank you and i love you all we love you guys so much thank you for

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